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einwish Ā· 3 months ago
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Ā§ The rule is one contract per person. Ā§
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Ā§ It's not necessary to have a body in the traditional sense, as long as you have a strong wish. Ā§
The incubator flicks his tail before staring at the oddball duo from the table.
Ā§ Well? Is there anything you want in this world? Ā§
ā‹†ĖššŸ¾Ė– @lethalitisms āŠ¹ . ŻĖ– .
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deadbaguette Ā· 1 month ago
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GPTim doodles,, wanna practice stylizing him
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biblically-accurate-dca Ā· 2 years ago
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first meetings (bonus panel under the cut!!)
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i didnt wanna add it to the main post bc it's a different size and it would mess up the format lmaooo
i think about these two a lot i think they could be really fun together in several ways. monty golf is right next to the daycare after all!!
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fumifooms Ā· 1 year ago
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Chilchuck analysis speedrun: As a hardworking half-foot who grew up poor and discriminated against and had his gullibility taken advantage of multiple times in his early adventuring days, Chilchuck thinks optimism is a dangerous flaw. Heā€™s stressed and strict all the time because his job is noticing details like traps that could get everyone killed before anyone knows it, he takes the lives of everyone to be on his shoulders, and with the way he speaks about it that probably partly reflects how he felt about taking it upon himself to provide for his family too. His lifeā€™s always been pretty centered around work and has become even moreso now that his wife left and everyone is independent, and due to past events heā€™s very iffy with bonding with coworkers. He thinks feelings and job are a disaster mix. Like with his wife or with parties hiring him as sacrifice, being open or having good faith is vulnerability which can get you hurt, so he processes and shows all his stress as anger instead of worry. Doing strict dieting probably isnā€™t helping the irritability what with hunger, and on top of being a hunger suppressant alcohol might be the main stress reliever he has.
His grey hairs are so earned
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#Chilchuck tims#dungeon meshi#analysis#HAPPY CHILCHUCK DAY#You know what yeah understandable have a good day#Alcohol be a ticket straight to chilling out town I suppose#Spoilers#dungeon meshi manga spoilers#Thinking on if I should split my family masterpost into diff posts for max reach hmm#Iā€™m def editing in the second page into that post that ā€œIā€™ve got three people to think of hereā€ sounds sooo much like thatā€™s#how heā€™d think about it in a family setting as well. He works so hard for them šŸ„ŗ#I could have put 100 pics on this post to justify everything I mentioned but this is a speedrun for a reason. Iā€™m planning so many#compilations rn i need a break from rereading lol#Heā€™s just here to do his work!! He just wanna do his work!!!#Iā€™m always rotating him in my brain like rotisserie chicken :( Hopefully this doesnā€™t sound disjointed or insane to average readers#Heā€™s always on his guard so he has a short fuse and his type of humor & liking for snarky remarks doesnā€™t help#Also bc he knows nothing lasts he has a very work hard play hard mentality where ā€˜dying doing something you love. Like drinkingā€™#is nice in his opinion#This post makes it all sound so dry. Chilchuck is so messy thinking about him is thrilling I swear. This is concise but at what costā€¦#OH ALSO he has weird self-hate issues where he really values his skills but devalues himself on a personal level.#ā€˜I am a coward. I only care about myself. I cheated on my wife (lying for no reason)ā€™ etc etc#Canā€™t disappoint people and make them leave you if they already have no expectations and esteem of you šŸ˜šŸ’”#Laws are important to him bc he knows how bad punishment is if you break them and how theyā€™re the key to getting better rights
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puppetmaster13u Ā· 1 year ago
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Prompt 84
Amity Park absolutely adores her little ghostling, her little Gatekeeper who was of her own ectoplasm, reborn from her own blood in the center of her new heart. She absolutely adores her baby, practically a newborn, being only a year dead!Ā 
So of course she had to gush and boast about her little phantom to the other city spirits! They all got together to gossip sometimes after all. And both Smallville and Fawcett started to gush about their own little ones back!Ā 
Gosh they should set up a playdate at some point, her little phantom could use some friends in the mortal realm. Well some more friends, three is obviously not enough. Oh, Gotham and Bludhaven have come over as well! Itā€™s a playdate then!Ā 
Now if only each of their worldā€™s timelines were synced up, but at least everyone is around the same age!Ā 
#dcxdp#dpxdc#City Children Au#Prompts#Each city is from a different timeline lol#Bruce is an angy 16 year old vigilante and was Not prepared to be the oldest#Dick hasn't told them his birthday#and isn't revealing he's older than this Bruce by a few months#Clark is just happy to make friends and he brought pie! his ma and him made it!#Dick is wheezing at these itty bitty versions of Bruce and Clark- this is great and hilarious and oh god he has to protect them#Billy is chanting to do it whenever someone has a Bad Idea- He's just become the Champion of Magic & the gods encourage it#Danny is delighted to have more friends and he's not the oldest Or the youngest so yay!#they're having fun#lots of fun in all their timelines and in the realms too#if they get in trouble they call their city-parents#ā€œAlfred says I'm a polite young man. He also says that if someone tries to grab me to use my teethā€#ā€œSounds about rightā€ ā€œMoodā€ ā€œBiting is always goodā€ ā€œBut what about diseases??ā€#ā€œHey Danny you like alien stuff right- do you think you can help me and the others translate this it came from the ship i was onā€#ā€œOmg Billy you should teach us mortal magic and we can teach you are stuffā€#Dick: I don't wanna be the responsible one so I'm going to encourage them all to be Worse :)#At some point the squad is going to end up in some other timeline and confuse the fuck out of the JL lol#dick grayson#danny fenton#billy batson#clark kent#bruce wayne
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eff-exor Ā· 1 month ago
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tumblr isnā€™t as fun when you donā€™t have an unhealthy situationship with one of ur moots /;
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your-unfriendlyghost Ā· 5 months ago
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I thought youā€™d get a kick out of this:
I think back in like 2020 there was an au where Steve Randle and maverick from top gun were brothers. Maverick was the older one (for some reason. I always thought it didnā€™t make a lot of sense because Steve is from the sixties and maverick is from the eighties, but the au made it work) and Steve was his much younger half brother.
I think they shared a mom (who they both looked exactly like, Iā€™m assuming) and they didnā€™t actually know about each other until Steveā€™s dad died and maverick was the next of kin that had to take him in.
Anyway I distinctly remember maverick not knowing how to interact with Steve and Steve justā€¦ blatantly hating mavericks guts. He liked ice and goose though. Not maverick. Maverick was very stressed about that
Also I remember someone saying that Maverick would hate Steve being impulsive and driving recklessly and everyone would call him a hypocrite for it.
Oh yeah no youā€™re so right this is completely up my alley
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Steveā€™s just mad ā€˜cuz Mav got to have braces and he didnā€™t
also where was that au on/what platform was it on?? I needa see more thatā€™s amazing
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hplonesomeart Ā· 4 months ago
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Whoops hand slipped hereā€™s some TADC character fanart. Apologies for the severe lack of Pomni in this one idk where she went off toā€¦maybe she got lost on her way to find the exit. The lines are incredibly choppy & rushed, I know, but it was still fun art practice! I donā€™t draw these guys nearly enough anyways so this is a nice change of pace. Support indie animation :3
#you wanna know a secret? donā€™t like how I draw Ragatha I wish I could do her better šŸ˜”#like I donā€™t know if I make her hair straight or if itā€™s kinda wavy?? and her eye too idk how to draw it in a satisfying way :((#but thatā€™s a normal dilemma when Iā€™m trying to blend my artstyle with the shows artstyle#keeping the characters on model/recognizable and consistent but also my own style ya know?#making those adjustments takes time and usually I need to draw a character 7+ times before it looks good#JAX ON THE OTHER HANDā€”OH BOY GOODIE HE IS SO COMICALLY EASY TO DRAW HALLELUJAH LOL#I think the Puzzle toothy grin & toon eyes just automatically agree with me#then Kinger I also struggle with personally#Gangleā€™s mask shape is confusing at first but then you adjust fairly quickly#Caine is neutral party to meā€”I know how his design is but Iā€™m not confident without reference material#and then the artstyle translation is another hurdle to juggle <<#his top hat especially like HOW U DRAW šŸ˜­ I can manage Puzzles bowler hat just fine but NOT top hats man#Zooble is lovely Zooble peace and love they did nothing wrong just pleasant to draw uwu#Jax & Zooble conflict oh noooo the bitches are fighting /j#Actually this initially started only with Caine & Zooble but I just kept adding others lol#Ragatha & Kinger weā€™re the very last additions#hplonesome art#tadc characters#the amazing digital circus characters#NOT GONNA PUT ANYMORE TAGS BECAUSE THEN ITā€™LL GET SWEPT UP AND PEOPLE WILL ASSUME I DRAW THEM ALL THE TIME šŸ„²#I canā€™t be held liable for serving TADC fanart content because that isnā€™t me right now sorry
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skyloftian-nutcase Ā· 9 months ago
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Okay! ~14 years ago, a young teen disappeared from a local amusement park, leaving behind a little bit of blood and maybe some hair. After the two year investigation, no one could figure out where they gone or even how. But now, this missing teen just walked right through the hospital's front doors, looking beaten and bruised, like they went through absolute hell and back. It was almost obvious that one of their legs was broken and yet they still walked on it, and one eye didn't look like it could be saved. But the strangest, almost horrifying part about all of this? They were still a young teenager.
ā€œWhatā€™s up with 14?ā€ Wild asked as he cleaned a stretcher. ā€œWhy are there cops over there? Thought I saw Impa for a sec.ā€
ā€œKidā€™s been missing for over two years, so uh, he got some attention,ā€ Legend replied while he munched on some peanuts.
ā€œMissing? And heā€™s still alive?ā€ Warriors asked, rolling his chair over. ā€œThatā€™s different. Usually itā€™s just a recovery.ā€
ā€œWell, it couldā€™ve been if heā€™d waited much longer,ā€ Legend huffed, glancing at the patientā€™s xray.
Warriors barked out a laugh. ā€œWaited longer? Honestly, you make it sound like the kid just decided not to get help until now.ā€
Wild shrugged. ā€œI meanā€¦ people go missing for different reasons.ā€
ā€œYeah, but this was a fourteen-year-old kid who went missing at an amusement park. Doubt he meant to be gone for years,ā€ Legend explained. ā€œHe looks like crap. Also, he hasnā€™t grown much, still looks like a pre-adolescent to me. Kind of weird and creepy.ā€
ā€œThatā€™s called malnutrition, genius,ā€ Warriors snorted.
Legend rolled his eyes. ā€œI know that, jerk face.ā€
ā€œAll right, kids, play along,ā€ Wild snorted waving his hands at the two. ā€œI have to go take a patient to the floor, try not to kill each other while Iā€™m gone.ā€
Legend hummed, grabbing his energy drink, and then Wild snatched it out of his hand.
ā€œAnd try not to kill yourself, either, Legend,ā€ Wild added, holding the drink above his friend.
Legend snarled. ā€œGive that back!ā€
Warriors chuckled, rolling away. ā€œCareful, Wild, he bites!ā€
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spotaus Ā· 4 months ago
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Important plot point for the New Age AU post-story dustedafterdeath plot- (realizing now slight tw for abusive relationship???)
Geno is a manipulative bastard who exerts his skill and prowess over others. With Reaper their relationship was balanced and became healthy thanks to Reaper actually being stronger than Geno. So all of Geno's manipulation was more like an angry chihuahua barking at Reaper. They got over that stage fast.
With Dust?? He doesn't realize he can't show his interest the same way. Doesn't occur to him that Dust is "lesser" than him in every situation. Royal Mage against a Knight, the Mage has more political power. Geno has direct ties to Reaper, who they need to keep happy for Night's treaty. Geno has more technical skill w/ his magic and Dust is sure the technique and control would be enough to best his own barely controlled magic. He's physically weaker, especially after his shoulder injury. So when Geno realizes he's caught feelings he feels guilty, but doesn't stop manipulating him?? Because Reaper was fine with it, so clearly that's how romance works right?
And it is (shocker) NOT how romance works.
While Dust is being low key pampered and spoiled by Reaper (Reaper recognizes the power dynamics very vividly and I'd sure to make sure Dust knows he can say No or Stop at any moment to anything, even hand-holding or escorting, and Reaper respects it) as Reaper compliments him and gives him gifts and asks how he's been. Geno is out here hyperfixated on Dust's latent magic and is getting his way to learn more no matter the cost (which, in this case, is faking romantic interest). And Reaper doesn't realize how intense Geno is bring because he *thought* Geno would know better. And with the fragile situation, Dust doesn't speak up.
So, ofc, it all comes to a head when Geno finally realizes he's gone too far, Dust completely shuts him out. And Geno is too proud to face his consequences and come clean to Dust about his intentions. Dust, usually quiet anyways, just moves on, though he's deeply distrustful of every pampering Reaper does for him now.
It isn't until 2 days later that Error is talking with Geno (y'know, brother gossip) and Error asks how it's going with Dust.
When Geno responds that his plan fell through, Error asks for elaboration, and Geno tell him the jist. Leas Dust on, then let him down gently. But he caught feels and Dust didn't seem to like the advances so he gave up. And Error knows his brother and knows that's not the full story. So they change subjects, and Error convinces Geno to go visit the woods on the edge of town to test a new weapon of his.
But once they're out there and alone Error reads his brother the riot act because he's so furious and disappointed!!! Dust of all people?? Manipulating him??? And when Geno tries to defend himself (digging a deeper hole and processing just how awful he was himself as he says it out loud) Error just straight up pulls him into combat. (And Geno, not wanting to accidentally hurt his brother but also furious + caught up in emotion, fights back.)
They beat eachother into the trees and the rocks and just tear into eachother, but by the time the Knights arrive to see what the problem is (the cats got word to Ccino, and Ccino sent Dust and Cross to figure it out) Geno is pretty much on low hp and Error is wounded but still standing.
Error spots the Knights and basically uses his strings to slam Geno to the ground at Dust's feet. And there's this moment of frustration and sorrow that seems to pass between the three of them, before Cross (<- unaware) asks what Error was thinking!
Error just says he'll explain it later and that they can go back now. Cross should carry Geno. Error would explain to Reaper (Geno flinched at that).
They return, and Error pulls Reaper aside to mutter some things to him. Reaper seems distressed and takes Geno from Cross, but doesn't even seem bothered at seeing his lover as roughed up as he was. He excuses them away, and Dust disappears into his room.
Error hunts down Dust and chills with him a bit. Error apologizes on his brother's behalf, and Dust seems just. Out of it. He won't say it's okay, because it's not, but he won't put pressure on Error because it's definitely not the kid's fault. So he settles on a tired laugh and thanking Error for beating up his big brother for him. (Error and Geno are on level playing field. As siblings, as Royal Mages, as partners to their kings. They are evenly matched in almost every way, so Error had the power to stand up for Dust, and Dust appreciates that.)
Amd after that little interaction, Dust actually realizes he's alright. He has people who will look out for him. Who will make sure everything goes smoothly. AND after joking with Error some more? He realizes Geno just. Has weird priorities. Weird ways of showing his affection. Dust decides he won't give Geno a second shot unless he bends and gives up his weird manipulation with Dust.
It takes a few days before Geno is done wallowing and processing, but he comes to find Dust (Reaper right behind him, supposedly to keep him in line) looking like a prideful lil wet cat. He says he's sorry, and that he realizes it was shitty of him, and that he will respect it if Dust wants him and Reaper to stop bothering him.
Dust clarifies and asks if Reaper was being genuine. (He was.) And he asks of Geno would be willing to give being genuine a shot (a hesitant yes). Dust does not push them away, but he does say he is going to inform Night. He also asks them to swear that no matter where the relationship ends, they will not take it out on Nightmare. (They agree.)
Like. Reaper, the romantic who is actually kind and wants to make lasting relationships *before* acting on his desires. Vs. Geno, the guy driven by desires who seems to stumble across romance by mistake every time. Both after Dust, most emotionally bottled skeleton they've ever met? Wild.
Geno is super toxic about his relationships and doesn't even notice in my aus ig. Goofy ahh. He eventually gets his conscience back. But it's. A struggle.
In the other au I have Dust guilt-trip him into being less of an idiot. In this one I make his brother throw him around like a ragdoll. (To Error, violence is often the answer <3)
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dimeadozencows Ā· 1 year ago
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Krispee cream
#kris deltarune#kris dreemurr#deltarune#kris my beloved#i don't think I've even liked a vg protagonist as much as i love them#maybe chell#but i love kris even more#i love them so much i wanna stop playing Deltarune to give them a break ā¤ļø#i like the idea of them feeling gender euphoria in the dark worlds#not only because of one of the most comforting lines in vg history that you can get by interacting with their closet in castle town#'you can wear whatever you want'#but also because someone noticed that their sitting down sprite in the dark world is slightly taller than the light world equivalent#(the one thats used in ch 2 next to the lake if you dont talk to onion san in ch 1)#cus yeah. magical world where everything is perfect. where u get magic powers and awesome outfits. where everyone likes you and prises you#gender euphoria fits right in :]#honestly id open a dark fountain to feel taller regardless of any apocalyptic ramifications or#faceless outside forces who could harm me and my loved ones#i totally understand them and i do not believe anyone has the right to judge their actions#my art#i was on the fance about posting these but afreakingmilkshake convinced me :] i hope i spelled ur username right lol#i lovvvve giving them hairstyles. if only i could make my hair into a perfectly round afro and not have it sadly droop like sad spongebob#maybe in a dark world#(ā†‘another reason to open the dark fountain. they were justified)#i also love giving them braces. and eye bags. and dry skin. the middle school essentials#i love them. i hope the game ends soon so we can leave them alone so they could shower. the poor bastard
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the-somwthing Ā· 10 months ago
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Welcome to my little meta analysis essay called
Why do we misremember Flower Husbands as being ā€œnicerā€ than it was?
Disclaimer: Iā€™m not here to talk about whether or not FH is ā€œtoxicā€ or anything like that. Itā€™s just a fact that many old fans rewatching FH POV and new fans who are watching it for the first time after seeing fan content tend to be surprised at how they actually behaved in the series compared to how everyone remembered them being back in the day. This will NOT go over whether or not I think FH is unhealthy or whatever and instead just discuss why I believe this phenomenon has happened.
So, if I try to make this a fancy well written essay, Iā€™ll be here all day, so Iā€™ll just get to the point. 3rd Life came out during the DSMP era of mcyt. MCRP has been around for ages, but the DSMP style of RP (which Iā€™ll be calling ā€œsmp rpā€) was pretty much popularized by DSMP, mostly towards the end of 2020. For reference, 3rd Life started early 2021, so thereā€™s about a half a year between these two events, and DSMP kept going for years so 3rd Life was absolutely happening during the golden era of DSMP.
But what does DSMP have to do with this? Well, it sort of created this idea of ā€œloreā€ and only specific things being ā€œcanonā€. You can make fun of me for the way I worded that, but you know what I mean, DSMP was weird about that stuff. I donā€™t really blame them as it was kind of a new style of RP they accidentally spawned, but still, it was a confusing time for SMPs.
3rd Life was actually less like DSMP and more like the modern SMP RPs, where thereā€™s no (known, lol) scripted events and the fandom itself deciphers what is or isnā€™t ā€œcanonā€ rather than it being told to them, with mostly everything being considered canon. HOWEVER, I do believe that DSMPā€™s style did still affect the fandom, specifically with the topic of this essay, Flower Husbands.
But why would it only really affect Flower Husbands? Now we get into a rough topic: shipping discourse. Back in those days, shipping in the mcyt fandom was heavily frowned upon. Moreso than it is today (I know itā€™s still around, but it was a lot worse the earlier we go lol). Iā€™ve even seen old relics of ppl saying flower husbands should only be portrayed as platonic cuz itā€™s wrong to ship them, despite their team name literally being husbands. But more importantly, for A LOT of people, flower husbands was the One Ship people felt ā€œallowedā€ to ship, BECAUSE it was canon. So they would allow FH and shun every other ship.
My point isnā€™t actually that, with it being the only ā€œacceptableā€ ship everyone tried to make it more wholesome, though I suppose that could be a contributor. But my ACTUAL point is where all the things I laid out finally close in on each other:
Ships were a Dangerous territory in mcyt fandom, and ships being ā€œcanonā€ was something a lot of people werenā€™t prepared to deal with. People donā€™t want to get too close to RPF territory, but back in the day their ideas of c! vs cc! wasnā€™t as great, so they default to the DSMP Rule of ā€œif itā€™s stated to be roleplay, then itā€™s canon to the characters, if not, itā€™s noncanon and just the CCs hanging outā€.
You see where Iā€™m going with this? When trying to follow this rule for a character relationship where they donā€™t explicitly state what is or isnā€™t RP, they hear ā€œweā€™re marriedā€ and instantly mark that as canon to the characters since it clearly isnā€™t true to the CCs, and tend to block out anything else, otherwise youā€™re risking it not actually being true to the characters. Especially when itā€™s things like Scott saying something mean about Jimmy; that directly contradicts the ā€œthese characters are in loveā€ thing, so it must not be canon, right?
But wouldnā€™t people still remember that these things happened, or did they actually straight up not process any of it? My answer to that is: of course everyone was paying attention, but with the context that itā€™s the CCs playing a video game, all of the teasing and other behavior seems WAY less serious. It just looks like average friends playing a hunger games smp together. And as I explained earlier, the fandom was ONLY processing this as a CC thing, so Scottā€™s treatment of Jimmy never stood out because thatā€™s just how it is playing games.
Back to DSMP, Iā€™m not active in that fandom anymore but Iā€™ll see snippets sometimes, and Iā€™ve seen the claim that beeduo was actually boring in canon and the fandom was the one that made it interesting. I feel like this is exactly what happened with FH. Nobody was actually expecting anyone to go hard into romantic roleplay, so the fans just take whichever pair says theyā€™re getting married and fill in the blanks themselves. And that was normal back then, it wasnā€™t fans making stuff up for no reason, it was kind of expected of us.
So yeah, I personally believe that this whole confusion about FH is a result of its time. Whether you want to finally look at the actual substance of the relationship rather than following weird rules about what is or isnā€™t ā€œcanonā€, or you believe that since FH was from a time where romantic RP was confusing and weird it would make the most sense to take into account the time period it came from and ignore the less appealing bits in favor of the fanon, I donā€™t really care honestly. But man isnā€™t this an interesting situation.
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street-corner-felines Ā· 8 months ago
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Zero Day (2002)
#movies film cinema#zero day#ben coccio#I actually talked to the director on Facebook super nice guy and he told#me a lot about the filmmaking process and even helped me with tips on directing non-actors and new actors#I remember him telling me to always be supportive and tell your new actors they're doing a good job even if they aren't in the first take#cause you can instill confidence and still reshape and change their choices and mistakes later#Sometimes I'd message him for advice when I was running into problems on some of my early projects#he told me once ''did ya choose to collaborate with this actor cause you were lonely or you guys had passion and chemistry''#ā€œcollaborating is like a relationshipā€ and he was so right#there's nothing worse than working with people you disdain cause there's no communication and no trust.#he told me how he wrote the first couple of drafts of Place Beyond the Pines but his take on the 3rd act wasn't clicking for the director#so he took the script and went and had another writer rewrite the 3rd act but he liked the process cause he learned a lot and still got pai#but I'd still like to see Ben Coccio's take on Place Beyond The Pines he says the 1st and 2nd act are mostly unchanged#Ryan Gosling's scenes are still mostly the same he said but he couldn't tell me too much cause of the NDA he signed#The bloopers of Zero Day are hilarious his tip he gave me about being supportive#ā€œThis is actually great but can we-ā€ and Cal interrupts him ā€œHe says that no matter what if you're doing good or bad!ā€ and everyone lols#I hope I can make it and ask him to collab with me on a script#He's such a nice dude compared to the harrowing film he made.#I wish there was BTS but he had only one tape to film on and this was made when digital camcorders were infants#I think he had only one 2 hour tape that's how low budget#The bloopers is just Cal or Andre secretly filming and Ben getting annoyed ā€œIs it recording?ā€ and Cal going ā€œNah..."#Cal is such a funny guy IRL I wanna see him act more cause he's so good. He was so great at playing a sadistic psychopath in this.#the final shooting is so harrowing and disturbing#I told Ben he srsly gut punched me/disturbed me and this is what made him really open up.
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nabaath-areng Ā· 9 days ago
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the problem with my n24 is that with the clock going around gradually i have periods of being awake at day and periods of being awake at night, but then because i tend to sleep really badly during night time i spend my daytime days being very tired and sluggish, and my nighttime days are much more productive and energetic. but i cant do just anything i want at night, so i cant get as much done as i have the energy and drive to. and then i also need sunlight to feel sane in the head, and so i hate missing out on daytime wakefulness. but then the sun is also why my sleep quality is much better during daytime. if im gonna stuck with a seemingly incurable sleep disorder since birth cant i at LEAST have the sleep be overall consistent? apparently not lmao
#i am multiply disabled but like. this thing? this thing right here? is THE greatest curse of my life#literally doesnt matter what other accommodations there are with the sleep disorder there#its one of those things i hate talking about normally cause its been THE major factor of shame throughout my life#cause god people assume you havent tried everything there is!!! and that youre not trying!!! or that its caused by bad habits!!!#and like because i tried to live normally despite it i suffered so much insomnia that im physically unable to force it anymore#burnt out and burnt to a crisp etc. the moment my sleep isnt catered to these days my whole body gets fucked up in new innovative ways#GOD I FEEL LIKE ALL I DO IS COMPLAINING but its just. hrghhhh!!!!#everytime it goes back to daytime i start fighting to keep it going for as long as possible#but my body doesnt wanna cooperate so i go to bed later and later#no matter how hard i fight to get up the same time everyday#so every night i sleep a shorter and shorter amount of time until it turns to insomnia. and then i crash.#this is basically why id stay awake for DAYS in a row growing up because i didnt trust myself to wake up for school lol#and thats ALSO why i developed the ability to converse in my sleep to sneak in sleep whenever i could without people yelling at me#which isnt good if you accidentally end up making plans with your mom you have no idea about until she calls asking where you are<3 LMAO#god im just frustrated cause my sleep schedule is beginning to turn back now. first noticeable delay today and by the end of this week...#itll likely turn back to night time. urghhhhhhhh. timezones all fine and dandy but im not reliably available to anyone lol#silvi talks#OR WHINES AS ALWAYS. time to paint my nails and then maybe screens
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mycological-mariner Ā· 10 days ago
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Cool so I get to start training in a forge and welding and steam engine maintenance and fitting on weekends
#itā€™s.#okay.#itā€™s still Setting In but. I personally wanna ask the guy why#like ā€˜hey you SAW my list of medical conditions right? you know about the heart disease and seizures and physical mobility issues RIGHT?#I mean hell yes. I canā€™t wait bc i can work up to working on ships. people who have historical engineering skills are needed Bad on ships#at least the ones I wanna sail (tall ships my beloveds)#but I do love trains too. a lot. I like knowing How Things Make Other Things Do The Thing. it pleases me#ships and sailing always my first love#but the choo chooā€¦#I got the email today from the manager and Iā€™m way the hell out of town atm BUT!!#hey if I can survive America heat I can survive a welding shop. I think. weā€™ll see how long I last#tbh I think they said yeah bc theyā€™re so desperate for volunteers and people willing to learn on the job#(itā€™s basically an internship tbh. unpaid apprenticeship)#so he looked at my medical issues and went ā€˜well if you die or get maimed. well. weā€™ll see what happens. you have two hands so thatā€™s goodā€™#no but honestly I am very very VERY excited#itā€™ll only be one MAYBE two weekends each month and they do have rooms on site for staff and volunteers who travel#(I doubt Iā€™ll need them I know a guy 20 minutes away from the place whoā€™ll let me crash)#so itā€™s not strenuous or biting into my already busy week#(being on a committee is funā€¦.. *sobs in someone forgot to take minutes at last meeting*#anyways#this story is still developing#FINGERS CROSSED everything goes smoothly#even if I just did a Saturdayā€¦.#I can work on shipsā€¦ā€¦ā€¦..#I COULD POSSIBLY GAIN ENOUGH EXPERIENCE TO JUSTIFY VOLUNTEERING ON A SHIP#AAAAH#(I do love a forge thoughā€¦ I canā€™t WAIT to try blacksmithingā€¦ even as an assistant/trainee/ā€˜adaptable helperā€™)#yes Iā€™m absolutely using ā€˜adaptable helperā€™ in this instance because. lol.#OKAY BUT IM SO EXCITED AND SO NERVOUS I REALLY WANT THIS TO GO THROUGH#soon as im back in the country im gonna try and nail down some dates
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crownedwille Ā· 11 months ago
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I've come to the conclusion that loving young royals doesn't mean I can't be critical about it, maybe especially bc I love the show so much I have such strong feelings about it, good and bad and I can love parts of canon and agree with it and appreciate it but I don't have to love it all. I have accepted that it's okay if I don't accept the ending and I don't have to force myself to support it. It's okay to not agree with all of canon and it's okay to not side with all of the creators' intentions/views. Loving a show doesn't mean you have to take everything the writers say on face value and that's the only version that is allowed to exist. Canon isn't everything and fandom is about curating your own experience that makes you happy and not miserable. You don't have to dismiss canon in every aspect and ignore it entirely, that's certainly not what I want but there is a fine line between being canon respectful, allowing some parts to exist and sometimes, yes, you just have to say "fuck canon" and move on for your own sanity and wellbeing
#yrtalk#young royals#personal#especically in the first two weeks of a new release everyone is feelings lots of intense emotions ranging from ecstatic to angry#everything in between is a part of it and i know i'm also feeling very strongly about it right now#i always try to stay levelheaded and rational and see things from an objective pov and be diplomatic about discourse#i don't want any of what i say drift off too much into meaningless hate instead of the constructive criticism it's supposed to be#but when you feel so strongly about something and sometimes you really just wanna say yeah i fucking hate it lol#but i always try to explain why and give understandable arguments and not just blindly hate on something#for example - I'm aware there are fans who have some problems with s2 and don't love the season whereas i do and it's my fave#and there is a difference between expressing some criticism and justified concerns which you can understand where it comes from#and those who are just like 'oh it's a horrible season. it was so shitty and we should get rid of it' which is dumb hate and just not true#and i can't support people like that and take them seriously#i can have my own issues with s3 from a subjective pov which can also include some justified criticism as well#but also still acknowledge it as a truly good piece of tv media and the quality is top notch#and that's why you have such high expectations and have critique because it is so good and sets such a high standard#with that being said i understand ppl not wanting to see any critic about it if they are riding the high of happy wilmon endgame#but that doesn't mean that i can't express my own opinions on my own blog and i will continue to do so#and maybe one day i will feel differently and accept or even like the ending who knows#but it doesn't have to happen. it's fine if it does but it's also fine if it doesn't
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