#anyway just thoughts but idk when I see these kinda posts that r hateful for no reason

[chaoticlandworlder]

Something so devasting abt realising a blog that u sometimes reblog from actl fervently hates one of your faves

[boneyspades]

Making Albums for the sides Part 1:

ok so i said in the past that I wanted to do like album long playlists for the sides so... I guess this is the start of that. Yippee!

so I have this little system to decide what goes into each playlist and that system is three categories as to how they correlate with the side:

1: the song is something I think they'd listen to/something that I think is from their favourite genre of music

2: The songs meaning which correlates with the side in some way

3: The vibes that the song gives

so some I will kinda have a deep explanation for whilst others r just simply "hehe they like this song hehe"

anyways let's get into it

keep in mind I accidentally went passed the usual album length for this one (usually 8-15 songs) but there was so many good songs to put

Remus's Album

🐙The Kind of Mind you'd only find in hell💚

⚠️ This playlist has songs that are really like... loud... as in like harsh sounding loud that could be uncomfortable to listen to with high volume. make sure U listen with a volume that's loud enough to hear, not loud enough to burst Ur eardrums. (also I'm rating this playlist PG 13 cus there's alot of uh.... interesting choices)⚠️

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/1LPkMWHDWeJbp7MEztZpSI?si=K3TsnvGFQ0Op1voVpjGiUQ&pi=IlJ3-_gFR5aWS

↓Analysis type stuff↓

Preview:

Contents:

Forbidden Fruit (The Duke's theme song) -Thomas Sanders

I mean it's very much HIS theme song. like... I don't think I need to explain why it's on here, a nice way to start his album tbh

Staple Tapeworms on My Penis- PASSENGER OF SHIT

Ok everyone lower your volumes for THIS SONG SPECIFICALLY LIKE EVEN I HAVE TROUBLE LISTENING TO IT CUS IT JUST HURTS MY EARS. that being said, I think this song is literally the most Remus song I've ever heard. The harsh sound of it all, the screaming, the lyrics, the fact that its just sounds so disorganised that it just catches you off guard sometimes, THIS SONG IS JUST LITERALLY HIM. this is something he'd blast in the car on field trips. he would ANNOY EVERY SINGLE SIDE AND THOMAS with this song. THEY HATE IT.

Cacao and Cocaine - SOFIA ISELLA

so I said in a previous post how this song is like a really good song for intrulogical, but I felt like this was more of a Remus song than a Logan song. Its about a study where they had locked people in rooms to see how long they could be bored for, with the option to experience electrical shocks if they so choose. I'm pretty sure alot of them did choose the shocks because the boredom was getting too much. this is y I chose this song for the playlist, not only does the lyrics and the song itself feel really intrusive and unsettling, but the study itself feels as if intrusive thoughts were clouding the people's heads. and guess whose literally the embodiment of intrusive thoughts? REMUS. FUCKING. SANDERS. also it does give some vibe of Remus in a sense that he's trying to make Thomas give into his intrusive thoughts to let Remus take control of him.

Guess - Charlie xcx ft Billie Eilish

I think I speak for everyone in the fandom when I say that Remus is a certified BRAT!!!! he listens to the brat album all the time. not to mention he's just a certified slut too/lh. I think this would be one of his favourite songs on the brat album (I could be wrong I haven't listened to the whole album yet don't cancel me please/J) plus I feel like he'd just make jokes about it too like "You wanna guess the colour of my underwear, you wanna know what I got going on down there. is it stained with shit or drenched in piss, blah blah blah blah-" idk

In My Mouth - Black Dresses

Now this one is more about the vibe of the song. idk the songs meaning I forgot to look it up but it gives the vibe of if Remus were to fall in love with someone in an unhealthy amount. like I love soft Remus ships as much as the next guy, genuinely, but also, we've also seen Remus is rather uh.... crazy... to say the least. he'd be the type to do DRASTIC things for love. like some of the lyrics here: "I want you to destroy me so I feel better", "I wanna put you in my mouth, I wanna crush you with my jaws" (now this could be a metaphor but I think he'd like... do it literally), "I wanna fuck our bodies into broken shells I wanna go to hell forever" just- idk, again, it just sounds very intrusive to me

Custer - Slipknot

YOU CAN NOT TELL ME THIS LITTLE TRASH FUCK DOES NOT LISTEN TO METAL. I have a head cannon that he and Virgil used to be like MAJOR besties (before AA) and they'd listen to metal with eachother and even do karaoke nights where they'd just scream metal lyrics and annoy the fuck out of Janus. that's... that's kinda it for this one I just think he'd be a metal head-

I'm Yer Dad - GRLwood

again this one is more like i feel he'd listen to this one, so I don't really have much explanation, besides the fact I feel like he'd just yell out the "and I got a really big dick" part just cus it's funny

Cherry bomb - The Runaways

AGAIN! another song I'd feel like he'd listen to. and I guess the vibe of this song as well. it feels really rebellious, which I think we can all agree Remus is exactly that. I feel like this song is a "LOOK OUT BITCHES IM GONNA DO WHAT I WANT AND IDC WHAT YOU THINK" type of vibe, and Remus literally just... does what he wants despite Thomas's and the other side's discomfort

Touch me I'm sick - Mudhoney

AGAINNNNNNNNNN another song I think he'd like. I just looked up the meaning of the song in the time I'm writing this just so I can talk about this song a little bit more cus I actually really love this song and honestly I didn't really see much, except something about the lyrics. Apparently, it's kinda like a dark humour sarcastic take on issues such as disease and violent woohooing, and Remus is a huge fan of dark humour... as we've all seen-... so yeah, I think this song is definitely a Remus vibe.. (unless it isn't, I found it on wiki so idk if it's really all that true)

Living Dead Girl - Rob Zombie

REMUS LOVES METAL. HE LISTENS TO THIS SONG IM SURE OF IT... that's my whole argument.

Brutus - The Buttress

I LOVE THIS SONG GUYS OMGGGGG. I'm actually pretty happy to talk about this one because not only do I think Remus would love it too, but the lyrics, the vibe, the EVERYTHING. IT'S GIVING RAGE! ITS GIVING ENVY! ITS GIVING "RAAAAH IM GOING TO JEFF THE KILLS YOU"!!! ok FR tho, let's talk about the lyrics first. from listening to it without looking up its meaning, it's got alot of mentions of envy and hate for someone. and now hear me out let me cook. I have a theory, a game theory even/ref, that Remus has some jealousy over Roman because Roman has been kinda deemed as THE creativity by Thomas for a while. I feel because Thomas sees Roman as his Creativity, his hero, his perfect golden side, and he sees Remus as this evil being that should be disregarded, I feel like Remus would eventually try to get rid of Roman so that Thomas would have no choice but to listen to him for creative input: "I've been watching him for my entire life, I hate the air he breathes, his foolish decrees his words so contrived and I hate the way the town's people gather outside. They hang on every breath, Cling to his chest, Home to his heart full of pride". THIS SET OF LYRICS ALONE JUST GIVES THAT VIBE, DOES IT NOT; The townspeople being the sides and Thomas, ROMAN IS LITERALLY THOMAS'S PRIDE?!? CMON PPL!!! UGH I WANNA TALK ABOUT IT MORE BUT IVE ALREADY TALKED ENOUGH BUT THIS WHOLE SONG IS JUST GIVING RAGE/ENVY FILLED REMUS AND I LIVE FOR IT!!! also it's also so fucking good cus the orange side is most likely going to be rage, and I feel like if Orange and Remus were to combine their powers they'd would MOST LIKELY be THE MOST powerful sides.

Missus Piano - Rio Romeo

I think this is more of a "I think the artist give the Remus vibes here" more than the song but just hear me out. I love Rio Romeo!!! their songs have this artistic messiness to it I just love, but like not in a non structured, not mixed, no effort type of way, ykwim? its kinda hard to explain it but it's kinda like a soothing uncanniness? idk. but this song specifically. I LOVE IT OMG I REPEAT IT SO MANY TIMES. so this song is about a man in love with his piano. despite it being worn and out of tune, he cherishes it like it worth all the jewels in the world. It just reminds me of Remus alot. I feel like he sees the beauty in the unloved in a way. examples? MR FUZZY?!? BRO MADE THAT THING OUT OF THE DRAIN OF HIS SHOWER AND HE WAS LIKE "this is my baby and I entrust it to you, virgil :)" and got fucking cryptic when he noticed virgil dropped it in disgust. HE NAMED HIS SHOWER DRAIN JOANNE FABRIC CUS HE THOUGHT IT WAS CUTE. HE LOVES THE UNSETTLING. and I feel this when I listen to this song. alot of people when they hear an out of tune piano may think "oh that sounds creepy" or "oh that sounds awful" but Remus (just like the protag of the song) would be like "wow that sounds so nice :)" in which I kinda agree... depending. out of tune pianos can sound creepy but it kinda gives a sense of nostalgia to me for some reason

Piggy Pie - Insane Clown Posse

REMUS IS A JUGGALO. ITS CANNON. RESOURCE? I MADE IT THE FUCK UP! BUT LIKE CMON!!! INSANE CLOWN POSSE IS SUCH A REMUS BAND!! band? duo? artists? idk what to call them, but really I think he'd just listen to alot of insane clown posse, plus he'd be the type to go and just end conservative lives

To Catch a Predator - Insane Clown Posse

yes. another insane clown posse song. I was telling myself "ok let's not have alot of the same artist in one playlist" but uh.... there's three total ICP songs in this one.... so uh... hope you guys like rapping clowns! anyways, basically the same as Piggy pie, in the sense that I think he'd like this song, but also I feel like the chorus itself is a very Remus lyric: "I'm probably gonna burn for this, there's no lesson to learn from this, there's nothing imma earn but it sure is fun". I feel like this is Remus's mindset whenever he chooses to mess with Thomas with his intrusive thoughts. like it could put Thomas is such high amount of danger and he'd be like "oop I might die from this but this is so fun hehe:)" like ykwim?

My Axe - Insane Clown Posse

ok guys stop throwing your tomato's please. I get it. three ICP songs I know you're probably sick of it. but this song is again, a song Remus would listen to AND relate to. The axe in this song could be like his Mace/morning star/whatever and I feel like he'd have a deep connection with it to some extent, I mean, he's probably killed so many ppl with it, why wouldn't he?

Unpunishable - Ethel Cain

Ok I'm really excited to talk about this one. so originally I wasn't gonna put this song here but I looked up the meaning of the song. Its about embracing your desires despite the social pressure to conform. now on the surface it seems alot more like a Janus song but think of it this way. "Desires that are forbidden" Remus is he embodiment of forbidden creativity. in DWIT, virgil and Patton really thought that the reason the Remus was apart of Thomas was because that Thomas REALLY had the desire to do the things he was thinking about all thanks to Catholic guilt. also I kinda found this song from an animatic which was literally about Remus i forgot their user tho IM SORRY 😭😭😭 but yeah, it also gives vibes of the end of WTIT where he was pushing Logan to snap at him, trying to make Logan give in to his forbidden thought of "I shouldn't feel anything." type thing yk?

Two Trucks - Lemon Demon

Remus LOVES this song. this is another song he'd blast during car trips, but he'd be like "BOOOOOOO BORIIING" at the two trucks holding hands part, Patton loves it tho... well... until it goes back into the trucks fucking-

Killing in the name - Rage against the Machine

Another song I think Remus would love. it's mostly just I think he likes metal. is this song metal? idk. but anyways. I think this also has the rebellious vibe to it to that Remus has. like the "fuck you I won't do what you tell me" lyric is what I think Remus's mindset is, he does NOT want to listen to anyone. he just wants to be a dick

Girl Anachronism - The Dresden Dolls

I love this song so much dawg. its just has a really Unhinged vibe to it that just sounds like someone's losing their mind. AND I feel like it kinda captures the frustration Remus has of not being listened to. "Don't call the actors they've seen it all before, they'll say just let her crash and burn. she'll learn, the attention just encourages her" like in DWIT Remus is trying HIS VERY BEST to get Thomas's attention, and Logan saying the best way to deal with Remus is just basically ignore him, like I'd be pretty mad too. I just looked up the meaning of the song and basically it's about a girl whose described as "the world's worst accident" and yk... being labelled the BAD one out of the twins, it kinda fits, don't you think?

Wet - Dazey and the Scouts

GUYYYYYSSSSSSSSS SHUT UP THIS IS MY JAM!!!! I'M IN LOVE WITH THIS SONG CHAT YOU CANNOT FATHOM. ok anyways, this song just gives Remus to me, I'm not sure why. I guess I feel like he'd listen to it, or this might be his sad boy anthem, cus realistically it is quite a sad song. but just idk, it's giving Remus to me for some reason

Ready to Die - Andrew W.K.

we all know where this song is from, chat. we all know it. Ok, so. I feel like Remus would really like this song, not only is it because it's about killing and stuff, but he watched THAT ONE MLP VIDEO and thought "yk what. Roman likes MLP, I think it'd be very funny if I showed him this" spoiler alert, it wasn't. he would also try to ask Patton to make cupcakes with him but Roman would have to be like "NO DO NOT BAKE CUPCAKES WITH REMUS, PATTON." JUST because of that vid. he's afraid. I am too.

HURT - 1 800 PAIN

ok guys U might wanna turn Ur volume down for this song too, it's not as bad as the staple tapeworms on my penis song but it's still a rather harsh sounding song. ok so, I feel like this is just a song that Remus would really enjoy. like he the type of mf to listen to music that just sounds like.... sounds. like really loud irritating sounds. like I like this song too but it's just so NOISEY iykwim

Not My Type: Dead as Fuck 2 - Motionless In White

Ok last song. I. LOVE. THIS. SONG. I don't really have anything really that good to say as to y I put it in this playlist except i feel like Remus and Virgil would really like it. before Accepting Anxiety, I feel like they'd have like matching bios that was just this song? like Virgils would be "Tried out the living but I don't believe the hype" and then Remus's would be "cus if (s)he's got a pulse then (s)he's not my type". also "(s)he loves me cus I give head like a zombie" is something Remus would DEFINITELY say.

should I do more? what side should I do next?

[coralhoneyrose]

fun chrom and or robin headcanons? chrobin headcanons?

alternatively what are some widely accepted or constantly brought up things in the awakening fandom that you hate?

my fun headcanon is they try to both be objective and somewhat professional as leaders but when c&r are alone together they love to gossip. you know theyve seen some stuff

Oooh what a fun question! I’m sure as soon as I hit post I’ll remember a bunch more but here’s what I was able to come up with~

Robin: I actually like head-canoning Robin as having ADHD. I could ramble about that for ages tbh but I think they fit the “twice exceptional” profile really well and that a combination of being an anxious perfectionist and having an attention disorder would make a lot of sense given that we know Robin is both very confident in their tactics and intelligence but also prone to workaholic tendencies with pushing themselves to extremes to make sure they’ve thought of everything. I also headcanon Robin as being kind of a slob LOL like I think their room would always be a mess with things strewn everywhere but *they* know where everything is meant to be so don’t even think about moving anything, Frederick >:(

Also this may be obvious from my writing, but I like headcanoning Robin as having darker skin than in canon in large part to circumvent Awakening’s unfortunate tendency to only feature that trait for Plegians who are antagonists. OH! And I love the idea of Robin being touch-starved when the shepherds first find and adopt them too.

Chrom: I headcanon he has very pretty cursive handwriting that he was forced to learn by his tutors growing up; that he low-key kinda likes PDA; that he’s mindlessly touchy with Robin specifically, even before he realizes his feelings; that he has a praise kink; that he is a morning person; and that he’s not particularly religious, despite being….ya know, the exalt of a halidom.

Idk if it’s cheating to also list that I headcanon him as biromantic demisexual (given that I have a whole fic about that) but I’m restating it anyway because that one is very dear to me. Also! I did not come up with this one myself, but I saw a tweet from another Chrobin author once about how they hc that Chrom would abdicate the throne before he gets particularly old to help ensure that Lucina’s coronation is a happy and celebratory event, and I love that idea and thinks it suits both of them really well <3

I think the one you shared is cute and fitting for them too! Both of them take their jobs really seriously so I can absolutely see them making an effort to keep too many court politics out of their work but then debriefing about stuff and laughing at all the stuffy nobles together after to help maintain their sanity.

As for things brought up / widely accepted in the fandom that I dislike and / or strongly disagree with, the three that come most immediately to mind are:

- That Chrom and Robin have a dumb one / smart one dynamic. I think they’re both very competent leaders and that while Robin is clearly the smarter of the two, I’ve always interpreted Chrom as probably having above average intelligence and just being really blunt and kind of oblivious / not tactful in certain delicate social situations which….tbh I fully believe Robin can be guilty of that sort of thing as well LOL

- That the f!Chrobin supports are “objectively” some of the worst in the game”. I can definitely understand and sympathize with some of the complaints about them, but that doesn’t change the fact that they’re my favorite supports in awakening full stop. And I do also think that a subset of the complaints leveled at them are wildly off base

- That male and female Robin have different personalities. I just do not think this is true. I think the differences we see in their supports are pretty much always a direct function of being treated differently by the other character on account of their gender and responding to those differing circumstances accordingly

I have started drafting and ultimately aborted so many posts making arguments for all these points but somewhere along the line I usually remind myself to take a deep breath and that people can enjoy these characters and ships however they want to. Ultimately if I don’t like something, it’s easy enough for me to tune it out and keep doing my own thing and I’ve found fandom has become a lot more pleasant that way LOL

Andddd I think that covers everything? Thanks so much for the ask—I had a lot of fun answering it as probably evidenced by how long this turned out to be asjfk

[wawamouse]

[bursts into your inbox as if we were having a conversation you were definitely not aware we were having] -one reason we need more slightly more modern outside AUs is: how unhinged could the texts between Chico and Miguel get?? The possibilities for conversational wtfuckery with these two!!

(I'm sure for the longest time it would be the most short and uninformative texting desert where they barely go beyond "u hungry?" and "k" level communication. But there would be bursts of amusing absurdist insanity that goes on and on.)

Yes this was prompted by something you reblogged on another blog, and I came here to tell you rather than politely musing in my own area.

Wow you’re so right, we need to make miguel and chico millennials…. or we just need to give them cellphones lol

(for those wondering, the post I reblogged was this )

also i do think “k” & leaving on read is miguel’s style of communication (toward chico) but probably only because i headcanon chico texting him like an insane person, both when he like-likes miguel and also when he hates him (bc that's hardly going to make him leave miguel alone lol). i could see him firing off an essay in single line texts and god help miguel when chico discovers audio messages (but at the same time, i think miguel would send audio messages more) (which chico would love because… come on 😂). i think miguel is better at cyber stalking someone than chico tho (ok now i’m just going into my Technology Headcanons). just, like, miguel is better at researching than chico. but chico knows more about torrenting and vpns and anti-virus stuff. also his bookmarks bar has a bunch of porn sites saved if we're being real

idk, i just don't see miguel as a texting person 😂 I think he prefers face-to-face communication or talking on the phone where as chico who probably has a really aggressive way of texting and also he uses T9 lol

i also think chico would send truly indecipherable memes sometimes, not because he thinks they’re funny (he doesn't get them) but because he just compulsively forwards every little piece of internet junk, clickbait, memes, buzzfeed quizzes, etc, straight to miguel, not really caring if he even responds or not bc anything he Actually wants miguel to see, he'll just bring up in person...

2 AU thoughts that immediately jumped to mind:

they meet as wrong numbers—like, one of them accidentally texts the wrong new contact or something—they got a fake number (haha), etc., and then the other person responds and they have a sort of curt conversation of realising they have theyre talking to a stranger before being like Whoops my bad! ...but then weeks later when the first guy (let's just say, chico - that' kinda what i'm imagining anyway) mistakenly texts miguel again bc he never deleted the contact info. and he's like totally shitfaced too so he just ends up calling miguel and being like HEY Come get me. I'm at xyz location!! … and that’s how they meet—because Miguel is moderately bored and curious and he thinks Chico will have drugs 😂 (maybe he’s mentioned it idk) (anyway he does have them) ...

dating app AU (cough hook up app) 💀 they chat/sext for a long time more as like friends for a while... idk, some people you just sort of end up befriending and having longer running fun conversations with / gossip about your other hook-ups on the app bc there's more to it in a way. they end up exchanging actual phone numbers and chatting bc they have a lot in common—even know the same clubs and know they don't live that far apart, but they just don't meet up right away. And then it gets kind of weird bc at a certain point, they're more lookng forward to meet up but then it's like damn, what if the spark isn't there in person 😵‍💫 what if they meet up, have sex, and then never text each other again or it all falls apart or something. And then something something, when they finally go Fuck It and decide to meet up and get it over with, they get completely sidetracked (just gotta do a minor job real quick! swing by a location!) in a Date Ends Up With Them Almost Getting Shot and Running For Their Lives type way. but good news: even though they bicker like hell in person, and each find the other vaguely infuriating, the spark is definitely there 👀

[ev1llesb1an]

Documentation of my comphet throughout the years 🧍‍♀️

Okay so I thought it’d be funny to talk abt my most intense male fixation eras as a lesbian (idk i’m just shitposting into the void again) judge me all u want (it is probably needed) but i need ppl to understand the real me 🙏

IT CROPPED HALF HIS FACE OUT but i just realised if you aren’t british ur gonna have no idea who he is anyone (he’s lachlan white from emmerdale) omg this was an ERA everyone around me thought i was going insane (i was) but like they just didn’t get it he slayed so hard at a level that will never be reached (literally) also tom atkinson on sex education was like a full circle moment for me omg but anyways i was like 11-12 here these were literally my formative years this changed me FOREVER don’t judge he slayed omg

THIS okay so u can’t even blame me for this one it’s just correct. yes he’s like walking masculinity stereotype BUT he also had depth and was interesting 😌 the fanfics were SO GOOD this is when i really got into fanfiction and accidentally read smut where someone get pregnant in the hunger games 🧍‍♀️i read this one fic that was like x reader AND THEY STRAIGHT UP BOTH DIED but anyways. i read fanfics abt literally everyone thg character (read abt women and convinced myself i was still straight lmfao) but he was the stand out for me. i recently revisited this era and the fics ppl write on ao3 r INSANE omg like what is wrong with u ppl ( i say this lovingly but also wtf )

OMGOMGOMG BEST ERA OF MY LIFE u actually don’t understand u just had to be there. a solid percentage of my brain even to this day is made up of this man. this is like the stupidest thing ever but when i was like 14 i would just mirror his personality (and tone down the arsehole part obvs) so that i could get more talkative AND IT ACTUALLY WORKED nobody in the whole world will ever understand how much he means to me (i don’t rly understand it myself tbh) and ik ppl literally fuckinf despise him but i will not tolerate the dandy mott slander bc he is literally part of my core identity atp i revisit him every few months just to fully reconnect with my inner being. did anyone read Companion? that shit was crazy also i wrote a fic abt him on wattpad and people actually READ IT so anyways best era of my life it truly never got better i rly hit me peak (i had 0 friends) the few friends i had literally told me i talked abt him too much and it made them like me less 💀

this was arguably my most chill era like yea i was pretty obsessive but with marvel it’s so normalised to be so intense abt everything i kinda just fit right in. there’s too much professor fanfiction r u ppl okay 🧍‍♀️ also more actor fanfiction than i have ever seen for any other man in my LIFE but the capitalism went hard during this era the fluff was so good. arguably my most comforting era? idk i can’t rly explain that one

okay so these two r kinda completely different but also (for obvious reasons) the exact same. gotham was my most openly gay era and for that i will forever be grateful HOWEVER the kristen kringle haters were doing WAY TOO MUCH like she’s already dead why u doing her like that constantly (u will see this sentiment echoed later abt someone else hmmm i wonder who) but yea and then YES i was a paul dano lesbian (literally wasn’t out as lesbian at this point lmao) honestly this is probably the era my friends hated the most they would either awkwardly pretend to agree/care abt the shit i was saying or straight up tell me i was delusional 💀 my friends even now still call it my worst era but i LOVED IT kinda solidified my position at the bottom of the hellish secondary school hierarchy but i still had a good time. the paul dani riddler fanfics r next level tho the way ppl would just post STALKER fics constantly with like zero warnings and it was never labelled as yandere 🧍‍♀️i also got in an argument with a writer on wattpad bc they made the riddler and the oc have like a 6 year age gap and they met when she was 10 and he was like 16 💀 other than that good vibes all round

tbh this era was pretty brief i can’t fully explain what happened here like the vibes were immaculate but also insane WHY IS THERE SM YANDERE FANFIC peter parker is so nice but then in fanfics it’s like 👹 but i rly like spider-man HOWEVER this then led me to my final destination on the comphet journey…

omg were finally at the final stop the peak of comphet ( i came out as lesbian within this era ) arguably not my finest hour bc i swore i would never watch criminal minds bc the number of seasons is WAY TOO MUCH but here we are i watched it bc i read too much fanfic abt this man. i have lots of criticism for the fandom but he in himself is acc a rly good character. this was supposed to be like my ethical era but he’s acc killed like a bunch of ppl and thomas gibson is MESSY (don’t cancel me pls i say that lovingly 🫶) the haley hotchner misogyny nearly killed me off i don’t think i’ve ever been so miserable in a fandom and the fanfics kinda take feminism back a few hundred years but pretty good besides that

anyways there is my brainrot i hope the two (at most) ppl who will read this enjoyed 🫶 LETS GO LESBIANS LETS GO im gonna say i posted this in honour of international lesbian day even tho that was several days ago

[fuckhouse2theelectricboogaloo]

i joined the rpc when i was 12, and ive been online since i was 9. obviously i lied about my age and i was… basically 13 for four years LOL. no one ever caught me tho because even when i was 10 people thought i was 17 (not good. not a good thing at all. 10 year old me thought i was so cool for it tho.)

i personally wouldnt really ever consider lying about being older than i am now tbh. idk. i wouldn't do it </3 if someone doesnt want me in their space, i dont want to be there. its as simple as that. that's why i have so many 18+ blogs blocked on my rp acc. it just makes it easier (and also some people with minors dni in their rules really love following me. good to know that some people in the rpc cant mcfucking read. atp i just decided 2 put IM 15!!! in big fucking font on my rules page)

however....................................... i do think it is unfortunate that the rpc on tumblr seemingly started out with mostly like. teenagers. and then just kinda. grew up. obvi people grow up and stuff and i don't fault any adults not wanting to interact with minors, that is NOT what im saying. i actually think its a very good thing, especially because. clearly. a lot of adults don't remember what it was like to be a teenager on the internet (or being a teenager in general) or don't know what's appropriate to say and whats not appropriate to say to teenagers and shit (people have sent me some Crazy Stuff in the past let me tell u).

but its sad. still. all the people my age are either too scared to rp on here or they're too busy roleplaying with their shitty ai chatbots. i think i have maybe one mutual on my rp blog who's around my age. its so obnoxious when i see people go "MINORS SHOULDNT BE IN THE RPC AT ALL!!! MINORS!!!! I HATE MINORS!!!" like......... weren't you literally on here at like 14.... don't give me that dawg. shut up and mind ur business... goddamn... take ur meds, gramps.... also they arent even here anyways... so why r u bitching and moaning

so i get people who fake their age. i really do get it. and it sucks that people treat people who do it as less than literal scum. my regards 2 anyone whos gotten fr death threats over dumb shit like that (like. impossiblecrusadekitten. banger username LOL) its not a good thing to do, but i don't think it warrants a witch hunt. like fr ur doing too much at that point.

dear tumblr roleplayers, stop making teenagers fr suicidal... thank you....

*sick ass outro music*

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[the-narcissistic-cannibal]

This is a long post.. Spoilers for chapter 230 and tw sa

Okay so I have no one to talk to about this so I’m just gonna go on a bit of a rant here.. like I admit that my guilty pleasure is reading Lore Olympus and I discovered it a few years ago and been reading it every update since. However I do acknowledge it is a super bad retelling of Greek mythology and has a lot of flaws but I can’t stop reading the dumpster fire of the story that it is. So I just wanna talk about a few icks I have that I haven’t seen much of.

The age gap between Hades and Persephone, him being over 2000 and her only being 19 when they meet. I just don’t understand why that was important and I’ve see ppl say like of when she jumped the story 10 years ahead she is 30 so it’s not as bad. Like she aged those 10 years so obviously everyone else did too?? It’s still the same age gap they’re just older ??

Why make Apollo the worse character ever. I really hate when SA is like the main plot of a story and I hate that Apollo did that and it’s implied he’s done it before. It kinda ruined my perspective of other portrays of Apollo in other retellings and stories. It woulda been okay ish if he was just a big headed dick

Including Demeter! This recent chapter 230 it felt like suddenly she doesn’t care about her own daughter at all, like I’ve seen retellings that make Demeter the bad guy but this whole time it was giving potential that Demeter was starting to understand until she finds out that Persephone is now Queen and then goes ahead and publicly shame her instead of being idk helping her daughter and trying to understand her??? Like I’m so confused.

I’ve seen a lot of ppl point out how inconsistency Persephone’s design is and I didn’t notice until Daphne was introduced and I confused her and Persephone but then Daphne’s pallet kinda changed so it was easier to see the difference but then I started noticing that Persephone looks different every chapter and sometimes Hades design looked different too so I was like okay it’s more than one artist drawing these characters trying to copy the design like in Sonic X. However the episode where it shows the flash back of Rhea finding Zeus and “dying” /going into hibernation. SHE LOOKED IDENTICAL TO PERSEPHONE ONLY A DARKER SHADE?? Like I was so confused cuz I honestly thought it was Persephone at first too? I wonder if it’s suppose to be implied that hades could be in love with Persephone BECAUSE she is literally the spinning image of his mother Rhea????? I sure hope not. But but if Hera slept with Zeus’ dad Kronos and Zeus slept with Hera’s creator Métis so anything is possible I guess.

I wouldn’t call this an ick, it’s more of an annoyance, I was looking forward to seeing how R*chel would portray Persephone and Hades being intimate like how we saw with Eros and Psyche. And unfortunately we got similar panels when Apollo SA’d Persephone which was awful. I hate. Anyway we had this huge build up to it potentially and then didn’t happen due to Ares interrupting. Which was confusing cuz now I’m not sure if they did bang or not??? Like it wasn’t talked about but it’s not clear? I’m still holding out but it feels like there is no point.

This whole comic is a mess and it was clearly not meant to be this long but ended up that way and it really does have a lot of flaws and a super toxic fandom and I guess the author/illustrator can’t take criticism. But I just wanted to share major things that bother me in the story. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[hard-core-super-star]

good morning! I was so tired yesterday that I forgot most of what I wrote so it will be a surprise for me to read it all again 😶 ALSO, EXCUSE ME??? I wake up and see that you posted a fic, I was expecting something cute (it was cute) and I got punched in the middle of the face!! I love parker!reader because I wanted to be spider-man sooooo bad, but I'm halfway there because I'm miles morales coded, it's more than enough to make this girl here happy 🙏

not even with a second star...? Hjdkaajk I would like to know how I make this easy, would you tell me? 👀

to preserve myself I will neither confirm nor deny this. you have a point there, but by the way the carriage is going your star won't arrive anytime soon. I won't be waiting. oh that's good, because I don't like doing that either and it's not like I wasn't climbing the walls with that last fic you posted. since we're not talking about alpha!Kate, will there be more of this, like a part 2 or something like that? asking a friend-

c'mon, I'm trying but you're not helping at all! I could easily say aww and laugh at the same paragraph again because I definitely see an opening. why financial compensation?? I just laughed! OH- you're threatening me with the sad eyes emoji?? again!?!?!?

thanks. i am still learning. YOU- JDHKSAKAK It's always a phrase that matches the context, how is that possible 😭

yeah? why does portuguese scare you? 🤔 there's definitely a lot to add, but in a way you kind of left the idea complete??? she knows what that feeling is like and not wanting anyone else to go through the same thing and not wanting to drag people down with her is so- this makes me think that she hates being alone but thinks that maybe it's the best thing just so she doesn't bring someone into this mess that she is (I'm pretty sure I said exactly what you said). anyway she just needs a hug damn ☹️

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good morning! i''ve been awake for a while but i have a feeling my responses will still be messy af 😶 at least i only have one class today and then i'm free to freak out over my assignments. i love being unpredictable like that :) but yeah, i tried to make it cute to counteract the sadness. i honestly feel that, i liked tobey's version of spiderman a lot but andrew's is...i honestly can't decide if i want to be him or with him [and i'm gay af lmao] miles morales coded, you say? interesting.

hmm, i might be convinced with a second star but idk. it kinda sounds like you'd be willing to bribe me 👀 i could tell you but then i'd have to delete my blog so, these thoughts will stay in my mind.

hmmm, i think that just proves my point further but sure. well, considering you were offering me another star to get me to admit you were right, i'm not too worried about my second star not arriving. good 'cause it's not like that's what i'm going to do later today. i'm so glad we're both on the same page about this 'cause it'd be awful if you kept doing it. i'm definitely not very excited that you're not asking about a part 2 to alpha!kate. and because you're not asking and i'm not excited i won't tell you that i really, really, want to do a part 2 but idk what i want the plot to be. i could just suck it up and do like...multiple fics in one, like a look-through of the relationship starting from when alpha!kate rescues R. but idk. i certainly wouldn't like to hear your thoughts on this.

how is it my fault that you're laughing at me??? you could just say aw and move on, you don't have to laugh 😑 you don't think that requires financial compensation? i'm out here being vulnerable and you're laughing. i'm one sentence away from spamming the sad eyes emoji.

like i said, you're doing great, i might have to pull out my handy emily dickinson poetry book and really test you. i honestly don't know how i do it either, i just associate a lot of words with things so when i see an opening i drop a reference.

i don't know, it just feels like a lot to tackle which is, again, ironic since you could argue all the other languages i've chosen are difficult af to learn. i think it just scrambles my brain when i hear it spoken out loud 'cause i can catch some words while others sound very different. my ideas are anything but complete lmao. that's exactly what i mean. although i do wonder how much of it is just me projecting lmao. it's just striking that someone so talkative and excitable has like...zero friends. that we see anyway. and considering how loyal she is, you'd imagine there'd be at least one reference to her friends. which definitely adds to why she instantly attaches herself to clint. like yes, she's trying to prove herself but also, she doesn't really have anyone else. i definitely agree that being alone is sort of a defense mechanism for her and that's probably why i love her sort-of friendship with yelena. they compliment each other in a way they both so desperately need, even if they won't admit it. hard agree with that last point, see all my headcanons about kate being touchstarved af.

[nomaishuttle]

I have just remembered readmores sry..also this post took me 2 hours 2 write sry. i rambled

ALABAMA

well i do think of sweet home alabama. ive never been idt aside maybe we mightve drove through it when we went 2 florida. however im always there for a southern state I support them when no one else does (unless its florida). so slay 4 that. i do also think of the you know what jokes which r disgusting nd i fucking hate them so bad and i hate that i cant hear the song without thinking of them. but anyways..

ALASKA

it was in the Simpsons movie so theres that. and one time on like hgtv or something i saw them building a house in alaska . actually im pretty sure the reason i specifically remember that is bc it was the day that um. girl i didnt mean for this podt to get dark so quick but i did watch it while i was at a pool party at my parents friends house and it was the time a kid. drowned. at the pool party and i was watching hgtv in the living room when i found out so. thats rly nothing to do with alaska but im pretty sure the hgtv i was watching was them building a house in alaska. it was cool looking ig

ARIZONA

hot there .. um thats all rly JFNFJFNG its hot its one of the four corners innit. i always do sporcles wirh my sibling fmously and one of the ones that traps me every single time is us states no borders minefield so i have the 4 corners fucking locked and loaded. iirc arizona is top right... if im wrong i have to restart us states no borders minefield from the beginning which. id rather kms.

ARKANSAS

i kno its pronounced are can saw (well rly i say it more like are kin saw) and i do pronounce it like that but my first thought every time i see it is Our kansas <33 so yeah. no real feelings on it i suppose... however southern states lets fucjing go number one number one. somehow i always forget where it is on the map even tho its legit Above louisiana.. but yesh anyways

CALIFORNIA

lmao. do i need 2 say anything. i suppose the worst part abt living in wa is tht im so much closer to california....

COLORADO

one of the 4 corners innit bottom left . ive just realized i got colorado and arizona mixed up its so fucking over 4 me whatever idecc. thats all rly isnt there skiing there... it may or nay not be the state where the name means something related to snow in spanish. idr.. my editors (myself on firefox) have informed me that it is not the state where the name means snowy in spanish. i suppose i dont know shit abt colorado v°v i think itnmay have been in an episode of whats new scooby doo.

CONNECTICUT

humiliating admission. during my dark quotev ages / my very first year on tumblr where i never rbed or posted Nything just lurked. well it was during my hetalia phase and there was this artist i was obsessed with who drew hetalia and they had 50 states ocs and their connecticut was like bffs with rhode island soim always like ahhh connecticut and rhode island. aside from that i do the ten i see joke with connecticut and it goes hey girl r u from connecticut bc yr the only connect i cut is there no smirk wink emoji. judt smirk and wink. my life fucking sucks. 😉 <- nvm hes the one o was thinking of. but the 50 states ocs things is humiliating bc i downloaded everry single image and Memorized them based on the facts so i in 6th grade would judt force my friends 2 read the facts to me to see how quick i could name the state. sigh...

DELAWARE

first state or whatever. idk fuck delaware its rly annoying on us states no outline minefield bc its so little. i suppose rhode island is worse since its smaller but its like Up marylands ass so it sucks. but ya idk irrelevant ass state

FLORIDA

i dont rly hate florida i just think its funny 2 hate it. ive beej twice and both times were fun aside from So fucking hot and humid like of the devil. and bugs... but ya. i like the beaches the atlantic is my good friend I DID nearly get eaten by gators not rly but kinda bc um. last time i went with my gran we went innertubing in this river that was like super red right. it was like the minerals or somrthing. so i was in the litle floatie having fun and then its time 2 get off and theres a little dock on the right side. I suddenly remember im not a good swimmer. im trying 2 doggy paddle over Failing oh god oh god everybodys yelling at me. i miss it. i keeo going. Suddenly the river is not cleared 4 ppl to be swimming in theres branches everywhere underwater etc im getting hit in the stomach my hairs grtting caught in branches i think idr i mightve been bald at the time. if i had hair it was getting tangled ok. harrowing. and then up ahead theres a fork in the river ajd i go left and atp im expecting 2 just fucking die yk. so im floating still getting hit by branches Cljnging to my floatie 4 life im like My fucking phone is with my family so how tf. am i going to let anybody know where i am if i do ever get out of this fucking river. but anyways so im flosting and MERCY i see kayakers and theyre like !? and im like crying and theyre like Omg come over here and theres a little like. concrete dock thing so i climb up on it and one of the kayakers let me borrow their phone to text my family basically. and then i found out if i had gone on the right side That leads to a big reservoir that has a ton of gators in it so i lmwouldve for sure been eatej probably. so yeah. my 2nd water related near desth experience in florida.. maybe i should stay away from there. anyways aside from that rhere were these cool springs they were so cold but it was fun ^_^ i also drove a truck 4 a little bit (just in my grans friends yard i was judt helping move it)

GEORGIA

georgia peachessss also jacob from drawfee is from there. i think theres somrthing else but idr.. iirc i lke their license plate but i wish it were pinker... georgia i associate it with a nice like dusty orangy pink... much like a peach one could say. i also love georgia accents...

HAWAII

caitlin doughty (of ask a mortician and order of the good death and death in the afternoon fame) was born in hawaii and im a huge fan of hers soooo yeah. aside from that i think hawaii should be free and death to america basically. itis very beautiful i will never go bc i think the tourism industry is of the fucking devil in hawaii.. so yes. i highly recommend looking into the cause and donating if u can.. on a deeply unserious note i also think of like..elvis and lilo and stitch. and elvis makes me think of my granny bc she loved elvis so theres that. one year 4 christmas my dad got her an elvis themed set of 3 mugs and she had this huge elvis blanket that was rly comfy we used to push the couches together in her room to make a like. boat kinda dhape and all the cousins would sleep in there it was fun. thats not rly hawaii related at all but i usually slept with the elvis blanket.

IDAHO

potatosssssss i love potsto so bad number one ever number one huge fan. aside from that i associate it with a deep sense of relief bc fucking driving thriugh montana was hell so when we finally got into idaho i was like Fuck yes lord. finally out of montana...

ILLINOIS

anither one where i know how its pronounced and i do pronounce it correctly but my first thouhht when i see it is illa noise. sry. girl are you from illinois bc yr the only ill i noise. so yeah basically. also borders ky and i get it mixed up on maps with indiana... iirc indiana is farther west. but i always wanna out illinois in ohios place and indiana in illinois place. but ohio also in ohios space. ig i judt forget its so west... i imagine them all as being sbove the big part of ky but indiana isnlike off 2 the side. over the thin part ykwin. so yeah.

INDIANA

well see above i covered most of it... also ofc Indianapolis which isnt what the race is called is it. thats judt the city. but the cars the indy 500... i know of thst..so yeah. i also love it when a states capitol is just the name of the state basicslly its so funny 2 me. like kansas city. indianapolis. there r others modt likely. love it no notes.

IOWA

iowa doeeees not border ky does it. where tf is iowa .. lrgit nothing 2 say abt it. i kinda hate that the abbreviation is IA bc i dont like it when the acronyms r 2 vowels i think its ugly. but i suppose io is also that . and also i dont like the name io 4 reasons 💀 and iw is kinda ugly looking. oh well. ig ia is the best option but im not particularly happy abt ot...

KANSAS

many associations 1. irs in the middle of rhe map i always always remember this. 2nd thing wizard of oz. yk. even tho wizard of oz pretty explicitly they Arent in kansas (anymore). but yk. and theres tornadoes and shit...the biggest association tho is im fucking genuinely terrified of it it is so insanely flst there like have you seen the highest point in kansas. its a fucking plain. and its called mt sunflower and its judt the ground rises up for like hundreds of miles 2 get to mount sunflower. fucking genuinely terrifying i feel like the fucking bird is going to get me... ive been aware of the bird SINCE BIRTH. 👇 mt sunflower btw. its cutesy but terrifies me

KENTUCKY

teehee... giggles... kicks my legs hey gorgeouss. tbh i dont actually rly and truly have any ky opinions Just fucking kidding lmao KY NUMBER ONEE bluegrass state horses.... lots of horse farms i love the beautiful appalachian mountains my good friends i love the weather i love all of it. i miss the pinnacles.... sometimes i play ky nighttime ambience on youtube and it makes me cry. so i suppose i associate ky with like. my entire life before i turned 18 LMAO. i also always think of cardinals since theyre the state bird and also cardinals r very special 2 me bc of the likee. belief that when u see a cardinal it means a loved one whos gone is there watching you. so everytime i see one i think of my granny bc shes got a little picture of a cardinal by her grave bc of that little saying. indont rly believe in ghosts or heaven but seeing cardinals does make me feel closer 2 her.. cardinals also dont exist in wa idt so. :(

LOUISIANA

well it is l shaped and next to texas... i will admit i dont know much modt of what i know is just like. new orleans and hurricane katrina... i think its cool tho yk. i also lovee lesrning abt all the creole languages bc i love linguistics. i think of princess and the frog bc tiana was my fav disney princess... b4 she existed it was belle but ive been a tiana girl since the movie came out :] so yes. im down with louisiana what is it ... it isnt la is it ? it is interesting.. far better than the other la LMAO

MAINE

i must think something abt it... oh all the shipwrecks maine has s lot of them innit. its the farthest north aside from alaska obviously. n there r alot of shipwrecks up alone the northeast coast so yes ! it is a new england state as well and im irrationally scared of new england bc its so fucking small up there its not normal. i feel new england could all be 1 state.... dgmw i think west coast states r scary as well. far too big a county in wa is like basicslly the size of all of new england. very terrifying. texas far too big its of the devil ! i think the ideal size for a state is probably aboutt 39,486 square miles of land and 921 square miles of water for a total mass of ~40408 square miles.if we must throw out numbers.but ya aside from that likee. clam chowder ig... i find the architecture in some spots quite charming... i think i have an ex mut from there i could probably say the name bc there are legit 3838473837474 transmascs with this name on tumblr. itis most likely the one yr thinking of if the one yr thinking of is also the name of a prominent character in the mechanisms 2nd studio album Ulysses dies at dawn. But i shant say it specifically jic. fine u caught me it is heracles (joke its ulysses (joke))) i wanna relisten to udad whatever.

MARYLAND

i think i mixed bits of msryland up with maine. yk why? too fucking small theyre bssically the same place we coukdve judt done one. the emoji that is suggested when i type small is 🦐 which is awesome . anyways i think marylands actually the clam chowder guys. did i ever mention clam chowder or did i get off topic. oh well. also nathan from drawfee is from maryland. sry ive been watching a lot of drawfee.

MASSACHUSETTES

i had a different ex mutual from here... umm the drivers suck. also its new england so booooo booooooo yankees...

MICHIGAN

there was this girl jn my 4th grade class who was very very red like constantly sunburnt and she had curly black hair that she always had in a braid and i fucking hated her so bad bc she was a bitch 2 me... like one time we had to do these wait no im mixing her up with fucking Gavin. ugh fucking gavin.... fuck gavin too oh my god fucking we had to do this poem abt where we lived so i wrote mine right. abt the shitty apartment complex i lived in. and then i was telling my friend abt it and we were in line and fucking Gavin went Nobody cares abt your stupid apartment... HE LIVED JN THE SAME FUCKJNG APARTMENT COMPLEX well complex is a weird word for it it was like. basically these long strips of houses and it was 12 to each sort of strip. and it would be like 212 was rhe building number youd say and the apartment would be #8.. so he lived in like. lets say i lived in 213 apartment 6. he lived in like 219 apartment 3 or something. like fuck offff he sucked. and also ppl did explicitly want to know abtnit That was the point of the fucking assignment. but anyways josie. thats the girls name btw she was from michigan.... but actually i think i stopped hating her bc i mentioned that i had made my own birthday cake and she thiught it ws rly cool and we talked abt baking so i think we were cook after that. but that was nesr the end of the year abd it was in computer lab .. so yes i like how i cant remember the period of my life from age like 11-15 but i do remember 4th grade in computer lab when she talked abt baking with me. but yeah basically. also i thinkk nichas family is from michigan so theres a good person from michigan.. come 2 think of it nicha kinda looked like josie her hair wasnt rly curly but she did have kind of red cheeks. woukdnt it be crazy if they were related.. idt so. but thatd be crazy. oh also michigan has the great lakes and is 2 parts so thats pretty cool

MINNESOTA

lol mini soda. little house on the prairie was in minnesota innit... i rly loved those books when i was a kid bc we had these like. heirloom copies from my moms granny so i rly liked them. Im sure they havent aged the best considering. theyre written by a colonist in the 1800s. but ya. wasnt minnesota also where kirsten lived... interesting. so ya theres rhat I suppose nothing else much 2 say.

MISSISSIPPI

mississippi river.. Hey girl r u from mississippi bc yr the only miss i sippy 😉 um yeah. i also always forget where this one goes but ive gotten better wirh it. i also think its quite fun to say and to write. mississippi it comes naturally 2 me.

MISSOURI

im losing steam a bit udk if u can tell but ive been writing this post 4 over an hour. I suppose the biggest thing i associate it iwth is that video of somebody zooming in on the welcome to missouri sign and then misery is playing on the radio so it goes I AM IN MIIIISSOURI! its rly funny. ya .. idk probably theres other things.

MONTANA

sucks 2 drive through in early march ill tell u that. was so bad .. iirc they had a rly rly fancy best western tho. but that akso mightve been in idaho or south dakota. Ive heard its quite nice when it isnt Hell but im never going back.. fuck montana 🖕 we were driving for fucking hiurs and hiurs bc we coukdnt find a hotek i think it was like 2am when we finally got 2 stop. and it was a whiteout so we were just driving on this unsalted like. rural ass 2 lane road behind a giant semi... bc withiut the semi we couldnt tell where the road was. bwsically it was bad. and also freezing.

NEBRASKA

i think i was lying when i said whatever state i said was in whats new scooby doo was in whats new scooby doo. i think it was nebraska the abominable snowman one that was crazy bc the abominable snowman was a robot but the gears were fucking made out of ice and shit .. and velma had a cold so she had 5000 layers. so basically yeah thats nebraska probably.

NEVADA

nevada means snow-covered/snowy in spanish. i bet youve been sitting on that since colorado. kind of funny that like the 2 things i thought of for colorado were actually abt nebraska (probably) and nevada . which r right next 2 eachither. but yeah nevada is the one that means snowy in spanish. i never took spanish classes i took french instead 💀 i wanna learn a language but im bsd with it... but i wont to one day. we will see... umm its also in californias little elbow bit yk. i get it mixed up with utah a lot. lh vegas is also here duh LMAO.

NEW HAMPSHIRE

fucking bew england idk go read my thoughts on fucking maine or maryland or fucking whatever. stupid ass region. oh but new hampshire is 69ing with vermont isnt it. yeah so theres that on a map new hampshire and vermont are 69ing.

NEW JERSEY

i went here 4 vacation once 4 like the summer solstice. to visit my godmother karyl... i think thats how its spelled its said like carol. iirc the reason my bn kamille has a k in it when it would be a c (camille) is bc my godmothers name also is spelled with a k when it would normally be a c. theres also a picture of me 4 like my 2nd ever trick or treat or maybe my first ever and karyl was there.... i was in a very cutesy butterfly costume and i think she was as well so we were matchy. YAY! shes cool i havent seen her in a rly long time tho. idk if shes still friends with my mom bc my mom lost a lot of friends bc of the whole. Thing yk we wont get jnto it

NEW MEXICO

Albuquerque is there and thats a fun thing to say and santa fe is also there. and breaking bad. santa fe reminds me of newsies which reminds me of. 💀. anyways. and like roswell and area 51 and the like.. is the grand canyon in new mexico? its also one ofthe 4 corners bottom right so its got that going 4 it. idk its probably hot here.. wait didnt so weird happen in new mexico. HOLD ON! no. wtf. i had a strong memory of it at least starting in new mexico... ig they were there for that like orbs episode. but famously they lived in a toue bus .. idk whyi thought they were like originally from new mexico. who tf is from new mexico... aside from mr breaking bad

NEW YORK

no one opens the door..... for a native new yorker. i do associate it with wendy williams which sucks bc shes a piece of shit. but also The Killer. um ya ill be real idk much abt new york outside of nyc LMAOO. julia from drawfee was born there and they all live in ny... formerly they all lived in brooklyn but now jacob and julia moved out to a smaller town outside nyc. well yeah. idk.. its new york. isnt it wheree kirsten came through when she first immigrated.. kirstens on the brain sry. im down with it 👍 my good friend miles is from there. and like all the other spiderpeople are too or whatever but my good friend miles,

NORTH CAROLINA

my friend marietta was from north carolina her initials were mmm. she ckuld be a bitch sometimes but she was cool. her and my kther friend brinn were constantly either besties or hated each other.... its sad i think they had a big argument and dont talk anymore. but i still like both of them me and brinn talk more but i miss marietta a lot... but ya. she rly loved north carolina and was homesick a lot and didnt rly like ky much. but she rly loved nc and was from like wayy uo high in the mountains. so i like nc bc she rly loved it :] i hope she was able to move back if she wanted to...

NORTH DAKOTA

shrug. whi cares. i associare it with south dakota which was rly cool when we drove through it like we kept seeing signs for the craziest shit on earth but we were budting ass 2 get to wa sk we didnt get to see any. but then on the way back my fucking sibling and my dad DID go to all those places... my archnemeses. that isnt rly relevant to nd but idk. its above south dakota v°v

OHIO

well jokingly i hate it. but its like fine. mixed bag.. ive got family up there on both sides so ive been there a couple times. and of course the huge plus is kings island which is my favorite theme park and i miss it and love it lots and lots.... :] and the cincinnati zoo is . a cool zoo but rather famously its also where ermmm. i meanni could say bc i literally started this post like I KNEW A KID WHO DROWNEDD but yk. basically its where i got child abused real bad LMAO. shoutout... so yk mixed bag like i said.

OKLAHOMA

itisss a little pot. saucepan? idk if modt.ppl call the like. little circle with long handle a saucepan or a pot.. a pot 2 me is the circles with the short handles on either side 🍲 like this. the other ones i also call them pots i also call them pans. idk what 2 call most things in a kitchen like a pan is like a pizza pan but also a frying pan/skillet and i also just call baking sheets pans. so.

OREGON

itis right below wa... i associate it with the oregon trail if im being honwst with u. nothing much 2 say portlands there which is kinda dire. um yeah whatever whi cares. hey girl r u from oregon bc yr the onle ore i gun. i kinda just say it like organ if im talking fast. or aura gin ... gin like git but with an n not gin like the spirit. 👻 boo! little joke. sry ive been writing this post 4 2 hours.

PENNSYLVANIA

one of the few ppl i truly truly hate is from pa. so. But it also gave me philly cheesesteak my good friend... its also new england so thats points away its also where the hersheys chocolate factory is i leanred that in 4th grade social studies.. surprised i was able to focus with fucking gavin being a little cunt. thats what we kn the industry call a 'callback'

RHODE ISLAND

too small.

SOUTH CAROLINA

this was the first place i ever went in vacation to... aside from like visiting family. like our entire family went my granny n papaw n my cousins... yayy it was fun we went to myrtle beach i wass 7? or 8. my baby sister was either a few months old or a year and a few months old and at one point she fell out of her stroller face first into the sand and it took us like a full minute to notice and she was NOT happy abt it LMAO but she was ok. umm this is where we got our turtle spyro :] my good friend spyro the turtle.. a fun fact abt spyro is when we first got him we thought he was a boy and then later i learned more abt how to sex a turtle and realized hes actually a girl. But we still call him a boy and ive decided hes a transgender legend...

SOUTH DAKOTA

see north dakota.

TENNESSEE

hey girl r u from tennessee bc yt the only ten i see 😉 YAYYYY. no thoughts aside from flat fuck. and borders ky to the south. i jokingly hate on it bc it borders ky tho. but rly its fine most likely

TEXAS

karena drawfee birn here. aside from that like its fucking texas. what do u want me to say its texas. unfortunately ik its where sheldon big bang theory is from so thats a major negative. aside from thst its just too big. stop all that.

UTAH

mormonism v°v also top left four corners. nothing else 2 say actually i think the grand canyon is here i may have lied earlier when i said it was wherever i said it was.

VERMONT

-50 points for new england +69 points for 69ing new hampshire. so 19 points which means nothing bc i havent given points to anything else. so ig vermonts winning since its the only one with points. retroactively 50000000000 points to ky.

VIRGINIA

virginia is funny bc it looks like ky fraternal twin. ik virginia came first but its kinda funny. ky looks better tho of course. its just fine but also its appalachian brother in arms 💪💪 sl rheres that. not as much a brother as wv is .. so yes. hey girl r u from virginia bc if yr a virgin i wanna be in ya. sry that one was actually kinda gross. i dont believe in virginity anyway

WASHINGTON

💀 no comment. well its fine i live here... ill probably like it more once i get out of the torment nexus and into my own apartment ^_^

WEST VIRGINIA

IM SO DOWN WITH WV brother in arms brother in arms lets go appalachia!!! i love the song like not even as a joke i love country roads. when we went on the dc trip we took 2 seperate busses bc there were so many 8th graders lmao but in BOTH busses when we crossed the wv border everybody was SCREAMING country roads bc it was the height of the meme. and ngl im chasing that high... yeah i like wv :] i do remember also during the dc trip that there were a bunch of brochures and one of them was just like THINGS YOU CANNOT FIND IN WV: THE OCEAN. WE ARE NOT COASTAL. YOURE THINKING OF VIRGINIA. DONT ASK US TO TELL YOU WHERE THE OCEAN IS BC IT ISNT HERE. ITS IN VIRGINIA. Which is funny

WISCONSIN

wisconsin six cheese or potentially actually four cheese i always forget. my favorite pizza from dominos aside frimt he illustrous greg if you dont know greg pay better attention 2 my posts. this is where laura ingalls wilder Of little house in the big woods was born... when i was little i wanted 2 live here bc i was quite enamored by the way she talked sbt her little cabin in the woods. so yeah.

WYOMING

sucks to end on such a lame state. nothing 2 say abt it. hey girl are you from wyoming bc yr the only why im ing. stupid. nothing 2 say. avtually rhis mightve been where that scooby doo episode was.

hope you enjoyed my factually correct opinions leave your thoughts down below. much love and ky number one go big blue go wildcats kentucky derby kentucky bourbon beautiful bluegrass state.

gonna post my thoughts on every single state. hold on...

[apricotgojo]

hello love! I got bored and thought of this. So it’s the readers bday and they like Adrien. Adrien like the reader and marinette hates that he does. So like reader is planning on throwing a party bc it’s their birthday so marinette decided to throw a party on the same day at the same time. And since reader is kinda new, everyone decided to go to Mari’s party. So that happens, but when Adrien gets to readers party, they’ve done gone batshit crazy, like screaming, crying, smashing things, idk just losing their shit. Not like in anger, they’re just really hurt by it. No hawk moth tho😩 hawkdaddy go on vacay or sum🤺🤺 Mk sorry this is long and it’s late and I’m kiiinndaaa drunk and in da feels anyway bye bye

HELLO ANON! SORRY FOR THE LONG WAIT BUT HERE IT IS! I never thought that i would have to write about mean marinette but here i am LMAO. i hope you like it bb <33

Pairing: Adrien Agreste X Reader

Warnings: Swearing. 

Tags: angst, Marinette is a bitch in this oops, alexa play pity party by melaine martinez. 

“Love, Adrien.”

“Wow, that’s really cringey Adrien.”

“Shut up plagg, I need to confess to her some way or another.”

Adrien Agreste is sprawled out on his bed and he just finished writing a birthday card for you. Yes, it was quite cheesy but he decided that today was going to be the day he confesses his feelings towards you. He’s had his eye on you ever since your first day of school and you’ve both gotten closer to each other, flirting constantly but never making a move. Needless to say, he was head over heels for you and was too much of a pussy to ever admit it. But tonight was the night.

You invited him over to your house for your birthday party along with your other classmates and he didn’t even think twice to agree – especially since his dad is at a fashion expo in Spain. All he wanted was for you to have the best birthday party you could possibly have. You really meant a lot to him.

  his thoughts disappear when all of a sudden his phone beeps.

 ‘Y/N’S PARTY WILL BE HELD AT MY PLACE SO WE CAN SURPRISE HER, DON’T MENTION ANYTHING TO HER. 7PM ! DON’T BE LATE! ~Marinette’

  ‘Sorry, can’t come tonight.’ You frowned as you stared at your phone, seeing a text from Marinette. You and her weren’t really that close to be honest but you still wished for her to come and have a good time. You sighed and plopped down on your bed. It’s your sweet 16th and you wanted it to be perfect. You hoped that enough people would show up. It was your first birthday here in Paris and although you haven’t been here for a while, you thought that you already made close connections with your classmates, especially a certain blond.

All you wanted was for him to show up mostly, maybe tonight you could make a move. Maybe tonight you could possibly hold his hand, maybe dance with him, maybe give him a kiss on his soft cheek or a small peck on the lips-

Your face heated up at that thought and a grin appeared on your face. You hugged your pillow and quietly squealed. Tonight was the night and nothing could possibly ruin it.

Or so you hoped.

 Everywhere was decorated with fairy lights, balloons and glitter. Music was already playing and there were drinks and snacks for everyone to enjoy. You were wearing the outfit you’ve been planning for ages and you were sitting down, leg bouncing as you wait for people to arrive.

Did you get the time incorrect? you did mention to everyone that you’re meeting up at 7pm. It was 7:15.

Maybe they were running late? But how could it be that all of them were running late?

You furrow your eyebrows and grab your phone. You go on Instagram to see if anyone posted anything about their whereabouts.

Kim was live.

You click on it and see him walking through a crowd of people.

“Marinette, this party is amazing!” you hear him shout.

“Thanks Kim.” You hear her say.

Your jaw drops Anger starts bubbling inside of you.

Kim turns the phone up and shows Nino on the dj stand. He waves to the camera.

“Adrien! say hi to my live.” Adrien appears next to Kim. He was caught off guard. He smiles sheepishly and waves at the camera awkwardly.

Your phone drops out of your grasp and tears start rolling down your cheeks furiously.

 Adrien was looking everywhere for you. it was already 8pm and he was wondering when you’d show up. He held your gift and note close to his chest, he wanted to personally give them to you.

“H-hey Adrien..” The voice of Marinette makes him turn around to face her.

“Marinette! Where’s the birthday girl?” He asks, furrowing his eyebrows.

Marinette stares at him for a moment and nervously chuckles. “oh- well- she uh- she can’t make it!” He shrugs and laughs again. “did you get something to drink? We have pomegranate juice, peach lemonade, spr-“

“what do you mean she can’t make it? Why the hell is the party still going?” Adrien questions, looking around in disbelief.

“Adrien i-“

“Marinette, your plan is totally working, can’t believe everyone fell for- “ Alya stops speaking when she notices that Adrien is in front of her and purses her lips.

Adrien stares at Marinette for a moment, narrowing his eyes and shaking his head. “On her own birthday? Marinette, this is so not like you.” He was disgusted by her actions.

“Adrien wait!” She calls out. “I can explain.”

“I don’t know why you did this, or what the hell is wrong with you but this was really low. I’m out of here.” He glares at her before walking away from her.

 You were out of control. You cried, you screamed, you threw everything you saw in front of your eyes until you fell on your knees, sobbing.

You couldn’t believe Marinette would do this, you couldn’t believe everyone would do this to you, especially Adrien.

You thought you’ve grown close to the people in your class but you were wrong. They didn’t show up to your birthday party, they lied to you. Your heart was broken.

You held your knees close to your chest as the music lowly played behind you. It was mostly drawn out by your sobs and sniffles.

You hear footsteps approaching you and you look up, with red puffy eyes and see a familiar blond through your blurry vision.

It was Adrien. You look away and sob even harder at the thought of him seeing you like this, with everything destroyed around you. Why did he come here? Did he want to taunt you further?

He kneels down next to you and rubs your shoulder, moving you to his chest and causing you to nuzzle your face there.

“I hate this. I hate today, I hate Marinette.” You mumble. Maybe hate was a strong word, but you didn’t care at that moment.

You look up at him. “Why did you come here Adrien? Do you want to make me feel even more embarrassed than I already am?” You croak out.

He shakes his head. “Please, I swear to you Marinette told me that your birthday party was moved to her place, she told everyone that.” He sighs and shows you his phone so you could see the message Marinette sent him.

“Fucking bitch!” You exclaim and hide your face in your hands again.

“Hey, hey. I got here as soon as I found out she was lying. All I wanted was to celebrate your birthday and make you happy” He says quietly.  “I’m so fucking sorry that this happened.” He says and rests his head against yours in a comforting manner.

You look up at him and wipe your eyes, sniffling. “Well, there’s nothing I can do now. It’s ruined.” You mumble and sigh. “I thought Marinette was my friend you know?” You mutter.

“I know.” Adrien nods and looks down. He stares at the card in his hand and bites his lip, his heart racing at the thought of giving this to you.  “Maybe this will make you feel better.” He says, a small smile twitching on his lips as he hands you the envelope.

You widen your eyes and look up at him as if hesitant to open it. You open it though and you begin to read it.

Ever since the first time I saw you, you absolutely took my breath away. Ever since the day I first saw you, I thought to myself that I have to get to know you better. I did. And that may have been one of the best decisions of my life. You have a beautiful mind, a beautiful soul and a beautiful heart. To be honest, I think I keep falling for you every day. Happy birthday Ma belle, i hope you have the best one yet.

Love, Adrien.

Tears start rolling down your cheeks again, but this time it was because of his sweet words. Your heart finally felt whole.

You look up at him with glistening eyes and give him a wobbly smile.

He smiles sheepishly at you. “Will you go on a date with me?” He asks.

You didn’t even answer, you just leaned in and placed your lips on his.

It was small, but you felt fireworks burst inside of you.

You pull away and watch him flutter his eyes at you, his cheeks glowing red.

“Does that answer your question?” You ask.

He chuckles and kisses you again.

Maybe your birthday wasn’t so bad after all.

[velveticamoon]

AOT : HOLIDAY HEADCANONS

these totally weren’t supposed to go up yesterday ahaha- 

P.S: this is my first writing post!! i thought it would be an easier transition by writing hc’s, and i got my friend saniya (@bokesaniyaboke) to help me out with writing them, so i hope y’all enjoy :) (enjoy our 2 am chaos-)

i have more writing planned for the future too, and decided that i’ll be writing for: 

- attack on titan

- bungou stray dogs 

- free!

- fugou keiji: balance unlimited. 

don’t be shy to send in your requests, i’m more than happy to do them ;) 

anyways, i hope you guys enjoy, let me know if you want more! and to those of you that celebrated, hope you had a merry Christmas :) 

LEVI

Decorating the house with him!! Except he’d be trying to get out of doing it at first lol

He’d be pissed about the mess that would come with decorating the house 

But if you keep pestering him enough he’ll eventually give in lol 

He’d be very meticulous about which decorations go where, but you’re just gonna have to put up with that 

Pls don’t complain too much, he really wouldn’t be doing it with anyone else 

(in the words of saniya: “ur the only exception be happy about that)

Idk why but i feel like he’d be really good at hanging up the lights?? With the placement and whatnot? 

He probably has a very keen aesthetic eye i feel like (saniya: “pinterest but as a person vibes”)  

At the end of it, while y’all are sitting on the couch drinking some tea, he quietly mumbles how he likes the work you two did 

But you felt like teasing him and he got all huffy and said it louder, obviously calling you a brat right after cuz why wouldn’t he 

EREN 

Ask him to make gingerbread houses!! pls he’d be so excited about it 

He’d even go to the store himself and get all the supplies on his way home and you both wouldn’t waste a minute to start a baby

Look he’d start getting competitive (pls we all know how he is) and would turn it into a competition so be prepared for that lol 

But when his gingerbread house falls over he starts getting angry

Proceeds to drive to the company’s factory to break it down in his titan form (there’s no stopping him now) 

Gets Armin to join him and they smash the houses in their titan forms together LMFAOFNDND PLEASE IM WHEEZING- 

But for real, he’d probably get pouty, and turn into a whiny baby

Don’t call him out on it though he’ll just get even worse lol  

Shower him with kisses right after and he’ll be blushy but he’s fine dw about it 

He’ll get over himself eventually and then proceed to ask with a boyish grin on his face if you wanna give up and just eat the houses as they are 

Y’all end up with stomach aches but it’s fine he makes it a little more bearable :))

MIKASA 

Making ornaments (pls it’d be so cutenjdjn)

Saniya: “she would stab me with an ornament and i’d say thank you” 

Comfortable silence with a little chatter here and there

Every now and then she rests her head on your shoulder (softie) 

Just like Armin, getting super flustered and blushy when you compliment her 

She helps hang the ornaments onto the tree and the tree turns out to look so pretty

Would take your hand and sit the two of you on the couch and just admire the tree in silence 

It’s so comforting you slowly feel like you’re about to fall asleep 

Make her some hot chocolate pls all she really wants is to cherish this atmosphere the two of you have created, all huddled up on the couch together 

She’d totally fall asleep cause the girl’s always working in overdrive pls does she even sleep-

Make sure she’s warm alright?? If u don’t i’ll stab you ;)

JEAN 

Watches hallmark movies with you, only to make fun of them (romance at it’s finest amirite) 

Popcorn fights while watching them 

Will get mad when you see a horse and say “look it’s you horse face” 

He says the dumbest pick up lines during the movie as an attempt to impress you 

“hey y/n, can i have your picture so i can show santa what i want for christmas?” 

“jean, we’re literally dating-” 

Something romantic will happen in the movie and Jean will continuously ask you to recreate that scene. “y/n can we-“ “if your about to ask me if you can spin me whilst ice skating, then no” “aw :(“ 

Oh to be spun by jean while ice skating- but that’s not the point 

Wrap him up in a blanket while watching the movies, he’ll melt 

Call him out on it and he’ll turn into ereh 2.0 (aka another whiny baby) 

Jkjk but he’ll definitely try to deny it cuz u know he’s a “biG oL maNLy maN” but he’s a softie ;)

ARMIN 

Making holiday cards with him 

When you bring up the idea his face lights up instantly it’s the cutest thing omg

I can see him bringing his own supplies to help with getting started

Envelopes, letter paper, markers. Hell, he’ll show up with glitter markers (those things are god-tier istg-)

he gets super flustered and red when you compliment his card

SUCH A CREATIVE BOI

If you mess up on your card he’s totally gonna be there to cheer you up!!

“Hey don’t worry, you can just start on a new one :D”

He probably won’t ask but he lowkey wants the card you messed up on cuz he thinks it’s cute

Makes cards for everyone and then takes you with him to deliver them

Would be really shy at the post office cuz he’s never done this before 

*cue you falling even more head over heels for him because he’s just so?? endearing?? it’s insane??*

Eventually, he gets the hang of it and ends up having a really fun time :D

Let him be the one to place the stamps on the envelopes, it’s ~therapeutic~ for him 

Overall, he’s probably the best person if you wanna use this as a healing opportunity tbh, the entire day is just filled with the calmest atmosphere one could wish for, and the smiles never leave your faces, even after you’ve finished

CONNIE 

Snowball fights w/ our resident baldy jKJKJK

Pls you wouldn’t even plan for it to happen 

It just kinda,, did,, 

Y’all we’re walking through the park, on your way back from lunch or something 

But you decided to make a pit-stop at the park cuz you saw an ice cream truck (do y’all know how rare those are in winter?? I’d be running to get to it pls i have no self-control) 

Anyways, other ppl had the same idea, so now y’all were standing in line waiting 

As he was looking around, his eyes landed on some other kids throwing snowballs at each other, and ideas started forming in his head uh oh-

And there just so happened to be a pile of snow right next to his feet- 

Y’all can probably guess what happened- 

“Hey y/n” “yeah-?” *throws it right at your face* 

And so the war begins 

Two words: S N O W  F O R T S. pls ppl would be concerned as they walked by and saw y’all just trying to fucking PUMMEL each other (sounds like fun tho i wanna do it now :( haven’t done it in years pls-) 

But you have to stop it before one of you gets hypothermia considering how long y’all have been going at it 

Anyways, he’ll buy you a hot chocolate to make up for making you frozen to the bone dw :)

SASHA 

Popcorn and cranberry garland 

Look away for one second and the popcorn is gone but you don’t really mind

Make sure to bring a second batch of the popcorn because the first one WILL be gone 

(maybe even a third stashed away-)

She’s really excited about it tho!! But didn’t expect it to take so long omg 

I imagine her to be really clumsy while making them, so pull a move straight out of a cheesy romance movie and help her out while holding her hands ;) 

She probably won’t notice what’s going on for a good minute tho 

Pls be patient she’s doing her best 😔🤚🏻

But once she does she has the cutest blush on her face pls (i just love her a lot can y’all tell-) 

She’ll eventually get the hang of it and you both make really pretty garlands!!

She suggests hanging it up in the bathroom as a snack pls-

HANJI 

Caroling with them omfg- 

It’s gonna be chaotic

The neighbors hate y’all but its fine 

Look man if ur like me and can’t handle people being loud all the time bring earplugs cuz it’s gonna get L O U D

But if you tell them that their screeching is giving you a headache they’ll absolutely tone it down!!

But don’t be surprised when they inevitably forget about that-

But if you're more energetic than I am then have at it ;) 

Pls me and my lazy ass could never handle that- 

Anyways when y’all reach the houses where they refuse to open the door?? Hanji’s breaking that shit down and hollering into their house at the top of their lungs

Ur literally gonna have to drag them away before someone calls the cops 

Moblit pls get over here and collect them I’m begging u dude-

Don’t be surprised if y’all spend the night in jail that’s just how it’s gonna be oops 

[ruiyuki]

"Vanitas": The Name and Legacy

Vanitas declares early on that his motive for using the Book of Vanitas to save vampires of the Red Moon is to take "revenge against the Vampire of the Blue Moon". But some of his actions, reactions and expressions seem to contradict a conventional interpretation of "revenge". Seeing how MochiJun is a master of conveying things through facial expressions, nondescript panels, and double meanings, here's my stab at trying to figure out a bit of Vanitas' complexity and his (??hidden??) motives.

⚠️⚠️⚠️ MANGA SPOILERS, obv ⚠️⚠️⚠️

Also this analysis is really long. ‼Continuation in reblogs.‼

For the sake of minimizing confusion I'm going to refer to our!Vanitas as "Vani", Vampire of the Blue Moon (VotBM) as "Luna", and the name "Vanitas"/"Vanitas of the Blue Moon" as a title in this analysis.

0. "Revenge" against the VotBM

Now, what kicked me into this train of thought initially was watching the scene where Vani announces his revenge plot to all during the Bal Masque. Ofc Bones is doing quite a good job with the anime (I can honestly forgive them for leaving out some scenes knowing budget constraints and that this was probably produced during COVID; it's just more reason to get viewers to read the manga) but there are still some subtle nuances that MochiJun puts in her work that don't get translated into the adaptation. So I revisited Memoire 7 and something just didn't sit right upon looking at that scene retrospectively – which I'll get to that in a bit – but first let me recap what is my interpretation of Vani's proclamation:

The origin story we were told at the start of the series illustrates that vampires are typically born under the Red Moon, except for the one born under the Blue Moon. VotBM, given the moniker "Vanitas of the Blue Moon" by others at the time, is said to have created the Book of Vanitas capable of manipulating the World Formulas in order to curse all the RM vampires that casted them out of vampire society. Cursing the RM vampires = turning them into curse-bearers inflicted with malnomen.

Vani's "revenge" against the VotBM is to use their name "Vanitas" and the Book to cure all RM vampires of their curses and malnomen. In that sense, Vani saving the vampires is directly opposing the vow to curse all RM vampires as told in the VotBM origin story.

Vani's revenge claim seems pretty straight forward. There is nothing of the sort as to claiming he will turn the vampires into humans, or rewrite their existence into something they are not, etc. It is literally just "I will heal you from your sickness out of spite towards the thing that wants you to suffer". His feral revenge proclamation on top of the chandelier lines up with his feral "I will save you no matter what, using whatever method I choose" at the end of Memoire 1 as Noé points out:

So here's the thing that felt a little out of place upon my rereading of Memoire 7:

This panel. Idk about you but as a long time reader of Pandora Hearts, imo one thing that makes MochiJun such a talented artist and great storyteller of plot twists and angst is how she depicts emotions in facial expressions – it is very subtle with a certain finesse. With the above panel, Vani's expression doesn't necessarily look like "anger" or "vengeance" to me. Rather (and it took me a while to place it actually, flipping back and forth between newer and older chapters) his expression looks... melancholic? Melancholy with sense of conviction.

It's noteworthy that MochiJun has made an intentional choice to emphasize Vani gripping his closed fist and his distant stare here, so it has to be important. So, what could Vani be thinking of in this moment? And why?

I. Vani's hidden expressions and feelings towards Luna

To (attempt to) figure out what might be going through Vani's mind in this moment, let's take a look at some moments we've seen Vani making different expressions and when he's thinking back to the VotBM – or really, his time with Luna. Vani claims he hates vampires, but there are obvious exceptions (Jeanne, Noé). What's interesting though is that, despite claiming to hate the VotBM, I don't think he hates Luna. He may hate the being that Luna is but I don't think he hates Luna as a person.

We can see the difference between his hatred and active desire to kill Moreau, as well as his completely blank, no-remorse kinda expression toward the Chasseur's cross in the Catacombes arc vs the above panel after his revenge proclamation:

Also contrast the above chandelier expression to Vani's empty look of distain in Dante's flashback when they first meet:

I would say none of these Vani expressions look very similar to the chandelier one — the empty or blank stares are missing a sense of resolve and the teeth-gritting smirk lacks any bit of sadness felt in the scene. Now, when do we ever see Vani make another expression of what I would call melancholy?

Ughghgh these panels break my heart every time bc there is such a sense of sadness, it's distant but palpable and it is t r a g i c... but I digress.

We have no way of knowing what Vani is thinking in these panels but I have a few ideas:

Vani thinks back to something Luna said about how one should use the Book of Vanitas when Noé says using the Book's power to cure curse-bearers is "overwhelmingly right". What Luna said? Who knows, but it may be along the same lines of "despite its power" and "doing the right thing".

Vani realizes the reason Misha wants Noé to drink his blood is bc Misha doesn't remember what happened That Day. He repeats "... I see." twice as if he's reaffirming to himself that he's the only one left that remembers what happened. If Misha did remember, there would be another person to share the memory but Misha doesn't and Vani is alone in the world in that sense.

If we are to assume that this is what's going through Vani's mind in these moments, then we have to ask why? Vani thinking back to his time with Misha and Luna elicits this sadness (possibly likely?) bc Vani did truly enjoy his time with them and didn't actually hate Luna. In his own flashbacks of Luna teaching he and Misha about malnomen (first being Malnomen Prèdateur in the Catacombes arc, second of Chloé's Malnomen Millie) and the flashback of "love" during the Gevaudan Arc, we see that Vani may be grumpy or indifferent while being with Luna, but he is still attentively listening and comfortable enough around them for them to hug him:

Ofc, we can't forget that Vani, in his fever and poison-induced delirium, even mumbles to himself ".. didn't actually hate... I didn't... Lou..—" while recovering in the cabin with Jeanne. Given that just before this he asks "Is that what you really want? Truly?" in response to Jeanne saying "This time for sure, I'll kill the beast", perhaps we can even posit that Vani didn't actually hate Luna and didn't actually want to kill them? (I have another theory on what could have happened on That Day but let's get through this one first *wheeze*).

So let's summarize:

Vani claims he will cure RM vampires of their malnomen as revenge toward the VotBM, who is said to have created the Book of Vanitas to curse RM vampires that made them an outcast.

Curing RM vampires of malnomen = revenge since it is directly opposing using the Book to inflict curses

But Vani shows a look of sadness mixed with conviction that contradicts what would be thought of when claiming "revenge", which could possibly be him thinking back to his time with Luna, whom he did not actually hate and possibly did not want to kill but had to anyway.

So here's my theory: the reason why Vani has assumed the name "Vanitas" and is on a quest to cure RM vampires of their malnomen with the Book of Vanitas is to "rewrite" the reputation behind the name Vanitas of the Blue Moon.

... And I will continue explaining this in the reblogs ⤵️⤵️⤵️ bc holy fuck this meta is so long I have reached the image limit per post asjfklgs

[mitzisarchive]

First of all, my English is not good, so I apologize for any errors

1) Regulus died fighting against everything he knew. That's all I’ve said and it’s objectively true.

We don’t know how regulus though, but we know he came from an abusive household. Did he believe in those ideals? Yeah, likely. Did he have another option? He didn't have a safe space like Sirius or good influences in his life. Pretty much a lost cause.

We don't know if he decided to betray Voldemort only because of his elf or if it was also the fact that he had made Horrocruxes. (Even though I think it would be kinda weird if he decided to face that death only because an elf, so probably the discovery of the Horcruxes had something to do)

But, even if he decided to leave Kreacher behind knowing that the elf would be alone in that house with his parents only because of that revenge (again, kinda stupid but anyway) he still died fighting against everything he knew/believed in.

There's a crucial part in Sirius’ words about him: “From what I found out after he died, he got in so far, then panicked about what he was being asked to do and tried to back out.”

Tried to back out? How did he know? As far as we know, the blacks knew about Regulus' death (they both have wrong versions) the only thing they have correct is the fact that Regulus died fighting against Voldemort. There's this post at r/Harry Potter that explains this better than me:

“Was it just a random assumption that Sirius made? “Well our guys didn't do it, so it was probably Voldemort, that's what happens when you become a Death Eater, bro”? Although I could see Sirius thinking along those lines, he did say “from what I found out” and you don't find out your own assumptions, really. So who did he find this out from?”

What I want to say, is that Sirius came to the conclusion Regulus wanted out, and it's weird, because if he had been a mad blood-supremacist death eater like his family that wouldn't have been a conclusion Sirius would have arrived at.

And, again, he was a child. “He was 18, that's an adult”, yeah, no.

2) Snape defected because a friend he hadn't spoken to in roughly 5 years was in danger.

First of all, Lily and Snape weren't friends.

Second of all, y'all realize the only thing that made Snape change sides was a woman he was obsessed with, right?

At that moment he realized Lily was in danger he changed sides only to protect her. She was married and had a child, yet everything he cared about was her. (which, btw, only proves that he didn't care for her, only for his own happiness)

If Lily Evans hadn't been in danger, Snape would be just another name in the book like Avery, Mucilber, or Avery. So, yeah, not sure yall want to defend him that way.

Now, let's compare them. They both came from abusive households, even though we don't know much about them. We know that Snape wasn't beaten into blood-supremacist ideas, and Regulus probably was (am I saying that Regulus didn't believe in them but he was forced into believing? No, I'm just saying that he didn't know better because of his upbringing)

Regulus betrayed Voldemort at 18 when someone very close to him was damaged by Voldemort, and so did Snape later (but, again, Regulus’ death was a sacrifice, snape’s betrayal was not. And his death was a consequence of Voldemort’s madness btw)

So yeah, Was Regulus good? We don't know. Did he die believing in the cause? We don't know. We have little information about him. We only know what Sirius and Remus told Harry about him and they both thought Regulus had seen sense at the end of the day.

Was Snape good? Hell no. The crucial part of my hate for Severus Snape is the fact that he chose to bully little kids because... Idk, “my actions led to the death of the woman I was obsessed with, and now y'all 11-year-olds will suffer because of it”

If that is “undoing his wrongs to you” well, there's nothing I can do.

friendly reminder that being a regulus stan ≠ being a snape stan

regulus died at 18 fighting against everything he knew

snape lived to his thirties and spent his adulthood bullying children (among other things)

to quote sirius, “my idiot brother, soft enough to believe them… that’s him.” we know sirius, and he wouldn’t have talked like that if regulus had been some git like snape or avery

[mr-nauseam]

I see you finally stumbled over the Mary Russel series and man I have such complicated emotions about those books. On one hand King writes excellent mysteries and I'm kinda wanting to abscond with the foundation for one or two of them for my own stories - never let it be said that I'm above plagiarizing from the professionals, besides as Holmes one said it's all been done before anyway - but man she does not know how to write relationships.

Watson's character is imho the least of it. Yes he sorta falls into the idiot!Watson trope but he comes across as a fairly loveable man all the same once King gets into her stride of the series, though he doesn't appear very often. But while things start out pretty good with Russel and Holmes the end of book two kills both Russel's character, King's version of Holmes and the relationship between them stone dead and none of it ever really recovers from what she did. It's not the marrying thing, that could have worked, it's the final part of the lead up.

Sorry I just have several ready to go rants about that specific part of the series and... yeah, it pretty much ruins everything else for me. I won't burden you with anything beyond this though unless you're actually interested.

So what you see revolves around a post that no longer exists because when I get upset I tend to be passionate and intense but after a while I calm down and see things clearly, in this case I decided better to delete the post but a summary about it: I discovered Mary Russell, and I was curious about her book series, because the girl seems great and because regardless of the perspectives I have on the character it seemed that in the end someone had written a good straight romance with Holmes. My annoyance came mainly from the reviews I read about the books and the character, since in these many people they decide to belittle Watson to favor or pay compliments to Mary R. which bothered me and that is why I began to complain.

Now yes, eventually I would get there because apart from my essays on how the idea of ​​Holmes being straight is absurd or that women will never be his cup of tea I have this campaign called "At least learn to write a heterosexual romance for the God Sakes! & Leave Irene alone. " I have a post about that but I think I did it in Spanish and post on facebook, I could translate it and share here. but idk XD

The writer as I saw seems to be good, come on if she won awards it is because she has talent! In some reviews they put fragments of her writing and what I read seemed interesting and attractive! Besides, as I said, Mary R seems to have her own charm as a character. BTW several books have intense and eye-catching titles (this is important to me and is actually why I didn't read A Study In Scarlet first but I read The Valley of Fear instead). And there are some very good plots! So I'm very curious about your thoughts, tell me what you want and don't be afraid of the spoiler, it doesn't bother me at all (in fact as a SO fucking anxious person I'm I like to know in advance what will happen). So, in your opinion, the author managed to build the relationship? When did it screw up? How was it? Your opinion about Mary R. About her Holmes. Tell me please!

Hahahaha about Watson well yes, imagine it, as I saw the saga is basically about Mary R. and sometimes Holmes comes out. My anger came mostly with the people who are fans and they posted those terrible reviews. I think the hate that Watson has for certain things still seems surprising to me. (And I say certain things because I love the character but many do not hate him for his judgmental attitude or for his misogyny or negative attitudes that he has, but almost all that "contempt" is for being the "foolish friend of Holmes, an unworthy company for the detective "and wtf ?, that gives material for another whole post for xD)

[literaphobe]

hi michelle!

could you rate the mcc games pleaseee, i would love to hear your thoughts :)

(also, i hope you're having a nice day!!)

here are my ratings for the games :) only mcc16 but u can ask for non mcc16 in another ask this just got long

sky battle: very pog. i like how u have to run around to various locations to get loot, but also u get to kill people but also u gotta be fast bc oh no the border is closing in!! bridge u little bitch!! jump! fly! run! i think it's cool how it's all up high so u could fall to ur death but also that gets annoying esp towards the end of the game n idk it makes it harder to clutch up bc of how the arena is built so u get many oh :( moments instead of oh!!! moments. plus the thing at the bottom kinda sucks like ok so u jump there as a last ditch attempt but there's no Real thing to save u there so u just die its stupid. make it worth it. i like the three round thing tho :D like its ok that u died u can try again bb!!! and im interested to see more cool ways to kill people in this than just standard pvp like dream used the fishing rod n it seems he has more tricks up his sleeve so im excited to see him 'make them regret allowing fishing rods' like he said. 8/10

battle box: my beloved!! i like the 9 rounds thing where u go up against every team n each member gets a Cool Thing that can help them in special ways. the wool thing is cute too. good game that tests pvp well! i like the maps mostly n the kits r usually cool unless they suck then they like make me go ugh 🙄 9/10

to get to the other side and whack a fan: it's cute bc there's quite a bunch of maps for this n there are 6 rounds so u can still come back even if u fuck up a round. but some maps r annoying bc they are frustrating n not intuitive or they are just annoying or like if u fuck up the first time ur almost guaranteed unable to finish or u get real close n then fuck up n then can't finish or some shit. sad :( i like it when the pov im watching does good but if they don't do good it sucks and the map is lousy >:( but its a very cute game n i think the punching is funny unless the pov im watching gets punched >:( then what the FUCK bro that is SO messed up WHERE is the sportsmanship :/ dhfshsfj 8/10, but that score rises depending on the maps

parkour tag: im glad because it reps parkour but it's got this unpredictability of one person having to catch three different people presumably all running in different directions. a balance of skill timing n luck n also teamwork :) also like battle box i like the 9 rounds. however the scoring is a bit scuffed n unless they change it its always gonna pull down good hunters who don't have other good hunters on their team etc, i can elaborate on this using dream as an example but that would have to be another post. 8.5/10

sands of time: i really like the some of the new changes like how they have brain puzzles in the form of the blue wool thing so it's not just ur skill in the game but also it combines various skills like fighting strategy and maze running and also parkour it is very satisfying to watch but also scary it really keeps u on ur toes and its fun watching people solve stuff and get the coins its like a treasure hunt i love it more just thinking about it... the vaults r cool the sand to give more time is cool n its awesome when the whole team works great n gets themselves a lot of time n farms a lot of coins hehe the downside is it can get terrible if u die or ur teammate dies and ur sandkeeper doesn't communicate well enough n no one gets saved then that is sad :( still tho conceptually i like it a lot n its potential is cool n the suspense of not knowing how well all the teams did until the end is good too 9/10

survival games: this is like sky battle but on da ground and u get a lot more loot but also if u die thats IT like ok too bad u lose no coins no redos u cannot redeem urself u cannot come back time for u watch the other teams play ig :/ like it's too long a game to have three rounds for too so losing means gg n u gotta wait a while. cute maps tho n its fucking awesome if the pov u watch doesn't die :) n they kill a lotta people :) 7/10

build mart: EWWWW 0/10 GJHJGH jk ok i genuinely do think it's a good game even tho there are certain issues like how despite the changes made its still a tad bit disadvantageous to colorblind players and also it can be disorienting in certain ways like depending on how u look at it a part of me thinks its annoying to collect materials n maybe they should just have everything at their disposal another part of me thinks its cool that they go out shopping for their littol building materials flying around n shit or even in the old shopping cart version its like a warehouse they got stone in BULK boys 6.5/10

ace race: god its fun i like the tridents n the BOING noises n how they go Zoom n Fly n Jump i like the pretty maps but i also do hate player collision n some of the glitches but they have fixed that so hopefully all things go smooth soon :) 8/10

hole in the wall: what the fuck its so glitchy. get well soon but it is kinda funny but it has also caused wars to break out. i like the three round thing as usual n i like the various jumping and shifting strats for various holes to go through (hehe) it is a pretty suspenseful game n i do hold my breath at some jumps bc u don't always know when they hit spacebar if they r getting through or dying. 7.5/10

grid runners: i don't fucking know man they haven't played it yet

anyway these ratings could go up or down. it all depends on how good the pov im watching does 👍 hope this helps

[imsinkingtodeephelp]

Guess who’s back for more that’s right autistic Aziraphale and autistic Crowley hc’s part 2 bc i’m still a thirsty bitch for the representation I hardly get so I gotta make my own:’) (+more hcs as well)

(All of these that involve a little storyline and/or dialogue takes place after the Not-apocalype unless stated otherwise)

-Aziraphale has vv poor motor skills

-”*talking to Crowley* Hang on dear boy I’ve almost got it I just-”

-”Aziraphale you’ve dropped the wine bottle 23 times now just give it to me before it breaks.”

-Crowley has a speech impediment and especially has trouble with “ch” (am i putting this mostly bc i also have a speech impediment and have trouble with “ch” bc of it?? yea)

-Crowley: “I’m so glad The Anticrist didn’t turn out to be satan incarnate.”

Anathema: “??? I’m sorry The What??”

Crowley: “Anticrist.”

Anathema: “Don’t you mean The Antichrist?”

Crowley: “THAT’S WHAT I’M SAYING! ANTICRIST. ANTICRIST. AN-TI-CR-IST.”

Aziraphale: “Please ma’am don’t bother him about it you see-”

Crowley: “Anticrist!”

Aziraphale: “It’s ok Crowley dear you don’t have to keep trying we’ve been over this-”

Crowley: “No no I can do it I’ve got it this time! An….Ti…C….Rist FUCK-”

-When Aziraphale’s wings are out he flaps his wings when he’s happy

-This tends though to knock down things

-Things like Crowley

-Aziraphale LOVES most food but if a food has a wrong texture he just straight up cries bc he can’t eat that food even if it tasted good the texture is just w r o n g

-This causes Crowley to go into Protecc™ Mode and tries his fuckin HARDEST to make the food himself but with a different texture that Aziraphale won’t hate even though he can hardly cook

-Aziraphale still appreciates the gesture tho

-Plants are also Crowley’s special interest

-Did I mention that in the last post???

-Idk

-But like anyway he names them all

-”And this is Hallie and this is Jonathan and this is Anna and this is Leo and this is-”

“Dear I love hearing your plants names and hearing you excited, but I asked you about where we should go to dinner-”

-Crowley has tourette’s

-One of them is hissing

-Both him and Aziraphale find this useful as it sometimes scares off customers from the bookshop

-But it’s not exactly useful when you’re trying to have a normal conversation with a stranger

-Another tic is jumping

-And also his arm suddenly going berserk

-He usually stays away from Aziraphale’s books on his bookshelf (even though Aziraphale wouldn’t be mad if he did knock a couple of books since he can’t control it)

-Aziraphale used to get made fun of stimming in heaven (around the first 2,000 years the earth existed) so he stopped doing it even with Crowley

-One day he started stimming around Crowley while in public and my gosh!! he forgot how good that feels!!

-Crowley noticed and Aziraphale started apologizing and Crowley was like “Angel… You don’t have to apologize for being yourself around me”

-Crowley would kill a lot of the angels in heaven if he could

-They made Aziraphale feel ashamed for a lot of things and he won’t have that so validation time babeyyy

-Crowley stims by moving his fingers kinda like he’s playing a piano

-besides books one of Aziraphale’s special interests is baking!! once he’s done he likes to share the things he’s baked with people

-One of Crowley’s special interests is space and Aziraphale secretly leaves space-related books around for him

-adhd crowley adhd crowley adhd crowley

-he takes over 100 years to do things

-no literally

-why do you think he procrastinated so long on the apocalypse

-he has difficulty focusing but if he’s in hyperfixation mood wOO boy 

-why do you think he has the best plants in london?? exactly case closed

-Aziraphale has a hard time understanding sarcasm and if anyone’s rude to him about it Crowley Will Fight

-anyway they both feel much more comfortable with themselves now that heaven and hell is out of the way

Finally the long awaited sequel to this iconic post. I’m kinda disappointed in this one tbh as it’s mostly just rambling (i had a hard time getting my thoughts in order) and projection so I don’t feel it’s that good but I hope you guys enjoyed this lemme know if you want a part 3!!<3