#cw hyperfocus

[sprinkleofquirk]

Rather than explain that I cannot have Asperger’s syndrome because that hasn’t been included in the DSM since 2013 since Hans Asperger was, among other things, a fucking Nazi, I used my ✨healthy coping mechanisms✨ (kinda) and made these 🙃

And I say ‘kinda’ because I don’t… exactly… remember? Making them? They just kinda… ✨appeared✨ and a few hours had passed

[majicmarker]

i'm starting a long weekend of WRITING today and am almost immediately stuck on the make-out scene, where did i put that fckin discount economy-sized bottle of wine.........

[pineyw00dsshesquatch]

Why did the flesh wad require food????

so fucked up that i have to take care of my body everyday. what if sometimes i feel sad about the maintenance

[theaistired]

Important things I learned yesterday:

Starting a 30 min timer before enganging in something I am probably going to hyperfocus on is a good idea - HOWEVER! I need to put my water bottle right next to my phone, because otherwise I will just restart the timer without doing things my body requires of me (like eating, drinking etc.). If the bottle is right next to it, I will actually remember to drink something and take a break when needed.

Also I need to put an alarm clock in the kitchen for the same reason. If I need to go to the kitchen to turn the alarm off, I will (hopefully, haven't tested the theory yet) get something to eat, instead of going back to what I was doing.

When my head is spinning and I fell sick because I haven't changed my sitting position for 5 hours, have been staring at my sketch book or tablet screen and drawing for five hours, haven't had something to drink in 5 hours, and haven't had something to eat in 8 hours, drinking a glass of coca cola is fine. Eating a cookie in hopes of getting my stomach used to food again before eating something heavier IS A BAD IDEA! The cookie will not stay in. Eat crispbread instead. Do I like it? No. Does it stay in my body after eating it? Yes.

I need to find crispbread that I like eating.

My brother is exactly the type of person I need to look after me when something like this happens. Doesn't make a fuss, totally calm, and just gives help as necessary. Like handing me crispbread. My brother is great.

Our cat wasn't aware that she is not the only living being in this household capable of throwing up. I have never seen her this shocked.

If anybody has additional tips to help with stuff like this, I would appreciate it!

Also, English isn't my first language and it has been years since I was corrected and graded on grammar. The punctuation is probably wrong, sorry about that (other stuff is probably wrong as well, also sorry about that.)

[irisintheafterglow]

uno wild card: stop writing for coparenting!megumi with satoru or draw 25

me, with 95 cards already in my hand:

also cw this is angst/comfort 'cause apparently i'm in the mood for pain

"shh, shh, baby. you're okay. i'm right here. you're okay." his breath is still rapidly uneven, chest heaving while you hold him in your lap on his mattress. "megs, you need to breathe. you're okay. i've got you." it wasn't often that megumi had nightmares; but, every few months, something triggered in his mind and had him seeing monsters that weren't real. as if by instinct, you felt that something was off tonight. there wasn't any time for explanation as you peeled satoru's arms from your torso, just a hyperfocus on the panicked child in the next room over.

"i don't-i don't-" his voice breaks into strangled cries and his little fingers grip tighter on your clothes, one of satoru's old pajama shirts. fat drops run down his cheeks, eyes irritated and red. you continue to hush the boy, gently running your fingers through his hair as his tears soak through the fabric of your top.

"they won't get you, megs. i promise," you whisper into his temple, pressing your lips tenderly to his forehead. "you're okay." his chokes for air have decreased slightly, but he's still trembling like you'd just pulled him from a frozen-over lake.

"where's satoru?" you sigh, chest aching at the implications of those two words. it wasn't that megumi didn't want you there. whatever woke him up must have distressed him so much that he was actually acknowledging your boyfriend. it broke your heart into a few more pieces.

"next door, fast asleep. do you want me to go get him?" he immediately tenses against you, wrapping his arms around your neck so you couldn't get up. "megs?"

"please don't leave me," he pleads. his voice is small and riddled with fear. you nod, slipping one arm under his tiny legs so that he's hanging on you like a monkey.

"can i bring you to our bed? is that okay?"

"mhmm," he hums exhaustedly into your shoulder. his breaths have evened out to a relatively calm rhythm, but he still holds on to you like you'd launch into the stratosphere if he let go. pulling back the covers with one hand, you gently set the boy down next to satoru, who sleepily blinks open a curious blue eye.

"and where might you be going?" he quietly asks in the darkness of the room, propped on an elbow as you make to go back to megumi's bed. megumi was already fast asleep, curled into himself with satoru's hand protectively on his head.

"i'll be right back; i'm gonna go grab his wolf."

"come back quickly. i miss you," he yawns and you can tell it's taking a lot out of him to not fall back asleep. still, his constant need for your presence has you chuckling under your breath.

"i've been awake for five minutes, love."

"five minutes too long, so hurry up." it's barely twenty seconds that you're gone, picking up megumi's favorite stuffie and crawling back under the blankets with your boys. his arms unconsciously wrap around the wolf and he sighs deeply in contentment. despite the calm, your chest still felt like it was aching for the boy and it was almost too much. it almost is, until satoru's hand reaches out to brush your cheek with his knuckles. "hey, beautiful."

"hi, handsome. you okay?"

"i'm great, albeit a little sleepy," he drawls, glancing down at the snoring kid between your bodies. "nightmare?" you hum in assent, pulling megumi closer when he flips over to hug you. satoru takes his chance and tugs both of you into him until his arms stretched over both you and megumi. "he say what it was about?"

"he didn't, though it must have been pretty bad since he was asking for you," you reply. you expect a lightheartedly indignant protest, but all you're met with is a deep, deep frown. "why the face?"

"poor kid shouldn't be having nightmares so bad that he forgets he hates me." you scoff, careful not to wake the kid. your kid.

"he doesn't hate you, satoru."

"okay," he concedes, "'mildly dislikes' for the sake of comedy."

"there you go," you smile at him and he gazes lovingly back at you.

"you know, i really didn't plan for you to be part of this mentorship equation," he confesses and your eyebrow raises in question of his point. "but," he continues, pressing a kiss to your nose. "i'm so glad you're in it."

"i love you, satoru."

"you promise?"

"on the moon and the stars."

[froggibus]

Saw your post!! Any thoughts on what Junkrat, Mei, Venture, and Sombra might do if their respective s/o's wanted a prize from a claw machine? Who can actually do? What do they do if they can't?

Claw Machine - Junkrat, Mei, Sombra & Venture

Genre: fluff, little crack

Summary: how your s/o would win (or steal) you a prize from a claw machine

CW: sombra’s a jerk, established relationships, theft (in a funny silly goofy way), Ven gets stuck in a claw machine, none of these people are good at games sorry

thanks so much for giving me a cute fluffy req ^^ I really appreciate it. sometimes writing so much smut gets a little overwhelming so I am grateful for fun little ideas like this!! 💓 hope you’re having a great day lovely someone pls remind me in the morning to give this a proper banner

@kitsune-loves-fics wrote a beautiful continuation of Venture’s part! come check it out here 💓

Junkrat:

insists he’s the best at claw machine games

he is not.

however he will spend all day and all the money he has just so he could get you whatever prize you wanted

unrelated but Mako is probably crazy at claw games

keeps promising he’ll win it for you but progressively gets worse and worse at the game

eventually gets annoyed and starts shaking the machine

please walk away it’s so embarassing

if that doesn’t work he will literally break the glass and just grab the toy for you

gets down on his knee like a dork and hands it to you

“for you, little cricket”

grabs your hand and runs away giggling from security

you’re legally obligated to keep the toy forever or else he’ll get sad

Mei:

probably average at the claw game

she won’t try all day but if you really want it, she’ll give it at least ten tries

gets kind of confused when she can’t win and decides to apply some science to it

literally calculates a bunch of math based on how fast it moves, how far away it is, size of everything etc

the math still doesn’t help

some kid probably comes up and does it on the first try and she’s staring at them like ‘how’

is completely focused on this damn claw machine now just to get you a little plushy

please bring her a drink or something to boost her mood

when you walk away she’ll try to put her hand in the machine but her arms are too short :(

in the end she recruits snowball and together they manage to get you your little plushy ^^

however she feels so guilty about it after she has to confess to you

Sombra:

she will never let herself be defeated by ANY machine

she’ll probably tell you to win it for yourself and lean against the machine with a smirk while she watches you

you’ll pout at her and beg for her help but she wants to see how ‘dedicated’ you are first (whatever that means)

eventually she gives in (she can never resist you) and steps up to try the game

and immediately loses.

doesn’t even try again, she just hacks it and forces it to do whatever she wants

doesn’t just grab you one plushy, she practically cleans out the whole machine

“liv can we just leave? people are starting to stare?”

“just one more, cariño”

it will not be just one more, but how can you resist when she’s being so sweet?

Venture:

dork ass steps right up the minute you press your face on the glass and coo about how cute it is

“don’t worry babe, I got this”

(they really do not)

they will hyperfocus on it and play it for literal hours

they’re not even bad at it—they keep winning prizes, just not the one that you want

you could leave for ten minutes and come back and they’ll still be trying it

after maybe an hour of playing they get you to stand on the side and shake it for them

if that doesn’t work, they try to shove their arm up there but they’re so muscly they get stuck

you end up having to call the fire department to get them unstuck lol

and the owner of the place feels so bad (or maybe embarrassed) for you guys that they unlock the machine and just give you the toy

masterlist | overwatch masterlist

(if you enjoy content like this, interactions go a long way! comments, likes & rbs are always greatly appreciated ^-^ !!)

[crimsonbubble]

ok so like ive never requested anything so sorry if this is like bad or anything but… but like have you seen tomas talk to peacemaker? I need him to be rough with me and talk like that cause like it’s so perfect what the FLIP! he’s such a smart ass LMAO so yeah like fem reader, preferably smut with dom tomas but it’s fine if you do fluff or smth I just need to see more content of tomas ,, (feels like I’m ordering at a restaurant rn)

cw. nsfw, afab!reader, pussy slapping, fingering, oral, nipple play, face sitting, squirting, creampies, breeding kink, overstimulation, pet play *not proofread, just pure horny

[DOMTOMA DOMTOMASDOMTOMASDOMTO- *gunshot*] @smmy-winchster

Pussy slapping with dom Tomas is a need

He’s got some nice hands for it too

A pretty cock too but let’s focus on his hands for a sec

Big, rough and warm

Perfect for teasing you

Fingering your sticky cunt and taunting your clit by hovering over the sensitive bud

His dick is not too long, not too short, pretty thick with a slight curve to the right

He does the thing where he smacks his leaky tip against your clit before he fucks you

He loves to see you jolt and squirm when he does it

Has to rub his cock through your slick folds before he fills you up

He absolutely loves to eat you out

He could have you for breakfast, lunch, dinner and a midnight snack

He has an infatuation with your clit and nipples

Doesn’t matter how he’s pleasing you, he tends to focus on your clit and nipples

He could he latched onto your tits while his hand is buried between your thighs, rubbing and circling your clit

Or when he’s eating you out; using his broad figure to hold your thighs apart so he can suck your pulsing clit into his mouth while his hands are fondling your tits

He literally can not get enough of you

He’s the type to literally spread your pussy open so he can hyperfocus on your clit

On the topic of being eaten out, SIT ON HIS FACE

Lapping up anything you have to offer him

Okay so, squirting…

He’s asking for it. Soak him.

Getting finger fucked so good you soak him and the bed

BACKSHOTS. DEMONIC BACKSHOTS

His thrusts are hard and heavy

You would smack your head into the headboard if he wasn’t holding onto your hips to pull you back onto his cock

He has no problem with using you like a cum dump

He loves to leave you needy cunt filled and covered in his cum

Gathering what leaks out of your hole just to push it back into you

Overstim comes naturally this way

He loves to fill you up, leave you all doped out of cock and cum

He uses faux sympathy a lot and he’s fucking sexy for it

“Aw, is it too much for you, baby?”

“Slow down? I can barely move with how much you’re sucking me in, pup.”

“You’re just so fucking needy for me, huh? Just needed my cock to fill your messy cunt.”

He’s the type to pull you down onto his cock when you’re about to ride him

Like you’re trying to ease down but he gets impatient and splits you open by grabbing your hips and pushing you down

While you’re mewling about the sudden stretch of his cock inside you, he’ll bounce you on his cock himself

[redsrooftopprincess]

Disability HCs

Not all mutations are going to be cool and hot, and let's face it, the world wasn't built for our boys. Here are some things they struggle with...

CW: Mental and physical disabilities, but thought that was obvious. 😅

Raphael:

Weight/Chronic Pain. The harness that he wears strapped across is chest isn't part of his battle gear. Being the biggest of his brothers, his shell is also the heaviest, and no one was ever meant to carry that much weight. Without support, he's likely to shatter bones jumping from rooftop to rooftop. Donnie designed a harness for him that distributes the weight evenly, but he's still in constant pain. He works out not just because he enjoys it, but because his muscles have to be able to carry him, and the more he can carry the less pain he's in.

Bipolar II. His highs are pretty chill, but his lows get DARK. Depending on where his head is when they hit, he'll either double his patrols or lock himself in his room. Violence or isolation are his go to. The only thing that seems to take the edge off is pressure therapy. He's a physical guy and the combination of physical touch, pressure, and being held by someone who isn't disgusted by or afraid of him, makes hugs the most effective and ready available option. Just don't ever point it out, he'll deny it forever. His brothers will plan a movie night that will inevitably end up in a turtle-pile (except for D, because "someone has to make sure you idiots don't knock over the popcorn").

Donatello:

Poor vision (duh). Degeneration from working in less-than-optimal lighting conditions and staring at screens for hours on end.

Hypermobility. He grew the fastest and the tallest of his brothers, which caused extreme hypermobility. His height, weight, and the addition of hundreds of pounds of gear means he's always in danger of dislocation. He wraps his joints tightly and meticulously before heading out, and wears flexible leg braces under his pants that he designed himself.

AuDHD as FUCK. Doesn't like to be touched, other than by his person, and even then only when he's expecting it. Has safe foods and will go without eating for days if they run out, but will completely forget to mention it to whoever is sending the grocery list to April. He's passed out more than once. Hyperfocus is an issue and the rage is real. His brothers have to sometimes force him out of the lab to eat or sleep. He can be very efficiently cruel when interrupted.

Michaelangelo:

Chronic Depression. Covers it well with being the "party guy," but once everyone else goes to bed, the smile fades. More than once he's had to drink or smoke himself to sleep. Cabin fever makes it worse. His brothers know it's getting really bad when he starts taking shots at himself, and plan something fun to do to get him out of the lair.

Cold intolerance. He's more sensitive to temperature than his brothers, and, being a reptile, hypothermia is a real concern. Keeps a (very stylish, tyvm) jacket or hoodie on him at all times, usually tied (very stylishly) around his (very stylish) waist. He forgot one night and almost fell off a building when he passed out. Since then, Donnie always carries a (not as stylish) spare.

Leonardo:

Migraines. Sudden and powerful. He knows that once he starts seeing auras he has about 15 minutes before they hit. Peace, quiet, and dim candlelit rooms are his best friend. Blue light makes them worse, so he tries to avoid Donnie's lab when he can. Nothing really helps, so mind-over-matter is really his only option, especially if they're in the middle of patrol.

OCD and it's a problem. NO ONE is allowed in his room. Everything has a place and everything is IN it's place and that is where it will STAY. Has daily rituals that must be adhered to or his anxiety his the roof. His anxiety exhibits as toxic control and the others know when he's in a bad place because he can be a REAL dick. Meditation is the only thing that really helps.

Everyone:

Lactose Intolerance. All are allergic to dairy, Mikey doesn't care. Everyone else does.

MBD. The lack of UV light means they're at risk for Metabolic Bone Disease. They take calcium and phosphorus supplements that Donnie mixes up for them

Hypothermia. While Mikey is the most at risk, hypothermia is a problem for all of them, especially in the colder months. Donnie invented a device that distributes heat across the inside of their shells after a near-fatal outing during a blizzard, but they still bundle up to keep the heat in.

Dehydration. As semi aquatic reptiles living on land, humidity levels are important. During the summer it's usually not an issue, but during the winter months Splinter is constantly reminding them to drink water, and they all have their own water bottles. Mikey's has stickers.

Shedding/Skin issues. Shedding is

U N C O M F O R T A B L E

They only shed their scutes once a year (and thankfully not at the same time), but they would rather land shell-first in an ant hill. For 2-3 weeks the unlucky one has a basically non-existent fuse, and more than once when they were younger the frustration and discomfort brought them to tears. Occasionally, it still does. Loading up on Vitamin E and keeping things a little more humid in the lair helps things move faster. They also have sensitive skin. The water at the lair is all UV filtered, but when they have to grab a quick shower at April and Casey's they're itchy for days.

.....

If you want to hear more HCs or anything that lmk! Love you! 💚

[the-s1lly-corner]

Your honor may I request Goob x reader who doesn't like touch/hugs

Goob x reader who doesn't like touch

Went into dandys only for rodger. Quickly falling in love with the other characters. Love when that happens because usually I tend to hyperfocus on one character per interest idk why I do that

Notes: gn reader, toon reader, mostly pre game stuff but there may be mentions of post game stuff in regards to goobs ability

CWs: none

Oooooooh poor little guy not giving you some loving is killing him on the inside- but he doesn't want to step on your toes and make you uncomfortable

He does the little grabby hands when he sees you, visibly restraining himself from pulling you into a hug

His claws are twitching/j

You know how some people have cuteness aggression and they sometimes tense their fingers above their pet before aggressively petting them? That's kinda like that but goob doesn't touch you at all

Channels that energy into words- he's more used to showing affection through actions but he will try to verbalize it instead for you

Absolutely elated when you give him the green light to hug you/you initiate first

Hc that he has a tail. And it's wagging at Mach 20 speeds

Has a mini crisis when he sees you trying to outrun a twisted, about to get hit... on one hand you don't like touch and he doesn't know if you'll be upset at him... on the other your safety is on the line

Your life always comes first, he tugs you to him and immediately apologizes (please assure him he doesn't need to in these scenarios)

[winniefrezcomics]

I got reminded of these when I saw a repost

A mini comic you drew a while ago shows Iris in jail with Perry talking to him through glass. Perry has a smile and is guessing what they charged him on in a joking manner, also based on the wording of Perry and Iris conversation it isn't the first time he has been arrested.

So I was wondering if there was a pacific event that did lead him to getting arrested and i'm so curious what Perry's reaction was to seeing or being told his boyfriend was arrested.

Sorrry this is so long I just love your AU! And character designs 💙💜 (*´ ˘ `*)

AWH TYSM!! 🥺💕❤️ dw i love long questions dbdbddhjd, ranting incomprehensibly abt my AU satiates the hyperfocus demons 😂😂

Tbh for a second I got confused bc I thought u were talking abt a doodle comic I never finished or posted, but then I remembered this magma doodle exists 😂😂

Dug that comic out to finish it for this ask too tho bc I lowkey forgot I was almost done w it ☠️☠️ ty for the reminder mwah mwah 😚

SO UH- I feel like in a human AU, it would only make sense for Irep to have an EXTENSIVE criminal record, starting even back in elementary school 😂😂

Infodump under cut- (Cw for incarceration, false imprisonment, and a VERY brief mention of child abuse at the end- spoiler: Iris rocks an abusers shit HARD and goes to prison for it but jokes on them bc Perry and Iris then adopt his daughter and give her the loving parents she deserves 💙💜)

Kid Iris probably got sent to Juvie a few times but never stayed long because his rich daddy would either bail him out or prevent him from being emitted entirely- same story for his teen years- as far as WHAT lands him in juvie/jail in his youth, the general answer is “doing whatever the fuck he wants and having no concern over the consequences” wheeze

Vandalism, fist-fights, petty theft, grand theft auto, trespassing, breaking and entering- that sort of thing- his parents will always forgive him, so Iris has VERY little forethought when it comes to what actions may lead to getting him in legal trouble ☠️

HOWEVER, once Iris turned 18 and was legally an adult, his dad had more trouble bailing him out every time, so he had to serve a few short sentences here and there, but just sort of got used to the pattern of “do whatever the fuck I want, serve jail time if the cops catch me, go back to doing whatever the fuck I want” 😂😂

Perry is never PLEASED to hear that Iris has been arrested again, but he’s also never surprised. usually Perry will either just sigh and reschedule thier upcoming dates, or if Iris has pissed him off recently, break up w him for the hundredth time only to inevitably take him back once Iris is released and stands outside his window w a boombox in the pouring rain or some other equally dramatic romantic gesture 😂

(Sidenote: I think another reason (anti) Cosmo starts to have trouble keeping Iris out of the hands of the law is that HE HIMSELF starts to get into hot water for stuff like tax fraud and embezzlement wheeze)

Unfortunately my friend you have activated my ANGST TRAP CARD w this one- check out below the cut for a huge infodump abt Iris’ Jailtime; specifically the worst ‘breakup’ he and Perry EVER had, that took them years to reconcile from! 🥰

His LONGEST sentence (the one where Perry LOST TRACK of him for multiple years) happened after Iris and Perry had a fight about Perry being “too boring” and “always trying to smooth down his edges” so they kind of sort of decide to go on a break, and Iris is too mad to even give his boyfriend a kiss goodbye (a decision he would come to regret for his ENTIRE LIFE).

Iris drags Sammy Sweetsparkle on an INSANE party binge in Tijuana or something- at some point losing track of Sammy, but deciding he’s having too much fun to stop now…. Only to end up taking the fall for a stranger in a HUGE drug bust of some kind, and getting thrown into a prison in MEXICO with NO SPANISH FLUENCY and no way to contact his friends and family back home ☠️☠️

Perry spends YEARS trying to find his boyfriend, losing weight, barley sleeping, and just generally making himself SICK with worry to the point that Timmy and his parents had to BEG HIM to just move on with his life, bc they couldn’t stand to see him wither away like that.

Despite having been dating thier son for multiple years, Perry actually didn’t have a very close relationship with Iris’s parents at the time, so even though at first he was constantly calling them for updates, by the time AC and AW actually FOUND thier son years later, they’re weren’t sure if Perry’s number was correct anymore, so when Wanda called Perry to excitedly tell him that they had FINALLY found Iris, unfortunately it’s TIMMY that happens to answer the phone.

Perry is staying with his brother for a short time to get back on his feet after finally giving up on finding his boyfriend and starting to apply for teaching jobs (something he got a college degree for but took a few years to pursue bc dating mid-20s Iris was a full time fuckin job tbh). Timmy is so glad that his brother is finally doing better, and, though secretly relived to hear Iris isn’t DEAD like Perry had been assuming, Timmy makes a hard (maaaaybe wrong as hell of him) decision… he tells Wanda she has the wrong number, and to never call again. 🙃

Lemme know if yall wanna hear about thier eventual reunion! Trust me, this peice makes it look WAY less traumatic and messy than it was 😬☠️ Iris basically does EVERYTHING WRONG HE POSSIBLY COULD HAVE to delay thier eventual reconciliation 😔

Iris serves one more long sentence AFTER he and Perry make up and start dating again, but the reason is actually a noble one this time, and iris turns himself in willingly to prove to Perry that he’s not a killer, and he IS trying to be better (Iris found out one of Perry’s students had a horrifically abusive father and beat him within an inch of his life 💙 they later adopted said student)

which I mention here only so that I can ALSO post this art of thier SECOND post-jail reunion, which is MUCH more joyful and sappy than the first sobs- thier daughter is definitely present for this, just so itty bitty she’s off-screen lmao

Ty for the question! I actually dug most of this infodump out of a discord server, but I’m glad to have it archived here now too uwu

[wickjump]

HELLO INTERNET AND WELCOME TO [wickjump]: REDUX ...again

My name is Wick (she/they/star/it), also known as Wickskip (TikTok), Wickjump (Tumblr), or Hopwick (AO3*).

On all platforms my content centers around Undertale and the Undertale Multiverse, however I’ll also sometimes reblog/post about a few other fandoms.

PROSHIP DNI.

What I post and reblog can contain themes of violence/abuse, mental illness, whump/grimdark/dead dove/fictional gore, suicide/self harm, suggestive themes, and more. For those reasons, this blog is intended for audiences 16+ in age. I write and enjoy grimdark content, keep that in mind.

Reblogs that may contain these themes often go untagged!

🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️ TRANS CROSS CANON 🩵🩷🤍🩷🩵

information zone /ᐠ - ˕-マ｡˚ᶻ 𝗓

[⁉️] byf/dni:

dni: pro/com/dark (i do not support harassment or doxxing), xvials, TERFs, zionists/pro-isreal, anti-semitics, bigots. aka obvious assholes

byf: i will sometimes post/reblog things of a suggestive nature, but none of said posts will be graphic nudity. nsfw content may be discussed, but not in detail. i will also post whump content which can include gore, torture, conditioning, dehumanization, etc.

i will occasionally talk about or reference my experience in being groomed, abused, formerly proship (and now against it), a victim of csa, or other traumas of mine, but posts containing those themes will always be tagged appropriately. i use 'cw' instead of 'tw' when tagging warnings!

to not see my whump posts, filter out the tags #evil wick hours (for general whump posts/reblogs) and #evil wick writes (for more graphic/explicit whump or writing snippets)

*my ao3 account is not intended for those under 18.

yes nsfw/18+ blogs can follow me i really dont care given i have one of my own

[⚠️] boundaries:

do not tag me in posts containing themes that apply to my dnis or general discomforts. that includes grooming, pedophilia, incest, proship content, bigotry, etc.

do not tag me in posts that are centered around the harassment of another individual or group of individuals.

don’t flirt with me or make sexual/romantic comments towards me, regardless of age or relationship status, including jokes!!!! conversations with graphic sexual themes are generally uncomfortable for me and i’d prefer not to have them. conversations about sex or sexual themes is fine as long as you’re 18+ and not being weird towards me (or in general) about it.

don’t drag me into fights/start them under my posts!!!!!!! id like to be informed of the base of what’s going on, but not included.

sometimes i can be wrong about things. if i am wrong about things, tell me so i can improve!! i never mean to make anyone upset because of something i said. on this note, also send an ask or dm if i reblog or mistakenly support a not-good person, it would be much appreciated!

aint a boundary but itd be appreciated if you didn’t use starself, only star/star's. not for any important reason it’s just a grammar pet peeve of mine

i am in a relationship :)

[⭐️] faves:

things that are bolded are my current hyperfocus

aus: xtale, handplates, dusttale, reapertale, aftertale

au sanses: cross, epic, reaper, lust, dream, passive!nightmare, dust, error, sci and fresh

canon ut characters: chara, frisk, asriel/flowey, toriel, alphys

other au characters: xtale alphys, xchara, xfrisk, xtale toriel, uf!toriel, uf!flowey, reapertale chara, handplates gaster, starlo (ut:y), clover (ut:y), outertale grillby, core frisk, storyshift chara, storyshift asriel

ships: crepic, kross, lustblue, hypersomnia, mtt + crepic poly, epickross/krepic, epiciller, mtt + cross poly, mtt poly, drinkberry, errorink, afterdeath, classicsci, kustard, dustard, etc. but im not a picky shipper :3

tropes: devotion, friends -> lovers, hurt/comfort, opposites attract, soulmates, whump

color, animal, movie, book: pink/red, cats/wolves/foxes, the little prince (1974)/the lion king, the forgotten warrior (wc)

coffee order: >60k word slow burn friends to lovers whump recovery fic rated M PLEASE

[🕯] other assorted info:

still no twitter, discord, or insta :(

cross is my liege and he is the focus of 90% of my posts. i also gore/whump him the most

i don’t have kids, but i have cats. two of them. but they might as well be my biological kids with how they act. i post about them like theyre human biological children and often dont clarify it's a joke in the tags. please get used to this

every time i talk about ink in a relationship it is always queerplatonic on their part, even if i don’t clarify!! i personally don’t ship them romantically.

i have diagnosed autism, adhd, anxiety, ptsd, and some others but that’s my personal biz. if i come off as awkward, ‘trying too hard’, unable to realize when a joke’s ended, or just weird/unlikable, that’s why. i’m seriously bad with that stuff but i’m trying my best!! don't be mean to me i'll cry

i’m a cupioromantic acespec lesbian (i love women) and non-binary :3

mapleshade chara and toriel #1 defender

[🐇] links to thingz:

Undertrap Sans/Milkbone Sans <- my son

Sona Reference Sheet <- me

Strawpage (carrd but cooler + u can submit drawings?!??!?!?!)

Ao3 / TikTok

18+ Sideblog <- pretty inactive mb

(pride divider by aquazero, cross stamps by lazyartost, error/dream/cross & warrior cats dividers by sister-lucifer, undertale graphics by e-resources, no clue who made the eeveelutions one lol)

[givemebishies]

Scrolling thru my art blog and I forgot this piece I did a few years back when I had just started a test run of Vyvance for my ADHD

As you may be able to guess I had to stop taking it lolol

This is so loud lol

[neurantics-theythem]

Having late-diagnosed adhd is weird.

(CW internalized ableism)

Realizing that what I always thought was a “normal” source for motivation was really just shame, guilt, fear, self-judgment and a whole lot of “shoulding” (apart from the rare hyperfocus where the motivation was actually my own)

What I thought was “self-discipline” was just constant self-berating and guilt for being so “bad” at it when other people seemed to pick it up so easily

I always felt so ashamed whenever someone credited their success to their parents raising them to have a great work ethic. How come *I* didn’t turn out the same way, when my dad spent most of his waking moments working to provide for us? How did that not teach me a great work ethic?

Even if no one said it to my face, I internalized deeply the notion preached in every corner of society that people who aren’t self-disciplined are lazy and don’t actually care

I never thought I had adhd because I didn’t fit the stereotypical symptom profile. And I believed so deeply that I just had to “work harder” even though I was mentally deteriorating from how hard I actually was working. But that’s normal for everyone, right?

And now that I’ve deconstructed a lot of this shame and guilt (after years and years of therapy that I’ve been lucky to have), I see it as it is and have stopped using these toxic things to motivate me. And I’m realizing just how little “natural” motivation I actually have. Any motivation I do get is sporadic, for super random things, never consistent and not usually for “productive” tasks.

I’ve finally come to the place where I don’t feel even slightly opposed to trying out adhd medication either. But it has come at the *very* opportune time when I’m unemployed, searching for a job (with the aforementioned lack of motivation in a shit job market), and uninsured.

BuT aT LEaSt it’S a gReAt pRaCtiCE iN seLf cOmpAsSiOn!!! 🥴

[thaleleah]

thoughts on vampire!coryo…?

Soooooooo many thoughts 👀

(Also, I’m so sorry this is over two months late. I was trying to hyperfocus on Godless and I knew I was gonna get a bit carried away with this. WHICH I DID. You inspired a fic out of me, I hope you’re still around to read it lol. But while I edit that, here’s some additional thoughts about Vampire!Coryo. )

CW:// Blood, Biting, Non-explicit smut, ***NON-CON***, Dub-con

Where to start… where to start… 

So the first thing I think of when I think about Vampires is the physical change. 

Of course, we have their teeth, the canines elongating and sharpening into deadly points meant to pierce soft, vulnerable skin. 

I imagine that when he changed, Coriolanus was in an immense amount of pain. Maybe he was bit on the way home from the Academy or got pulled into a back alley while on a patrol during his Peacekeeper days. The Vampire’s teeth would have sunk into his neck like butter, ignoring Coriolanus’s struggle as if he wasn’t even fighting back at all because no matter what type of shape he was in - malnourished and thin as a student or toned with a new underlying strength as a trained Peacekeeper - what human can ever compete with the absolute strength of a Vampire? The fear he would have felt as he fought against a monster he thought was going to kill him and under that fear is the anger he would feel at knowing his life was about to end. He fought his whole life to survive, did everything he could to build a life for himself out of the ruins that the war left he and his family in and now all of that is gone in a blink - no hope for a future or no hope to get back home - everything just gone with one bite from a pair of ruthless, lethal teeth. 

But instead of draining him dry, the Vampire left him there, dropped on the floor as if he was nothing and didn’t even care enough to finish the job. And then the transformation starts and the pain from the bite on his neck runs through his whole body. He’d try to stagger out for help, call out in hopes that someone would hear him and help him, but his body wouldn’t cooperate. Everything hurts, his head feels like it's going to explode, and the ache in his mouth from where his new set of teeth are sinking in - lengthening and sharpening and hardening into indestructible points, tongue dry and throat sore as if in need of some liquid to calm the ache. 

I imagine his body would transform too - becoming the pinnacle of health and strength as his body fills out or gains strength or heals anything that needs healing. His nails would lengthen and sharpen too, allowing him to slice and tear into whatever he needs to with ease and never breaking. And his eyes, those beautiful beautiful eyes, now the most inhuman shade of blue so bright they seem to glow in the darkness of night. 

And then we have a Vampire’s personality and how it would change with their shift. I think there’s a certain darkness that comes with the change. The darker personality traits one might have before turning would be emphasized, their humanity lessening and lessening the longer one is a Vampire. The immediate months after their change would be the closest they will ever be to their human selves ever again and even then it's a gross comparison to the person they once were. By the time the first year hits, their humanity would be completely gone leaving behind the shell of their former selves with only darkness, impurity, and evil to fill their undead bodies. 

Coriolanus is already unhinged. He already leans towards his darker personality traits and, as a human, is not above egregious manipulation, cheating, lying, betrayal, and even murder. When he turns and loses his humanity, losing every emotion and desire that would ever prompt him to want or do good things, these traits become an even more ingrained part of his personality and he’s an even worse monster than the Vampire who made him. 

Side note: I know you asked specifically about Coryo, but I also think it would be fun to see Lucy Gray like this too. Someone who, unlike Coriolanus, is inherently good and as pure as you can get and doesn’t want to kill or do bad things, and how she would turn and succumb to the darkness that comes with being a Vampire. I think she would be just as bad as Coryo. Her humanity and good qualities stripped down until it's just her at her most feral. She’s a good actress and can be manipulative and despite her goodness, she wants to survive too. She’s good at playing others and, in the book, ultimately it was her own cunningness that secured her own win at the end of the Games, not Coriolanus. So I think without her good qualities to keep her tethered to her humanity, she’s a fierce feral force to be reckoned with. 

Then, of course, we have the sexual nature that makes Vampires so alluring. 

Sure, Vampires are evil - killing without mercy, sucking people dry and taking what they want without any regard for human life despite once being human themselves. But they’re also incredibly sexual, taking advantage of the powers they possess - their inhuman beauty and terrifying charm, and using it to their advantage as they seduce or just take whoever they set their sights on. 

Their bites can be painful, the most intense pain you’ve ever felt as they take your life directly from its source. But it can also be blissful, erotic - orgasmic - if they intend it to be. 

Imagine yourself as Coriolanus’s latest victim, charming you with a pretty smile all the while your heart is pounding in fear because deep down you know what he is and what he intends to do with you. 

He’s crowding you against a wall, relishing in your trembling body as he forces your head to tilt to the side. When his teeth sink into your neck, you expect there to be pain. And there is, but there’s also an explosion of pleasure so intense that you feel it through your entire body. Warmth pools in your belly, sticky wetness gathering between your thighs, and you automatically reach out to grab him and all you can do is hold on as he drinks from you. His hand comes up to squeeze at your throat, choking you as he takes more and more from you than he really should until your head is dizzy and black dots pop up in front of your vision, only leaving your neck to kiss you and smear red all over your lips and the spaces around your mouths.

The only thing that tastes better than your blood is the taste of it mixed with the sweetness between your thighs. The insides of your legs smattered with still bleeding bites, drops of blood siding down the curves of them but just getting licked up before they can get soaked into the sheets beneath you. 

I think their eyes would be really interesting. I know the norm for vampires is red eyes, but I love Coriolanus’s blue eyes so much that I think it would be doing him a disservice to allow him to lose them. (He would look amazing with red eyes too, let’s be honest, BUT I digress). Let’s say the blue color is enhanced, transforming from the pretty blue that it was as a human and turning into something so inhumanly beautiful that it’s ironic that it belongs to a monster. They’re so bright, almost iridescent as they seem to glow in the darkness. They’re alive, the blue of the iris swirling and just barely mixing with the pitch black of his pupil. The black of his pupil expands and takes over the blue when he’s really hungry, the black bleeding out into the whites of his eyes as he lets the instincts of the hunt take over. 

Maybe their eyes even have a hypnotic quality too? The paranormal swirl of the colors combining with the charming timbre of his voice to put their prey into a hypnotic state.

Then there’s so many routes you can go with a storyline:

Coriolanus binds Reader to him with a blood bond and makes her a thrall. She’s not quite human anymore - can never die unless he allows it and why would he ever do that? She’s perfect. Her blood is the sweetest he’s ever tasted and she feels perfect around his cock. She’s at his beck and call whenever he needs her, ready to do whatever he tells her to whether she wants to or not. The bond wouldn’t allow her to refuse him and after the first few years of being his thrall, Stockholm Syndrome sets in and then why would she want to?

Reader dies in every life, whether by chance or purposefully to get away from Coriolanus, but she’s cursed to reincarnate over and over again. Coriolanus hunts her through the centuries, determined to find her and make her his in every life she has. Maybe in one of these lifetimes, he’ll stop being so selfish about how good her blood tastes as a human and finally change her into a vampire so she can never leave him again. 

Or maybe Reader is a human servant, meant to tend to his home and keep things clean, doing his bidding in between her main job of finding him acceptable humans to feed on. She has to research them, of course. Make sure they won’t cause any trouble for Coriolanus when they go missing. She’s good at her job, efficient and capable and the humans she finds for him to feed on always taste acceptable to him. But he can smell her, her scent always wafting around his home and invading his senses and he knows that none of the people she brings him would ever taste as divine as she surely does. Maybe he’ll have to deny one of the humans she brings him one day, make up an excuse for why he can’t drink from them and blame it on her “lack of foresight” just so she’ll have to offer up her own neck as compensation for her failure. Just a taste. 

Idkkkk bruhhhhhh 😩 Just... Vampire!Coryo....

[possumcollege]

Aw, firm but respectful disagree! Their dynamic looks pretty dysfunctional but I think it's actually a mutually-reinforcing hinge situation.

Charles has stuck with Rick since they met at Oxford, so unless they met there as adults, they could've been doing this for decades. Rick treats Charles like his savage manservant but Charles clearly has enough agency to define his limits and speak up for himself. To me their dynamic reads more as a huge personality with a dominant streak who likes a good bit of push-back, and a quiet, capable, brat (for lack of a better term). They've had the bear skin argument a thousand times and they love it. Charles is like "FFS,I said I'd carry the spear, didn't I?!" but I seem to remember he's very good at throwing it so it's important enough that it isn't just a prop. Rick gets to rename Charles "Chachinga" and treat him like a servant but he won't dress him up like a doll or force him to play the role for others. There are boundaries there. I think there's enough mutual respect and affection that Rick knows Charles can and will take a lot of "abuse" but he can't make him do anything. I think they both dig it.

This also scans for me because Rick delights in stories where he's had the shit kicked out of him but not in the "I'm such a weak and powerless worm" sense. He likes feeling unstoppable. Maybe having a constant "safe" check on that larger than life self image is grounding for him. Maybe Charles' confidence and self image is reinforced by knowing this man who can drag himself up a rope with two broken arms can't make him wear antlers and a loincloth if he doesn't consent to it.

As for Marion, I think her relationship with Rick is more traditional but she knows the man she loves is a certifiable galoot, who would be all kinds of fucking dead without support. In their first episode we learn she's been going along with Rick's adventures for his sake but it's taking its toll, physically and emotionally. She pulls a Scooby-Doo scheme because she thinks convincing him a curse will kill them all if they don't slow down will be easier on him than having the conversation. Marion clearly loves Rick for who he is but also knows he'll adventure himself to death and wishes he would make more space for her. It feels like she's trying to connect with him through the love language of danger. I love that Rick is surprisingly receptive once she's unmasked and confesses. The fact that he feels bad about putting her in that situation tells me he's not just an ego-golem who demands compliance, he cares and might just be bad with normal people. Maybe his relationship with Charles is why he isn't actually just a dictatorial bastard? Or maybe he's just kinda dumb.

There but 'fore the grace of Dumb God go I...

I get the impression that Rick is so impulse-driven and insulated from normal folk that he assumes anyone who goes along with his insane adventures wants to be there. He isn't forcing them to be there per se, he just sincerely believes they're having fun too. This doesn't mean I don't think he's blameless in contributing to the situation with Marion. It means he needs to learn to see past himself lest he drive everyone who cares about him away.

His threshold for conflict has been "when someone tries to kill me," so he doesn't process people who aren't being very explicit or speaking the language of action. He's so deep in "the (adventurer) lifestyle" that normal people barely show up on his radar.

I also think this is what works for Rick and Charles. Charles cares enough about Rick and enjoys the adventuring lifestyle enough to commit to it. His standoffishness is a way of holding space that Rick engages with and they both respect. Rick and Marion haven't developed that yet.

I never got the impression that Marion or Charles resent each other for enabling Rick's bad habits or trying to tie him down, which tells me the root of the problem with Marion isn't the adventuring, it's Rick's inability to slow down and be a person in the absence of adventure. The other reason I disagree with the cuckolding dynamic is that they don't give us that element of jealousy, comparison, or competition that cucks absolutely will not shut the fuck up about. What the show does give us is fantastic fuel for poly-shipping though!

Which is all why I think they're a fun hinge polycule. They each fulfill very specific needs across all points of the triangle. Charles and Marion support each other because Rick is A LOT and neither of them has to take the full brunt of his nonsense while he has two people who care enough about him to point out when he's his own worst enemy. In their second episode, Rick admits he and Marion have separated but by the end, they resolve to keep working on the relationship and Charles is relieved to hear it. That's sweet.

I realize I've just spent my lunch break writing entirely too many words about side characters from an episode of Scooby-Doo, but I don't mean this to be laying into the cuck post to hard. It would be legit funny for Rick to walk in on them, shriek "Chachinga, you sonofabitch! How could you betray me like this! I'll kill you," grab up the spear from the pile of clothes on the floor, and Marion just tells him to go wait in the car. No. Not the chair, THE CAR. WAIT IN THE CAR RICK.

Anyway.

There's that.

Watching scooby-doo, mystery inc with my kid. These guys are a throuple, right?

[jammed-out]

Hypnovember Day 12 - Hyperfocus

(CW: Script, light awakener, repetition of focusing words, repetition of cum, read at your own risk)

Let’s start with a focus tracking exercise. I want you to focus on reading the words here, reading each one thoroughly, making sure that you don’t miss a single one. Making sure to read each one clearly. Reading them out loud will help you to do that. They will help to keep you hyperfocused on the task at hand. Each word clearly read and focused on. Each one unique. Each one pulling your eyes to the next one. Each one keeping you hyperfocused on the next word coming right after it, dragging you forward, keeping your eyes locked on it. Playing attention to each word you read, making sure you see it and repeat it clearly as you move onto the next one. There is no rush, no race, just you, keeping hyperfocused on each word that you read so that way you can manage to read it all clearly.

Very good, now I want you to make sure you remember each one, staying hyperfocused as you read. Playing close attention, letting them focus in your brain, keeping you attentive as the words bounce around your head. Just relax and stay hyperfocused, reading each word, keeping yourself moving forward. The words will follow, slipping into your brain, keeping you focused, keeping you moving onward. Letting it become second nature to read the next word, to let it echo in your head, keeping you hyperfocused. It’s natural to stay focused and relaxed while doing this, to let yourself drift off. That’s you focusing in. Becoming hyperfocused on the task at hand.

Now focus on each word as you see it. Each word. Hyperfocused. Keeping you tethered to it. Keeping your eyes locked onto it as it wraps around your head, filling it. Keeping it hyperfocused. Locked onto the task at hand. Each word, echoing in your head before you move onto the next one. Hyperfocused on it. Keep on going. Reading every word. Focused on it. Following it to the next.

Now that you are thoroughly hyperfocused, completely hypnofocused, entranced by the words, I want you to feel each word as it fills you. Let the sensations of the words pull you deeper into them. Focused. Hyperfocused. Hypnofocused. Entranced. Full. Focused. Hyperfocused. Hypnofocused. Entranced. Pleasured. Focused. Hyperfocused. Hypnofocused. Entranced. Desperate. Focused. Hyperfocused. Hypnofocused. Entranced. Needy. Focused. Hyperfocused. Hypnofocused. Entranced. Mindless. Focused. Hyperfocused. Hypnofocused. Entranced. Obedient. Focused. Hyperfocused. Hypnofocused. Entranced. Empty.

Very good. You are doing so good. So hyperfocused on each word. Cum. It feels good to stay focused on each word. Cum. Focused on every word. Cum. Hyperfocused on each word. Cum. You can’t stop following them. Cum. It feels good to stay focused. Cum.

Now that you have finished reading this I want you to focus on waking up. Clearing the focus from your mind. Turning it all back towards waking up fully, focusing on waking up. Remembering everything. Feeling good. Waking up. All the way up. Focusing only on that. And being fully awake and aware of everything. Good job.

------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Hope you enjoyed that. I’ll be following @h_sleepingirl prompt list for the entire month because I really like a couple of the prompts on the list. You should also definitely check out and support them.

You’ll also be able to find all of my writings under the tags on my page. Hope you enjoy and see you tomorrow!