#fear of doctors

[coffeexxcigarettes]

Modern Medicine

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I pointed.

Shouted.

I wasn't myself,

I was outside of myself;

I was braver than normal.

Bold to accuse,

Lined with resentment

And burning with one too many

Broken promises.

The way you leaned back and watched me.

Letting the silence that followed

Linger.

As if this was normal.

"How did you become a doctor?!"

I choked.

"Tell me. And be honest."

The air was heavy,

But you moved closer to me.

Leaned in as if whispering a secret.

Spilled blood at my feet,

Tears in your eyes.

You don't have to trust me.

You said as we parted ways.

But you have to find a way to stay.

x

[freshbaked-bread]

i saw this:

and thought it would be fun to actually work that out. so

^^^ every doctor who episode in chronological order

(pls let me know if theres any mistakes! i got most of the info from the tardis wiki so idk if its 100% accurate)

btw!!! the episodes are ordered by where they go FIRST in the episode :) (PLEASE STOP TELLING ME TO PUT UNEARTHLY CHILD FIRST THEYRE IN 1963 FIRS TPLEASEEEEEYEGEHFEHFYUFHGEUYS)

[live-cry-love]

The doctor, by me

I don’t like going to the doctors

I can feel they’re gaze locked on

I know that I’m broken

And that figuring this out is a race I’ve yet to have won

But talking to doctors make me Feel Like they’re pouring the sanitiser on my cuts that are open

Like a bottle without a stopper

I don’t like going to doctors because I leave feeling worse

They stab me with needles and give me more pills

They surround me like eagles waiting for the kill

I don’t like the doctors

[klara-rosa]

on today's menu of 'How anxiety is ruining my life':

I have a doctor's appointment today at 17:45 and have been sitting on my couch in freeze mode since I got up this morning.

I am so anxious that my heart has been beating out of my chest all day, to the point where I feel like I might soon pass out. My stomach is also very nervous today and...it shows.

My head is spinning with all the different possible scenarios of what could happen at the doctor. Worried that my results might come back all messed-up. That I might have to take all these meds. That I have to undress, that I have to be weighed. These things will trigger me SO BAD, I know it'll take me days to somewhat recover.

I have done research, though, and know that I can decline to be weighed and to get undressed, if it's not absolutely necessary to treat whatever might be wrong with me. So, if she wants to weigh me, I will muster up all my courage and ask, "is this necessary? This is extremely triggering for me"

This is exactly why I haven't really been at the doctor's for last 10 years or so because my anxiety gets so bad and because, unfortunately, almost all my experiences with doctors were so bad, who wouldn't avoid going there? But I know that this checkup was necessary and that I need to know what's going on internally with my body.

It's just...with everything going on with my mental health and me pouring all emergy into bettering my mental state, I just feel like I cannot worry about physical stuff, too. Like, if something comes back abnormal today, I will be f*cked. Because I have no more energy to invest into taking control of my physical health when I'm already doing so much to get a grip on my mental health.

Anyway...

[nipuni]

"Midnight" is one of my favourite episodes!!

A speedpaint video of this will be available at my Patreon on may 1st

[dykepaldi]

based slugs

[notyoujamie]

[amaliasnap]

Trypanophobia or belonephobia is fear of needles and injections.

I have it to a more than moderate degree. Enough that my trip to the dentist tomorrow is freaking me out, and enough that I faint when receiving a shot. (I don't have tattoos or piercings either.)

But NOT enough to actually refuse medical care. I am up to date on all the vaccines and boosters.

But it is absolutely anxiety producing. And I wonder how much it affects healthcare in the US that so many ppl have this problem. (Especially considering that access to healthcare is hard to come by in the first place)

I don't have any good techniques beyond what Google says.

But I really feel for that one in ten people who might see this, and maybe, like me, you know it is irrational, but that doesn't stop the phobia at all.

And you just grin and bear/bare it.

I honestly wish I was afraid of heights or something instead. But I'm not. I have no fear of public speaking or snakes or anything that can be easily avoided.

So if I had the choice of giving a public lecture or having a needle pierce my skin, boy you better believe I will extemporize something to say to that auditorium.

But no one's health depends on giving a speech in normal life. And most everyone should be getting medical care.

It sucks. But be brave [I say out loud.... but I bet I don't sleep tonight]

[madamesmoke]

I had a dentist appointment today.

I didn't go because I had a panic attack that took my ability to move for two consecutive hours.

This means that I wasn't able to call my dentist to make a new appointment (which I usually do)

[beeabart]

rose tyler my beloved

[gijak3]

Donna Noble chilling at home, watching the 2012 Olympic opening ceremony with her family when all of a sudden a strange man picks up the fallen torch and Sylvia dive tackles the tv while yelling YOU CAN’T SEE HIM HE DOESN’T EXIST

EDIT : To everyone saying 'no she missed the whole thing' how does it feel to be so right she prob was bungee jumping in new zealand or something

[timethehobo]

Kind souls hurt the most.

[captainswan618]

there is a person standing 73 yards some distance away, watching you. they look like they’re trying to tell you something. you can’t get away from them, nor can you get close to them. they’re just...standing there.

so your friends and loved ones try to help you by talking to them, and the person must be saying something to them, because they look at you differently now. but you have no idea what it was, all you hear is static.

you try to tell them not to listen to the person, but no matter what you do, no matter how much you plead with them, they look up at you with suspicion-hatred-fear and just run. they don’t care where they’re going, just that you’re not there. and you can’t do anything to stop it.

the more that the people in your life care about you, the worse it is, because anyone who tries to help is turned against you. so you are just gradually shut out of your own life by the people you love the most, until eventually you no longer recognize your surroundings.

there is a person standing 73 yards some distance away, watching you.

[thathoesofine]

Ever been so constipated you had to dig it out? Because you were too embarrassed to go to the doctor about it, so then you just shat bloody poop for a few days… depression makes you do weird shit

[nitronine]

I don’t think they could ever make Dr who into a tv show. None of it would transfer well to the screen :(

[answermywearyquery]

great 😳 + dr. tyme's large equipment 😏