#day 8 sober

[p4nishers]

starting a support group for everyone who felt personally victimized by tiny nobby nobbs in night watch

[wiirocku]

1 Thessalonians 5:8-9 (NASB1995) - But since we are of the day, let us be sober, having put on the breastplate of faith and love, and as a helmet, the hope of salvation. For God has not destined us for wrath, but for obtaining salvation through our Lord Jesus Christ,

[franciscrozierofficial]

Captain’s Blog.

The northern lights aren’t hideous tonight. I can see their ribbon-dance from my window— I still haven’t been well enough to leave my chambers, but the thrice-damned withdrawals are finally receding. I felt… better, today.

I woke up to a warm bed. Thomas snores very gently in his sleep. It’s a steady, tidal sound.

He’s off duty now. I wonder if he ever feels like he’s on-duty, when he’s only with me. I wonder if in those times he sees himself as I do: Thomas, my Tom. not just Mr. Jopson. Hopefully by now he’s gotten some supper in him. He’s been getting too thin. I worry.

Also worth noting: Mr. Collins claims to be pregnant will Pilkington’s child, Dr. Stanley was nearly drowned— and— Lt. Hodgson has found company with Lt. Le Vesconte. This last piece of news is the only one I feel personal tie to. My hatred for the latter is not sufficient to prevent my well-wishes to the former. Hodgson deserves comfort and stability. I only hope that his beaux can provide that for him.

Speaking of stability, I received word (via one of the ship’s boys I caught blabbing by my door) that at the Carnivale Lt. Le Vesconte proposed publicly to Captain Fitzjamie, and received no answer.

I hope she’s well. I know, from the other end of things, incomplete proposals can wear on the heart.

…. At least…. The Aurora is a marvel tonight. These green curtains, that purple shower of light, dousing the stars… Almost makes all this worth it. I hope, wherever and however she is, Jamie can see it too.

End of Captain’s Blog.

[t-ierrahumeda]

Very very slowly changing my bad habits and doing my best to keep going with the good ones. Wish me luck ✌️

[lupismaris]

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[natugood]

Today is the first day in a little over one month I didn’t drink!! I’m proud of myself.

[ponyboi-69]

.Here we go. Send good vibes and wish me good luck.

[camvrin]

im a hundred percent positive Devon's the only person I can not get inherently snappy with 😭🙏🏽

[ghostzzy]

ok fuck it i got my period so i am officially not going to brunch. instead i am just going to my mom’s to watch vampires, then i’ll pick up my groceries, then i’ll come home and be insane about vampires, and take a nap, and then stardew valley and vampires the night away.

[alcohol-eyes]

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[neonstatic]

literally when i come back from work i shouldn't have to do a single thing. like i don't wanna touch the dishes or a broom or the trash. and i know i don't sound different from the working-husband stereotype but the thing is this isn't coming from misogyny or traditionalism.....i'm just a tired piece of shit.

[gramarobin]

I wish this was me right now ❤️

John Collier (detail)

[svckpuppy]

genuinely our roommate is th most hilarious woman alive. grl kill yrself

[episbep]

rehab day twenty

last night one of my housemates came to my room with this “little bit of zen” stone stack that he made from stones at the local beach (what a sweetheart, he knows I’ve been struggling recently and I will keep this forever and ever)

started off the day with my new morning routine which I think set the tone for the day as I have been more positive, less stressed about things I can’t control and ready to tackle this addiction head on. I’m ready to really commit to making this change now and the euphoric recall/self-gaslighting is becoming much less frequent - if anything I am scared to use as I know where it has led and will inevitably lead again (jails, institutions or death as NA would say- absolute hopelessness and misery imo) had a meeting at the centre first thing then went to the beach! It was gorgeously sunny and I swam in the sea with my rehab buddies (almost all of us were there) then caught some rays on the sand - my little crush called me pretty while we were in the sea🥰 I went back to the house and had a video call dance party with my baby💖✨ then a Mindfulness Based Recovery Program online meeting in which I shared and multiple people said it was helpful to them - win☺️ did my gratitude list and goals for tomorrow, packed up some shells that I got from the beach to send home and wrote a little note to go with them before I made a falafel salad for dinner and watched the match (England lost but it was actually a good match to watch tho especially the second half) now having a bath then heading to bed, so I’m fresh and ready for what tomorrow brings…

[bunnybevvyy]

[thinkingofausername]

some things from mouthwashing that i think need more attention:

UPDATED (again 😂) because I've been corrected on some things

jimmy, as co-captain, was unfortunately needed and couldn't be disposed of

pony express should carry the brunt of the blame - sending people into space and THEN telling them they're fired; not installing locks in the sleeping quarters; etc.

anya said "i have to believe our worst moments don't define us", implying she forgave curly, at least to an extent

every moment seen through jimmy's eyes could and should be questioned. he's an unreliable narrator

jimmy wanted curly to take the blame. he wanted the crew to blame him. the game wanted us to blame him for the crash (until the reveal)

curly got burned because he faced the explosion head-on; trying to fix things

anya died first; she did it with the last remaining painkillers which could've been used for curly; she even did it in front of him

jimmy shamed and attacked curly during the birthday scene and curly didn't react; implying their relationship was never smooth and truly friendly

it was never explicitly shown what anya said to curly. perhaps she never specified jimmy raped her. curly was shocked when she said she was pregnant, he didn't connect it with anything

anya telling jimmy she was pregnant is what made him crash the ship

it's implied anya told swansea about jimmy and he did nothing. he only attacked jimmy a while later, as revenge for daisuke

it's possible curly was only ever visited by jimmy, aside from anya

jimmy crashed the ship 147/365 days into the trip (they've got 7.2 months to go); the same day anya told him she's pregnant. assuming she found out a bit before that, and she could've found out within a month, by the time they got off the ship she would've been around 8 months pregnant - she would NOT have given birth on the ship

swansea had been 15 years sober

curly most likely wouldn't survive the cryopod. entirely skinless and then frozen? hell

curly was the only one to have clearance for the sweetener

curly very pointedly looks at jimmy ALL the time after the crash

after curly's conversation with jimmy (the "feet in cement" one), right before jimmy crashed the ship, the screen goes black and there's heavy breathing, implying curly was left panicking

jimmy gives curly medicine 3 times - first, with anya relatively nearby, a fairly normal intervention; second, with no one nearby, where jimmy assaults curly; third, alone again, he doesn't assault curly but he still cries, he's permanently scared of jimmy

curly was already struggling with insomnia before the crash

while anya was locked in medical, jimmy told daisuke she might do something to curly

anya said the mouthwash couldn't be used as disinfectant and jimmy still did it

jimmy drugged swansea; he convinced daisuke to go in the vent by saying swansea would be proud of him

curly and anya and jimmy all talk of "handling things"

jimmy says curly receives praise all the time; implying he was a good captain (he was also the only one to get exceptional references)

swansea had a wife and kids; daisuke mentions his mother, the creators of the game said curly loved spending time with friends and family. they had people waiting for them

jimmy said cartoon horses excite him and anya's baby is presented as a horse