#don’t mind me I’m just depressed

[araindropshallfall]

The thing is, I’m well-aware there’s great tv out there right now. I even follow and enjoy my own fair share of prestige television.

But god doesn’t it all kinda feel like it’s starting to become the same thing? So many feel like they exist for the purpose of critical acclaim and awards. There’s so much money poured into these shows and they’re good but they feel like the whole point behind them is to make money.

Ofmd was a show that was so wholly and sincerely itself. It didn’t box itself into being just one thing and it took risks. It also had fun. I just don’t feel like enough shows have fun anymore. Not enough of them feel heartfelt. Even the best of the best television is starting to feel soulless to me because I’m being told the same stuff is good over and over again.

Ofmd wasn’t the last of its kind, but the number of shows doing something different right now is dwindling. And it’s depressing as hell.

(Gif by @wondersmith-and-sons)

[bitchypuppystarlight]

The sadness that sweeps in when a favorite show comes to an end be it for a season or all time is very real.

[cecelovegood]

Okay, but thinking of asphodel as a forest.

Imagine 12 year old Hazel, wandering through that forest for 80 years. All alone, watching as the souls around her turn into trees.

Think about when she meets Nico, a person who doesn’t just look right through her. And she has hope.

[kingdomhearts-and-soriku-trash]

After KH 3 and everything, I wonder if Riku knows about Anti-Sora and knows what that Side of him is.

Does he ever wonder about when Sora became a heartless? Like late at night does he ever think about his actions all those years ago in Hollow Bastion (I think that’s where it happened right??)

Do these questions ever plague him in the night and he can’t sleep because he feels at fault and he’s tired of feeling this way but Sora isn’t there anymore to help him understand that’s it’s okay?

[kingtomura]

new chapter is just downright depressing as fuck. like what is the end goal message here? don’t be a victim of abuse and trauma because you will inevitably crash and burn and die alone? Wow what a great conclusion!! So fresh and creative

[weaveandwood]

I’m going to reblog so much stuff (I’m sorry)

[silverhalla]

I think it would be rly sick if you went to go build a crow rook and the surname was Arainai

like…. just another little compradi trying to bring glory back to your house - rinnala and taliesin are dead by the house’s hand, zevran failed and deserted, guili murdered in the night, all semblance of power lost once again. the house is trying to claw its way back up, futile as it seems. that’s the way of house arainai, isn’t it? talon to knife to talon to knife to nothing, same as it’s been since the house first lost power in the early dragon age. but you, bright-eyed little crow, you’ll break the cycle, won’t you? for the family?

after all, caterina’s prized heir is right there - the demon of vyrantium, the infamous mage killer, sleeping just down the hall. you can be quiet, can’t you? all those means at your disposal, and all the opportunities you could want. you could find a way in under that armor, get to something soft and bruisable and make it bleed. he’s far from home, isn’t he? without a friend? confidantes are few and far between - even a demon must get lonely.

maybe he’d even trust you. you’re a clever little bird, right? you can find something to exploit. after all, what does a would-be talon do except claw, except maim? what else would you be good for? there is no gentleness to crows - you are here to deliver a message: run, little demon, quick as you like.

house arainai will make carrion of you yet.

[minijenn]

Fun and slightly depressing fact: before the UF reboot came along I was in a creative slump for most of this year and was a hot minute away from giving up on fic writing entirely bc I had just about lost passion for it. Amazing that the fic I nearly gave up on forever was the thing that dragged me back into hell huh?

[liesmultixxx]

you know, i feel like i’m so far behind in life

like i’ll never catch up

“you’re still so young”

and yet it feels like it’s too late for me

where’s hope?

i don’t know, must’ve lost it somewhere the second or third time my heart has been shattered

i want to stay strong, to keep fighting, keep trying

and yet i sit here in my room, ruminating how to change

with no prospects of ever changing at all

because i’m scared

so scared

[skyward-floored]

I feel like I haven’t talked much on here about just like. Regular lu. in a hot minute.

[whoblewboobear]

Staring down that weird feeling of feeling like too much or out of place or annoying if I say too much or say things too loud or too off-putting to be like- WANTED in any given social situation. To try so hard to socialize just to- idk. I’d very much like to stop defaulting to that scared kid that was pushed away or talked over until I got old enough and desperate enough to say any and every rapid fire thought that comes to mind. Like filling space when there’s dead air then wondering if maybe I did the Too Much™️ thing again and A. Scared everyone away or B. Pushed everyone away so it would hurt less when they leave BC of A.

Of feeling like I need to be useful or smart or talented or pretty or SOMETHING worthwhile so people want me around. I can just be but then it’s like just being has never been enough for anyone to like- stay. Or care. Running is always a mistake bc it’s like riiiight.. no one noticed you ran, babe. You’re not even at the top of their list people to want around. And just feel so low about it that I talk myself into feeling miserable again.

I’m happy, ive been so much happier lately and i dont take it for granted bc it’s so rare that things go okay or that there’s a sense of peace for a moment. I’m creating again and im less hard on myself about it. I have hobbies again, I’m making friends. And still I’m like seeing the other foot start to drop in real time bc it’s like. You’re in, but are you? That constant nagging voice that sounds so much like my own going “lonely again? Good you deserve it”

[notjanine]

me a week ago: i love my job!!

me now, after having a mid-year review that amounted to you’re doing an excellent job and you bring such a valuable perspective to our practice but i don’t have the ability to give you a raise right now but don’t worry bc i just hired a new CFO to try to figure out money so we can maybe give you a raise later this year: *breaks into a cold sweat as i crack open indeed dot com*

[romance-incubomp3]

like if therapy and meds help you that’s so cool but it drives me insane how people treat those as some magical cure all that EVERYONE needs to seek out even though the psych industry is fucked and biased and not affordable and if trying to find a good therapist or find the right meds is doing nothing but causing you even more stress and anxiety even after you’ve been trying to get help for years than maybe it’s not worth it at that point

[always-smileing]

I sure do love drawing!

(I want to rip out my fucking eyes.)

[goblin-enjoyer]

*draws something for the first time in a while. “Man I suck at drawing! Maybe go back to being good at it if I draw more!”

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“Oh I got a neat idea for a drawing! Surely I have gotten better by now!” Loop post

[anicehomicidaltree]

“Nadel und Faden” (or Needle and Stitch for you english speakers) is such a Mind coded song

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