#ev's writings and thoughts

[hbheavensent]

Eve/Charlie

The long awaited and requested Eve and Charlie post is here! HEAVY TW on the Eve side of things for: Grooming, Postpartum Depression, The Whole Cain Thing, and suicide

So lets roll into it!

So we're actually gonna start with Charlie since she's on the lighter side of things lmao For her design, I mainly wanted to make her feel more like a main character when you look at her, add some interest to her look while still keeping it simple enough so The Viewer tm can project onto her and find her approachable. I also wanted her to look a lot more like a mix of her mother and father while mostly keeping the obvious "child of the devil" thing. I took away a lot of her red in favor of a bright yellow to make her stand out against most of the Pride Ring, and I added in the goat features with a heavier hand than the show does. She also distinctly has Eve's eyes with little hearts in each of them, because that's just. Cute as fuck. And as a bonus, her Eve-Like features down to her natural optimism and sweetness is HAUNTING for Adam. A huge reason why he's so aggressive with her is the only way he deals with his issues are to forget about them or get rid of them. (Apart of why Charlie has to deal with Adam at all is that Lucifer knows that it would upset the guy.)

Then there's Charlie's Demonic Form, she adds a total of 2 inches to her height (lmao) and gets a more hellish color pallet. I wanted it to feel magical girl-esk which is something I'm drawing from her original transformation sequence in the show. Really heavily leaning into the demon thing with her horns getting longer and that streak in her hair desaturating along with her skin. I really disliked that Charlie's Big Fight outfit was so simple so I may have overcompensated but I enjoy the colors. The one arm not having armor is because I imagine her still using the shield as her main weapon. Also, a small detail is her hands are a bit bigger and more claw-like on purpose.

For her story/personality, I'm keeping her naive attitude and her nearly sickening optimism. A lot of that has to do with Lilith desperately keeping her happy as a means of distracting herself until she "disappears" and in part due to Lucifer heavily sheltering her. I've mentioned it before but it does not make sense for Charlie to be 200 years old so I'm knocking it down to 20 years. She's wildly bright eyed and bushy tailed. The reason she has the idea to redeem sinners at all is because she wants Lilith to be able to see Heaven, which because Lilith is dead missing, isn't going to happen.

But she doesn't know that! So it's fine!

She meets Vaggie much the same way, though Charlie is nice enough to know what Vaggie is- it's more of a secret to everyone else in the Hotel than herself. This is also how they come up with the idea to attack back, which Charlie is hesitant to do until it comes down to the wire. She's not a huge fan of violence, naturally.

Charlie's relationship to her father is.. strained, because the second she becomes a person- starts having her own opinions and all that, Lucifer is no longer interested. Lucifer is especially uninterested in the Hotel, he doesn't believe sinners should have the second chance even if they could have it. So Charlie's secondary motive is to prove to him that anyone can be redeemed and that they deserve it, which is something she'll have to reconsider as she gets to know her residents.

For Eve, who makes me so god damn sad, I wanted to show the light leaving her eyes Post Apple Incident. I really wanted to give her curly hair and make her just an adorable cutie patootie. In her Garden Version I gave her these sort of magical birthmarks to symbolize that she came from Adam's rib. I also gave her a tooth gap, because I think it's just plain adorable.

Then as she gains free-will and is banished to Earth she loses that bubbly personality and becomes more and more curt as she becomes a mother. The scar on her hand is from getting it caught in a thorn bush, which admittedly I don't think it looks like that but I'll go back to fix it later. I also kinda deflated the volume in her hair to make her look a touch more downtrodden.

THEN there's her Hell Version, I completely desaturated her besides the red and made her hair more sharp and contained in two short twin braids. I tried to allude to Roo's original design as much as I could by keeping her checkered shirt and the thorn motif- but I wanted to show that her and Adam have very similar tastes, with their leather and spike, punk-like outfits. I also gave her "apple bottom jeans" (they're actually bell bottoms but hush), and a moon pendant that she turned into a bracelet that she got from Lilith.

I imagine Eve has a lot of plant/thorn based powers and can meld into shadows- but I really haven't got all of that sorted.

For her story, and this is where it gets intense so this is your final warning, I wanted to really showcase how wrong Lucifer did her. Not only does she have trouble making Adam happy in the garden, which was hard with his first wife currently being lured in by The Literal Soon To Be Devil... But she also was currently being tempted. Any time her mood soured, Lucifer was there to tilt her chin up and tell her everything she wanted to hear. So of course she trusted him, he was nothing but nice! He always talked about how much he loved her, loved Lilith, loved Adam... So when she was offered The Apple, she took a bite grateful to be included. Adam was a little too late to stop anything, not that he could have but what's one more pound of salt in the wound.

In the same breath Lilith and Lucifer were cast out, Eve was to be dammed to Earth. Adam demanded to go with her, he didn't want to be alone. God, he couldn't do that. So, off they went. They quickly had a Horrible Time, but soon they had Cain. Cain was a sweet child originally, maybe a bit rough with animals and intense with his feelings but.. it really got bad when he was seven and Able was born. Able was a golden boy, no doubts about it.. And he wasn't Adams. Eve had met once again with her fallen friend, see she had just been miserable since being on Earth.. and there was one Angel she reluctantly missed. He always said the sweetest things, after all. Adam didn't notice or care, he loved his sons and was... frankly, too exhausted to notice. Eve after Able was becoming more and more withdrawn into herself, not really caring for ether kid as much as she probably should of. Falling into a deep depression and rarely even feeding herself, it was around this time that Lucifer stopped making his visits to Earth. Both due to Heaven being watchful of the new child and that he wouldn't want to "deal with all that" as he would put it.

When Cain killed Able due to his jealousy, Eve strangled her firstborn and proceeded to cry for the remaining hours of the day. Until Adam came to bury them, she didn't have the strength to do so herself and ate hemlock that same night.

She woke up in Hell, taking a lot of solace in Lilith and Lucifer's company for many years. Lilith naturally missed her and Lucifer was happy to have his "toy" back. (His words, we hate him.)

It took her awhile to adjust but as humans started flooding into hell (post Adam death and then post evolution) she found solace in taking advantage of others, it made her feel powerful. Something she never felt, in control. Yet, she still ended up visiting her favorite couple from time to time for quick kisses and any kind of social engagement. At some point she takes on the nickname of Roo (short for Root, short for Root of All Evil) and is a sort of legend among Sinners.

Later rather than sooner, one of these meeting with just Lucifer ended up with Lucifer wanting a child from her, he promised that she could try again as a mother. She agreed to have her, gave birth to her... but once she saw Charlie's face? She couldn't do it. She couldn't raise a child again even after thousands of years, so.. she left Charlie with Lilith, who never got the chance to have a child and got out of there. Lilith was happy to raise the kid, have any sort of distraction from Lucifer's gilded cage. So, Eve went into hiding in hell and is currently still avoiding Lucifer's eye. Eve only really started killing, gaining souls, and becoming prominent again after Lilith's disappearance. Enraged and ultimately scared for her situationship/best friend, thinking that Lucifer must have done something so she needs real power to question him.

Naturally since being in Hell for a long time she'd learned that he's Actually Not Good and was Just Lovebombing her, but it doesn't stop her from missing him from time to time. And her literal soulmate (Adam) is forever out of reach unless he's in Hell killing Sinners, and she's not so sure he wouldn't hurt her after years of memories distorting and emotions being built up.

Anyway that's... pretty much all I have to say. It's hard to summarize so I apologize if anything is unclear. I want to talk about Eve so much but I find myself just Making Noise instead of having comprehensive statements sometimes. There's also a lot I still have to figure out with Cain/Able and Adam so, we'll get there eventually.

Also here's the line up as per usual.

And a zoom-in on the Morningstar family (+ Eve)

[skyrim-forever]

Any one ever have the issue of wanting to write about a character(s) but having too many thoughts that you can't rangle anything so you just sit there like this

[myinterestsvary-writes]

I still believe the overall story would improve if Eve was featured more as a co-protagonist and not another side character now that Mark and her are dating. It’d hammer home more just how right the two can be for each other. We’re over half-way through the season and her special episode barely has as much consequences on her journey that we get to delve in on and relate broadly to like we can with Mark’s (ofc Mark is THE protagonist so everything has to relate to him and affect him - just saying it obviously should too with Eve but on a lesser degree). We haven’t even gotten Eve’s introspection on her feelings for Mark over the years yet either

[cicadascribbles]

Immortal characters like vampires and gods and whatever are always depicted as being apathetic to downright delusional as a byproduct of their immortality.

Being godlike and powerful makes them jaded and unempathetic (Greek gods in media) and the restless search for connection and validation makes them delightfully delusional and manipulative (many of the vampires in Interview)

But then you move into the robotic vein of immortality and you find a completely different kind of emotional composition entirely.

I was chatting with @rxmain-lettuce and essentially listing off every popular robot in media these days from Wheatley and Glados to AM and Auto.

When you have a character achieve immortality it so often comes with the consequence of depression and loneliness. The immortal’s loved ones pass on and they watch decades pass them by. It results in a character inherently out of touch with reality.

Even well meaning immortals in media like Heimerdinger (Arcane) are slightly deluded in an outdated or lofty way of thinking.

And then you have immortal robots who are anything but apathetic and jaded.

Robots like Glados and AM who completely sidestep apathy by being so hatefully vengeful

It’s almost what keeps them alive.

But then you get into robots like Auto or Five Pebbles who aren’t directly hateful but are antagonistic simply because their intended purpose no longer aligns with that of the human protagonists.

It’s also important for me to mention that I’m largely talking about antagonistic robots. There are plenty of friendly robots in media, however I feel that the characterization of an evil robot is something set into our very history with technology.

I mean the whole idea of “robots are going to kill all of humanity” could’ve started as early as 1900 when the poster, “An Unrestrained Demon” was prevalent.

We’ve always feared technological advances and personally I think we should go back to thinking about how robots are gonna take over the world. The his who thought of that and made movies out of those ideas were genius.

We don’t got jaded, sad, hateful little robots like we used to

[hello-eeveev]

I love Dot/Cleo a lot, l've decided. I absolutely 100% ship it. but not like, ~romantically~. but not not romantically, y’know?

at this point their pining is primarily platonic (I would argue strictly platonic on Cleo’s part, and a confusing mix of mostly platonic and “she’s so pretty?? help???” on Dot’s), but I think that if circumstances are right those feelings could develop a sweet, romantic side as well. like, if we take their scene in the LARP episode for example, there’s a perfectly platonic explanation for their very sweet interaction, but it’s not without the possibility of romance, made even more evident by the background music switching to something with a distinctly romantic tone for just that scene—that’s basically how I feel about them. Sweet and thoughtful, not explicitly romantic but not without the undertone.

[prosebyday]

For once, I’ll spend a New Year’s Eve alone and tuck myself in before the ball drops. My kiss is 1200 miles away and I’m relieved. Every year, I start with some kiss and wake up the next morning pondering what happened to the last –stuck in a cycle of reflection. Haunted by the last man I envisioned a future with. I’m sick of the disappointment. I’d rather get a night of restful sleep, start the New Year refreshed and happy with myself.

Happy New Year // Grazia Curcuru

[mariellaolden]

A Blue Christmas poem ❄️

[coldjustness-archive]

Of all my time in the Tumblr RP defending women who can be absolute BITCHES, I never thought I'd see the day where I defend the bitch inside of someone.

[wingedmiraclesong]

My dear Lucilith fandom.

This. Is. A. Must-READ:

Prequel by Keet126 on ao3.

@keets-writing-corner wrote such an epic on how everything went down with Lucifer, heaven and eden... how hell came to be and was shaped, the sins, the Ars Goetia... how Lucifer and Lilith got together and supported each other through all that happened to them... why Lucifer lost all faith in sinners and so much more......

I just finished it and WOW. I can't describe my feelings. I have no words. THE LORE! The ABSOLUTE ADORABLE sweetness that is Lucilith in this fic.... I can't... I just can't. This might as well be canon.

Please check it out, I beg you. It's SO worth it! ;♡;

[lunaticus]

Title: Forget me not Ship: Usopp/Sanji Tags: Whole Cake Island AU, Angst, Comedy, Established Relationship, Getting Back Together Rating: T

Once again, Sogeking saves the day.

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All noise turned to silence when a humming started.

On the arch above her stood a man, at least she assumed it was a man, wearing a silly, broken mask and a long red cape, and in his arms he held Sanji, bridal style.

The humming turned into a song.

[cigarretteluvr]

I'm a firm believer that there's nothing more to life besides being in love. I love being in love, there's no real feeling like it. Except dancing, which I'm no good at.

Me and dancing have had a horrible relationship my whole life: It's the one thing I don't think I'm good at or ever could be. I did dance class in high school and look back at the footage shocked at my bravery and ignorance. I blame it on my height; tall girls are notoriously bad (or at best awkward) at dancing.

But I love dancing, as foolish as I look doing it. It's my favorite thing in the world to do. Though my ego holds me back from doing it very often, or very sober. A night out dancing is better to me than sex (which, I guess, could be a dance if done with the right person). It's better than drugs. Better than success or revenge or any worldly thing imaginable. It's the closest you can get to the divine.

To me, dancing is the bridge between love and heartbreak. The intimacy between a couple twirling, swaying and moving in synchrony meets it's equal opposite in the reckless abandon it takes for one to throw their head back, jump and spin alone.

There's an abandon that happens when people dance. It's a step above a flow state. A relinquish of the trivial, renouncing the world as one knows it to exist in the liminal space of movement and music. The most beautiful thing in the world next to love. Though, I don't think one can exist without the other.

I would trade all my other talents to just be able to dance well. To have that reckless abandon. To feel that intimacy. When I watch ballet or ballroom or look around the room at the bar, I see people flying. I see people in love. I see them knowing secrets about life I could never unlock. And I get close when I try, but I can't seem to get over my lankiness enough to feel it fully.

[travelingtwentysomething]

I'm sorry it's officially spooky season the only emojis I'll allow are as follows:

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Please memorize these for future correspondence during the -embers and -obers. The only acceptable spooky emojis.

[oxfordelise]

When Adam bit the apple he did it because he trusted Eve. Because he loved her. Adam bit into the apple because the woman he loved told him to, no matter what God said. No matter the rules of heaven. What's heaven to a woman's love anyway? What's God to your wife? The first sins of humanity, were trusting others. Eve trusted a snake, Adam trusted Eve, and I trust you. Maybe that's a sin, just like the first couple. Maybe everyone's right about us and we're sinners and we offend God. But like I said, what's God to a woman's love anyway? What has heaven got that I can't find sitting next to you on a cool autumn morning?

[monsoonwrites]

On every New Year's Eve, I want you to grab me closer,and kiss me exactly a minute to go for the clock to strike 12 and let it linger for a minute or more. Let us end the year together with a lovely memory while also let us begin the year together with a promise to love more. Let our lips be entwined in the eternal magic of living the past and the future together right at the middle of the perfect time,my love You're my beginning,my middle and my end of anything and everything in my life.

[hockeynoses]

I can't get @gemsden's post out of my head...

what about a college AU where st/eve is sick and in order to get excused from class he has to get a doctor's note from the university clinic. ed/die is a med student who is working at said clinic...

[hello-eeveev]

📓

Put "📓" or some other version of a book emoji into my inbox and I'll explain the plot of a fanfiction that I haven't written but daydream about.

this is a ficlet idea I’ve had in my head for quite a while but has never felt urgent enough to actually write (and it periodically disappears from my mind lol)

A Bit of Happy Caleb Introspection :)

Set post-campaign 2, some nebulous time (several months? a year?) after the close of the Ikithon trial, the whole m9 are having one of their regular get-togethers. In a quiet moment when Caleb’s just hanging back and watching, he realizes that he hasn’t thought of Ikithon in weeks. And isn’t that a wonderful feeling? Ikithon is locked up somewhere for the rest of his days, and Caleb is surrounded by the people who love him and whom he loves. He is doing work that is fulfilling, he has a home and a cat and a family again. His life is good, and that last hold Ikithon has on him—the space he takes up in Caleb’s mind—is slipping. It feels like a definitive victory. In all the years since he woke up, he has not envisioned a life for himself that was peaceful and joyful, and yet here he is. Content. Happy.