#e prep is extremely good about this

[hotmess-exe]

I'm getting deep into E Prep's campus layout (partly) because one of the goals I have for the Twine version of the game is an interactive map for social time (read as: lunch, homeroom and after-school lol). and I gotta say? The most enjoyable thing so far has been making sure it's damn accessible.

[queenerdloser]

one of my innate personality traits is that i can really only think big term about my future plans when it's like 1am on a random weekday. spent like two hours last night fighting with myself on if i really want to try applying to mfa grad programs this winter or not.

[being-addie]

Sunday Resets

Setting aside time for yourself is so important. I don't think people understand how vital it is to pay attention to your body and just take a day to let your body r-e-l-a-x. We're all so busy fighting to reach the top, that while climbing the corporate ladder, we lose ourselves somewhere along the way. Burnout, depression, and monotony come into play when we don't listen to our bodies telling us they need a break.

Once every two weeks or so, on a Sunday, I turn off all my notifications and have a day dedicated to me. Giving my body some TLC, resting and preparing for the next week. If I have plans on a Sunday, such as brunch or a meeting, I shift that day to Saturday, or at the very least, a day where I have at least 4-5 hours to spend leisurely.

Things I like to do on my Sunday resets:

Wake up early/sleep in: Depending on my mood, and how much sleep I've had during the week, I'll either be up at the crack of dawn or still in bed till it's nearly noon. There's no shame in staying in bed till 11:30 if you're particularly exhausted, but I recommend waking up at least before 11 AM because then you'll feel tired and groggy (of course, this doesn't apply to everyone)

Clean my room: I always make my bed without fail, and if my room is messy, then I'll clean it. Clean the vanity table, my desk, closet, art cupboard and bookshelf, and then the bathroom. If my mom needs help around the house, I do that too.

Food: I make myself a good breakfast, taking time to move around the kitchen and just breathe. I'm getting to eat good food, the sun is shining and I'm alive. It's great. Sometimes my dad cooks for the whole family and we just sit and eat together.

The Everything Shower: I take my Everything Shower on Sundays, where I wash my hair, deep condition, use a hair and face mask, exfoliate and do a face massage. I don't shave because I get my waxing done in a salon. I then slather myself in cocoa butter lotion and apply lip balm. Then do my hair routine (curly hair). It takes a few hours, but it's worth it.

The Next Week: I prep for the next week by cooking something I can take to my classes, like granola bars or homemade pita chips. I also sit down and plan my schedule (any dinners, meetings, parties, etc) and make a rough plan of my goals for the week, like assignments and deadlines.

Errands: I usually make a list of things I need to do during the week, like any specific separate groceries that I use, art supplies I'm low on, or needing to top up the air in my tyres. Then I go complete all of those in the afternoon.

Walks: In the evening, I take a walk around the block with a friend. I usually am too busy to do this during the week, so getting some fresh air is always a treat.

Relax: The rest of the evening is spent relaxing. I watch Netflix with my family, chat with my younger sister, read a novel/play the piano/write poetry. We have dinner together and then either watch a movie or just spend the time talking about our week, or the news. It's fun.

Double-check: Before I go to sleep, I make sure to double-check that my work is done, my bag is packed, clothes are folded and all my devices are charged. I'm in bed by 10:30 PM.

Remember that not all Sundays will be like this. Sometimes I'm extremely drained, so I'll sleep in, order food and just lay in bed recuperating. It's okay to take a rest day. This guide is if you want to be more productive, and it helps the week go smoother. Be the person who has their life in charge. You've got this.

<3

[level2janitor]

how to run an OSR game

a while back i made this post to help people who were interested in OSR games but didn't know where to start, explaining the general design philosophy and going over a bunch of different OSR rulesets you can run a game with. so this is a follow-up post about how to actually run these (especially bc not all of them have much actual GM guidance)

note this is a highly opinionated post and some people from the more meatgrinder-y end of the OSR might take issue with this. but this is advice that works extremely well for my games.

how to prep situations and not plots

this is good advice for most games but OSR especially because OSR gameplay is so driven by player scheming: don't ever include "and then the players will..." in your prep, because you do not know what the players will do.

if your prepped scenario hinges on the players taking a specific action or the whole thing falls apart, you're digging your own grave as the GM. trying to account for every action the players can take is a trap, because players are creative and clever and their options are only limited by their ideas. that's the game.

so "prep situations, not plots" has become popular advice in TTRPG communities, especially OSR circles. but how do you actually do that

the most important elements of prep you want to figure out are:

what do all the NPCs involved in this scenario want? what social levers (wants, fears, habits, allegiances, guilty pleasures, relationships) do they have that the players can pull?

what will happen if the PCs never interfere? what conflicts and schemes are brewing in the background?

what locations are there to explore? who and what is inside them, what dangers and treasures are inside?

the best prep is stuff you can't improvise, or stuff that's unsatisfying when improvised. you should probably know monster stats ahead of time, know the layout of dungeons, that sort of thing. elements relevant to challenging the players are important to prep.

stop rolling for everything

coming from nearly any other TTRPG to an OSR game, your instinct when a player says "i want to do X" is "okay, make an X roll" through a skill system or a pbta move or something.

if you do this in an OSR game, you run into problems.

player characters aren't very strong. they have single-digit hit points, few if any class abilities, and whether they're carrying a crowbar, a grappling hook, a lantern, etc. is as impactful as their choice of class.

this is because the game is about using your head more than using your character sheet - the sheet just lists tools to apply your creative thinking to. scheming and managing your resources is the game.

and this means if a player has a clever idea, you should almost never reward them with a die roll to see if they succeed. a skill check is just a random chance of failure. instead most actions should succeed or fail automatically.

here's a good checklist to determine whether something succeeds:

is it something a normal, untrained person could do? if yes, you succeed.

could a normal person do it with the right tools, training and/or time to work? if yes, you succeed if you have any of those things.

if you don't have any of those, you can't. find another approach or get ahold of those conditions for success.

die rolls are for resolving uncertainty and risk. picture a version of 5e where there are no ability checks, only saving throws - dice you roll when something's gone wrong and you're in danger.

which leads into the next point...

communicating information

one of the worst sins of roll-based task resolution is when it's used to determine perception. players making informed decisions is the heart of the game, and they can't do that without information.

give information freely. if your character could know it, they probably do. try to do this too much. never gate information behind a die roll, especially the PC's surroundings.

part of this is always informing the player what is at stake. if a player's in a dangerous enough situation that success comes down to a die roll, you must let them know that before they opt into making that roll, and what the consequences for failure are.

OSR games are about risk management, so tell your players what is at risk when they make those decisions.

entering combat

combat is one of the most dangerous things in an OSR game - it's unpredictable, lethal, and entering it is always a big decision.

if you're coming from a game like 5e, often your first instinct when an encounter occurs is, "roll initiative!" but this is a mistake. you always, even when combat is about to start, ask players for their approach. do they fight? flee? negotiate? surrender?

because combat is so risky, forcing players into it unprompted fundamentally changes the dynamic of your campaign. keep in mind, once combat starts, you don't get any input between rolling initiative and taking your turn. your fate is up to the dice - your tactics matter, sure, but they can't save you from losing initiative, being crit, and dying from bad luck.

if players willingly choose combat as their approach, they should know the risks and what they're getting into. sometimes combat is the best way to achieve your goals, so it'll still happen.

[ohnococo]

Satoru Gojo SFW Alphabet

(under the cut for length)

A = Affection (How affectionate are they? How do they show affection?)

Gojo is extremely affectionate. He craves affection, in fact. He’ll outright pout if he hasn’t been hugged when you see him. He’s absolutely that Kirby meme that’s like “I didn’t get no mfin forehead kiss 😡”

He just wants to hold your hand constantly, be draped off of you. He’s like this even as friends, so everyone around you will think nothing of it until they see him giving you a kiss - something he doesn’t mind doing in front of others.

B = Best friend (What would they be like as a best friend? How would the friendship start?)

Gojo is that friend that shows his love by hanging all over you and also by purposefully bugging you. He just loves a little playful banter and even if he didn’t he has zero boundaries when it comes to friendship.

He’s that friend who will come to your house and treat it like his own. He’s the friend that will be talking to you on the phone and then 10 mins into the conversation he’s like “hold on lemme flush” like excuse me???

It’s just that if you’ve gotten to the point of being his very best friend he’s got zero self-consciousness around you. You two are basically a living breathing unit now.

As for how that friendship starts… you can’t know how close you’ll become to Gojo. People certainly know when he doesn’t like them, but outside of that he’s so casual with everyone. So he’s also casual with you. Then you get to know each other, and he’s even more casual. Next thing you know he’s talking to someone and refers to you as his best friend. A good tell is if he lets you see him being serious, upset even. When he feels safe enough with you to let you see his less-than-pleasant emotions you know you two are close.

C = Cuddles (Do they like to cuddle? How would they cuddle?)

He’s a big cuddler. King of physical touch. If he lets himself get close enough he’ll actually complain about not being able to fall asleep when you two have to be apart. His cuddling is essentially acting like some kind of shawl draped across you, leaning into you, lying across your lap, acting like you’re some kind of living pillow. God help you in the summer, he’ll complain about being sweaty while he’s choosing to be stuck to you.

D = Domestic (Do they want to settle down? How are they at cooking and cleaning?)

In canon? He doesn’t. His legacy is his students, his relationships are platonic, where there’s at least a small layer of separation. As for actually getting married or starting a family, he doesn’t want to actively bring someone into his world like that, and he doesn’t want to risk losing them. Even if they’re strong, he knows the expectations placed on him alone, and having someone he cares for like that is a risk that doesn’t line up with who he knows he has to be.

In a no curse AU though, absolutely. He loves intimacy, and closeness, and feeling like he has a unit. Settling down is a goal for him.

As for cooking and cleaning, in every universe this man is hopeless. A simple recipe works for him, but two burners on at once? Or a recipe where he needs to be occasionally stirring something between prepping other things? Nah stuff is getting forgotten, or burned, and the kitchen is going to be a mess afterwards. He just keeps using spoons then throwing them in the sink before he’s done. Stop it Gojo, stop using so many goddamn spoons now you have to wash one and the onions are burning.

Cleaning, he is perfectly capable of doing, but he hasn’t had to - going straight from having others to do it for him because it’s not something this chosen one was meant to worry about, to being able to pay people to handle it for him. I don’t blame him, no one wants to scrub a toilet, but he’s not what I’d call “domestic” and can tend to act like someone who’s never had to clean up after himself.

E = Ending (If they had to break up with their partner, how would they do it?)

I’m so sorry y’all… this man would break up with you over a text… it’s not a short text, at least. It’s a long one he’s typed and typed and retyped 100 times, and might have had to take a break and go for a walk in between. But it’s a text nonetheless. It’s just that if he’s decided to break things off, he’s not in a place to be able to put his big boy panties on and deal with the messy emotions that might come up in a face to face breakup.

Besides, he doesn’t want to make it worse, and the first words that come to mind to whatever you say might not come across how he wants them to, he wants to be able to think and say the right things.

It feels cold, but that’s how he is on the outside when he’s ending things because he thinks he has to force himself to be.

F = Fiance(e) (How do they feel about commitment? How quick would they want to get married?)

I’ll go non curse au with this answer, for reasons stated above, but Gojo does know he wants commitment long term. He’s a weird one though, in that when he falls he’s absolutely head over heels in love. He wants to spend all of his time with you, drag you along on all of his whims, and he will even jokingly call you his husband/wife at a certain point and talk about being together long term while cuddling, but…

This man is gonna take fucking AGES to propose. He’ll take ages to even ask to move in together. It’s not that he doesn’t want to, it’s just that you guys are at each other’s houses so often that it’s like half of your stuff is split between the two places. And he loves you and thinks of you in terms of that long term commitment already, so the ring or the key just don’t come up in his mind.

He’s the type you have to drop hints to, maybe even outright say “my lease is up in spring, let’s move in together.”

It’s an enthusiastic yes from him. And when the proposal happens he’s the one grabbing your hand to show your ring to strangers and calling you his fiancée with a sparkly lilt in his voice, but damn Gojo just focus.

G = Gentle (How gentle are they, both physically and emotionally?)

He can be gentle physically, tracing his fingers over your skin, rubbing his thumb against your hand while you’re holding hands. Sometimes when he’s cuddled up with his head resting in the crook of your neck he’ll blink against your skin, tickling you with his long lashes in a little butterfly kiss. But as gentle as he can be, he can also be one to roughhouse with you a bit (though always in a restrained way that doesn’t intend to hurt).

Hugging you tight and swinging you from side to side, tugging you along by your hand when he’s excited to show you something, tickling you til you’re squealing, he might even play wrestle a bit when he’s kissing you. The man contains multitudes.

Emotionally… he can be a bit clumsy. Sometimes he just doesn’t consider how his words or tone will come across before he’s speaking.

H = Hugs (Do they like hugs? How often do they do it? What are their hugs like?)

Gojo loves hugging. It’s like it clears his head, so he gives you long firm hugs often. He wraps his arms around you, putting his weight on your shoulders as you wrap your arms around his waist, and presses his face to the top of your head. He’ll rock you both side to side in the hug, and you have no choice but to go along with his movements because he’s got you so tightly pressed together. Always finishes the hugs with a big happy sigh.

I = I love you (How fast do they say the L-word?)

In canon, it’s hard to get out of him outright. It’s scary to give himself away just that much, knowing he can’t always protect everyone. Knowing you could very well go and get yourself hurt. You’ll know in other ways though.

In a no curse au, Gojo loves with no restraint. He’s saying it fast, too fast in some relationships. Almost casually. He feels so, so much, and doesn’t think twice before he speaks sometimes.

J = Jealousy (How jealous do they get? What do they do when they’re jealous?)

Gojo doesn’t get jealous. He’s too self-assured for that. And he doesn’t have any insecurities about you or your commitment, otherwise he wouldn’t be with you.

The closest to jealousy he gets is when he feels like he hasn’t had enough time with you. It’s not that he thinks anything is going on with you and whichever friends you’ve been spending time with, it’s just that he doesn’t understand why he can’t come along too.

K = Kisses (What are their kisses like? Where do they like to kiss you? Where do they like to be kissed?)

Gojo’s kisses are slow and sweet - teasing even. His soft lips are gentle against yours, so light sometimes it tickles, and show any sign of enjoyment or even desperation, and he’s smiling into your kiss. He’s not using tongue at first, and if you try to initiate too soon he’ll pull back, brushing your noses together. When he finally does kiss you properly it’s gently, restrained, a crooked finger tilting your chin up for him, a thumb on your chin keeping your mouth softly open so he can beckon you to make a little noise for him. Once you’re making out the intensity ramps up considerably, then Gojo’s kisses are deep and wet and needy.

As for kisses elsewhere, Gojo loves a forehead kiss. Sometimes he’ll just bend his head down and point to his forehead, then once he gets that kiss he looks SO pleased with himself about it. As if you’d deny him… as if his pouty self would let you deny him! He loves giving those forehead kisses in return, or when you’re holding hands he’ll often bring your hand to his mouth to kiss.

L = Little ones (How are they around children?)

Gojo is great with children. He’s rambunctious, matches their energy, and is great at saying silly things with a straight face that make them laugh. He’s one of those people that babies always smile and wave to, and comes across as a safe adult to children.

M = Morning (How are mornings spent with them?)

Getting out of bed is the first struggle for mornings with Gojo. A chronic “5 more minutes” type. Even if you get out of bed easily in the mornings, you won’t with him. He’s wrapping an arm and a leg around you and groggily pouting if you try to end your sleepy cuddle session. He just loves the closeness while everything is so quiet and still in the mornings.

His stomach beckons him out of bed eventually, though, and he’ll have the audacity to insist you get ready and go to a cafe for pastries even though you’re both starving after a solid hour and a half of cuddling in bed.

N = Night (How are nights spent with them?)

Gojo is one of those people that gets a second wind at night. He can tend to stay up late because of it. If you don’t mind, he’ll love to watch movies or play games with you until late into the night, head resting on your lap the whole time. Once you’re in bed is when the “would you love me if I was a worm” questions start though.

O = Open (When would they start revealing things about themselves? Do they say everything all at once or wait a while to reveal things slowly?)

Gojo is one of those people that reveal things without revealing things. He’ll tell you something so earnest, embarrassing even, that would be a sign of closeness or vulnerability from other people - but for him it’s just his usual oversharing. The real things that matter to him he keeps close to his chest and reveal slowly and after a good while.

When he eventually says them he does so with that same casual tone he’s used to tell you about the time he laughed so hard he peed himself at the tender age of 23, but by then you’ll understand it means a lot that he’s being open about things he usually wouldn’t.

P = Patience (How easily angered are they?)

Gojo can almost be impossibly hard to anger, so if you’re the type to want an argument over something you’re going to be hard pressed to get it. He’s more the type to awkwardly laugh at the wrong time, which would just make someone already mad at him even more angry.

Q = Quizzes (How much would they remember about you? Do they remember every little detail you mention in passing, or do they kind of forget everything?)

He doesn’t really let on how much he remembers, but he does. He’ll get you your exact order from a coffee shop, or buy you something you’d mentioned craving to someone else when he happened to be in the room, then if you ask how he knew he’ll just smile and say “lucky guess.”

R = Remember (What is their favorite moment in your relationship?)

Gojo’s favourite moment is the first time you’d comforted him. He’ll never ask for that from anyone, and most of the time people assume he doesn’t need that assurance and comfort because he always seems so happy and unbothered by things that would worry most. But you notice, even if he’s acting perfectly normal, and offer to lend him an ear - even asking if he just wanted a hug. He does, and even if it was one of a hundred random kind gestures for you, it meant the world to him.

S = Security (How protective are they? How would they protect you? How would they like to be protected?)

He’s the type to protect from afar. He lets you handle things first, because he’s the type to have faith in you, but the minute you need help he’s there. Basically he’s always back up, but will never have you looking helpless.

He doesn’t want protection, to the point where it can feel like out of nowhere when he stops you from intervening or defending him. He just prefers to handle his own matters himself.

T = Try (How much effort would they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, everyday tasks?)

This man makes AN EFFORT for special days. If grand gestures aren’t your thing, it might be a problem, but he’s the type to book the nicest restaurant in town, buy you loads of roses, commemorate anniversaries with pretty jewellery (matching, in a lot of cases).

Day to day though, he’s more lowkey. His love is shown in his physical affection, but the way he splashes out on birthdays, anniversaries, and Valentine’s Day more than accommodates that.

U = Ugly (What would be some bad habits of theirs?)

He’s got a few bad habits for sure, and they’ll take a lot of reminding (like years of it) to get him out of it. Leaving the toilet seat up, squeezing toothpaste from the middle, stealing bites of food off your plate, barging in when you’re on the toilet. Things that don’t bother some people, but can be annoying to others.

V = Vanity (How concerned are they with their looks?)

His appearance means a lot to him, and he’s not ashamed of that fact. He’s always well groomed, and when out of school attire he wears expensive clothes that are carefully curated to his tastes. He takes care of himself: good skincare regimen, chooses outfits carefully, he even uses purple shampoo and hair treatments to keep his naturally white hair looking bright and soft.

W = Whole (Would they feel incomplete without you?)

Absolutely. If he’s not with you he’s thinking about you and wishing he was with you. If he has plans he wants you there, because everything will always be better if you’re there too.

X = Xtra (A random headcanon for them.)

If you’re up to it, Gojo loves to be one of those couples with matching sets of things. Matching rings, him wearing a bracelet that’s from a set with your necklace, and if you’re down to be one of those especially obnoxious couples full on matching outfits when you go on dates. Not necessarily the same outfit, but coordinating colours or patterns. He has no qualms about being that couple that makes everyone cringe.

Y = Yuck (What are some things they wouldn’t like, either in general or in a partner?)

He has a few things he doesn’t love, and it’s honestly hard to pinpoint what set of things make someone a fit for him because it’s not obvious to even him.

He definitely isn’t a fan of his partner smoking cigarettes, refusing him affection or giving him the silent treatment as a “punishment” for arguments, or poor communication. The last one isn’t a deal breaker for him, but if you expect him to read your mind when you’re upset about something, you’re in for a lot of disappointment. He needs to be told things outright.

Z = Zzz (What is a sleep habit of theirs?)

The whole bed is his side of the bed. You’re also his side of the bed. He can start off contained, happily falling asleep as your big spoon (or little spoon depending on his mood), but soon enough he’s hogging the whole thing. A leg over your waist, his head on your pillow, his other leg half hanging off his side of the bed. Get up to go to the bathroom in the middle of the night and you’ll come back to him sleeping with his limbs out like a starfish. Nudge him a bit and he’ll go back to barnacle mode without even waking up, pulling you in to be his little spoon again.

[isa-ghost]

Got any angsty Phil HCs?

Oh, always. =)

Definitely reread the EK possession ones bc those are full of angst.

Restate: He's used to having control. Even if just over himself, that's his normal. And that's part of why the Ender King's emergence scares him so badly. He feels like he has no control and doesn't know how to get control back. He doesn't know how to live without it. His autonomy is one of the things he values the most.

Restate: That's one of his deepest fears if it wasn't obvious. Like yeah he has basic bitch fears that most other people have like losing loved ones or w/e, but his personal Big Fear is the loss of his autonomy. It's part of why he's an anarchist & hates the Federation, another part of why being flightless is killing him inside, and part of why Ender King scares him. Especially after Rose's most recent message (1/17/24) said EK has no vessel. Phil's mind shot right to "He needs a vessel and that vessel is me. That's what he wants."

Restate: He knows he's losing touch with reality slowly. He tries really hard not to think about it, it makes him sick with dread because once again, it gnaws at his ability to control his situation or himself.

Restate: He does NOT like acknowledging that to a degree, he & Ender King DO have things in common. He constantly rationalizes it in his brain as "I have crow brain, I collect the things that look shiny & cool. Ender King is malicious, it's not the same."

Restate: I said it in a rant about Phil's characterization and I'll say it again: this man doesn't fucking realize he's flawed. Like he thinks he is but not in the way he actually is. He doesn't recognize his actual flaws as flaws. Or doesn't realize they're flaws. Or maybe is ignoring that they're flaws because he uses them to cope or something. Either way. What this man THINKS are his flaws & his actual flaws are entirely different things. In his mind his actual flaws are something he thinks are normal bc he's just Been That Way for so long.

Restate: This fucking idiot man has a detrimental habit of insisting on handling stuff like anxiety alone. He hates when people see him without his composure. It's not even like an embarrassing thing, it's just very uncomfortable to him. So when a panic attack hits or he finally concedes and let's himself cry, it's alone. And sometimes that makes it worse. But even that doesn't make him change his mind. "Keep it together for the kids," right? :')

Restate: He doesn't usually let when he isn't okay show, especially when it's a personal matter. He doesn't like burdening or worrying others. When he can help it, obviously. But he has Tells that the people closest to him (Fit, Tubbo, & Etoiles especially) can pick up on if they're vigilant enough. His feathers ruffle, he fidgets with his hands. If he's especially stressed, his wings might flap a little. He stumbles over words. Most annoying to him, he can't control the shaking of his voice. It's a dead giveaway.

Restate: He fucking HATES feeling on edge. He's extremely familiar with it, but that never dulls his hatred for the ick it gives him. That knot in his stomach, the flutter in his chest, the reeling in his mind, the fire in his nerves, the tremble in his limbs. That unshakeable feeling that no matter what or where he is, his back is vulnerable. This man wants to be Fight over Flight or Freeze EVERY time, so when he can't control the situation or can't anticipate what happens, he mcfreaks it. How can he prepare to survive when he doesn't know what to prep against? Or in the case of the Ender King business, how can he do anything to prepare against an all-powerful God?

Restate: Lowkey hates the quiet. It's nice to get out of chaotic environments for bit, but that doesn't mean the silence will grant him peace. He starts getting lost in his own head, or winds up understimulated. Music is a good buffer. Ideally though, he likes having the kids or one person to bounce off of (& keep him mentally grounded when he's stressed). It's why he adventures with Fit so often.

Restate: Speaking of silence, and calling back to fears, there's something so inexplicably uncomfortable to him about footsteps that aren't his, esp in quiet. See, the admins invisible Federation workers that just monitor things, he can usually tolerate those bc it's easy to guess when it's them he's accompanied by & not an unknown presence. But man, when he knows he should absolutely be alone atm but hears movement that isn't his own, his adrenaline shoots through the roof. (Little does he know, that's Hardcore Instincts kicking in. He's used to that movement being a mob out to kill him)

Restate: He'll go above & beyond for his friends for as long as it takes, but when a situation proves futile or hopeless, he gives up. And hates it. He feels guilty for it even when he knows there's nothing more he can do. He also HATES being helpless (it's part of why he's taking being grounded so hard).

Restate: Ever since that taste of flight in Purgatory, he's been aching so much more for it again. His stomach fills with dread at the thought of saving Tubbo's life costing him his wings. He'd make the decision he did again & 100x over, but flying is so core to who he is. He can't fathom being grounded for the rest of eternity.

Projecting here again: His anxiety is fucking visceral. He can't control the shaking of his body or his voice. He can barely form coherent words when it's at its worst. It might even make him physically sick. He can't sleep no matter how hard he tries that night, his mind won't shut down. And he can kiss his appetite goodbye for a few days. Thank god for the backpack autofeed upgrade, no one can pick up on him not eating.

Kinda related, he's had a panic attack so severe that he hyperventilated until he blacked out. It was shortly after the first time EK made contact with him. He nearly did it again after the time EK hijacked Rose's message

He holds in. So Much Rage. And probably grief. He buries it constantly because there are more important things he has to do, responsibilities he has to see to, people he has to take care of. Also he's an anarchist, he can't show that the enemy is having an impact on him emotionally. (But GODDAMN, when he finally explodes on them every now and then. There's a REASON the Feds & Purgatory workers perceive him as a massive threat).

He's hyperaware that right now, all it takes is the right tool or touch to his wings, and he'll be completely out of commission. It'd be SO easy to torture him in his current condition if the person could successfully subdue him.

Actually on that note, he has so many stress dreams about something horrible happening to his wings. Thankfully it was during the time the kids were missing so he wouldn't have to explain himself, but he woke himself up with his own screaming from a particularly vivid nightmare

Now he's getting stress dreams about Ender King possessing him. The only reason they're so sparse is because his mind seems more at ease at Rose's Sanctuary.

He's terrified to hurt anyone he cares about, but he's especially terrified that in the event Ender King DOES possess him, EK hurts Chayanne or Lullah.

Okay but on a spicier note: Imagine a reverse of how fast he picked up on the code Chayanne & Lullah. The kids clock right away that You Aren't Our Father & they don't even need to see his violently purple eyes to know for sure.

He is absolutely not (intentionally) self-destructive by any means, but he has tested the limits of How Immortal He Is before. I'll leave you to interpret what that means. But he's discovered he's immortal, not invulnerable. He can very much be seriously hurt. Why do you think he's so careful & over-prepared for everything?

If he's been demoralized too much for too long and no amount of resistance or fighting has resolved the situation, he'll shut down. He loses all hope. If The Angel of Death can't fix things, how the hell can Philza Minecraft do anything?

His connection to the Goddess of Death has been extremely spotty ever since he arrived on the island and it's killing him inside. He can feel that she's present with him, but they haven't been able to communicate. In months. He's been hoping a purple chest will crop up sometime with a book from her, just like Rose does with him.

I think if he were to lay out the entirety of the whole Ender King thing to someone & they hugged him about it, he'd actually cry in front of someone finally. He holds so much in about it, more than he already does. He feels so unsafe no matter what. He shoulders it alone assuming no one will understand, if they even believe him. Unconditional support is his biggest emotional weakness.

He does NOT take betrayal lightly. Purgatory didn't help with that, the only thing that's saved his friendships in that case was the awareness that This Is What The Enemy Wanted. Purely because of that, he didn't let anything the other teams pulled on Bolas get to him.

Btw he had stress dreams about being killed by his friends during Purgatory <3 He was genuinely afraid of Fit & Etoiles for a while, even a handful of time after they were back on Quesadilla Island.

If he's dissociating don't touch him. He's too easy to startle and chances are his response with be Fight. If you're gonna touch him to ground him, have a shield up. Or sharp enough reflexes to catch a fist or blade.

If he could remember his original universe (hardcore) beyond just Rose, EK & exploring, he'd be so unbearably homesick. Maybe it's better that the Feds probably altered his memories...

He has legitimate PTSD from The Nightmare, The Birdhouse, and from the eggs all going missing. You've seen the way he panics when he can't find them. Or the second he realizes he might be the only one seeing something. How A few times he's stopped and stared for a little too long at the abuelito sign. Ironically he probably couldn't put any of his triggers into words even if he tried, but it's easy to figure out the things that make him freeze or start spacing out

There are days where his wings hurt so badly that it spreads to his back. There's days he's bedridden with pain and standing is unbearable. He HATES those kinda days bc not only do they suck, he hates being cared for without being able to do much to return the gesture or show his gratitude.

He thinks about how long it'd take for those closest to him to notice something was off about him if EK possesses him way more often than is probably healthy. He can't help it. And he's a shred doubtful considering no one said anything about thinking he might be in serious trouble after The Birdhouse incident. Though.. he still isn't sure that was real to begin with.

He gets intrusive thoughts: Hardcore Edition. Like. Unlike others, death for him is final. So what if he jumped from the wall and didn't bucket clutch? What if he lost a fight with a nightmare stalker? What if the Federation did something to him?

[spot-splatter-splash]

Been rewatching old Lalaloopsy stuff, so far up to the pre-Nick Jr. stuff and all the little differences and details and I need somewhere to ramble and you're the only Lalaloopsy fan I know of so-

-The fact that they lean so much more into the fact that they're dolls. The shininess of their eyes, the callbacks to the playsets in real life, the fact that they can fall from great heights and not be injured. I'd say that they somewhat less polished voice acting helps to emphasize this, like they're really just being played with by little girls.

-How unique each of the littles are. They all seem to be slightly different ages (Bundles is less good at talking and speaks in the third person, Sprinkle had a clearer voice but only says small phrases, Squirt can speak longer sentences, and Specs is nonverbal but clearly extremely intelligent). They each have slightly different relationships with their sisters as well - Mittens is more parental with Bundles, Crumbs is a lot more doting, Bea treats Specs like an annoying little sibling, and Squirt is basically Peanut's assistant.

-The way the pets are animated and how much character they're given. (The littles' pets are irrelevant which is hilarious to me)

-Rosy just popping up in random places a la that one Persona 4 food delivery girl

-All the unique quirks given to each character to flesh them out that are left out of the Nick series (Pillow's narcolepsy, Mittens' snow magic, Peanut and Jewel being somewhat more sassy in a way, Jewel being into dance, Specs being nonverbal, Dot being easily distracted, etc)

-All of the smaller locations added to Lalaloopsy Land to give it more personality, like the playground or the flower fields

-Idk I'm just really normal right now I am so sorry-

I find it heartwarming how many fans are popping up to send asks. Considering the last piece of animated media dropped in 2017 and the 10th anniversary dolls are 3-4 years old now; It truly goes to show that there's always a fandom for something! Even if its just a handful of people or one fan getting their friends into it. I love talking to everyone and making art again.

I love that the earlier works for the series plays with and leans into the fact that they are dolls. Its subtle but works for what the series is meant to be. As much as I love the later series and thinks it does stuff well I can admit that some of the charm can be lost in the transition.

That's part of why I like the implication that the dolls were aging. Just like us, the former children who were playing out little stories with them the dolls and their stories were maturing. Though MGA never fully committed to any real over arching plot. Which is why I want too. We've seen it work with MLP and Ever After High (other series meant to sell dolls).

I do also miss

Specs being Nonverbal (I was actually so upset when she talked in her birthday episode. Her being nonverbal worked really well for her. And I liked the idea of her and Charlotte possibly being able to bond over communicating differently than their peers)

Mittens' snow magic. (There was a lot of potential to explore with it.)

Jewel's love of dance (It appears a bit in the Nick Jr. series but not much at all in L.A.L.A. Prep or We're Lalaloopsy. It's a cute part of her character. Gives her more hobbies than just...existing? ( I have really complex thoughts about Jewel and her roll in most series). And explains her dynamic with Tippy)

I also miss in general the amount of characters in the series. I understand that the later series never made it as far as the 26 episode a piece two season run Nick Jr. did. And I do feel like We're Lalaloopsy was setting up to include Cloud E. Sky. I would give anything for it to pull a Care Bears: Unlock the magic and drop a second season years after its initial run.

[eponymous-rose]

A full day today, so I figured it might be fun to write up what a professor's day might look like when not lecturing!

6:30AM: Got up early to virtually attend a friend's wedding on the East Coast! <333

8:00AM: I have been very careful this quarter to shuffle lectures/meetings around so that I have a little time to myself in the mornings to sit at home and drink coffee and eat breakfast and pet a cat while I get the day's work started. No exception today! I pull up an application my PhD student has been putting together for a tech grant and use the proverbial red pen to make some (a lot of) comments. It looks good overall, though! I send him a note to encourage him to send it to our collaborator in the computer science department when he's done with edits. Monday's the deadline, we gotta get moving on this.

9:00AM: I load up a bag with books I keep putting off taking to my office, plus some extra Halloween candy I found to add to my office candy bowl, and head out to take the bus in to campus. Also, pet the cat goodbye (she is unconcerned).

9:45AM: At the office, books and candy put away! Time to prep for my first meeting, which is a committee meeting with someone else's PhD student. He struggled a bit with a recent exam (entirely his advisor's fault, but that's a different story), so we're reconvening as a group to see his progress and cheer him on. He sent an update document, so I run through that and take a few notes. Then it's responding to e-mails (setting up my participation in a federal review panel next year, responding to two prospective graduate students interested in working with me - the combo of a fun research topic and a beautiful campus means I'm now up to 20 inquiries so far this quarter, eep - and sending out an update to the department about the charitable giving opportunities I'm coordinating).

10:30AM: Great presentation by the PhD student about all the things he's done since our last meeting back in April-ish. He's made huge changes to his work, and we applaud (literally and figuratively) how much he's accomplished in such a short time. Also, amazing data visualization! Great work all around. He's set to defend his PhD by 2025 at this rate, definitely back on track.

11:30AM: Time to rush back to my office to meet with my own PhD student! We usually meet on Fridays, but we get tomorrow off for the holiday so we jumped the meeting back. He's a few minutes late due to a missed bus, so my next-door colleague and I talk about cats for a few minutes. As you do. When he does arrive, he's got some cool stuff to show me - we talk about the notes I made on his grant application, and I remind him (and myself) to book flights to a conference in December that is rapidly approaching somehow. (I guess this means I have to do some cool and innovative research before then that I can talk about. Go figure.) He also shows me some cool preliminary results from a project he's been doing with a friend out in Pennsylvania. He's late enough in his PhD that my role as advisor is primarily to get out of his way and make sure he has enough supercomputer core-hours to get his work done!

12:30PM: A break for me! I start in on e-mail again, sending a coordinator my bio and abstract for a talk I've been invited to give (virtually, thankfully) at a student conference in January. I also realize that, because of the break tomorrow, I should really put together a homework assignment and next week's lectures for the class I teach Monday-Wednesday-Friday. Hmmm. I dig through last year's lectures and assignments and realize they've gotten a little out of sync this year. The solution? I may just offer 5 instead of 6 assignments over these ten weeks and give them this one a week later. Class average has been extremely high on them, and I think the students will appreciate a bit of a break. Also means today's job is just to prepare a few lectures based on last year's material. I've got a big chunk of open time later this afternoon to deal with course stuff, so back to e-mail. Going to be joining a friend (who I can't help but think of as the undergrad who sat in during all my grad classes, but is now somehow a full research scientist) on a very cool project putting together a new thunderstorm dataset. Also reached out to another friend about setting up biweekly meetings to hopefully start a new research collaboration and... possibly some fieldwork! I also almost forgot to put a forecast together for our forecasting competition, but I got there in time. Phew.

1:30PM: Meeting with a colleague and the undergrad research intern we co-supervise who is sadly having to leave to go attend school closer to home. This meeting is mostly just us reinforcing to her that we're still here if she needs advice/reference letters or ever wants to work on a similar project with us remotely in the future, but we are going to continue with the research until the end of the quarter, at her request. After the meeting, I get an e-mail about another undergraduate looking for a research project! I present her with the options of a cool lightning project with my colleague next door (waiting to hear back about federal funding for that project, fingers crossed) and that other cool thunderstorm project led by my friend in Oklahoma.

2:30PM: Seminar time! A very cool freshly-minted PhD from California tells us all about her research, a complicated topic about which I knew very little going in and now know... slightly more. There was a very geeky moment in which she showed what happened to a particular part of the climate system when CO2 was added, then showed what happened when CO2 was removed, and the asymmetry of it made everyone in the room gasp and then self-consciously giggle.

4:00PM: Post-seminar snacks acquired (a big cookie and coffee are definitely a good late lunch, right? I kid, I kid, I had a big breakfast and have a big dinner waiting at home) and small-talk survived, I scramble back up to my office. Time to get those lectures ready for next week (pretty quick to do - rather than last year, where I'd show the code on the screen and we'd talk about it, I'm having us write the code together live and debug as we go; harder in the moment for me, but the students are learning so much better!). Get an e-mail back from the new undergrad research intern expressing interest in the lightning project, amazing! Time to get her registered so she gets credit for this starting in January. Also finally get a teensy bit more editing done on a draft of a review article that one of the top scientific journals in the world tapped me to write (???? still surreal beyond measure).

5:30PM: BAND PRACTICE. Our department is so nerdy that the faculty/staff/postdocs/grad students put together a giant band to perform popular songs but as covers so we can make the lyrics about our nerdy research. This tradition has been going on for 30+ years, and the big performance is for an hour at our holiday party every year. It's a riot, and this is my first year joining in the chaos (I'm on keys on three songs!). There are like 25 of us, we have a horn section, a professor plays the mandolin, the students create elaborate musical roasts of their professors, it's great. My parts go great, to the point where when there's some trouble with key drift during an a capella part they call me in to play chords under it and keep them grounded. I love playing music with other people!

7:00PM: Time to pack up and head home for dinner. Phew.

Long day, but also LONG WEEKEND BAYBEE. I don't actually have to do any substantial work this weekend, so that means BALDUR'S GATE WEEKEND BAYBEE.

[xamaxenta]

Thatch my beloved (random thoughts)

- after integration catch brings in ace to help with food prep, the repetition of slicing and washing really helps ace calm his mind (kinda like meditation but food)

- he is the secret keeper of the crew (he knows everything) because people feel comfortable talking to him and knowing he won’t blab

- is a goofy guy, most of it is pretty intentional he wants people to be comfortable and doesn’t mind playing the fool

- had a shit childhood, extremely protective of kids and younger crew members first to notice signs of abuse or neglect

- very talented at diffusing situations without violence (but will use violence if necessary)

- extremely deadly with his blades, but doesn’t showcase it often

- when highly stressed will wash his hands until they are raw

- first to notice that ace was underweight when he first arrived

- very knowledgeable about pretty much everything (he collects facts and tidbits like souvenirs)

- has a special ritual with pops where they drink tea and talk about the newest island gossip

- his favourite brother is marco no questions asked

- his favourite brother in law is ace (he will defend the logic till he dies)

- the first Marace shipper on the moby followed by pops

- has escaped marine custody 6 separate occasions and no one knows how he did it

- the designated planner if he plans something Everyone follows the plan. Has at least 3 back up plans that can be used if the first one falls through

Love all of these including the meticulous planner detail, because hes a chef bro is so so fucking good at planning and delegating

When asked what his secret is hes like you try meal prepping for a crew this size and then get back to me

Ill add my two cents on the e escaping the marines thing headcanon Thatch used to be a navy man in the mess hall

Three of those six times was him getting off on good will and for feeding the base and he got to skedaddle free

[magicalgardenofhypnosis]

Love Isle Resort Part 1

Jamie Lomas is a extremely hot British soap star actor on the English show the young, edgy and soapy Hollyoaks for a whole new generation.

He is visiting on vacation when I caught him in his hotel room upon a request waiting for him on the bathroom I can see him in the reflection.

The mirror previously cleaned he stops to be his own admirer posing at the mirror with s huge fake smile and dental implants galore of course.

He flips the light switch on the light radiating on him I continue to hide in the shadows of the bathroom as he looks up to see the light blink.

He curses the lights as he bangs the wall all goes dark for him his eyes stay upward lock on the light frozen on time it malfunctions according to my plan.

I glee with excitement sneaking out of the closet I reach in back of him embracing his body with mine as I dig my nose in to his shirt.

This lifeless husk of a body is mine it to play with hours unfortunately he taste sour and ripe from a few hours of the gym my hands enjoy.

My hands begin to roam on his body feeling how plump his pecs are, erect his nipples are and his upper body strength fully bulked up.

I lean in laying my lips on his skin first his face then down his shoulders tracing it to the chest and his abs so broad and godly I had to have him.

“Can you hear me Jamie? Answer me love” I demand of his attention instinctively.

“Yes…. I can hear you.” He replies to me.

“You will do everything I instruct of you.” I add.

“Yes sir.” He issues.

“Your cock, nipples and pecs are hard.” I tell him.

“Uummmmm….aaaaahhhh….yyyeeesss” he howls.

“It’s throbbing and you are burning fucking hot.”

“Oh God! It’s burning “

“Strip off your clothes you need too”

“These damn clothes….oofff”

“Much better “

“I feel sexy “

“Let’s play “

“First off get in the shower and clean up “

“Yes”

“After be my entertainment for the night “

“Your wish is my command “

“I am deeply programmed “

“In the mean time let’s peruse this den that use to be my hotel.”

“God most of this like a movie set”

“ Time to update the clothing for today”

“One swipe and the staff will prep the pool”

“Now for my main course “

“You are back? Excellent! Put these pieces on.”

“Meet my by the pool after “

“I have plans for you “

“Sir Yes Sir”

Leaving the room he compiled automatically as if on autopilot the clothes rip off the bed and the towel falls to the floor in a frantic way.

He cleans up the room putting everything in its proper place as I designed in his mind as his architect and now rule for a lifetime well obviously.

He grabs his wallet, keys, cellphone and his hotel room key as he exits the sweet aroma of the cologne I left for him mix with his own scent fills the halls.

He pops on the elevator pressing the pool side button as it descends his mind is in a whirlwind of emotions overtaking him in his own madness.

Walking off en glides over to me standing far too tall his shadow overcast on me then I grab him and yank his lips down to mine as we kiss.

We make out intensely feeling each other up in more ways then I can say as he kisses me slowly and we touch I am enamored at his ways.

“How do you register yourself?”

“I am slave nothing less nothing more”

“Good boi! This will be quite blissful.”

The end

Love isle Resort Part 2

“When you look in my eyes what do you see?”

“Fuck you prick”

“Look in my eyes “

“I said….”

“LOOK IN MY EYES”

“Damn it”

“It’s so much easier”

“To stare and obey “

“S-t-a-r—e”

“O-b-e-y”

“You belong to me”

“I belong to you “

“Take me to your room”

“Wait!”

“Yes”

“Finish your drink “

“As your wish “

“Let’s go “

“How about we do some role play”

“When you arrive upstairs….”

“YES MASTER!”

I exit the elevator walking on to the floor in a state of frenzy knocking on the hotel door for room 403.

Ashley Taylor Dawnson opens the door for me standing shirtless waiting for a pizza order as programmed.

He stares at me checking me up and down

I can see his cock growing, body pecs are bouncing and I assume control.

“Well hell there”

“Would you like to come in”

“Excuse me!”

“You heard me hot stuff “

“Where’s my pizza”

“I see it in your pants”

“Oh my god!”

“Sure! Let me teach you a few lessons”

“Hell yeah!”

“Slam the door “

“Crawl to me and kneel “

“Mwahahahahaha “

The end

[izmooi]

I’m doing some searching to make my Halloween costume a certain rat mascot and I ran into the dilemma of how Chuck E.‘s avenger hat is designed…

This is the back vs. the front… There’s no way these are the same two hats but they’re the rat from the same era of logo/advertisement.

This hat auctioned online (not my photo) shows the logo-esque hat with the classic C on the front, matching the one on the shirt. This is for a walk-around mascot

thank goodness for this gif that shows the back of the avenger hat from the commercials, the hat we usually just see from the back. The stripe just continues all the way down. I’m not sure if there’s another set of info about this garment, if folks have info to share I’d love to see it as I prep my outfit.

Meanwhile, the brim from backwards-hat Chuck E. isn’t always visible. In the gif it is shown a full green. Sometimes it’s depicted a continuous purple with green underbrim or green with purple underbrim… I guess I get to decide what version I want to go with!

I know during this time this Chuck only appeared in commercials while the mascots in the restaurant would fluctuate between a few different designs before more rebranding focus centered on the character, and even then the avenger look wasn’t always followed to a T.

Thought I’d share these notes on my findings because I think it’s extremely interesting how different a Hat is portrayed on such a face value nationwide mascot.

[wishing-stones]

Nightmare mentions he was keeping an eye on Baggs with the idea of eventually recruiting him. If we weren't there how would that have gone?

Oh, if there were no human? Yeah, sure.

Nightmare would have kept his distance for a while, watching from the shadows until he figured out exactly what it is that Baggs is up to and what he's the most cagey about. He'd have prepped some immediate resources for Baggs if the lure of "I can knock you out, no, really" wasn't bright enough. He'd have treated it less as an "I need your services right away, no you don't really have a say in it but I can sweeten the pot" and more as an "I know what you're up to, I can provide you with resources you really don't have access to and sleep."

Baggs would have been skeptical at first, but after receiving proof (more of resources, less of sleep-- he's used to not sleeping, and while it's a nice sentiment, it isn't necessary) he'd be down.

Introductions would have largely gone the same-- Dust would have tried him, and Baggs would have firmly established that he's not to be fucked with. He'd have been a lot more standoffish and cold, especially after being unceremoniously attacked, but... Axe would eventually wander down and bully him into eating on a regular schedule, and they'd become friends.

He'd be on the best terms with Nightmare, due to not only the arrangement, but because they're very similar in tastes and intelect. They both like reading, they both people watch, they're both catty, snarky bitches, and they're both a little more high-brow than the rest of the boys.

He'd warm up to them eventually in the order of: Cross, Dust, Killer. Cross doesn't treat him with animosity as much as extreme amounts of caution that it takes Baggs all of five seconds to get to the root of. Dust takes a while to come around, but, like in R&R(A&E, specifically), when Baggs proves himself to be able to handle LV attacks, Dust trusts him a little more. Once everyone else is chill with him, Killer is, too, and he's seamlessly a part of the gang. (Killer plays friendly with him for a while in a disarming and non-threatening manner, but makes it very clear that his position isn't one that's challengable, and Baggs won't like what happens if he tries. He wisely does not. Killer kept him at arm's length until he was sure Baggs wasn't going to be an issue (read: gets along with everyone) and then decided he was okay people.)

There's more than likely an incident similar to what brought him in, although with less vitriol and less life-threatening injuries. He'd also patch the guys up from various missions as well, and gets very good at treating burns from Dream's arrows. Killer and Cross would eventually get their grievances aired because he gets sick of that infighting real fast, and threatens them both to come to his office and talk about it or else. Nightmare backs him up.

He does see action every now and again, but mostly goes along with Killer and Dust on missions geared toward reconnaissance and subterfuge. He gets to encounter the stars a couple of times, gets one-on-one with Dream and rips into him with what all he knows about the twins. Dream is not seen for several months; Ink and Blue show up without him.

Eventually, it leads to Dream and Nightmare talking about stuff because while Nightmare goes in all guns blazing the next time he shows, Dream... doesn't engage. He's sad and doesn't draw his bow... or anything, actually, and even though Nightmare tries three or four times to get him to rise to the bait, nothing works, and the concern eventually wins out over his bitterness. They talk things over in a similar manner (although slightly less emotional from Nightmare, no less sincere) and they come to an understanding. It's still tense because there's no uniting force bringing them together (yet) but they aren't tooth-and-nail fighting anymore.

In things in different universes than R&R, he'll likely still show up with the rest of Nightmare's gang. He just kind of... fits neatly into place there in all of my work with that group so he's kind of there by default when I do non-R&R work with the gang.

[oatmilkappreciator]

prepare to get sick: disabled + poor edition

ok, so my boyfriend just texted from work to say that he feels warm and dizzy and has thrown up a few times already. we both suffer from health issues so it doesn't necessarily mean he's brought home a virus, but I want to be prepared. my health has been shit lately with my medical testing and migraines, so I wanna do what I can to prepare in case we both come down with something (covid). best case scenario, his stomach is acting up for other reasons and we have a bunch of food prepped anyway. worst case, I have what I need to get through, keep us fed, spend as little money as possible, and stay out of hospital.

Remember - don't over exert yourself preparing. it's better to save your energy to fight illness than have everything picture perfect.

- clean the bathroom. I'm using Lysol wipes, a multi surface spray, and toilet paper to keep it easy

- make sure you have clean, comfortable clothes available. this might mean doing or folding a load of laundry, or even just re-piling your lightly worn clothes so you can find them

- cook and prep ahead. I'm going to make soup with whatever I can find in the fridge, and possibly some kind of cookie with lots of nuts and oats and stuff. KEY REMINDER: cook stuff your sick self can handle, so no crunchy stuff if you're prone to sore throats or tough food if you're fatigued, use textures you like, and keep it plain but nutritious

- locate and take vitamins! I'm very lax about this stuff but I figure it doesn't hurt to get a multi vitamin blast now and then. you can take vitamins (I recommend D3, zinc, C, and omega fatty acids but I'm no expert), but I struggle with pills so I either use drops or fresh sources: cooking with ginger, garlic and onions if they agree with you, honey, hot peppers, lemongrass, and citrus

- prepare to rest. the most important thing you can do to decrease the impact of covid on your body is to rest. ideally, you'll rest the way you recover from a concussion: total radical rest of body and mind in the dark with no stimulus. but, I too would lose my marbles, so I recommend charging your electronics (I <3 e readers and low brightness screens), visit a library WITH A N95 OR BETTER MASK ON to pick up some books and movies or revisit some faves at home. torrenting ofc for any movies you may wanna watch

- drink fluids, definitely something more than water. I like gatorade zero and mio electrolyte drops, but watered-down ginger ale or juice can be great too. your body needs sodium and potassium to help process the liquid and your body needs all the fuel it can get when sick. a coke/Pepsi or green tea is really good for a gentle caffeine kick midday, which I find helps my pain and mental clarity when I really need to get out of bed.

anyways I hope this is helpful to even one person besides me - I feel kind of alone in preparing for battle with these viruses sometimes and being disabled is extremely isolating. so any feedback, tips and tricks, personal experiences, I welcome them 💚💚love u!!

[vampyrs-and-witchers]

JONATHAN REID - NSFW ALPHABET

A = Aftercare (what they’re like after sex)

Depending on who was on top its… (If he was the one topping) He’s an absolute sweetheart who’ll make sure that all of your needs have been met - it literally doesn’t matter what it is. You want snacks after sex? He has a small stash already prepped in advance for you. You want to cuddle? He’s more than down for that! Want to get cleaned up? I hope you like hot showers/baths. (If you were the one topping) He’s a pillow princess who will absolutely adore you if you spoil him rotten after sex. I headcannon him as being extremely touch and affection starved - so he clings to any affection thrown his way like a starving dog.

B = Body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

(Their own favorite body part) His thighs, his arms, his neck, his back, his chest and his face.

(Their favorite body part of their partners) Your face, your chest, your thighs, your hands.

C = Cum (anything to do with cum, basically)

Loves to cum on your tits/chest and face and absolutely loves it if you can cum on his face.

D = Dirty secret (pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

Call him a ‘Good boy’ or ‘Puppy’ to watch how quickly he becomes a sub… 🤭

E = Experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?)

Decently experienced, he’s had a few flings when he was younger and even fewer as an adult. Knows about sex in the medical sense, as well as what to do in the act - but he’s a bit inexperienced in some aspects.

F = Favorite position (this goes without saying)

Doggy, missionary, cowgirl, face sitting.

G = Goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.)

Both but he does lean more towards serious, when it comes to sex - he likes to feel like he’s loved and that his partner is also loved. It’s an extremely intimate moment, he likes to make it feel special for both parties with the occasional sprinkle of laughter, teasing and witty remarks.

H = Hair (how well groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)

Very well groomed, yes the carpets match the drapes.

I = Intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect)

Extremely intimate! As stated above, he wants to make the moment special for both parties, that means taking things seriously and sweeping you off your feet in ways more than just emotionally. He’s also a hopeless romantic who likes romantic aspect of sex.

J = Jack off (masturbation headcanon)

Likes to masturbate with an article of your clothing in his free hand so he can smell it, it grounds him and helps him when his brain can’t conjure anything up.

K = Kink (one or more of their kinks)

Praise kink

(Mild) Pet play

(Light) Bondage

Somnophilia (With partner’s consent!)

Breeding kink

Choking

Mommy/Daddy kink (Likes the idea of being taken care of)

L = Location (favorite places to do the do)

The bedroom, he will occasionally take risky places to have sex if he’s very frustrated but otherwise largely prefers the comfort of privacy.

M = Motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)

You.

N = No (something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

Purposely hurt you in any way - except with choking, he’s okay doing that and tying your wrists up - but asking to have him slap you hard enough to hurt, cut you, etc? Yeah no.

O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)

Both

P = Pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)

Depends on his mood and how the offer of sex came about.

Q = Quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)

Definitely down for a few here and there on occasion, but not if he’s busy.

R = Risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? etc.)

Yeah! Definitely open to experimenting in the bedroom, whether if it’s indulging you and your kinks or vice versa.

S = Stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?)

2 1/2

T = Toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)

(VAMPYR) None.

(MODERN AU) Yeah, two dildos and a vibrator for himself. For his partner? That’s dependent on if the partner likes and wants them.

U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)

He’s a huge tease, I’ll let you fill in the blanks.

V = Volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)

Medium in terms of volume, if he knows he’ll get caught he’s largely as quiet as can be. But if it’s just you two? He’s loud but not too loud.

W = Wild card (a random headcanon for the character)

In a relationship with an older male/female partner, he’s definitely the submissive one. In a relationship where his partner is his age or younger by 5-7 years he’s a switch.

X = X-ray (let’s see what’s going on under those clothes)

Average length, slightly girthier, shower. Tip is a soft baby pink.

Y = Yearning (how high is their sex drive?)

Slightly higher than average with fluctuations.

Z = Zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)

Depends on what happened, but overall he’ll fall asleep once you’ve been tended to and he’s sure both parties feels comfortable.

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ik nothing abt assclass but please elaborate on your au if you would like to👁️👁️

OK YES OFC!!!!! Sorry for late response I was waiting until school got out lol

Ok so the premise of assassination classroom is as follows: kunugigaoka junior high is a private college prep school notorious for having an extremely hard curriculum and extremely smart students. It is a school of the elite minded, and all the students are faced with an aggressive pressure to excel. The school has a class for third years called 3-E, dubbed the “End Class”. If your grades drop too far, or you show behavioral problems, or disobey school protocol even, you will be shipped off to this class, which is located in the old rickety school building up a mountain and surrounded by forest, just off the main campus. These children can’t participate in extracurriculars, are given no facilities or accommodations, and are faced with intense discrimination and bullying from other students and teachers. They are used as a threat to keep the other students motivation high. You don’t want to end up in E class. And then one year, the moon explodes. The next day, class 3E’s teacher is gone, and replaced with a giant yellow octopus. This is korosensei, the being who blew up the moon, and can travel at Mach 20 speed, can regenerate limbs, and has plans to blow up the earth in exactly a year. His one request was to the teacher of this class for unknown reasons. The government allowed this, since they would then have tabs on him for most of every weekday. They want to kill him before his deadline, and so they tell the kids that since they’ll be around him every day until then, they will be tasked with the job of killing him. However, his teaching and the assassination motivation gives these kids hope and they actually begin to grow and progress. He genuinely cares about these kids and is an amazing teacher. With help from government agent tadaomi karasuma and assassin irina jelavic (aka professor bitch), these kids attempt to assassinate their teacher all while balancing their hellish school life and trying to overcome hardships.

My au is about toya if he were in this class. He is just beginning his rebellion against his father, and is just learning how to navigate it. He begins to do whatever he can to defy his father, and so he purposefully starts failing classes to distance himself from the image of what his father wants him to be. A lot of his personal development comes from realizing that he is his own person, and he doesn’t have to sacrifice things that he loves or that is a part of him just because it’s related to his father.

Also I am going with that white hair from stress hc I saw awhile ago because I LOVE it, so as the year goes on his hair lightens a lot until it’s almost at the point it is in canon by the end of the year. And also. Toya is interesting. Especially in middle school and as a child. I think his time with tsukasa and saki is very formative to him, and he really internalizes a lot of what tsukasa says since he idolizes him so much. He’s very… pure of heart for lack of better term. He believes at first that they can convince korosensei not to blow up the earth by showing him love and friendship, and is almost optimistic in a lot of ways. He clashes a lot with the more realistic and pessimistic members of the class due to this. Also, at one point the class learns parkour to aid in their assassinations, and I like imagining toya because of his fear of heights lol. I think he’d be really good with both knives and guns, but is a sucky sniper because he gets scared when he’s up on the perches. He has relatively weak bloodlust, at least when compared to someone like karma or nagisa, but he’s very talented at channeling what he does have. He can think of spectacularly creative assassination plots but a lot of them aren’t very… realistic and thus are near impossible to pull off. He’s one of the smartest in the class, but stays as one of the lowest ranked for a very long time until he finally decides to put his father behind him and not let him ruin his future like that.

I have. A lot more thoughts but they’re kind of everywhere and hard to explain without the context of the show lol

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REVIEWS OF THE WEEK!

Books I've read so far in 2023!

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88. Under the Iron Bridge by Kathy Kacer--⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

UNDER THE IRON BRIDGE was an understandably difficult read, especially since it explores one of the worst crimes against humanities in living history.

I can't even imagine what it would have been like to live in a society where people were clearly being indoctrinated and brainwashed and feeling powerless to not become a part of that problem. The way the MC's classmates talked about their "leader" and how the lessons in their "youth program" were so inspiring and eye opening was so deeply disturbing. This book isn't for the faint of heart, especially because even though the MC is incredibly against the regime and is actively trying to escape it, the dialogue and indoctrination that he witnesses is sickening.

This is a very important read, I believe. The discomfort I felt while reading this is a good reason enough (for me) to recommend it because history can be uncomfortable and sometimes that's the best way to avoid repeating it.

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89. The 39 Clues: The Maze of Bones by Rick Riordan--⭐️⭐️⭐️

THE MAZE OF BONES was a fun read! I can see why it was so popular when it first came out, especially since it was a semi-interactive mystery book.

This was also darker than I was anticipating and I kind of loved that.

I will definitely be checking out the rest because I need to get some answers 👀

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90. Parting Shot by Linwood Barclay--⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

I made the mistake of jumping into this book without seeing if it was the first in a series or nah. Turns out it's book four, aha, and although it pretty much spoiled the events of the previous books, I'm looking forward to being properly introduced to the main characters!

With all of that being said, though, I actually enjoyed this one quite a bit! Like always, I loved the twists that Barclay wrote and the mystery behind the whole thing. Especially those last few chapters.

It took me a bit to get into PARTING SHOT, but I would still recommend it. There's just such an addicting quality to these books--the mystery of it all, the suspense, the twists. So fun and perfect for summer!

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91. The False Prince by Jennifer E. Nielsen--⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

First of all, I can't get over the fact that this is a middle grade book???? This is such a mature and dark read that I wouldn't have been surprised to see it in the YA section. I'll definitely be recommending this one to the older middle grade and younger young adult readers!

I don't know what I was expecting when I first started THE FALSE PRINCE. It had been sitting on my shelves for years and I finally picked it up, thankfully. This was such a fun read! I love the trope of prepping someone to be a fake anything of power. It was fun and the sassiness gave it an extra edge I wasn't expecting.

I highly recommend this one, especially if you like quick fantasy novels that feature an MC you can't help but root for, and a twist that isn't entirely unpredictable, but is still a hell of a lot of fun to get to!

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92. Hell Followed With Us by Andrew Joseph White--⭐️⭐️⭐️.5

I listened to this as an audiobook and I won't lie, I had to restart it because my mind was wandering everywhere during my first listen. While this book was enjoyable and features incredibly important topics, something about it just didn't pull me in as much as I was hoping it would.

First off, extreme trigger warning for anyone who has religious trauma. The cultish dialogue and beliefs of these religious characters was so jarring and uncomfortable. Their erasure of the MC's identity because it didn't align with their God's beliefs made me so uncomfortable, and although I know this was the point of using this controversial topic, it made me contemplate DNFing. But then I remembered that discomfort in this context is good because it's further forcing me to feel some modicum of discomfort that real-life people actually feel in their very real lives experiencing very similar forms of oppression and erasure.

I did find it fascinating how the literal monster that the first male MC is turning into could be a metaphor for how the world might view his real identity and not just the person they hide behind the mask. But his old life would rather keep him as the monster than as who he truly is. That aspect of the novel was genius and a perfect juxtaposition to the MC's desire to just be who they are (even if it means eventually accepting who he is becoming.)

The second MC was a character with Autism and while I am not well-versed in the topic, I absolutely adore reading characters with Autism. White has their second main character stimming and finding ways to cope when he's over-stimulated, and I loved seeing those honest and vulnerable moments.

The plot had its fun moments and even though the story was full of heavy imagery and messages, I think they all worked well together to make this a gritty story. I'd recommend it (especially because I know some people absolutely loved this), but be wary of the trigger warnings.

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93. The Charm Offensive by Alison Cochrun--⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

Okay, the level of cuteness and representation in this book was, phew.

I was first a little wary of this one because it sounded almost too cute to be true. And then I started it (after promptly forgetting what the synopsis was about) and YESSSS, I'm so glad I finally picked it up!!!! I loved it so, so much!

First, I loved that we had a dual perspective because I enjoy being able to see both sides of a story, rather than seeing the MC freak out about a potential miscommunication. Both characters were so rounded and offered so much to the story that I simply can't imagine this book without either of their POVs.

Secondly, I loved the representation of mental health! It was candid and didn't shy away from the very real anxiety that exists when faced with social pressures, or the reality of when someone is emotionally overwhelmed and struggles with their depression for days at a time. It was heart-rending and so honest that I couldn't help but want to hug these characters.

Finally, I loved the chemistry between the two characters. I love reading books where the characters are obviously falling in love, but are completely unaware of it until it slaps them in the face. It's fun because you can then yell at whichever MC has completely missed the fact that they're in love. It's strangely therapeutic.

I loved this book so much. From the fun setting, to the memorable friends and side characters, this book was just full of fun from the beginning to the end! (Even with some slightly less intense spicy scenes!)

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Have you read any of these books? Let me know your thoughts!

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Happy reading!