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Real talk tho I'm tired of accommodating bitches who aren't willing to accommodate me
#actually autistic#autism#autistic pride#autistic culture#adhd#audhd#invisible disability#the amount of times#people have told me#i'm being dramatic#while I'm Having an autism-flavored meltdown#does not bare thinking about#some of y'all neurotypicals are getting on my nerves#since when do I have to take a picture of you everytime you take a picture of me#as a rule#you annoying fucks#why can't i be happy#to be clear#this is about some particular folks#but also in general
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Harrow got so unbelievablely horny dreaming about Gideon's rolled up sleeves exposing her lean, taut muscle, a little dewy with sweat and steam but you know what.... thinking about it. Gideon does not disrobe basically ever, except in private to bathe. A tantalizing glimpse of forearm may legitimately be the most Harrow's imagination has to work with
#it takes a while for Gideon to be comfortable even removing her cloak at Canaan House#and that was a much warmer enviorment than the Ninth#kind of interesting that Gideon's seen Harrow naked and there's no evidence Harrow even knows what Gideon's shoulders look like#and how that corresponds to their different levels of emotional vulnerability#harrow laid it all out on the table: all her trauma her devotion her motivations and at the end her admiration for Gideon#meanwhile Gideon says she wants one thing then directly contradicts herself woth her actions#she flashed her heart once - you know I only care about you right? - before rolling her sleeves up and dying#this isn't a criticism of Gideon#their environment has provided a lot more security and support for Harrow#which is saying something#I also suspect she Gideon naturally has the emotional self-awareness of a cheeseburger which does not help her out but anyway#just think it's interesting how they've bared such different amounts of themselves to one another#the locked tomb#gideon nav#harrow nonagesimus
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“computer, show me pictures of Magneto shirtless”
“PUTER DO YOU HEAR ME?”
#i keep stealing images from this show yet i’ve barely watched it 😭#thinking about how they individually have picture rooms of the other 💔#damn gay people….#cherik#charles xavier#professor x#x men#magneto#wish does not shut up
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We want to destroy my mother. (insp by @dadrielle)
#critical role#criticalroleedit#imogen temult#liliana temult#laura bailey#matthew mercer#gifs#*#*cr#cr3#cr spoilers#angst tag#cr meta#*meta#scheduled#3h12m c3e88#18m c3e12#3h17m c3e42#3h42m c3e51#4h20m c3e51#1h35m c3e49#i think this gifset might be a little bit unfair to liliana from a third party perspective but#i think it's Very Real for imogen. to feel like she reached out so many times and the loyalty there was so fucking flimsy#barely there to begin with and then gone in an instant as everything turned to red mist#thinking about how laura on 4sd a while ago said imogen is so fucking sick of it she's sick of having that hope#her reality is that her mother no longer has any loyalty to her and the pain of thinking she does isn't worth it anymore#:((((#'help me.' 'this is for the best.' breaks my H E A R T :(((((((((#and matt's fucking Smile afterward. speaks a thousand words#thanks rj for the discord message that kicked this off!!!
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lucanis reading romance novels out loud to spite in the seventh attempt to explain to him what sex is and spite bemusedly being like 'wow you people really get up to that shit I thought that was just a bit mortals did or something'
#I personally don't think he'd be particularly interested one way or the other but the whole thing does sound kind of wild#on first introduction doesn't it. you would be puzzled#dragon age#dragon age: the veilguard#dragon age: the veilguard spoilers#dragon age spoilers#lucanis dellamorte#spite#is it spoilers. well the fact that lucanis canonically likes romance novels kind of is I guess lol#he and bellara really are unexpected twin souls in a couple of things#additional thought: lucanis reading romance novels out loud to spite AND rook while they rest with their head in his lap#and he strokes their hair. rook is there for moral support and help b/c while I don't think lucanis would be shy about talking about it#there must be a limit one can reach in having The Talk with a being that barely gets physical reality and lives inside you#rye with an infinity of affection: lucanis this might be the best and funniest thing that has ever happened to me please keep going#I had a morning thinking about spite a lot. can you tell
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the only reason Katniss pays attention to Gale in Mockingjay is because Peeta isn’t there LOL
#katniss everdeen#peeta mellark#i don’t like Gale#he’s an emotionally complex character but i’m sorry i just cant with him#Katniss was so done with him in Mockingjay#‘she’ll choose whoever she can’t survive without’#Peeta sat there thinking what the fuck is he on about#Poor Peeta could barely remember his own name and he had to sit there and endure Gales rant#the fact Gale thought so little of her just shows how he didnt really know her#atleast not on the scale that Peeta does#mockingjay#gale hawthorne#everlark#the hunger games#using this tag to sort out my own posts bc they’re unorganised
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People try too hard to make Curly an active participant in Jimmy's abuse. Isn't the whole point that he's passive in everything Jimmy does? Abuse occurs because he actively doesn't do anything? Not to call someone out or be mean, but I saw a post saying Anya's ID being in Curly's locker at the beginning shows that he intended to prevent Anya from filing an HR report and I disagree. I get where that interpretation is coming from, but I think it's a little uncharitable. I don't like being too kind to Curly because he's like...a morally mid dude at best lol But if we're going by the HR report interpretation, I would say it's more likely he requested Anya's ID in order to file an HR report on her behalf. After all, the only way to contact Pony (that we see) is in the cockpit, he's the Captain, and Pony Express sucks bad so I wouldn't put it past them to only allow the Captain to use the communication device thing. As we see before, Curly is the only one able to use tools around the ship that you would think other employees could use (ex. Swansea should be able to use the axe if he's the repair guy. Idk why they'd need an ax but that falls under manual labor which Swansea is designated for as the mechanic/fixer dude. But it has to go through Curly). I never got the vibe that Curly moved to actively protect Jimmy. He just lets things happen without say a word; Jimmy walks all over him, and by extension, the whole crew. I get why people would think that because he gives the whole "Hey Jimmy, we can get through this together, bud" spiel right before the crash. This part interests me a lot because there's so many ways to interpret Curly's intentions there. My interpretation is that Curly is on autopilot mode. The responses seem so stilted in comparison to Jimmy's. Like it's the kind of thing Curly's said before again and again and again when Jimmy's gotten in trouble. However, as others previously pointed out, I don't think Curly ever dealt with Jimmy doing something this irredeemable. He doesn't know how to respond, so he just goes for the default "You've gotten through tough situations before. Work through it one step at a time." Like the response is lame af lol I think he was in shock; he was scared (and just so I can say it one more time: he's super lame).
Anyway, this is way longer than I intended and I've said things a billion people have already stated. But uhhh tldr the whole point of Curly's character is he's passive; he never acts. He just watches. Making him an active participant in the abuse by taking actions to cover for Jimmy (like preventing Anya from filing an HR report) defeats the purpose of his character. He's a bystander.
#and I'm defining active as in like consciously taking actions to help Jimmy cover his tracks and stuff like that#because I know being passive can be seen as the same thing as actively participating in the abuse (which i agree with)#I just mean I don't think he's actually intending to help Jimmy by doing anything for him like taking Anya's ID away with nefarious purpose#I just didn't get that vibe#again I just thought he sucked lol like he just does nothing#so idk I just don't vibe when people make him too into helping Jimmy if that makes sense? I think it destroys the grayness of his character#they will never make me have a strong opinion of you Curly#but he is fine as hell ok lol I am not immune to buff blonde man#also like I hope this doesn't come off as mean to the person I'm referencing with the ID take if they see it#I just was thinking about their interpretation and was like ehhh i don't know if i agree and wanted to respond on my lil side account ;p#mouthwashing#curly mouthwashing#captain curly#anya mouthwashing#jimmy mouthwashing#ok and I could see people saying he actively covers for him by doing the psych eval for him and being like uhhhh good enough lmao#but to me that's him trying to placate any issues between crewmembers on his ship esp. when it comes to Jimmy#which just falls under the bystander thing because he'll do the bare minimum to keep things peaceful#but when it comes to doing anything he's just like whelp idk what I can do and just stands there#he's so cool#ok also I realize they need the ax for the foam I just forgot about that lmao#i was a little tipsy when I wrote this plz forgive hahaha I just meant like an ax isn’t like normally in a mechanic’s tool kit lmao#adding a link to the Twitter post I mention so people can refer back to it if they’d like
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I got a haircut today and I’m so giddy about it,,,, it is so difficult to explain to my mom why I feel so giddy about the undercut sideburns I got
#like they’re barely noticeable anyways because the hair on top covers most of it but like#they’re just gender to me. do you get it#like there’s something distinctly feminine to me about the longer sideburns he always leaves to ‘frame my face’#extra points for the lady at the hair place who was like ‘oh I didn’t realize girls could get their hair cut like that’#it’s a really small Chinese hair studio that every Chinese person in the area goes to so I’ve been going to this guy since I was a child#but like my Chinese is never good enough to explain what exactly I want lmao#and the nice uncle who does my hair is always really excited to do what he’s imagining and go like ‘there doesn’t that look beautiful’#and I never have the confidence to ask for the sideburns to be a bit shorter…..#fr tho I hate anxiety like why does getting my hair cut trigger my fight or flight response#my heart should not be pounding in the waiting area thinking about showing my hair cutter a picture.
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Wwx is the only mxtx main protagonist who would not be a my little pony fan. But he does own a 20% cooler shirt
#Xie lian is an elder pegasister because he just likes shows about love and kindness#hes been in the collectors fandom for forever and runs an angelfire blog that barely works#whereas shen yuan is in the exact opposite camp as a brony who got into it via 4chan#he does serious lore analysis on the series in his free time and is constantly complaining about plot holes / poor#world building but he loves the brony pandering episodes#wwx doesnt fall into any of those camps so hes kind of just normie i fear. but Jiang cheng is a brony#so he bought the 20% cooler shirt to bond/make fun of him#i think he does like rainbow dash tho#oh favorite ponies#xie lians is fluttershy of course. sys is nightmare moon as we've established#but out of the main six his favorite/least favorite is twilight who he feels unfortunately drawn to bc he relates#to her. but he wont admit it. wwx only knows rainbow dashs name cause he sees her in memes#jiang cheng likes rarity. of course
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every time i think im okay i remember that the echoes of clara across the doctor’s timeline didn’t know they were echoes. or. no, some of them did, i think, but the more clara gives of herself to save the doctor, the more she loses the sense of who she is. and that’s why some of the echoes just seem like clara, knowing why she’s there and what she’s there to do. and some of them, many of them, don’t. the ones eleven meets don’t. and how many of them didn’t know haunts me. how many of them died just out of sight of the doctor, for the doctor, alone, without knowing why.
#if i think about clara too long i get ill and need to lie down#everything about her makes sense forever actually i get why she’s like that. because she killed herself ten billion times all at once to#save the doctor. and the thing is he’d do the same for her. she doesn’t know it just yet but he will and he does.#something something. the doctor breaking diamond to dust with his bare hands. clara killing herself across space and time for him so many#times that no memory remains but the love that makes her save him. im going to throw up.#clara oswald
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Daughter of delta Yu, show them that you're no fool!
[First] Prev <–-> Next
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#yu ziyuan#jiang fengmian#jinzhu#yinzhu#wang lingjiao#wen zhuliu#elle woods#Not officially appearing but this is very much supposed to continue on the running gag of her being a character in pd-mdzs.#Yes I have been thinking about how Yu and Nu sound the same. Would it not be funny if YZY and Elle Woods were martial sisters?#Oh man I really hope help gets to lotus pier in time. I hope things turn out okay despite the odds.#I always wondered what YZY ended up fighting with once she gave away zidian. Supposedly she would have a sword right?#Let us also factor in the fact she gets her core 'melted' and can't use spiritual weapons anymore.#We know for a fact that this does not stop someone from still kicking ass.#Thus I propose: Yu Ziyuan as a bare knuckle brawler. In my heart she's a multiclass barbarian/monk.#As *if* she would go down without causing a bit more bloodshed once her core was gone.#Gatekeep Gaslight Girlviscerate your enemies.
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the saint of duty + an iliad's hector of troy
An Iliad, Lisa Peterson & Denis O'Hare, p. 480 / Harrow the Ninth, p. 124, 133, 191, 193, 194, 204, 228, 267 292, 469 / Nona the Ninth, p. 30, 399, 402
#gideon the first#harrow the ninth#nona the ninth#mine#i'm sure as soon as i post this i'm gonna think of another quote i'd like to use but this is long enough#anyways it's about. hector's role in the narrative of the iliad & an iliad as this man who honors his place in the story and his position#as hector of the shining helm#and about the role gideon plays in the narrative of htn particularly where he is playing a particular role to his duty and what he seems to#need to do to cling to whatever dregs of sanity he believes he has left#ironclad to his role in the narrative but so few people even the ones around him barely see him as more than#god's attack dog. bound by something no one else seems willing to name or identify#this is gonna be a if you get it you get it if you don't you don't post i think#g1deonheads rise!!!#hector and gideon as people who the narrative seems almost to Happen to#does that make any sense. HELLO
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I've only recently started having my own thoughts about Emanator!Sampo and I think my favorite version of this is that he is technically an Emanator, it's just that he doesn't talk about it because Aha is a dick who only blesses people that don't want it and Sampo hates it here dkjxkdkdck
Aha blessed the Mourning Actors! A whole faction of people who have specifically made it their life's mission to resist Elation! THEY made a literal worm THEIR Emanator just to see if it would be accepted into the Genius Society! And when it wasn't, Aha just as easily killed it and tossed it aside! So I feel like there is a good possibility that Aha looked down at Sampo, this little oddball who doesn't seem to even like Epsilon or a lot of the Masked Fools and was like.
Hey.
You know what would be really really funny.
And I feel like being an Emanator wouldn't even be a plus for Sampo, because of how he operates. Sampo excels at blending in; he managed to smuggle himself onto a planet
that had been isolated for 700 years,
with only one (1) single city on it,
and going even further, he snuck himself into the Underground,
where the population is even more sparse,
and STILL. Not a single accusation of him being an alien! Not even after the Astral Express lands and proves that interstellar space travel is possible! Sampo is so thoroughly ingrained into Belobog that yeah, some people admit they don't know his origins, but none of it ever comes with the question of whether he actually is a Belobog native or not. Sampo knows exactly how to blend himself into his surroundings in the most subtle way possible. And being an Emanator, something far more powerful than any normal human or Pathstrider could ever hope to be, would only throw in a massive extra variable for him. Sampo would have to be so so careful to keep a lid on his Emanator traits, to keep up the appearance of being totally normal and average at all times. It doesn't help him at all.
And this part is pure indulgence, but I love taking Aha's closeness with mortals, and THEIR tendency to take human form, and twisting it into a case of THEM using Sampo as a vessel.
I want Aha to look at Sampo the same way all of us look at Sampo. A chew toy. A plaything. Something to shove through the meat grinder. Aha thinks Sampo is hilarious and a funny, silly little guy, and THEY want to put him in Situations just to see what he does. Sampo is not a fan.
This though, this is what makes Sampo so wildly entertaining as a vessel. Because Aha knows that Sampo does not want to be a vessel, does not even want to be an Emanator, and THEY find it SO much fun to watch the mental gymnastics he has to pull to convince himself he's ok with it, this is fine actually, because he's not exactly about to tell off a literal god. He doesn't feel like getting a smiting today, please and thank you.
Because squeezing yourself into a human vessel is so different than merely adopting a human disguise, there's already a human soul in there, it's kind of a tight fit. If Sampo doesn't make room, doesn't all but dissociate right out of his own body, it could cause. Consequences.
And so, Aha always gives a warning, just to watch him squirm.
It begins with the sound of bells.
Just little ones, at first. Small, clinking little sounds that could even be considered nice. Something almost gentle, like a wind chime in a pleasant breeze on a warm day. This is the signal for the countdown.
Sampo breathes in, breathes out. Makes himself as small as possible within his own body.
The bells rise and multiply, tinkling wind chimes give way to sleigh bells, to shopkeepers bells, the sound of something inevitable approaching, something entering.
Sampo breathes in, breathes out. Dilutes himself, weaker and weaker concentrations.
The bells rise and rise, multiply and multiply, celebration and tragedy resonating in the sound of church bells, ringing bright and loud, the sounds of weddings and funerals both the same.
Sampo breathes in, breathes out. Becomes like smoke, like vapor. Hollows himself out.
Empty, empty, empty until he echoes, like a bell, like something with the sole purpose of being shaken and rattled around, a thing to be struck, the sounds jarring and punched out and gasping and piercing the air, the lung, the eardrum.
Sampo breathes in.
Beaten he rings, bashed in he sings.
Aha breathes out.
#sampo koski#hsr sampo#hsr aha#emanator!sampo#emanator sampo#hsr#honkai star rail#my fics#pardon me I've been listening to a lot of kara kara kara by kikuo lately dkxjkskdmd#I really like Emanator Sampo theories and even think canon is pointing that way- assuming he isn't just Aha in disguise#but I also like Sampo being a pathetic little guy. a squeaky toy. just a little dude.#and thus. this skzjnskdkd#an Emanator but pathetic about it haha#stringing Sampo up like a piñata so I can beat him with the possession angst stick ☆#he just has a lot of personality. Sampo is very bright and vibrant and distinctive-#-and always perfectly in control of himself to put on the best show.#so I think it's most jarring to see him dissociate- to see him go completely still and quiet just trying to breathe and settle#breate and settle breathe and settle breathe and settle#until he looks distant and hazy and goes unresponsive. until he feels like he is barely within his own body.#aha thinks this is funny#sampo tells himself he does too because it's easier that way#(shaking hands with Aha and Sparkle as I too like to mess with Sampo and put him in situations snkzjsjdkd)
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percy needs to be haunted by bianca's ghost more
#percy jackson#bianca di angelo#she doesn't even have to do it herself#he is just trapped in the horror of watching someone die and never recovering from the guilt that follows#like i thin we should talk more about how she was the first permanent death of the series and the first death he really witnessed#i think he should be more deranged by it tbh#painfully devoted to nico's health and happiness in a way that skips the border of unhealthy and jumps straight into fucked up#even better if bianca doesn't care. and nico has moved on. so the only person who is stuck in this void of misery about it is percy#and he can't emerge. no matter what he does no matter the time that passes she is always there in the back of his mind#a reminder of the first time he failed to protect someone else.#a reminder of his selfishness. his inability to follow through on promises. of his powerlessness. his uselessness.#in tbotl he finds out that nico doesn't care about him or his soul. he doesn't want percy dead. and percy is weirdly gutted by this#he needs nico to hate him and it freaks him out that nico doesn't. he's clearly upset but percy isn't centered in it the way you'd think.#nico has his own mission and percy is barely a side note in it and he's so bothered by that. it drives him up the wall#how selfish is it to be upset with someone for not hating you because you got their sister killed?#he hates himself so much. he wants to die so bad. but he can't. he has to keep going. for nico. for bianca. he doesn't have a choice#happy talks pjo#okay it is 3:36am and i am. going to try to sleep now
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Currently thinking about Artemis's will in the code at the bottom of TLG and how it really kinda shows how strained his relationship with his dad still is. Everyone else gets something they're interested in or that Arty thinks they'd like (sound system for Juliet, frozen chicken for Mulch, ethical investments for his mother, etc) and yet for his father he leaves only bearer bonds, despite Artemis I trying to move away from a money-focused enterprise and lifestyle as of TEC. Not to mention it's Butler who would know how to disengage all the booby traps protecting said bearer bonds, further highlighting the difference in trust & familiarity Artemis has with everyone but his father.
#artemis fowl#is this comprehensible? idk#i just think they're a fun relationship to explore#and like i get the reasons why the relationship between the two artemises isn't really elaborated on in canon#and why it exists as it does in the first place but still#your son - whom you had a very businesslike relationship with in his young childhood - talks about money when you are returned to him#after being missing for nearly two years. you tell him you failed and want to be a better father and money isn't all that is important.#a handful of years pass and your son goes missing (and is presumed dead just like you were) and yet returns just like you did#barely a year later though while grappling with his actual death and corpse you find out that no actually nothing had changed#and he still went to his grave with the only bridge between the two of you being money with no interest in other hobbies#what a thing for Tim to experience#from an overthinking and reading too much into things perspective that's heartbreaking#we never hear about Juliet's interest in sports cars or pop music yet that was included in artemis's will for her#compared to like beckett who we know likes bugs and slime and how artemis put that in his will for him#so when we get snippets of Tim's other interests (solar powered planes or his bio-hybrid prosthetic or running marathons or whatever)#and yet Arty didn't include anything about those interests in his will for his father is kinda like... huh.#you never really did change your perception of what would make your dad happy did you#and that would've destroyed Tim
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opened my sketchbook to do some thinking but the brain rot is so strong, it just turned into 2.5 pages of opla zosan 🤦🏻♀️
#opla#opla fanart#op fanart#one piece#one piece live action#one piece fanart#roronoa zoro#black leg sanji#vinsmoke sanji#zosan#sanzo#there's 2.5 pages but these are the only doodles worth sharing trust me LOL#my goodness taz skylar is so!!!!!!💖💖💖 and mackenyu is very pretty 😭😭 cant stop wanting to look at them to draw#did u know opla sanji is 6 feet and opla zoro is 5'10“#how does one hook their chin over their lover's shoulder from behind so u can cuddle while ur lover cooks#if aforesaid lover is 2 inches taller than u 🤔🤔 i must think on this#the answer is probably that zoro's boots have 2 inch soles LOL#while sanji's dress shoes dont give him much added height so it evens out when theyre out and about#it isnt noticeable unless theyre both bare foot#i digress
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