#disable safe mode

[doe-eyed-dreamr]

being an age regressor with adult responsibilities sometimes means assisting on a school trip in which you have to help monitor over 70 kids when all you wanna do is play with the cool equipment yourself. (╥﹏╥)

[unproduciblesmackdown]

on that note had also been thinking about the hilarious classic maneuver of taking things i go "smh always doing that weird/wrong" & instead putting it in the context of like oh i dunno my life experiences. like going "smh once again in one millisecond i noticed something was about to fall & just sort of Tensed instead of instantly going to catch it & in the next milliseconds hash out like 'oh but could i catch it. oh but now it's in progress am i too late' etc" but like well hang on. first of all the Tense Up / Brace For Impact approach can have its strengths too. second of all like why just kick myself when Of Course the vastly more frequent & relevant experiences of having to stifle reactions & tense up to Brace For Impact / Weather The Situation means that's the standard approach. sure tends to be the case that like "okay test your reflex time :)" type things when i Know It's Coming, i.e. preemptively Tense Up, i turn out quite slow. throwback to a true classic [my roommate that said my cat was performative while their cat did things out of true emotion] at my doctor's appointment at like age thirteen when the ol Knee Bonk Reflex Test would make me Tense/Seize That Knee Up and Then kick. and then afterwards my "big fan of unprompted criticisms / declarations about your internal experiences or true intentions" mom was like you were faking those reflexes. i'm like well i wasn't. she was like yes you were. consider the camera jimmed

secondly i was also thinking like, always been the case that when Talking, often even if in writing format, i can't really avoid mirroring the characteristics of the other person's Style / Patterns lol. was thinking about it in my Relative ease of adopting pronunciations for different language's phonemes when it's like, i guess i do have experience in Doing Voices not b/c i really often Did Voices (sometimes lol, as like, direct quotes or whatever. echoing....) but b/c like i'll just be picking up all kinds of mannerisms / tendencies / ways of speaking, including accents slightly (my default accent being disney channel) not b/c i'm messing with anyone or trying to do anything, in fact trying Not to do this is generally unsuccessfully & This Is What Happens Naturally & always has & it's like yknow what i think it might have to do with the fact that i don't think Talking in general is oh so "natural" for me / a matter of "just being myself" (things virtually never are lol) like. i think that time i had that friend in second grade where i'm like ummm i'm not sure we spoke the same language b/c i'm not sure we spoke hardly ever? but we had fun & played & amused ourselves etc til the teacher as usual went Biggest Time Sicko Mode on our "not paying attention" like nobody else's got & then didn't give a fuck abt "intervening" again when we didn't feel like we were Allowed(tm) to interact at all. & like i'm pretty sure i'd be "supposed" to feel like omg we don't talk (almost) at all?? that's SO weirrrd i remember that soooo welllll

and when i Do talk most "naturally" / "just being myself" it's all at once, wordy, and Theatrical, and even then. i did it some the other day and was Sweating, literally, less so figuratively but it does still feel demanding, and of course even when it doesn't Feel thusly, doing a Lot a lot of verbalizing can really still be draining to Taxing. and i've noticed better like yeah sometimes i'm markedly struggling to speak when i'm already extra wearied. and another thing i put into context better was like "when i'm being put tf through it why do i tend to cry through interactions. b/c i'm being a PUSSY????" like lol just on principle was like okay well who cares, i'm sure you, by which i mean i, have my reasons b/c so too would i think someone else does, like. and i remember like, i tend to Not "directly" cry of stress or sadness virtually ever. while i Do tend to be simply keeping that shit contained but Exactly When i have to try to speak? is when i happen to start crying. hmm. Hmmmm. talking Always this performance that i may often not be up for. similar to [personal visual style / Look / clothes] like my default is "basic outfit i'd want to wear every day" & my ideal is "i do not want to be perceived" & (this &) everything else is performance / drag to me, Would That that always be on my terms

another banger is my till oh so recently kicking myself like "aah [pathologization time] i'm sooo slow to be at ease / comfortable around people even when they're surely being nice, what a hassle for others" like well it can be viewed as a hassle for me but it's also like, wait, i end up having stayed uncomfortable around people who weren't being That nice by putting in That much [any effort from any Consideration] and often turn out like. ultimately not that Safe. and i look at "oh right yeah and also i sure Can be like instantly quite comfortable / at ease around people, including people i literally just met. so" &/or my not being at ease either is still way less of a deal than having to literally/figuratively sweat it while i'd feel so much more Okay avoiding detection much less interaction

[edgepunk]

um. I can't see my follower and post count on desktop???

[muddlemore]

reblogging again as a cautionary tale to please PLEASE fucking make a system restore point before you do anything. i consider myself tech savvy and still nearly bricked my computer. and make sure you know how to access safe mode

I think every computer user needs to read this because holy fucking shit this is fucking horrible.

So Windows has a new feature incoming called Recall where your computer will first, monitor everything you do with screenshots every couple of seconds and "process that" with an AI.

Hey, errrr, fuck no? This isn't merely because AI is really energy intensive to the point that it causes environmental damage. This is because it's basically surveilling what you are doing on your fucking desktop.

This AI is not going to be on your desktop, like all AI, it's going to be done on another server, "in the cloud" to be precise, so all those data and screenshot? They're going to go off to Microsoft. Microsoft are going to be monitoring what you do on your own computer.

Now of course Microsoft are going to be all "oooh, it's okay, we'll keep your data safe". They won't. Let me just remind you that evidence given over from Facebook has been used to prosecute a mother and daughter for an "illegal abortion", Microsoft will likely do the same.

And before someone goes "durrr, nuthin' to fear, nuthin to hide", let me remind you that you can be doing completely legal and righteous acts and still have the police on your arse. Are you an activist? Don't even need to be a hackivist, you can just be very vocal about something concerning and have the fucking police on your arse. They did this with environmental protesters in the UK. The culture war against transgender people looks likely to be heading in a direction wherein people looking for information on transgender people or help transitioning will be tracked down too. You have plenty to hide from the government, including your opinions and ideas.

Again, look into backing up your shit and switching to Linux Mint or Ubuntu to get away from Microsoft doing this shit.

[is-this-fascism]

Please help me survive and escape homelessness.

GFM

KF

CA

I want to be safe by the winter of 2025.

I'm having a difficult time fundraising for my van. Repeated car troubles and various other unexpected issues have eaten into my savings multiple times, and while in a slump I wasn't making as many posts about my situation and I got significantly less donations over the last ~6 weeks on both my gofundme and my kofi/cashapp. While I've 'regained' a lot of what I lost, I've been spending about as much as is coming in. Aside from one instance, my emergency expenses were eaten by my fundraiser savings, which was then gained back about as quickly as I was spending it on my daily expenses. I still haven't reached the goal for the recent $1000 I had to spend on my car.

So far I've lost $2,200 of the $3,100 that's shown on the GFM. I'll be updating the fundraiser to reflect the loss.

I'm autistic and struggle just to meet my basic needs, and despite that I've been denied disability income multiple times. Failing to hold a job (and developing PTSD symptoms from my time being employed), and let down and abandoned by anyone who could support me, I'm left with few resources and few options. I try to make posts when I'm in a good mood, or keep people updated when I'm in a bad mood. I make videos on YouTube, hoping eventually I can show people what their money has gotten for me.

On a good month, I only spend about $600, leaving me some space to save the donations I was previously getting. With winter and the holidays coming, I'm not sure I'll be getting as much money as the warmer months, and I'll be spending more on keeping myself warm and fed over the winter. It will be more like $800/mo now. The only real solution is getting more money than I'm spending, as I'm already spending as little as I safely can.

I'll only take financial advice from someone who has lowered their expenses below mine, with the same disabilities and circumstances as me. What I need is more money, and I don't always have the energy to pay back with art and things like that. I don't even always have the energy to post my pleas for help. I don't have a sponsor to help me make these posts.

I'm in a low energy mode because what can I do with no money? In a state where I have to spend as little as possible, see such slow results, see most of it taken by things outside my control, and somehow keep up hope that this will work?

When I feel safe and have adequate shelter in a van, I'll be able to REST. And then start working harder and making more money one way or another. Whether you think I should suck it up and get a job or you want to see me become a content creator, I need money for any kind of opportunity and I'm just not getting enough.

So, thank you to everyone who's suppported me so far. Thank you to the repeat supports. I'm sorry I had to spend your money on other things. Thank you to the person who covered most of a huge expense I was stressing about a couple months ago. Thank you to the person who sent me $200 to get a hotel and told me to take care of my mental health before saving anything. Thank you to the blogs that have featured my fundraiser in your posts. Thank you to everyone who keeps boosting and cheering me on even though you can't support financially.

I don't know what else I can do to get more people like that to see me. There are so many options on the internet, but it's still a daunting task and as much as I can't really afford to rest, I have to sometimes. Often, in fact.

Please keep boosting this post until my goal is really met. Until I can spend more than $600 a month and actually earn your money rather than beg for it.

[invincibledc]

Tiny request for twin reader with damian mabye they were seperated at birth aka talia gave bruce twin reader and kept damian but win reader has some kind of disability like walking with crutches and as soon as damian moves in he goes into protective brother mode and always tries to help twin reader

“I’m your protector.”

Damian Al ghul-Wayne x Disabled! Twinreader

Summary: separated from birth, Damian finds out you are disabled from walking. Knowing that you are his blood sibling, he can’t help but be protective over you

After Talia revealed to Damian he had a twin (brother/sister) that she gave away to his father all because you were disabled. He felt anger towards his mother and a little bit of betrayal.

How could she keep such a secret from him and the fact she just gave you away made him feel…protective.

He wants to know you are okay. He wants to make sure you are okay. So when he moved into his new room, he got a knock on his door. He opens it to see, you. You had crutches, smiling as your hand grip the crutches handle. “Brother! Oh my, we do look the same!” You were excited, happy. Damian immediately observed you, he sees you are pure of light. He was right to feel protective when you don’t know much of the words he is saying with his high vocabulary.

He draws and colors on your crutches, he likes to see the light in your eyes when he draws what you like on your crutches.

You both may be different, but his brotherly love is not. He’s always sitting by you, dinner, breakfast, lunch out of the manor, events, galas. He’s always there. Sure Bruce would try and tell Damian that you can protect yourself, maybe even that you can do things without his help. But you’re ten, just like him. So what did he do? Not listen to his father like he always do.

He’s happy to know you never wanted or tried to be Robin. His heart would break knowing that his precious half would try and fight. But that also meant you never learned how to protect yourself and fight mostly, making it worse for Damian to grasp.

Damian tried not to baby you much, but he couldn’t help but feel anxious at those random thoughts in the back of his head. “They’re gonna fall one day, what if no one is there to pick him up.” He would sometimes just sleep on a chair in your room incase you fall off your bed.

Damian would train Titus for whenever you fall and you can’t reach your crutches. He would have Titus use his body and guide you somewhere so you can get up.

“I’m your protector.” He would say when he sees you trying to get up and grab your crutches. But titus and him are already up and helping you. You laugh thinking he’s joking, but he’s not.

If you’re sick? Protectiveness levels are off the charts when he sees you cough and shake. Yeah he’s not going to school until you’re better. No way he’s leaving his sibling at home!

Would call pennyworth off his phone if you are homeschooled. Always checking up on you no matter what, it doesn’t matter if Alfred says you are okay. He wants to hear you say it.

If someone dared to make fun of you, he’s after them like the devil himself. If they dared to try and take your crutches, it’s gonna get wicked. Even god himself won’t be able to take Damian off the assailant.

Say you were also on the artistic route, he would absolutely treasure your art work. “It’s bad..” you said once, and Damian straight up lectured you about how art takes time and how beautiful your art work is to him no matter what.

I can see Jason saying it’s true the artwork looked terrible, and Damian just straight up chased him around angrily while you try to tell Damian it’s okay.

Titus adores you, and you adore Titus which makes Damian feel even better that Titus likes you. I mean who wouldn’t when literally you are the sunshine of the family.

Damian definitely have written letters to you when he was on “punishment” is what he called it when he had to go work with the titans. So when you visit him at the titans tower, he made sure most things were safe proof for you. Kory already knew you because of Dick. Kory tries to reason to Damian as he literally rips something apart because he deemed it as “unsafe.” But did he listen? No.

When beast boy playfully was play fighting with you, Damian was ready to cut Garfield’s head off. Only for you to wipe the floor of the green shapeshifter by using your crutch as a bat. Damian hid his sword with a smirk, maybe he doesn’t need to protect you much.

[khizuo]

Don’t scroll past this without reblogging to help out 2 disabled Black queer people and cat, who are recovering from almost being unhoused the second time!

“can anyone please help🥲?

Im taking over $600 needed to keep utilities on & eat, clean, care for cats and the home—

JUST to have a safe way to launder.

Any shut offs is an eviction and I’m on pay plans…”

https://Cash.me/$memwho

https://PayPal.me/xomemereytwod

https://Venmo.com/u/memwho

Mem’s still in recovery/survival mode. It is essential for them to not stay up for 18 hours at a time to fundraise anymore.

Whatever you can send is appreciated, please keep them in your thoughts, thank you for caring 💗💗💗

[soon-palestine]

as an american citizen, you have the right to assemble. the police and other governmental agencies violate this right through mass arrests, illegal use of force, criminalization of protest and other means that threaten our right to free expression.

DO NOT TALK TO THE POLICE:

they are not your friends. they are not there to protect you, regardless of your race. their presence there is to protect the interests of the state.

what to do if you are detained or stopped by the police:

do not resist, even if you think they are violating your rights.

calmly ask someone to record.

ask if you’re free to leave. if you are, walk away.

how to stay safe during a protest:

write phone/legal aid numbers on your body. bring a sharpie for others to do this.

ALWAYS use the buddy system. don’t be selfish & stick to your own friend group. if you see someone alone, invite them into your circle.

don’t know where to seek legal aid?

before attending/during a protest, visit http://nlg.org/chapters/#massdefense.

NLG chapters are organized into regions. find. your region and write their number on your body.

encourage others around you to write that same number on their body.

4. if you are threatened with or under arrest:

you have the right to know why you’re being arrested. calmly ask. if they refuse to provide a reason, stay quiet and ask for legal representation immediately.

do not give any information or sign anything without a lawyer present.

what to do with your phone during a protest:

put your phone on airplane mode

disable face ID/touch, replace with 6-digit passcode instead

spreading awareness is great but avoid posting photos of people that include identifying features.

police want everyone to leave the area, what should that look like:

shutting down a protect through a dispersal order must be the last resort for police.

a clear danger must be present.

police must give adequate time for protesters to disperse and an exit route.

what are your rights if you’re being stopped or detained by police:

you do not have to consent to you or your belongings being searched. if you consent, anything can be used against you in court.

police can conduct a “pat down” if they suspect you have a weapon.

if you see someone being detained, what should you do:

record the interaction. police can not demand to view or delete any footage without a warrant.

use calming affirmations towards the person being detained. they are likely scared. be there for them.

use whatever privilege you have to protect others.

if you see a disabled person struggling, offer to help. find medics to assist people experiencing anxiety or having a panic attack. if you see a BIPOC being harassed, surround them.

personal note on using your privilege: i have seen white people, countless times, place themselves in front of BIPOC when police draw weapons/approach protests. it often works.

do not be a person that just acknowledges their privilege, use it for good.

10. remember that we protect us. ignite this chant as a reminder to everyone present if you have to. communities are supposed to help one another. don’t be a sell out, offer support, share resources, food and water. be a kind soul.

if you can not participate in a protest for whatever reason, you can still help! drop-off supplies! (water bottles, allergy-friendly foods/snacks with ingredients labels on them, sharpies, cards with legal aid numbers on them, masks, makeup remover wipes, hand sanitizer, etc)

sources/disclaimer: main source:

@ACLU and my own opinions. this is not legal advice. consult legal representation if you are in need of assistance.

stay safe, be on the right side of history. black lives matter, no one is illegal, we protect us, land back, all oppression is connected and free palestine. 🇵🇸

[abyssmalice]

You don't even get the chance to retort anything back - there's a sharp, groaning crack and rumble not long after you stabbed your makeshift grip into the earthen wall, radiating out right from where you shoved it in - and really, you only have enough time to process what exactly that means for you, before the sensation of freefall returns.

The gale of air that rushes past your ears makes it hard to hear or register anything. But it's not loud enough to drown out the panic resurfacing like booming thunder in your ears, your eyes stretching wide as you watch the opening of the hole grow further and further and further away and -

(you kept your eyes closed throughout as you had screamed, seeing nothing until you and your brother had concluded the fall - from winter white and strange grey, the next thing you would see besides the blackness was a different kind of black, otherworldly and so much more dangerous.

you watch hope above disappear, eyes open this time; so, this is what it looks like when you've damned yourself.

then, as experience says, the end is nigh after this.

it will hurt. don't let the monsters catch you again, this time around.

—again? you have to do this again?

again again again

big scary things prowl the dark. they like to play catch. chase. eat and tear and it will hurt and you will die so hide don't say anything no noises nothing run hide it will hurt if they catch you so don't scream.

don't scream don't scream don't scream don't scream do not scream don't do anything

don't. don't. don't.

remember what happened before. remember how you were trained, right here, in this very darkness.

keep your feet on the ground. steady. eyes and ears and senses always at the ready. evaluate the dangers. nothing matters if you're not alive to see things matter. so focus on that. that's what you were taught, in spite of it all.

so don't scream.

Your eyes feel a little itchy, so you blink. It feels like it's been forever since the last time you blinked. You feel - the ground. Eroded brick. A surface that may or may not stand the test of time, but it's stable for now. Get to your feet. The world is still and silent as death itself, though you feel a burning gaze levelled at your head. You don't turn to face it. Doing so will likely mean locking eyes with whatever's watching you. Predators will always lunge right for the kill once acknowledged.

The ground under your feet is stable. Yet the world seems so much the opposite. You blink again.

Don't breathe. You don't need to breathe. Breathing shifts the air and makes too much sound. That's fine, just use the anemo stored in your veins for now. You neither inhale or exhale as your brain messily turns, attempts to focus on the next thing; unbeknownst, a lock of your hair radiates into silver.

Blink. Experimentally, you clench and unclench your hands. You can feel a slight layer of sweat under the leather, and a persistent line of tremors.

Problematic. Shaky nerves make for a bad hunter. Going to sleep would fix it. Or otherwise knocking yourself out and reaching for blissful unconsciousness. So tempting. But this is no place for sleeping or the like.

You have to—)

"Have to..." you finally speak, mumbling under your breath, sorting through some of the clutter in your head. "Get out."

Get out of here. Because you fell. You look back up at the hole, its opening from above practically non-existent from the bottom. Climbing is not a real option from the instability of the earth and the ruins above, though you don't rule out the idea entirely. Desperation can mean anything will go, should it get to that point.

You finally turn to the source of the staring, meeting a harsh look that could've made you flinch if you were younger - but right now, with half of the clutter still in your head and a priority to just get the hell out of this whole mess, you can't be too bothered to care if Arlecchino currently hates your guts to the max or whatever. You can think about possible grudges if you survive long enough that it has long-term consequences. So you just blink blankly back at her, observing her stern expression, almost as if it were expecting something out of you.

"...Did you say something?" It's a genuine question, spoken with what would be a deeply uncharacteristic softness and quietness, if you were bothered enough to bother about pretenses and masks right now.

As always, nothing really matters if you don't survive in the end, does it? So you don't wait for a response, just turning to look ahead and around.

There's a roiling black, fading into the distance akin to fog but not quite. Dead earth as far as you can see on the horizon. The tower itself looks on the newer side even for ruins, there still being a semblance of architecture and design to it that hasn't fully crumbled away - though inconveniently, no real way down or into the tower proper. Just have to jump off the edge then.

It's not too high of a tower, thankfully. You're done with the idea of falling for an insufferably long time. And wanting to get it over with already, you don't wait or even signal to your fellow Harbinger to follow, already swinging yourself off the tower's railings to land in a roll below.

You idly stomp the ground once you're properly back on your feet. Rock solid. Good. Very nice. Won't crumble apart like mush. You would sigh a breath of relief, but you've practically turned off your breathing right now - and you're not out of the metaphorical woods yet either.

Have to focus on that. That's all that matters, remember?

—Arlecchino? She can manage on her own, surely? You already have so much to focus on with yourself.

⠀⠀⠀⠀The Knave is no stranger to the responses of children trying to assure themselves that something is not as big a deal to them as it is. Nervous quips slip through, no matter how practiced their mask, when something tucked away in the back of their mind is forcefully dragged to the forefront of their attention.

⠀⠀⠀⠀Try as Tonia might to cover her reaction, that accursed gaze leveled upon her by the woman holding her arm does not fail to notice the utter vacancy of reply for the first few moments, before the girl finds proverbial ground to stand upon as she tries to recuperate from the unforeseen consequences of her actions.

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀And then, there is another error made.

⠀⠀⠀⠀Before the Knave finds the words to stop the child, she embeds her pike into the unstable ground - already loosened from her earlier bout of arrogance, leading to what little stability remained quickly slipping away.

"You fool."

⠀⠀⠀⠀A simple, jagged retort from the Knave as a single action from her younger colleague drives the proverbial nail in to what could shape to be a literal coffin of stone. The groan of the ground, the crumbling from above.

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀A distinct snapping of silken string.

⠀⠀⠀⠀Her gaze turns up to the thin line she'd used to lower herself down to catch her colleague, intent on having used it to pull both of them back up - watching as it gives way alongside the ground it was secured to.

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀Snap, crumble, collapse.

⠀⠀⠀⠀It's few seconds at most, before their secure position dangling over the chasm below becomes a freefall, the light of the surface rapidly shifting from a gaping tear above them to a pinpoint in the distance as the pair descend deep down into the world below - the old ruins of a bygone age.

⠀⠀⠀⠀For a freefall that lasts less than a minute, it could feel like an eternity before anything below comes clearly in to view - an old and forgotten ruin deep below the world they knew. The landing is graceful of course - an unfurled wing of blazing baleflame catches the fall, dragging the child almost by her neck to relative safety atop an ancient tower.

⠀⠀⠀⠀Gracelessly does she deposit Tonia upon the ground, finding her own footing as the wing disintegrates, and-

"What were you thinking? You know better than to strike an unsteady surface when your life hangs upon it."

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀No longer does she speak with a hint of gentleness.

[cipheramnesia]

In order to help combat homelessness, we are inducing new hop-walks. These walkways, roads, and randomly selected patches of grass or nature trails will feature a shifting pattern of trap door openings into assorted spike or fire pits, which will reduce unhoused people sleeping on them. They might look random, but watch closely so you can learn the safe jump patterns! To make these disability accessible, there is a "safe mode" which will allow disabled people to watch someone else walking around and shopping, rather than the potential danger of independent mobility. Please note that while tempting it is still illegal to sleep in the spike traps. For public safety, teargas will be randomly deployed in all public spaces at random, as well as in our new intellihome low income housing for anyone with a full time job and multiple clean suits. We hope the new tear gas program will make great improvements. Remember it is illegal to cover your eyes or mouth during the tip top tear times.

[desiree-uk]

A new script mod by Eca! Eca mod notes:

Further Description As it's self-explanatory, the bulldozer button can be used to bulldoze lots without having to go to the town edit mode and evict the existing household from the lot for bulldozing. During the process, all Sims and pets on the lot will be safely moved right near the lot if possible. Any lot is available to bulldoze. Whether the active household gets money from bulldozing depends on whether they own or have rented the lot. If a lot is owned or rented by a household, that household will get the money. If there is an owner household, there will be an option to pack the existing furniture before bulldozing. Owned vehicles and graves on lots are always preserved whenever possible.  Owned vehicles will be sent either to the owner Sim's inventory or to the owner household's inventory, whereas graves will be sent to the owner household's inventory or to the mausoleum, otherwise, they get destroyed.

Notes The bulldozing process is undoable. Bulldozing is disabled in the preview mode of the blueprint mode. Despite that, if you place rooms from the blueprint mode and then bulldoze the lot, you may get a very low amount of additional money (like 1 to 10 simoleons) from bulldozing compared to if you have never placed the rooms in the first place. Depending on your computer, your game, and the active lot, furniture packing and bulldozing may take some time, though it usually takes a few seconds for a lot to be just bulldozed. Sims and pets get relocated to right outside of the lot, which is technically off the lot. Bulldozing a WA base camp will not give the active household money, whereas bulldozing an ITF base camp will. Bulldozing penthouses, apartments, and dormitories will give the active household money as well. If your Sims become invisible after bulldozing, use NRaas MasterController to reset your Sims, instead of the resetSim cheat.

Credits Tool Credits ↳ ILSpy (decompiling the game's scripts) ↳ ChainReaction/NRaas (unprotected assemblies) ↳ s3pe (packaging the mod) ↳ Visual Studio 2022 (writing and compiling the script)

Download from Mod The Sims!

[edelblau]

it never ends

update: TODAY WE HIT THE GOAL, NEW TABLET IS ORDERED. commissions will stay in limbo even after i get the replacement so i can get accustomed to it, and reopen afterwards. if youd like to support me during this downtime, feel free to donate more, but the biggest fire has been put out now! https://ko-fi.com/edelblau

last night, when playing stardew valley with friends, i noticed i was getting the disconnect and reconnect windows noise a lot. i thought, at first, it was just a usb i might have accidentally tugged on-- and then i thought maybe i just needed to replace the wire.

all of these would have been great. unfortunately, it was neither, and the actual port on my tablet itself is the issue. this is a massive issue, as im disabled and commissions are what let me get through the month every month and maybe even have a social life or pay for fun things.

as someone who is disabled, when i consider repairing something, i kind of have to weigh my options in terms of the cost, since for me, i have to consider things like 'ubering to a repair shop' 'possibly being in a mall because for some reason most repair shops are in malls' 'can i get an uber to bring my rollator safely'. mailing has the same issues, as id have to. you know. get to a post office.

my roommate has generously lent me her old tablet, which is Functional and will allow me to, at the very least, offer a limited repertoire of commissions until i either adjust fully to this tablet* *its smaller and a different model or i can get a new one. (maybe one with bluetooth and an optional wired mode. because nothing betrays me more than micro-usb ports.)

anyways, suffice it to say that post holidays me who struggles on a good month just cannot deal with this at the moment. ill be offering sketch commissions and discord emotes (examples on ko-fi) since im not confident in the quality of my work right now and those are some simpler (and cheaper) offerings, and donations are very appreciated, as are reblogs.

one day i will stop suffering so much and begging so much, but today is not the day. thank you all for reading, and doubly thank you to anyone who shares!

[xaythefreak]

Hey, its me the "old man bots yaoi couples" enjoyer the one who sent to you. Im here to bring me more because im quite normal about drift and ratchet. Very normal...

(Why have one bot, when you can have two?.. heh.. it's a package deal. Im so sigma/hj/silly)

Anyway-!! AHEM burps this at u:

Drift truly believes you’re the missing third spark to his and Ratchet’s bond— that Primus wants the three of you to be together. Every word, glance, or moment of kindness from you is a sign. Even your fear? Drift chalks it up to being overwhelmed by fate.

Drift constantly calls you little one, starlight, or our spark. Yes, our. He already sees you as part of the bond. (Sweetspark, sparkmate..... we need more nicknames, like- "my sweet discord kitten e-liaison. Our darling mate human-") gets shot 98 times

He tells Ratchet every night how lucky they are to have "found you".

Ratchet isn’t delusional— he knows you didn’t agree to any of this. But that doesn’t matter. You’re his patient, his responsibility. His.

He monitors your vitals 24/7, programs the doors to restrict your movement, and disables any datapad you try to send out.

Ratchet is sharper, more grounded— he knows your relationship isn’t real… yet. But that doesn’t stop him from locking down your access routes and tracking your vitals obsessively. (Him and the other scientists bots or smth. A working together. Brainstorm and percy is right at his back yayaya)

He rationalizes his obsession as safety: the Lost Light is dangerous, and your body is too fragile for normal routines. (Be so fr like, imagine if we sneeze or crack our fingers infront of him and he's go haywire and panic mode, thinking if we're terribly ill or sick or smth.)

He controls what you eat, where you sleep, and who you talk to— because no one else is qualified to handle a human. (I like to see other bots fighting for our reader ass smh. Its like watching a cat fight/j..)

He sometimes argues with Drift about being too fast or too gentle, but they always circle back to the same thing:

“We love them. We’re the only ones who do.”

You are now the squishy center of one very obsessed, very in-sync, very delusional mech-marriage. (Time to sign the marriage papers or sparkbond or smth.. idk)

(Look at this old ass love sickfools... they make me SICK/ affectionately)

Something about drift being delusional and ratchet being possessive and protective towards reader, scratches my brain right and flip my the switch very good.... oh my primus, they're so overbearing perhaps overwhelming— i migjt explode right here, right now!!!!!! /hj.... (I migjt send this more in your inbox if thats okay w yoi. In honesty i was nervous to send this at you 😭😭😭)

from this day fourth you shall be called "old man yaoi anon" /j

but AAAAAAAA jumping around shaking the bars of my enclosure /pos

save me old man yaoi save me,,,

doing kinky medical shit with ratchet as Drift praises us as he jorks it woah what was that must've been the wind /j

BUT this is so cute,,, both of them being delusional ass old men who just wants to keep their precious lil human safe <33

Imagine if Ratchet finds a way to you pregnant w/ him and Drifts sparkling,,,, oooohhh,, oughhhh,,,,

also PLEASE send more stuff in my inbox if you want!! i LOVE YAPPING!!!!!! /gen /nf

[five-thousand-loaves-of-bread]

recently had to give up something that… depend how you see it, been work towards for past months, two years, four years, even say ten years absolutely not stretch or exaggeration.

because have high support needs. n there no way for me physically survive safely if do it.

it be only thing in that domain that known for almost half my life, n entirety (n more) of my life that at least some part vaguely remember.

because not have enough support n care for me do it n safely survive.

wish am be exaggerate. wish be hyperbole. wish be overplaying it to get people to believe.

but am not.

this be reality of high support needs.

believe me am tried everything can think of n everything can do.

talk to so many people n groups for help. begged for it. thought abt what support needs be “luxury” enough can leave unmet. how much danger n risk can go thru to make it happen, knowing full well if any minor or major emergency happen to me (…visibly severely disabled POC, vulnerable minority in multiple visible ways), there absolutely no way be able deal with it.

n been in some really really bad places mentally while that. n more of that to come, now that for sure, give up.

have trouble understand want something really really really realllly bad not make it really exist, no matter how obviously ridiculous—include major law n policy change, teleport, be reborn, mind read, miracles, n this.

so you see, this be reality of actually high support needs. of depend on other people grace n charity n kindness n services n help over basic daily life activities to survive.

no amount “want independence” “want autonomy” “want better future” “want avoid severe suicidal mental illness crises times” “want escape abuse by caregivers” or “want avoid conservatorship guardianship institutionalization” or “want LIFE” no amount of simply wanting no matter how extremely bad, will make possible for us leave our support needs unmet, give those up, n trade be unsupported for those wants, n safely survive, or even just plain survive.

be high support needs give me barrier after barrier. not once give me privilege n power or even advantage, n never ever had full entire support needs met, even for just short time.

many high support needs people be force live in “survival mode” too. it just that, you know, to be in “survival mode” you kinda need be. alive.

no amount of “want” “need” n “adrenaline survival mode” make us able do things we simply cannot do.

n my support needs not even that high. n am take comfort in that. am lucky for that. because know what even higher support needs than mine actually mean.

idk what am saying.

[okay to reblog]