#does it make sense? probably not. im tired
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did i post tgis here
#john egbert#june egbert#karkat vantas#junekat#johnkat#homestuck#ill be honest i actually had no idea what to put in the speech bubble and made this at like.... i dont even know like 2 am?#does it make sense? probably not. im tired
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so like when dante is going to distort (cuz there is no way that dante isnt going through 11 of these without getting a LITTLE bit mentally ill) im willing to bet on these abnos being the ones they resonate with
Pink Shoes - "Please... won't you stay with me...?"/"No one gets to leave!"
i read that one line of dante being afraid that the sinners path might lead them to separate and i brain blasted. think it was somewhere back in canto v. i like to imagine that in the distorted form, dante hangs like the Hanged Man tarot card(unable to control the situation, but gaining wisdom and perspective from it) . also hanging like a grandfather clock lol
Wayward Passenger - "I know the way! Follow me, please!"/"So many paths... w-where do I go? What's the right one...?"
im too exhausted mentally to explain this but like u get my vision right. this is especially seen when dante briefly panics because they dont know how to get Don Quixote back when she didnt want anything
King in Binds
yeah nah this one is just straight up mentioned in the sinner analysis. when one is in a position to lead, they shoulder the responsibility that comes with it.
Probably an Aberration of White Night - "Give your sins unto me. I shall carry them where I wander."
which i personally think is going to be named Scapegoat cuz you know scapegoats were used to cleanse a community of their sins.
as a fun little thing i like to think that the EGO for Scapegoat has them wear Angela's feather dress
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the masculine urge to take a saucepan off thr draining board and bash myself repeatedly over the head with it until I pass out and no longer have to experience feeling Bad 😍
#struggling to tolerate this one ngl its fucking dire this weekend. i just cant do this man#thr things i would fucking do for attention please. just one person to notice and care in the slighest i feel like im losing my fucking#mind out here how does every single person who has ever mattered to me in my lifr see me in distress and choose to ignore it or maybe they#dont even recognise im ij distress in the first place i dont know whats worse i dont think i hide it well at all im just so done#listen like ultimately its fucking fine. i will get myself through it like ive gotten myself through everything else in my fuckijg life#i dont even feel bad that often these days im doing so so so much better and its so much more tolerable to only have to deal with this#once or twice a week instead of it being a struggle every single day like i dont think i could go back to feeling like that again ever i#dont know how i managed to get througyh it before jesus fucking christ. but i can deal with it i can deal with this#ik ill feel fine tomorrow. its just thr fact im so desperately fucking alone with it that makes it so much worse than it has to be#i fucking hate repression i hate being so incapable of expressing myself that its easier for me to injure myself than it is to talk about#how i feel to anyone i hate being trapped in this stupif fucking torture labyrinth and not knowing how to get out of it and never being#given a single avenue anything to hold onto i hate having to do it alone every single fucking time and when i do try i just freeze out#entirely i cant form a coherent thought my brain enters total fucking shutdown pure static white noise fuzz and i dont know why please#its so unfair i dont think its that much to want a little comfort. just once just for someone to stay with me while i cry it doesnt have#to be more than that i just dont want to be alone like this i just want to feel safe around someone just close to someone just once#and well ill survive without it bc i always have i guess. so far at least. and there are many things im grateful for and i do in general#feel pretty okay my life is pretty good at times even. i feel so pathetic and stupid and ashamed for even feeling like this#but do i have to go my entire life without ever experiencing any kind of real intimacy with another person emotionally that is#i mean physical is nice too and they go hand in hand in some ways but i just want to feel seen and safe over anything.im tired#i feel like i try.but not hard enough i know its all my fault really but i dont know how to try any harder but nothing will ever change if#i dont i cant expect anyone to do anything if i cant rven communicate in thr first place. oh i dont want to think about it anymore#i have a headache from crhing and its not even 8pm ugh. okay. well it is what it is.#ill breathe until i calm down and then tidy up whatever i left in the kitchen and get my work stuff ready for tmr#and polish my boots maybe. and read and go to bed at 9:30 i think. and ill feel fine in the morning#my fault for thinking about it earlier i know i shouldve nipped it earlier on its such an easy spiral to fall into i need to get better#it happens. okay anyway. no cause for concern im good guys. weakly thumbs up at the camera all covered in blood#my period is late actually thats probably all this is lmao. makes sense thinking abt it#cant wait for it to finally start and all earthly desire to leave my body so i never experience pain again amen#.vent#ignore this sorry for being mentally ill im not even that mentally ill anymore so no excuse rly ummmm. bit embarrassing innit.
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hate when you're getting into it and it's like,, man I probably sound hot as fuck rn. too bad there's literally no one else here :/
#im doing all this and for what#finally feelin myself for once and going hell yeah this is probably hot as shit. id think this was hot as shit if i was an outside observer#but im not :/ and there isnt one#mann#does this make any sense#probably not im tired as hell this isnt coherent
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But then again, regarding this post... there's also the fact that loki seems like a really private person, and the fact that everyone is so blinded by what Odin's telling them and their reverence of Thor, it also makes sense that nobody would know the difference in loki 2011 and loki 2012, like @abby118 said. But also, why aren't there any other socerors besides Frigga on Asgard that we see? I mean, Odin has the OdinForce but because he wouldn't want to seem "weaker" for using magic, but since magic is seen as women's craft by Asgard, wouldn't there be other female socerors? I mean, possibilities that they exist and are seen as weaker or "useless" because they might not seem to do anything, but since Asgard is a realm with magic in multiple places, wouldn't they be, like, I don't know, intertwined with the realm or something? Either way, it could just be a lack of world building, but I feel like it's important to note that Loki was described as the "most powerful soceror" in the Nine Realms, so there had to be other socerors, right? I know Loki didn't utilize his magic much in the MCU(they should've utilized it more) but there was still so much potential in what they could've done with him in the MCU.
#theefloraknight thoughts#incoherent#like always#yea this probably doesnt make much sense#im too tired for structure#does this count as meta?#loki#mcu#asgard#if anyone sees this#feel free to add to it#og loki#and besides since hes the most powerful soceror in all of asgard theres no way he wouldve attacked thanos with a butter knife#justice for my guy
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had the most braindead repetitive conversation/argument with my parents. buzz cuts are too masculine but if you dye a design on it it become effeminate which is bad because then you look weak and if youre weak then society falls apart (all societies ever that have fallen apart for any reason are actually because of feminine men) and we start sacrificing babies. and also all mental illness is invented because only 4 people had anxiety in the 90s and covid was made up so that we would all become gay and trans and then the government can control us better and be joe biden's little sex slaves. and also i need to keep my hair long because my father finds it attractive. what
#lolaa.txt#what do i even tag this with . my mother wouldn't let me leave and i kept asking for sources and she kept saying 'i'm your mother!!!'#'i wouldnt lie to you!'#okay. say that to someone maybe who doesnt know you lie to them all the time.#its tiring going around in circles with her.my father is better because at least he admits when he doesnt have a reason for feeling some wa#also what got me. she said 'do you own research if you want!! but im right!!!'#yeahh not seeing anything about anything you just said. i think you made that up.#i have a theory that my mother secretly hates herself because she believes all women are weak and must serve strong men#and my father has so so much trauma and anxiety that he cant be that strong man#so now she feels like shes betraying her very biology when she has to step up.#and also because i am stronger than her now and my hair is long and far far denser than hers and i have a younger face#that she feels that im wasting my precious femininity that she could be using. does that make sense.#shes so miserable trapped in her idea of what makes a man and a woman what they are. once you stop caring about what makes someone somethin#you dont have to worry about anyone else.#im queer because i dont really feel that connection to biological and social ideas of gender that my parents seem to#never really have#im not gonna theorize 'ohh shed be happier nonbinary' or stuff like that because it is up to you and you alone to define who you are#if you spend your whole life trying to fit a box for the sake of fitting the box#then when would you have any space for self discovery#youve invented personality traits to go along with your box. now you can never ever change or grow as a person. congrats#and you know what? one day she will die. and that will be the end of that.#and i will live and i will probably shave my head a thousand times. and come up with new names#and new ways to be a better person that makes me feel happy#and i will dress like a boy because its all made up anyways. who cares.#and if you care? that much about what im wearing or how i look?#then thats your problem and i wont be responsible to maintain your happiness.#SORRY RANT OVER.#im just so flabbergasted. what a sad life someone can lead poisoned by jealously and reactive rhetoric.#tw homophobia#tw transphobes
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KAGSKAGSKSGSISGJSG YOU WERE DRAWING GHOSTBUR?? THAT IS SO NEAT OH MY GOODNESS
Yes, digitally, which I don’t do often! It was very cool!
#brynn.reblog#itll probably never end up for tumblr to see#but i had a lot of fun working onit!!! tried out a very sketchy style#it almost looking like it was embroidery? if that makes sense? because its a bunch of lines layered itstead of how i usually color#experimenting! very fun!#just realized i typed looking instead of look on the othrer tag 🤦♀️im do tired send help#englidh does not apply to me#sorry gor the tag rant you know how it is
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was actually thinking about the nature of daisuke's curse again and the school morning after riku accidentally discovers that dark == daisuke and gets told by riku that they 'can't be together' because they'll be separated is like....
this paneling is gorgeous (sugisaki's art is always i always say this) but to emphasize dark's, or rather, the fallen angel's black wings as daisuke's essentially lamenting the fact that 'not everyone's wishes can come true' and that he 'still likes riku.' smth smth the hikari and their loveless lives VS the niwa and their insane erik phantomopera circumstances of tragic loves and loves that can't Be, yet still always loving and loving and loving Despite Everything
#*・゚⊰ 𝐎𝐔𝐓 𝐎𝐅 𝐂𝐀𝐑𝐃𝐒. ⊱ ✦ › OUT.#im also very convinced in an interactive sense anyone with extrasensory perceptions probably would see a lot of this#given that dark's wings are made up of pretty much magic. a special power(tm)#if dark's magic goes kaput or if he's too tired then he can't manifest his wings#in canon#i kno wi'm always saying daisuke is mostly the christine and dark is mostly the erik but they -do- switch around and blend#risa makes daisuke the erik or riku does too in circumstances like this- loathing from witnessing his 'true face'#etc#2 in one package#boy is a monster the monster is a boy!!#dark can't be with risa daisuke at this exact moment laments he can't be with riku the niwas are loving but failing so hard!!!
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i’m so frustrated with people’s lack of common sense about wildlife. if you’re interacting with wildlife, you’re not having your disney princess moment. you’re not forming a magical bond. that’s a wild animal who is potentially terrified; maybe it’s curious if it’s young enough, but that just means you should minimise interactions as much as possible to make sure that animal lives a normal life. if your kid comes in holding a wild animal, don’t pick up your fucking phone to videotape it. bring the animal back outside and educate your kid to leave animals alone. you know what happens when you take in wildlife as a “pet”? either you keep it and do damage because even though it’s “tame” it’s a wild animal who is in no way meant to live in that setting unless it’s being kept by a trained and licensed rehabber who knows the housing and feeding requirements (and even then i’ve seen some who are keeping animals irresponsibility), or it ends up at a wildlife rehab when you inevitably harm it enough that you don’t know what to do, or when no vets see you, or when the animal becomes too aggressive for you to handle. and then we either figure out how to rehabilitate an animal whose temperament and/or body you have massively damaged or we euthanise it because the damage is too extensive. start treating wildlife like wild animals rather than a dog or cat. they’re not pets, they’re not domesticated, leave them alone and let them live happy lives as they’re supposed to.
#saw a video of someone’s kid bringing in a baby raccoon and holding it to her chest. what the FUCK are you thinking#‘it’s mine now it’s my pet’ and everyone in the comments is going ‘you heard her that’s her pet now’. fuck all the way off#not only does that harm the animal but that makes it very possible for animals to spread diseases to you or your actual pets#not to mention parasites and fleas#there was one the other day of someone getting a rabbit out of a skate park which is good thanks for helping it. but then the person spent#another 5 or 10 minutes interacting with it and petting it. that’s not a pet store bunny that’s a wild animal and it’s absolutely terrified#im not saying learn body language and temperament and shit for a bunch of different animals im saying have some common sense and leave#wildlife alone. look but don’t touch. if an animal looks to be in distress then contact a local wildlife rehab or any rehab at all and ask#for advice. if there’s a rehab near you then see if you can bring the animal in#if you try to do that shit yourself you can do irreparable damage#it’s all fun and games and ‘oh im keeping it as a pet’ until the animal is malformed and has broken bones and infected wounds or is so#aggressive that it’s taking chunks out of people with no warning#‘this wild animal andomly attacked someone for no reason!’ you see how it’s overweight? people have probably been feeding it and when that#person didn’t have food it jumped on them#someone’s gonna do this shit with a ‘sick bird they plan to nurse back to health’ and get fucking bird flu#im just tired i haven’t been working with wildlife for a year and am going to study wildlife and work with them for the rest of my life for#this shit to keep happening. i know it will but im just tired of seeing it over and over again#my post#y’all can rb if you want im just pissed and on my soapbox
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hiii lex i am curious if you have any ideas on what the toon maitlands would look like/what they could add to the show/what their role would be? i’ve never watched the cartoon (in part because they aren’t in it /lh) but i’d love to hear your input :3
i have thought about it previously, but if im honest i could never come up with a good idea/design for them, since cartoon seems to be such a seperate media from everything else
while theres some continuation and reoccuring characters, basically no one has a backstory there, not to say that we cant just make things up, im just having trouble weaving their lore into the cartoon
#it almost feels like the cartoon replaced maitlands with jaques and ginger. squints#i even thought of them being still alive in the cartoon and being one of the neighbors?#idk its just. so hard. im not having any creative thoughts on the matter.#episode idea:#the ep where doomy falls in love fucking annoys me because of the way lydia acted there so#instead of that she sees maitlands having such a good relationship and thats the focus of her admiration#does that make sense?#probably not im tired#ask olex#friends tag
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"Kill your darlings!"
Uhm... why would I want to do that they're LITERALLY my darlings????
#writing#duck writes#does this make any sense im tired and editing stuff rn#and cutting so much lol#so like#dw the darlings are being killed#but also keeping little bits i probably maybe dont really need
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Maybe i can....embrace being awkward?
Like, i feel like (sub-)consciously I'm always trying to learn how to become more socially fluent, which isn't bad in itself necessarily, but every time I'm struggling and feeling awkward in a social interaction i have this ranking thing/ -10hp feeling. And then of course that contributes to me always assuming that other people are 'cooler' and more 'grown up' than me or whatever. A.k.a. It makes me feel inherently lesser.
So maybe i could try to embrace me just being like that and feel less disappointed every time because I'm holding myself to standards that are slightly too high?
Especially bc when I feel i fumbled a social interaction i didn't do anything rude or harmful (I think). Mostly i was just being confused.
#i dunno if that makes sense to anyone#but to me rn it does. sort of#also it probably won't be easy to just 'shrug it off' every time im awkward#but who knows maybe if i keep this approach in mind i can forgive myself more easily#also I'm just tired. it's ok to be that#people def are more confused when tired and im certainly not the only one#anyways.#frog news
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insane how much zuko centric fanfic there is out there btw like i know hes a well written and popular character but holy shit. and i bet the prevalence of zuko fics inspires more too like damn read a few good ones and that fuckers in ur head. the autism reading got me
#lucky.pdf#im so tired rn. unrelated. but idk if this post makes any fucking sense#it probably does i just have to express how tired i am atm
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In the changes blog, where the staff post changes to the site, they mentioned that they were bringing icons back. Everyone seems super excited about it, and I was wondering if you know why.
Okay, gotcha, thanks for clarifying! I think it was mainly an issue on desktop, so maybe you wouldn't know about it if you're just on mobile, but staff removed most of the user icons for a bit (idk if that was for everyone or just a few people), so you couldn't easily see who was on your dash, and everybody was pissed off about basically not being able to really see their friends on their dash. Another way staff was fucking up the site, you know? But apparently they actually listened to everyone's feedback on it and put the icons back. So basically everyones excited bc it's just a small win that makes the site slightly less shitty
#asks#im not sure what you already know about the situation so idk if this needs any more explanation but if it does let me know!#also im not following the changes blog so this is how i found out theyre putting icons back. so thank you for that!!#im hardly on desktop but i did log in a couple times and see the change and i hated it so im glad they reversed it#oh actually i probably have a bunch of posts about the icon situation on my blog if you want to go searching though it#(im sorry im really tired and im not sure how much sense im making lol)
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something i said to a friend before sekaibest uploaded the story is that putting MMJ in the credit system makes a lot of sense in terms of plot structure and such. here's the thing, everyone gets aged up by a year at the next anniversary which means Airi and Shizuku go into third year, and then you get down to what happens in every generation of love live and what has been the plot of WxS' story for the last year - the inevitability of the group leaving school and having to either work around that or disband. Now MMJ isn't going to disband unlike WxS, but eventually Shizuku and Airi will graduate school, which is going to interfere hugely with MMJ's activities. Like the most obvious part is that they practice at Miya Girls when not in sekai, and Shizuku and Airi won't be able to just walk in and practice with Haruka and Minori after they graduate. But if MMJ all takes the credit system, they don't have to be in school all the time, they can all graduate at the same time assuming they all rack up credits at the same rate, and due to the amount of time credit system can take to finish you can probably manage to squeeze out at least 6 years worth of content.
#mine#project sekai#more more jump!#idk does this make sense it's 11pm rn im tired#also my description of credit system is probably abysmal i didn't research it in much depth
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"The future is real but the past is all made up" he lived his life that way and now he's dead and he has no more future, he didn't reflect on the past because he was always looking for more, and now there's no more
#does this make sense#idk#i could probably elaborate but im tired#succession#succession hbo#hbo succession#logan roy#brian cox
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