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sonic tma au? 👀👀👀👀👀
OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD I CAN’T BELIEVE IT’S BEEN SO LONG SINCE I’VE POSTED IT ABOUT IT EVEN THO I HAVE SO MUCH STUFF ABOUT MY SONIC/TMA AU
Okay to start out with, I’ve been calling the “Primal Fears au” and it started out as a working title but I don’t really have any better ideas and the tag I have on all of my posts about this tma au is #primal fears au (idk how to imbed a hyperlink into text but like if you go into the search thingy over my blog and just type that tag in you’ll see all my previous posts about it that are from OVER A YEAR AGO IT’S BEEN SO LONG 😭)
Okay uhhhhh idk how to organize this so just get ready for a shit ton of sketches and art lol
here are some more fleshed out character sheets (than my very post about them) for Sonic and Shadow, they’re not final yet tho obviously


was fighting demons drawing Shadow’s main design for some reason



general sketch ideas for Sonic and Shadow





And my favorite part of this au is that I just get to categorize all the Sonic characters into which fear entity would they serve so here are some character sheet ideas:





Okay this last one is Infinite and I know he’s not everyone’s favorite bc he’s just so…..mid ig in the games but redesigning him as an avatar of the Spiral has been so fun. Also bonus points if you know what Doctor Who episode I stole this dialogue from lol:


and finally I thought I’d just share an idea I had of a “cover” for my Primal Fears au

Okay I think those are all the presentable sketches I have but there are so so so many more ideas I have and it’s not going to help bc I’m feeling the annual urge to relisten to The Magnus Archives again especially bc the new season of The Magnus Protocol comes out soon.
But yeah anyway feel free to ask any questions/share ideas if you’d made your own TMA/Sonic au I love yapping about horror and this au is like my child. Actually that’s not a very good analogy bc all of my sonadow aus are my babies. I just love sonadow sorry I will continue to be insane
#primal fears au#sonadow#sonic au#tma au#sonic the hedgehog#shadow the hedgehog#rouge the bat#infinite the jackal#sth fanart#tma fanart#tma podcast#the magnus archives#the magnus pod#my art#sketches#blatant doctor who dialogue copied and pasted#it’s doctor who season 5 episode 8?#it’s season 5 i know that bc it’s the first season with matt smith#the episode is called Amy’s Choice and that’s everything else i can remember lol#either way it’s a good episode i thought the concept was really unique and i kinda wish they would bring the dream lord back#avatar i hardly know her#<- sonic when he’s a kurtis conner fan#kurtis conner mention i hardly know her
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There are like more blogs on here claiming to be run by Jews who support Hamas than there are Jews on the entire planet btw. When you are interacting with pro Hamas "Jews" you are interacting with either literal Iranian psyops or gentile Nazis who realized they could shield themselves from a huge chunk of criticism by just claiming to be Jews themselves. The actual Jews on this website are extremely hesitant about calling this out unless there is pretty much overwhelming proof because we keep being accused by gentiles who already hate us and want us dead of expelling Jews who disagree with The Zionist Snipers from Judaism (as if that's something you can do in Judaism and not something that comes from the Catholic church). But the fact that there are sooo many blogs that never in their lives mentioned being Jewish before Oct 7th that conveniently became Jewish immediately after they started posting support for a terrorist organization who's stated goal is to murder/forcibly expel all Jews from the middle east, should be proof enough to anyone with a brain of what is going on here.
#its such a joke#another random blog came onto my post about how hamas kills kids to say flat out that murdering Jewish kids is ok#bc its for the greater good#literally they said for the greater good#and when i told them theyre a neo nazi they for some reason didnt mention being jewish 🤔#but then 2 days later on a separate post theyre commenting saying theyre being unfairly painted as antisemitic by me fof#saying killing jewish children is ok when its for the greater good and theyre Literally Jewish so how can they be antisemitic#and now i go to their blog and theyre responding to every person saying theyre a nazi by saying im Literally Jewish how can i be a nazi#even tho if you search the term jew or jewish or jumblr or antisemitism on their blog they have never in their life mentioned being jewish#before for some reason 🤔#even tho they have had this blog for years#im soooo tired of dancing around the obvious bc we are scared of gentiles accusing us of expelling the Brave Jews who disagree with Big Jew#guys literally nothing we do will make these people not wsnt to kill us. we can just say it. there are thousands upon thousands of people#pretending to be jewish online to justify the fact that they support a terrorist organization dedicated to killing jews#and the only thing you need to do to figure out if you're lookint at one of these people#is see if theyd ever before posted about being jewish before oct 7th#and if they hadn't. theyre not jewish theyre a neo nazi.#gentiles dont want to hear this tho because it would require acknowledging that 99% of their#Emotional Support Good Jews Who Support Antisemetic Terrorists#are not jewish and are in fact either intentional psyops or more realistically some tiktok neo nazi who doesnt like getting called#antisemitic by jews and found a way to shut those people up#antisemitism#leftist antisemitism#jumblr#jewblr
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heyyyyy, i have a question regarding the lore
i cant quite remember where they mentioned this or this subject is even brought up at all but do the butlers have a previous master/s before us??
idk the way they behave towards us is like we're god sent from above LMAO and it seems like it's the first time someone treated them so normally and warm since yk everyone was against them just bcs they're devil butlers or others were indifferent towards them or only see them as a tool since they protect the city and all. also our relationship with the butlers is quite close, even intimate...... like have you seen the card stories and home voice lines??? 😹 i think some of them finally dropped the "i love you" to us (not complaining tho hehe)
if they do have previous masters..... well, it seems like they're not close to the other masters unlike us hmmmmm 🤔
sorry i kinda went into rambling 😭🙏🏻 also tyia when you see this and answer!
Thank you for the ask! Yeah it's not even implied anymore, but just straight up confirmed that the butlers love Aruji (and yeah some of them have said "I love you" in their card stories 🥹). At this point, I'm just waiting for the butlers to get married to Aruji LMAOO
The short answer to your question is that while there has been no direct confirmation of a previous lord, the general consensus within the fandom is that there was a previous lord(s) due to what the story has revealed so far. Minor spoilers for Episode 1, Captive Doll, and 1st Anniversary -Butler's Prayers- below.
Some evidence:
When Aruji meets Boschi for the first time in Episode 1 he says “so you’re the new lord” (something along those lines). “New” implying that there had been/were previous lords.
All of the butlers’ powers have a drawback and some of the butlers knew what their drawback was even though it was Aruji’s first time releasing their power. In Episode 1 after Aruji release Boschi’s power for the first time, Fennesz explains to Aruji that Boschi’s drawback is that it consumes a large amount of energy. If there was no previous lord how would Boschi, much less Fennesz, know what his drawback is?
In the Captive Doll event, it’s the first time Aruji releases Miyaji’s power, but Lato comments on how “it’s been awhile” since he last saw Miyaji in that form. This means that someone other than Aruji had to have released his powers in the past.
There is other evidence pointing to the existence of previous lord(s), but I’ll leave it at this for now or this post will get very long…
I also just want to mention briefly other things that have been brought up within the fandom too:
If there was a previous lord(s) it’s kind of odd how no one ever mentions anything about them even if they didn’t have a good relationship with the butlers.
This was brought up on a jp fan’s blog post, but in the first anniversary event story it’s revealed that the butlers hold a ritual every year for all the butlers who have passed away, but there are no mentions of if there were any lords who had died. Again, assuming that the previous lord(s) was also releasing the butlers’ powers and helping them fight against the angels it seems odd not to do something for their deaths too even if they didn’t have a good relationship with the butlers. Who knows though maybe the butlers do something for them and Aruji isn’t aware of it or maybe the previous lord(s) were really awful people lol
Sorry this got really long I just like rambling about akuneko...
#ask#akuneko#aknk#i just typed this off the top of my head so if i got anything wrong please let me know!!
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wanted: marine hunter takanome mihawk
#shanks: oh i want him alright#dracule mihawk#takanome mihawk#one piece#one piece fanart#op fanart#i accidentally went way extra on this than i intended to 💀 i got bored waiting for my brother + my phone was charging#it was just supposed to be a b&w sketch with his eyes yellow or red but it got out of hand when i was like 'maybe i'll do skin for funsies'#ah well. im really starting to get into painting with this one brush. one day i'll merge it with the style i use more#cuz rn i tend to break out the painting only when i wamt smth a liiiiittle👌 more realistic.#i stress that 'little' bc calling my style 'realistic' in any sort of way feels inaccurate lol#i digress#i love imagining marine hunter mihawk being some teenage punk between the ages of 17 and 23#idk when he became a warlord but if he had this epithet even before roger's death that would put him in mid-to-late teens#since at roger's execution he was 19 amd already had yoru#so it's kinda funny to imagine the marines being hunted by some teenager with dramatic sideburns and an even more dramatic sword#last post of the year! :)#i had no chill this month. pls dont expect anything on my blog again till march lol.#(im half-serious; im going on vacation for all of february and i have some prior pieces i need to focus on in jan haha. we'll see tho!)
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Something so devasting abt realising a blog that u sometimes reblog from actl fervently hates one of your faves
#shoutout to those blogs censoring?? names & wishing death on real life ppl#ok but fr tho it's so jarring#esp when u see their hate posts and most of the time whoever they're hating on has done nth#or the op completely twisted the situation to spread hate for no reason#so tragic that it's almost amusing to me cuz im just here like hehe cuties#and then I find out blogs are actl full-on wishing harm on ppl they don't even know beyond what we get to see on tv/socials#absolutely wild to me that such hateful ppl can exist#esp those that post hate posts frequently/have posts going back years#even more ironic are those that preach abt how their fav has had to withstand hate#and then they're here perpetuating hate#(ofc this refers to hate w/o any gd reason)#anyway just thoughts but idk when I see these kinda posts that r hateful for no reason#I just immediately think damn yall must be so unhappy#weird that we can have 1 of the same blorbo and meanwhile u're full on wishing hate on my other fav blorbo 😔#anyway no thanks I'll stick to the chill side of the fandom that just vibes with everyone#f1blr#f1 2024#idk I just find it rlly weird to intentionally spread hate for no reason#it just results in misinformation and such a toxic fanbase#weirdest part is that ppl are willing to talk so much crap abt ppl they've nvr even seen irl lmao#lando norris#carlos sainz jr#lewis hamilton#max verstappen#charles leclerc#oscar piastri#lance stroll#esteban ocon#liam lawson#yuki tsunoda
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every once in a while I will see this take in the bb fandom that like 'nothing has felt like Black Butler since X arc' (usually Noah's Arc Circus) which I find. very interesting. I think the implication is usually that nothing has felt as like serious or gritty or psychological thriller-y or devastating, or that somehow the vibe has gone weird. and like, this is not to diss anyone's interpretation. but also.
this is a story where one moment the main boy character is wearing a dress and being accosted by a pedophile nobleman and the next he's nearly been human trafficked. and then it turns out his aunt is jack the ripper and she dies at the hand of her grim reaper ally who decides to turn on her for being unable to kill her nephew. cue flashback to the extremely tragic life she's had and the complicated feelings she has about said nephew as a result, although ultimately her love for her sister, that she seems in him, means that she cannot slaughter him as she has so many others.
and then next arc, the culmination of an indian prince's coming of age where he's processing his loneliness and neglected upbringing comes during a contest where people are trying to obtain the royal warrant for curry. and the main character wins it by inventing the curry bun, a japanese dish, in Victorian England, after the elderly queen rides in on a horse wearing sunglasses and declares him a winner.
like. idk what to tell you, like yes the Circus Arc was very dark and all but are we really going to pretend that the boy band thing during the blue cult arc was out of left field??? for the person that did pride and prejudice and zombies on the titanic?? like this has always been the type of story this is wdym-
#and still managed to have some emotionally impactful storytelling to go with it??#like granted the lizzy reveal is not blue memory arc but also. blue memory arc??#like this sort of thing is just bb standard it's like a metaphor for sebastian's swings#between his polished butler aesthetic and his savage demonic nature#or something. idk. standard shounen (is bb a shounen?? a different discussion) shit.#anyway#even tho the boyband this was like 10 years later or whatever#and yana explicitly said it was meant to remind ppl this was ultimately a fantasy story#you can like tell that ah yes this is the same person#who had soma sit down in front of a tv in arc 2??#like she really has always been about exploring different parts of the victorian english world but also having fun with it#it's what makes this work for me personally#there is a whole second rant inside this one about the shotakon ciel treatment in the first arcs#and what we learn later about his backstory and like. everything that happened in the circus arc#but that's for a different day#anyway. just ramblings#my posts#kuroshitsuji fandom#we've had close to 0 comedy this arc but yes#ciel phantomhive#o!ciel#soma asman kadar#elizabeth midford#kuroshitsuji queen victoria#madame red#grelle sutcliffe#this ain't targeted and is probably of interest to exactly 0 people but hey. my blog my rules#queué bourgeois
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pokemon boy....... i love you........
#i shant post him .... for now.#ive had a crush on him for years but idc !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#my brain tells me i cant f/o a character that was/is a mutuals ult#its ilegal to me#ramblerambleramble#kitscrushes#i dont think they even have a blog anymore tho#like /nbh
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hello!! i just want to tell you that your art is so goddamn scrumptious, you are literally feeding my xmen brainrot and I find myself smiling when i see your art come across my feed. I love how you draw charles, pretty privilege and post (lets be fr he's serving every time)
i hope you always have fantastic brainrot and id kiss your blessed hands for giving us the gift of cherik and charles xavier, you are literally an icon
hope you have a great day ahead of you and more!! you deserve it !!
well i'ma absolutely have a wonderful mornin after readin this AWWWW thank you so so much !!!! i haven't been postin xmen long, so it's been really heartwarmin seein the warm reception to my work in the wonderful tags people have been leavin on my posts- and especially gettin to answer the lovely asks y'all've been sendin in (❁´ ▽ `❁) !! im glad people also like my goofy text posts and esp quotes from my brother he really has no right being so funny at the most random times
i hope to be xmen posting a while: ive got at least 60 years worth of stuff to look through and ongoing, so i dont imagine my interest'll wane anytime soon :]] !!
#fave#snap chats#'xmen posting' is so generous ive been posting the same two freaks day in day out !!!!!!#my blog desc does not lie i am cherik posting near exclusively because these two have captivated my brain in such a diabolical manner#that doesnt mean i dont love the rest of the xmen cast ofc ..... its been fun getting back into this franchise more in depth this year#its funny honestly: i was more of an avengers kid growing up but like. by the SMALLEST technical margin#i Vaguely caught eps of 92 as a kid and i distinctly remember the 'real raven' scene from first class when i was a teen#because of course thats the one (1) scene i saw as a kid while channel surfing jELJEA like Hello mr lehnsherr. Your zesty turtleneck.#and mystique. hello. but it didnt really go any deeper than that ... until recently HIIIII#i missed the train like a mfer tho all Three of my friends had watched the xmen movies growing up but better late than never !!#i got into comics through my bro and he only really took me to see avengers movies and the like but avengers hasnt really. stuck with me#not in the way xmen has recently. maybe its cause im older idk i just find myself attached to it and more interested in it as a whole#BUT ENOUGH OF THAT PRATTLE thank you so much for the kind words !!! they really do mean a lot i'll cherish this ask forever#im very happy people like how i draw charles i love drawing him sm.... pretty privilege and post thats heinous vjlkjvALVJELKJ#BUT VERY TRUE HE'S ALWAYS HANDSOME THO i love me a bald mfer im so serious this is no game#dark phoenix gets my ire for having mcavoy be bald the whole time but then i have to deal with The Rest Of The Movie#he just looks so good .... i mean Granted but he just looks especially good ... do we catch my cold ... ill stop now ...#point is i look forward to drawing charles many more times in the future Bald Or Not with his ex by his side <3#i dont even wanna post this i just wanna keep readin it. and replyin to it vJEALKAEJKL BUT i must thank you ... so thank you !!!#i hope to continue makin the people happy with my silly postings :]]]
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I love the original mv for I need u cuz like it’s got everything. Substance abuse, self harm, suicidal ideation, depression, violence, domestic assault, arson, general mayhem, fucking murder, finding solace in friendship, the freedom of unsupervised youth, and homoerotic subtext all set to an early 2010s pop ballad about missing the girl they broke up with and being upset about it
#she speaks#it’s been very fun catching up on a decade of these boys’ shenanigans#and I really do enjoy their edgy ass early shit#what’s funny tho is I remember getting really into blackpink around this time#and like Gangnam style when it blew up here#like a couple years before#and being like well bts is popular let’s give them a shot#and really not liking their music at the time#funny how taste changes over time#because I really do unironically love this song#but man if you had told 21 year old me I’d have TWO bts blogs and a folder on every social media site I’m on dedicated to them#she would have laughed hysterically at even the mere suggestion 😂😂😂#even 26 yo me woulda laughed#fucking hell even 30 yo me woulda fuckin laughed#anyway#it’s kinda fun posting stream of consciousness shit here lmfao#cuz I have like five followers and like two of them are my friends 😂😂😂
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mie, please give us a sign that you're alive. like these hiatuses are hard enough as it is bc we don't get to hear from that beautiful mind of yours </3. it can just be as simple as posting 'hi' once a month lol
TL;DR - we miss you 🥺
HELLO MY DEAR!! I am here, I am alive 🙂↕️ I’m sorry I’ve gone ghost on this account, but I do see the asks and messages you guys send and not to be a complete sap but it really does warm my heart to see things continue to pop into my inbox despite my minimal activity here. Even if I haven’t answered them, please know that I see them and it makes me so happy… like you guys think of such lovely scenarios and send them to me… really does make my day… I hope you all are doing so so well I miss you all <3333
#anonymous#havent been posting here bc the unfortunate truth is its been well over a year since ive even touched an aot draft </3#if you wanna hear me yap about jjk/mha (even tho i havent had as much time to write for those either bc prep and apps and school have#been kicking my ass for the better part of a year) lmk bc i do have another blog#and ill say compared to here i am much more active even tho my activity has been waning there too :((
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GET OUT OF MY HEAD GET OUT OF MY HEAD GET OUT OF MY HEAD GET OUT OF MY HEAD GET OUT OF MY HEAD GET OUT OF MY HEAD GET OUT OF MY HEAD GET OUT OF MY HEAD GET OUT OF MY HEAD GET OUT OF MY HEAD GET OUT OF MY HEAD GET OUT OF MY HEAD GET OUT OF MY HEAD GET OUT OF MY HEAD GET OUT OF MY HEAD GET OUT OF MY H-
Why is Harry Potter stuff animal merch so cute 😔
I don’t even buy water if it’s Harry Potter licensed bc JKR but like 😔 I’m seeing people with the merch and I wish JKR wasn’t promoting scum 😞
Currently suffering from having deeply cared about HP growing up and still having some positive emotions towards it 🪦
#mylife#Argh I used to love hp like went on the studio tour with my family when we went to london#Always got butterbeer at the parks; watched the movies every year watched the last ones opening week theatres#I reread the books like maybe 9 times#I had merch like the wand and the random books it was a huge part of my life#And I have divorced myself from it#I didn’t watch the third fantastic beasts movie bc of her; u don’t buy any of her stuff; I won’t stream the movies if my fam wants to rewat#I make us watch the dvds#I don’t mention Hp almost ever like on this blog I only ever really repost JKR stuff not hp itself bc I think part of the way to remove her#Influence is remove the influence of Harry Potter. Like it’s something I care about I rarely talk about it#Even tho it was something I used to care about deeply so like sorry I’m a basic bitch former hp fan#But I just saw two girlies I’m friends with with Niffler Stuffed animals and I’m sad 😔#Like after this post I won’t mention Hp again bc like that’s something that I’m firm about I don’t want to support#Hate towards the trans community like that’s bs and no kids story is worth that but still blows a little
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had another dream about you guys
#it was an alternative universe like heavily influenced by cyberpunk but a very early version where things were just rolling out#and the net didn't collapse just yet#I was still me no surprise and I still ran writing blogs same old same old#it was a relatively normal dream except for the fact it was me from the current universe and awareness peering into it#I was looking at posts on my blog I never remember making#Followers who I don't ever recall seeing. Stories I never wrote of games I never heard about bu clearly in my writing style all the same#There were videos and pictures on me phone of myself that i never took#I didn't realise it's a dream but I did get confused at the new reality i was thrown in#It was literally me i woke up in the body of. Same age. Same family#Different house tho... and the sky outside was really different#I didn't have any cyberware tho#There were posts on my blog of me discussing getting one and you guys encouraged me. One of you was even a ripperdoc who sent me recs#but also that “ripperdoc” was on anon so#it was mostly boring and uneventful. Just a window into another universe#equally as dystopian as ours but hey i still held my love for writing in that one and had readers!#But judging from the other me's posts... they were still depressed and suicidal. Alarmingly so and so open about it online#While I recovered from these things gradually through the years and help of therapy & family support#but they also talked... weirdly in past text conversations i scrolled through?#By weirdly i mean normally they talked very normally and typically of an average person my age#while i talk like a weirdo (affectionately) virtue of nd and other things. like this isn't a bit I really talk how I write sometimes#either way wow those alternative universe readers sucked#so glad I'm in this one instead#i need to play less cyberpunk...#☆other#☆dreams
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so uh. that 2.2 Special Program, huh
#hsr#honkai star rail#hsr 2.2#hsr spoilers#hsr leaks#the body of this post reads as far less enthusiastic than i really am#i just don’t know how to casually return from my latest 2 week hiatus only to gush abt a game i’ve hardly blogged abt before#but i’m not making a whole ass sideblog for it like i did for Genshin. nah y’all r gonna bear witness to my fixation with this one#so anyways don’t mind me. vibrating into another dimension with anticipation for the next 11 days#it’s insane man. a year ago i Never ever woulda thought i’d be so invested in this game. and it took Months for the game to really grab me#but i’m v glad i kept coming back even when i was struggling to really get into it. like i just had this feeling that if i stuck around and#gave the game a chance to really like. come into its stride. i just always felt like there was Something there and i just hadn’t found it#and holy shit i finally found it in Penacony. the devs really truly outdid themselves with this region and these characters and this story#not to discount everything that’s happened prior. like i was genuinely Liking it all before now but i wasn’t Loving it y’know#but that may be more a ‘me having to fight tooth n’ nail to force myself to consume new media’ thing than it is a matter of the actual game#anyways i came here to talk abt the program! bc since i’m not filming my HSR stuff i’m gonna be insufferable abt it on Tumblr instead ! :)#and i’m probably not filming any more Genshin stuff. or anything else at all for that matter but let’s not talk abt that dead dream#pun not intended lmao. Anyways let’s return to the subject at hand while there’s still room left in these tags shall we#i’m so fucking glad they had Aventurine on this program man. especially since he’s leaked to only have 18 lines in 2.2… it was nice to see-#-him here at least 🥹 i’ll take what i can get. his unenthusiastic little bird noises at the beginning.. him being reluctant to come out..#the way one of the first things to come out of his mouth was ‘y’know DR RATIO once told me…’ like boy we get it ur in love with him 🙄 (/J!)#i love how they can’t go on these programs w/o talking abt each other it’s adorable. AND THE WAY HE WAS THE ONE TO EXPLAIN BOOTHILL’S KIT!?#they can’t just fuel my crackship like this… god and his whole ‘muddle-fudger.. son-of-a-nice-lady?’ thing had me wheezing#Aven mocking Boothill’s inability to curse was not on my special program bingo card but fuck i’m here for it#and Robin being all curious abt him was so cute.. ‘who /is/ he? … does he order milk at the bar?’ i’m crying she’s so sweet#also the trailer was fucking insane. which feels redundant as hell bc all of HoYo’s version trailers go hard but like. still. wow.#that millisecond long shot of Boothill surveying the skyline is so fucking good. also what the fuck is Jing Yuan doing here!!#not complaining at all tho. we’ve got JY & DH(IL?). Argenti(?). Boothill. Sunday. Aven. all my men r here and i am eating so fucking good#Seven.txt#viddy game stuff
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i try to avoid my acc being Just vntposting . in this world. but man is it going
#vwoop.noises#rest of tags is a lil heavy one#I am just so like. baseline unhappy with my life#and i can't be distracted all the time because like A) I have to be a person and B) World Cannot Revolve Around Me#and even a bit of those distractions have been Also caked in misery bc i am. difficult#so like what even is the point#And then. school .#did not go to my exams. my parents are mad and sayign i can't take a semester off because this was my write off and its like. NO. NOT REALL#they do not care how much of a mental breakdown i have visibly because they do not believe anything I have Not had any sort of rest .#and also like. they have their own problems. but one of these problems is telling me i wouldn't Really act like this#bc. and i really do like. wish that ppl would get help but we've tried but. over the last couple years my mom has believed that things#have been replaced / altered. and constantly brings up like. Oh yr dad NEVER ate pizza before :/ / you would've never said that / etc#Which like. it's such a genuine mental health thing like I deeply fully understand but I've been the only one taking it on and I am like.#21yo and very useless. And Also She's Mean 2 Me Now. I don't know what to do /shrug#And that's my storey . Kind of why it's been a constant stream of negativity we are doing :heart: Bad#like a year and a half ago: haha it's okay i'll just lock in next semester#the horrors: Hello. You are never doing an assignment again#sorry for the lore drop . thx if youve read this far idc if not. it's nice to get off my chest for real.#i gotta. make something soon idk#i can pretend that it will fix me :D#i am doing okay for the record uhhh we persist or whatever. if u are concerned of my absence my other blogs r in my pinned :]#I am still chronically online believe this. this is just my original posts blog. n mncrft sometimes still#after typing this out i left it on my puter to go search for food#and i had a huge rant sesh with my brother and this did kinda fix me ngl . Still posting tho.
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this is also why i stopped using my tracked tag for a while tbh
#and i might do it again bc its just#a reminder that no one rly cares abt what i do / who i am etc#which might sound over dramatic idk how else to describe it tho its just hollow#it feels very much like a Chore and a Task and if i dont reblog things fast enough from my tag#people get very angry and/or upset with me even tho theres just#so much content and i have 0 time so everything gets queued no matter what#like this whole experience feels like a chore lmao#and it never ever used to#but now theres so much animosity if i dont behave / interact with things Properly#or whatever the make believe rules are idk#this dash can just be so negative like have we all truly descended into madness during this hiatus#bc like i get it ive been up and down and all around too but ive never been straight up MEAN to anyone in this community#and i never want to either so this entire situation thats been bubbling for months just feels like shit#bc what the fuck changed and how do we get back to where we were#i never ever ever ever felt this way before like idk the middle of last year#but ever since like last fall its just been idk. Bad#once again im sorry if ive ever done anything to upset anyone but my silence / absence doesnt mean i dont care#ive just been Incredibly busy due to some real life changes that are out of my control#i might not have energy to answer everything but i do Read everything and it does make me smile#and i save messages that are kind in my heart so i can be reminded of the root of what this blog is supposed to be#a space for something im very passionate about and previously had nowhere else to express said passion#so like idk if we all like the same things why does this weird feeling of competition linger over us lmao#why do all ccs have to fight???? each other???? when we all love and do the same things????#i have nothing against anyone personally but what i Do take issue with is the way that ive been doing this since 2021 and im fully just#ignored and shoved aside by so many people for reasons i fully dont know or understand#so yeah idk this is a novel i just woke up from a spontaneous nap bc im so exhausted i can only stay awake for 3 hours at a time#but yeah anyways idk !#be nice its so easy !#tbd
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honestly i think probably 10% of my followers are actually active
#my follow count is so uninspiring for someone who has been running a blog for 10 straight years#and even then i think it's mostly dead blogs by now lmao#i don't like having followers tho so that is okay#tho i do wish i had more active moots like a i did a long time ago#sighs was it the britcom ppl or was it tumblr in general that was different#do i have to get back into alternative british comedians from the 80s#there's no way that's the answer that seems SO niche#it must've been the way we all acted online back then#collectively less anxious? dunno#kirbco brand cola
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