#dsyphoria vent

[karl-marxs-lil-pogchamp]

the jealousy is unbearable for me sometimes

[maverickcalf]

Every time a stranger calls me ma'am I want to crawl into a hole and never leave.

[vykko]

heh my dysphoria is really bad for the first time in ages

how fun

i feel wong

like and idk why i feel so much now, bc like i cant get the sutpid thought of "you're just a girl"

idk i feel like talking about it, so ive realised that ive been ignoring the feelings for a while but they get worse when i do that

like idk i just feel wrong

i cant point out excalty how but like i usally dont care bout my voice or my body but it just feels wrong right now

chest feels heavy in that way where i want to disaapear

i wish i was just amab

like im want to cry i hate dysphoria bc it cuases me to dissocaite like i dont want to feel this

im not sure what to do

they didnt give me a manual

[passing-the-cis-test]

Introduction!

Hi everyone! I'd like go make a few well known points on this blog, such as its purpose, what it includes/will eventually, rules, and a little bit about myself.

Origins/About the Admin

The admin uses he/him pronouns and will use the online alias of Red.

This account was born from a conversation between a good friend of mine and I. I, a trans boy, have had to do so much digging and so much research, discreet things that transphobic parents won't approve of, and dove through so many loopholes that made my journey through gender dsyphoria and discovering my identity so much easier but so much harder at the same time.

I thought that if I used all that I had gathered and put it all on one platform, specifically focusing on that one thing alone, it would give other people out there what I didn't have. A bit of ease through what is already such a tough journey.

JUST TO CLARIFY!!:

This blog is safe for all umbrellas of queer or straight origin.

This blog is safe for everyone.

This blog is NOT trying to "convert" people. The "transgender agenda" that transphobes seem to stamp all of us with is nothing more than wanting to be ourselves and feel comfortable as who we are.

If you are uncomfortable with this? Please, feel free to leave. I never asked for transphobes here and I certainly don't want them to stay.

This blog WILL be providing tips and tricks for all the handsome young boys and demiboys, beautiful little ladies and demiladies, gorgeous genderfluids, incredible enbies, and all of you wonderful somewhere-in-betweens!

Just what are these tips and tricks?

Tips and tricks will include how to pass as what society deems feminine or masculine.

I do not judge if you know you are a boy and want to be feminine, I do not judge if you know you are a girl and want to be masculine.

This is not meant to enforce society's ideals of the gender separated stereotypes, but rather showing you what those are and helping you present when in an unsafe space or an unaccepting space.

But what about asks and messages?

Please do not be afraid to shoot me a message through my inbox! Anonymous messages are completely acceptable and I am fully willing to answer any questions I can.

Don't be afraid to ask overly specific questions either! It could be an advice box if you need it :)

No transphobic or homophobic asks will be tolerated. You will be blocked, reported, and never seen on my blog again. This goes for transphobic jokes, memes, news articles, claims, scientific reports, etc.

THIS IS NOT A VENTING BOX!! I'm sorry in advance to my loves who are struggling with their lives right now but in order to help you if you submit an ask in the ask box, I must answer publicly. If you need to vent, don't be afraid to send me a message. :) I am here for you all and will listen to you all.

The admin of this blog does cope with ADHD (attention deficient hyperactive disorder ie. brain zoomies zoomz and cannot focus well, gets off task easily) and autism (ie. help me with social cues please I do not understand neurotypical people) so if you could use any of these codes at the beginning of a message I would greatly appreciate it!

(vent) - you would like to vent [ this is a rather general one ]

(help) - you would like advice with something included in your message

(word vomit) - you would like to rant about something in a negative way, like you had a bad day and need to get it off your chest

(rant) - you would like to talk to someone about something good or positive that may have happened :) THESE CAN BE SUBMITTED VIA ASKS IF YOU'D LIKE TO! this kind of ask will be included under the tag #trans positivity and will be made public to spread some hope and joy :)

What will this blog include other than just advice?

This blog will include all sorts of things, pertaining specifically to transgender people, regardless of transition status 🙏❤

This is a source of information, an outlet, and a friend to go to if you need a little boost.

Remember that I love you all, and you are all good people. No matter what others may say to you.

(P.S. please don't be afraid to repost screenshots on pinterest or other websites, I want this to reach as many people as it can 🙏🙏 this blog is only meant to help)

[sciencyblogillcomeupwithaname]

Tw: vent under cut

Sometimes I deluded myself into thinking my mental health is good or that I'm faking everything else. Like when I was 14 I didn't think I deserved the energy it would cost to have a hot shower, so I showered cold and I didn't shower for long enough, so I smelled so I convinced myself that I mattered even less. I would've told you, with a straight face, not lying at all to the best of my knowledge, that my self esteem was pretty good.

Or the fact I've had lumps in my breasts since I was 12 and haven't got that checked. Sometimes I just didn't think of it, sometimes it was 'dsyphoria' that meant I didn't check, and sometimes I was honest and told myself I wanted it to kill me so I could die and have it not be my fault. So I wouldn't hurt my family anymore than necessary, or have them deal with the shame from raising a child so wrong that they killed themselves. But I wouldn't have dared openly called myself mentally ill.

My self harm attempts were just a pin, then just scissors, then a brief attempt with a razor. But I didnt continue using it. So I must be faking.

My 'eating disorder' never lasted longer than a month, and my cals were never shockingly low. So I'm not really sick.

Its all just for attention.

Whose fucking attention.

Who have you told?

Yes, you cut yourself to dramatically reveal you werent okay but then you never did. How the fuck are you faking to just yourself?

And now I can't book a GP appointment because I live with my mum and keeping the peace and not hurting her is more important than my suspected breast cancer.

[miitopia-cake]

any other trans masculine or gender neutral people out there who can't read self insert fanfic anymore because every fanfic has a female or feminine reader? A lot of GN fanfic has the reader super feminine, just with they/them pronouns instead of she/her. It hurts because x readers used to be a huge comfort for me when I was extremely depressed and now I can't read one without getting extremely uncomfortable. I UNDERSTAND that a lot of fanfic authors are female, but it still hurts so much when I can't find anything made for us because I'm not a woman.

[bi-octavius]

feelin a bit tired and sad and dysphoric today :(

[psychoticpastelprince]

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I̍̅̀̎̊'M͉̅ͮ͒ͤ N̺̻̔̆ͅO̖̼ͩ͌͐T̨͈͗̌ͥ A̷͙ͭͫ̕N̺̻̔̆ͅ I̍̅̀̎̊D̶͔̭̪̻I̍̅̀̎̊O̖̼ͩ͌͐T̨͈͗̌ͥ! I̍̅̀̎̊ D̶͔̭̪̻O̖̼ͩ͌͐N̺̻̔̆ͅT̨͈͗̌ͥ G̩̱ͩ̏͜I̍̅̀̎̊V̘̪͆̂̅Ḛͭ̉̇͟ A̷͙ͭͫ̕ D̶͔̭̪̻A̷͙ͭͫ̕M͉̅ͮ͒ͤN̺̻̔̆ͅ I̍̅̀̎̊F̘͍͖ͫ͘ Ỵ̛̖͋͢O̖̼ͩ͌͐U̠҉̷̙ͦ S̵̙͕̀̃A̷͙ͭͫ̕Ỵ̛̖͋͢ Ỵ̛̖͋͢O̖̼ͩ͌͐U̠҉̷̙ͦ 'C̵͉͋̔͞A̷͙ͭͫ̕R͉̜̎͡͠Ḛͭ̉̇͟' ! I̍̅̀̎̊'M͉̅ͮ͒ͤ N̺̻̔̆ͅO̖̼ͩ͌͐T̨͈͗̌ͥ G̩̱ͩ̏͜Ḛͭ̉̇͟T̨͈͗̌ͥT̨͈͗̌ͥI̍̅̀̎̊N̺̻̔̆ͅG̩̱ͩ̏͜ B̩͎͍̾ͅA̷͙ͭͫ̕C̵͉͋̔͞K͕͓͌̎̾ W̯ͤ̾ͣ͝I̍̅̀̎̊T̨͈͗̌ͥHͥ̽ͣ̃̔ Ỵ̛̖͋͢O̖̼ͩ͌͐U̠҉̷̙ͦR͉̜̎͡͠ A̷͙ͭͫ̕S̵̙͕̀̃S̵̙͕̀̃. Ỵ̛̖͋͢O̖̼ͩ͌͐U̠҉̷̙ͦ S̵̙͕̀̃K͕͓͌̎̾I̍̅̀̎̊P̧͕̒̊͘ A̷͙ͭͫ̕R͉̜̎͡͠O̖̼ͩ͌͐U̠҉̷̙ͦN̺̻̔̆ͅD̶͔̭̪̻ O̖̼ͩ͌͐N̺̻̔̆ͅ M͉̅ͮ͒ͤḚͭ̉̇͟, D̶͔̭̪̻U̠҉̷̙ͦM͉̅ͮ͒ͤP̧͕̒̊͘I̍̅̀̎̊N̺̻̔̆ͅG̩̱ͩ̏͜ M͉̅ͮ͒ͤḚͭ̉̇͟ F̘͍͖ͫ͘O̖̼ͩ͌͐R͉̜̎͡͠ S̵̙͕̀̃O̖̼ͩ͌͐M͉̅ͮ͒ͤḚͭ̉̇͟O̖̼ͩ͌͐N̺̻̔̆ͅḚͭ̉̇͟ Ḛͭ̉̇͟L̸̖̽̌͂S̵̙͕̀̃Ḛͭ̉̇͟. I̍̅̀̎̊'M͉̅ͮ͒ͤ D̶͔̭̪̻O̖̼ͩ͌͐N̺̻̔̆ͅḚͭ̉̇͟ W̯ͤ̾ͣ͝I̍̅̀̎̊T̨͈͗̌ͥHͥ̽ͣ̃̔ Ỵ̛̖͋͢O̖̼ͩ͌͐U̠҉̷̙ͦ A̷͙ͭͫ̕N̺̻̔̆ͅD̶͔̭̪̻ Ỵ̛̖͋͢O̖̼ͩ͌͐U̠҉̷̙ͦR͉̜̎͡͠ S̵̙͕̀̃Hͥ̽ͣ̃̔I̍̅̀̎̊T̨͈͗̌ͥT̨͈͗̌ͥỴ̛̖͋͢ A̷͙ͭͫ̕P̧͕̒̊͘O̖̼ͩ͌͐L̸̖̽̌͂O̖̼ͩ͌͐G̩̱ͩ̏͜I̍̅̀̎̊Ḛͭ̉̇͟S̵̙͕̀̃. W̯ͤ̾ͣ͝Hͥ̽ͣ̃̔Ḛͭ̉̇͟R͉̜̎͡͠Ḛͭ̉̇͟ W̯ͤ̾ͣ͝Ḛͭ̉̇͟R͉̜̎͡͠Ḛͭ̉̇͟ Ỵ̛̖͋͢O̖̼ͩ͌͐U̠҉̷̙ͦ W̯ͤ̾ͣ͝Hͥ̽ͣ̃̔Ḛͭ̉̇͟N̺̻̔̆ͅ I̍̅̀̎̊ W̯ͤ̾ͣ͝A̷͙ͭͫ̕S̵̙͕̀̃ A̷͙ͭͫ̕L̸̖̽̌͂O̖̼ͩ͌͐N̺̻̔̆ͅḚͭ̉̇͟!?! W̯ͤ̾ͣ͝ḣ̖̻͛̓ẹ̿͋̒̕ṇ̤͛̒̍ I̍̅̀̎̊ w̦̺̐̐͟ā̤̓̍͘s̠҉͍͊ͅ o̯̱̊͊͢ṇ̤͛̒̍ t̲̂̓ͩ̑ḣ̖̻͛̓ẹ̿͋̒̕ ẹ̿͋̒̕ḑ̴̞͛̒ĝ̽̓̀͑ẹ̿͋̒̕........Ỵ̛̖͋͢O̖̼ͩ͌͐U̠҉̷̙ͦ W̯ͤ̾ͣ͝Ḛͭ̉̇͟R͉̜̎͡͠Ḛͭ̉̇͟N̺̻̔̆ͅT̨͈͗̌ͥ T̨͈͗̌ͥHͥ̽ͣ̃̔Ḛͭ̉̇͟R͉̜̎͡͠Ḛͭ̉̇͟! T̨͈͗̌ͥHͥ̽ͣ̃̔Ḛͭ̉̇͟N̺̻̔̆ͅ Ỵ̛̖͋͢O̖̼ͩ͌͐U̠҉̷̙ͦ W̯ͤ̾ͣ͝A̷͙ͭͫ̕N̺̻̔̆ͅT̨͈͗̌ͥ T̨͈͗̌ͥO̖̼ͩ͌͐ S̵̙͕̀̃A̷͙ͭͫ̕Ỵ̛̖͋͢ t̲̂̓ͩ̑ḣ̖̻͛̓ā̤̓̍͘t̲̂̓ͩ̑ " I̍̅̀̎̊ C̵͉͋̔͞A̷͙ͭͫ̕N̺̻̔̆ͅ A̷͙ͭͫ̕L̸̖̽̌͂W̯ͤ̾ͣ͝A̷͙ͭͫ̕Ỵ̛̖͋͢S̵̙͕̀̃ T̨͈͗̌ͥA̷͙ͭͫ̕L̸̖̽̌͂K͕͓͌̎̾ T̨͈͗̌ͥO̖̼ͩ͌͐ Ỵ̛̖͋͢O̖̼ͩ͌͐U̠҉̷̙ͦ" "Ỵ̛̖͋͢o̯̱̊͊͢ư̡͕̭̇ ḳ̯͍̑ͦṇ̤͛̒̍o̯̱̊͊͢w̦̺̐̐͟ y҉̃̀̋̑o̯̱̊͊͢ư̡͕̭̇ c͕͗ͤ̕̕ā̤̓̍͘ṇ̤͛̒̍ t̲̂̓ͩ̑ẹ̿͋̒̕l̙͖̑̾ͣl̙͖̑̾ͣ ḿ̬̏ͤͅẹ̿͋̒̕ ā̤̓̍͘ṇ̤͛̒̍y҉̃̀̋̑t̲̂̓ͩ̑ḣ̖̻͛̓ỉ͔͖̜͌ṇ̤͛̒̍ĝ̽̓̀͑"....... I̍̅̀̎̊ C̵͉͋̔͞O̖̼ͩ͌͐U̠҉̷̙ͦL̸̖̽̌͂D̶͔̭̪̻N̺̻̔̆ͅ'T̨͈͗̌ͥ L̸̖̽̌͂I̍̅̀̎̊Ḛͭ̉̇͟ T̨͈͗̌ͥO̖̼ͩ͌͐ Ỵ̛̖͋͢O̖̼ͩ͌͐U̠҉̷̙ͦ! B̩͎͍̾ͅư̡͕̭̇t̲̂̓ͩ̑ y҉̃̀̋̑o̯̱̊͊͢ư̡͕̭̇ c͕͗ͤ̕̕o̯̱̊͊͢ư̡͕̭̇l̙͖̑̾ͣḑ̴̞͛̒ l̙͖̑̾ͣỉ͔͖̜͌ẹ̿͋̒̕ t̲̂̓ͩ̑o̯̱̊͊͢ ḿ̬̏ͤͅẹ̿͋̒̕..... ā̤̓̍͘ṇ̤͛̒̍ḑ̴̞͛̒.... y҉̃̀̋̑o̯̱̊͊͢ư̡͕̭̇ ḑ̴̞͛̒ỉ͔͖̜͌ḑ̴̞͛̒..... G̩̱ͩ̏͜o̯̱̊͊͢o̯̱̊͊͢ḑ̴̞͛̒ f̵͖̜̉ͅo̯̱̊͊͢r̴̨̦͕̝ y҉̃̀̋̑o̯̱̊͊͢ư̡͕̭̇ y҉̃̀̋̑o̯̱̊͊͢ư̡͕̭̇ f̵͖̜̉ͅo̯̱̊͊͢o̯̱̊͊͢l̙͖̑̾ͣẹ̿͋̒̕ḑ̴̞͛̒ ẹ̿͋̒̕v͒̄ͭ̏̇ẹ̿͋̒̕r̴̨̦͕̝y҉̃̀̋̑b̬͖̏́͢o̯̱̊͊͢ḑ̴̞͛̒y҉̃̀̋̑, c͕͗ͤ̕̕o̯̱̊͊͢ṇ̤͛̒̍ĝ̽̓̀͑r̴̨̦͕̝ā̤̓̍͘t̲̂̓ͩ̑ư̡͕̭̇l̙͖̑̾ͣā̤̓̍͘t̲̂̓ͩ̑ỉ͔͖̜͌o̯̱̊͊͢ṇ̤͛̒̍s̠҉͍͊ͅ y҉̃̀̋̑o̯̱̊͊͢ư̡͕̭̇ ẹ̿͋̒̕v͒̄ͭ̏̇ẹ̿͋̒̕ṇ̤͛̒̍ f̵͖̜̉ͅo̯̱̊͊͢o̯̱̊͊͢l̙͖̑̾ͣẹ̿͋̒̕ḑ̴̞͛̒ ḿ̬̏ͤͅẹ̿͋̒̕.....

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[the-crisscrossed-system]

Wow, tonight really took a turn for me.

I’m a cis man in a system with a female body, and honestly, it hasn’t bothered me for a while. Like sure I was aware of things right off the bat, the height difference threw me for a loop, the higher voice is something I’m working on, but all in all I thought I was fine with it. It’s life, you know?

Well now I’ve been fronting more, something I only ever did occasionally, and I’ve been spending more time on the phone with my girlfriend since I can’t see her, and it hit us both very hard today that I’m in a female body.

She only ever thinks of me as me, as her boyfriend, as a man, even when she hears me faking my host’s voice in front of her parents. It hasn’t hit her, in fuck knows how long, that I’m in a female body. And that hit me hard too. Like, I know not seeing each other in person because of the state of the world has kind of disconnected us from our bodies in a way, and I know it’s a normal thing for alters of different genders to feel weird about because that’s a big difference and not really something you can just go and change like you can an outfit or hairstyle.

This just really wasn’t something that bothered me till now and now I understand why the boys on both of our sides have had mixed reactions to everything. It’s just made me feel weird. Like I’ve lost a bit of my sense of self all due to a silly conversation.

I’m sure it will be fine and I’ll get over it and we’ll work with what we’ve got. But for the first time, that’s really on my mind.

I’ll probably delete this, mainly because I don’t need my girlfriend to stumble across this and, I don’t know, feel bad or something. I just need to get it off of my chest.

- One of the guys

[space-spooker]

I hate bras. I hate them. They make me want to leave my body. I hate them. So fucking much. I feel so fucking hot and uncomfortable and I want to get out of my skin. Why won't my mother fucking listen to me?

[strangethingslikeme]

[eve-nightengale]

I feel bad because I've definitely been super withdrawn socially because I just... am having a hard time rn and have been for a little while and just I'm trying to pour from an empty cup to often. I love my friends AMD I miss them and I'm sorry that I'm just not around as much right now but also this is not immediately resolving so please bear with me

[transsteverandle]

i did an art thing using a quote from my dairy 

[a-n-x-i-o-u-s]

i wish i fucking knew if what im feeling is dysphoria or im just insecure

[dreamdropsystemarchive]

[dogboy-willgraham]

How to ask people to tag posts like 'the problem is you're a man' or the like without seeming like an ass who doesn't get jokes.