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But the way #their confidence was on cloud nine after ep 3 of AYS? May you won't believe or maybe you would as I'm assuming you have seen all those essays pitying Jikookers saying that "It's not jkkrs fault that the company led them to believe something which is not true, which isn't there. I don't fault the jikookers, they just got manipulated by the company" like the same Tkkrs who do daily coke rants About jkk and jkkrs and how much they hate them were pitying jkkrs after ep3. Like boy I'm never forgetting that confidence 😂 the way they were soo sure jimin was going to third wheel. Mind you they said that if jungkook couldn't keep taehyung off of his mind in NYC imagine what he'd do if taehyung is in the show (they said this after nyc as well as after ep 3).
No but the only thing jm didn't do way participate in water gun 🔫 game because he had motion sickness and even in that game jungkook's focus was more on jimin because he wanted jimin to join so he was just spraying water on jm. But the way their coke rants came back as soon as ep4 was aired LMAOOO like i remember ppl posting those 14 freakin pages of why the show is scripted and how taekook are being oppressed by the company lol. #They wanted jimin to third wheel soo bad as if he's not known for having the best RS with every single member of BTS.
Remind me again what was the outrage for behind the scenes? As far as i remember the armys were saying the company is portraying taehyung as a villain because they added "why are you coming" as subtitles for jk even tho he didn't say anything but that was their humour. And did we find out jm having sleepover at jk's during behind the scenes? Anything more we find out during behind the scenes?
Loooool anon!
You just reminded me of all the chaos that unfolded after the first few episodes of AYS. I remember everything they said, especially after Episode 3. The same tkkrs who initially hated the idea of the show claiming it was scripted and that Jungkook had been forced into it, suddenly changed their tune, saying they actually enjoyed it and looked forward to new episodes.
The truth is, even some Jikookers had mixed feelings about the first few episodes. When Jimin and Jungkook mentioned that they hadn’t kept in touch much, and then in Episode 3, when Jimin was still sick and couldn’t be as active as Taekook, some Jikookers were uncertain about how things were playing out. Tkkrs noticed this hesitation and used it to mock Jikookers, calling them gullible for believing in “fanservice” while they declared themselves victorious based on a single part of the first day in Jeju. They celebrated too early, forgetting that it’s not over until it’s over.
By Episode 4, their narrative shifted again. The joy they felt in Episode 3, watching Jungkook and Taehyung jump around together while Jimin, who was sick, couldn’t join…was short-lived. Suddenly, Tae was the one looking like the third wheel, a role they desperately wanted Jimin to fill. After laughing at Jimin in Episode 3, claiming Jungkook didn’t even care to invite him to the pool (conveniently ignoring Jungkook spraying Jimin with water, trying to get him to play), they had to watch Jungkook not ask Taehyung to join other activities with him and Jimin. They mocked Jimin for having motion sickness and claimed that Jungkook didn’t care that he was sick, only to watch Jungkook not even lift his head from his food he was eating while Tae painfully complained about his neck hurting at the sushi restaurant…so much so that Jimin was the one who turned to give him a neck massage. Jungkook? He stayed focused on his food. (This ofcourse doesn’t mean Jungkook didn’t care about Tae. People with brains understand this but tkkrs, no they twist everything and wouldn’t mind potraying jk as an asshole if it means proving Jikook isn’t real)
Episode 4 felt like sweet Jikook karma. It was as if the universe saw all the mocking and insults aimed at Jimin and turned the tables. Everything tkkrs wanted Jungkook to do to Jimin ended up being Tae’s reality. On top of that, Tae spent most of his time with his head buried in his phone. At first, tkkrs claimed his presence made the show more interesting, but we all saw him spend the rest of Jeju either on his phone, going to bed early, staying by himself, or leaving to meet other people…basically not really adding much to the show tbh while Jimin and Jungkook did everything together.
One of the funniest parts to me, a part I still laugh about everytime I think about it is, tkkrs saying that Jungkook didn’t care to ask Jimin to eat when they first arrived in Jeju, making a big deal about how he ate with Tae instead. They even edited screenshots to make it seem like Jungkook was seated closer to Tae than Jimin. But then, in the behind the scenes, we found out that Jungkook did ask Jimin why he wasn’t eating (a part that was conveniently cut from the official footage). And the reason Jimin wasn’t eating? He had spent the night with Jungkook before Jeju, and Jungkook had cooked maguksu for them which Jimin had three servings of.
So, anon, you ask what the outrage was about after the behind-the-scenes footage? Imagine being a tkkr who spent weeks twisting every scene to fit a false narrative only to later discover that while you were busy making edits about Jungkook “not caring” about Jimin, the reality was that Jungkook and Jimin spent the night together not Jungkook and Taehyung. Imagine thinking that your beliefs about Taekook being a couple had been validated because of seating positions while your arch enemies (jokers) had been put to shame on their own ship’s show, only to learn that Taehyung only found out about Jungkook’s (who is supposedly his boyfriend) trip from a group chat and insisted on joining. Or believing that Jungkook didn’t care if Jimin ate…only to find out that not only did he ask, but he had also spent the night with him after flying back from the U.S, while Tae was nowhere near him. Wouldn’t you be mad too anon?😂💀
The behind-the-scenes footage shattered their illusions. It revealed details they hadn’t expected. Jimin and Jungkook barely paying attention to Tae at certain points, Tae looking over it and ready to go home, and every Jikook moment playing out exactly the way we’ve always known their dynamic to be. Tkkrs had convinced themselves that Jungkook only pays attention to Taehyung in a room, yet they watched Jimin and Jungkook create inside joke after inside joke, leaving Taehyung visibly lost. That was a hard pill to swallow.
They claim the company and Jimin tried to portray Taehyung as a guest (wasn’t he a guest?). Notice how they conveniently ignore the fact that Jungkook also called Taehyung a guest multiple times and even laughed when Jimin joked about it. They won’t mention that because admitting it would mean acknowledging that Jungkook was in on it too which will make him a bad boyfriend in their books and they ofcourse don’t want anything but the perfect most caring and attentive boyfriend for Tae else the ship doesn’t hit as much. Jungkook can only be an asshole to Jimin as that will prove to them that Jikook isn’t real. This is a logic they don’t want to apply to their own ship so they skip mentioning Jk’s contribution in the said “portrayal” not because they care about jk and don’t want him to come off mean but because they don’t want to shatter their own fantasies.
Today, tkkrs claim AYS “debunked” Jikook, yet they still haven’t stopped crying about it. They desperately deny everything we saw with our own eyes. They deny that Taehyung was disconnected from Jikook and half the time looked like he didn’t want to be there, they deny that he was a indeed guest (this isn’t an insult. Don’t know why they think calling him a guest, which he was..is) who only learned about the trip through a group chat, and that AYS showed the stark difference in dynamics between Taekook and Jikook. Not that this was ever a competition…because Taekook has never held a candle to Jikook in my books…but the contrast was undeniable.
At the end of the day, AYS only validated what we’ve always known and not because it “proved” Jikook is real but because everything about it confirmed our understanding of their bond. We got to see what we had only heard about for years. We saw their natural dynamic unfold in real-time. And that’s what infuriates tkkrs the most. That’s why they call the show scripted. That’s why they call Jungkook a liar when he says those were the best trips he’s ever had.
They’re not mad because AYS disproved Jikook. If they really believed it did they would love the show. They’re mad because it proved them wrong.
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Look all I'm saying is if that a shadow game can work THAT well and be so well designed story wise and gameplay wise
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HE can work
#sonic#silver the hedgehog#sonic the hedgehog#silver right now is such a open canvas of a character#story wise and gameplay wise#he's been a side character for so long and in the one time he was a main character his whole story was basically axed from canon#he's definitely been explored since then but not to extent we've probably wanted with this character-#and I'm talking mostly game silver cause obviously in IDW and archie he got some LOVE there#even if we never saw idw silver actually explore his good future#which i still think is a shame but also apparently if sega doesn't want that to be explored in a comic and saved for the games then#THEY BETTER EXPLORE IT SOON#and honestly gameplay wise he needs another shot as well#like C'MON his psychic's just needed better...well...PSYCHIC'S TO WORK#can you imagine what cool and fun movement he'd have now that sega is now slowy understanding what kinda stuff they wanna do with#the sonic franchise again and how it should play#i don't know if i should fully expect a silver game at any point#but he should ATLEAST be a second main character in a new game so people can be reintroduced to him and they can cook with him#IM TIRED OF SEEING MY SON GETTING HATED ON OR CALLED LAME#I WANT PEOPLE TO BE REMINDED OR SHOWN HOW COOL AND FUN HE CAN BE WHEN GIVEN THE SPOTLIGHT#archie and idw are the best examples of him as a character#he is a lovable friend and ally#but serious when he can be character#and his powers are literally so COOL AND INHERENTLY UNIQUE AND POWERFUL COMPARED TO OTHER'S IN THE CAST#like when surge saw silver come in casually carrying a large object and she got nervous THAT'S WHAT IM TALKING ABOUT#THIS MAN CAN BE A THREAT.#okay rant over DHDNDNDB
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TD World Tour AU, where Noah doesn't tell Owen that Alejandro is an eel in London... In Area 51, Noah is accidentally splashed with an alien truth potion (which wears off after a few days) and he talks to Owen... Owen asks Noah what he truly thinks about Alejandro, and Truth-Potion Affected Noah says this: "I have mixed feelings for Alejandro. He's a brilliant, interesting guy and I like him, but I don't trust him. He's like a slippery eel dipped in grease, swimming in motor oil. Basically, Heather with social skills. Wait a minute, why am I telling you this?!"... What if Alejandro secretly heard Noah call him all those conflicting things + Alejandro also learns that Noah is affected with an alien truth potion? 👽
Alright, you got me. I'm an absolute sucker for truth potion plots, especially when the character(s) effected by them are usually either pathological liars or incredibly secretive- of which Noah absolutely falls into the second category, given he shares so little personal information.
I'll gloss over why Noah declined to shit-talk Alejandro in London (though there's so many ways this change in behaviour could be justified) since the focal point of this hypothetical centred around their time in Nevada, so let's start from the beginning of the Area 51 challenge.
Area 51:
Before we start, it'll have to be established that no one was eliminated in London. Let's say that the majority vote went towards Duncan (team CIRRRRH voted him out immediately because they found his re-admission to the competition unfair, I guess. I imagine he'd also vote himself, if not as a plan to escape the competition he'd been actively skiving from, then just as an act of spite) but Chris instead claimed it was a rewards challenge- much like he does in Greece- because he doesn't want to let Duncan slip away again so soon.
I see no reason to alter the first part of the challenge- the sneaking into Area 51 portion- since team CIRRRRH's course of entry is fairly straightforward. Noah's presence doesn't make much of a difference to how it would play out; the majority of them throw their rocks and run, Owen gets lasered over the fence and Owen-napped, ect ect.
When both teams have managed to make their way into the Black Box Warehouse, Noah immediately suggests they should prioritise rescuing Owen. Tyler's quick to agree, since he's a firm believer in the "no man left behind" mentality (and he probably makes a not-so-subtle jab towards Noah for his chance of tune compared to London, where both he and Owen did leave Tyler behind) leaving Duncan and Alejandro to split from the group- Duncan in search of Gwen, and Alejandro just takes the opportunity to finally be free from his 'incompetent teammates' and prioritises finding an artifact.
Noah and Tyler come across the contraption Owen's trapped in, Tyler punches it in a futile effort to break it open, and the face hugger cube drops into Noah's hands. This is where the point of divergence comes into play; Tyler has his E.T. moment with one of the face huggers, but Noah- who's a tad bit more observant than Alejandro, and used to dodging surprise attacks from his various older siblings (and Izzy)- anticipates his own face hugger attack and promptly starts a game of cat-and-mouse with a taser alien hot on his heels.
The commotion of which attracts the rest of his team. Alejandro and Duncan arrive on the scene to see Tyler being electrocuted by an alien and Noah running in circles evading another.
Duncan attempts to rip the face hugger from Tyler's face, finding success at the cost of sending Tyler trampling into Owen's captive contraption (essentially taking Alejandro's canonical place in this scene) and inadvertently freeing Owen.
Meanwhile, Alejandro swipes up the nearest box he can find and snags the alien chasing Noah, who's still very loudly panicking as he flees, and succeeds! The alien is swiftly captured into the box, netting team CIRRRRH their artifact, and Noah promptly goes careening into the nearest tower of junk in his face hugger-fuelled hysteria. This causes another box to topple from the peak of the tower, landing directly on Noah's head and spilling its contents onto the bookworm- glass vials filled with a mysterious, luminescent cobalt blue liquid shatter into pieces drenching Noah in whatever they contained. (i.e. truth potion.)
Owen has his false-amnesia moment, characterised by his Joker makeover, and Alejandro enacts his revenge post-hypnotic suggestion after being addressed as "Al" one too many times.
Noah, understandably, swiftly objects to Owen's treatment and demands that Alejandro snap him out of it. Alejandro concedes, and Owen's brought back to himself. At least, for a moment, before the fatigue of having his mind messed with sends Owen into near-catatonia (the same as canon), meaning he has to be ferried through the Warehouse and back to the Jet by Alejandro and Duncan.
Things carry on canonically from there; Noah's just sort of there for the most part, though there'd be a minor hint to his newfound proclivity for honesty. Something along the lines of him giving an uncharacteristically honest answer to Owen as to who he's voting- Tyler, of course, since he was the one who ultimately threw the challenge for them... and also because Tyler still holds some resentment towards Noah for what happened in London, and Noah feels guilty about it every time he looks at the jock. Wait, why did he say that?
Sometime between this and the elimination scene, Noah wipes the truth-goop off of himself, but not before the effects have already started.
Tyler's voted out, yada yada yada.
The Jet:
Thus begins the start of "Picnic at Hanging Dork". Team CIRRRRH, consisting of just Alejandro, Duncan, Owen and Noah, are slumming it up in the Economy Cabin. Alejandro tries to rally his team by asking how to break apart Courtney and Heather's tentative co-operation. Owen suggests having Alejandro seduce Heather, since it worked for both Bridgette and Leshawna. Duncan makes his "Babe Olympics" comment. Noah pipes up that playing with someone's feelings is pretty scummy, even for someone competing for a million dollars.
Alejandro takes Noah's reluctance towards his methodology poorly; he hadn't spoken up before, when Alejandro had utilized the same strategy against other girls- and even Owen noticed that, so surely Noah did too- so why was he to outwardly against him using the same tricks? Duncan agrees, and offers ''his'' idea of having Alejandro flirt with Courtney to throw both her and Heather off their games (since Heather has an obvious crush on Alejandro), and things follow canon.
Then, the scene between Alejandro and Courtney happens. Noah scoffs at the display from the side lines, prompting Owen to ask him why he's so against Alejandro's plan.
"I mean, you never said anything before, when he flirted with Bridgette and Leshawna." Owen comments, light-hearted in nature but with an underlying questioning tone.
Noah's eyes flicker with a cobalt glow, easily mistaken for a trick of the light, and he speaks without even thinking.
"Yeah, because I was trying to give him the benefit of the doubt. Bridgette was happenstance, and Leshawna's whole deal could've been a coincidence, or some massive misunderstanding. But this?" Noah extends an accusing hand out towards a smug looking Alejandro, then pans it over to a flattered Courtney, "He's outright toying with Courtney's feelings after she was cheated on in front of an international audience. It's scummy."
Owen nods in understanding, momentary contemplation evident in the pouted curve of his lips, and he chimes in.
"Does that mean you don't like Al?"
"I never said that."
"Well, how do you feel about him, then?"
Again, a flash of blue light against the hickory backdrop of Noah's eyes, and he responds thoughtlessly.
"I guess I have mixed feelings about him. On the one hand, he's slippery, like an eel dipped in grease, swimming in motor oil. He's like if you took all of the worst aspects of Heather, wrapped them up in a pretty package, and gave them social skills..." He holds his hands out before him in a scale-like manner, with the left tipped downwards and tie right raised by his chin. Then, the two hands swap positions.
"And on the other hand, he's brilliant. I've never met anyone as talented as Alejandro; he's smart, he's athletic, he's funny. It's almost unfair just how perfect everything about him is- even his face is perfect. It's ridiculous! Infuriating, even. It's so hard to dislike him, even when I know he's bad news, but that doesn't mean I trust him."
Owen stands slack jawed beside his best friend, both impressed and stunned at the raw honesty of Noah's tirade. Noah, now a little more aware of himself, realises that he's said more than he intended to- more than he thinks he's ever spoken in one go throughout the entirety of Total Drama. He's not usually one for speeches, after all, let alone honest ones.
He's always been the type to play his cards close to his chest, so why...?
"I, uh, didn't mean to go off like that."
And he also didn't mean to admit it, either. What was going on?
The look Owen gives him is, in a word, vivid. The blonde has a shit-eating grin stretching across his face, a sort of elated smugness practically glowing from his features.
"Sounds like someone has a cruuuush!~"
What? No? No! Not at all, where would Owen even get that idea?!
Noah splutters to correct Owen's assumption (to disastrous results, because he does sort-of has a crush on Alejandro, so the truth potion doesn't allow him to outright deny it), and in his preoccupied state he misses how a calculating pair of sage green eyes never seems to stray from him.
Alejandro has a lot to think about in regards to a certain cynic, it seems.
#I'd like to apologise for taking this idea and running with it.#Cutting myself off here before I breach 2k+ words or else I'll be here all day.#Sort of entered actual Writing Mode at the end there instead of Outline Mode but this idea is. So Full Of Potential I couldn't help myself.#But from here it'd basically be Alejandro using his newfound knowledge of Noah's crush on him to his advantage.#Whilst Noah's doing his best (and failing) to deny that he has any feelings for Alejandro.#Eventually leading to the two of them having a Bonding Moment where Alejandro gets Noah to divulge some personal information.#And in turn- or an effort to garner some trust (to be abused later)- Alejandro also lets himself be vulnerable towards Noah.#Something something Alejandro tries to use Noah as a pawn but ends up catching feelings of his own.#Then of course the potion wears off and Noah goes back to being just as prickly and standoffish as he was before.#A point of conflict maybe? Imagine bearing your soul out to someone only for them to close themself off to you not even days afterwards.#...Also imagine being practically forced to divulge information about yourself to someone you don't trust because of a truth potion.#Oh yeah. That's some good angst material right there.#Especially is you have Alejandro be- if not fully aware- than at least suspect that Noah's not being agreeable on his own terms.#Anon why have you given me The Thoughts?? I can't keep brainstorming AUs when I already have fics to work on!!#ophe's ranting in the tags again#total drama#td noah#td alejandro#team chris is really really really really hot#alenoah#-ish#silly ideas#other's ideas#long post#replies#kinda drafty in here (posts from the drafts)
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you can ignore this!
#so like i fully get the spirit behind the blockout and people should be blocking celebrities recreationally anyway#but something about it feels weird? off? perfomative? liberal? idk i just find it annoying for some reason#like the lists ive seen going around from people who arent palestinian are um#They're Lists!#but i also think trad celebrities: actors and singers#*dont think#will be as affected by this as influencer level new media celebrities#like even if you factor in streaming money its not that substantial of a revenue loss id imagine#idk idk you do you ill support palestine in other ways#i think a lot of the fuel for the action at least on tiktok comes from covid financial anxieties and not palestine#because it was so spurred on by the met gala#its like i think we may be replacing radical action with social media posturing#again im just ranting this just feels extremely online to me
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Love the art!!! Do you ship Beetlejuice and Lydia by any chance??
Thank you!! But no, sorry. I don't mind the beetlebabes at all, what others ship isn't my business, but it's definitely not my cup of tea 😔
#ask#answer#beetlejuice#Feel free to peruse my art and interpret it however you like#I did USE to ship them for a very brief moment before I realized that wasn't very healthy for me as I was projecting unto lyds too much#But obviously none of my art will be made to cater to that ship anymore#I can get behind the ship but only in a timeline where they never spent any or much time when she was a kid#it scares me too much to imagine her being groomed - even if by accident- you know?#This goes for any universe - movie - toon - musical - whatever.#Anybody's safe here btw. Just putting that out there cus I know the fandom space has gotten really weird and mean about this shit again#Still upsets me people have twisted the meanings of “anti” and “proship” to be something they're not in the past years but oh well#Pardon the rant in the tags but if you know me you know I tend to do this sfdgfhssdfghgdsfg#I hope you have a good day and I'm really glad you enjoy my work!! Remember to stay hydrated and to try and eat something if you haven't!
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Sorry but not my mom praising the education system being so much more advanced now because 5 year olds know cartoons are not real. Apparently she met these kids who were trying to watch a cartoon but instead they were going “oh that’s so stupid. That could never happen” the whole time. Like no no it is important to know you can’t survive jumping off a building because you’re wearing a cape but if you can’t watch a cartoon for fun at the age of 5 what’s the point. Also I did not watch the powerpuff girls or Tom and Jerry thinking any of that could happen. Actually if I ever believed any of it I wouldn’t have watched it. I did not think I could jump into pictures like in blues clues. But I could imagine I could and that’s what made it fun. Like if you find cartoons stupid at the age of 5 where’s the fun?
#I told her I never believed any of that was real and same goes to most of the kids I knew#But she was like ‘but you guys were happy to watch it’#Yeah exactly mom#And she was saying apparently all the kids are like this. What? even more annoying?#This is not about violence or any specific thing in kids media#they just don’t believe anything that isn’t realistic#Like beating the whimsy out of kids. Let them have fun#Media is best when it feeds into your imagination#I’m going on a rant again#How do I even tag this#media#childrens media#I just sound like an old annoying shit now but I’m still going to say it
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#I haven’t been online all day so idk what the discourse has been like compared to yesterday#But can I just say that in a lot of videos that I saw - Brittany and Taylor were studiously ignoring each other#And I have been reflecting Jaime’s post about who else was in the box and what the event was and who was invited#And I feel like I fell into the trap of trying to interpret an entire social situation based on a few moments#And forgot that she and Brittany both have conversations and experiences outside of what we witness#Which I am usually fairy aware of with Taylor but I think it’s easier to slip into it when she does something that I wouldn’t do#Like it’s just so much easier (for me) to dehumanize people when they’ve done something “bad”#And that pattern seems related to the internal cancel culture (bullshit) and the desire for accountability (punitive version)#Which creates this impulse to sort people as good and bad#Which is not at all to say that I imagine Taylor is theoretically justified in being friendly with someone endorsing a dictator#But that my reaction to my assumption about her being BFFs with that vile woman led me to jump on a hate train without watching the footage#And like everybody has a right to be upset by her actions- which are pretty literally enabling a dictator to benefit from her name.#But I don’t think it’s as simple as her being besties with the lady. And I am trying to remind myself that I am not on a global stage#I was just as friendly with a trumper a few days ago at an HOA picnic. Which does not exist in a vacuum-#I am politically active in the community around some big picture stuff and part of that means I need the truly vile people to respect me#And i need to ask about their kids and remember their names and their health issues or whatever and let them hug me#Because that is what being in a collaborative harm reduction type political position means for me. I get waaaayyy..#More radical shit done when they trust me and enjoy chatting with me about trees and know I see them as human#And Taylor is obviously in a vastly different situation than me - she has a lot more power in many many ways- but she also#Certainly has more context (like me bc she’s a whole person) that we’re not privy to.#Idk sorry for the long rambling praxis rant#Just was at a RJ training all day talking about prison abolition and now am processing by philosophizing about Taylor#Just there’s a lot less dopamine hits in taking a step back then there are in reposting stuff without context#Which again is not to say that anyone shouldn’t be upset. The situation is imo objectively upsetting.#And taking a step back and giving a person the benefit of the doubt is most often allowed for white women#And we should practice taking the time to do that whenever we can and like if I can’t even do it with a famous lady I don’t know#How am I supposed to learn and practice doing it in my own life#Idk#c#TJ
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maybe the reason im so upset about it isnt cuz she broke up wme but because all that waiting over the summer just feels so worthelss now. like i know we couldnt talk as much or be around each other as much but i was waitingall summer like when we get back all we'll do is be together!!!! all of the 'new relationship syndrome especially now that its long distance' stuff will be fixed when we get back!! but were over and theres no chanec of fixing it because were over and its just like what if we waited what if we just figured it out for another few weeksand see where it went form there
#its not just that its also cuz she knew she wouldnt have a lot oftiem in the semester & also shes entitled to her experiences but its like#all summer we talked aboutall the things wed do together whenwe got back to campus so its like#all of that imagining is going to waste you know. and it makes me really really sad#cuz we had so many plans only for all of them to go in the air a week before school starts#and i guess i feel let down about all of it (which isnt her fault) because why did we say all that only for us to break up :(#and she told me breaking up was something sehd only recently started thinking about so its like#the emotional part of me is wondering why cant we just wait it out for a few weeks and find out of this is really worth saving you know#cuz it just feels so sudden like we werent meant to end just yet#it doesnt feel right. like we literally only just started you know#and she said she didnt feel like dragging me along whiel she figured shit out#which is kind btu i guess to me its like i would prefer being dragged along because at least then ill start to feel the pain of it too#cuz where we are right now i didnt even feel any sort of weirdness i thought everything was going so well#like id rather break up when i do feel something bad#not BEFORE i feel something bad you know???#but also its more than just about that. like she told me that she felt werid and i dont think she would have broken up with me for no reaso#like im sure she did it becuase she felt right about it and im not mad at her about it#im just really really sad cuz i really thought we were doing so good. like just last week she was saying how much she missedme#sorry ugh i know im ranting so much about it but i dont feel like bringing this up with my friends yet cuz its just so embarrinsg being lik#hey so you know how totally obsessed we were with each other. well we broke up not even 5 months later haha so embarrsing#like it all just feels like... what did we do all that for!!! what did we spend all summer telling each other we loved each other for!#but again just cuz i didnt feel like it was the end doesnt mean she didn't. she did say she felt werid but ughhhh i dont fucking know#im just really surprised and sad about it
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since god's worst weed adventure my brain just feels Worse at processing things. which is unfortunate, bc my brain has notoriously already been bad at processing things
#like i have a hard time dealing with shit happening around me. idk how to explain it#my brain just cannot process it. i can't for the life of me keep in my memory the day or the time or anything#i think i've got a wee bit of trauma. or just shit to unpack#bc i keep getting the fleeting fear this isn't real and i'm gonna wake up at the hospital again#things just Look Different now too. i genuinely have no clue how to explain what i mean by that#just More i guess. everything is More. the kittens look so grown up now#it's less things physically looking different and more like my mind is perceiving everything different.so still processing issues ig#not even goong to Broach the topic of how the hospital acted to me btw i went on like an hour-long rant in the gc about it yesterday i think#they're just assholes. same bastards who gave me valium and didn't tell me what valium does to you and treated me gross abt it#about the fact that they were giving me valium. i did not ask for and did not know what it would do. let that one roll around in your noggin#so as you can imagine They were Very Polite and Kind and Normal about my weed adventure (SARCASM.)#i'm sure they were just bummed weed is legal so they couldn't actually do shit to make the experience even worse. boohoo#see i said i wouldn't broach the topic but here i am. Broaching.
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minecraft exp that drops if you die being capped at 7 levels is so stupid i hate it so much. what do you mean that from my 600+ levels I only get 7 back? I should at least get to lvl 30 minimum
#it's sooooo stupid. idk when that was decided but it feels like it was made for a different time#clearly they know about players that play a lot and don't die. so. why 7#just make it scale higher and higher the more levels you have. like. how levels work already? hello? hello??#you die with 30. you get 7. you die at 100 you get 10 smth like that#and make exp transferrable somehow. idk. bottles you can fill at the cost of 1 lvl but they contain 7#so you can 1) give your friends exp when they're out 2) store it and use it for later#make villager trades for bottles of exp higher so it's not more convenient and you're done#imagine dying with 100 levels losing all your stuff and you can't even enchant. just store sm bottles with lapis and you're up again#it would be so good. like. tell me what I am going to do with 300 levels before I die and lose everything#I need the 300 levels WHEN I die and lose everything! not before!!!!#minec#rant over. food time
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Because it's the first song on my afternoon daylist, sometimes I just idly remember how Castle put its eponymous character intro to "Everybody Loves Me" by OneRepublic, and honestly, what an utterly correct choice.
#for the record the title is 'main character castle wednesday afternoon'#castle NOT in reference to the show obvs. it informs me i listen to 'nostalgia' and 'medieval' on Wednesday afternoons.#whatever the FUCK that means#this is after 'heroic role playing game wednesday morning' and 'heroic horror movie afternoon'#honestly i just wanna track all of my daylists for a month straight and then analyze them. see what that says about me.#here's my thing. if you only listened to your daylist ever would it then turn into a positive feedback loop of the same things?#since it's designed to fit exactly in the time before it next changes#on another note I did go looking at Spotify taxonomist job descriptions today. for funsies.#not cuz I want to work for Spotify but cuz i am BEGGING them to let me see the guts of this fucking classification scheme.#supposedly a portion of this is a CV! TO WHAT EXTENT IS IT CONTROLLED I GOTTA KNOW#HOW DO WE GET TO 'MAIN CHARACTER CASTLE'#HELLO#i imagine the titles are only semi controlled if at all but the 'genres' probably are#but like. even then. what the FUCK is 'nostalgia'#honestly looking at the playlist of nostalgia is actually fucking WILD why is DNCE on here. with patd and mcr. and omam.#CLOSER. WHAT THE FUCK. ALONG WITH BRITNEY'S IF YOU SEEK AMY. HELLO.#anyway I'm once again ranting about spotify's recommendation algorithms what else is new
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Henry or Potter?
man as much as I do love Potter, gotta go with Henry here
I like Potter a lot but I do think my interpretation of him is. definitely not what the show intended him to be read as. and for all I love him, he does bring in this softening of the anti-military stance of the show in general which im not a huge fan of. he's a great character, but narratively speaking not always handled the best, and I gotta dock points from him for that. he's funny as hell, he's got some real interesting nuance, but I wish he'd been handled better overall when it comes to how the narrative treats him
Henry is also funny as hell, he's got some really fucking cool nuances to his character, and his spin on the anti-military attitude is really neat imo. I think the fandom has a tendency to dumb him down a lot because he's fairly indecisive- Henry's incompetency is sometimes plain old incompetency, yes, because he was never the sort of person who should've been put in charge, but there was also a decent amount that I think was deliberate incompetency. Henry didnt want to be in charge, and he showed that where he could. but he also stepped up whenever he needed to, I could list examples for hours, but one of my favourites has always been when he had to choose which patient to save- one who would take an hour, or one who would take several hours and more than one surgeon. underrated moment imo
#mash#to be clear they stand on pretty even ground to me#but if I had to choose. Henry#a character who's complexity gets forgotten a lot I think#he gets himbo-fied a lot and I dont agree with doing that to really#any of the characters on MASH#because theyre all smart as hell#but thats a rant for another day haha#Potter on the other hand I just wish was handled. better#and again let me be clear I love him#but he as a character should be critiqued#I wish he'd been more about like. unlearning his pro-military stances#could've been suuuuuuuuch a compelling and tragic arc#he lied to get into WWI! imagine Potter exploring how military propaganda led to him spending most of his life in the military#an old warhorse struggling with realizing that it isnt JUST the war that's shit. its the whole damn military#the whole damn system#could've been so good and devastating#because Potter is anti-war he just isnt anti-military#which I think he really could've become had they gone in that direction#I think about this a lot can you tell
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y'know I think about this tweet often. I don't think truer words have ever been spoken....
#had a whole mini rant that i wrote and then deleted lol..........#no one else may know his shitty he was but i will always know and i shall absolutely not forgive or forget#however i do still start seething on occasion when i remember that after we broke up for years i never thought of him at all#except when i pass his street on occasion bc he happens to live nearby which is very ughhh but it's mostly whatever#and then out of the blue in early 2021 he texted and CALLED me (i did not answer. what a fucking jumpscare jfc)#to tell me he had been stalking my spotify playlists and saving them and#even had the fuuuuucking audacity. to think they were a personal message in a bottle just for him.#we had not spoken in 3 years. can u imagine the absolute lack of fucking common sense or logic. the fucking audacity of men is unparalleled#and then i had nightmares and paranoia about him for the next like full year. like wtf.#also i think i said 2021 but actually that happened in 2022 so we actually hadn't spoken in four full years.#where on gods green earth woild he get the idea. that my public spotify playlist.#was dedicated to my terrible obsessive bully of a boyfriend from fucking high school.#i just can't even fucking fathom the mental gymnastics necessary.#anyway. i ended up ranting anyway#it just makes me so angry that i didnt think about him for years and then he so efficiently once again ruined my life#bc he had been incredibly obsessive and so I had reason to worry he might just show up at my house at some point.#i ended up ranting anyway. what can u do.#anyway. I hope he's having a terrible time. he deserves it.
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i dont know where to scream about this but i honestly feel some sort of weird relief that r//nbow high is declining. i knoooow i know it's popular and they've been such high quality dolls and collectors have loved them and some(?) people like the web series (or do they? ive heard mixed things but ive never had any interest in watching it) but oh god. i just. sometimes it takes me awhile to appreciate modern doll lines and their aesthetics but i just could not get past their weird fish faces and in general i do not like monochrome styling themes. i realize their designers did so much with their concepts, i realize a lot of heart and effort went into them, and i completely understand why so many people were floored with the quality of the dolls and the rate at which they were being put out. even though the prices kept rising for them, you could at least see where your money was going, like they were always so well-constructed and doing new things. but like. at the end of the day. on a very basic level they were just never all that aesthetically pleasing to me and it was kind of maddening to see all that potential going towards a line of dolls that had just... like... facial proportions i could not get past lol.
#i wasn't super into the way theyd ape (or 'pay homage to') modern celebrity/designer fashions#but like i get it. that's a strong brand aesthetic. it's NOT something i really care for but yeah.#i guess if you were to compare it to like. lol omg dolls and the way they do so many celebrity homages#i think lol omg elevates it a bit more. im not a HUGE fan of lol omg but im like ok i DO get it.#even tho the faces are flatter and more dead-inside i actually think that makes it more forgivable and doll-like for me.#like. r//nbow high just hits some kind of undesirable middle for me between cartoony and stylized and realistically detailed.#also not everything's about 'quality' and fabric diversity and working zippers and pockets or whatever#i mean those things ARE nice but at the end of the day i just prefer imaginative designs. things should have a mix#not saying rh didnt have those things but. oh god. i just. i just did not like the dolls in themselves#the monochrome thing again i just cant do it. i heavily dislike monochrome doll designs and unnatural colored doll hair#not that it can never be done (the wild colorful hair) but for me it's gotta be done in a very specific way#it has to stand out rather than blend in i guess? idk im not a design expert i have no reason to be so snobby about this#tales from diana#dolls#rant#i actually think whatever they've been doing w their latest line. downgrading everything in 'quality' and making them seem like#they're appealing to a younger audience before and cheapening the production... i think it makes them look less weird to me#i still dont LIKE them but like theyre not off-putting to me. like to me they look no worse#this isn't to like mock anyone who ever really was into rh bc i know that was a lot of ppl. i get it#i just felt VERY alienated by how popular they were and how much lavish praise theyd get all the time#bc overall the end product just lacked smth for me. that i felt like other doll lines had. which was... cuteness#anyway dont take any of my mean opinions too much to heart. remember that i was a na na na surprise fan#i own four of those dolls. so take everything i say w a grain of salt#(i loved them when they were still fabric-bound ngl i thought that was such a cool brand choice... it saddens me theyre hard plastic now)
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I feel so lucky
#even though i often rant to complain here#i never imagined my life to be this good as it is now 🥹#i have almost everything i ever wished for#i sometimes switch between this and feeling alone like no one gets me 😅#like sometimes i feel like i should be so grateful but also that doesn't mean everything is awesome#often i feel like no one sees my struggles from the people i'm close to#because everyone always thinks things are easy for me like when it comes to university or because i appear so happy#it feels lonely sometimes but anyways#like they don't know the expectations people especially my family have for me even tho they don't say it normally sometimes it comes through#anyways i do have a lot to be grateful#i never had such a good relationship with my parents 🥺 it's not perfect but it feels so much more normal like it should be#and i have so many friends and people i get on at uni and my sports it's amazing 🥹#i never thought that would be me it's like a dream :))) i struggled so much with anxiety#i was so scared to even speak to someone a few years ago 😅#it makes the experience so pleasant i also enjoy uni <3#(altough i still think of adding something to my major to give me more options but also i think i would like it)#my grades are good no worries of failing classes anymore atm (altough i will still worry 😂)#i even get great grades with minimal effort (though this one is only partly good as it encourages laziness haha)#and i found something i'm passionate about again i love tennis sm 🫶#when i play i'm so happy and it gives me drive to become rly good at it even though it's not like i wanna become pro or sth. haha#it would be too late for that anyway lol tho ofc it'd be great but i just enjoy the challenge and seeing progress it's so rewarding 😁#and tennis with friends >>#i also like football :) and it feels like the void ski jumping left behind is finally getting filled :')#like when gregor retired i kind of lost my love for the sport and yeah it's sad but i'm glad i have sth again 🥹#also the freedom i have i could never have imagined#i could just go on a little trip with friends if i wanted to and i talked about this with a friend and i got so excited abt it 🥺😍😍#to have the possibility to just travel when i want to :))#i earned some money from (mostly summer) jobs these last years and it's great#and i can just get myself whatever i want mostly (i don't want crazy things)#and my family is much better off i guess that doesn't hurt either
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#i am so sad and so lonely and so stressed out this week and i just want to scream#i've been on a much needed mental health break for the last 5 months and lately i've started job hunting again#the whole process fills me with so much dread and self doubt and negativity and constant facing of rejection and it's really testing me#i keep being afraid that even though i feel better about myself it still isn't enough to improve my life out in the world#i just still have trouble imagining other people genuinely liking me and have so much fear around that#which makes the work i've been doing to like myself more seem worthless almost#i know it isn't but i am SO frustrated and just tired of trying so hard and not seeing things get meaningfully better#i feel like i must be missing something and i'm just generally embarrassed that i don't seem to know how to be a human among humans still#i keep waiting for all my effort to bear any kind of fruit and on days like today i just feel so impatient#i will keep trying but FUCK i just want like...one win ya know?#anywayzzzzz hope everyone else is doing better and thx for reading my rant if you got this far
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