#deleting later. probably

[pleaseburger]

ok Im not gonna see my therapist for a while and journaling this feeling clearly isnt enough so now im gonna try posting about it online thatll help surely.

i constantly feel like the outsider in my friend groups but idk what to do about it. in my last main friend group we'd hang out together and play ttrpgs but they all talked to each other consistently remembered birthdays and did stuff together outside of our group hangouts.. i tried to let it not bother me but after i found out they had a second group chat without me in it something about that broke my heart. I couldnt believe them anymore whenever they did verbalize affection for me. it sucked so fucking bad. and then when I stopped running ttrpgs for that group they all predictably stopped talking to me one by one. whatever, I dont miss them anymore.

but the problem is that anxiety is still affecting me now. I try to reach out to my friends now and it feels like they want to speedrun the conversation, even though they clearly talk to each other. I happen to be in someone's city for weeks and even lunch isnt possible. they all remember each others birthdays, I know they know mine. idk. am I too abraisive? am I too much to care about? do I care too much about this?

Im perfectly capable of maintaining friendships that dont exist in a greater social circle, but it bothers me so much that in the context of a group, I get trampled over... idk, maybe my anxiety has damaged the way i see friend groups and im just not equipped to have them anymore until I can work through it in therapy.

[zarla-s]

Valve went through and banned a whole bunch of bots yesterday and when I last checked a couple hours ago, the Casual servers are still 99% actual people! If you want to try out TF2 DO IT NOW while you have the chance! Believe me when I say that having matches this clear of bots is RARE. They'll be back in force inevitably in probably a couple days so the window of opportunity here is small. Take the chance to play a normal round of TF2 Casual while you can!

[reyenii]

a) charles and edwin’s safe place is their office:

b) this scene was so domestic. charles is wearing his white tank top. edwin is wearing a shirt with the sleeves rolled up and the buttons on his top collar unbuttoned. he’s sitting on the couch in a comfortable pose.

c) but we don’t see anything like this when the boys are in port townsend. they "hide" behind their clothes almost all the time cause this is a new “place” for them which is not safe to be in

[naitmeir]

bet you guys didn't know that I have a genderbent jax design that makes out with ragatha

[notherpuppet]

Can we have a TIIIIINY spoiler

lol okay (I’m just gonna assume u mean my deer nanny?)

Honestly idk when i’ll articulate this short comic that takes place in the au. But it’s called “Bises”

[icarusredwings]

Maybe it's just me but do you guys ever think about how calmed down Wade would get if fucked regularly?? Unironically the chemicals that release during and after sex are some of the bodies best pain killers and seeing how he's chronically ill (in a sense) and probaby in pain multiple times a day, As well as the clarity you get afterwards.. might help him mentally.

I imagine it would be like putting him on Adderall.

Not that he doesn't already try to keep the house functional and managed, but I can see him sitting and humming while watching tv instead of doing something impulsive like coloring on a highway bridge. Dishes done, folding laundry, floors swept. He actually can remember to take out the trash now.

Of course hes still gonna say odd shit, you can't fuck that out of him, but still?

Better sleep, clearer mind, less pain?

I mean, sure, he's gonna get his pelvic crushed or his hip broke, or maybe even given 36 stab wounds, but I think it would do him some good. Especially to get all that energy out?

I just feel bad that his poor chosen mate is laterally a 200 year old man with a terrible diet and is an alchoolic.

Actually, you know what. Let the old man get some, too. Calm his ass right down. Maybe he'll stop having nightmares and stop chugging bottles, Who knows.

[soupthatwasreheated]

Alice Dyer is NOT Tim 2.0. Their humor is completely different. Canon Tim is incredibly different from fanon tim. He is funny sometimes, but when it comes down to it, his humor comes down to “millenial who makes the occasional pop culture reference and is jokingly flirty sometimes”. He knows what a meme is, but his meme knowledge is not that far advanced from “I can haz cheesburger” cat. He is not hip with the memes. Alice is the one who is hip with the memes. Please let this woman be cringe and let Timothy Stoker be free from the chains of comedic relief meme guy.

[greengoddesssmoothie]

In the recent past, women were told by society that they could have a fulfilling relationship or a career, but not both. There’s been a push to “have it all!” more recently, of course, but that’s not what this post is about. This post is about how James T. Kirk occupies the unique position of a male character who had to choose one or the other. There are few male characters other than him who are genuinely and unabashedly hopeless romantics who want to settle down but aren’t allowed to by the narrative. And if you view The Search for Spock as a romantic drama, then Kirk also kind of fulfills the typical female character trope of “learning that romantic love is actually more important than a career.”

As you can see, Captain James T. Kirk’s arc mirrors many female romance protagonists, and he is therefore, textually, wife material. In this essay, I will—

[beybuniki]

bokuto!

[cosmic-pr1nce]

being anti I*real is not antisemitic btw, I*real is a colonist state and it shouldn't exist. the entirety of I*real is stolen land, you can't be pro Palestine without being anti I*real

[bubbarnes]

“... happy superhero week from myself, me and I. and be very kind to your, I would imagine, camp leader because she's my friend and I miss her and I love her to death.”

[somethingwrongwithit]

Was spending my time trying to get used to procreate. happy valentines❤️ here’s a messy doodle cus I have no motivation to finish anything💕

[sippihippie]

[galactic-rhea]

Bunch of WIPs without context

My ADHD won't let me work on one thing at once

[bixels]

The Ryoko Kui interview's reception is such a disaster over a pretty normal (yet still flawed) interview between a non-Japanese fan and Japanese artistic. This is discourse for discourse's sake, and it's no surprise that almost every Twitter user I've looked at who's using this interview to parade Kui around as a goated mangaka standing strong against Western ideology is anti-trans.

Like, I do think the interview was kinda wonky with its focus on fandom culture, which Kui clearly didn't have much interest in. But sometimes that happens. Sometimes interactions between two people, especially a fan and a creator, two people who view and interact with a piece of media in completely opposite perspectives, don't click. Does this really need to get blown up into a "West vs. East culture war" issue.

Anyways, Kui saying "I don't consider my audience's interpretations when writing. I leave it to their imaginations, but I have my own read on things too" is the healthiest, most normal thing an artist/writer who wants a non-parasocial audience could say. Artists and writers use this line all the time. If Kui didn't enjoy autistic Laius or Farcille headcanons, she would have probably voiced/signalled her discomfort, like she did on the topic of Senshi fanservice. Overall, Kui handled the interview really well. Props to her to sticking to her guns and keeping a healthy disconnect from the fandom. While I think the interviewer could've/should've been more tactful and restrained, the flaws in their questions is not a symptom of the woke mind virus trying to wriggle its way into the pure Japanese psyche. It's the sign of an over-eager fan who sees a piece of fiction differently than its creator.

[learnelle]

I just love these pictures of Sylvia Plath. ❤️