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Hey, so for anyone thinking about starting T, I know thereās a lot of info and warnings about side effects to consider, but it also really helps to hear from actual trans folks too! It felt super intimidating to me when I started but itās been great so far. Iāll share the changes Iāve seen after one month under the cut for anyone who is interested! (For reference Iām on the lowest dose of the gel)
First change I noticed was my smell! I wouldnāt say my BO is worse or anything, I just smell a lot different when I sweat and I do find myself sweating a bit more
Fat redistribution! Itās very subtle so far but my face is definitely changing. My cheeks are less round and my chin is a bit more defined. I canāt tell as much with the rest of my body bc I wasnāt that curvy to start with
On the note of fat redistribution, Iāve actually lost some weight. This is probably far more specific to me and genetic factors but it is something Iāve noticed.
Attraction. Iām still very much bisexual and into women and non-binary people, but my attraction to men has skyrocketed. Especially like big, burly, hairy men. That or femboys, thereās no inbetween lol.
In general starting to find masculine qualities a lot more desirable. Considering getting a packer which is not something I thought I would like before. I think the act of transitioning is allowing me to open my mind more to what I want.
Sex drive. Holy shit this is the biggest change. They are not joking about the T horniness. It can be quite distracting at times which is really the only downside Iāve experienced. Even still, I prefer how I feel now to how I did before.
Slightly more breakouts. They warned me about seeing acne in the first few months, but honestly I donāt feel like itās been that bad. Plus itās a little affirming because it means the hormones are working! Again this is one thatās probably specific to me
Assertiveness. I know they warn you about the potential of becoming more aggressive, but as my doctors told me, itās actually more that you have a lower tolerance for bullshit. Obviously if you do become genuinely aggressive/very angry you should get your dose adjusted. But for me itās just been making me slowly more assertive in a way I like. It does mean I occasionally have to hold my tongue about things so I donāt say something Iāll regret. But this has been a huge plus for me overall.
Mood/crying. I would say my mood has been better overall. Probably because I feel very affirmed in my gender as I start to change. I also have moved out of my parentsā place and am living on my own so I imagine that has helped too. Iāve heard some people say they canāt cry as much and I have experienced a bit of that. When Iām reading or watching something my eyes might well up but they donāt roll tears. The only time Iāve cried since I started on it was when I injured myself (unrelated) and had a panic attack. But I canāt say for sure if itās the T or itās just that I am happier and have better coping skills than I used to. I will say itās not my immediate stress response anymore, but I donāt feel like my emotions are pent up or anything.
Voice. This one is hard to say for sure because I had a cold recently that opened up my chest register a little more. Any changes are very subtle so far but I do find my resting pitch seems lower than when I started (Iāve been trying to do those āthis is my voice day x on Tā videos to track it. Iām terrible at remembering)
Cycle. My period has been coming a bit later each month and the pain seems to be getting a bit less intense. Again this one will be very specific to the user.
Bottom growth. Only a very very small amount. I only noticed because I was watching for it. What Iāve experienced more so is increased sensitivity which I feel is a positive.
Most importantly: Iāve been very very happy! I get occasional dysphoria but oftentimes when I look in the mirror I just smile because I can see myself becoming who I want. I feel more confident, I feel hot, and I really truly love myself through each step of the journey.
Obviously thereās a lot to consider, but if you feel like it could be something you want to try and your health is in a place where you can do so, do it! I am lucky to have a great clinic working with me who were very informative (and helped me apply for coverage when I didnāt have insurance!). Iām happy to pass along any online resources theyāve sent me if anyone is interested. Remember, you can always stop if you decide itās not right for you or youāve achieved the changes you want to see. Itās a personal journey and itās entirely up to you. I found it all overwhelming when I was first considering it and I wish I would have had more people to talk to about what it really feels like. Hopefully this can help demystify it for anyone who is curious about what itās like. We all deserve to craft ourselves into the person we want to be. š³ļøāā§ļø
#transition#transgender#trans masc#testosterone#transition journey#one month on T#hopefully this is helpful to someone?#I personally like to know as much as possible before I make a decision#so I hope this will make the process seem less intimidating for anyone considering it#trans man#lgbtqia#fig yaps
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literally begging for soldier boyās fingers in my mouth, like just needing him to get so huffy and annoyed cause i wonāt stop talking. so he just stuffs āem in my mouth with a firm āshut up ān suckā with that smug fucking look on his face !!!!
#*ą©ā©ā§āĖ fig yaps#need them in my mouth please and thank you#soldier boy#soldier boy imagine#soldier boy drabble#soldier boy x reader
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Rewatching Sophomore Year and I want to rip my hair out because what do you mean Fig desperately wanted to have healthy open relationships but kept falling into toxic habits and she got possessed and her guilt fed into her insecurities and made her spiral once again. And she didn't know that her and Ayda's love was already on its way through time and space since the dawn of time.
#the lovers of all time fr i am gonna scream#sophomore year is everything to me i love it so much#fantasy high#figayda#fig faeth#ayda aguefort#fantasy high sophomore year#d20#dimension 20#yapping time
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rip my wallet
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if only writing itafushi was a full time job
#musings after spending 3 hours debugging code only to find out that 1) i was looking for the error in the wrong file and#2) the bug was just. +1. all i had to do was delete +1#anyways wish writing yaoi gave me a six fig salary but alas i must chain myself to the corporate machine and like shit python or whatever#if there any rich itafushi enthusiast who wanna would like to sponsor me my dms are open /lh#itafushi#sunny yaps#ao3
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having insane thoughts about ayda aguefort again (she loses her memory every regeneration) (thereās a chunk of time where we donāt know how she lived her life) (garthy is the only one who cared for her in this lifetime) (now fig cares for her too) (what happens if ayda dies before fig) (fig taking care of newborn ayda as her child) (ayda and fig falling in love [parental] in every timeline)
i am totally normal about the relationships in fantasy high!
#dimension 20#fantasy high#fantasy high sophomore year#fantasy high junior year#ayda aguefort#fig faeth#figueroth faeth#fig x ayda#yapping
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Sandra Lynn mentioned in the finale I won we won complicated women won
#fhjy spoilers#d20#fantasy high#fhjy#dimension 20#fantasy high junior year#esme yaps#sandra lynn faeth#figeroth faeth#fig faeth
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people will think im ordinary until they say one (1) thing about tmnt and all of a sudden im explaining the entire lore starting from the 1990ās movie & why donatello is the best turtle i fearā¦ T^T
tag limit fights meā¦ i must yapā¦ please listenā¦ SOB </3
#tmnt yap in the taggies !!#would you believe me if i said my cat is named after donnieā¦ teehee !! ^_^#i have been a tmnt lover since i was the ripe age of 6 years old SOBSOB#i used to write bf headcanons on wattpad way long agoā¦ thats where my love for writing started i fearā¦#i probably have more tmnt merch than i do anime merch which is soso crazy to think about PHEW !!!#notebooks cups plushies legos shirts pajamas stickers tins action figs keychains name something and i have itā¦ is that weirdā¦ SOB#im not joking when i say i know the entire lore and could explain everything from start to finishā¦ FOR EACH AND EVERY REBOOT EVERā¦. wowzaā¦#other than rottmnt because iāve never been a fan of that reboot sighā¦#the only reason donatello hamato isnt on my blorbie list is because i do not want to seem out of touchā¦ he used to be there though !! :3#also i love raph too sigh#i fear donnie was my start to my love for nerdy menā¦ raph was for the mean onesā¦ cough cough akaashi and bakugo#tall lanky menā¦ yeah hes a turtleā¦ i knowā¦ let me speakā¦ plsā¦ i begā¦ T^T#tmnt 2012 will always be my star my light my beloved#i can recite every single episode </3 ALSO THE 2014 & 2017 MOVIES DONT GET ME STARTED i have them on dvd :3#i also have the 1990ās movies on dvd teehee theyre sososososoo good T^T my comfort franchise forever and always#i may always speak of anime but just know tmnt will always be the start of it all and my most beloved <3 its everything to me#also i was and still am an avid tmnt 2012 april oneil hater someone get her out of there i loathe her >:/#was never a supa big fan of leo im very sorryā¦ idk who im sorry toā¦ where are my tmnt fansā¦ am i alone in this worldā¦ helloā¦ tmnt fansā¦#omigosh im back after looking at my old wattpad story IM GIGGLING why was the writing kinda goodā¦ it was first person though sighā¦ goodness#i should create my own tmnt yap tag i fearā¦ i will never shut up about it EVER SOBSOBSOB !! i even had a tmnt party when i was younger </3#donnie ( & mikey ) are so misunderstood UGH i could yap about the lore all day. donnie deserved more recognition he was always doing so muc#FOR ALL of his brothers and they never appreciated itā¦ ill cry right now. donnie you will always be famous to me. april doesnt deserve you.#raph and his temper are so misunderstood too like please. always making him the bad guy HE JUST WANTS TO BE A GOOD BROTHER HES JUST AWKWARD#remembering when i had a crush on a guy names joseph in first grade and he liked tmnt tooā¦ joseph just know we were soulmatesā¦ i promise </#i used to go up to the tv and kiss the screen when donnie showed up. i was like 6 years old tho its okayā¦ still sleep with my stuffie tho.#thank you to my yaya for buying me that when i had the flu hes still in perfect condition SOB donatello i love you so much UGH im crying#āthats a mutant turtle ew !!ā HE IS VERY BEAUTIFUL AND LOVEABLE TO ME. YOU WOULDNT UNDERSTAND EVERYPONY </3 nia reference woah hi nia :3#whos in favor of tmnt. raise your hands up high so i can see them. im giggling. tmnt lovers rise we shaāll prosperā¦ WE RIDE AT DAWN š¦
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#is this like totally crazy of meā¦ has anyone read this farā¦ if you have jusy know i love you. i cherish you. you are my everything <3#āį¢..į¢ā ā leneās latest gossip .į
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the little gap when a horse relaxes their face and their bottom lip hangs down
mentally i am here
#decided to have my coffee and breakfast under the fig tree w the dogs and miss mare said āoh we napping in the shade??ā#and didnt wait for an invitation lmao#i love her#hel beasts#hel yaps
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credit to @petalprincessxoxo for the idea
#fig tree#the bell jar#sylvia plath#the fig tree analogy#alternative#moots#my figs#collage#made with canva#fyp#aesthetic#girlblogger#this is what makes us girls#this is a girlblog#this is girlhood#lacey yaps
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my darling fig tree <3
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Transitioning is bringing me amazing gender euphoria but itās also occurring to me that thereās something really lonely about it? Like, sometimes Iāll see stories about trans women coming out and the women in their life are really positive, offering to help them with makeup, pass on femme clothing, etc. Stories like that warm my heart. And sometimes I really wish I had that from the men around me.
Itās not that they arenāt accepting, they very much are. Theyāre trying to use my pronouns (except the old ones who are basically pretending they donāt know). But I still always feel like they see me as more similar to a woman than to themselves. Maybe itās because I identify as nonbinary as opposed to being a trans man. But I am transitioning to look more masculine and all that entails. They hear me refer to myself as a boy/man all the time. I still know theyād never call me son/brother/etc. unless I specifically told them to, and even then it would be fumbling (itās been multiple years at this point. They still slip up on a regular basis and call me she).
I know I need to be patient with people, that they probably donāt see the subtle changes the way I do. Theyāve been referring to me one way for 20+ years. Itās going to take time to get out of that habit. I know too that when the time comes I can ask them about shaving my face and all that and theyāll be willing to help. I am accepted. I just often feel that Iām not seen. And thatās really hard. I want to have that feeling of a community rallying around me to help me as I create myself. But suddenly Iām not a woman anymore and Iām not a man either. And as much as itās what I wanted, there are times where it feels really isolating.
#trans#transition#trans man#trans masc#nonbinary#afab nonbinary#not to get melancholy on main butā¦#it makes me a little sad#fig yaps#rambles
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obsessed with the idea of making soldier boy a dad, letting him fuck a baby into you and giving him that loving mushy family bullshit heās been dreaming of his whole life. away from vought. away from supes. just you, him and your kid together. happy.
#*ą©ā©ā§āĖ fig yaps#soldier boy#need to make him a daddy SO bad#soldier boy imagine#soldier boy smut#soldier boy x reader
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Emily Axford truly is a wonder. I can't help but fall in love with any character she plays because che is just so sincere and open in her approach.
She reaches so deep and she manages to transform so quickly in her character. It's really insane how she can go from pure chaos to the rawest most emotional moment in the blink of an eye and always feel so sincere and true to the character.
One of the things I love the most about her is how ready she is to interact and communicate with any other character. The way she asks questions and makes conversations happen and the moment she is called to the scene she will always answer readily and build on everything that is given to her.
I truly am in awe of her whenever I see her perform and I am also just utterly smitten with her.
#yapping time#i am a simple lesbian#and she is one of the most beautiful women i have ever seen ? and she is also smart and funny and so kind and sweet?!??#murph is fr the luckiest man alive like#emily axford#d20#dimension 20#ylfa snorgelsson#fig faeth#jet rocks#chirp featherfowl#sophia lee#fantasy high#the unsleeping city#acoc#acofaf#neverafter
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dialogue from season 3 episode 2
#fig faeth#fig fantasy high#gorgug thistlespring#gorgug fantasy high#fantasy high#fantasy high junior year#fhjy#my art#my comics#trying to enter the world of comics#its. its fine. this is a fine comic#i have a gorgug and fabian one in the works#i like doing their full outfits at the end even though it doesnt matter#gorgug outgrew his pants#i hc that fig cut his hair once at the beginning of summer and it turned out a solid 4/10 so now hes just growing it out#gotta decide his hair length for sy. its short for fy#enough yapping thank youuu
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fig āmaybe my god is kristenā faeth and riz āthe only character who can take stress tokens for other charactersā gukgak you mean the world to me.
#dimension 20#ouh my god like figs whole thing is just wanting to help#shoot me#shoot me now#aster yaps
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