#dried and cracked

[fanfictasia]

Angstober Day 5

Dried and Cracked

Spoiler: This is an excerpt from My Own Way Home

He’s so tired of being alone. He doesn’t want to – to stay this way. He wants to have her back. He doesn’t want to have to hurt her. He – he can’t, even if Sidious orders it.

He hates himself for thinking that, because Sidious is the only person Vader has, and he’s the only person who’s given him anything and made him who he is. Ahsoka is a Jedi, and he shouldn’t owe her anything.

Vader tugs back from her a little, curling up and wrapping his tail around himself, head dropping to his paws.

Ahsoka shifts up against him again.

Vader nearly jumps at the contact, but it’s warm and gentle, and he hasn’t felt anything so soft in years. It’s just… metal and anything hard or sharp and it always hurts. It doesn’t here, even if it feels a little weird because of his scales. He leans into it, curling up against her.

This reminds him so much of… back during the war, when they still had each other and Anakin was foolish enough to think they always would. He would hold her sometimes, because it was relieving and it made him feel… like he could actually do something to help. 

“You can come back, too,” Ahsoka says, quietly.

Vader twists around to look at her, at the unexpectedness of the words. “I – I cannot leave.” He can’t abandon the Empire like that, even if – he wants to be with Ahsoka again.

That doesn’t really matter, though. He can’t abandon the galaxy. They both understood from the start that for no matter how much they loved each other, they’d always have to put their duty ahead of each other. Anakin used to hate it. Vader still does hate it, but Ahsoka… made her own choice, and she didn’t - isn’t – choosing him. 

She’s not going to come back.

He doesn’t want to stay like this, but there’s… nothing he can do. Nothing but wait and hope something changed, but Vader needs to be realistic about it, too. Nothing is going to change. (What they once had is dried, cracked, and it’s not going to change.)

She’s not going to come back, and…

He doesn’t know what it’ll lead to.

He doesn’t want to hurt her. He doesn’t even know what to say to her now. Vader isn’t going to abandon the galaxy just because Ahsoka asked him to, any more than he would when Padme asked him to years ago. He doesn’t want to have to worry about it.

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Day 5; It's All Fun and Games Until Someone Gets Hurt

Fadnom; transformers Characters: Lily (OC), Veronica (OC), Jasmine (OC), the preschoolers; Audrey (OC) Leah and Hannah ( twins, OCs), Ratchet, Sideswipe, Sunstreaker, Sarah Lennox Rating: E Description; a fun game retelling the story of Princess Fiona ends with Lily getting injured. After she's taken care of, the group of friends end up joking while eating candy.

Angstober; dried and cracked Whumpober; "It's broken." AI-lesstober; hostage OC-tober; (skipped) Flufftober; create a fairytale retelling (I might not have done the fairytale retelling prompt right. ) Comfortober; treehouse

"You want us to what?" Lily asks. "Recreate a fairytale," Veronica explains, "but in a fun way for the three little kids. I think this is a fairytale only in the Shrek movies, but close enough." "You have this planned out, don't you?" "Yup," Veronica smiles, "we just need Sunstreaker." Oh boy. Lily thinks as she watches Veronica go into the house. I'm glad she's not trying to avoid him, but this might be too far. Even if Sunstreaker sometimes plays with the little kids. She goes into the house.

The three preschoolers and Sunstreaker are in the kitchen. Sunstreaker isn't bothered that he's eating with them. He's more focused on how Lily's friend is actually approaching him. With the struggle to get to this point, this is still a surprise for him. Sunstreaker isn't sure what Veronica is talking about. "Oh, I know what she's talking about," Sarah Lennox jumps in, "a kid's movie." Sarah explains the story of Princess Fiona in the Shrek movies. Also questioning what Veronica is thinking. "I think she's inspired by her drama club," Lily adds, "though it seems childish for a high school drama club." Veronica explains how she got the idea during drama club. She knew this would be more like playing since she will have three preschoolers involved. Sarah is more interested than Sunstreaker; who doesn't get why he would pretend to save Lily from a pretend dragon? As much as he'd rather the two femmes ask Sideswipe, Sunstreaker agrees with the idea. While this conversation is happening, Sunstreaker observes how often Lily licks her lips. "Come here," he pulls Lily closer, "what's wrong with your lips?" Sunstreaker does see that Lily's lips are dried and cracked. "Happens every year with the colder weather," Lily explains, "you never noticed before?" "And she licks off the chapstick she puts on," Veronica comments, "which definitely adds to the question, how did you not see this since you met her?" "Ok, let's go play this game before dinner," Sarah insists and goes to get the three girls ready. "How long does she think this will take?" Veronica asks.

Lily laughs upon hearing Veronica's idea, while Sunstreaker is displeased. "You want me to pretend three kids are a challenge?" "Oh, come on, it's just a game," Lily argues. "Fine," Sunstreaker sulks.

The little girls follow what Veronica is doing. Pretending to be the dragon protecting the treehouse. Sarah and Veronica didn't think Sunstreaker would let the kids tackle him to the ground. Lily stands by the banister, laughing. She misjudges he footing and goes cover the banister. Everyone watches Lily fall over the railing onto the ground. Lily says she's ok until she tries to get up. Realizing she has an injury to her right arm. "Shit," she says as she sits on the grass. Sunstreaker looks at Lily's arm, noticing the swelling in her wrist. Resulting in crying as he touches her wrist. "Definitely going to have to call one of the medics," Sunstreaker concludes, "Jasmine isn't here?" Sarah shakes her head to say no. Hopefully, one of them will come here. Sunstreaker hopes. Lily is in too much pain to move. I hope it's not a sign this is serious. The preschoolers get toys from the tree house, thinking that'll make Lily feel better. Everyone smiles at their cute attempt. Sarah tries to get the girls back inside, but they refuse. The best she can do is get them to sit on the ground.

Jasmine and Ratchet walk through the portal. Immediately greeted by Audrey. "Hurt," the little girl says, pointing to Lily while holding Ratchet's hand and leading him to Lily.

Sunstreaker explains what happened and how Lily doesn't want to be touched. Ratchet already came prepared with local anesthesia. Sunstreaker carries Lily into the makeshift medbay in the large barn ten feet from the back of the house.

Lily is calm while Ratchet does x-rays. She sits on Sunstreaker's lap while Ratchet looks at the X-rays. "It's broken," Ratchet comments, "and with the swelling, it's better to put a splint on for at least a day." Ratchet gets a bedside table to use to work.

As Ratchet finishes, Jasmine walks in with Audrey, who walks over to Lily with a lollipop. "What are you guys teaching her?" Sunstreaker asks, "also, where's mine, Audrey?" "You're not hurt," Audrey argues. "This helps when dealing with little kids who are scared of doctors," Ratchet explains, "even while I'm Audrey's doctor, she still gets scared. Ok, Lily, we'll take a look at your wrist tomorrow. Take over-the-counter pain relief. The local anesthesia isn't going to last much longer." "Play," Audrey says while trying to make Lily get up. "Just be careful," Ratchet says. The five leave the barn and go into the house.

Sarah, the twins preschoolers, and Veronica are in the kitchen when the others enter the house. They see Sarah gave the little girls lollipops, and Veronica has one. Sunstreaker sees the container of candy on the counter and gets a lollipop. "That's going away," Sarah says. "Hopefully, before Sideswipe sees it," Lily jokes. "Sees what?" They hear Sideswipe asks, before he sees the container, "that you're not sharing the candy?" "Get out of here," Sunstreaker argues, trying to shove Sideswipe out of the kitchen. The preschoolers, Lily and Veronica laugh, "you're a pain. Fine, a few pieces." Sunstreaker gets the candy as Sideswipe realizes what's on Lily's arm. Hating what happened and that she'll be getting a cast tomorrow. The twins decide to return to D.C. with Lily and Veronica since Lily still has school. "I doubt they would be staying here if you didn't get hurt," Veronica comments, making Lily laugh. Sunstreaker turns away, hoping no one sees him blushing. What's to be embarrassed about? We know you love her. Sideswipe asks. "Isn't Sideswipe your guardian, Veronica?" Sarah asks. "So we both have to go back anyway," Sunstreaker comments, "even if the Decepticons have been quiet, and we have groundbridge technology." "Oh, just say you don't want to be away from me longer than while I'm in school." Sunstreaker didn't think Lily would kiss him. "Ewe!" The preschoolers exclaim. "Let me interrupt to give Lily these," Jasmine comments, giving Lily pain relief. After Lily takes the pills, she, Veronica, and the twins take the three preschoolers to play. Sarah quickly hides the candy. "Well, this turned out good. I mean, Lily getting hurt sucks, but I think she's distracted," Jasmine comments.

[acorviart]

pied crow + the plate wip

[lazylittledragon]

creme brulee flavoured donuts were pretty fucking ambitious because i've never made donuts or pastry cream before but SUCCESS

[amber-laughs]

clash theon would’ve finger banged barbrey dustin in those crypts, that’s how i knew my boy was crushed

[aioliravioli-69]

Chase: So I put the keys in this formation and then I uh...I...uhm, are you sure about this Dorkin?

Deacon: It's what the keys said you'd have to do and they probably know the ritual better than you

Chase: Yeah, but they've also been asleep everytime they went through it

Deacon: Come on Chase, we've come so far, you can't chicken out now!

Chase: I-...I'm not chickening out, it's just...are we 100% sure this is what I'm supposed to do?

Deacon: What other information do we have?

Chase: I...ok, I'll do it...for mom

Chase: Here goes nothing I guess

[trashmakerarticle]

I keep thinking of tim having rusty bones when he has spent too much time at the bat commuter or smth, he cracks them like he’s a glow stick and everyone is just wondering if he’s bones are okay,

Tim, standing up from the bat computer having his bones crack as he stands: *old man sounds*

Tim, twisting his body in weird ways to crack his bones: *old man noises enhances*

Everyone in the batcave: tim what the fu-

[cubikzoa]

I am 97% sure that Hannibal Lecter owns the boba shop I just visited and I am a bit concerned

[pancakeke]

my favorite hand soap was discontinued or something so I got desperate and bought some on amazon. but I'm beginning to think that shit was either tampered with or fake....

[vivianquill]

this is my lil guy. His name is Sebby, short for Sebastian.

He's got three friends that aren't done yet. Chip the snek, and an unnamed tree and an unamed bird.

[bi-panic-at-the-disco]

he would be so smelly

[citrus-sours]

Its jover folks. My computer is busted. Sooooooo no art for awhile . :'(

[torchickentacos]

Save me, May to December by Megan Fernandes. Save me

[tomatoluvr69]

Ohhhhhh my goddddddddd so I’ve basically been to the doctor three times since turning 18 and aging out of the pediatrician because of my horrible doctor fears and issues. So it’s a MOMENTOUS occasion and the culmination of years of glacial self-work that I felt ready FINALLY READY to sit down and make a doctors appointment for a routine visit!! Like that is give or take a decade in the making…….and all the ethereal alchemical elements were correct so I could finally do it this morning. But the clinic is closed and you can only do it weekdays ☠️☠️☠️☠️☠️☠️ ok guess I am going to the doctor in 10 years probably. See you 2034

[yinyinggie]

the inherent beauty of being alive! there is much to be thankful for

[aers]

my favourite piece sold today 🐶💘☁️⭐️