#covid changed me
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plotting out beyond the void like a good little writer, thinking about how i had to be on some sort of amphetimine trip when i wrote from the void, with love
#seriously y'all i just wrote and wrote and wrote#covid changed me#and it made me an insane writer#instead of a hunting cabin in the woods i had a single bedroom in a bad living situation and an even worse relationship#KJSNDFKJSDNF
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one of the things that's the most fucking frustrating for me about arguing with climate change deniers is the sheer fucking scope of how much it matters. sweating in my father's car, thinking about how it's the "hottest summer so far," every summer. and there's this deep, roiling rage that comes over me, every time.
the stakes are wrong, is the thing. that's part of what makes it not an actual debate: the other side isn't coming to the table with anything to fucking lose.
like okay. i am obviously pro gun control. but there is a basic human part of me that can understand and empathize with someone who says, "i'm worried that would lead to the law-abiding citizens being punished while criminals now essentially have a superpower." i don't agree, but i can tell the stakes for them are also very high.
but let's say the science is wrong and i'm wrong and the visible reality is wrong and every climate disaster refugee is wrong. let's say you're right, humans aren't causing it or it's not happening or whatever else. let's just say that, for fun.
so we spend hundreds of millions of dollars making the earth cleaner, and then it turns out we didn't need to do that. oops! we cleaned the earth. our children grow up with skies full of more butterflies and bees. lawns are taken over with rich local biodiversity. we don't cry over our electric bills anymore. and, if you're staunchly capitalist and i need to speak ROI with you - we've created so many jobs in developing sectors and we have exciting new investment opportunities.
i am reminded of kodak, and how they did not make "the switch" to digital photography; how within 20 years kodak was no longer a household brand. do we, as a nation, feel comfortable watching as the world makes "the switch" while we ride the laurels of oil? this boggles me. i have heard so much propaganda about how america cannot "fall behind" other countries, but in this crucial sector - the one that could actually influence our own monopolies - suddenly we turn the other cheek. but maybe you're right! maybe it will collapse like just another silicone valley dream. but isn't that the crux of capitalism? that some economies will peter out eventually?
but let's say you're right, and i'm wrong, and we stopped fracking for no good reason. that they re-seed quarries. that we tear down unused corporate-owned buildings or at least repurpose them for communities. that we make an effort, and that effort doesn't really help. what happens then? what are the stakes. what have we lost, and what have we gained?
sometimes we take our cars through a car wash and then later, it rains. "oh," we laugh to ourselves. we gripe about it over coffee with our coworkers. what a shame! but we are also aware: the car is cleaner. is that what you are worried about? that you'll make the effort but things will resolve naturally? that it will just be "a waste"?
and what i'm right. what if we're already seeing people lose their houses and their lives. what if it is happening everywhere, not just in coastal towns or equatorial countries you don't care about. what if i'm right and you're wrong but you're yelling and rich and powerful. so we ignore all of the bellwethers and all of the indicators and all of the sirens. what if we say - well, if it happens, it's fate.
nevermind. you wouldn't even wear a mask, anyway. i know what happens when you see disaster. you think the disaster will flinch if you just shout louder. that you can toss enough lives into the storm for the storm to recognize your sacrifice and balk. you argue because it feels good to stand up against "the liberals" even when the situation should not be political. you are busy crying for jesus with a bullhorn while i am trying to usher people into a shelter. you've already locked the doors, even on the church.
the stakes are skewed. you think this is some intellectual "debate" to win, some funny banter. you fuel up your huge unmuddied truck and say suck it to every citizen of that shitbird state california. serves them right for voting blue!
and the rest of us are terrified of the entire fucking environment collapsing.
#spilled ink#writeblr#i hope it is clear here that i actually very much care about equatorial countries#and that's part of what makes me so angry bc im like. climate refugees exist.#they've existed for a while!!!#and the reply is almost always ''should have thought about that before living on an island"#like fuck dude. do you need to like how people vote before ur like#your entire house shouldn't burn down each summer????#so many of these people make it their life to mock california that they think it's FUNNY#and im like. girl you should be fucking trembling. TEXAS??? ARE YOU LISTENING??#this is one of those times that like. i need to stress how fucking stupid it would be#to let trump win. bc he could have “reached across the aisle.” covid could have been#a MASSIVE commercial success. he has such a huge and bigoted and brainwashed following.#literally just a PR campaign called COWBOY UP and it's pictures of cowboys in bandanas#trump reinvisioned as the lone ranger fighting for the american people against covid. EASY SELL#and instead. companies bought him. it became political. it was not ''oh shit this is 1 enemy let's all be human''#it was ''you deserve to die.''#climate change should be GLOBAL. it should be like ''yeah i hate u but. we do all live here''#i don't have to LIKE my group members to do well on a team project bc we are ALL getting graded.#is that simple enough of an under-explaination lol
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i think one of the biggest scams i've seen in my lifetime is the idea that it looks better to have to have all matching mugs, preferably that match your dishes
reblog and tell me about your coffee mug
#i never want to see a dish set come with mugs again#(actually i change my mind i just realized i could give them away as gifts#and my friends would have mugs that match my dishes#but only for fancy dish sets not the soulless ones from walmart)#i trend minimalism and matching aesthetics in real life so i AM the target audience for that kind of thing#and theres honestly nothing i love more than asking my friends about their unique things#and you lose that when you all have soulless matching mugs#my favourite mug is a 20oz thats half glazed and unglazed pottery#reminds me of living in yellowknife with miles and the coffees we made during covid#my previous favourite mug was a gift from my mom#an awesome 20oz mug with a cute downward dog with dog drawing
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wilson saying “I need to do this. for you.” is fucking insane actually. in the same episode where house is deciding whether or not he should commit suicide as a result of wilson’s dying. They are each other’s lines between life and death. humans have a biological instinct to preserve their survival at all costs; house has an addiction that governs his life. but they were willing to forgo all of it for one another, because they couldn’t fathom it being any other way. IM SICK
#I know it’s fictional but there is nothing more meaningful and real than the desire to be loved by someone else more than anything#and it’s killing me#I was out by lac leman one day when I was seven when my mom told me that swans fly as high as possible#and fall to their deaths when their partner dies#and whether or not that’s true. it fundamentally changed my view of love tbh#my grandmother survived breast cancer for 10 years as well as covid#but died ONE DAY after losing the person she cared about most in this world#love transcends nature#and this show is a beautiful example of that#house md#greg house#gregory house#hatecrimes md#hilson#james wilson#house/wilson
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if i see one more person say something like “teachers are quitting because the kids are getting meaner, so parents need to learn how to discipline your kids” i’m going to fucking scream.
the kids are not getting meaner because they’re spoiled. the kids are not getting meaner because of gentle parenting. these are not spoiled children, they are traumatized children. these are trauma behaviors.
they have to go to school every day with the knowledge they might get shot up. almost four years ago people started dying and becoming disabled from COVID, it never stopped, and they’re told to ignore it. for all they know, the earth might become uninhabitable in their lifetimes, and they are powerless against all these things. they are traumatized. stop putting the blame on innocent kids and individual parents.
#corvidforest#i’m speaking about the USA btw. don’t get in my notes and tell me not all countries are like that. i’m aware.#and if any of you try to tell me it’s the damn phones you’re getting blocked#try to hold some fucking nuance hm#teaching#teachers#gun violence#climate change#covid isn't over
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My true self still loves Tommyinnit I am still an inniter at heart I have not changed
#I have changed but he’s still in my heart#that time during 2020-2022 has such a place in my heart because of how lonely everything felt#Call me parasocial I KNOW it’s crazy cause everyone I hear anything of him or watch one of his videos again (I’m not a consistent viewer#anymore but I still watch him form time to time) I feel like I’m catching up with a friend cause that’s really how I feel about him it feel#like talking to an old friend who was with me during that time it’s very onesided considering I only know him and he doesn’t know me but it#feels like we’re friends of course I’m not delusional if I ever meet him I have enough sense to not act as if we’re close despite that#feelings of friendship/fellowship he is still someone I admire as not exactly a role model but someone I’d like to be like I don’t want to#say hero cause that’s not the exact things I feel (plus it’s probably make his head all big) but he’s definitely someone who gives/beings m#hope into who I’ll be in the future for soooo many reasons#I wanted to be a YouTuber when I was younger like in 5th grade since that was my whole life back then and I was obsessed but I didn’t feel#I could do it but Tommy is only a little older than me and we’re so similar in our interests and intensity of fanboying/fangirling that it#was so much fun living bi-curiously through his achievements and streams back then he did mostly everything I would have wanted to do if I#was in his place I’m sure it wasn’t easy for him since he was 16 when he blew up and COVID was such an impactful event for everyone and#their experiences that year but I’m really proud of him I really care and love him he’s an inspiration to me and a friend in some way to hi#fans he did say once that he most likely would be friends with his audience since they like all the things he likes and I found that funny#since it was so true#I’m rooting for him in anything he does or wants to succeed in I know he’ll do it#tommyinnit#dsmp#THIS IS AN OLD DRAFT I NEVER POSTED AND I STILL STAND ON IT#LOVE YOU TOMMY KEEP DOING WHAT YOU LOVE#❤️❤️❤️
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i generally do not enjoy reading wc anymore but can i steal moonpaw for my rewrite canon. can i do that (GUNSHOT)
#wc#shummy screaming into the void#i truly do not gaf about new wc releases unless its a graphic novel but um. thinkin of doing more art for me au cause i kinda went off as a#highschooler stuck inside due to covid#ive beeen reluctant to share stuff abt it cause i was stuck on “oooh i gotta write 12 books worth of content so this can work!!” which was#oh so misguided.#guys i can change your perception of everything. like i have so many old google docs full of fics and notes that still go crazy#and the drawigns i have dripfed have done well so! yeah thats something i wanna do this year#tdlr moonpaw is MINE. shadowsight is MINE#the three are MINE
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DracoEd broke into my house one day and made their bed here ever since
Through the Gate by Preelikeswriting: https://archiveofourown.org/series/781794
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#arakawa I’ll never not love you but not giving Ed’s birthday to this day is pure evil#she’s unreal istg#everyone read ttg or I cry#fma#fullmetal alchemist#edward elric#DracoEd#ttg#through the gate#Harry Potter#draco malfoy#fma x hp#hp x fma#okay so my lore is I was sprinting through TTG when folklore album came out#and I was stuck in 15 days state quarantine#so I looped the album as I read Ed putting his life in danger for draco for the 1728375th time#and draco screaming crying throwing up over it#like that changed me#exile set the whole mood I’m cryingggg#when I hear the intro piano I think about them#what Covid era did to you#Edward elric my baby my king you cant convince me you’ve ever kissed anyone your whole life#he’s a late bloomer it’s okay he committed necromancy at 11!!!!!!!!!
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the current state of my health has been slowing me down lately, hence i’ll try my best to post the prologues for each series by the end of feb instead before i take a month hiatus from here🤍
#ruby’s announcement#a month hiatus bc of the fasting month#i’ll also try to give as many content as possible#covid got to me again </3#sorry for the changes of schedule🙏🏻
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luci needs a haircut:・゚✧
study by omatoxin
#please excuse the sudden change up#my art tablet broke#and I caught covid#and my period started#so were back on procreate#and were trying our best besties do not worry#anyway tags time#artists on tumblr#art#digital art#digital drawing#new artist#digital aritst#illustration#artist#obey me#obey me shall we date#obey me lucifer#obey me fanart#fanart obey me#lucifer fanart#om! lucifer#om lucifer#om#om!#warm#procreate#god what a week
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Yale School of Public Health
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Slide 6 correction: "Correction: We've updated slide 6 to read 72%, not 172%, though other studies have found the risk of autoimmune disorders increased by 198% following infection."
#someone please ID this for me im at work sorryyy#covid#long covid#not every part is perfect but as an easy to understand infographic it's really good#i want to believe that things will change#at least i want to believe the doctors will start becoming more aware of covid#please....
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#maybe im being pessimistic abt this. im not saying u should wear a mask every waking moment of your life god knows i cant#but also. hell no i dont trust u if anything i distrust u ppl even more after how things played out for the past 3 years#like there are situations where it might be inevitable catching covid. most of my family members are nurses and in constant contact#but there are also a ton of ways to make that risk low as possible like masking and wearing a face shield and having sanitizer#for me its not enough to just say oh we're in a small group and we're all vaccinated#motherfucker your kid is sick from preschool EVERY TIME WE VISIT. of course ill be wearing a mask she gave me covid last year#also no the fuck it isnt seasonal the cases go up because lack of caution makes the virus spread and mutate especially around times when#ppl gather. add that with virus transmission in cold weather and its a matter of different factors increasing the risk of spread#im also tired of ppl not understanding that i wont be their responsibility if i do get sick. maybe they can help me recover#but at the end of the day the risk of death and long term health is all on me. i cant change that#the govt barely gives me accommodations what makes u think theyll do anything for every individual case of long covid or worse#im so tired. im so tired#i dont even know if its possible to want this to be over anymore i just wish we didnt have to deal with this in the first place#ALSO COUGH INTO YOUR SLEEVE SERIOUSLY HOW IS THIS SO HARD TO REMEMBER#oh its just a cold/dry throat its not like i have covid or anything. no!! its basic hygiene!!! how is this so hard to understand!!!!!!!!!!#and no this isnt abt whether people have the means to protect themselves this is me bitching abt my relatives not taking me seriously#vent#my art#myart#doodles#covid 19
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honestly i feel like covid made the importance of tumblr rpc and, like, the weird belief that bending over backwards until you burn out and lose enthusiasm for the hobby is like. the end all be all. and like, even during covid this was still technically a hobby even if y'all weren't an essential worker. i think the collective trauma from that time messed up a lot of us in terms of how some of us interpret potential lack of interactions or ''' exclusive focus ''' on some mutuals as something negative. no, we all just got our lives back in various forms. just be patient. everyone matters and people have different paces. communicate your worries in a manner that's kind and careful but remember : this is a hobby, not a job. some of us actually have those and even if some don't . . this isn't one. just have fun.
#{ somehow this is a spicy opinion but its so real }#{ a lot changed in the rpc during covid and like. yeah. }#{ we were so chronically online during that time. woof. }#out of character ㅤ ㅤ ( ㅤ 🌟ㅤ ) ㅤ ㅤ — ㅤ ㅤ ding dong its me ! miles !
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Brainstorming a post canon story where Lucanis is adjusting to life as the first Talon under Caterina’s watchful eye and juggling that with his and Rook’s relationship. Thinking Caterina will be a hardass as usual and criticizing most things Rook does (works with a De Riva but might be even more fitting with a Rook unfamiliar with the politics of the Crows) while Rook is trying Very Hard to earn her approval for Lu’s sake because despite his tense relationship with his grandmother she is important to him.
Culminates in Caterina speaking with Rook alone one night and out of nowhere Caterina swipes their cheek with her cane, leaving a very precise but shallow cut. She tells Rook that had it been an attack from an assassin truly meaning to take their life they would already be dead, and that being the lover of the First Talon requires someone vigilant and able to care for themselves.
Lu returns to their room that night (stressed as he normally is these days) and Rook tries to keep that side of their face angled away from him but Spite catches the scent of dried blood and tips him off. He’s worried and furious of course, but Rook is reluctant to tell him who did it and when they finally do Lu goes to storm out and confront Caterina. Rook stops him and asks if it’s him or Spite and Lu is a little taken aback and hurt that Rook assumes that because it is Caterina who did this he would somehow be less willing to react. He swears that Rook is family, and if Illario is not exempt from consequences for harming family Caterina is at least going to get an earful. Rook apologizes for assuming he wouldn’t stand up for them against his grandmother, and for treating Spite as a rabid animal with no self control. Cue sweet moment with hugs from both arms and wings.
Lu takes a moment to clean the wound up gently, also collecting his thoughts and calming himself down. Rook realizes somewhere in the middle of this that the clever old hag had meant for this all along. Harm Rook superficially after weeks of building tension -> get Lucanis mad enough to confront her in a blind rage -> pontificate on lessons about allowing judgment to be blinded when it comes to Rook. It was a test to see if he would charge in blindly to defend their honor or if he would take a moment to think and plan. He had almost failed, and would have if not for Rook.
He isn’t thrilled that it makes some sort of sense, but she is a 70-something year old assassin who was First Talon until recently so she obviously knows her shit. He approaches her later and insists that both he and Rook had heard her loud and clear, but any further lessons or advice for him will be delivered via verbal communication and counsel. Caterina agrees, looking as proud as a stoic old bat can. She may not be happy with the tone that he takes but something can be said about the fact that he is willing to take it with her after all this time.
She explains that it is crucial that if he as First Talon is to take a lover he must accept that he will not always be able to protect them from the dangers this life entails. They must be able to defend themselves against all threats, but even more important is that if something should happen to them, Lucanis will keep a level head. His enemies will expect him to be blinded by grief and rage, sloppy and prone to leaving himself unguarded. A true First Talon will keep his head about him and make his enemies suffer. A true First Talon will honor a loved one’s memory with the blood of their enemies, not by falling on a sword in their name.
#lucanis dellamorte#I made det#full outline because I do NOT have the energy for this at the mo and frankly I don’t know if it’ll ever get did#I came up with this idea instead of sleeping…y’know…like an idiot…#anyway I know we hate Catarina in this household but I do think you could take her character in some interesting places#we don’t forgive we don’t forget but I’m trying not to flatten her character into someone#who was cruel for cruelty’s sake#exploring the family dynamic of toxicity and devotion in equal measure…people who do not know any other way to show it…#and a Lu who developes from someone who blindly accepts whatever Cat gives him into someone who will not allow that same dynamic he grew up#in to even THINK about touching Rook#there are realities about the lives of assassins but he will be damned…DAMNED I TELL YOU#this family makes me crazy I think I hauve covid#also thinking about slipping in a ‘they’re not family’ line from cat#to have Lu reply with ‘they are as good as…and things change’ LIKE WHAT#PROPOSE BITCH DO IT NOW#AND CATARINA GIVING HIM THE RING??? THE RING SHE GAVE HIS MOTHER????? FUCK#begrudging acceptance if not approval but we in there like swimwear anyway baybee#caterina dellamorte
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What's the difference between a trypanophobe choosing not to get vaccinated and an antivaxxer?
Trypanophobes have to struggle with a lot more distress getting a shot than the general population, making it a mentally taxing and emotionally painful ordeal. This is not the lived experience of normal people above the age of 12. There is possibly some nervousness but it is not the same.
Trypanophobes don't spread misinformation and fearmongering about vaccines to convince others not to get vaccinated. We want herd immunity.
Trypanophobes don't treat being autistic like it's the worst thing that could ever happen to someone. Trypanophobes aren't ableist by being trypanophobic
Trypanophobes are a small number of people and we aren't actively recruiting more because we know our fear is irrational.
And sometimes trypanophobes will get vaccinated and get through their fear, even when its hard, because antivaxxers have made herd immunity less achievable. Antivaxxers have a belief and don't believe their fear is irrational so they won't ever get vaccinated until they change their beliefs.
Trypanophobes and antivaxxers will be enemies forever
#trypanophobia#actually phobic#actually trypanophobic#fear of needles#fuck antivaxers#“I'm scared of needles for no reason at all” is genuinely more valid than “facebook told me they put the antichrist in the covid shot”#you can't change a panic disorder but you can change what you think qualifies as a valid source#you can't just stop having a phobia but you can just open wikipedia once and disprove everything you believe about vaccines in 2 minutes#stop making the world hostile for me to live in#and grow some brain cells
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Some Keane lyrics that fundamentally changed my brain chemistry
#I adore Keane so much#I was finally able to see them live for Hopes and Fears 20#Such a beautiful act#I was supposed to see them for Cause and Effect but it got canceled because Covid 🫠#So four years later I finally got to watch them ❤️#These are songs that changed me#Actively altered my approach to things or at least made me feel so profoundly understood in a complete mental singularity#Nothing In My Way#Can't Stop Now#Leaving So Soon?#The Lovers Are Losing#I'm Not Leaving#Russian Farmer's Song#Snowed Under#Disconnected#Lyrics#Keane#Diary of Drones
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