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this may be far fetched because it’s tumblr but i’m sooo indecisive on my uni choices and i’m having a breakdown,
bristol vs exeter vs birmingham vs rhul
yall where should i firm??? and which do i visit 😔
#don’t ask why i picked them#i regret it now#but im too scared to do clearing or take a gap year#fuck my life#please someone give me some good news#bristol#university#university of exeter#exeter#university of bristol#university of birmingham#royal holloway#PLS HELP ME 😭#i can’t visit both exeter and bristol so idk which to choose
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First tlt comic pls be kind to me
Edit: made a very minuscule change. Might take a trained eye to see it (hint)
#also this was my first time ever drawing Gideon#which is why she is Not consistent#also still new to drawing harrow so uh#as stated in caption: be kind to me#griddlehark#tlt#the locked tomb#harrow nonagesimus#gideon nav#tlt gideon#tlt harrow#this is post nona btw#fingers crossed it’ll remain canon compliant#tamsyn muir please let them live I beg you#nona the ninth#harrow the ninth#gideon the ninth#kiriona gaia#harrow rizz so strong she can ask a girl what dying felt like and it’ll end in kisses lmao#and I’ve decided they do naked cuddles. you pick for yourself if they’re together. I don’t care. they nude cuddle. nuddle. if you will#let the soft animal of your body want bitch#henreyettart
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Ghost Chirps AU Part 5
Part 1 & 2
Part 3
Part 4
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While “Jason” (i.e. Alfred with an empty jet that Jason will meet up with later in order to “arrive” in Amity) hops a private jet, Red Hood is busy searching the Fenton home from top to bottom.
The local police move slowly, and by the time they arrive Jack and Maddie Fenton are both tied up and disarmed in their living room under heavy guard.
They hadn’t been restrained immediately, Batman talking him into giving them a chance to implicate themselves first.
Hood let him take the lead, but he didn’t even get a chance to ask a question, being cut off at the first indication he might want to talk about their “work.” Less than 60 seconds in, and the pair had outright confessed to violating the meta protection acts - and in tedious detail.
The questioning didn’t suffer any from them being tied up.
Far from the mulish silence or crocodile-tear laden denial of most criminals, they instead doubled down, insisting that nothing they had done was illegal, then jumping to the assumption that they were “possessed” - and boy had it been a nasty surprise when the whole house came alive trying to attack them with a quick verbal command.
Well, trying to attack Hood. And only him, for some reason.
One laser also freed the Fentons, who turned out to have even more weapons built into their suits.
Somehow.
Despite them being skintight.
That had been a pain, but Red Robin was able to hack the system using one of the couples’ own devices while Hood dodged - and kept the stray fire away from the others - leaving everyone else to recapture the pair. A blessedly simple task once they found out the lasers would splash harmlessly off of their armor (save for a gross film of green goop left wherever they grazed).
They take turns knocking each unconscious to change them in order to properly disarm them - Batman and Nightwing taking Jack first, followed by Orphan and Spoiler dealing with Maddie.
The only non-weapon laden clothing they own turns out to be pajamas.
This is around when the police show up, looking hesitant.
They, too, cite the “Anti-Ecto Acts.”
Oracle had debriefed them on the supposed Acts and “Ghost Investigation Ward” on their short drive over. Both were utterly bogus - the Acts had never even been proposed, let alone been approved as law, and the so-called “GIW” had no ties to the government.
The Fentons had been furious and denied the information intensely when told, but the cops mostly just looked relieved.
Apparently there’d been a lot of property damage by the GIW and Fentons both that had supposedly been dismissed under the Acts as “necessary in the pursuit of ecto-scum.”
For the Fentons, half of this damage was in the form of broken fire hydrants, cracked sidewalks, and totaled cars - they’d never been good drivers, before, the cops disclosed, but they’d become even more negligent since the ghosts began appearing, to the point they had to have a news segment warning when they would be on the road.
The lack of fatalities thus far had been nothing short of a miracle, they claimed.
“Of course there haven’t been any fatalities!” Mrs Fenton defends. “Our work is to protect people from those things, not make more! Officers, listen to reason-” Hood snorts disdainfully -”The Red Hood is clearly a ghost! All our systems targeted him the moment they came online - and they only target ecto-entities. He’s clearly taken these heroes under his sway - why else would they be working with a murderer!? You have to do something before he starts up his killing here in Amity!”
The officers look at him a bit hesitantly, but Batman is unmoved and gives the cover story Hood had outlined back in the alley.
Any concerns the locals have are quickly assuaged.
But for the whole explanation, Jason is trying not to shake even as he falls apart in place.
Their little website called them ghost-hunters, making it pretty clear what “ecto-entities” meant.
Their system supposedly only targets ecto-entities.
The system had only targeted him.
The system only targets ghosts.
Jason had died.
A lot of his family members had died, too, granted.
But Jason was the only one who seemed to come back wrong - anger sticking in his throat and never quite fading, an inclination towards violence even when he wasn’t angry well beyond what he’d ever felt before, and a sea of other emotions (that he would never acknowledge aloud) and triggers for those emotions that he always struggled to make heads or tails of.
He doesn’t have the meta gene. He knows that. He knew that.
He just assumed that the test missed it, because he knows he doesn’t know magic - the All Blades being the only exception - and he couldn’t think of another explanation at the time.
But he came back wrong.
And as he stands there, he wonders if he came back at all, mind on Solomon Grundy.
Wonders if he isn’t just some ghost, wandering around possessing his own corpse.
He jolts, as the thought strikes him: what about Danny?
If he’s a ghost and chirping is a ghost thing then what about his KID!?
Absently, he notes that Bruce has started interrogating the cops on what they meant by “ghost attacks.”
He ignores the discussion, hustling for the door in the kitchen down to the lab.
He slams and locks the door behind him - in Red Robin’s face - as he descends, making a b-line for the computer he’d seen when the Fentons had dragged them all down there to start bragging about their crimes.
The only thing Oracle could get out of the whole building was things that were openly available online; direct connections were impossible.
Opening up the screen, he gets to cracking.
Going for the surface level files first, it turns out he doesn’t even need so much as a password to find what he wants.
One of the video game sub-files has an unrelated file in it: ghost notes.
There are plenty of other notes, of course, but he’d only been skimming to start, looking for anything hidden.
The Fenton parents were too open to bother, of course, with plenty of more obvious files strewn haphazardly across the home screen, but it’s always better to check. That there is a hidden file means it was likely made by either Danny or Jazz.
And it’s a treasure trove.
Sub-files for rogues, allies, conditional allies, and “halfas” were what greeted him.
The last being the only term he didn’t recognize, he clicked.
6 files: Clones, Danny, Dani, Dan, Vlad, and Red Hood.
He clicks his own file.
What greets him is a picture of himself 4 days ago, looking just to the left of the lens in an alley that he distinctly remembers searching for the kid in.
Just below is text.
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??? Name: Red Hood
Species: probably a halfa
Status: Nnnneutral? I think? I know, I know, heads in bags. But Valerie tries to kill me all the time! And we’re allies sometimes! Hood- uh- looked for me? Okay I guess I can’t really judge this yet but please read the first met section before you judge please you guys?
First met: Aug 17, 2005, was in Gotham to bother Batman, stopped to think a bit on some fire escape - decide on the first prank yknow - but then my ghost sense went off. It felt like a halfa so I thought “oh cool, must be Dani” so I chirped, but then Red Hood - who was chasing some guy down an alley at the time - froze and looked around. I dropped visibility and chirped again and yeah, he definitely heard it. Humans can’t so he’s definitely a halfa - no glow so he can’t be a full ghost and it felt nothing like an overshadowing.
Ended up following Hood around the rest of week - forgot to prank Batman, damn - and playing hide-and-seek with the chirps. It was really funny. But he very obviously doesn’t know he’s a halfa. But the guy is, like, scary levels of smart, so I’m sure he’ll figure it out on his own now that the chirp thing made it clear that something is up. Hopefully.
I figure I can go back in winter break - he should have it figured out and let his emotions process enough by then to at least hear me out when I explain the AEA and GIW and everything, then it won’t matter so much if he can, like, track me by voice or something if I talk since we’ll have MAD by then.
Despite his reputation, the people living in his haunt seem to love the guy. I can see why. On top of the whole smart he’s actually really nice to people he’s not shooting in the knees (which only even happened one time in the week I was there? It was actually pretty relaxing - most quiet week I’ve had since the portal opened THANK YOU TUCKER for hacking the portal hatch to be inoperable for a week).
Where was I? Oh yeah, he’s actually surprisingly nice to people? So like, I think he’ll probably hear me out if I go back and be polite? I hope. Hate to leave the guy in the dark and him end up on the GIWs dissection table for “lots and lots of painful experiments.”
Not that those guys could even catch the Box Ghost. But uh, Hood doesn’t seem to have powers either? Or if he does he doesn’t know about them I don’t think - he only used the chirp the whole time I was their - not even to cheat with moving around.
Seriously. That guy's acrobatics could make Freakshow’s contortionist green - er, red??? - with envy. Actually wait, aren’t contortionists and acrobats different things?
SAM NOTE: help^?
Powers:
?
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Jason leans back, breathing deeply.
“Not a full ghost,” “not 'overshadowed'” - a term that sounds likke some kind of cousin to possesision - “definitely a halfa,” “humans can’t hear chirps.”
Halfa.
Half.
Ghost.
Half Ghost.
It should sound absurd - you can’t be half alive and half dead.
But Jason has seen the Lazarus pits, has met Solomon Grundy, has met aliens and bullshit magic and can pull magical swords out of his own damn chest.
Half alive. Half dead.
Hopefully not just a fancy way to say possessing his own corpse.
He doesn’t have time to deal with every file - he’ll “confiscate” one of their USBs with a copy of everything for himself before leaving the rest to Batman & co, of course, minus the halfa files (a small part of him wants to shove his condition in Bruce’s face and demand he kill the clown again even though he knows it’s a futile hope, but the rest - the same part that snapped and denied and refused to say he was a meta less that a day ago now - cannot stomach the thought of even more rejection. Of a Bruce that believes he’s a monster. Of a Bruce that mourns him even while he’s right there. Or at least, more than he already does.) - but while the files copy he take the time to look at Danny’s.
The image has two people, Danny Fenton on one side and a version of the kid in a black hazmat suit with white hair, tanned skin, and painfully familiar green eyes. And floating.
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Human Name: Danny Fenton
Ghost Name: Danny Phantom
Species: Halfa (half-human, half ghost)
~~~
It’s the section after that that makes Jason’s breath catch in his throat.
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Death: The Portal Accident
So like, there was no audio (thank GOD I do not want to hear myself screaming) so. Details: When the portal didn’t work when they plugged it in mom and dad left for fudge, Jazz went to try and talk them into a more realistic career choice than ghosts. Sam and Tucker came over and Sam dared me to climb in and check it out - it was broken anyway so no harm. Except it wasn’t broken, just that my parents put the on button inside. Which I caught myself on when I tripped on a wire.
Anyway, electrocution!
(T - Danny for the love of god be more serious, the cheerful tone is creepy)
(D - Hey! I’m the one who died! Shouldn’t I at least get to write my own epitaph)
(S - …Danny this is not an epitaph. You don’t even HAVE a grave)
(D - wow way to rub it in Sam)
(T - yeah Sam)
(S - ugh! Whatever, just stop with the chatting in official files)
(T - “official”)
(S - Tucker.)
(T - shutting up now)
Electrocution! I got zapped to death, but the ectoplasm from the portal was also opening up on top of me and a lot got bonded to me I guess (S - probably because of the electricity with how you ended up with some of Vortex' powers for a little while) at the same time said electricity was reviving me? - probably getting my heart beating again or something, I was a little busy screaming to pay attention (T - yeah okay we're going to Nasty Burger after this. And playing Doomed) - not that it would’ve mattered without the ghostification preventing me from melting me all the way to death.
Status: Me!
Powers:
Chirps! (ghost echolocation of some kind! humans can't hear em - halfas can, of course, in either form)
Form Change (really Sam? This barely counts)
Human form
Ghost form (no need to breathe)
Flight (last clock speed 210mph) (T - and climbing. Dang dude)
Invisibility (S - don’t forget shareable.) (Shareable. sigh)
Intangibility (Shareable)
Ecto Rays (eyes & hands) (T - and butt) (D - dude! I’m deleting that. Tucker why can't I delete it. TUCKER) (T - bow down in awe of my ksill) (S - ksill) (D - ksill) (T - yeah okay it’s permanent now) (D - aw man!)
Ghost Sense (S - why do we never test your range?) (D - no need? They always make themselves obvious or are being sneaky specifically to annoy me so *shrug*) (S - I still think we should test it)
Power Absorption (that time with Vortex’s weather powers)
Cryokinesis (Wayyyyy to much ice. NOT testing max output on that) (T - yeah frozen city was enough, let’s not cause an ice age. Tech needs some cool but too much is still bad and I just upgraded Patricia)
Ghostly Wail (cone of destruction, very exhausting - always at max output. Not to be used)
GHOST FORM ONLY (but really just never)
Cartoon Body (D - what???) (S - Freakshow literally turned you into a puddle and you just turned back and were fine. I don’t know what else to call that) (D - okay fair. but:)
GHOST FORM ONLY
Physical Enhancement (better strength, speed, stamina, durability, reflexes, balance, etc much better than human) (T - why does this look like dnd knockoff stats haha)
GHOST FORM ONLY (S - obviously mr last place in PE)
Resistances (pretty solid on the overshadowing, avoided being taken in by Ember until targeted, didn’t get turned to stone during the Medusa thing) (S - which was pure luck! Be careful!)
Ecto Electricity (ghost stinger, but I really don’t think this counts Sam. I mean I just. Make my ecto zappy. But it’s still just ecto) (S - so is your ICE and you don’t just call that "just cold ecto") (D - fine, but it feels overly specific) (S - maybe writing it all down will make you stop. Forgetting. POWERS!) (D - come on Sam that was a lucky hit! I was distracted! And it turned out fine!) (S - Fenton…) (D - oop okay doing fire now)
Ecto Fire (made Dash’s shoes melty that one time by make the ecto hot) (T - really needs more testing)
Tech possession (chasing Technus into computers, not very tested)
Ghost form only, i guess?
Overshadowing (control people, copy their voice, invade dreams - the control one erases the person’s memory so they don’t know they were overshadowed just lost time. I hate Walker. SO much) (T - rip Danny’s reputation, you’ll be missed)
Probably ghost form only
Duplication (T - That’s optimistic) (D - I’M WORKING ON IT OKAY!?) (S - pretty sure it just falls under cartoon body until you can actually separate) (D - :( betrayal)
Probably ghost form only
More? (D - ugh I hope not) (T - hey don’t say that, maybe you’ll get a power to make the JL give a crap about Amity) (D - honestly I’m getting pretty close to letting Boxy loose in Gotham) (S - Danny, don’t stoop to their level!) (D - it's only box ghost!) (T - I mean he has a point)
~~~
Jason changes his mind, seeing the commentary, and deletes the entire hidden file from the computer as soon as his copy is made. He can go over everything and bring any important info to Bruce separately, the bat’s can just chew on the parents’ files for now.
Once the original files are thoroughly and irretrievably removed he pockets his shiny new USB, makes a second one with all the official files, and heads back up and out - carelessly brushing past a thoroughly irate Red Robin with a pair of firemen and broken jaws of life. And not a scratch on the door; impressive - just in time to get Oracle’s text that he’s got 2 hours and 16 minutes to be at the location on his HUD so he can “arrive” to Amity.
And a fresh set of civilian clothes will be waiting in the plane, Alfred as reliable as ever.
“Files,” he says, tossing the safe USB to Batman and interrupting his interrogation of the police officer.
He catches it effortlessly of course, but the officer stops paying attention to him to jolt at Hood’s reappearance - even outside of Gotham his reputation is fierce.
“I sent a copy to myself. I’ll review them and give you an overview, but other than that consider this the end of my involvement in this little shitshow,” he says, continuing smoothly to the door. “I’m heading back to Gotham.”
Now, he has a little over two hours before Jason Todd needs to arrive in Amity Park. He only needs to lay hands on a laptop that he can isolate from Babs’ influence and he should be able to review the Halfa files in full before he "lands" - after he figures out just why the kid has a grudge against the JL.
#The defenses only attacked jason because the others are liminal#But not quite liminal enough for the Fenton House to pick up on#He’s the only one who died and had it really *stick* thus why he’s the only halfa#Sure the others died but they were all revived fully#Death left a stain#Not a chain#Jason has one foot in the grave#The others bat’s just have some graveyard dirt smudged on their pants cuffs#I can keep going with the metaphors#lol#Anyway#Their contamination is. Like. not worse than the average person living on the opposite side of the city as the Fentons#(which is a lot compared to everyone else in the whole world#but not much in terms of “will the house shoot me”#Fenton ghost detecting devices aren’t that precise yet)#The “files” aren’t super professional because like. They’re 14.#It’s organized sure but it’s not gonna be scientific paper levels (& they’d feel uncomfy making it too scientific sounding)#There’s powers missing on purpose (not thinking of thing as a power. All 3 forgot about it. Etc)#So why did the JL ignore Amity you ask?#Info blackout#One does not simply ignore the Meta Protection Acts and pretend to be a gov’t agency without taking precautions#Everything out of Amity Park is sanitized as hell. (ha#and doesn’t that just fit the GIW clean-obsession)#“But Mutable!” I hear you cry “What about Undergrowth & Vortex!”#I don’t remember Undergrowth’s radius of effect but I’m saying my AU he was Amity-only and the GIW set up a blockade to intimidate witnesse#Same deal with Pariah town-knapping the place (GIW base was JUST out of the town-knapping radius. Lucky them)#As for Vortex#the storms themselves made it impossible to track anything through normal means#(ie no cams caught Sam & Tucker’s jet taunting Vortex except some people with cells on the street. But wind killed all the audio)#So as far as the world is concerned there was a freak storm and it went away
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YOUTUBE SHORT CAN BE FOUND HERE (showing all their little details is just easier in video format)
@canisalbus i made your silly little dog men as a gift for a friend (we frequently scream at each other about them because they are precious and we mutually adore them) and yeah. That’s all. Here they are- Small beans that they are.
#also please excuse my nasty fingers that have paint superglued to them from making Machete’s bag#canisalbus#mchete#vasco#vaschete#clay#cosclay#kawaii style#sculpting#i guess#I mean it is sculpting but that seems like a very formal word for squishy little dogs#also my brother picked up machete before I had painted him (when he was still grey and nondescript)#and looked at me and asked ‘‘why’s he got a bunch of warts on the bag of his head?’’#poor machette and his head warts#I don’t know how else to depict fluff in clay#also I love vasco’s ears so much#they’re so huge and beautiful#small artist#my art#artists on tumblr
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Awwwee when is your anniversary with Meatz??
Mid November! Tbh we don’t have like…a set anniversary in the sense that we have a date where we officially became a thing??? I had been domming them for a month or two before I asked them out and they turned me down at first after thinking about it 🫶🏻 but then we just kinda…kept interacting romantically and I kept domming them and I went to go visit them for the first time irl a few months later! And that was when we were like “Oh shit we definitely are an official thing when did this happen.”
#asked and answered#anon#there’s more to it too lol#i had thought we were official before i got to visit them snd they thought we werent official until we met up irl lmao#but yeah i dont remember why we picked the day we did???#I don’t know if it was the first time they called me dad or the first time i dommed them or the day i asked rhem out initially#wait actually….actually i think it might be because it was the first time i dommed them#because it was No Nut November and that was how we ended up playing with each orher#😔😔😔#smh i forgot that
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zappa is probably the gay patient
#guilty gear#slayer#faust#alt text added in case the pixel cursive is hard to read!#also don’t ask why i picked these two characters in particular i just wanted to draw them lol
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have 2 ask… what’s ur rendering process??? because like idk if this makes sense but your work always looks like if someone drew with oil pastel colored pencils and i have NO IDEA how u do that shit 😭😭 sorry if this is like. a lot to ask i’ve always been so curious
i usually start out w a rough sketch and lay down base colors under it and when i’m ready merge the layers and start painting it and adding detail ! sometimes i even just paint over the sketch on one layer
i do this with most of my stuff becasue it makes it easier to bring together the lines and color in an interesting way and also easier to like. redo a face or something without having to go back and forth on each layer.
and for colors and shading i just experiment with colors and diff hues. go crazy use a bunch of varying hues and shades for shading and lighting instead of one chosen color. putting a slight hue change/jitter on ur brush also adds a lot to the piece. and when i render if it’s more stylized i just go in with fun shapes and scribbles and lines!!! sometimes a color choice looks really weird up close but really good once ur finished. just go crazy and experiment is my advice.
#layers are a lifesaver at times and i definitely use them like crazy but also making urself use no layers is a very good exercise#it’s why i like ms paint so much lol#i don’t have the brushes k use rn sorry…. maybe i’ll share later if i remember#also i don’t remember where i get most brushes i download them then find them one day years later#but the reg airbrush with pen pressure is VERY GOOD!!! use airbrush#and i use clip studio paint#☀️🌈🔥#asks#maybe i’ll go more in depth about how i pick colors someday …..
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kinda need to go through the manga and anime at the same time to determine if there are any manga-exclusive or anime-exclusive outfits (for light but tbh i will want to do Everyone)
#why u may ask? bc i need to know 👍#i want a venn diagram with the overlap and i want to print out little pictures of all of his outfits and pin them to the wall so i can#visualize things bigger and from there i can separate each outfit into categories like time period. when he’s kira/not#type of outfit (casual/formal/turtleneck/etc) and so on and so forth#and then i will analyze the shapes and colors and styles to determine his general sense in fashion so i can accurately pick out#lingerie for him#yes yes this is a great idea i wish i had a cork board of some kind but ig the wall will do. or perhaps i will try this digitally but it#would be like 100 times cooler and. easier to mess w the data irl. hmmmm#idk don’t mind me i’m abt to fall asleep and just considering things. gn y��all
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A-!
#my stuff#i decided to be SO BRAVE#and very politely text one of the Not My Ex organizers of the grad student queer group#asking if i could get a head count so i can get an idea if it’s feasible to go and have space from my ex#and i’ve heeeeeard nothing after several hours and i’m freaking out#my anxiety is killing me bc i know this other organizer is Friends with my ex and i don’t want there to be dramaaaaa!!!!#i do not want to talk to my ex i don’t want to be around them but i don’t want to miss out on talking to other ppl and having fun#but if there’s like 10 ppl total going i cannot possibly cold shoulder them without being an ass#i hate this i hate them why do i always have to be the brave one reaching out and thinking abt ppls feelings and debasing myself for nothing#can someone in this mess fucking think about me and how i’m doing for once?#without me having to check on everyone else and how they’re doing before they even think to ask how i am?#be gentle with me or kill me fucking pick damn it
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i don’t like men who don’t share food w their gfs
#like i don’t get why they get so mad over them asking for a bite#like ok perhaps it’s understandable if they like try and split it or ask u to switch and u don’t rly feel like it#but damn them men on tik tok be getting mad over literal BITES just to taste#me n my bf ??#we don’t even order individually#we just pick 2 things off the menu that sound good to both of us and split both#it’s called being smart u get to try two things off the menu#??????#couples that are not food connoisseurs together are lame#boooooo 👎🏽
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This was made and was sitting in my drafts before the current season was on
I'm only saying this because the shipper are being legitimately misogynistic towards every woman that buck and eddie are paired with like you don’t like fine but don’t be misogynistic towards their actresses. Also within this fandom there is a legitimate great mlm ship that has great development that doesn't get nearly as much love as that one and its canon and ppl try to discredit them by saying its rushed.
This is insanity and the fact that ppl don't see how they're being misogynistic because a woman is getting in the way of the 'gay' ship that's not even real is insane.
#I block think of that before you comment#anti buddie#the fact that when tumblr did their year end wrapped up tarlos was lower then b*ddie insanity#b*ddies drove me out the fandom#another reason why i will never et behind this fuck ass ship#atp yall have to ask yall selves is b*ddie a 7/8 season long slow burn or did yall just annoy them into fanservicing the ship#congrats on bi buck#and I hope they don’t give yall b*ddie because yall are so annoying and misogynistic#and why does a fuck marry kill incorrect quote with buck and eddie abt Taylor have over 2000 notes if not misogyny#<<it was an incorrect quote of buck and eddie playing fck marry kill i forgot with who else other with but taylor#but guess who was picked to be killed? taylor
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#4-5ish months i’ve been the main (i’m pretty sure only) person cleaning every weekend#my only days off and through the week clean dishes or load up the washer and pick them up#occasionally someone else w load it but not pick up or vice verse#november i lost all motivation i ask for help i get told they’re tired or they work or later or im met w but i did xyz the other day blah bl#blah blah yk#i tried to clean in nov but i just can’t im tired it’s constant that im cleaning i want to do things not go from work to home for chores to#also cook and then clean up dinner because i also have a job#and when i do something im not like OH well i did xyz! so i won’t do that …no i just say okay because why bring up what i already did things#need to be done why are you arguing with me like we want to bring up receipts? i’ll bring them up#i’m cleaning up clothes that’s not mine i’m cleaning up shit piss ans throw up of a dog that is not mine i walk said dog occasionally#but nope not the other way around why would they do any of that when it’s not theirs ?#i ask them to pick one day to make dinner nope i can’t i’m busy i have xyz …okay i have work gym appts errands too#and since i have cleaned in like a month or over it’s a mess but no one has taken action to fix that it’s just it’s messy in here#that’s why i hate if you need help ask. .#I ASK I DONT GET HELP you ask i help but god forbid i ask#‘but you clean weird’ ‘you do a deep clean’ it’s a regular clean i clean to clean not to light dust and see it be back to how it was in a#day or two. deep clean is i’m up in a ladder cleaning the vents cleaning cabinets shelves i can’t regularly reach or are hard to get to and#honestly that should be a monthly thing#weekly is wipe down appliances. sweep swiffer vacuum and mop the floors. wipe countertops and flat surfaces. flip the chairs around tighten#bolts wash the tablecloth clean the table. vacuum the couches lint roll any cloth surfaces. clean or wipe down the stove/microwave depending#on how dirty. clean bathroom tub toilet sink floors mirror. this is not a deep clean w that you get the fridge and dishwasher windows move t#the furniture to clean under that. i am tired and i dont ever get to finish everything#bathroom stays last and weekends are only so long i also go to the gym or need to go to the store or have ot to do#and ik i brought up here that im depressed but im not bring that up to them because regardless these things need to get done be it a the#worlds slowest pace but does need to happen and i don’t want to use that as an excuse because i will just let myself lay in bed and not show#shower or move does this mentality eat away at me maybe idk but it’s what my parents gave me and it’s not changing i don’t think so here we#are.#we can wait another month and i might be on the up but ill be down again so 🤷♀️#like actually i can use a lot of things as an excuse but that doesn’t help anyone does it ?
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Eldest daughter syndrome peaks during Christmas
#I am writing this being angry at m siblings for not really putting any effort in my parents gifts#asked them to look into the family calendar that they have both access to (and I don’t because I don’t live at my parents)#bc I wanted to buy tickets for an event#had to run after that for several days until they answered#my brother was supposed to look if we have a specific toy that still works and he still didn’t do it#I hate hate this constant stress about not having organised everything and Christmas gets closer everyday#like good for my siblings that they don’t feel this mental burden but urgh#I have other things to deal with as well#also it annoys me so much that I depend on their part so I have to wait#and then they pick on me because I am so stressed about this#but well I don’t want to disappoint my parents ???#yeah so I slowly realise why people stress so much during Christmas season…#gonna go do some yoga now 🧘♀️#dear diary
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just a lil fyi to let people know i’ve updated my rules — the biggest change being i’d prefer people don’t ask me for a muse preference when it comes to replying to my open starters/things i’ve posted for them(unless i’ve asked them first, of course)!
#i’m not dragging anyone and i appreciate why they would ask#it just makes me a bit anxious tbh#i don’t really like picking muses and i feel people know their own muses — so i want them to use who they’d like or feel would fit!! :)#ooc.
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took a day off work because we have new people and training them has made me so irritable that i’m a cunt to be around and i can FEEL that but not stop it so i am removing myself from the situation. Hi.
#i physically cannot teach someone to do the same thing 3 times. i don’t have the personality type. i don’t have the PATIENCE.#especially bc i picked it all up like. the first time i was shown. they ask me smth for a 4th time and it’s like girl it is easy….#<- why i say i could never ever be a teacher and also why i told my manager she should train them instead
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Babes, I CANNOT WAIT for Breeding Kink x Seb, the thought of it seriously does things to me 🤤💦
BUT 👀
I have a serious question… 🍆💍🔪
Fuck x Marry x Kill - Sebastian x Ominis x Garreth???
….fuck Ominis, marry Sebastian, and kill Garreth 😭
#asks#pugsnotdrugs92#WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS TO ME I FEEL TERRIBLE#I DON’T WANT TO KILL ANY OF THEM#THE MERE THOUGHT MAKES ME SOB I’M SORRY GARRETH STANS HE JUST ISN’T BURIED IN MY HEART AS DEEP#I’d be content to fuck Ominis once to get it out of my system but then I’m marrying Sebastian to go at it with him for the rest of my life#I’m sorry Garreth stans don’t think ill of me PLEASE#you’re so mean for making me pick but THANK YOU FOR BEING EXCITED I’M EXCITED THAT YOU’RE EXCITED#BK!S
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