#everything even sorrow

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Model references for Apprentice Mage's Dress / Everything, Even Sorrow (Nene Kusanagi) - Project Sekai: Colorful Stage!

[moonsnqil]

Kevin watching Jean ask Jeremy if he's okay, watching Jean offer to hold Laila's bag so she can fix her shoe, watching Jean hand Cat a granola bar before a game because she looked a little unsteady. He's not jealous, he had his time by Jean's side. Maybe it's grief. Grief for something that was never so innocent, never so untouched by cruel hands, something that could've been better if they were anyone else. Grief for something that's long passed and can never be fixed to be made better than before. He had his time at the receiving end of Jean's concerned glances. Maybe he's just a little sad that when he's at an away game, he no longer buys post cards for a friend. Maybe he just misses this person who used to always be by his side but they both knows it's better this way. Jean is happy, it's not with Kevin, and that's okay.

[harbingersecho]

Before the End

a redraw of this scene bc it wouldn’t leave me alone

[silver-horse]

bioware really said "let's release it on halloween... it's so terrible... it's gonna scare the shit out of everyone...the perfect halloween"

[deadqueernoldor]

Thinking thoughts about those from Cuivienen and how they later treated the Valar, especially after Cuivienen was destroyed.

I imagine a foundation of sorrow and a layer of betrayal and pettiness. They had promised safety. And how did it turn out? Kin of Tata and Tatie their first leaders, slain in Valinor by the Dark Hunter from which the Valar promised protection in Valinor.

And then, the War of Wrath comes and with it the destruction of Cuivienen.

If any of those were re-embodied in Aman, I wonder if they make it a point to always turn their back to Valar and Maiar. I wonder if they only speak in the tongue they had first devised all those millennia ago and spoke in Cuivienen before time and different kindreds changed the tongue, not Sindarin or Quenya from the Great Journey's time or later. I wonder if they sing songs in their ancient tongue, songs about the beauty and unsullied health of Cuivienen every time any of the Ainur are near.

I wonder if the Valar feel any shame when those who they once looked upon in wonder and love gaze back at them with indifference or disgust.

[faaun]

pls i need to provide updates

[jrueships]

something invokes the carnal rage in me when a grown man rages like a two-year old over a video game

[spir4nts-lun4r]

every 2 months I'm nostalgic all over again of my memories and every 4 months I cringe over my past self

I feel like a caterpillar that's continuously making a cocoon and going into it, but every time i come back out of it I'm still the same old caterpillar

[apolloskazoo]

me after taking 25 whole minutes to write out a two-sentence comment under a fic: I dunno maybe it sounds weird and I shouldn’t comment after all….

[bywandandsword]

You ever, like, look at your hand or other body part, the veins under your skin or the movement of your fingers and just, be awestruck about the chain of events that led to your being created, evolving into such an intensely complex body. All the muscles being used to move my hand, all the neurons firing off, a lot of it without my conscious thought, the fine motor control that these limbs can have. And then all the social meanings behind it. The hands of my grandma making dinner, the hands my mom braiding my hair, the arms of my dad holding me when I left home for the first time, and how these patterns were replicated in some form, long before we were even human. Our bodies and their histories and their meanings are such intricate, beautiful things

[time-like-tears-in-rain]

A very insane character detail that haunts me is that when Rose first goes into the Tardis with Nine, the jump seat in the console room seats two...but after Ten dies, the Tardis interior burns, and Eleven goes into the new console room...there are still jump seats for multiple passengers, but each only seats one.

[dreamedfyre-a]

thinking about aemond killing luke on purpose and alicent and otto being livid and aegon throwing him a feast and siding with his brother publicly even though it is effectively ending the tense cold war sort of stage to outright open military conflict

and thinking about how helaena fits in this. she's not ignorant of what this means, and she definitely doesn't see it as something to be celebrated. maybe death couldn't be avoided, but celebrating it with a feast is distasteful in her opinion, and it'd certainly be seen as offensive, as well as deliberate provocation. if aemond's actions started it, aegon's ensure there's no way back.

at the same time i think she understands both why aemond would do it and why aegon would make a grand gesture to support him, and she wouldn't fault either. her loyalty to her family is unbreakable (one of her greatest flaws; she's more than willing to overlook any wrongdoing by their hands), and when her family is split on their stance, she leans towards her brothers more so than her mother. and if otto is on one side more often than not she'd rather be on the opposite side ngl

all of this to say that whether aemond regrets it or not doesn't make a difference, because she'll stand with him even if there's blood on his hands. and that even if aegon's celebration is distasteful, it is a display of loyalty too, and uncomfortable as she personally may be, none of it would be voiced or manifested, and she would stand with him too.

the idea they can only rely on each other might be a little too ingrained in all of them (especially after the night aemond lost his eye), and i think it certainly plays a part to some extent. there is no one else. they stand for each other no matter what or no one will. but i think there's a willing joining of hands too. she accepts and wants them as they are, even when that means flawed and violent and uncaring.

she may not raise her voice to condone what they do, but she won't shun them either - and any grievances that need be spoken (because i don't mean she isn't critical; only that ultimately she stands with them even when she disagrees) would be discussed in private. helaena might be snappy or passive-aggressive at times, but when it comes to serious matters like this, there would only be unity in the public eye. i'm sure aegon heard criticism for his feast, but she nevertheless attended and did her best to present herself as she ought to.

[wwillywonka]

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[dutybcrne]

More Kae thoughts on him being a parent—deffo would have his hand forced to actually tell sb about his Khaenri’ahn heritage and especially the ties his family has to the Abyss Order, bc the last thing he needs is for the Order to interfere with his life/get ahold of his kid for one reason or another. Preferably the revelation would be for a partner bc they’re easier to trust, but if he’s single at the time, then Noelle or Lisa would be most in the know alongside Adelinde.

[readymades2002]

tidying up is very difficult...i'm worried that i'm going to become a hoarder-type individual one day. i used to go through phases as a tween where i'd throw out everything i'dever done and scorched-earth all of it due to embarrassment and it's hard for me to remember things all that well without the physical thing and i remember very little about how i was as a kid now, besides "awful". but i also desperately want to get rid of things. there are so many useless things i'm holding onto for sentimentality's sake. yearbooks without signatures, kind notes i was always too afraid to read, cards from family members i never responded to, a LOT of little art projects family made for me to show i was loved that i never looked at because i didn't believe the love in it and it hurt to look at them but its so much EFFORT made for ME and i SHOULD appreciate it

its like...i dont know. there's all this proof i've collected of a life that could've been if i'd ever actually taken the opportunities offered to me but i didn't so its like. WHY DO I HAVE THESE i've gotta let go of the life i didn't live and build a new one instead of boohooing about my regrets and the years i lost to insecurity and agoraphobia and depression any time i try to get rid of stuff. "what if i forget one day i don't want to forget" YOU DIDN'T LIVE THESE LIVES there's nothing to remember! silly behavior!

[whenthegoldrays]

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