#depressing things

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[sa-dnesss]

I don't want to be this broken anymore, but pain feels like home.

[nudityandnerdery]

I know that enshittification specifically references the way that online services and search engines and stuff have gotten less and less useful, but the word also comes to mind every time I think about what's happened to something like the History Channel. Like, look at the videos on their YouTube channel:

They really used to have more history, and we thought it was bad when they had so much emphasis on World War II that we called it the Hitler Channel, but we didn't realize how much further it could fall.

Hey, @mostlysignssomeportents, can we officially extend the use of the term here, too?

[top-secret-suicide]

I feel like I'd be doing the world a favor if I killed myself. People's lives would be better without me.

[scarscardsandink]

have you ever had someone hurt you so badly

that anytime you let your mind wander to even the thought of it

it’s like you can physically feel it?

like inside your being burned and everything is being ripped down and shoved into the pit of your stomach?

-how am i supposed to get over it if i can’t even bear the slightest reminder of it?

[pain-neverends-blog]

It’s worse than ever before and I don’t fucking know what to do

[hot-cherri]

“There is an ocean of silence between us… and I am drowning in it.”

~Ranata Suzuki

[grungeaffliction]

[halfbloodprincess123]

I don’t understand how I can mean so little to everyone

I don’t understand how I can be so unlovable

I don’t understand how I can be so easy to forget

My heart can’t take the simple truth that I am nothing.

[norwoodx]

Tw:

[fandomhopper23]

When you're being realistic about a defined outcome, but your inherent personality is somehow optimistic, and gives you false hope, even though you know it's going to be brutally stamped out

[midnightmystical]

I really fucking hate that even when something super positive happens with/towards me with people my brain WILL eventually make to where I'm like "oh person only feels sympathetic they actually can't stand you" or "people WILL shit talk about you when you aren't around" or "people will fuck you over in life just because of my existence"(which has happened)

[societys-failures]

It all eventually comes crashing down.

The sadness returns, the empty pit in place of my stomach, heart and brain returns.

You find yourself in a sense of perpetual darkness all over again.

You know you are right back where you started, Where you’ll always end up.

[empty-weirdo]

Once again, I’m back here, this time it’s to vent. I was recently diagnosed with anxiety and depression, and after that PTSD came also along. Although I knew deep down that that would happen at some point, it was still hard to take in, like now it’s real. Now I have on paper not only that my health in general is fucked (I already had at that point heart problems and low blood sugar which caused often fainting and injuries, etc.), now I officially have it black on white that I’m mentally fucked as well. The psychiatrist gave me meds, but they are still not working after 2 weeks, I know that it takes some time, but still. Also I got something for sleeping because for the first time in my life I’m waking up sweating, not being able to go back to sleep. No matter what was happening in my life it never actually impacted my sleep, and now well I think to myself “Nice job, you’re 27 and it’s only getting worse. What’s next?”.

My health problems are all related to stress, which is a huge part of my life for a long period. Regarding my heart problems, they habe to insert an implant for heart monitoring. And that has yet to happen, because before that I have to finish physical therapy (I broke my arm when I fainted last time). I’m not able to work, I’m mostly going to the doctors and being home alone, which has not a good impact on my mental health.

So it’s all a vicious circle I cannot escape.

[boring-ally]

How could you?

If I saw you I’d run up to you and hug you.

But then I would have to break away, because all the sweet nothings you’d tell me would fill my body up and I’d fly away.

What happened to you not being able to live without me?

Our connection was so strong. You took that from me.

You’d try and pretend you were different, but you were just like them but with a manipulative twist.

I would still hug you just to feel what I thought was true.

I wanted it to be true so bad.

I wonder if you ever think about me.

You’re unforgettable, I know you like the back of my hand.

You linger in my mind. Show yourself so I can be done with you once and for all.

You are not my safety.

You were a fairytale, but this one didn’t have a happy ending.

How could you?

I change my mind.

If I saw you I would pretend you didn’t exist just like how you did to me.

You let it all drift apart.

How could you?

You lied to me. You lied to me.

You hurt me.

How could you?

Was any of it even true?

Was I ever enough for you?

How could you.

I loved you.

I loved you.

I don’t need you.

And I never did. But how could you?

You knew I was broken. You added onto my pain.

How could you.

I just wanted to me sane.

How could you?

[jackier0826]

🥀

I spent so much of my teenage years self isolating and pushing my friends away

And now I’m sat here facing the consequences of my actions in my 20’s

Some relationships have gotten better, but nothing will ever be the same as it was before I pushed everyone away