#dissociative drug

[cruelplatonic]

my personal headcanon is the vees were unremarkable nobodies when they were alive. i just love it as a thematic throughline for them. they love to let the public of hell speculate on them being famed and acclaimed since before death, but the the truth is they were a d-list failed influencer that got by on cheap controversey and scamming, a broke junkie who burned every shaky bridge he ever had, and a worn-out broadcast production assistant with more rejected auditions and tossed out script pitches than he could count. nobody missed them when they were gone, nobody cared who they were until they were dead.

[syscultureis]

cw drugs/weed use ment

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sys culture is when we get really high we switch easier and our amnesia barriers go down??? We don't know why but it's fascinating

It has the same effect on us

[pixl-place]

as much as i have personal beef with nora for the way she does not gaf about the foxes or their trauma (this is a joke pls don’t come for me) i am honestly looking forward to the rest of the tsc trilogy to maybe redeem her for that, possibly positioning those books as a, sort of, foil to the main series. one thing i feel like people really don’t get about the main series is how deeply rooted in the trauma of its characters it is. like some of them are going through actively depicted trauma throughout the series. i think that’s another reason why there’s such a clear divide between the upper classmen and the monsters, because the upper classmen are already in the process of healing from or at least bettering themselves a little bit in terms of their trauma. the only time the monsters are even remotely close to that is andrew and aaron going to sessions with bee. for the most part, they’re actively going through events that are traumatic. the series is not about them healing, which is why i think a lot of the fandom becomes so divided about characterization, we are not necessary seeing them for their true selves, we are seeing them through the lens of unhealthy coping mechanisms and layers of pain. but back to my original point about tsc it really centers the idea of healing in a way that (don’t even get my started on the extra content 🙄) the foxes never get to experience in their books. i’ve seen a lot of people be like oh yeah i can’t wait for more angst, and yes, there’s no easy way to heal from trauma, it is extremely rough so there will undoubtedly be angst moments from jean and maybe even jeremy if we find out what’s up with him. but i think a really key thing to talk about is that the sadness is a jumping point for happiness and healing. like the romance aspect of the story is important because we are seeing them heal together and actually get good things ! sure it’s important that they do reflect on that trauma which will means that trauma is present in the books (angst hours) but i do really like that tsc is tame and “boring”, that they get boba and coffee, and get to live like normal college kids despite it all. i would really love more of the fandom to embrace that for the foxes too tbh. again with all love to her, i think nora accidentally built them into a trauma prison and it would be nice to see all of the characters escaping out of that.

tldr: i’m sick of people only liking this series for its sucky shit cause i would like to see characters healing depicted in media !! (esp to this quite accurate degree)

[xmortem09]

Alcohol 🤝 Antidepressants

[asurrogateblog]

The Syd Poll

the topic of this poll is one that is frequently avoided in the pink floyd fandom, but inevitably one we all consider – our individual views on what we think caused syd's psychological struggles (and by extension, led to his departure from the band). I think that – at least in this neighborhood of tumblr – this is a conversation we are capable of having in a way that is civil, nuanced, and at least minimally disrespectful to syd.

So, to help facilitate this, here are some ground rules:

let's all assume we have a mutual understanding of the complexities of this. syd could never actually be reduced down to a poll, and all of our viewpoints are limited in various ways

the poll options just serve as just a conversation starter, and responses are not necessarily a statement of absolute beliefs

feel free to discuss as much or as little of your own perspective as you feel comfortable sharing.

in the case that debates break out, please try to assume good intent – and also demonstrate it (unless, for instance, someone is being blatantly insulting beyond a misunderstanding that needs correcting)

please do NOT vote if you are not actually a pink floyd fan with at least basic knowledge about what we're talking about here.

The options I've included below are not meant to be exhaustive, they are simply the "theories" that I have seen most commonly circulated. I have also decided not to include combinations. I'm fairly sure we'd all agree multiple factors were involved. Rather than make the poll too complicated, I ask you to instead select the one that you think is the "most" important to your viewpoint, and clarify further in your tags/comments as you wish.

so. here we go.

READ BEFORE VOTING ^^^^

(note of correction: "late-onset schizophrenia" should just be "schizophrenia". the typical timeline for onset of symptoms is late adolescence/early adulthood, so syd would've been well within that period at the time)

[befuddled-calico-whump]

Augusnippets Day 18: Infection

cw: dissociation, implied aftermath of torture, vaguely implied past noncon, substance dependency, left for dead (implied), slight death wish, carewhumper

previous // next

for the @augusnippets challenge // word count: 410

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“Fuck. That's bad, isn't it?”

“I knew it would happen. I told you.”

“What are we supposed to do?”

“I don't fuckin know. Nothing?”

It (he) is curled up on the icy concrete, unable to stop shivering, too hot and too cold all at once. The pain in its leg is nearly background noise now, numb; the wounds scattered across its form are nothing but another layer, bland in comparison to the symphony of hurt that wraps around it like a blanket. Some things hurt worse than others, but it can hardly discern which is which at any given moment. Reality comes and goes. It only wants to escape.

The creature sleeps when they dose it, allowed peace between the bouts of anguish and spells of unconsciousness that are far from restful.

The spy dreams of Vic, heavy hands and unwanted touches, inability to get away

(stop, stop it please)

Sahota’s dreams are just as agonizing; stabbing pain, snakes making a nest in his guts.

Ander’s dreams…

(they could come for him)

They shouldn't.

The spy (creature) can understand what the guards are saying, but comprehension doesn't quite reach

(tired, hurts)

“What do you mean, nothing?”

“The boss said questions are a waste of time. He's had his fun. Why even bother keeping him alive?”

“Doesn't feel right just to leave him like that…”

“Yeah? Well anything else is work. We got shit to do. I don't have time to play nurse.”

“Fuck, shouldn't we at least clean it out?”

One of the guards drops to a crouch beside it

(the spy is too exhausted to try and pull away)

White hot pain surges through its body as the guards prod at a wound above its hip; the creature screams, nausea rising in its chest

(pulsing, reddened skin, festering)

“Fuck, that's disgusting.”

“You didn't have to touch it.”

“It's your fault it got this bad.”

(infected)

“Get off your high horse. I'm not stopping you from doing anything.”

The creature perks up at the sound of a water bottle opening, eyes fluttering open. It can't move towards the sound, can hardly move at all, only utter a creaking please.

The bottle is held to its lips, static crackling across its body at the prospect of escaping the way it feels.

“What are you doing now?”

It finishes the bottle, the easy mindless fog already nipping at its consciousness.

“Just giving him something to make the end a little less painful.”

[polyfragcultureis]

// extreme medical abuse

Polyfragmented culture is wondering why you have fragments that only serve to act high despite having no history of OEA and then your mother who was drinking the #wellness koolaid admits she gave you naturally occurring drugs as an infant

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[vintagerobin]

(source: Batman: Legends of the Dark Knight #11)

While we're on the subject of Bruce and psychologists. I love how Alfred asked if he wanted this turned off earlier and Bruce was like "no it's a free analysis" meanwhile he's crunching glass over it and denying the analysis.

[saltysodacracker]

I’m literally at the point where I can’t get any higher than I already am

[syscultureis]

Plural culture is

"dog I literally just got high do not"

"yeah but I wanna smoke, fuck off"

Please ;-; stop ;-;

[void-bitten-ghost]

Okay but what if I believed in 'Angel-hasn't-actually-come-in-years' supremacy?? Huh???? What then???

I'll tell you what then. It means when he admits that to Husk, the cat makes a bet with Angel that he can change that

[cyancherub]

have any of u guys ever gotten way too high and experienced a psychotic episode.......

[chicago-geniza]

Wait. Guys. Was "Fido" the archetypal pet dog name during the 19th and early 20th century because of fucking. Latin. Your dog is your loyal and trusted companion. Sorry I saw a postcard from that period with a cute caption referring to the lady's lapdog as "Fido" and am just out of it enough on Benadryl to Realize

[moldybits]

notes: symptoms in this poll are defined as ptsd/trauma symptoms (dissociation, amnesia, hyperarousal, etc)

this is an inclusive poll for any type of system/system origin. but it’s specifically how weed affects systems with trauma. this is not syscourse and i want nothing to do with it!

reblogs are encouraged for sample size

i’m convinced that all the progress we’ve made since december has to do with THC and our endocannabinoid system and i’m curious if other people benefit the way we have.

[disassociation-culture-is]

dissociation culture is trying not to seem high asf while saying the most raw thought you've ever had

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[syscultureis]

CW mentions of weed

Sys culture is your therapist asking if you used (weed) before your session because you were heavily fucking dissociated

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Honestly as a stoner system, weed (specifically sativa for us) feels a lot like dissociation, just in a /pos way rather than the usual /neu or /neg