#escalator to nowhere

[sittinwithyou]

I feel like, sometimes, that we live in this world.

lol. lmao even

[54625]

every time I check in to see what's happening on the realm it seems they're just throwing yet another thing at the wall to see if it sticks

[szilverer]

on hands, responsibility, and "what's mine is yours"

the ghostie is inevitably going to See In Apocyan some rather personally disturbing parallels between the Seventh Coil/Tiger Keeper and themself :D itll take me a while to get to that though so. why not revisit the start with the 37486 unposted things i have lying around

Edward's hands are their hands.

Responsibility is the strongest thread that kept these two tied to each other, back then. Reisz made sure to leave it clear on day one. Marrying me isn't you getting what you want. Marrying me is a punishment.

Which means that all his actions– whatever wrong he does, whatever person he haunts— is on their tab. This is not a matter of guilt or remorse: Reisz' own self-administered price to be paid for their whim is the permanent sense of responsibility over their... husband.

He, by all means, should have died. It would be the kind thing to do by their own (naive) beliefs and yet Reisz kept him alive on a (selfish) whim.

If he's breathing now it's only because they let him breathe.

If he gets blood on his hands, that's blood on their hands.

You are my responsibility.

His hands are their hands.

Reisz' hands failed them ever since they tried to commit suicide in that coffin.

Caving their skull in left a series of minor issues that made their life more difficult. Small things. Speaking. Reading. Writing, holding a pen. Buttoning and unbuttoning. Delicate lab work. Even opening jars stopped being an automatic action and became an active process. Reisz dropped things all the time– they couldn't trust their hands for a lot of things now. Nothing too bad, though! They swear. Nothing serious. Minor annoyances, that's all.

Edward's hands were burned.

It was true hell to move them at all after his darling dearest set fire to his life, yet he endured it. He agonisingly held tools to write letters upon letters and carve sculptures day and night as palliative care, desperately trying to retain a modicum of sanity while separated from his object of affection. He purposefully burned himself again, he endured it, and the pain helped him through it. After shedding skin twice, the scars remain, although not as stiff as they used to be. They don't get in the way of his life at all.

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Reisz doesn't ever ask for help in London– after becoming a POSI, they started to concern themself with reputation. They don't want to be seen as weak, or rather, they don't want people to learn their weaknesses. It feels inadequate.

Well, Parabola isn't London. They reach a point where all the minor difficulties add up. One day Reisz dreams of the Orphanage, their unconscious taking them to their responsibility extended, they see this man they're keeping tabs on, grinning, all but glowing just by being near them, and they are so exhausted they give up, they make use of him.

i need you to...

It makes him so happy. Even when he tried not to smile they could still see the false-joy in his eyes. This is far from a punishment, but isn't that sort of thing part of being loved? Isn't this the make-believe they wanted to experience in the first place? It's fine. No one else is here to see. He's seeing it, but he's cut off from London so it doesn't matter. A couple weeks into this marriage and Reisz starts to slowly but surely favour their own comfort.

His hands are theirs.

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and yeah in case anyone's wondering how badly rei inadvertently set themself up,

[billiuspendragon]

Kubosai continues to be toxic on the Sims 3 💔

[goldennika]

what a rough weak for south koreans — recordbreaking snowfall that led to power outages for days and now, the entire country is suddenly under martial law???

[mariathechosen1]

Seeing non-Norwegians talk about the kerr-ingebrigtsen rivalry is so fucking weird because there are all these people talking about how cocky Ingebrigtsen acts during interviews, but I’ll be watching NRK talk to him and it’s like ‘……no he’s not?? That’s just a regular guy?? How is that cocky? The man’s from Sandnes for christ’s sake’ And then I’ll see a clip or whatever of the interviews he does with international media and uhhmmmm yeah, ok I Get It. Yup.

[phuijl]

im playing Disco Elysium for the first time and i got my first game over just by talking to a young girl about books and for some reasons my character's conversation suddenly spiral into deep depression wait wHAT

[bruce-slutsteen]

i'm trying to learn from my mistakes of getting anxious and overthinking possibly romantic entanglements and just letting the thing happen

and then other times i'm like whatever who cares

[yesterdayiwrote]

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This is so disappointing to hear about for F1 Academy. Given the fact they're using Miami as a real launchpad for this, it's disappointing that the on track commentators weren't prepared and were downright misogynistic about the competitors.

Between this, and Charlotte Tilbury turning the whole thing into an influencer event, why does it feel like they've taken a step backwards from Saudi Arabia?

[fireheartedpup]

I was going to go get some more of my clothing today, but I have no idea if my neighbor is going to be there and just thinking about it is sending me into an anxiety attack.

This is bullshit. I keep thinking I'm fine and then I focus on one thing for too long and it comes back. Then I start thinking that this isn't the worst thing I could experience and I just.

I don't know if she's going to be there if I go get my things. I don't know if she's going to ignore me or try to make a point again. The office said they'd talk to her and are prepared to "take the necessary steps."

Okay so I currently cannot exist in my own apartment without fear of being harassed, and that's probably going to be the case until she's gone. So what does that mean.

I couldn't even bring myself to respond yet, because they asked me what she lit on fire and I'm like. Do you think I went out and asked her? I stayed inside for that part.

It would almost be easier if she HAD tried to kick my ass.

[bambiraptorx]

I’m sorry you are having a bad day *gives you ethically sourced cookies and hot chocolate and wraps you in a blanket*.

This ask is so sweet I think I teared up a bit (good tears don't worry)

thank you!!

[strengthofmayhem]

sometimes i think about that one roci lives scenerio that would need domestic violence ao3 tags but also where else are you going to get hyper specific niche scenerio of “sabo and rosinante build pipe bombs together”

[garpond]

anyone else w ocd have a thing where its like. you have one or two themes that freak you out the most and can send you into panic attack levels of fear, but then you have a few in the background that always stay at a super chill level despite the fact that you can't get out of the compulsion. like youre not even properly AFRAID you just do the thing Just Cuz because not doing it feels like a reversal of gravity. like the 'mildly thirsty so i take a sip of water' of ocd themes as opposed to the ones that are more like dying of thirst chugging anything u can get your hands on if that makes sense

[rosemaze-reveries]

is the implication here that luna tried to get cosmetic surgery as an actress, or that getting maimed was her "own fault" for trying to leave?

[kneworder]

pouring one out for fanfiction.net user enigma731 you truly were the greatest chameron warrior the world has ever seen 🫡