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So Httyd is getting the “Netflix Adaption” treatment
Can we please STOP with the live action remake remakes of already existing animated series trend that’s been plaguing many major studios for the past few years now and has only brought controversies from people who don’t like the casting and or a possible financial failure.
Like so many of these live action movies just feel like soulless rehashes of the originals with only minor or complete changes that it’s not even worth going to see them if you could simply just watch per say the original Beauty and the Beast at home on that same old DVD you used to watch for hours as a kid while the live action one plays in the theater.
Mulan is a great example since the remake is boring as heck to the point it feels like a random ass war movie (Literally remove any references to Disney and you could pass this off as anything but a Disney movie, people liked the original for its humor that helped to break up the more serious moments of the film. Heck, the Phoenix in the film simply appears in like two scenes and barely does anything, like you could have at least had it accompany her instead of flying around and being fucking useless the whole film.)
If you want to do a live action movie then do something like Maleficent that redoes the story from a different perspective instead of the same boring stuff we’ve seen before in the original. LIKE CHANGE THE NAME AND DO SOMETHING DIFFERENT FOR ONCE! I REALLY DON’T CARE TO GO SEE THE SAME MOVIE THAT I HAVE SEEN COUNTLESS TIMES BEFORE BUT NOW ITS ALL REALISTIC LOOKING! Not to mention the uncanny valley effect that just makes some beloved characters look creepy as shit or bland as hell.
There’s a reason we shat on Netflix for making live action anime adaptations first because they are just unnecessary. But no, Hollywood had to turn around and do the same shit.
HTTYD was my childhood franchise and it breaks my heart to see it now be memeible with the “Anime, Manga, Netflix Adaption” meme.
Just go watch the original, you won’t be missing much from the remake (And it’s one amazing silly little franchise that I hold dear to my hear.)
#reshi rambles#rant#enough with the live action shit#netflix adaptation#live action#Fuck live action remakes#how to train your dragon#live action slop
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CW - BIG VENTING:
I'm not going to lie
I'm scared and I'm sad
I had no doubts that even if Kamala won, shit was still going to be bad
but this is infinitely more terrifying
I'm scared for me, my family, my friends, literally everyone that this fucking piece of shit criminal and his actual neo-nazi vp hate and want wiped from this planet.
But I'll tell you right now
More than anything I'm feeling mad
Realistically, its going to take more than just me being angry to actually get things to change
But I'll be damned if I don't do anything in my power to make sure that the people I care about stay alive
And you better fuckin' believe I'm not going to let some moldy piece of cheese out live me
I'm living for JOY and SPITE now
#Sammy8D says#we're feeling a certain way tonight bois#This is probably the only post I'm going to be directly making about this#And if you're that fucker who keeps sending me shit in my inbox#Shut the fuck up#“Oh I'm sorry if you already know and are upset but heres more information about a thing that you already are aware of”#Acting like you're doing a good public service fuck off#Like who the hell do you think you are#I hope every trump supporter lives long enough to face the consequence of their actions and I hope they suffer for it
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I love that this fandom doesn't understand Baxter's character, I adore how they patronize him,a whole ass adult, for facing the consequences of his actions.
I love how people make him feel like a sad little baby when he leaves mc as if that's not something he made extremely clear. I love how people treat this 19 year old as if he's not old enough to understand the consequences of his actions. I love how Baxter is aware of his flaw's but feels like he can't break them because people only see him as a tool and this fandom reinforces that.
I love how people will get mad at Nico for doing the cardinal crime of being 6 years old but will baby a 24 year old Baxter. I love how people make him this charismatic rich guy when it's shown that he's a hot mess that doesn't know what he wants. I love that Baxter's whole character arc is about his self sabotaging tendencies and how everyone ignores that. I love that people fell in love with the mask he had for most of the dlc.
I love that this fandom lacks reading comprehension skills and understanding of nuance characters, great job everyone for not understanding how writing works :)
#our life#misty talks our life#olba#our life beginnings & always#our life beginnings and always#olba baxter#our life baxter#baxter ward#this is what i mean by “i don't haye Baxter's character” i think hes very interesting and we should look towards his dlc with critical eyes#because it's a fact that his dlc was rushed and that kab/gb lady doesnt care for him#it shown in the writing of his dlc#so that is interesting for me but is also interesting for me how ppl are quick to baby this man#like again baxter is fucking 19 when he leaves mc “but misty 19 year olds aren't fully growns up” hi 19 year old here#i know that bitch but im old enough to understand that my actions have consequences and affect others#which is smth Baxter is aware of as well#that's fhe thing that bothers me#hes young enough to make that mistake but old enough to understand it will impact mc view on relationships#romantic or platonic smth like that will affect you in some ways#and he knows because hes not a young teenager who still doesn't know how his actions impact people#hes legally an adult he can live on his own hes able to ride a car hes off to college#is not a grown up but is not a child either#as a 19 year old I would love of ppl treated him as a young adult making a dumb mistake#instead of a baby who didn't know any better#like even if he did regret it he knows that thats his fault#hes aware that hes doing this shit to himself and wont stop#thats the point of his dlc#anyways i should make a post on cove's autism
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The idea that goes around that Bruce saw Cass as a soldier in Batgirl (2000) makes no sense because he shows multiple times that he cares deeply about her. Did y'all forget all the fucking dialogues in the comics showing just that? Did you miss Bruce going through his usual "OMG I'm a terrible father I don't deserve to be in her life, I only bring her misery!" thinking? Like, he's clearly not helping her having a normal life, he is teaching her to be like him, to be dedicated body and soul to the mission, and it's not great, but it's not seeing her as a soldier, more like a second mini him. The most hurtful thing he did to Cass, in Cass' eyes, was trying to give her a normal life and stop her from being Batgirl, which Barbara agreed on. Like, can we stop saying Bruce views his kids as soldiers because he trains them, has expectations for them to be good people and let them fight crimes, while having difficulties with his emotions and communications? The principle of a soldier is that they are meant to be easily replaceable, but he cares about his kids, and they want to be doing this shit! They hate when he tries to make them have a normal life because he is scared they are hurting!
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"I thought Cassandra was just like me."
"Maybe being Batgirl is doing her more harm than good. She grew up surrounded by violence and brutality. And all I've done is to surround her with violence again."
"He just wants you [...] to be happy."
"He's worried that being Batgirl is bad for you... That the constant exposure to violence and evil was preventing you from healing the emotional harm you suffered as a child."
"He just worries about you, my dear. He doesn't want you to get hurt."
"I know for a fact that Master Bruce is immeasurably proud of you-- and grateful for all that you've done."
#batman#bruce wayne#cassandra cain#batgirl#dc comics#my ramblings#idc that barbara says he is treating her like a soldier in the comics they love to say that shit that B is treating his kids like soldiers#but it's not true at all#he saw that Cass was like him so he is treatting her like another him#Bruce would fucking love to live in a cave and not have to get out to interract with the real world#Criticize Bruce’s actions in Batgirl go for it but do it correctly! the man DID NOT see Cass as a soldier#he doesn't want her hurt he gets her gifts he hugs her HE CARES FOR HER#there's a reason Cass got attached to him and saw him as a new better dad than the one she already had#because B showed he cared more than David and David does love Cass deeply#B's problems in Batgirl is that he isn't communicating with Cass enough#the comics: Bruce sucks at communicating his feelings clearly but he loves you he cares about you and he is proud of you Cass#the fandom: Bruce treated Cass like a soldier and did not care for her!#once again Barbara and Bruce both fuck up in Batgirl but they learn to do better which is why they are good parents to Cass
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listen it’s none of my business but when you say “Bilbo would have been better for taking the Ring” and then state “Frodo’s character was mishandled” I think maybe you like the Lord of the Rings inside your head more than the one actually written 💀 as if it wasn’t stated multiple times both in the text and by Tolkien himself why Frodo was the Ringbearer. Pleeeeeaaaase PLEEEEAAASE stop giving me gray hairs and take an interest in the text you read and it’s deeper meanings beyond power scaling characters, favoritism and finding the “most efficient way to take the ring to Mordor”. The debates about who should have taken the Ring are the exact same as “they should have flown the eagles to Mordor” except it’s spoken by people who genuinely are avid fans of the books and movies.
#frodo baggins#bilbo baggins#it’s so dire out here man#this was an actual opinion I just saw. unfortunately#at least it’s rarer now but I still see the incredible common opinion that Frodo ‘wasn’t the right person for the job’ or whatever#THATS NOT THE POINT…. PLEASE#why are there so many people who just don’t like Frodo. why don’t you like him. quickly.#is it because he fails. bc newsflash. EVERY SINGLE BEING ON MIDDLE EARTH THAT COULD TAKE THE RING WOULD HAVE FAILED. THATS THE POINT!!!!!!!#is it bc he’s not a typical ‘hero’s journey’ fighter?? bc then I have to ask if you absorbed the ‘I hate fighting and war’ sentiment at all#bc Tolkien tried to make it clear in each of his more ‘typical’ fighting heroes that the act of fighting did not elevate them over others#and that in many ways it was better to find peaceful solutions rather than violent ones.#would Bilbo have resisted more? hard to say!! he held the Ring for a VERY long time but at the same time the Ring wasn’t ‘awake’.#to Bilbo’s enduring credit he held that thing for 60 years before showing corruption#when others that touched the Ring showed corruption INSTANTLY#but at the same time when Sauron began to awaken it and call for it Bilbo DID in fact fall to its power!!#he wasn’t immune!!#neither was Samwise for that matter. no more than Frodo was!!!#augh. my heart hurts man#people give Frodo shit for being a gentle soul who suffered inward more than outward and not returning ‘victorious’#but he did all he could. he did all anyone could. why is that not enough for you people?#it was enough for Tolkien. it was enough for every wise being on Middle Earth. it was enough for those who understood the sacrifice.#Frodo isn’t even a ‘passive hero’. sure he gets a ton of stuff done TO him and his deeds aren’t as visible as other characters.#but every single step towards Mordor was a great action. the very act of carrying the Ring forward moves the story and quest along.#that is an active character. his actions (traveling forward despite bearing the Ring and Morgul wound) are integral to the story#you expect him to do that AND be slaying beasts and commanding others?? the same folly Boromir had. the same way the Ring tempted Sam#cmon. there’s a beautiful world and a beautiful story being told and you’re missing it. let me show you how beautiful it is.#making everything about a single character you favor even if it doesn’t make sense textually is a disservice to the story you enjoy.#the entire world and all the characters of lotr are so compelling even if you don’t like them!!! why ignore that?#it’s the world and people your character lives with!!! look at them!!
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The implications of your last ficlet. Frothing at the mouth. Ohhhhhh the implications. We are being fed today holy hell
I have been looking for an excuse to write my version of Evil X for so long you have no idea. This seemed! Like a good enough reason!
I'm glad you enjoyed it :3
#wooshofficial#rns asks#Evil X to me is like glados and hal 9000 with just a little bit of megatron from the first live action transformers movie#he's almost seamlessly integrated into the coding of the world and its kinda fucking with what (little) humanity he has#but hes got just enough people in him to be self aware and a little shit#mostly though he is very very very very bored#like 2000 year old immortal who has long grown tired of what the world can offer bored#and i love that for him
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LOOK AT HERRRRRRR <3333333
#i think i forgot the depths of my obsession until she showed up on my laptop screen. she has appeared briefly three times now.#every time so fair i have gone SARAAAAAA!!!!! out loud.#im normal. im normal.#i love my fucked up little wet rat. im obsessed with the way she is a broody assassin. im obsessed with the fact that she becomes the#captain of a time travelling ship.#im obessed with the way shes started out by just being obsessed with a boy she had a crush on in middle school.#to the point that she went on a yacht trip to sleep with him despite the fact that he was in a serious long term relationship#with her sister.#i support women's wrongs.#im obsessd that two years into her castaway adventure she's already doing shit like loading up an exchanged hostage with c4. she's amazing#shes so weird and traumatized and trying to be cool and mysterious so bad.#arrow lb#sara lance#her offputting nature and bisexual swagger have bewitched me.#anyway. fun fact. one of the main reasons i stopped watching legends of tomorrow (her show) and eventually dropped dctv altogether.#is that they finally gave her a long-term love interest. but they decided to make that love interest a second blonde woman with long hair.#and i just couldn't handle that. im sorry miss ava i did like you. but i couldn't take the show smashing two identical barbie dolls togethe#it was too much for me. if you are going to give me queer women on tv who do not look particularly queer. im ok. i can live with it.#but at least give them two different hair colors.#its so petty im sorry.#it would've been fine if they had a fling. but she became one of the main cast i believe.#which is like. bad enough. you give me a superhero time travelling team up show.#and two of the team members are blonde white women. and then you make them kiss. insane decision.#i literally have two action figures of her sitting on my bookshelf lmao. it's literally just her and sam wilson.#oh wait nvm. wonder woman is there but shes a vinyl figure (fot a funko pop) riding a horse.#also also mercy overwatch. who is unfortunately a funko pop.#and also a second mercy overwatch funko pop. but a tiny keychain version from a dear friend. hm. maybe i have a pattern of being obsessed#with fictional blonde women.
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I don't care about Moash, just Stormlight's writing, which by proxy means I must care about Moash.
#a stormlight that discards moash like wet tissue paper is a stormlight for cowards#believe it or not redemption isnt just for people who a) deserve it or b) want it right this second. thats not how this works#cosmere#cfsbf#stormlight archive#stormlight#''they reject it'' is not enough grounds to kill someone. there is a continuum of uncountably infinite moments that that can change#here's the criteria where killing someone is an acceptable form of retribution:#1) they are an active threat to the lives and safety of others#2) you cannot phyiscally restrain them; disarm them; or prevent said harm by any other means#the only virtue of death is convenience. severity is not the point. if it was you can justify *many* heinous acts#there is a third a reason to kill someone but that is exclusive to fiction:#other resolutions for their fate would detract from the narrative which might not have the time; means; or trajectory to do so#this is the only one that matters in fiction actually because these are fake people whose every action is at the every whim of the writer#so even if you can hypothetically create a situation that falls under 1 and 2 if the narrative reason to do so is fucking dog shit#write a different scene#see my thoughts on killing amaram who i explicitly DONT think should be redeemed.#but still shouldnt have been killed
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unfortunately the world is too fucking messed up so I am currently unable to give a shit about how messed up everything is because it's all too big and if I get upset about any of it my entire ability to be a person will come crashing in
normal service will resume as soon as possible
#red said#this is not a choice I'm making. to be clear.#it's just that after everything that's happened in the last year or so i am currently incapable of having a feeling beyond 'oh.'#just a kind of blank stare of 'this is certainly information i am recieving'#so I'm giving myself permission. to be numb to the horrors of the world for a short while.#because being mad at myself for not caring enough doesn't seem to be doing much to help and it's sapping me more#so i figure. i just accept that right now i cannot summon any strong reactions to things however much they deserve them#and hopefully a short time of that will help me rekindle my will to fight cause right now frankly I'm getting nowhere#I've still been trying to show up and do what i can but it feels so overwhelmingly pointless i think I'm actively undercutting myself#like I'm actively extending the period in which I can't fully commit myself to any cause or action#i can't even get angry any more and this shit deserves so much anger#but I've been angry for so long i think I've lost track of how to hold it as a live thing#I'm angry about 15 years of social murder in my own country. I'm angry about the ongoing violence against Palestine. I'm angry about Congo.#I'm angry about the death penalty in the US and I'm angry about the ongoing quiet genocide of First Nations people in Canada#and I'm angry about climate change I'm angry that people are burning and freezing around the world. I'm angry and I'm fucking scared#but none of that's GOING anywhere and none of it seems to be worth shit and at some point it just gets ossified#it's not like. a driving force at the moment. it's not propelling me it's not doing anything it's just a constant scab yk#i need. to feel like my anger has any kind of worth or does any kind of good. and that's not there it's just so built up.#i need too flush it out and start with it fresh and keen#cause at this stage yeah I'm just too tired by it to feel it intensely. it's just background noise.#i see the thing about Trump bringing back the federal death penalty or i watch my government debate how best to attack migrants#and I'm just like. 'oh. that's bad. that is a bad thing that's happening.' and i feel nothing#because at this point I'm so used to be information causing anger and fear and hopelessness that it doesn't like. register as a feeling.#this isn't happening about everything. i can still feel things on an interpersonal level. but that like. systems anger.#it's not landing cause i am so struggling emotionally to feel like i can do a single thing with it#like not just stuff happening Over There but here too. people i live being attacked out neglected by structural forces.#I'm succumbing to the 'oh. that's bad.' bc honestly i just have run out of road in being angry#i don't think it's permanent i think I'm just exhausted
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thoughts on fandoms treating characters with a heavily fictionalized form of split personality as if they canonically have DID?
like DID doesnt fucking do this
You mean you don't do a magical girl sailor moon transformation when you switch?
I don't know, sounds sus, friendo
Your eyes should at least change colour, how else do you know who's fronting?
#but in all seriousness#this is a major problem#these highly fictionalized characters from both cartoon/anime and live action affect public perception more than people know#like you might think “psh it's just a show”#but that stuff is damaging when it's the only exposure to the CONCEPT of fragmented identities that a layperson has#saying “yeah that's DID in a nutshell” about certain portrayals isn't enough info for singlets and those outside our communities#and we often end up looking “crazier” and less believable#I've been quoting the isstd treatment guidelines lately#with the quote that clinicians “incorrectly assume that DID has a highly florid presentation” and media plays a huge part in that#imo any good representation about DID would be boring as shit#i don't get super powers#my alters are just as bad at everything as i am even if they're supposed to be specialized
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Hi I'm mad
#this is the only place I can vent about My Hero stuff#I'm so pissed that Toga is dead it's so fucked up#like everything about it is so fucked up#it started with Jin being killed#all he wanted to do was protect his friends#but Hawks mercilessly killed him while he begged for his life#and then in the big battle Toga didn't get to kill Hawks and avenge her friend#and that scum gets to live and continue being a hero#and then Toga dies too while characters with significantly worse injuries somehow survive#like are you shitting me she dies when DABI survived???#dude is a charcoal skeleton there's no fucking way he should be alive#and Uraraka went through this whole deal of questioning heroes' actions because of what Toga said to her#Toga and Uraraka finally reaching an understanding and bonding just for Toga to die is such garbage#Toga wanted to be accepted and she found it in the League#then had to watch her friends all die when all most of them wanted was just a better society#but she could have stayed with Uraraka#it would have been so much more meaningful if Toga had lived and inspired Uraraka to go into like social work#helping people who were outcasts because of their quirks#working with Toga who also knew about Spinner and Jin and Shigaraki's experiences#it's just disgusting and shows that the author doesn't understand his own world#it honestly also gives off homophobia#like he had these little glimmers of queer rep with Magne and Toga#but Magne was brutally killed#Toga died after the briefest gay moment with her and Uraraka#plus we know Jin was an ally because he threatened to kill another villain for misgendering Magne but Jin died too#honestly the only highlights of this ending for me are that Nagant and Gentle/La Brava got to live and be free#I've read this far but I honestly don't know if I care enough to finish now that Toga is seemingly confirmed dead#this is why I don't pick up shonen manga or anime anymore#toga himiko#ochako uraraka
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There's honestly... just so many people, just so so so so so many people in this world where I'm like... aren't you people tired of this fucking... you know, I was going to call them clowns but that's really disrespectful to clowns, these people could never get their face on an egg...
Anyway, aren't you tired of this childish jackass? Don't you just want to ignore them and never have to hear about them again? If we just ignored them they legitimately would go away... don't you want that?
And this applies to... just ungodly amounts of people, from jake paul to even elon musk (just... don't touch his shit, he'll run out of money eventually with how bad he is with it), to just... name an annoying famous person and you'll name someone I've literally forgotten right now that I could never have to hear about again if people would just ignore them (unless they committed crimes, investigators are welcome to pay attention while gathering a case)
Yet the answer's always "no, we're paying so much attention to them!" and I'm just like... why? Why would you watch jake paul box? I heard about that and was like "he's still doing that shit?", and yet I guess it made a lot of money yet again and it's just like... ignore him
These people could go away, and yet
#to be blunt this is also very very very much about trump#the best part of all if he'd lost is how I'd never have had to see or hear about his loser ass again#and you people couldn't even manage that (collective you; not you personally... unless you're Pennsylvanian basically)#like he's insufferable... unless you're a die hard fan of him you know he's just stupid and annoying#why would you want to hear a washed up reality star for four more fucking years?#we could ignore these people hard enough to make them go away#and yet I'll be stuck having to hear him say shit about Hannibal or whatever for four more years cause you couldn't do that#I'm so sick of it; I honestly am#jake paul could have been ignored into obscurity like a decade ago; and yet he's able to launch a scam with mr beast#like dear god... can't you people find something better to do than watch these people? ...like watch paint dry?#it's not just people; it's every live action disney remake; it's... it's just all of it... fucking ai#can't you people fucking ignore it? can't you just kinda boo when it shows up and then forget about it?#I get someone like elon is a toddler that needs an eye kept on him to make sure he's not breaking shit but like...#we could just not buy his cars... which... like... doesn't seem like a hard ask given how badly they're manufactured#again... weirdos on tumblr; I'm doubting you're to blame for most of this#but just like... could we just for the love of god let the stupid shit die out you losers?#I'm not even... I'm not even joking here; this isn't like a goof; this is a prescription#nfts die if literally everyone ignores them; live action remakes die if no one watches them; elon goes bankrupt if no one buys from him#(also gets really sad because he's a massive attention seeker; and that's pretty funny so bonus)#why do I still have to hear about jake paul other than like... 'he's been arrested for fraud' or something reasonable?#could have been done with him years ago... like maybe if you kept around one or two bad habits but... like the lootboxes couldn't go?#tune in; turn on; drop out... this part here; I'm asking you to do the drop out part#drop out of society and stop playing their bullshit games#pay attention; be engaged with the world and your community as best you can; and just stop... stop giving this shit oxygen#but again... if this isn't hitting the void it's probably hitting the choir... you're not an oaf on twitter sucking this stuff up#but fuck me... worry over tariffs and other shit aside; concrete quantifiable worries I can lay out I might add#for the people who act like it's just sky is falling mentality; nah... I can expressly say what and why I worry about come january#but all that aside... you couldn't have voted against him just... just to never hear his annoying ass again?#not saying harris would have been good or bad or anything else... I'm saying she would have been a fuck of a lot less annoying#and like... you gave elon a win too... the two most annoying people on the planet and ya couldn't just... not
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It just sucks it just really fucking does and I never want to admit this because it’s “wrong” to want to “be normal” because these things shouldn’t be considered abnormal but fuck. Fuck man. I wish I was allo I wish I was cis I wish I was neurotypical I wish I was fucking normal and didn’t have all these little fucking things that clump up into a giant mound of ridiculous weight that is just too much for another person to deal with
#if I was all these things. allo cis neurotypical. I would be easy#I would be easy and fine and people wouldn’t give up on me and leave me#because I’m too much to deal with and too difficult and have too many extra little things#that a normal person wouldn’t and thus the normal person requires less energy to love#I feel like a fucking soul sucking creature that just exhausts everyone around me by virtue of existence#and yeah like I’m sorry I know this isn’t the right conclusion to come to#but I think I’m gonna give up and stop trying or even hoping it will happen#I will never be the most important to someone. I will never be a priority#I will be stuck living and knowing I love someone more than they love me#and it’s so obvious through actions and words but also it’s the best I can hope for#because I’m too much of a burden so of course they can’t spare that much time and effort and energy on me#so. accept it. accept I will be alone and will always be alone and should be alone and that’s just how it will be til the day I die#never let anyone try again because even if they say they want to they’re either lying or will quit the second they realize everything#and I just can’t do it anymore I can’t I can’t I can’t#casual friends is the best I could ever hope for that’s all the human connection I get#hide all this awful fucking miserable shit and extra steps and extra care I require#because no one will ever EVER care enough about me to deal with it all#and it will be better for me if I just come to terms with that and approach my life that way#time to revert to the stone cold emotionless fucking bitch I was for years#that’s all anyone will see while inside I feel like I’m just gaping wounds and ugly rotting flesh#and I deal with that pain myself and hide it from everyone else and that’s it#I do that. accept I will be alone. and that’s that. only way to fucking get through life
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chat im really starting to fear that spiderman 4 wont have peter be nearly as sad as i need him to be. nothing at all has happened to indicate that but i just got a bad feeling. im almost completely expecting disappointment atp im just like mj fr
#sorry spideryapping again i cant help it. its in my brain again#saw on tiktok that black cat will be in it and my first reaction was NOOOOOOOOOOOOO bc i just love mj too much im not ready#but also black cat was at the top of my theories. bc it makes so much sense. so i SHOULD be optimistic if theyre thinking the way I think#like. it would cheapen the weight of the last movie if they completely undid the consequences. so they have to be apart for at least 1 movie#and mj and ned are supposed to be in boston at mit so idk how they could be in the plot anyways#and like. black cat makes so much sense bc the whole reason their relationship doesnt work is cuz she likes spiderman not peter#and thats so good for spiderman 4 bc now nobody remembers peter. and also black cat hasnt had any live action appearance yet#AND she comes on really strong so its literally the perfect setup for her#like. itd be weird if peter went looking for a love interest cuz he should be sad but it makes sense that black cat comes onto him#and he needs to meet a new cast beyond his high school friends it makes sense. but mj is endgame always im manifesting it she WILL be back#like black cat being there just suggests all the right directions. they arent immediately undoing the last movie#and theyre introducing more spiderman characters rather than spiderman villains and an obligatory mcu babysitter yk#SO ITS GOOD BUT. FEEL LIKE PURE SHIT JUST WANT MJ BACK#i wanna speed thru the necessary plot without mj to get back to her. mj my beloved#but slso besides all that even if black cat is a good sign. i still fear they wont make him sad enough. i fear the sadness will be offscreen#also i just think its rlly funny. that right when i got into spiderman again after YEARS#i was thinking abt more movies and was like. i think im happy if they stop. idek if i wanna see this peter without his buddies#his story moving forward has to be without them at least for a bit to do his character justice. but i dont need to see it#and then right after i settled on that opinion. BREAKING after 3 years new movie is coming. after i said i didnt want it#ironic (<- palpatine voice)#x
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apparently we're not out of the woods on holiday trauma responses just yet - i'm hoping we're on the tail end of it but like. good lord.
#this post brought to you by#dissociating so hard i had to quit playing magic#it wasn't that far into the game and i don't know wtf is going on with this but like. christ.#i'm so tired of having to come down from huge crying jags and panic and the fear of my mother coming to Get Me for not being Good Enough#like#what the fuck man#i hate this i hate this i hate this i hate this#i thought i was DONE with the goo stage what do you MEAN there's more#cofronting has at least been less chaotic with only a couple people manning the helm at any given time#but like....christ alive can i just like. i don't know#how do you ask for vacation days off from your own brain? cause i'm exhausted man#i'm exhausted with this shit how is this the way i gotta go through life every day#like i could quit food service when i felt like this - and i did#but like. you can't opt out of your shifts in brain because that's where you live y'know?#ugh. i'm...something is wrong and i don't know what i did to fuck up this time but i don't like this#phrasing intentional to mean ''i have done an activity or action that has caused some sort of disruption in my brain that has made things#more difficult for myself due to brain chemistry and it has been relatively recently''#i don't think it's the meds i'm fairly certain it's the mental illness i already know about and am aware of it's just kicking up a fuss#because i don't enjoy this time of year and i won't start being Cool about things until january starts up properly#and there's always the risk it'll continue on through that due to other circumstances but i'm really hoping it'll just calm down#because the Threat of Christmas Celebration isn't imminent#(we *very* rarely celebrated past couchweek and that was usually involving a lot of travel so once january is here and Festivities die down#i'll start hopefully feeling more like a coherent person and not just a miserable ball of trauma)#anyway. i'm...gonna wait for dinner to be done and i can eat that and then maybe i schedule some i do not exist time to myself where#i just am in my room making no noise and pretending i don't exist but like it's a positive thing and not a negative one#because if i don't exist my ribs can't hurt and also the trauma can't gets me#(this is mostly a joke don't worry about it too much i rarely actually request Quiet Alone Time)#normally i just sorta Acquire it and vibe#until i am reminded i have a physical form and the world can inflict forces upon me
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Finishing atla and once again becoming absolutely livid with the out of nowhere, literal deus ex machina bending-bending ability because why have your protagonist face his achilles heel and overcome his original sin in order to grow and save the day when you can hand everything to him on a lion turtle platter 🙃🙃🙃
#anti bryke#atla critical#like seriously fuck the finale and fuck bryke#you had the damn spirit library WHY THE FUCK DIDNT YOU FORESHADOW THAT SHIT#MAKE AANG WORK FOR HIS DAMN HAPPY ENDING LIKE THE REST OF THE CAST#STOP INDULGING HIS FUCKING FLAWS BC YOURE LIVING VICARIOUSLY THROUGH HIM YOURE IN YOUR FUCKING 30S#probably. i dont care enough to look up their ages#also outside of the bending bending the greatest sin is having azula's final moments on screen being her mental breakdown#iirc its bc the 4th book was scrapped in favor of the Shyamalan movie#gr8 choice m8s#seriously why the fuck would you leave so many stories incomplete in favor of live action bullshit?#stop doing live action for shit that should never be live action#some things are best left animated#esp shit that would need so much cgi its half animated anyway
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