#dn tag

[stimmingandstruggling]

my dream for a modern live action death note:

- it takes itself completely seriously. i want ZERO irony/making fun of itself. i need some actor man to take a potato chip and eat it with total seriousness.

- light and L have an insane amount of tension, i’m talking destiel levels of eye sex and queerbaiting, but they are never allowed to kiss. maybe when L dies they get one ambiguously queer line. but it’s gotta stay at least a little bit ambiguous

- misa isn’t explicitly homophobic anymore but she is like That #ally (just more subtly homophobic) (obviously shes gay but she doesn’t know that yet). instead of “are you on THAT side of the fence ryuzaki” she’s like “it’s FINE if you’re gay but light is MY boyfriends and i just don’t think it’s APPROPRIATE” and L just ignores her completely. she claims L as her Gay Best Friend despite him never confirming if he’s queer and her not really liking him. for Diversity

- she’s like i can’t be homophobic i do a pride month photoshoot and L is like okay. i don’t care

- focus on how the 24 hour news cycle, overwhelming access to information, and constant fearmongering and doomscrolling drives light fucking crazy (sorry i have to be weird about light here)

- instead of a magazine light very blandly watches porn on his laptop. looking actively bored. L doesn’t say explicitly “your son is gay” but he looks over at soichiro and says something like “hm. he’s popular with girls, you said? okay.”

- some awful misa and light sex scene but it cuts between that and light at L’s grave, their months handcuffed together, etc. hannibal style or something idk i’ve never seen it i just got a play by play from a friend

- naomi gets a bigger part because she’s awesome

- light and L are stuck in ambiguously queer purgatory but rem is very explicitly in love with misa. they kiss once before she dies and from then on misa seems a little more subdued with light. like she’s not so sure she really wants him

- when the detectives are talking about L someone mentions how he’s “on the spectrum” and everyone nods seriously. later it’s mentioned again and L overhears and he’s like you can just say autistic. everyone apologizes profusely but he does not give a shit

[datastate]

if i could alter some points of death note... i'm just musing here. [cw spoilers, of course]

i think i'd still keep the choice of light's misogyny, but with more intention behind it irt misa's storyline especially. i feel that his misogyny is the stepping stone which lends itself to some of his other arrogant beliefs, and could be utilized very well before we know who the second kira is.

from the above, i also think it's extremely interesting to make misa reprise her antagonist role at a certain point (likely after ryuzaki's died). there's also something to be said here about misa giving him her stage name rather than her actual name. with her parents dead, and perhaps going so far as to kill the ones who used her given name, light is at a disadvantage that he hadn't even considered when misa's idealized version of him inevitably crumbles before her (at his willingness to kill his own family, that sudden realization of his "lack of humanity"). in this sense, she's the only one that can save him, and though it initially pains her, she realizes he's lost the true meaning of "justice" and she's the one who has to pick up this mantle.

additionally, though this isn't really necessary, i think it'd be interesting to see some of soichiro's difficulty in accepting light to be kira specifically under the depiction of light as his daughter... specifically to emphasize the general view of (asian) girls being innocent, as well as that fatherly protection + the dissonance ryuzaki experiences, generally detached from social conventions to come to this conclusion so readily. (& not required, but some notes here and there on ryuzaki's unexamined genderless thoughts as stemmed from how he'd grown would also be fun...)

and so on. if i can remember more of these miscellaneous ideas, i'll add them on sometime later ^_^ <3

[coddda]

I wish we could have met in some other way.

Lawlight Week Day 2: Soulmates

If you saw me repost and re-edit this several times uh No you didn't </3

Still frames/Individual gifs:

If you know what every frame is from you get a free cookie. by the way

[wszczebrzyszynie]

słodko zimowo tym razem

[kenonade]

its all part of the plan……………………

[kittennature]

i love being inspired by shitposts on the internet

[chidorrrita]

・❥・I'm your puppet

You bring up the idea of L using you to distress. He agrees. Absolute filth follows.

: ̗̀➛ l lawliet x gn!reader

: ̗̀➛ cw: smut (pretty obvious), heavy degradation, slight praise, breeding, slapping, slight cum eating, being called pretty little thing and slut, reader is a freak for L

: ̗̀➛ wc: 1000+

: ̗̀➛ a/n: two posts in a week, who would have guessed. anyways please enjoy the degenerate activities here. 

L positions you in the way he wants, pulls you up by your throat, long fingers curling around constricting your breaths, until your body is pressed against his, as his hips snap against the fat of your ass causing a “pap pap” sound to echo throughout your room. 

He’s relentless in his search for pleasure, paying you no mind, as his hand begins to squeeze your throat, the other snakes its way to seize your hip in a bruising grip, and hot pants and low grunts escape his chapped lips as they brush against your ear. Your mind turns to mush, no longer able to distinguish pain and pleasure as it creates a sinful mix tricking you into begging for more. All that comes out is a series of babbles, drool dripping down onto your chest, and L smugly laughs at your pathetic self. Too drunk off this moment to say or do anything as he bends you over, forcing your head into a pillow, to hit that sweet spongy spot inside. You let out a scream of delight as if he understood your pleads, and in return clench around his cock deliciously. He lets out another grunt, deep from within his chest, and smacks your ass letting the sting linger before smacking it again with just as much force. It sends your body jolting forward, too much for your broken mind to handle, and you try to squirm from his grasp, but he drags you back to where you belong. Taking his cock like you were made for this, made to be ruined by him. 

Muffled mewls and a feeble excuse of thrusting yourself back on his dick makes his mind lose focus. Normally crippled by the weight of his cases, L kneels taller now, filled with thoughts of fucking you full. He pulls out, just kissing your hole with his flushed tip, until ramming himself back in, setting a brutal pace on your body. You couldn’t be more delighted. 

It was your idea to help him distress. A method, other than eating a concerning amount of sweets, to relax him. 

You picked at the threads on your sweater as you watched him reach for another stack of macarons after downing two boxes. His fingers danced across his keyboard, quickly typing out a report in some language you can’t discern, before he spots you shyly inching over. 

L stuffs a strawberry macaron in his mouth before asking “woul’ ‘o’ ‘ike o’e” offering you a vanilla one. 

“No it’s okay” you say trying to hide a chuckle bubbling its way out. “I was actually wondering how your job is going.”

He continues to violently chew, “ ‘qui’e ‘ell,” he swallows thickly, “why do you ask?”

“Well,” you peer down to your socks, rubbing your toes against the carpet, “I was just worried if you were stressed. You’ve eaten almost three boxes of those.”

“Sugar keeps the brain awake,” he states matter-of-factly as he goes to grab another one.

Your hand stops his, holding it in place, and he looks up to you slightly confused with his bottom lip tucked in between his teeth. He’s trying to read you.

“Maybe you should rest a while. Let your brain reset, you know?” His gaze shifts to his laptop. The report is nearly finished, and it has been weeks since he could sleep for more than an hour. He can never fully rest on a job like he can when he’s with you. His mind is plagued by images of known friends and nameless faces calling him, but you keep them at bay. Perhaps resting will do him some good. 

His voice softens to barely a whisper, “that would be good,” until he corrects himself “then I can continue working.”

“I’ll help you distress.”

L starts to get ready for bed, gingerly changing into his pj’s which really only consists of taking off his pants, and begins to slip into bed until he notices your apprehensive self still standing at the doorway. “What’s wrong?”

“Oh. Nothing, nothing,” but you still remain at the door.

His eyes squint in suspicion, letting silence question you instead of him. You quickly relent. “I mean… Well I feel bad now.”

More silence.

You sigh, frustrated at the fact your will power breaks so easily for him. “I was going to ask if you wanted to have sex to distress, but then you were actually going to sleep and now-”

“I would very much like to have sex with you.” 

“-I feel like an asshole- wait what?”

“I said I would like to have sex.”

The air in the room turns thick with the smell of sweat and sex cut by your pornagraphic moans, and L’s harsh pants, and the sound of his heavy balls hitting your ass. 

The position he has you in makes him hit even deeper than you could imagine, leaving you incapable of moving let alone thinking, but no need to think. A pretty little thing like you doesn’t need to think when you have L as your lover. He knows what you need is to be a good little slut and take his cum.

Your hoarse voice says “‘is too much. Can’t take it.” between moans, legs shaking underneath L’s thighs.

He accentuates each word with a thrust. “Yes.” “You.” “Can.” forcing the bed frame to hit the wall. 

He bends over your hunched frame, lips leaving sloppy wet kisses against your neck until he reaches your neck and he whispers “be good for me,” and you cum.

Stars dance around the corner of your vision as a soundless scream escapes you, and your hole tightens around L’s cock making him hiss. He drops to his elbows, succumbing to only shallow thrusts until it’s all too much and he cums filling your hole and pushing it back in with his cock. He stays until he softens and falls out, and his eyes fall on your thighs. His cum is smeared across your inner thighs, dripping down between your ass and on to the bed. He scoops it back up and pushes it in, not wanting to waste a single drop, and you moan at the intrusion. 

He takes his cum covered fingers to your parted lips, already familiar with routine, and you wrap them around his fingers, tongue swirling to get every last bit. You release them with a ‘pop,’ eyes waiting patiently for your reward, and he obliges, kissing you deeply, tasting himself on your tongue. 

He gets up to get a towel and begins to get you cleaned up, kissing each bruise he left, and massaging your sore limbs. 

“You did so well for me.”

“Would you say you’re sufficiently relaxed?”

“Yes, very relaxed. Thank you.”

He kisses your head, and tucks you into bed smiling to himself. How he ever got you to be his lover, he will never know, but he is forever grateful you are.

[countjortula]

guys

i drew mello

this took me two damn months.

[fauvester]

ENOUGH with the cat themed pet names he is SUFFERING

[stimmingandstruggling]

the musical has the best death note ending and i’ll stand by that forever. i love near (i am him) but i firmly believe the series should have ended with both light and l dying. light himself doesn’t want shit after L is gone. they can’t EXIST without each other and that is shown so clearly by how just. lethargic and unmotivated light is after L’s death. which is very interesting to analyze! but in my mind, the canon, most beautiful ending, they die together

[datastate]

i feel like ryuzaki primarily bases their value/personhood on their tangible abilities more than anything else - which means that, despite having a certain level of confidence in who they are, they're generally defined by what people interpret them to be (and the distance between screens definitely aids people to project their presumptions upon them, which they simply go with because it's more convenient).

ryuzaki acknowledges their own abilities and their intentions, ruthless in just how methodical it is, but it's only through others that their detachment is interpreted as arrogance, that their necessary sacrifices are turned to martyrs in the public eye, and so on. however, interestingly enough, it's seeing how these others regard them personally that really reveals their individual worldviews as well - if they approach all things with distrust, they'll regard ryuzaki as an enigma with some hidden stake; if they are kind-hearted, they'll often phrase things as though they're searching out ryuzaki's approval before imposing a certain view of them/offering a path of action, as if they believe ryuzaki's emotions are necessary to take into account before offering something they may have missed; & say, if men are more likely to be as smart or cruel as their reputation's given them, then they more easily assume ryuzaki to be a man… just to drag it back to the conversation at hand. it's really rare, especially with the voice modulator when they must speak, for people to assume they're a woman if it's between the binary. people tend to underestimate them, and many criminals may take advantage of that perception to remain an understated suspect… 👍

in this sense, despite the technical terms personally being non-binary/agender, they're like. the most genderfluid genderless guy alive simply by virtue of assuming whatever role is necessary to play the game through.

[rebloggerandy]

Finger paintings of the insane.

[coddda]

Light's relationship with his father is such a heartbreaking multi-faceted tragedy to me I hate it so so so much.

Soichiro loves his son so much, and while he's certainly not a perfect father I know that he cares deeply about Light. He wants to prove Light's innocence so badly but he can't let go of the underlying doubt that he might really be Kira and it gnaws at him. He does not know that from the very beginning he was being used by Light, whether it was to obtain information about the investigation, or to get to L, or to strengthen the foundations of his own lie that he wasn't Kira, this entire time he was simply another resource. He'll hang onto this doubt for years, even after L is dead, even if he doesn't express it in the latter half of the series, until he himself is on his deathbed, with what he believes to be undeniable proof that Light isn't Kira. (It's a lie, of course.) He dies happy, but it's on the foundations of blissful ignorance. His own son brought him here, brought him to the point where he had to sacrifice half of his own remaining life span, to his own death march, and was still trying to use him even now to kill someone else, but he doesn't know that. Soichiro said that what was evil was the power to kill others, and that whoever used it was cursed. Light was that cursed man, of course, and he tried to bring that curse onto Soichiro too by making him kill in his last moments. Soichiro was happy regardless, because he didn't know. He'll never know. (In the manga/anime at least. More on that later).

Light loves his father but it's not enough to turn him away from the terrible decisions he's made, if anything it only fuels them. His idea of "justice" is a twisted model of what he parroted from Soichiro, and he uses his father as another pawn (and a powerful one at that) in his plans. If he can prove that Kira is justice then perhaps his father will no longer call Kira, and therefore Light, evil, so he just needs to ensure that Kira becomes justice, right? It's Light's own actions that land his own father in the hospital for a stress-induced heart attack and yet he says only a few minutes later that he's the happiest he's ever been in his entire life. Even after Soichiro denounces Kira by calling him evil, even after he calls the Death Note's power evil, even after he unknowingly tells Light that he is cursed. When Soichiro dies Light is too deep in his own plans to actually properly process the fact that his own father is dying past what it means for his goals, but at the same time he still cares enough that after the fact he'll genuinely cry, only to brush it all away later. (Personally, I don't have a single doubt in my mind that Light's crying in that scene was genuine and I Will die on this hill). Soichiro had unknowingly denounced Light one last time just before his death, openly relieved that he "wasn't Kira after all", which also reveals that he has had doubts about Light this entire time, even after L died. By the time he's caught at the Yellow Box Warehouse Light will have denounced his father too, seeing him as someone who was made to be a fool, someone who was naive, even, too earnest for his own good. He won't realize that part of this description of his father might have applied to Light himself, back when this all started. Light takes after his father so much in so many ways already, so why not in this way too?

Ough. And honestly the other adaptations never miss out on this tragedy either, and I love them for that. (spoilers for the musical and 2006 live action movies I guess?)

In the musical we see Soichiro express his doubts and conflicts about who to believe, Light or L, if the son he raised really is a murderer, if everything he knows about him is just a lie. Like, there's an entire song about this, and you can tell how torn he is about it all, how badly he wants Light to be innocent but about how he also needs to face the truth no matter what it is, but at the end of it all he doesn't even get the answers he wants. At the end of the musical the only thing he finds is two corpses, Light's and L's, with no answers. No last words, no closure, only dead ends and a dead son and a grieving daughter. It's so awful I hate it here.

And the live action movie is fucking Insane. Like, wow. Okay. (Spoiler for the ending of Death Note The Last Name I guess) In the 2006 movies/novels Light writes Soichiro's name in the Death Note himself, and it's such an inconcievable move that it leaves even Misa shocked; Light tries to make Soichiro give him the Death Note for the last part of his plans, seeing his death as a "necessary sacrifice" (insert tangent essay about why I think 2006 live action movie Light is actually the most "coldhearted" Light Yagami, despite how infamous anime Light is). It doesn't work, and Soichiro does end up finding out that Light is Kira this time, and they have a confrontation, but he doesn't even sound truly hateful towards Light for it. He Never seems to outright hate Light for it, even after Light calls the whole confrontation a waste of time and instead tries to continue killing with the piece of the notebook in his watch, even after he tries to get Ryuk to kill everyone. When Ryuk inevitably writes Light's name and he collapses, Soichiro still reaches out for him and holds onto him as he's dying. Light literally dies in Soichiro's arms, still looking for the validation that he was right, that this wasn't all for nothing, that he was doing the good thing, trying to make Soichiro understand that he was trying to enact justice based on what he learned from him in the first place. Soichiro not only learns but sees for himself what his son has become, and Light dies in his arms leaving no closure for either of them. Soichiro will announce Light's death in L Change the WorLd on the news without saying his name, saying instead that it is only Kira who is dead, even though he and Light are one in the same. Sachiko and Sayu will never get to know the full truth about what happened to Light, instead Soichiro will lie and instead tell them: "Light was killed by Kira."

And then holy Shit the jdrama. If I write about it here this post is gonna literally double in length and also I don't really wanna spoil it but. Man. Man. If you watched it you know. Holy Shit dude I Cried.

It's the fact that, canonically, Soichiro will die oblivious to what Light has done, but even in the instances where he does find out, it doesn't make it any better, and it doesn't make him love Light any less, it just gives him more to grieve.

It's the fact that there isn't a single universe where Light doesn't use his father for his own gain, whether to gain information, or to try and control him with the Death Note, or make him write in the Death Note himself, and not a single time will he realize just how far he's strayed from Soichiro's ideals, and not a single time will he not forsake him for it by the end of the story.

It's the fact that, despite everything, Light will always refers to Soichiro as "dad/my dad" (informal) rather than "father/my father", even after he has been "denounced" (and this is true in every language that Death Note has been translated in, as far as I could find. Man, isn't that so cool! :) <- Through tears).

Anyways that's what I've been thinking of how's your guys' days going

[wszczebrzyszynie]

myślę trochę nad rzeczami które są kluczowe a rozróżniają modern au DNS od oryginalnej historii i jedną z nich jest to że Ryba i Przemek zaczynają się przyjaźnić (i konsekwentnie chodzić ze sobą) dużo szybciej i w trochę innym ee czasie w ich życiu? pozostawiając ich w trochę dziwnym i trudnym dla nich punkcie, szczególnie dla Ryby z jego problemami z obsesją, dysonansem oczekiwań i rzeczywistości i ogólnymi problemami z radzeniem sobie z emocjami xd Okej to jest długie i Rybowe jest pod czytaj dalej jeżeli kogoś to ciekawi

Ryba w modern au bardziej ucieka się do przemocy niż w oryginale (konsekwencja wielu czynników głównie środowiskowych), wobec siebie i innych, no i tradycyjnie do uwagi od rówieśników (normalne i w oryginale i modern au po prostu w tym drugim ma więcej okazji). O ile modern au Mikita radzi sobie dużo lepiej psychicznie niż Mikita z oryginału, tak u Ryby jest na odwrót, co już jest tak bardzo źle bo Ryba w oryginale też sobie nie radzi najlepiej xd Wspominałem kiedyś o tym chyba ale główne outlety Ryby to przemoc (lubi się bić z innymi chłopcami nawet jeśli czuje się po tym źle, i psychicznie i fizycznie; w najlepszym wypadku ee coś dla zabawy po szkole za zgodą wszystkich, w najgorszym praktycznie forma zaawansowanego samookaleczania) i miłość (bardziej w takim niewinnym, wyidealizowanym znaczeniu, chociaż Ryba to Ryba on tak naprawdę zejdzie się z kimkolwiek i pozwoli robić ze sobą cokolwiek jeżeli tylko będzie czuć się chciany; całe szczęście nie miał żadnych traumatycznych sytuacji z tego powodu, ale jest to cecha która jest dla jego postaci i relacji jakie posiada ważna, bo bardzo się przelewa i na jego relację z Przemkiem, i z Miką), a że w modern au jest na dosyć słabej sytuacji w wieku tych 16 lat, to zaczyna niesamowicie na Przemku (który szybko staje się jego najlepszym przyjacielem) polegać, co samo w sobie nie jest super bo Przemek ma swoje głęboko zakorzenione problemy i nie wie do końca jak się zachowywać; nie jest świetnym oparciem dla Ryby i tak jak Ryba musi jeszcze dużo dojrzeć. Generalnie dla nich obu ta relacja jest jednocześnie super (bo się lubią i mają kogoś w swoim wieku na kim mogą polegać) i jednocześnie jest niesamowicie trudna do nawigowania, szczególnie kiedy ta granica między relacją stricte platoniczną a romantyczną zaczyna się zacierać. Przemek trochę boi się odezwać sam z siebie a Ryba woli się zabić niż powiedzieć co jest nie tak, zamiast tego wrzucając się w kolejny niezawodny outlet na wszystko za plecami Przemka, zanim ten się dowie i Ryba będzie czuć się jeszcze bardziej jak kompletny zjeb i wariat. Ogólnie relacja z Przemkiem zaspokaja Rybie potrzebę uwagi i bliskości (jako przyjaciel i ktoś w kim Ryba się może kochać; chociaż powiedziałbym że Ryba jest trochę zakochany w każdym w jego życiu) i jest dla niego bardzo, hm, odurzająca pod tym względem, bo jest relatywnie przyjemna, staje się trochę uzależnieniem, i nawet jeżeli sprawia mu jakieś przykrości, to Ryba jest mistrzem odkładania nieprzyjemnych myśli na półkę, do póki ta półka nie zapadnie się pod ich ciężarem. Gdybym pisał fanfik to skulminowałoby to się w jakimś kompletnym załamaniu psychicznym Ryby w którym przez przypadek zrobiłby sobie poważniejszą krzywdę (myślę że by go ciągnęło do wandalizmu i by rozbił szybę ręką kończąc z trochę silnym krwotokiem) i trochę nie mógłby uciekać dalej od rozmawiania o swoich problemach i by się musiał w końcu otworzyć na Przemka i by był wielki początek kompletnego codependency arc (win) który by później przeszedł w związek. boże dobra to wszystko brzmi trochę żałośnie okej to tyle Ryba nie ma depresji ani nic ma 16 lat i potrzebuje być chciany i kochany. okej to tyle pozdrawiam każdego kto to przeczytał papa feedback jest super jak coś kocham feedback

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[riverrunscold]

Death Note plot really is just an autistic person who's constantly masking vs an autistic person who has never masked in his life

also ryuk's there