#disabled musician

[ash-the-fluffy-cat]

My band teacher is probably the teacher who has spent the most time making materials accessible for me out of all my teachers in my life. It took me until I was in high school to end up with a teacher who seems to care that much. I am so glad I ended up in a school that actually has a good level of support and funding for disabled kids, that’s what happens when there’s only like two high schools in the division, compared to in the city where there’s like four or five.

[stuffydollband]

Hey there, Dolls! A minute of your time please. If ya haven’t heard, I’ve now got a subscription service through Bandcamp!

It’s got a few tiers, each with its own fun perks, but for just 5$ a month, you get my whole back catalog as well as early access to new music like my most recent album, “Hanging…” which is ONLY available through the subscription and will remain so for a while. At high levels, you get access to input on what I’m working on, credit as a Producer (I’ll even swear on a Bible that you’re an honest to goodness music producer if you want to put it on a resumé), and if you’re CRAZY and give 30$ a month I might send you something weird!

I know we’re all struggling out here, so truly no pressure if you can’t afford it. My music will continue to be available on streaming platforms and Bandcamp, and the albums that are released early through this subscription will eventually make their way to the public.

But! My goal right now is just to make 200$ a month through this. That’s only 40 people who would need to sign up at the lowest tier. I’m old and sick, with myriad issues that make touring (an already failing model for independent artists) basically impossible, so I’m hoping this can serve as a way to get a bit of financial relief and allow me to keep making my sad songs for you all.

That’s it! Thanks so much for your time, please spread the word, share this post, and, if you can, consider donating. I love you all, stay tuned Dolls!

Oh! P.S. I’ll also take this time to announce that the next album being released on this service will be called “Like You Own The Place”! It’s an album entirely of waltzes of various genres. Some purely instrumental, some with lyrics, and I’m very excited for you all to hear it. Long time fans know I love slipping in a waltz or two, but this time I went fully overboard and made like 17 of them because it was cold and I needed a distraction.

[ghostcashew]

hey! my wife @stuffydollband's laptop that she uses for everything including making music has become unusable! as a big fan of my wife and also of her music, i'd very much appreciate if any of you could donate to help her get a new one 💜

[scamallach-1]

ya’ll I’m bummed out.

I’d like to know if there are any bodhrán players out there that deal with dyspraxia and/or fine motor skill issues (I am a disabled player). Any advice at all on how to grip the tipper (wether heavy or light weight seems to make no difference to my issue, I struggle with all the ones I have so far). My playing has gotten so much more fluent - but my grip is weak, even with pencils and pens. Whether fast songs or slow and gentle, I cannot maintain control of my tipper enough not to cause sloppiness that makes me skip beats. It gets to where I wanna cry lol

I’ve been practicing for 6 years (not as regularly as I should until the last 2 years) and there is just, so far, no way I can figure around my grip issue. I’m a lone player too, so it just hurts extra worse that I don’t know anyone to reach out to about these specific issues to due with my disability. I’ve used rubber bands to create a ‘stickier’ grip, even tied my fingers themselces with rubber bands to secure them to my tipper lmaooo

No success :(

[joyful-witch]

Being a music major is so weird bro what do you MEAN I don’t have half of my classes because our director is out of state taking an exam for his doctorate and my clarinet professor might have Covid.

WHAT DO YOU MEAN I have Friday off but I have to stay here because the marching band festival is this weekend.

I have nothing to do I’m going insane.

My addiction to clarinet is getting stronger by the hour and I fear I may join orchestra just because I love playing my instrument so much… but my health issues may make another ensemble difficult… but more clarinet time sounds appealing…

My therapist says I cannot date right now because of my trauma… but maybe that’s a good thing seeing as the true love of my life will always be clarinet…

I’m normally so busy not having many classes this week is legit driving me crazy. I fear I may get lost in the sauce if this goes on much longer.

[motelghostsofficial]

oh no theres another haunted venue in Los Angeles!!!!

Who are these cute little ghosts???? The bamd of course!!!!

[destroyingangelneveragod]

La Vie en Rose Cover! #singers #singer #lavieenrose #singing #cover

La Vie en Rose cover!!!!!

[violin-check]

I thought it might be fun to share a video of a violinist I found. This is, as the video title shows, Clayton Haslop, a violinist who has focal dystonia. This obviously has a large impact on how he plays, as he can only use two fingers when the violin is designed (and its music is written) to be played with four.

The way he plays is so fun to watch, partly because of the differences in how he has to play (mainly a lot more shifting than usual) but also because he's just such a good musician.

[blxxdbxnnie]

I HAVE A SOLO AT MY LAST FIRST CHOIR CONCERT!! (aka the first concert of my senior year of highschool!!) WISH ME LUCK!!!

[riverkwai404]

Being a disabled musician is fucking wild because I play a woodwind instrument (flute) where half the game is how fast you can move your fingers. Like for 30 MAYBE 40 minutes on good days? Fine. Beautiful runs. But on bad days like today? I played ONE piece ONE time and I’m sweating and can barely move anything except my thumbs (the fingers you use the least). It’s a trip.

[ash-the-fluffy-cat]

y’all ever just accidentally trap yourself in the corner with a tuba, timpanis, a couple speakers, backpack, binders, cane, foot pedal, iPad, and then realise once you sit down that you forgot a stand. But people aren’t in whispering distance, so you have to raise your hand and ask the teacher if I have stand privileges. No? Just me

[ofdinosanddais1]

Came up with an album idea called "Revenge Fantasies" about the complex emotions of suffering violence and abuse in a community that tells you that good people can only go to the good afterlife if they forgive everyone who hurt them and then cue the victim feeling like absolute shit that they can't bring themselves to forgive someone that's caused so much pain and maybe forgiveness is empty after all because what is forgiveness actually supposed to look like??? And then diving into the part of C-PTSD that causes a change in beliefs/religion because after suffering for so long, the way you were taught to view the world is just confusing now because why would someone use this as a lesson or for growth?

And then I'm debating whether to release a song with references to my abuser's own trauma that he used against me to guilt me into letting him abuse me because these lines really throw his insecurities in his face but also, like the title of the song, I don't care. When I did, I couldn't live. Believe me there's no fucks to give.

Yes those are actual lyrics to the song.

[stuffydollband]

My new song, “Flightless Rail”, is out NOW wherever you stream music!

A beachy song about a bird for all your lazy summer hangs! This was inspired by a recent @scishow video so big props once again to Hank Green et al for everything they do to make education accessible.

[cherieye]

My music improvisations available on Bandcamp

[icansmellapinchofhope]

I’ve been squirrelling away all year on this project. It’s very slow going as I am doing it around constant health challenges (complex disabilities).

It’s a project of love and finding my lyrical voice.

I’ve created a soundcloud account and will share there when I have something I feel worthy to share.

Follow there to get notified when I’ve uploaded something.

[changeling6]

Vigilante

Loneliness

Burning worthiness

Is it all that's left

To strive for

Hurriedness

Turns to carelessness

All these years I wish

I were taught more

Running around like someone's gonna save me

Have you known who I've become lately

I know, to you, I am not a stranger

Ruling the town to know my standing

Racing towards a runaway bandit

I will laugh in the face of danger

And that's how I will be

A vigilante

I can escape the world

I've done it since my birth

How did it come to this

This pocket apocalypse

If I were you

And you were me

Would you know how to be happy?

It's a parking lot

Not a silly little racetrack

Who are you trying to

prove yourself to?

It's a hedge maze

Not a fucking death game

How can we move on

Without breaking the rules?

Teaching kids to do your dirty work

I'll have you know, I was the first

To come up with the plan to save us all

All you had to be was the adult

How could this become my fault

And now you say I'm responsible for the fall...out

And that's how I will be

A vigilante

I can escape the world

I've done it since my birth

How did it come to this

This pocket apocalypse

If I were you

And you were me

Would you know how to be happy?

I raised myself since I was a kid

And now I have to prevent the apocalypse

I raised myself since I was a kid

And now I have to prevent the apocalypse

Running around like someone's gonna save me

Have you known who I've become lately

I know, to you, I am not a stranger

Ruling the town to know my standing

Racing towards a runaway bandit

I will laugh in the face of danger

And that's how I will be

A vigilante

I can escape the world

I've done it since my birth

How did it come to this

This pocket apocalypse

If I were you

And you were me

Would you know what it means to be me?

And that's how I will be

A vigilante

I can save the world

I've done it since my birth

How did it come to this

This pocket apocalypse

If I were you

And you were me

And we were never

Meant to be

And I was myself

I was free

Then how would I know

What it means to be happy?