#finally feelin myself for once and going hell yeah this is probably hot as shit. id think this was hot as shit if i was an outside observer

[gayve-strider-man-rider]

hate when you're getting into it and it's like,, man I probably sound hot as fuck rn. too bad there's literally no one else here :/

[beewritings]

our final night alive

Eren Jaeger x Reader one shot.

Afab reader, gender neutral pronouns used!

Content Warning: angst & nsfw. Slight violence, first time blowjobs, first time vaginal sex. Not spoiler free, manga is preferred to have been read.

Posted on my ao3.

Summary: You and Eren become lovers, but he disappears years later and it causes conflict on your relationship. I’m bad at summaries I’m so sorry

5.9k words. This is posted on my phone I’m so sorry if the layout is ugly lol. First story posted on here!! :) Feedback is welcomed!

you and eren got together not long after annie was caught being the female titan. you, eren, armin and mikasa became close friends during your cadet days.

you shared a bunk with mikasa, and seeing as she was always focused on eren and armin, you were scared to become her friend because you were unsure if she even wanted friends. you and her became sparring partners during training one day and she, obviously, kept beating you. at some point, eren walks over and tells her to give you a break and so she apologizes to you. from that point on, you always saw eren as a life saver. yes, she kept dropping you to the ground so much to the point where you were in pain so eren saved you. you accepted her apology, of course, and you even got to ask her if you could be friends. mikasa shrugged, but eren answered for her: he said he’d like that. he introduced himself and he called for armin and you introduced yourselves. the four of you never thought you’d actually join their friend group. these were the first friends you made and you never felt happier in your life.

“y/n, what made you want to join the cadet corps? you never told us,” you remember armin asking you one day.

“oh… um… it’s a stupid reason. it’s not worth mentioning… it’ll make it seem like i’m a joke..”

“no reason is stupid. except for that horse face’s reason, that bastard is a coward!” eren said, screeching.

“um.. well as a kid, i was neglected by both my parents. they were so focused on my older brother joining the military police and so happy for him that they basically forgot about me a lot. they always called me a disappointment and such and it always made me feel like shit..”

“so you joined to prove to them you’re worthy?” 

“what? hell no, i joined so i could get away from them. i was tired of being treated like i was a mistake child so my choices were either join the military to slowly kill myself or join the military to get away from my terrible parents. i honestly haven’t felt happy probably my whole life. but then i met you guys and now i feel like i have a purpose to be here? i want to protect you guys. all three of you…”

eren gives a slight smile and then it turns into a bright one. he leans to his left and wraps an arm around your shoulder and his other arm around armin and pulls them in. you and armin wrap one arm around mikasa and you all hug each other. you knew you were there to protect them all. even though mikasa is always there to try and protect eren, you know she needed someone to protect her, and you know for a fact someone had to be there for armin.

 

when discussing what branch of the military you guys were going to join, you four chose to join the scout regiment. then so much happened between when you talked about what you were going to join and graduating as cadets. there were days where you and eren would work together practicing and even though you were her friend, mikasa would keep watching you to make sure you wouldn’t get too close to him. she never told you that she would watch, but she was. when you and eren would spar, there’d be times where he’d pin you on the ground and straddle you with the wooden knife pointing to your neck. you started gaining a crush on eren, not knowing he was too, and you’d blush instead of defending yourself. at some point, you did push him right off of you and pin him instead, which resulted in him with a red face instead. 

when switching partners, you sparred with armin next while eren went to reiner. instead of sparring armin, you tried teaching him moves since you knew he was fragile and it wouldn’t have been a fair fight. armin brought up the topic of you and eren.

“so, you and eren? i saw you guys being flustered while sparring.”

“w-w-what??? nooooo, i wasn't flustered???? no one was flustered, armin. haha..” way to be obvious, y/n.

armin giggles and immediately drops the conversation.

eventually, time passes and the colossal titan decides to return, bringing titans with it. cadets are to help kill titans. you ended up on another squad, but you remind yourself to keep in contact with eren and armin. you couldn't keep sight of mikasa being she was with the higher ups, but you tried. you remember crashing into armin with ymir and connie. that's when you find out that… eren got eaten by a titan. it broke your heart, you felt the pieces inside of you tearing apart. you tried being strong but.. tears started to fall. mikasa made her way and she found out too, armin screaming in tears of all the members in his squad who'd died. mikasa was silently angry, calling everyone cowards. she soars off with little gas, and you immediately chase after her. she flew away so quickly, you couldn’t catch up with her. you had to protect her, you promised to protect your friends. one is already gone, you couldn’t have another one disappear. if she disappears, how can you trust yourself to protect armin? after you all made it to the building, killed the titans inside and got to refilling your gases, you find out that the titan who was killing other titans was none other than eren, the kid you started to gain feelings for.

time skip to capturing annie, the female titan, you and eren had finally gotten alone time. a time to talk your feelings out as eren heals from his fight with her. you went to visit him when you know everyone already has, but when you know he was still awake. it’s been a few years since you’ve met and started gaining feelings, being as you met when you were 12 and are now 15.

“hey, eren. how’re you feelin’, titan boy?”

“ugh, don’t call me that, y/n. that’s the least thing i wanna hear from you.”

“sorry…”

“.... y/n?”

“eren?” you both say at the same time.

“oh, you can-”

“no no, you go.”

you both give off small laughs.

“you go first, y/n.”

“um. well, i’m pretty sure this is the wrong time to bring this up considering you’re tired from fighting that female titan. plus this war isn’t near over and i shouldn’t be focused on feelings because we are soldiers but, uh. i have-”

“me too,” eren cuts in.

“feelings, i- what? i didn’t even finish-”

“it’s been obvious. well, not really. i didn’t think it was obvious, but i figured by the way we’ve been acting towards each other. we always get flustered when we’re close to each other. y/n, did you even realize that you’re holding my hand?”

you both look down and see that you’re holding his hand. you snatch it back with a flushed face and start stuttering.

“i-i-i always h-hold my friends' hands!!! i k-know you’ve seen me hold armin’s!! please, y-you’re not special, eren jaeger!”

eren giggles and blushes as well, leaning to grab your hand once more, this time interlocking the fingers.

“i agree. this isn’t the time for romance considering we are soldiers in the middle of a battle. but that doesn’t make me not want to further this relationship between us.. i-if you want that, that is…”

you bite your lip, looking away from him. you squeeze his hand and he caresses your skin with his thumb. you both kind of just ended the conversation there, but everything was mutual between the two of you. you knew what you wanted. a relationship, but never really having the title due to the war you all were going through. time flies and the battle with reiner and bertholdt to capture eren back from them happens. all you could feel about this battle was anger; you were going to get eren back. and you did. during the time where everyone was healing from it, that’s when you and eren both told both mikasa and armin about the little thing you guys had.

armin was supportive, he was easy. but mikasa took it a little hard, not showing it though. you pulled mikasa away and had a long talk with her about it, tell her you didn’t mean to catch feelings for the man she’d grown to protect with her life, it kind of just happened. but she couldn’t stay upset forever. she wishes for eren to be happy, and as she can see: you made him happy. the happiest he’s been. and she wants you, one of her best friends to be happy too, and clearly it was with eren. since then, you and eren have been open with your relationship. everyone knew, and no one tried to end it. when you guys told the crew, most of them basically said “we figured”. jean actually laughed and didn’t believe it at first, “really? in a relationship with that suicidal blockhead? yeah, alright .” so you did what any couple would do to prove their relationship, you kissed eren in front of them all, in plain sight. that was your first kiss. his, also. jean’s face turned red in embarrassment and he turned away. “alright, whatever. you’re both crazy.”

 

.

 

you miss him.

 

you miss eren. you all found out about what was truly outside the walls, and you helped eren cope the most. you know he really wanted to kill the enemy, they caused so much pain to his home inside the walls. he wanted revenge. you understood and supported his anger, you were there with him through every moment. his rants, his tears, his fears. you backed him up; you were on his side. so why did he still leave you alone? why did he disappear from you and your friends? why were you all in marley, watching his attack titan destroy it from above? you weren’t completely mad, you all were gonna infiltrate marley eventually, you just did it quicker and earlier than planned. when you saw him with your own eyes, his titan, your heart sunk. he looked so different.. has it really been that long? no way. and… he grew such long hair.. god. it was actually kind of hot, but you were too angry to admit it.

you sigh. you stood in the blimp, you didn’t do any fighting. you explicitly told commander hange and captain levi that when you arrive at marley, you refuse to fight. you were in gear, in case you had to, but you mainly stood in the ship with them. when everyone retreated after mikasa recaptured eren, captain levi kicked him to the wall. mikasa tries to run to them, but armin’ stops her. you were in a distance, out of eren’s eyesight but you could see him. you really hated his damn face right now.

two soldiers with guns run to him, pointing towards him. levi starts to speak to him once more.

“this brings back memories, eren. you have such a kickable face.” that earns a small chuckle from you. “after you’re tied up, let’s have a chat.”

“that’s fine, i explained everything in the letters though. did you not understand it?”

“tch. that face reminds me of the rotten shits who lived underground. never thought i would see it on you. but cheer up, everything happened like you wanted it to, right?”

eren just stares off into space, but then looks levi straight in the eyes and he mumbles out, “... where are they?”

“who?”

“you know who… where is y/n.”

“tch. oi, l/n. talk to your shithead boyfriend before anything else happens. i’m tired of looking at his disgusting face.”

levi walks away, tells the soldiers to chain him up and they walk away, leaving you finally in his eyesight. internally, his heart sinks. the look on your face was pure disgust, and anger. you walk towards him, and he looks up at you with his dead souled eyes. you clench your fists.

“y/n…”

you let out a huge breath. “eren.”

“... y/n, i’ve mis-”

you already know what he was going to say, and it just pisses you off. you growl and punch the wall behind his head. you lean your leg back and kick it right into his stomach. you grab a fistful of his hair, gripping it and bringing his face to yours. mikasa tries to push through armin, but armin manages to hold her back still.

“y/n, stop !” mikasa screams.

“do you have any FUCKING clue how worried i’ve been, eren?! HUH?! DO YOU??” you ignore mikasa, “besides mikasa, i probably was even more worried than her! YOU LEFT ME, EREN. are you stupid, eh? HUH? are you fucking stupid? you like knowing your partner is just worried sick about you? fuck the plan, if i wanted to i would throw you off this air ship myself. i don’t even like looking at how disgusting you look, you’re hideous. that dead look in your eyes. you’re not even eren! you’re some man who’s a fucking joke, you don’t care about us do you?! that time on the train? when you said we were all important to you? was that a lie? do you even think we are?” you bang his head into the wall and knee him in the face, bruising his nose and bleeding from it. tears start to well up in your eyes, “i missed you, eren… why’d you just leave us like that? i’m your partner… whatever, you’re not worth my time right now. i’m going to check on the others.”

you let go of eren’s hair, look at him a second more and make a disgusted face once more. “you’re not worth my tears.” you start to walk towards the back of the airship.

“you never left my mind the whole time i was there, y/n. i promise you. ”

you clench your fists and ignore him, continuing to walk to the others to see who made it on the airship.

 

.

 

“eren.”

“... y/n?”

you went to visit the prison before commander hange did. you needed to talk to him.

“we need to talk.”

“i’m all ears, my love.”

you hate that he’s seriously using pet names on you right now. it’s always been a weakness. my love, baby, lovebird. you loved them all.

“cute, we using pet names after i beat this shit out of you? okay, sweetie. i’ll call you titan man, yeah?”

“come on, don’t start that again. what are you here for, hm?”

“to talk.”

“okay.. so talk. come on, you know you want to start with how i look.”

“how you look? haha, okay. you want me to say that you look hot? that i want you to ravage me? bend me over and do nasty things to me?”

eren smirks, “actually, yeah. if that’s how you feel, i’d love to hear you say that.”

you chuckle, hating that he isn’t wrong. you do feel that way about him right now. him being really attractive right now, a man bun AND he’s shirtless? this is so unfair.

“well, too bad then. you won’t hear me say those words with confidence. but it would be nice…” you grin and lick your lips.

“oh? unlock these prison bars, and i’ll show you a good time then, baby.”

“no. let’s be serious now-”

“i am serious.”

“no, eren. we need to seriously have a talk,” you give out an exhale, “why’d you do it? do you have a plan in mind?” eren sighs, about to cut you off but you continue, “i’m being serious, eren. i’m not planning on telling the others. this is between us… why’d you leave me?” you start to tear up, “why, eren… you have a good reason for this, right?”

eren looks away from you, not wanting to make eye contact. “i have a plan, y/n. it’s going to work, i know it is.”

“what is it, baby? please, just between us two… i need to know why you left me for so long. i’ve been hurting so much. i love you eren, so fucking much. i literally can’t see myself without you, i see a future with you. please, eren. i want to be with you through it all, thick and thin. we are going to defeat marley together, right?”

“y/n. you are the light in my life, the reason i’m doing everything i am. i want you to live such a perfect life, whether it’s with me or not. i know what i’m doing. i’m doing it for you.”

“no.. no no no! you’re supposed to be doing it WITH me, not FOR me! we’re a pair, we do it together!” you bang on the prison bars, “please eren… i can help you.. yes, i’m upset with you, and i love armin and mikasa, even jean and connie! hell, i love sasha too, god rest her soul. i’m here to protect them all, just as i was in the cadets to protect you, armin and mika. but i love you the most, and if i had to choose… it’s always going to be you. i’d betray my comrades for you, eren-”

“no. no you wouldn’t. I wouldn’t let you. i love you, y/n. with my life, my heart, my soul. i’m willing to die for you if i could, but i will not let you betray the others. they need you more than you need me.”

“eren…” you’re full blown crying now, tears running down your face and overall a crying mess. you reach your hands between the bars holding his face in them and he places his arms through the bars to your waist, “please, eren. let me be by your side. i know floch released information about you, us imprisoning you. it was a tough decision, but someone leaked information to me about how you’re going to escape and meet some of your, uh, followers? they didn’t know if they were supposed to tell me considering the fact i was so angry with you on the airship, but someone slipped up. i know that’s not your real plan, you have something else planned for this… there’s no way you want to be on zeke’s side.. right?”

eren laughs, “hell no. i fucking hate that guy.”

“then what are your true intentions, eren…” you run your thumb across his lips, glancing back and forth between his eyes and lips.

“... i can’t tell you. to protect you, armin, mikasa… the others. i can’t tell you. you’re not joining floch and my followers. you’re staying with the scouts.”

“eren, i’m not-”

“l/n? are you down there?”

you and eren pull away from your intimate hold, and put some distance between yourselves. you cough.

“yes, captain. sorry. i had to give eren another beating and more yelling.”

“well, get out. you’re not allowed to be alone with eren.”

“yessir!”

eren looks at you and looks away. you lean back in the prison bars, grab his shoulders and bring it between the bars. you give him a kiss, a light yet deep kiss. one that just screams, please eren. he kisses you back, putting one hand on your waist. you pull away from his lips.

“.... i love you, eren. please, reconsider,” you whisper.

 

“i love you, y/n. more than you ever will know, i promise to spend my last 4 years with you,” his words make you tilt your head in confusion, “you’ll understand later. i promise you .”

you start to walk back, but then you hear eren’s last words to you, “you gonna let me ravage you soon, right? don’t act like i know you don’t think i’m so hot now.”

you giggle and walk backwards to look back at him, “i’ll think about. maybe if you’re a good boy, you can bend me over and do nasty things to me. maybe more, yeah?”

“oh? is this a promise or are you a tease?’

“take your pick.”

you walk up the stairs, leaving the man of your dreams locked in the prison.

 

.

 

eren escaped the prison. he met with his followers, the jaegerists, just as you had known was going to happen. you and the squad went to a restaurant to talk with niccolo. you didn’t expect what happened to happen. sasha’s family were there to eat, niccolo found out that the girl who killed sasha, gabi, was upon them and he threatened to kill both her and falco, the young eldian boy with her. after a dramatic episode with sasha’s adopted little sister, the little girl she saved from a titan, you, armin and mikasa take gabi to a separate room. you have a small talk, only to see your beloved walk in, with a threat. but to see eren again made your stomach flutter with butterflies. god you can’t get over how hot he looks.

he tells you to leave, he needs to talk to armin and mikasa by themselves. as he sends you out, there's a soldier who leads you into another room. you assume eren told him to lead you into another room. you take off your green military jacket, leaving you in your normal day outfit. after a bit, eren walks in. you blush, because god damn he’s so hot.

“....”

“....”

“... why are you so quiet?” eren asks.

“i-i don’t.. i don’t know. everything that’s happening, it’s just. so confusing…”

“thought you wanted me to bend you over? is that not what you said?”

you look up immediately in shock, “eh?”

eren smirks, “ eh? ” he mocks you, “i said, i thought you wanted me to-”

“i heard you the first time.. seriously, eren? right now? i don’t think this is the right time to-”

“baby, i’m joking. well, not really. i kind of was hoping we would do something here, but you obviously don’t and i am not going to force you,” he sighs, “can we just… hold hands and sit in silence? everything is stressing me out and i don’t know what to do with you.”

“what to do with me..?”

“shh, just hold my hands and shut up.”

…

“eren jaeger, i know you did not just tell me to-”

“y/n l/n.” 

you immediately shut up, knowing you hate when he uses your first and last name. you look away and he reaches forward and places his hands out in front of him, on the table.

“hands.”

you hold his hands, fingers interlocked, and look into his eyes. those teal eyes… you could stare into them forever. you sit in silence for about five minutes.

“y/n.”

you hum in response.

“do you love me?”

“more than life itself.”

“... okay.”

they sit in silence once again.

“eren…”

“yes, my love?”

“.... can we… um…”

“hm? use your words, baby.”

ugh, you hate it when his pet names make you melt. and the way he uses them? UGH he just makes you want to just sit there and obey him forever if it meant him calling you baby. you started to blush and squirm in the chair. eren smirks and chuckles.

“is something wrong, baby? do you… need some release? you look like a pathetic whore in heat.”

you look at him with widened eyes. you’ve never heard eren speak like this to you before, but you.. kinda like it. like, you and eren haven’t even done sexual things so for you both to say dirty things, let alone imply sexual activities towards each other, was new. and well, it seems like that's going to change. eren leans forward with his body, taking back his hands and putting one on the table and one to grip your chin towards him.

“ are you going to fucking answer me? ”

“i-i.. i, um-”

“god, you can’t even speak. you’re so awestruck by the way i’m treating you? it was bound to happen sometime, all you do is cry about how much you love me. it’s annoying. i’m surprised you aren’t a jaegerist, on your knees kissing my shoes. begging for me to fuck the shit out of you. huh? is that what you want? for me to fuck the shit out of you? HUH? answer me, you fucking whore! ” eren slaps your face with the hand that gripped your chin, and he grips it again. he force opens your mouth and he spits in it, “ swallow it. ”

“y-yes sir,” are the only words that could come out, and it boosted his ego and the tent in his pants you didn’t notice until now started to show more. you swallowed the liquid he spit into your mouth and stared into his beautiful teal eyes. you know this is just foreplay, he’s not genuinely angry with you. because his eyes never changed. this is the love of your life… he wouldn’t hurt you. you know he wouldn’t hurt you. you open your mouth to show him you swallowed it and he chuckles.

“ good. ” he lets go of your jaw and pats your head. he looks you in the eye and smiles. a genuine loving smile. he speaks again, “are you okay with this? with what i'm doing?”

you nod, giving a smile back. “i feel amazing, eren. are we… are we gonna, y’know…”

“hm? what did i say about using your words?”

you groan and look away from his eyes. “are we, no, are you actually going to bend me over and do nasty things to me?”

“do you want me to?”

“…yes.”

eren smirks and chuckles. “your wish will be my command.”

on an instant, eren grabs your arm and yanks you over the table. he walks to where you were just standing, and then he drags you by your hair to get off the table. he forces you on the floor, on your two knees to face towards him and his bulge that was being held in his dark pants, screaming to come out. he leans against the table.

“well? what are you waiting for? i’m not helping you. you’re on your own.”

you roll your eyes and you feel like you just know what you’re supposed to do. your hands make way to his pants, unbuttoning it immediately. you pull his pants down to his ankles, and start to rub his bulge. eren sucks in a breath, leaning his head back. he’s getting impatient, he actually can’t wait. he pulls his underwear down, his girthy member slapping against his stomach. he backs up to sit on a chair and spreads his legs apart for you. you stare at him with a flushed face and widened eyes. because it’s your guy’s first time doing anything like this, he smirks and starts pumping his member. pre-cum leaking out. he bites his lip, tilts his head back and lets out a low moan.

“y/n. start. i’m not doing everything for you from here on. suck it.”

you stare at his member, not in fear because your beloved’s cock is big, but in shock. will i… will i be able to fit this in my mouth? let alone.. inSIDE of me?? you lean forward, trying not to let him wait any longer. you lick a long stripe from his balls to his tip, earning a strangled moan from eren. he doesn’t want to pull your hair yet, so he just keeps caressing his thighs. you lick it some more, and then you finally stick him inside your mouth, and he instantly thrusts into your mouth. you let out a choke and pull off to cough. he opens his eyes and puts his hand on your cheek, stroking it.

“i’m sorry baby, i-it was an instant reaction. i’ll try not to do that until you’re ready. j-just.. keep going…”

you nod your head after coughing, letting your mouth right back onto his cock. you slowly start to bob your head, letting your tongue glide against the veins. trying not to bite, you start to bob your head quicker. you use your hand for whatever you can't reach and you just do this for a few minutes. eren’s legs start to shake. you lick his tip a few times, and eren’s hands go to your hair, pushing your head down a little further. he’s close. you can’t tell, but he knows he is. he thrusts up into your mouth, making you gag but you also moan, because fuck it feels so good. the vibrations from your noises trigger him, and he thrusts up more.

“f-fuck, y/n… i’m… i-i’m coming-!”

he pushes your head down all the way, your nose touching his skin. you’re gagging as thick liquid spurts up into your throat, making you gag just a bit more. your eyes tear up from the pain in your mouth, but your body feels tingly, on the verge of an orgasm. eren pulls out of your mouth while breathing heavy. you pull back with lust-filled eyes and you know you’re dying to have him inside you now. you open your mouth to show him his cum on your tongue, then you swallow that and show him your tongue once more. he blushes and giggles, looking away from your face. if he looks again, he might cum again, he doesn’t want to. not yet.

“e-eren… i need you… please, eren.”

eren looks at you and chuckles, “fuck… get on the table. i can’t hold back any longer.”

eren helps you up and sets you on the table in front of you both. he pulls off every piece of clothing you had on, your shirt your undershirt, your pants and your underwear, all at once. he refuses to wait. he needs to be in you now. he looks at your wet folds, he knows you were on the verge of cumming. he gives one long lick against you, and you bite your lip, twitching your legs and holding in your moans. he gets up and puts both arms on either side of your head. his member sliding against your folds.

“oh no no no, you are not going to hold back. i want everyone to know who is getting fucked and by who. i want everyone to know my partner of four years is a whore, a slut for my dick. that they’d do anything just to have eren jaeger’s cock in their mouth, in their beautiful pussy. yeah? are you my little cockwhore?”

“yes sir! i’m your little cockwhore, your little slut. please ‘ren, i want you.. no, i need you!!”

“god, baby. say it again, one more time baby..”

“EREN.”

“oh my god, babe. JUST DO IT!”

you both giggle as if there aren’t soldiers threatening your friends and comrades outside that door. eren looks at you with a genuine smile, and he mumbles “please, baby.”

“... i’m your little cockwhore, ‘ren. your little slutty cockwhore.”

“yeah? who’s pussy is this? huh? who’s pussy am i about to fuck?”

“... mine?”

eren lifts an arm and smacks your face, gripping your chin tightly. “try again.”

“y-yours…”

“what was that?”

“it’s yours…”

“what’s mine? didn’t your mother teach you how to speak? what. is. mine?” he uses that hand that gripped your chin to slap his cock against your throbbing area, sliding his cock between your folds.

“this pussy is yours, eren! this virgin pussy is all yours, eren, now can you PLEASE - o-oh!”

eren laughs as he just slides his member inside of you, slowly. it’s both of your first times, but it feels like it’s not. your cunt is so tight, but it feels as though it’s been used so many times. he gets in all the way, and you reach over to grip his man bun. you pull it out of its hair tie because you didn’t want to bother working with it later. he stays in, waiting for you to give him the go. you clench yourself around him, and considering the fact you were on the brink of orgasm when you were sucking him off, you actually orgasm right then and there. you clench around him tightly, moaning and gripping his long hair. he puts his hand back down next to your head.

“y-y/n?!”

“eren! o-oh fuck… -i-i’m sorry… i was on t-the brink of coming, i’m sorry-! EREN!”

he starts to thrust in, using your juices as lubricant and he just goes for it. fuck waiting, you already came. and he was going to make sure you get another orgasm. he wants his baby to be spoiled with his cum. he thrusts in and out, seeing his cock become visible and invisible. you moan, scream, every verb in the dictionary. you move your hands from his hair to his back and chest, leaving marks all over. eren grunts, feelings so good from your nails scratching him. oh god, his baby is making him feel so good. and he know he’s making his baby feel so good too, it’s very well shown on your face. he keep thrusting until he hits the spot to make you wild.

“EREN! oh my god, please eren, i’m so close, please please! please treat me like your little whore! you’re hitting the spot i never knew existed, please don’t stop!”

“you want it? you want me to fuck a baby into you? hm? want your sadistic boyfriend to breed you?”

god, you were losing it. eren grabs your body, he keeps his dick inside and he pulls you down to the chair with him. he wants you to ride him. and god, it’s a new sensation. you feel like you’re seeing god when you ride him. you hop on his lap, and he holds on to your waist while fucking up into you. you stare into his beautiful blueish green eyes. you wrap one arm around his neck and the other to his cheek and you kiss him. he, of course, kisses back. he helps you hop on him while holding your waist. everything feels so good.

“eren… i’m close again..” you mumble to the boy.

“i know , baby, i am too. i am too.”

he leaves marks all over your chest, just as you left nail marks on his back. you guys just sit like this, you keep riding him until you both are on the verge of another orgasm. he holds you against him, fucking into you so quick and fast and it just keeps hitting your walls. you’re both about to orgasm.

“eren! i’m gonna come, i-i’m-”

“let it out baby, i wanna hear you. i want everyone to hear you! please baby, i love you!”

“eren! i’m- f-fuck.. i love you, eren!”

after you both orgasm for a second time, you both sit there. enjoying each other's hot air, finishing off the post orgasm and intimate moment together. you both stare into each other's eyes, sharing the bonding moment. you both smile at each other, and you nuzzle into his neck. you love eren, you loved him so much. you can’t picture your future without him. he helps you up and he sets you back on the table. he looks around the entire room searching for wipes or paper towels. fortunately, he finds paper towels and cleans your private areas off. he’s beyond happy to have shared such a moment with you, finally. he gives you a deep kiss. he loves you so much. he would love to picture himself in your future.

but,

he wasn’t in it.

.

2 years have passed since the rumbling.

 

you miss him.

 

you miss eren so much.

[harrywavycurly]

*a/n this is the fourth installment of the Hiday Series! I hope y’all enjoy and so sorry it took me so long to update this story! Please as always tell me your thoughts!*

“This place is,” You looked around the pub and smiled as you saw all the green and gold lights strung all over. “Very festive.” You heats Gina snicker from behind you as the two of you made your way towards the bar that was decked out in St. Patrick’s Day decorations.

“Well it is an Irish pub so I assume it looks something like this year round.” Gina explained as the two of you took the last empty seats at the end of the bar. “How’d you find this place?” She asked as she waved down the bartender with a smile.

“Yelp.” You answered with a shrug making Gina laugh because of course you picked a bar to spend St. Patrick’s Day in off of Yelp, you did always like to go off of the opinions of others. “It said it had great-“ You were in the middle of giving Gina your explanation of why you picked this bar out of the others that had great reviews when a hand slammed down onto the bar next to your arm.

“Pint O’Guinness an a shot of Jameson please Sammy.” You felt your eyes go wide as a very familiar thick Irish accent flooded your ears. “Eh might as well make it two, save me a tri-“ You went tense as Niall suddenly stopped speaking and Gina’s face broke out into what you knew was a very fake smile as she looked to your left. “Gina? The bloody hell ya doin here?” He asked just as his drinks were placed in front of him making your nose crinkle as you looked at his two pints of Guinness.

“Uh we found it on Yelp.” Gina explained with a smile as she motioned towards you making Niall look down and if you knew any better you’d say you saw his mouth twitch as if he wanted to smile as you looked over at him.

“It has great reviews.” You added making Niall laugh as he reached into his back pocket for his wallet.

“This place? Great reviews? Must’ve all been written by ole Sammy boy em’self cos dis place ain’t nothin but a hole in da wall.” Niall smiled as he placed his card onto the bar before looking down at you and that’s when you noticed his flushed cheeks and how his eyes were a bit glossy. “But it’s close ta my house an Sam is known to be liberal when makin drinks so it does da trick.” He shot the bartender a playful smirk making him just shake his head as he walked towards the end of the bar where you were sat at.

“Are you drunk?” You asked making Niall laugh and Gina give your arm a light smack causing you to just shoot her playful glare as you shrugged.

“Not yet m’workin on it tho, don’t ya worry.” Niall answered as the bartender took his card and headed for the register. “Keep it open Sam! An get these lovely ladies whatever dey want.” Gina smiled and gave you a little nudge as she wiggled her eyebrows making you roll your eyes.

“I’ll take a whiskey sour,” Gina ordered and then turned to look at you with a raised eyebrow. “The usual?” You nodded at her making Niall chuckle at the fact Gina knew your go too drink. “She’ll have a double vodka with water.” You smiled as Sam just nodded his head and typed in the orders before turning to get started on them.

“Vodka water? What are you an eighty year old nan?” Niall teased as he picked up one of his pints of Guinness and took a giant swing of it causing your nose to crinkle making Niall give you and odd look as he sat the glass down on the bar. “Problem love?” You felt your cheeks get warm as the pet name rolled off his tongue so effortlessly and you had to remind yourself that he called everyone that.

“I just like it,” You explained with a shrug before you pointed at the dark brown ale in his now half empty pint glass. “Now that stuff I don’t know how you drink it.” You watched him smile before he took another gulp making the corners of your mouth turn down.

“He’s Irish, loving Guinness is built into their genetics or something.” Gina teased as Sam places your vodka water down in front or you and Gina’s whiskey sour in front of her making her smile as she picked it up and took a sip.

“True, can’t call yerself Irish if tha thought of a nice pint of Guinness doesn’t get yer blood pumpin an yer heart racin.” You laughed at Niall as he spoke making him grin at the sound of your laughter. You watched as Niall picked up his shot glass and turned around so he was facing the rest of the bar and raised it up. “Happy St. Patrick’s Day everybody!”He shouted making the whole bar just cheer in response causing you and Gina to laugh as he downed the shot before turning back around and placing the empty glass onto the bar.

“You come here often?” Gina asked after she took a sip of her drink while Niall looked around and offered a smile to a few people as they walked passed making you feel as if Niall was indeed a regular here.

“Eh only bout once or twice a week when m’in town.” He responded as he looked down at you while you sipped on your drink. “Ya fancy sittin at tha bar all night or you lot wanna join me at a table?” You looked over at Gina who just shrugged making you roll your eyes at the fact you were left to make the decision.You just grabbed your purse and your drink after you slid off the barstool, Niall quickly finished off his beer so he only had to grab one glass off the bar before turning so he could lead you and Gina towards the back of the bar to a table by the window.

“So how’s uh Nate?” You felt your eyes go wide as Gina almost choked on a sip of her drink when Niall broke the comfortable silence the three of you had been sitting in for the past few minutes since getting comfortable at the table. “Dats his name right? Sorry m’shit wit names.” Niall added as he gripped his glass and looked down at the table to avoid making eye contact with you.

“Uh I guess he’s good? Wouldn’t really know.” You answered quietly making Niall just nod his head while he all of a sudden became very much aware of just how close you were to him, so close in fact that he could smell the sweet scent of the perfume you were wearing. “He seems happy at work so I’d say he was doing good.” You added with a small smile before taking a big sip of your drink.

“You two aren’t uh like datin er anythin?” Niall asked as he rubbed at the back of his neck with one of his hands while the other one held a firm grip on his glass.

“So Niall why are you alone tonight hmm? Melanie couldn’t join you in celebrating your Irish roots?” Gina asked in the most sarcastic tone she could muster making Niall’s jaw clench at the mention of Melanie’s name.

“Haven’t seen her fo a few weeks. She’s probably off somewhere with er new boy toy.” Niall shrugged before taking a big gulp of his beer while you just bit down on your lip trying to hide your smile as Gina just nodded her head and finished off her drink. “Feelin another shot, you two down fo a shot?” You and Gina nodded and Niall smiled as he got up from the table and headed to the bar to grab three shots.

“S’like I don’t wanna work fo ever ya know? I wanna retire an be fat n happy on a golf course s’mwhere on an island.” Niall slurred making you erupt into a fit of giggles, a few hours and quite a few shots had passed since you and Gina entered the pub and now the three of you were well on your way to being completely drunk.

“On an island? Niall just go back home to Ireland! It’s an island!” You teased making Niall laugh as he placed his arm around your shoulder.

“I’ll be back, gonna grab us some waters.” Gina explained before getting up and shooting you a not so subtle wink as she made her way to the bar.

“M’sorry ya know?” You looked up at Niall as he stared down at you with a serious look on his face. “I didn’t mean any of it. S’jus I didn’t know what ta say so I said some stupid shit an I hurt yer feelins.” You looked away from him as he spoke, afraid that if you looked at him you’d loose all control and end up doing something reckless.

“It’s fine, we both said stupid stuff and it’s okay. All is forgiven.” You reassured him with a smile as you finally looked up at him as you felt him pulling you a little closer to him.

“We’re okay then yeah?” He asked and you giggled as a few stands of his hair fell and before you could stop yourself you reached up and brushed them back making Niall smile.

“Yeah we’re okay.” You answered with a smile as Niall slowly started leaning in closer to you making your heart being to race as he inched even closer.

“Waters all around! Drink up bitches, I don’t feel like carrying anyone besides myself home.” Gina shouted as she placed three glasses of water down onto the table making Niall instantly sit up straight and your cheeks to flush as you turned to look at Gina. “Oh sorry boss, didn’t mean the whole bitch thing.” She added with a shrug before she looked from Niall to you with a raised eyebrow.

“Thanks Gina.” You ignored her questioning look as you reached for a glass of water while Niall just laughed as he scooted out of the booth making you frown a bit.

“S’been fun ladies but m’sorry I’ve gotta go,” Niall opened his arms so he could give Gina a hug before turning and looking at you with a grin. “It was a pleasure.” He added as you stood up so you could give him a hug goodbye.

“See you Monday.” You smiled as he leaned down and placed a quick kiss to your cheek while you gave him a squeeze making him laugh as you let him go.

“Oh I won’t be in the office fo a bit, meetings across the pond an all tha boring stuff.” You raised an eyebrow at him as he reached over in the booth and grabbed his jacket. You had written all his meetings down for the month and none of them involved him leaving the country, you would’ve surely remembered that.

“Oh okay we’ll see you when you get back.” You gave him a fake smile as he slipped on his jacket, Gina took Niall’s spot in the booth and took a giant sip of her water.

“G’night loves.” He turned and took a step towards the door before looking back over his shoulder at you with a wink and a smile making your cheeks get hot as you watched him walk away.

“Oh honey,” You turned and looked at Gina with a goofy smile making her laugh and shake her head. “You’ve got it bad.” You rolled your eyes as you plopped down next to her in the booth.

“I do not.” You slurred making Gina just laugh even more as she slid a glass of water towards you. “He’s just cute s’all.” With that you just began drinking your water with a silly little smile on your face as you replayed the events of the night in your head.

“Yup he’s cute, now drink up so you don’t totally hate yourself in the morning.” You just waved Gina off as she finished her glass of water while you continued to slowly sip on yours.

Niall still had a smile plastered onto his face as he got home from the bar only with a few stumbling instances on the walk home. He couldn’t believe his luck, of all the pubs in the city you walked into the one down the street from his house. If Niall was truly being honest with himself he would have to admit that he didn’t think he’d ever be able to have a conversation like the ones he just had with you after the way he talked to you at Valentine’s Day, but over the past few weeks and multiple awkward attempts to start a casual conversation with you at work by the coffee machine or the copier he’d say this was amazing progress. The fact he got to apologize and got to hear you say everything was okay made him smile as he thought about the possibilities going forward and all it took was an Irish holiday.

[ladyshandioftheendless]

Shandi’s KISSteria drabbles 14!

I really want this part to be better than the last one. Its the length that it is because I didn’t know how else to write the ideas I had. So! This part will be in alternating POVs~ Hope you enjoy!

~Shandi

The night StarChild experienced many different firsts~

TERROR COMES TO KISSTERIA Part 3

~NIKKI~

Who woulda thought the Princess of KISSteria was a pure little virgin flower? Shocked the hell outta me. Whatever. Been a long time since I made a virgin scream my name~ He gasps when I give his ass a squeeze. “Looks like I’ve already found a part of the old you..” I give him a smirk. “Yeah but you haven’t found the largest part yet~” 

“Your head’s right there~” 

Okay, I’ll give him that one~ We both laugh and he drapes himself over me. Probably unintentionally but hey..gives me a chance to get my hands on all the goods~ The flimsy suit he’s wearing does nothin’ to hide how hot he’s getting. Shit, it really doesn’t hide much of anything. He’s got it cut ridiculously low in the front, just exposin’ everything to the world. Then again he does have nice tits. Why shouldn’t he show em off~? He makes sexy little noises as I grab two nice big handfuls of his sweet ass. One of my legs is between his and I can feel him start to grind on me. “Admit it, Princess..you’re a total exhibitionist~” He looks up at me confused. “C’mon..look at what you’re wearin’! You like teasin’ don’tcha? You wanna show everybody who wants ya what they can’t have~ And don’t think I can’t feel that you’re not wearin’ underwear..dirty girl~” I know I’m on the money~ His cheeks are so red right now..red like those luscious lookin’ lips~ I pull him closer for a kiss cause I just gotta get my tongue between ‘em~

~STARCHILD~

Nikki isn’t wrong. I do like showing off my body. Why shouldn’t I? It’s the envy of KISSteria. I like the attention. I like putting on an air of being unattainable. Those little games won’t work on someone like Nikki. He takes what he wants. While these thoughts are racing through my mind I feel his lips on mine. His tongue pushes its way past my lips as he kisses me fiercely. I moan and bury my hands in his hair. Gods he is so good. His tongue is everywhere. I can barely keep up. He’s making me dizzy. The next few moments are such a blur. He keeps our mouths sealed together as he unfastens my collar and tosses it aside. He mercifully releases my mouth and playfully sucks on my bottom lip, making me moan again. “Get out of that suit, Princess..show off your pretty tits for me~” More vulgar words. I don’t find myself as disgusted as I should be. Instead I’m…aroused. I can’t begin to explain why. 

He’s watching me now. His gaze only heightens my arousal further. I pull off my arm covers and lay them gently on the floor at the foot of my bed. I shoot him a little glare for throwing my collar. “Those feathers are expensive, you know..” He just laughs. “Don’t get your non-existent panties in a bunch, Princess I think they’ll survive!” Of course this is all a joke to him. He only has one thing on his mind. While I look away and pout those hands of his have other ideas.

~NIKKI~

Princess is really cute when he’s pouty~ With his collar gone I can see the little bite marks I left on his neck from earlier. Maybe some more will heat him up again~ “Oh c’mon, baby..” I move his hair aside and brush my lips against his neck. He’s trembling again. “..I’ll say my sorries later..cause right now I don’t wanna stop until I’ve got you naked under me~” He makes a soft little noise. My dirty talk never fails to make him putty in my hands~ Once he tilts his head back I go in for the kill~ He’s got that suit pulled down around his waist and his hands back in my hair just seconds after I start sinkin’ my teeth in~ “Gods..Nikki..!!” My hands are on his chest, groping those beautiful tits while he moans my name in my ear. He sounds so damn hot~ He only gets louder when I play with his nipples. “Mmm..like that don’t you, Princess~?”

“..ahhh..more, Nikki..please don’t stop..!!”

He’s makin’ me so hard..and my pants are being a literal pain in my balls. I take his hands and guide them down to my belt. “These are gettin’ awful tight. How ‘bout a helping hand~?” 

~STARCHILD~

The moment finally comes. The moment I’d been dreading. He wants me to undress him. He puts my hands on his belt and looks at me, waiting for me to unbuckle it. I don’t know why I’m suddenly so afraid. My fingers are stiff. I want to but I.. “What’s the matter, Princess..don’t wanna? Just thought it’d be nice if you gave me a handie~” I have no idea what he means by that and I don’t ask. More of his vulgar words. I look away. I’m so embarrassed. I knew at some point I would choke. I’m waiting for him to start laughing at me. But he doesn’t. I feel his lips on my cheek. “I’m not gonna make you do it, baby. Relax~ Want me to?” I nod. “I..I’m sorry..” 

“Pfft..it’s your first. You don’t need to be sorry~”  Who knew Nikki Terror could be so patient? “Just gimme a few minutes~” I keep my eyes away but I can hear him undressing. There’s a strange pleasant heat stirring up within me now that makes my breath quicken. “I know you’re nervous, baby..that’s okay..” he whispers in my ear, laying me down on my pillow. “..lemme take care of ya~” I nod again. I feel so undeserving of his kindness and patience. I’m hoping somewhere within me lies the courage to repay him. Maybe he’ll help me find it tonight. 

~NIKKI~

He wants me in full control. He’s so cute and innocent and I wanna drive him crazy~ He starts wimpering as I pull his suit down past his hips. “Nikki..” His voice is shaky. I give him a chance to stop me but he doesn’t take it.

Fuck~

His cock is as beautiful as the rest of him. Flushed red. Dripping. Ready to be sucked~  “You..are so fucking gorgeous, Princess~“ As soon as I start stroking him he’s moaning, writhing and grabbing my hair with both hands. He doesn’t watch me. He’s got his eyes closed, his mouth wide open..and it’s the sexiest fuckin’ thing I’ve ever seen~ He’s struggling to move his legs more so I just pull his suit down to his ankles. “That better, baby~?” He answers by kicking it clean off. Those silky thighs are wrapped around my neck and he’s begging me for more. I knew he wouldn’t stay shy for long~ The moan I hear when I take his cock into my mouth is the best thing in the world~  “…ohhhh…oh Gods, Nikki..!!” I can feel his toes digging into my back. When you get their toes to curl that’s when you know you’re hittin’ the right spot~ “NIKKI..!!!” His thighs are trembling. I’m workin’ him fast with my lips and my tongue and he is losing his fuckin’ mind~ So close, baby..just a little more~

~STARCHILD~ 

All of my nerves have been set aflame. I can’t put the immense pleasure I’m experiencing into words. I feel Nikki’s lips tighten around me. His teasing tongue driving me to absolute madness. Something is building inside of me that I have never felt before. Every movement of Nikki’s mouth is bringing me closer..ever so much closer. I’m moaning so loudly, my voice is unrecognizable to my own ears. Nikki loves it. I can see it in his eyes whenever mine meet with his. 

“N-Nikki please…!!”

I need more. I’m craving it. He tortures me further by pulling himself away. “Please what, Princess~? Tell me what you want~” I don’t know how to say it. I don’t know the proper words. My core is aching. I have to at least try. “G-give me…give me..release..” 

~NIKKI~

“I can do that for you, baby~” 

I’ve been waiting to hear that all night~ But I also don’t wanna be a total dick and wreck him like Tommy would. I don’t think he’s ready for that yet. I got an idea though~ I wrap his legs around my waist as I move forward. Feels so fuckin’ good having his hot, naked skin against mine~ He looks at me with those big doe eyes. Yeah keep looking, Princess..I wanna see your face when I make you cum~ “Nikki..” he’s pleading to me, reaching up to stroke my face and hair. “Shhhh I’ve got you~” I keep my eyes locked with his as I take both of our cocks in my hand. “Move..your hips for me, baby~” He doesn’t waste a second doing what I say. The friction..feels like fuckin’ heaven~ He’s clawing at my back. We’re panting heavily..moaning together..thrusting against each other so hard the bed starts shaking. A few more good strokes and we’re both fuckin’ done for~ He screams and throws his head back.

“G-Gods yes, Nikki..YES~!!!”

“F-FUCK~!!!“

~STARCHILD~

I’ve never experienced such euphoria in my life! My body is humming. I feel warm..and so sated~ Nikki collapses beside me with a contented groan. "That was..fuckin’ amazing, Princess~” he says, gently stroking my hair. I smile and lean into his touch. “It was~” We gaze at each other silently for a while, occasionally leaning in to brush our lips together. After a while he laughs softly. “I dunno about you but I’m feelin’ sticky~” Now that he mentions it..ugggh. I didn’t realize intimacy could be so..messy. I sit up and move to the edge of my bed. “I simply will not have us falling asleep like this. Why don’t you join me for a bath~?” His eyes practically light up. “Sure, Princess..I love doin’ it in the water~” Shaking my head, I take his hands and lead him into my bathchamber. Being with Nikki Terror is a one of a kind experience that I am certain I will not forget any time soon~

~END~

[ofstarsandvibranium]

Couldn’t Take It Anymore

Fandom: Marvel

Pairing: Frank Castle x Reader

As requested by anonymous:  Hi, can you do a Frank Castle x Reader where the reader is the first person he's truly trusted ever since what happened to his family, she usually takes care of him and he even sleeps over at her house sometimes and there's just a lot of feelings and sexual tension between them but Frank doesn't want to make a move because he feels like he's not good enough for her. Then one morning Frank finally can't take it anymore, kisses the reader, and they have hot passionate sex in the kitchen. Thanks

A/N: decided not to do smut because I am currently incapable of writing smut right now. :/ sorry. But it does have some smutty undertones.

You had a fairly good day. You didn’t have work so you decided to do a little treat yourself kind of day. You went shopping, with having a $50 budget in mind, and ended up buying some really cute goodies for yourself. You made yourself a simple yet delicious lunch to then do some light cleaning afterwards. To finish up your day, you proceeded to take a nice relaxing bath accompanied with a bath bomb and a ton of bubbles. 

About an hour later, you got out of the bath, your hair up in a bun and a towel wrapped around your body. When you exited the bathroom and entered your bedroom you jumped.

“Shit! What the fuck?!” Frank Castle was sitting on the edge of your bed.

He chuckled, “Hello to you too, sweetheart.” He not so subtly eyed your towel clad body as you stood there.

You cleared your throat and proceeded to pick out your clothes, “I really wish you’d start letting me know when you plan on coming over. What if I was with a guy?”

Frank scoffed, “Unlikely.”

You turned to him and frowned, “And what’s that supposed to mean?”

“The only guy in your life is me, sweet cheeks. Besides, you haven’t gone on a date in months.”

“Careful, Castle, one might think you’re actually paying attention to me.”

Frank looked down at his lap and softly smiled, “Of course I pay attention to you. You’re the only good thing in my fucked up life.”

You sighed as you walked over to him, your clothes in hand. You leaned down and kissed his forehead, “I’m gonna dress up and I’ll make us some dinner.”

Frank nodded, “Take your time.” He stood up with a grunt, “You got any beer?”

“You know I do!” You called from the hallway as you entered the bathroom once more.

Frank went to your kitchen and grabbed a beer from your fridge. He then proceeded to sit on the couch, resting his legs on your coffee table. He stared at the blank television, his thoughts were all about you at the moment. God, did he fall hard for you, but he couldn’t have you. You were perfect in stark contrast to himself, a broken man. Your entire being was perfect to him. Your laugh, your smile, your body. God damn, your body. Frank hates to admit that he’s touched himself a couple times thinking about y-

“So I’m actually too lazy to cook. So I ordered some Mexican take out with Uber eats.”

Frank chuckled, “Whatever you want, princess.” Frank set down his beer bottle on the table and then a pink bag caught his eye. He picked it up and smirked, “Did some shopping I see.”

You were too busy pouring yourself a glass of wine to turn around and see what Frank held in his hand, “Yeah. I treated myself to some goodies today.”

Frank bit his lip as he pulled out one of the “goodies” that you bought. It was a baby pink laced bra that left very little to the imagination, “Please tell me you’re going to model this for me.”

You turned to see the bra in hi hand, “Frank! What the hell!” You ran over to him and tried to pry it from his hands but Frank kept it out of reach.

“Oh, Y/N, I knew you weren’t so innocent after all. You’re a little minx aren’t you.”

You were blushing like crazy, “Shut the hell up, Castle! Now give it back!” 

“Come on. Just model it for me? For a couple minutes.”

“Fuck off, Frank!”

“I’d rather fuck you, sweet cheeks.”

You managed to grab at bra and threw it into the bag. You grabbed the rest of your things and brought it into your room and threw them into your closet. You came back huffing, “You’re insufferable, Frank Castle.”

Frank was chuckling, “You know I’m only teasin’, Y/N. I just like to get a rise out of you.”

You gave him the middle finger, “How’s this for a rise, Castle?”

You don’t remember falling asleep, but it seems like you did. You tried to move, but felt an arm around you preventing you from doing so.

“Going somewhere?” You look behind you to see Frank laying behind you. His voice raspy, laced with sleep. It was...sexy.

“I gotta pee.”

Frank chuckled, “Fine. Can’t have you pissing on me.” He let you go and you scrambled off the couch and to your bathroom. 

“What the fuck,” you mumbled to yourself as you held your head in your hands. Your head wasn’t pounding, but throbbing a bit, “What happened last night?”

Once the food had arrived, you and Frank ate and chatted. Along with drinking your preferred alcoholic beverages: Frank with his beer, and you with your wine.

Once you’ve had 4-5 cups, you were gone. You were blabbing away.

“Frank, you’re so fucking sexy.” you slurred in your drunken haze.

Frank choked on his beer a little bit, “You think so, sweetheart?”

You nodded and crawled closer to him, “So fucking sexy. Sometimes I wish you’d just fuck me right here on the couch.”

Frank couldn’t help but give you an amused smirk, “Oh really?”

You nodded again, “Really want you to touch in aaaaall the right places.” You placed your hand on Frank’s crotch and his breath hitched.

He then moved your hand away, “Baby girl, if you still feel this way in the morning, I’d be happy to fuck you all you want. Show you how good I could make you feel.”

“Oh shit.” You mumbled as you remembered everything. You groaned, “Fuck my life.”

You then jumped when you heard knocking on the door, “Hey, Y/N, I’m gonna make some breakfast, if that’s alright. You probably need it after all that wine you consumed.”

You gulped, “Uh, y-yeah. That’s fine!”

How were you going to face him? You want him, but from what you recall, he wants you as well. Should you bring it up? What if he brings it up? Are you going to say that you still meant it? Are you going to lie?

“Okay. You got this. Don’t think about it now. If it’s brought up, whatever happens, happens. You got this.” You proceeded to then use the bathroom like you intended. You washed your hands and walked out to the kitchen. You realized that Frank was only sporting his boxers, therefore giving you quite the view of his toned and muscled-

“Morning,” he says glancing over your shoulder as he stands in front of the stove.

“Mornin’,” you mumble back.

“How you feelin’?”

“This is probably the best hangover I’ve ever had.”

Frank smiled, “I hear ya. You wanna get the coffee started while I do this?” 

“Sure,” you proceeded to set up scoop some coffee grounds into the filter and added some water. You turned it on and waited for the coffee to pour into the pot.

“So, you remember anything from last night?”

Shit, “Uh sorta.”

“What do you remember?”

You made a nervous gulp, “I, uh, remember making a move on you.”

Frank set the spatula down onto the counter, his back still to you, “And?”

“You saying that if I still felt the same in the morning, you’ll...”

Frank turned off the stove and face you. His eyes were dark, “What did I say, baby girl?”

The nickname made you clench your legs together, “You said you’ll show me how good you can make me feel.”

Frank set his hands on the kitchen island, “So? Do you feel the same way?”

“Yes,” you whispered.

Frank stalked over to you on the other side of the island. His hands cupped your face and his lips hovered over yours, “You have no idea how long I’ve waited for this,” he proceeded to press his lips to yours causing your stomach to erupt in butterflies. He picks you up and sets you on the counter, his fingers on the hem of your shirt, “What do you want me to do, baby girl.”

You stared him straight in the eye as you said, “Make me see stars, Castle.”

[a-slut-for-smut]

Hiya @linaxlight! so this has been sitting in my drafts for years (well, felt like anyway given SNK139 & and everything after aged the fuck out of me), i took note of the "Rated E" and went HELL YEAH but then 8 pages happened and killed my smut boner. Anyway im sooooo behind on the latest fics, just finally getting around to it and can i say it was a fucking TREAT and i feel like a fucking IDIOT for not reading it sooner!!!!

Could she have really been happy with Eren? Could he really love her like she wanted to be? ....She’ll never know. And that’s okay. She’s made her peace with the “what if’s”. I really loved this. Giving Mikasa some agency (that she fucking deserved) in her introspection, wrestling with the idea of whether her love was ever reciprocated? Nicely done.

She leaves the red scarf behind when she finally catches up with them, and if they notice its absence, they don’t mention it. Elegant allegory for moving on/letting go.

There is a delicateness to your prose that i really like, that i find myself connecting to more as i read fics. Very sentimental, has a nostalgic element to it (which you probably intended, and if so you succeeded).

I like the Annie & Mikasa relationship you depicted. Sasha tends to be the (goofy) voice of reason for Mikasa in fics but obviously can't happen in a post-war canonverse. I lament that Isayama didnt delve more into/explore the Mikasa & Annie relationship, even though they were at odds there was no doubt they respected each other.

Paralleling Gabi & Falco to Isabel & Farlan was a nice touch, and a stroke of genius i might add. I always felt Levi ending up with O-man and Falbi seemed random af, but with this take its definitely more palatable.

***ok for some reason i got it into my head that this was a one-shot, its way longer than i expected but i am LOVING it, so i shall proceed as if liveblogging***

Man, the thought of just watching Levi work out at the gym made my mouth go dry

Armin is the best hype-slut/wingman, CHANGE MY MIND

AUGH this is one of those "they're in love your honor, they're just cowardly idiots!!!" stories. Also much as i kick and scream about it, im a total closet "angsty smut" slut. “Fuck me,” he rasps

HOLY SHIT, at first i thought Levi was saying this as a plea and it was HOT AF (i love me some Sub!/Bottom Levi) but i reread it and it was more of a reaction but still hot hot hot WHEELCHAIR SEX!!! Very hot, makes me wonder if you saw my Wheelchair Horny Ask post lol WHAAAA YOU ALREADY WROTE MY RM SMUT PROMPT #3, (well the foreplay part anyway)????? GET OUT OF MY BRAIN YOU SLUTTY WITCH UH, DID WE JUST BECOME SPIRIT RM SLUTS??? in other news, i feel like an utter dingdong for not reading this sooner

sex fighting

YES

“Please your husband and be a good cockslut, my love,”

*falls out of chair*

Nothing else destroys her as much as seeing him lose every restraint when he’s like this in front of her.

*heavy breathing*

But it’s always when he’s inside her and above her when his lips tumble out his purest feelings. He loves her—oh, how he loves her —and saying it once isn’t enough. Making love to her isn’t enough. There’s nothing else to describe how they both wish to be so close together that it’s almost a feeling of wanting to tear their skin apart until it’s only them just touching.

YES YES YES YES I AM FEELIN THIS SO MUCH!!!!

“Where are my Ackerbabies?”

lol, meta af! i see what you did there ;D

But Eren doesn’t allow her to live in his self pity, because everything he did after his mistakes was to make sure this happened.

YAS QUEEN, i always love when ppl have this take for Eren. Like if he did truly love Mikasa, i feel it would be a selfless love- not selfish. When ppl defend Eren's tantrum in 139 as its "human to be selfish near death" im just like...ok?? but it doesnt make for good writing/characterization?? Maybe im biased but the last thing i would want is my partner is to be in pain- to suffer/agonize over me long after my death, i would want them to be happy above ANYTHING else, no matter how. All about that Selfless vs Selfish love all day, everyday.

I am incredibly impressed that you managed to write some of the most explicitly-detailed smut while still keeping that tender tone/prose, and despite my sluttiness, this is what i really resonate with in fics. Well done.

In closing, this was an amazingly touching, bittersweet story, and shipping aside its very much the triumphant epilogue that not only did all the characters justice, but gave them what they fucking deserved. The RM fandom is very blessed to have writers like you. Thanks for writing, i hope you continue to do so.

xoxo

*also just throwing out there that it would make my LIFE if you decided to submit a little drabble for the @rivamikaevents @smutchallenge, no pressure of course! :D

https://archiveofourown.org/works/30894269/chapters/76689146#workskin

Epilogue of Deep Sea Running (I will follow you) is up now. Domestic smut & ackerbabies because why not.

Thanks for all the love so far 😊

[shawnjacksonsbs]

And at this point, in my time, its not just for me. Weird right??     9-15-19

So this week is significant, for me anyway. Tomorrow marks 1 year without  cigarettes, and the 19th marks 6 years off the dope. Six fucking years, just wow. For any of you who knew me before. . . It's super weird how it feels so far away, my using days I mean. I am like to the point where I have to remind myself that those days are my memories, not somebody else's. Although some might say I am a different person, I think that relinquishes too much of the responsibility that I need to hold on to, to keep me in check. I need some of that pain to remind me of just how much I have to lose. A lot of new people I have encountered over the last 6 years can't imagine me ever living like that, and it's even hard for me, sometimes, but I must never forget, not ever. I knew since this "anniversary" entry was coming up, for the last several weeks I had planned on writing about a comparison piece between me and the phoenix. Where I burn, and through the flames, I was reborn. lol Not entirely accurate, and the fire still smolders as I am still becoming more "me" with each passing day. Granted the biggest chances, I imagine, have already taken place. No new revelations in here. A brief update would be that both my older boys are on better tracks. Positive thoughts only as the fight to keep consistent in their commitments. No one knows when the last go 'round is for someone, so this could be theirs. I have the other two of my grandkids up here with me. They spent the night last night and we all slept in the living room on the futon. Not comfortable for me, at all. lol But it's nice. I watched all 3 of my grandchildren run around, literally in circles while screaming late last night. Overly excited little people, almost like a scene from Lord of the Flies without the bonfire in the middle of their circle. lol I got up extra early to be able to write this. I need to figure out breakfast soon. We are also going to Penguin Park later this afternoon, and probably Pizza Street for lunch and hot dogs on the grill this evening when the kids come to pick them up. Not a lot in this entry for it being an "anniversary" edition I know, but I will say that everything in my life for the last 6 years has brought me to this point in time, in my life, so I would be ready as a person to fulfill my role in the lives of my loved ones. Ready for the 1st night and day that I get to spend entirely with all of my grandkids! This is life. Also, for fun, I made a timeline of sorts, made exclusively of different song lyrics, from my using days all the way to now. I will share them at the bottom of this entry in chronological order. Want to know where I am just read them, but if you want to know who I am then you'll have to listen to them. Its all about how it feels for reals. lol My message is still the same, get away from the dope and the dumb shit. Hope for finding more silver linings, hang onto every little bit of gratitude that comes your way and watch as it multiplies.  Learn better ways to live that fit you as a person, as an individual. Learn to truly care about yourself, and then others, all others. Truly caring about others is the epitome for the meaning of life. The last little bit of my message, THE message is so important for everyone, to hear and practice, in my opinion. Until next week; 1 - "You always call me And ask me how I make it through the day I'm always fallin' I guess it's just god's way of making me pay But something makes me carry on It's difficult to understand, why I always wanna fly I do it for the drugs I do it just to feel alive" - Bottom of the Bottle by Smile Empty Soul 2 - "And every time I think I've finally made it, I learn I'm farther away than I have ever been before. I see the clock and it's ticking away. And the hourglass empty, what the fuck do I have to say? Please help me cause I'm breaking down. This picture's frozen, and I can't get out. Please help me cause I'm breaking down. This picture's frozen, and I can't get out of here. Believe me, I'm just as lost as you. Believe me, yeah, I'm just as lost as you. Keep it inside, the image portrayed. As if I couldn't stand losing. As if I couldn't be saved, no way. A small confession, I think I'm starting to lose it. I think I'm drifting away from the people I really need. A small reflection of when we were younger, we had it all figured out, cause we had everything covered." - Still Frame by Trapt 3 - "Once more I'll say goodbye to you Things happen but we don't really know why If it's supposed to be like this Why do most of us ignore the chance to miss? Oh, yeah Torn apart at the seams of my dreams turn to tears I'm not feelin' this situation Run away try to find that safe place you can hide It's the best place to be when you're feeling like Me (Me) Yeah (Yeah) All these things I hate revolve around me" - All These Things I hate by Bullet for my Valentine 4 - "Oh, dear mother, I love you I'm sorry, I wasn't good enough Dear father, forgive me 'Cause in your eyes, I just never added up In my heart I know I failed you But you left me here alone If I could hold back the rain Would you numb the pain 'Cause I remember everything If I could help you forget Would you take my regrets 'Cause I remember everything Oh, dear brother, just don't hate me For never standing by you or being by your side Dear sister, please don't blame me I only did what I thought was truly right It's a long and lonely road When you know you walk alone If I could hold back the rain Would you numb the pain 'Cause I remember everything If I could help you forget Would you take my regrets 'Cause I remember everything I feel like running away I'm still so far from home You say that I'll never change But what the fuck do you know I'll burn it all to the ground before I let you run Please forgive me, I can't forgive you now I remember everything" - Remember Everything by Five Finger Death Punch 5 - "What's life without a little pain The good thing is on a little break You'll be fine and up again, yeah The goal is to bring the human back to the world 'Cause nothing will last But bring it home as a friend, yeah yeah Oh the sinner is you The sinner is you I'm the collector of the good spirits of mother earth Hell is life drying up, yeah I see and hear more than I wish The seal has broken up again One life on earth fades away again The sinner is you, the sinner is you There's been a kill in the spirit world The ultimate sinner just don't know There's been a kill in the spirit world The ultimate sinner just don't know Is there forgiveness Do we all deserve our blessing Is there forgiveness Do we all deserve our blessing From the spirit world Is this a sign for all of us To take care of the life we have Please wake up and feel the love, yeah" - the Sinner is You by Volbeat 6 - "I'm awake I'm alive Now I know what I believe inside Now it's my time I'll do what I want 'cause this is my life Here, right here Right now, right now Stand my ground and never back down I know what I believe inside I'm awake and I'm alive I'm at war with the world cause I Ain't never gonna sell my soul I've already made up my mind No matter what I can't be bought or sold" - Awake and Alive by Skillet 7 - "This is my life Its not what it was before All these feelings I've shared And these are my dreams That I'd never lived before Somebody shake me 'Cause I must be sleeping Now that we're here It's so far away All the struggle we thought was in vain All in the mistakes One life contained They all finally start to go away Now that we're here it's so far away And I feel like I can face the day, and I can forgive And I'm not ashamed to be the person that I am today These are my words That I've never said before I think I'm doing okay And this is the smile That I've never shown before Somebody shake me 'cause I I must be sleeping Now that we're here It's so far away All the struggle we thought was in vain All in the mistakes One life contained They all finally start to go away Now that we're here it's so far away And I feel like I can face the day, and I can forgive And I'm not ashamed to be the person that I am today" - So Far Away by Staind 8 - "It's a beautiful mornin' I think I'll go outside a while, An just smile. Just take in some clean fresh air, boy Ain't no sense in stayin' inside If the weather's fine and you got the time. It's your chance to wake up and plan another brand new day. Either way, It's a beautiful mornin' Each bird keeps singin' his own song. So long I've got to be on my way, now. Ain't no fun just hangin' around, I've got to cover ground, you couldn't keep me down. It just ain't no good if the sun shines When you're still inside, Shouldn't hide, still inside, shouldn't hide, There will be children with robins and flowers; Sunshine caresses each new waking hour. Seems to me that the people keep seeing More and more each day, gotta say, lead the way, It's okay, Wednesday, Thursday, it's okay, Monday, Wednesday, Friday, weekday" - It's a Beautiful Morning by the Rascals 9 - "And it's a great day to be alive I know the sun's still shining When I close my eyes There's some hard times in the neighborhood But why can't every day be just this good It's been fifteen years since I left home I said good luck to every seed I'd sown Gave it my best and then I left it alone I hope they're doing alright Now I look in the mirror and what do I see A lone wolf there staring back at me Long in the tooth but harmless as can be Lord I guess he's doin' alright And it's a great day to be alive I know the sun's still shining When I close my eyes There's some hard times in the neighborhood But why can't every day be just this good" - It's a Great Day to be Alive by Travis Tritt 10 - "It's a beautiful day in this neighborhood, A beautiful day for a neighbor, Would you be mine? Could you be mine? It's a neighborly day in this beauty wood, A neighborly day for a beauty, Would you be mine? Could you be mine? I have always wanted to have a neighbor just like you, I've always wanted to live in a neighborhood with you. So let's make the most of this beautiful day, Since we're together, we might as well say, Would you be mine? Could you be mine? Won't you be my neighbor? Won't you please, won't you please, Please won't you be my neighbor?" Won't you be my Neighbor by Mr. Fred Rogers 11 - "In the end, as we fade into the night (whoa!) Who will tell the story of your life? In the end, as my soul's laid to rest What is left of my body? Or am I just a shell? I have fought And with flesh and blood, I commanded an army Through it all I have given my heart for a moment of glory In the end, as you fade into the night (whoa!) Who will tell the story of your life? (Whoa!) And who will remember your last goodbye? (Whoa!) 'Cause it's the end and I'm not afraid I'm not afraid to die I'm not afraid! I'm not afraid to die! Born a saint Though, with every sin I still wanna be holy I will live, again Who we are isn't how we live We are more than our bodies If I fall, I will rise back up and relive my glory In the end, as we fade into the night (whoa!) Who will tell the story of your life?" - In the End by Black Veil Brides