#doctors tw

[headspace-hotel]

Also on topic of Consent: whenever somebody says "Kids should have bodily autonomy!" some guy always is like "You are too unrealistic. What will you do when a kid is seeing the doctor and doesn't want to get a shot? Would you just let them refuse the shot?"

Yeah I probably would. You're straight up asking the wrong person if you want the nice normal answer here. Doctors and nurses forcibly doing (relatively routine) things to my body against my protests when I was a small kid fucked me up so bad that as an adult anything medical related is a huge trigger for me, I've had persistent intrusive thoughts and recurring nightmares about medical procedures, and I can't have even the most basic tests and health checks done on top of it.

I hate talking about it because I can't get comfortable calling it "trauma" and I don't have any other words that are useful, but it's made my life so much harder and really scary since if I start having a weird symptom, there's nothing I can move myself to do about it.

I figured out a loophole where going to a pharmacy instead of a doctor's office for vaccines reduces some of the stress, but I was still in stress and misery for days before I went to get my tetanus shot. The repulsion is so intense it feels like I literally don't have control over myself, it feels like I can't make appointments or plans about such things out of my own free will, and so every year I have guilt guilt guilt guilt guilt about how I should get the flu shot, and it does nothing but ineffectually hurt me.

Vaccines save lives and all that, but when it comes right down to it, I don't think it's actually a net benefit to public health to give any percentage of kids lifelong psychological scars so deep and painful they're almost completely barred from accessing health care as adults.

I know I'm not the only one, far from it.

[herigo]

화이팅!!!

[flutterbyfairy]

i have a neurologist appointment in about a month that i'm quite nervous about due to previously being dismissed/not having my concerns listened to, so gonna post this to ask for some advice on getting Taken Seriously or if anyone knows things about the type of condition i might have about what i should be asking them to do/test.

might be quite long so putting it under a read more, and tw for medical stuff and doctors being dismissive. also i am So So Tired and therefore not able to think very clearly so apologies if i've messed up any of the medical info about conditions i mention and apologise just generally for the rambliness of my writing.

summary of why i'm going:

bunch of disabling symptoms that have continually progressed over the past 5+ years, including: muscle weakness, fatigue, muscle twitches/small spasms, nerve pain, blurry vision, lack of coordination (have this from autism, however has gotten significantly worse recently so might also be related to neuro stuff). first symptoms were difficulty having my arms over my head (like having to take multiple breaks while putting my hair into a ponytail because i couldn't hold my arms over my head for the like.. three minutes to do a ponytail) and blurry vision (that optometrist has said seems like might be due to a systemic disease because of how variable it is) since i was 13, which was seven years ago. i started getting more impairing symptoms when i was 15, and began needing a wheelchair for anything that required standing or walking for more than 10 - 15 minutes. i'm currently 20 and need my wheelchair whenever i leave the house, i can't leave the house or do things around the house often, i can stand for a max of like four minutes and can't hold my hands above my head for more than like 30 seconds to one minute. pretty much all my symptoms get a lot worse with any exertion.

GP thinks i have myasthenia gravis, but the test for acetylcholine receptor antibodies was negative and he doesn't have the ability to do other tests.

the neurologist has already said he thinks i have functional neurological disorder and that i should do CBT and pysio to improve my functioning (i already know CBT is horrible for me, i'm in other therapy which is good, i've done some psyio before but she just taught me some stretches and that was it, more psyio could be good but it'd have to be with someone who isn't trying to do a graded exercise therapy type thing since i get PEM). he has mentioned doing a spine MRI but this hasn't been done yet. he said he doesn't want to do further testing for myasthenia gravis but i will probably try to get him to agree to doing a repetitive nerve stimulation EMG or something.

i also have scapular winging on the side of my body with worse muscular symptoms which has also caused a lot of nerve pain, and i might also have some sort of spine issues (straightening of cervical lordosis was seen on a CT scan, they said it was probably due to muscle spasms, and i get a lot of neck pain which might be due to that? as well as a ton of back pain along my spine. might have CCI but haven't been tested yet). since it seems like i'm getting some structural changes in areas where i also get a lot of the pain and weakness and spasms i'm hoping if i bring that up the neurologist might maybe look more at organic causes + the state of those structural changes but i dunno.

he did a basic neurological exam in my initial appointment with him and said that i have give way weakness/waxing and waning weakness because when he got me to do the pushing my limbs against resistance i could do okay for a couple seconds but couldn't maintain it. he also said in the letter that i had positive hoovers sign however i am.. very confused by this because from my understanding hoovers sign is mainly looked at when someone has one limb that's at least somewhat "normal" and one that either can't be moved or is very weak, and then the person can't move the weak leg but when asked to push the stronger leg against resistance they push the weak leg down. both my legs are strong enough that i can stand and whilst one leg is a bit weaker they're relatively similar. i lifted and pushed against resistance with both legs so.... i am not sure how hoovers is applicable here? does anyone know why it was applied and if that was correct or if i should be challenging that? he's saying that the give way weakness and positive hoovers are indicators that the problem is "non-organic" and therefore should be treated with CBT and pysio.

i'm not sure what i think is actually going on. i think myasthenia gravis might make sense, but also so could other neuromuscular diseases like a mitochondrial disease or something. also very possible it's myalgic encephalomyelitis (aka chronic fatigue syndrome) but obviously that one is a diagnosis of exclusion so i want to rule other things out if possible. i want to know what's going on so i can have the best chance of being as well as is possible for me. i know CBT is not right for me and whilst some type of pysio could help a bit/prevent some decline (based on past experience i know it won't Cure Me but obviously it can help a bit to build some muscle or maintain range of motion and things like that which are important) if there's other things i can do on top of that i want to.

i've tried to do research to work out the best tests to ask for and i think EMG might be good but also know a normal EMG doesn't typically pick up myasthenia gravis so it needs to also have repetitive nerve stimulation i think?

i can't see a different neurologist at least not anytime soon, so i need to get this neurologist to do as much to help as possible. a social worker from where i get therapy is coming to the appointment to help me so that should be good but i need to work out what the best way to advocate for myself is and what tests are going to be the most useful to ask for.

if anyone has any advice for getting doctors to take you seriously or for any tests i should be advocating for or conditions i should be looking into or anything i would really appreciate it <3 (emoticon description: heart)

[madpunks]

i need medical professionals to understand that medical negligence kills.

i am in involved with my medical care- i have to attend therapy, see a psychatric medication manager, a primary care doctor, physical therapists, and a gender affirming care specialist. i am seen by a lot of doctors and have been in a lot of different medical settings. lately i have hit a rough patch where i cannot seem to have my situation taken seriously

my blood pressure has been so high, for months now, that i was within stroke and cardiac event territory several times. my doctors ping-ponged me between one another- i was prescribed blood pressure meds when i stayed in the psych ward in july. then my psych nurse refilled them, but told me my primary care doctor must be the one to refill them, because she doesn't know anything about bp meds. i asked my pcp, she told me "have your other doctor fill them out, then, since you had them filled over there before."

it took me months to get my life saving medications back. i cried in front of a receptionist at a later appointment where i was told the provider could not see me for our scheduled appointment time that day because "i hadn't filled out the paperwork". they never sent or told me about paperwork. they took my blood pressure after i explained my frustration and booked me for an emergency appointment with a pcp the next business day. but it took until i cried and my blood pressure was dangerously high from stress for someone to care.

i finally have it, now, but i am also fighting for my psychiatric medications as well. the psychiatric meds manager i mentioned above went on maternity leave and someone filled in for her. this doctor didn't know me. he asked me many questions, but never waited for my answers. he spoke over me, told me some of my diagnoses were wrong/misdiagnosed me, and took me off of several of my vital medications. he stopped my bipolar mood stabilizer because he said it didn't help with bipolar mania- he never asked if i was needing help with mania, depression, or mixed episodes. he just assumed.

he also stopped my seroquel- i am a schizoaffective person- because he didn't like the dose i was at, but because i am fat, he said i needed to be on the antipsychotic that was the least likely to put weight on me. he put me back on risperidone. i had been on it in the past. it caused me severe depression. he didn't ask what it did to me. he just put me back on it without question. i haven't touched those damn pills since i got them from the pharmacy. i am already severely depressed as is, i can't even fathom.

while i was discussing a personal event that happened in my life that affected me, my therapist earlier today asked me "why are you letting something so insignificant have power over you? why would something like that make you suicidal? why are you letting this person have power over you" i had finally lost my patience with her, and i snapped, and told her why i was justified in feeling so unwell. i gave her the context of my situation, and didn't back down. i'm firing her next session. later on, my case worker informed me that's victim blaming, and that it was not okay for her to minimize my issues or make me feel like i in some way made my feelings happen of my own free will. i felt so incensed i had to do something about it.

i can't really sleep at night right now. i can't focus, my energy levels are all over and my depression is ruling my life. im struggling with invasive thoughts and horrible painful suicidal lows. i need people to understand that this type of medical negligence can kill. any of this could've killed me at any point. this is not acceptable. this is what american mentally ill people in care deal with. please understand that this is not how anyone should have to live.

[fortitudina]

*OOC. ------ My gynaecologist is an absolute piece of shit, I swear! I just got a letter through with him stating that he looked at the results of my ultrasound and despite my right ovary being fused to my uterus, I cannot POSSIBLY have any active endometriosis, it'll all be old endometriosis. His reasoning as to why I possibly cannot have any active endo? because I have the mirena coil fitted. What a crock of shit! I absolutely hate how lacking of knowledge on endometriosis most doctors are.

[paradoxesofgalaxies]

It's so frustrating to find care as a trans person. I live in a blue state that's considered pretty progressive, but trying to find doctors who will work with trans patients is a nightmare.

Places that operate from an informed consent model are so booked out they don't even have waiting lists. I finally found a doctor who prescribes HRT and had openings after nearly a year of searching. And while I like my doctor, his office is incredibly incompetent. They cancel appointments without warning. Getting any kind of paperwork done feels like a Sisyphean effort. Trying to get refills on my meds takes multiple phone calls and several days. I have a lot of patience for incompetent medical offices after all my years of chronic illness, but this office is so difficult to deal with that I would normally be trying to find care elsewhere. But where else would I go? There aren't other doctors in my area that take trans patients and have openings.

Even still, I feel lucky to have care at all. I know so many of my trans siblings are in states where the situation is much, much worse. At least I have access to hormones. At least I have some medical care.

But it's still pretty fucked that because I am trans I am far more limited in what care is available to me than my cis partners. They have the option to seek care elsewhere, options that just aren't available to me.

Yet it feels wrong to complain about this when situations are so rapidly becoming dire in other parts of the country. States banning trans healthcare. States banning us from bathrooms. Florida expanding the use of the death penalty in an obvious move to go after trans people and those who provide care for us. It's horrific. It's too much for words.

I don't know where I'm going with this at this point. But shit's fucked and it's terrifying to watch this all happen and feel powerless to stop it.

[unfilteredrealities]

TW ED , Weight Talk , Fatphobia , Medical, Doctors, Ableism

So the appointment went uh questionable.

Doctor told me I’m a difficult patient to consult bcs I am “morbidly obese” and that I need to lose weight. Oh and she said for a 26yo I should be healthy and it’s not possible that I have something wrong most likely.

LIKE BITCH! You can have issues at any age???? Like some toddlers have issues since they are little and no one tells them “oh you are too young to already suffer by xyz” so why tell me I can’t possibly be having all these issues with 26???

I tried to stand up and told her that my lower leg is not fat at all that it is lean and its muscles and that my upper thigh is chunky.

She then shut up and stuck a needle into my leg into my nerve and did her thing.

She didn’t even let me know “hey I’ll stick a needle now into your leg so be prepared”

So yeah. 111$ gone for this procedure bcs this EMG isn’t included in the healthcare system gg

My eating disorder is now super triggered and it’s telling me to restrict and not eat and it only once a day which is rationally speaking bullshit and unhealthy.

You know what? I will eat right now something. Even if I had for lunch Pizza. I will still eat dinner. Fuck you eating disorder!

[muddlemore]

SURVIVED THE CHECKUP RAHHHHHH

[mogaihaze]

Feargender A gender influenced or overwhelmed by fear. A gender that is overly fearful and afraid.

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Bloodfearic A gender influenced or overwhelmed by fear of blood. A gender that is overly fearful and afraid of blood.

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Bloodworkfearic A gender influenced or overwhelmed by fear of blood work and getting blood work done. A gender that is overly fearful and afraid of blood work.

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Bugfearic A gender influenced or overwhelmed by fear of bugs. A gender that is overly fearful and afraid of bugs.

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Docfearic A gender influenced or overwhelmed by fear of doctors. A gender that is overly fearful and afraid of doctors.

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Peoplefearic A gender influenced or overwhelmed by fear of people. A gender that is overly fearful and afraid of people.

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[genderqueerdykes]

Heyo!

I just found out i'm intersex, and i don't know much about it at all.

First of all, I have PCOS. The second part is that i have an extra flop of skin in the labia. Turns out, that part is actually not skin, but a male part. For some reason, i didn't have it when i was a baby. But it came in around when i started pubotiy. (yeah bad spelling). The doctors said it was a large scab when we found it.

Now, it turns out that might be a male accessory gland or a misplaced pingas foreskin. Doctors aren't totally sure right now.

So, do you have any advice, as a intersex person to an egg cracking intersex person?

hey im really glad that you were able to get some answers though, and that you're looking into things further! i think it's great that you're taking your health into your own hands and pursuing answers even though it can be confusing at times =)

i would say the biggest thing for you right now is to take the time to realize that society has likely treated you unfairly in a lot of ways that have made you internalize things to either hate your body, be confused about how you look, or influence how you identify. as an intersex person, your identity is completely unique to you, and you get to make up the rules

nobody gets to define what "normal" is for you except you, so don't let anyone tell you you can't wear facial hair if you grow it, or that you can't dress a certain way, or that your body looks "wrong". i kept getting told over and over again that i was "too masculine" to be a girl and that i wasn't a "real girl" because of my beard and how bulky my chest and shoulders are. at the time none of it clicked that something was "Different" aabout me, i didn't know what intersex conditions were, and i didn't know that producing such a high level of androgens made me "Different". i didn't realize people had been treating me in ways that perisex people don't get treated which means i internalized a lot of weird things

you are allowed to dress, act and present however you want. whether you feel cis, trans, intergender, isogender, queer, or simply just intersex is up to you, and i think you should take as long as you need to figure out how you feel about yourself. take the time to question if you want to consider HRT or any kind of gender reaffirming surgeries. you don't need them, but if you like certain parts of yourself and want to enhance them, don't let anyone tell you you can't.

i hated so very badly that people didn't let me have my beard. i hated it. i snapped one day and said fuck it!!! i'm transitioning so i can have the biggest bushiest beard ever. and now i'm realizing that i'm way more on the transfemme side of things than transmasc to the point of almost dropping the transmasculine label for my current self and mostly using it retroactively to apply to the beginning of taking T.

but that's the thing, being intersex can be very complicated, so just take your time, and don't let anyone tell you what's "normal" or what "kind" of girl/guy/person/etc. you can be. don't listen to their shit. you are who YOU Are. nobody else has a body exactly like yours and that fucks severely. take that and run with it. take care of yourself, if you need anything else lmk!!! we're glad you reached out. stay safe <3

[wyrdify]

This is not at anyone here. This is at the U.S. healthcare system, particularly as it relates to neurodivergent trans people. Rant below the cut.

So, back in April, I asked my med manager for a referral to get evaluated for autism. Said med manager does not do it herself since she doesn't do diagnoses, and neither does the facility she works at, so she referred me out. I was then told that the place will be in touch with me to get me scheduled, and this may take up to 6-12 months as they have a waiting list. But, I can check on that referral at any time by calling them. Cool.

More background information: I started taking Effexor more than a month ago (probably close to two months now) since Zoloft, my old anti-depressant, wasn't really working. I noticed that, on the 75 mg dose of Effexor, I sometimes experienced brain fog, muscle weakness, and other things I associated with my seizures. Effexor worked, but I felt it was also lowering my seizure threshold. Med manager, who prescribed the Effexor, told me to contact my neurologist about it since my neurologist handles my epilepsy. Fine. No problem. That usually isn't an issue.

I couldn't reach my neurologist. I called her office at least twice and had her medical assistant call me back, who promised me my neurologist would call me back. That never happened. So, I tried another method, which was MyChart. I sent a message to my neurologist there on July 6, and I never heard back. Nothing. I don't see her until the end of November, so now I need to try and basically move up my appointment just to get a basic question about a prescription answered. I schedule my appointments with her a year in advance, so I don't know how much luck I'll have there.

So, that's one fail of the U.S. Healthcare system. Let's move on to what happened yesterday and today.

Yesterday, I meet with my med manager to go over a few things. I bring a list with me because not only has it been about a month since I last saw her, but I wanted to get the ball rolling on a couple other things. I wanted to see if an evaluation for ADHD was separate from the one I was getting for autism, and I wanted to get a referral letter for top surgery. For those who've known me for a while, you've known I've lived with gender dysphoria since 2016-17. It's been a long time. I want to get that started now and not keep waiting around.

What she ended up telling me: an ADHD eval is part of the autism one I'm going to have since it's a full neuropsych eval. Okay, that makes sense. Cool. I move on to the next subject: top surgery. She tells me to go to a place in the city to talk to them about surgery. They don't do anything with top surgery. Yes, they do gender affirming healthcare, but I was specifically asking for a referral letter. I looked into what I needed for top surgery in my state before this appointment (not directly before, but days before). I need at least one letter from a mental health provider for it. Why did my med manager refer me to somewhere that doesn't do that and will likely just tell me to go back to her?

She said that she or my therapist, who works in the same facility, could write the letter, but still. STILL. She sent me to another place first. I am a trans person who doesn't need hormone therapy. I need top surgery. My gender dysphoria is well documented in their system. I checked. It became abundantly clear to me in that moment that she doesn't have many trans patients. At all. That facility in general probably doesn't considering the last med manager I had there was transphobic. Anyway.

Today: I called this morning to check on the status of my referral for the neuropsych eval. It turns out that they couldn't accept my referral because they don't have a specialist, so they sent it back for my PCP to handle (same facility as my med manager and my therapist). My med manager didn't see this at all. I'm not even sure she was looking at my chart to be honest. If she did, maybe she would've saw this and said, "Oh, I need to refer you to somewhere else or have your PCP do it." But no, I get to be back at square fucking one again. Because I couldn't ask my med manager to get that referral for a neuropsych exam. I had to go through my PCP to do it. Make it make sense.

I am so goddamn frustrated with this system. I'm just trying to take care of my health and be somewhat proactive about it, but I fucking can't. At this point, I don't know what to do. I might leave this facility all together and start over with a new PCP, new therapist, and new med manager. But, then I run the risk of not being in therapy for months, not seeing a med manager for months to a year, and not seeing a PCP for months to a year as well. And I'm in the middle of a med change too. Not only that, but I don't want to be a difficult patient or someone who just quits doctors or places willy-nilly. This is my third med manager, fourth therapist, and fourth PCP since I moved here nearly 10 years ago.

I don't know what to do. What the hell do I do? I want to cry, scream, rage. I hate this healthcare system so much.

[flutterbyfairy]

my old GP refused to discuss my low blood pressure despite it causing symptoms and being 82/45 (tested by a nurse at the practice, who then referred me to see him because she thought it was worrying), saying that it was "normal for young people". my new GP is a bit concerned about my blood pressure being low when it's 96/60!! so probably would have been very concerned when it was lower!! and. AND. she knew what POTS was. i am so glad i changed GPs

[queerbauten]

Happy and blessed 64th birthday to the dearest Blixa Bargeld. I like your main band’s music. 🥲

[fortitudina]

*OOC. ------ Also, small health update: The doctor from my GP that rang me this morning, thinks I have pneumonia over a chest infection. They've prescribed me steroids and more inhalers, on top of my current inhalers and the antibiotics I'm on and they've said that the x-ray department should ring me to see them by the end of the week. Even they're concerned that with how long I've had it, that it's done even more damage to my lungs than what is already there, with my asthma.

[paradoxesofgalaxies]

A little over an hour after my appointment was supposed I finally got a phone call. It ended up being a good appointment. They're changing my TN meds so hopefully that will help. The med I'm switching to should have less side effects so 🤞

[freakthing]

Hey yall, I might be gone for just a moment. I found out the side effects I've been experiencing from this medication are in fact symptoms of one serious bad side effect. For nearly two weeks the ammonia levels in my blood have been raising and fucking with my brain. I only found out on accident that that could happen. I spoke with one of the nurses and im waiting for my doctor to call me back to see what we should do from here.