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havenraven · 1 year ago

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All messed up with nowhere to go I stare at myself in the mirror alone It's hard to make friends when you're half in the grave But I ain't dead yet And I've got something to say Oh-ohh, yeah

Not Dead Yet by Lord Huron

#rejecting that goopy mucky muck #did this literally five years ago #and i nearly redrew it on accident when the same concept occured to me today #the song wasnt out when i did the original #but boy does it fit!#lord huron #lord huron fanart #not dead yet #not yet #hrart

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hellspawnmotel · 1 year ago

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remember when I did this?

well I did more

#deltarune #crossover #heathers #noelle holiday #kris dreemurr #pizzapants #susie deltarune #nooses tw #blood tw #suicide tw #hanging tw #death tw #art tag #first three were actually done a year ago but i never finished the fourth one until now #partially bc Background Hard but also i was like 'this might be too dark actually'#my friends were like its heathers of course its dark and then i showed them the sketch and they were like oh that IS dark #whatever its done i did it #ALSO this is important some people were confused with this last time: these are based on the MOVIE not the musical #like literally these are screenshot redraws from the movie but with dr characters lol #important bc since the musical makes betty and martha a composite character and in the movie theyre two different girls #and i wouldnt have put susie in the role of martha in the context of the musical. i probably would choose catti for that #and im also. not that fond of the musical. on the whole. for reasons #i do have like five of the songs from it on my showtunes playlist though LMAO #i may not agree with the story and characterization choices but i cant deny bangers

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coern-art-very-cool-and-nice · 5 months ago

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encore nnks

#you guys have no clue how many times I've drawn this stupid scene.#(<- enjoys it every time)#I think this is my first time actually Posting it though #usually I'm too nervous....lmao #and now I'm finally posting it :DDD good job me #my art #my aus #encore au #project sekai #nenekasa #nene kusanagi #tsukasa tenma #by the way. I spent like three or four hours on this. jesus.#I usually only spend ~1hr on like everything #but also this is Completely Painted #like. I didn't even do lineart. I made a very messy sketch and colored in messy then Did Shit #until it looked good #I kept having to redo nenes handssss #I don't really like her right hand still #but also there wasn't really a sketch I drew five lines as fingers and rendered them #so I think I did pretty good.#whenever I look at tsukasa your adventure plays in my mind cause I put it on loop and spent SO LONG struggling on his clothes #i had to do another sketch for his clothes. i literally pulled thed esign out of my ass becuase i didnt wanna pull out my old ref from like #a year ago #anywaanywayfnwaybywa. post

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septembersghost · 2 years ago

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taylor like: i know you know, you know i know you know, so i might as well play the songs about that fateful night, you know?

#got online just to see if she did the thing and SHE DID!!!!#and honestly i'm not surprised at all #she is in the era of owning her art her life and her truths and experiences as fully as she can #even sometimes despite everything else and i love that for her #thrown out speeches #do you really wanna know where i was april 29th #you're so gorgeous i can't say anything to your face #she has been through so much since that night seven years ago and she deserves to own it #eras tour #literally cannot use my sprained right hand for more than five minutes at a time again 😭

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themintman · 5 months ago

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Please share the Sims I would be so gracious 🙏

erm I wasn't sure if you meant post them to Tumblr or actually make the Sims public so imma do both.

They definitely aren't perfect but I tried my best!!

And, ofc, here is my account so you can find them. Sorry for the keyboard smash name this is my dad's account from like seven years ago I'm trying to change it 😭

the title is just "Jack and Nurm"

Uhh I used stuff from the packs below, idk if it'll let you download them without these but if it does just change the missing traits/clothes:

Island living

Cats & dogs

Realm of Magic

Holiday celebration

Erm so like yeah!! If anything is inaccurate or you think something would work better feel free to change it! I tried to make them accurate to how I see them, but tbf I do sometimes mix up headcannon and cannon, misinterpret stuff etc, plus it was tricky trying to decide on aspirations n such, there's no "legendary adventurer" or "cartography" themed traits to my knowledge lmao

#minecraft story mode #mcsm #mcsm nurm #mcsm jack #nurm mcsm #jack mcsm #The sims 4 #Posting Sims is scary. I will probably make more at some point but just.. not upload them lol #Ofc unless someone #Like yourself #Asks me to post a specific character #But yeah don't expect a constant flow of Sims 😭#Lmao I've had this account for years and when I was like.. ten I used to upload loads of shitty looking animals #And I was cleaning up my account before uploading these guys and stumbled upon a really rough looking set of eeveelutions #And like yeah they're ass but I was ten so I think that's acceptable #But there was this dude it the comments from like a month ago saying stuff like “EW THEYRE UGLY!! GET ME OUT OF HERE I DONT LIKE THIS”#And it was so fucking funny #Bro you are beafing with a literal child from five years ago calm down #No one is forcing you to look at them damn #N e ways #Little sidenote in case you want Archie too #Part of why I made Nurm a spellcaster is cause he can have a phoenix familiar #I don't think the Sims had parrots so like if you want Archie.. 👀 fire arch?#UPDATE CAUSE I AM HOWLING BUT I WAS BORED AND DECIDED TO SEE IF ANYONE ELSE MADE JACK AND NURM AND ONE OTHER PERSON DID #AND THEY WERE CALLED “Nurm the mapmaker” AND “Jack the sad” LMAOOO #WHOEVER YOU ARE IOVE YOU

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blistering-typhoons · 7 months ago

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they/them.

they/them they/them thEY/THEM THEY/THEM THEY/THEM THEY/THEM THEY

I HAVE BEEN FUCKING

NONBINARY

THIS WHOLE FUCKING TIME.

#FIVE-SIX YEARS I HAVE KNOWN ABT THEY/THEM PRONOUNS #AND ONLY LITERALLY AN H O U R AGO #DID I STOP TO THINK- HUH #NO WONDER SHE/HER AND HE/HIM DONT *QUITE* CUT IT ALL THE TIME #ARE U FUCKUNG SERIOUS #jesUS CHRIST #personal i guess #sksjskjs i'm so MAD #I'M SO MAD #to be serious for a sec i'm not still entirely sure #but they/them feels GOOD so that has to count

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bitegore · 28 days ago

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ngl i think i kind of was a genius for being like 'yeah this character is a scary killyou cannibal scary killer who scary kills you' and then realizing that the way my worldbuilding works out is that there's a nonzero chance that if you leave literally any body parts over they can just come back, depending on what they believe in their heart of hearts can kill them. Of course she'd start eating her kills. She probably tried normal stuff first and then realized it didn't work and she had to try harder if she wanted to actually keep them dead.

#red rambles #im working on a character who i made up years and years ago and wasnt even happy with then because he didnt seem to have enough like #interior thoughts he was just like a guy who killed people when he was stressed and his life was constantly stressful and then he killed on #person too many and they were like 'this is fucking untenable and he has to die' and then they killed him #which is soooooooooo absolutely nothing honestly. Like it works as a barebones summary but i want to stress there was actually straight up #nothing else there. the entire rest of his whole whatnot was just being entangled with Haven who is a different character who at the time #ALSO felt unsatisfyingly lacking in interiority but at lesat he had really complex motivations and action flowcharts. that werent just 'i #get grumpy and i just go kill some random person with no regard for what the consequences will be and then i am so mean and i kill you'#now theres a lot more happening. i really didnt. like.#okay so i had a Backstory worked out but it was vague because i didnt know what the fuck he WANTEDDDDDDD right like. i had no motivations a #literally all except 'oohhh i kill people ooohhh i like killing people ooohhh im erratic i kill people' and the background i HAD was like.#Upper class scion of some rich family whose family honest to god just did not like him very much and also [gestures vaguely] i guess he #maybe kicked dogs or something and then he ??nebulous timeline meets haven and then kills his sister or kills his sister and very quickly #thereafter meets haven but i usually lean toward the former because haven LOVES convincing people to kill their whole families its like #cathartic for him because he would love to kill his entire family but physically cannot do it. but like kind of the implications of this #as far as i was concerned given this is set in the mid 1800s was like. ehhh he's getting away with this because he's rich white and male an #it pays to turn a blind eye to his indiscretions or w/e. a genderswap means that she'd be subject to a lot more scrutiny on basis of like #misogyny. LOL. and i already had the preexisting 'hates half sibling' (i genderswapped the sister into a brother because why not) and 'hate #parents' and 'parents strongly dislike her' and 'unsettling' and it worked nicely to start giving me actual fucking. Literally anything to #work with there. because it means that by going off with Haven she walks out of one situation where she has like 0 agency into another one #and like to be clear i respect anyone who is sitting around in haven's general vicinity for snapping and just starting to kill people. me t #but this works. SOOOOOOOOOO much better for real #im still working the kinks out but like also this means that she wins. she wins like multiple times actually. she comes closer to killing #haven than anyone since he learned what fucking species he was and causes him more trouble in the interest of getting the FUCK out of there #than anyone else has and then she fucking gets what she was going for against literally every effort haven could've made over ~five decades #get owned loser.#every time i draw her i cant help it i write some shit like PLEASE JUST GET DIVORCED on it even though i wrote the fucking narrative i know #it will never fucking happen and thats why she does all this shit instead #in another world she'd be like the wildly capable owner of Raytheon 2 or some other shit like that. like she'd never be a nice or good #person but she wouldn't be dead. god she could be in charge of a country or some shit. Alas. Please get divorced.

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forgotten-daydreamer · 9 months ago

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please do not tell me you like how i write, because i will inevitably think i'm decent at it and think i'm worth appreciating

#i wish i could actually accept compliments #like on ao3 i just say “thank you so much!!” but i'd like to grab the commenters' shoulders and shake them ->#-> and yell “stop i'm literally tricking you into thinking i'm any good but i'm not and this is an elaborate prank on both parts!!”#man. man. fucking shit. i want to cry #i'm so fucking upset because why did my high school italian (my native language) teacher always tell me i wasn't any good at this?#and. and i had her for 5 fucking years. i internalised that shit.#i graduated high school five fucking years ago and her words are still in my head #and every time i write i always think nobody is going to fucking understand a word i'm trying to say #and even in uni. i graduated uni too ok? and. nobody ever told me my essays sucked.#so one would think i would've unlearnt the hatred by now. well. i did not.#i want to fucking cry #why am i so stuck in the past #why cant i just. move on

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gingerbreadmonsters · 5 months ago

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[melting into goo]

#i made the mistake. of opening up a wip that began more than a year and a half ago #and Oh My God #it is like being blasted in the face with a garden hose of everything about my writing from that time that i now can't STAND #ITS SO CRINGE #HOW DID ANY OF YOU PUT UP WITH ME #godddddd im going to have to rip all the wires out and start again from scratch #its also very funny because at the time it was the longest wip i had ever had #and it was on track to be the longest thing i had ever written #so i was like wow........ this is so cool........#besties the entire document (including the plan and all the unfinished text) is just less than 9.7k #LESS THAN 10K #its almost exactly the same length as play it koi #WHICH TOOK LITERALLY FIVE DAYS #(i checked the document history)#THIS HAS BEEN NEARLY 2 YEARS #HEAD IN HANDS

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bloomfish · 2 years ago

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Omg men are the most pathetic. This guy who I had a thing with (ended terribly) FIVE YEARS AGO now works at a cafe I used to work at and even though I avoid speaking to him when I go in there he told me "not come in while he's working" because it stresses him out l. M. A. O. My impact

#according to the owner he gets rly bad anxiety to thr point of shaking when he sees me 🤨#i repeat this was five years ago #bruhhh #i was like 'idk ur schedule dude' so he just told me it lol #i literally cannot imagine being this big of a baby even to the 1 (other) guy that i never want to see #if he came into my work like yeah that would suck but id just deal with it thats just me tho #and that guy was so much worse than whatever i did to this dude i can guarantee it

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pepprs · 2 years ago

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update i have to apply for my own job for the SECOND time in two years by wednesday and im taking my learners permit test on friday which means i have to finish absorbing the drivers manual by then. the way i am LONGING to walk into traffic.

#the driving thing is just extra stress but the applying for my own job AGAIN thing is making me absofuckingLUTELY insane. this process was #so psychically damaging for me to go through a year ago and the fact that exactly a year later i am doing it again and have to jump thru all #the same hoops and write a new cover letter and find new references and INTERVIEW with my colleagues and all that… like i appreciate this so #much bc basically what is happening is im getting a raise and will be converted to a regular employee (im contractual rn bc that’s all they #could do when i graduated). but like the fact that i am once again under the MORTIFYING psychic stress of my colleagues being the search #committee and me being u able to talk to them abt this or get reassurance and them having to treat me like they don’t know me and this not #being guaranteed and other people potentially applying and me having to compete with them… it is too much fucking stress for me to go #through. it’s just too fucking much. i am so mentally and emotionally exhausted and now i have to walk through fire AGAIN⁉️⁉️⁉️ i wanna KMS #like it’s fine. but also the existential dreaddddd the way i cannot bear to live through this one more time but i have to and im going to. 😍#purrs #delete later #like i get it and i know it’s to make it fair and equitable. but whyyyyy do they have to put me through this again have i not proven myself #time and time again is this job not QUITE LITERALLY designed for me to be in it. and it’s not merely an annoyance it’s like… actively a #stressor that is taking years off my life just like it did last year and the timeline is even more accelerated bc last year i had two weeks #to apply and this time i have FIVE DAYS!!!!! and i have to reach out to references and i can’t do that until monday bc it’s the weekend 😭😭😭😭#like LMFOAHDHSKDHSODHAJJB of course this is happening to meeeeee im going fucking insane. also i might have to do this a THIRD time someday #and i would have to get a masters degree for that too. so basically the only path forward is CEASELESS suffering and psychic agony. there is #no hope for women. fuck my stupid baka life. but also this is a good thing and also i have it sooooo good which is soooo unfair to everyone #else for example possibly wasting everyone else’s time who applies for this job. but also fuck my stupid baka life.#technically im applying for this job for the second time in 365 days. like it’s not even two years it’s that i did this a year ago and now a #year later im doing it again. LESS than a year later. it hasn’t even been a full year yet. help 😻👍#if february 9 2022 me fucking knew what HORRORS awaited her 24 hours from then and 3 months from then and 5 months from then and 15 months f #from then. she would have imploded LMFAOOOOOOOO

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angelnumber27 · 2 years ago

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I want to murder the love I feel for the man that cheated on me twice and beat the fuck out of me every day while claiming he loved me more than anything

#He is now dating the girl he cheated on me with at LEAST twice FOUR years ago :-)#so awesome and great for me to know they probably stayed in contact that whole time! love that!#found out bc he got a text and it said ‘I could kiss you all day’.#while we were together and everything was fine. I don’t understand why he did that.#this shit literally makes me want to off myself lol #and it fucking sucks because we dated for five years and it was so good for so long #and I love him more than I’ve ever loved anyone #but there’s nothing I can do #he also was the one who got me addicted to fentanyl.#and as soon as he went to rehab and got sober he left me. I wasn’t clean yet and could have died and he just left.#found out soon after he’d been seeing her.#when he cheated he sent me multiple pictures of her naked and her in our bed.#and my dumbass got back together with him.#every time #I was fucked up before this relationship but now I am literally irreparable #I can’t heal from this shit #he’d tell me to kill myself #and say he wished I was dead #knowing how difficult shit was for me and how suicidal I was #he’d strangle me and spit on me and trip me and punch me in the face #he’d constantly tell me I ruined every aspect of his life and that I was the worst thing that ever happened to him.#then he’d tell me that I’m abusive because of my mental illnesses.#I’m so tired :(#I’m so fucking damaged and broken from this shit I cannot even put it into words.#abuse tw #physical abuse tw #physical abuse cw

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t4tdanvis · 1 year ago

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Laurence tries hugging Dante and he promptly bursts into tears

laurance is trying to be nicer to dante but the fact that dante doesnt hate him at all make it even harder somehow. like he cant apologize because dante will just go "no no you havent done anything wrong, IM sorry" and laurance just. doesnt know what to say to that. anytime he tries to show affection to dante, dante just starts crying and then feels bad and apologizes for it. which just makes laurance feel worse

#❄.txt #ask box #dante keeps asking gene 'did you do something to him?? he isnt yelling at me or anything anymore'#eventually after saying 'no i didnt do anything to him' a million times genes just like 'have you considered that he just. doesnt hate you'#dante has to silently process that for a couple minutes #laurance is trying to go back to how things were originally but now dante is super quiet and skittish and keeps crying every five minutes #at first laurance is like 'why dont i hate him anymore he literally killed aphmau????'#and then hes like 'that was. over a year ago now. and ive been- oh. oh'#he slowly realizes that hes been flat out abusive to dante for over a year and has probably caused dante just as much (if not more) pain #than dante caused him

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montanabohemian · 1 year ago

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so yesterday i had someone comment on a post i made on IG telling me how "offended" they were because i'd simply ended my post with the phrase "end the occupation and free palestine." so much of what they said was actually insane racist islamophobic bullshit and they managed to end their comment by calling all muslims terrorists and literally parroted the "they want to kill americans" fucking horseshit.

the person that made this comment was by someone i've literally known since grade school. i'm not close friends with them but i've gotten to know them over the years and never once thought they'd say anything like this. i actually thought it was a bot account for like a full minute.

i'm sadly not surprised at the rhetoric because that's where we are. we're right back to twenty years ago during the post 9/11 / war in iraq / war on terror fervor kicked off. i'm just. i had to fight this shit twenty years ago and here we are all over again, except this time with the added benefit of fucking social media.

if simply saying "free palestine" is so inflammatory for you, then that is your fucking problem to work through.

#this person commented a couple more times after i called them out on their racist remarks #including trying to pull the 'you support baby killers' bullshit #to which i said if you really condemn the murder of children #then by god you'd better be condemning israel who's been murdering them all fucking year. and last year. and every year.#and now this person has sent me multiple DMs trying to backtrack their fucking bullshit #and i haven't even read all of them because i don't have the energy for that. i just don't.#like until you retract your racist bullshit and apologize for it #then i am not giving you the time of day #i don't know you guys #i am not ready for this bullshit all over again; i mean i think all last week i was experiencing some trauma response to it #and by that i mean i dealt with this 20 years ago when i was in high school when i was one of maybe five out of 1500 that actively spoke ou #i don't remember any of my classmates ever saying anything to me; or if they did they certainly backed down if i challenged them on it #it came from the adults in my life – including teachers #when you're 15 years old and literally called a terrorist simply because you stand up and say 'hey this is a bad idea'#and when you are constantly bombarded with commentary about how all middle eastern people and all muslims are terrorists because ... ????#and when you are watching people get harassed and assaulted every single day simply because they *might* be arab because the government ...#... and the media said it was okay to do that #i don't know i guess i never realized it'd affected me until i started seeing the EXACT. SAME. RHETORIC. used *today*#and i'm just a white girl in montana like i can't even fathom the depths of pain this brings on POC who deal with this daily for years #it's just so devastating to see how quickly everyone has jumped on this 'let's kill all the muslims and arabs' train ALL OVER AGAIN #and seeing the horrifying responses by governments to shut down any pro-palestine speech or detain anyone who fucking looks palestinian #like this is just so so so so so so so so so so so so so bad #AND I'M ANGRY AND TIRED AND I NEED TO FUCKING SCREAM AND I'D LIKE TO SCREAM AT BIDEN FOR SUPPORTING GENOCIDE #sorry this is such a personal dump #i just needed to get it out there for my mental health ahahaha man i don't even know #i've already lost two close friends because they were upset that a palestinian on the news didn't condemn hamas in the way they wanted #like they're literally only qualifying palestinians by how they condemn others and not listening to what they're trying to fucking tell you #which is that the occupation and forced displacement of palestinian people is the root cause

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invinciblerodent · 1 year ago

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feeling particularly rabid today as I install bg3 onto MY BEAUTIFUL NEW PC!!!!!!!!

I don't know much about nothin

But one thing, I do know;

Shit's gonna be PRETTY

#squirrel plays bg3 #frankly I'm very tempted to not use my Arvid saves but just. remake him and start over #i missed a lot of content and the game did run and look like ass for a lot of it #i was way overdue for an upgrade tbh; my laptop's battery died literally five years ago #and even THEN it was kinda old #so my partner built me a pc and we bought it and it arrived today and it's preeeeeetty #(i specifically did not want any lights or bells and whistles)#(so it's all sleek and elegant on the outside but it's hiding a BEAST inside)#(and knowing myself I'll use it for the next ten to fifteen years unchanged)

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freakylilnutjob · 2 years ago

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not my father saying he doesn’t want to be the dad that treats his kids the way he was treated after getting butt hurt because I didn’t tell him I got a tattoo ✋💀

#sir…#he told my mom ‘did she think I’d be mad?’#UMM YEAH #you mocked me for crying when you’d yell at me #you yell when I don’t bring you something fast enough #you literally throw pots and pans around the kitchen when you get upset #you also told me you thought anyone with a tattoo was stupid #like…#OF COURSE ID THINK YOU’D BE MAD #and like good sentiment with the treating the kids better thing but like twenty five years too fucking late #the damage is done sir #and it’s detrimental #like too little too late #I guess good on you for starting to be self aware #if all I had to do was get a tattoo then I’d have done this shit a long time ago 😭#sav speaks

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