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sunnyside-shifter · 8 days ago

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Uh. Hi I was the Anon, I am about to answer but it got very long so I am putting a break (do not feel pressured to even bother reading, but know that I very much appreciate your help. I am not too good at introspection, I’ll be honest.)

Would you feel happy if someone actively looked at you and made a comment on how you look? Let's say positive for this situation, to not bring in any excess feelings. Something like "I like your hair.Your hands are nice. You're pretty tall."

Truthfully, I am unsure how to answer this question. But I think yes-? (especially on height, not sure why). But also the thought of being perceived is frightening. If they like my hands though… I also like my hands. They are very helpful.

How do you consider feeling tempature?Confusing lk but is there a sense of self in it?Do you have a deeper understanding of the sense of warmth and cold, or is it merely an event you're capable of feeling?

I like the cold… But I also love love love the sun, she’s what makes plants grow and what keeps us alive. (And this is a little weird mayhaps, but I saw you mentioning being light and my brain kind of. Yeah. Now you’re just liquid sun to my brain.)

I like the crippling cold and the crippling heat, where tundra plants thrive and where desert-bound plants thrive. I hate the mundane, the average. But I do not hate the ‘average plants’ (no plant is average).

It is a sense of both, it is subconscious how I react but also conscious. I suspect it has to do with the current mindset. (If I am angry I will not notice it besides subconsciously).

Do you even notice it or does your body react by itself? How do you feel when you look in the mirror or in your general reflection? Does it feel familiar? Weird? Kind? Hostile?Confusing? Unsettling? Wrong?Welcoming?

This changes a lot. Typically it is a vague feeling of wrong wrong wrong, but sometimes it is familiar. Sometimes I see my hands and think yes, these are for plants. They can nurture them like no other. And I’ll see my hair and it’s made for birds, to keep their chicks warm in the winter. But then if I think too hard, about my features being permanent and unchanging, I feel utter fear. I avoid thinking about it too hard, but I do enjoy the humanness of it all. No other creatures have hands that can nurture so well.

Would you say you have a species? As in, are there others like you? No matter if you know yet or not.. is there someone else you can truly call some distant relative?

Truthfully, you (a being of light, of energy and of Other) are the closest I have found? This might be weird (I sincerely apologize if it is, I can delete this part if it is) but you are about as close as I have found to a ‘species’. Although I do not feel animal (most days). I think it is because we are both in such a permanent flux, that I feel distantly like- similar to you?(but not quite. You are light and energy and Other and I am… I have no idea still.)

Would you enjoy to be free from the chains of society and simply frolic in the woods? (Most say yes so, continue with: what specifically do you not like about humanity or other people, where exactly would you want to live if your body didn't get in the way, what biome feels like home (no matter if you can survive there or not. Planets, underwater, super high, fantasy world, different countries.., how would you prefer to be able to move? Simply exist or to zoom around or run on all fours or have hundreds of little legs or fly?)

YES. It takes my willpower sometimes to not disappear. I want to live in the woods. I want to have wings wings wings as large as the entire sky and hover. I need to fly. It is a crippling urge. One day I will learn to hang glide. I want to live in the woods, I want to make a meadow appear out of thin air in a place crippled by drought. I want to have thousands of plants live because they simply wanted too. I want the sun to be a permanent fixture in the sky, like coming home in the long, everlasting woodlands. (What I am afraid of is that this feeling is new. Yes, I have had crippling want to run run run and to fly. But I have never wanted to do anything in my power to get it. I have never been afraid of permanence, but lately the thought of being trapped cripples me, and fills be with a fear that matches no other.)

If you could assign yourself a singular emotion, or perhaps a handful, to be perceived as - what would you choose? (For someone to look at you and immediately consider you something, or even be invoked to feel something)

I think… curiosity? Yeah. Curiosity, the urge to live, and the need to wander. Yeah? I want somebody to look at me, look at my hands and feel curious about their own hands. What else can their hands do? I want them to feel curious about the world, why does the sun turn? What does this mean? What.what.what.

I want somebody to have a crippling determination to live. I want them to think that they are deserving, even if they have wronged or been wronged. I want them to see that being redeemable is to live. To live is to try.

And I want people to feel that curiosity to wander. To explore the depths of their own mind, maybe to explore their house to it’s fullest where they may have not seen or touched before. To go into the woods and create their own dirt-path.

Are you happy with what you can eat? Vegetables, fruit, grains, sweets, yummy chemicals, bread.. or do you want to try those things that you can't? Rocks, glass, oil, leaves, sea water, sponges, plastic, wood.. (this also is on the verge of being related to pica but them urges can go into a different lifetime or something more!!)

I am unsure. Food is a weird thing? I do like food. But I do not like meat… I stick to eat veggies (or tofu… lots of tofu). I like to eat plants, like I love to grow them. I do not feel bad about it. I think maybe I should, but I do not (and that’s okay, too me. There is some reason I do not feel bad but I cannot figure it out, yet.)

Do you feel that you're not at home here? That you were home once but now you're on earth and here that it just feels odd and strange? (Well lucky you, your soul has been reborn! This doesn't mean you must have past memories of some other lifetime (although some do! But that's vague and sometimes influenced by this life's experiences) and often times the soul is just homesick for something it can't remember. It can't feel ready yet when it is still so young in relation to everything. Stimulation is a game of the mortal mind, and yet the soul craves fulfilment. It needs to be heard, seen, acknowledged. Sometimes it has a plan of what it should be but is still trapped in its own past. You have an idea of what you should be but you're not ready to accept your current reality, and being a teenager is especially hard with how many people try shut down the voice of the soul, and yet it still acts out. It can be through strange urges, being overly emotional, having strange ideas youre not sure where they originated from, random triggers, perhaps even some kind of stuff that you just can't define - like an altered mental state where you prioritises and focus changes)..

My house is home. But so is everywhere else? But cities are not my home. Suburbs are my home, or they can be. The woods are my own. That little crevice between the tree roots could be my home. I could live anywhere I have the survival skills. And I want to live everywhere. Looking through a thousand lenses but without vision.

(And off topic but I appreciate that question. How you wrote it is very pretty. Like hope)

if you could fluctuate between being seen and invisible, would you? Perhaps even more like some essence, a ghoul/spirit/ ghost/felt presence? Maybe be a state of pure light or darkness? Have another material take over you and just disguise yourself as any ordinary thing (living or not..

I think I would prefer to be fluctuating between visible and invisible. I could hide in somebody’s garden and grow their plants. I could be visible and help somebody with their homework. (although the thought of being inconceivable to people has me… curious(?). I do think I would like to interact with them, but not as myself. As something else that I cannot identify right now.

Do you feel happy being seen as something but not neccesarily being it? Like, for someone to consider you an animal or person or item, but actually being something differently?

being seen as something I do not think I am fills me with a sort of rage. (Mad that they did not listen when I told them who I am/was/will be? I believe that is what it is. If I have told you what I am/was/will be, that is what I am/was/will be.) I want to be seen as Me, in a sense. I do not want to be seen as something I am not.

Would you change your body or mind if you could? Add some limbs, remove something, alter yourself, add a pattern, an ability such as breathing underwater, flying (wings or not), being immune to wounds, etc.. does it have any other explanation apart from "just would be Neat”?

Wings. I want wings. I want wings that can change to anything, any type of wings. I want a tail, a long prehensile thing with a fan on the end to absorb sunlight. I want to be able to transform into animals, but always have wings.

now concepts.. although I did try prompt that possibility with prior questions, it is hard, but here are some categories you can focus on: Elements, Colours, Emotions, Shapes, Processes, Sound, Smell, Feelings, Sensations, Ideas, Man-made things, objects, characteristic. Perhaps some specifics? Nature, life, death, rebirth, exploration, extinction, happiness, confusion, rot, skyscrapers, meaningless purpose, childish curiosity, watcher, growth, electricity, roaring/roars, warm water, crunchy items (leaves,snow,crisps,sand), an aquatic creature leaving its shell to move into a bigger one, a mammal caught in a trap, a rodent stuck in glue, pink car, a kid stealing their parents money, a squeaky door, the feelings of holding a baby for the first time, etc etc etc.

…Nature, growth, the Sun and exploration. Rot. Those concepts make me very… curious? Intrigued. I want to learn about them until there is nothing more to know.

what's your purpose here for? What do you personally feel inclined to do? What do you want to find and how do you want to accomplish true fulfilment and happiness? Where do you grow most?

I feel like I must grow all of the plants. I see a place void of life, animals or not and an urge to plant and to place seeds and to help orphaned animals survive. It is weird.

(I feel like none of this is permanent, as well. I will wake up one day and everything will have changed. I used to be obsessed with the sky, I would die for wings. I would do anything for wings. (I mean I still would, the urge is there but… less).

I am afraid that I will forget. I might forget how to care for plants, even though I know I can do it so well, and that they will die.)

I used to think I was a faerie of some sort- a nymph, maybe. But it doesn’t feel right.

I apologize if this is super long. (Also thank you thank you thank you, this is so helpful. I’m in school so I have lots of time to think about… this.) I am genuinely forever grateful that you answered the ask- you have asked me questions I did not even consider. Thank you thank you thank you /gen.

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hiiii!

Questions! (about Otherkin, because I cannot for the life of me find any labels matching my experience. (although what you have in this blog is... quite fitting)

Anyways, hi! So I am Human(but not), but I am also an Animal(but, also, not). What am I??? I am everything and also nothing at once. Is this like a Shapeshifter? Or a FluidForm? (No pressure to answer this ask, I'm just mildly losing my mind)

I totally understand you and I would’ve loved if you got a notification for this but alright, listen..

going off the details you gave me, you consider yourself possibly both human and animal yet also don’t feel like you fit them, and perhaps it is something of the concept nature (conceptkin are as it says, concepts and ideas in a physical form. Some are fine being seen as human or animal and some hate being in a body. But there are thousands upon thousands of various concepts that could allow you to feel at home, or identify as, because although knowing yourself isn’t a necessity to exist, it’s still nice to think in this direction if other variables aren’t helping)!

Ofcourse, you could be formless. That’s an entire possibility of just simply not having a proper physical form and yet trying to convince yourself you must choose one, because unless you properly feel present, you may be apart of the souls such as I which just exist. There’s nothing wrong wit plainly being here, if you have a form or not. Some like to present as a creature, like I mentioned, but it’s never a strict rule.

Alterhumanity is for everyone! Any experiences, all sorts of beliefs, and I’m glad I can help people out with their own problems or questions, just an understanding view on the community and how varied some minds and souls are is enough to have thousands of possibilities to what we can be! It’s fine to not know, just be comfortable for now, and if you have a burning desire to know.. then study yourself.

HERE ARE SOME QUESTIONS YOU CAN ASK YOURSELF TO BETTER KNOW YOU (warning, there’s alot):

Would you feel happy if someone actively looked at you and made a comment on how you look? Let’s say positive for this situation, to not bring in any excess feelings. Something like “I like your hair. Your hands are nice. You’re pretty tall.”

How do you consider feeling tempature? Confusing Ik but is there a sense of self in it? Do you have a deeper understanding of the sense of warmth and cold, or is it merely an event you’re capable of feeling? Do you even notice it or does your body react by itself?

How do you feel when you look in the mirror or in your general reflection? Does it feel familiar? Weird? Kind? Hostile? Confusing? Unsettling? Wrong? Welcoming?

Would you say you have a species? As in, are there others like you? No matter if you know yet or not.. is there someone else you can truly call some distant relative?

Would you enjoy to be free from the chains of society and simply frolic in the woods? (Most say yes so, continue with: what specifically do you not like about humanity or other people, where exactly would you want to live if your body didn’t get in the way, what biome feels like home (no matter if you can survive there or not. Planets, underwater, super high, fantasy world, different countries..), how would you prefer to be able to move? Simply exist or to zoom around or run on all fours or have hundreds of little legs or fly?)

Are you happy with what you can eat? Vegetables, fruit, grains, sweets, yummy chemicals, bread.. or do you want to try those things that you can’t? Rocks, glass, oil, leaves, sea water, sponges, plastic, wood.. (this also is on the verge of being related to pica but them urges can go into a different lifetime or something more!!)

Do you feel that you’re not at home here? That you were home once but now you’re on earth and here that it just feels odd and strange? (Well lucky you, your soul has been reborn! This doesn’t mean you must have past memories of some other lifetime (although some do! But that’s vague and sometimes influenced by this life’s experiences) and often times the soul is just homesick for something it can’t remember. It can’t feel ready yet when it is still so young in relation to everything. Stimulation is a game of the mortal mind, and yet the soul craves fulfilment. It needs to be heard, seen, acknowledged. Sometimes it has a plan of what it should be but is still trapped in its own past. You have an idea of what you should be but you’re not ready to accept your current reality, and being a teenager is especially hard with how many people try shut down the voice of the soul, and yet it still acts out. It can be through strange urges, being overly emotional, having strange ideas youre not sure where they originated from, random triggers, perhaps even some kind of stuff that you just can’t define - like an altered mental state where you prioritises and focus changes)..

if you could fluctuate between being seen and invisisble, would you? Perhaps even more like some essence, a ghoul/spirit/ghost/felt presence? Maybe be a state of pure light or darkness? Have another material take over you and just disguise yourself as any ordinary thing (living or not..

Do you feel happy being seen as something but not neccesarily being it? Like, for someone to consider you an animal or person or item, but actually being something differently?

now concepts.. although I did try prompt that possibility with prior questions, it is hard, but here are some categories you can focus on: Elements , Colours , Emotions , Shapes , Processes , Sound , Smell , Feelings , Sensations , Ideas , Man-made things , objects, characteristic. Perhaps some specifics? Nature, life, death, rebirth, exploration, extinction, happiness, confusion, rot, skyscrapers, meaningless purpose, childish curiosity, watcher, growth, electricity, roaring/roars, warm water, crunchy items (leaves,snow,crisps,sand), an aquatic creature leaving its shell to move into a bigger one, a mammal caught in a trap, a rodent stuck in glue, pink car, a kid stealing their parents money, a squeaky door, the feelings of holding a baby for the first time, etc etc etc.

what’s your purpose here for? What do you personally feel inclined to do? What do you want to find and how do you want to accomplish true fulfilment and happiness? Where do you grow most?

and here.. no matter if this was accurate or not, I am always bound to vagueness unless you reach out and try to truly communicate. I hope this was of help even if you remain anonymous but I could help you if you were to also explain your predicament, and I could help organise things out! I’m always open to helping others through their alterhumanity, it’s something I’ve surpassed in all its stages and pride myself in understanding now, so to alleviate some of the stress and frustration with being worried over not knowing something.. i can answer any question.

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