#covid changed me

[whirlybirbs]

plotting out beyond the void like a good little writer, thinking about how i had to be on some sort of amphetimine trip when i wrote from the void, with love

[inkskinned]

one of the things that's the most fucking frustrating for me about arguing with climate change deniers is the sheer fucking scope of how much it matters. sweating in my father's car, thinking about how it's the "hottest summer so far," every summer. and there's this deep, roiling rage that comes over me, every time.

the stakes are wrong, is the thing. that's part of what makes it not an actual debate: the other side isn't coming to the table with anything to fucking lose.

like okay. i am obviously pro gun control. but there is a basic human part of me that can understand and empathize with someone who says, "i'm worried that would lead to the law-abiding citizens being punished while criminals now essentially have a superpower." i don't agree, but i can tell the stakes for them are also very high.

but let's say the science is wrong and i'm wrong and the visible reality is wrong and every climate disaster refugee is wrong. let's say you're right, humans aren't causing it or it's not happening or whatever else. let's just say that, for fun.

so we spend hundreds of millions of dollars making the earth cleaner, and then it turns out we didn't need to do that. oops! we cleaned the earth. our children grow up with skies full of more butterflies and bees. lawns are taken over with rich local biodiversity. we don't cry over our electric bills anymore. and, if you're staunchly capitalist and i need to speak ROI with you - we've created so many jobs in developing sectors and we have exciting new investment opportunities.

i am reminded of kodak, and how they did not make "the switch" to digital photography; how within 20 years kodak was no longer a household brand. do we, as a nation, feel comfortable watching as the world makes "the switch" while we ride the laurels of oil? this boggles me. i have heard so much propaganda about how america cannot "fall behind" other countries, but in this crucial sector - the one that could actually influence our own monopolies - suddenly we turn the other cheek. but maybe you're right! maybe it will collapse like just another silicone valley dream. but isn't that the crux of capitalism? that some economies will peter out eventually?

but let's say you're right, and i'm wrong, and we stopped fracking for no good reason. that they re-seed quarries. that we tear down unused corporate-owned buildings or at least repurpose them for communities. that we make an effort, and that effort doesn't really help. what happens then? what are the stakes. what have we lost, and what have we gained?

sometimes we take our cars through a car wash and then later, it rains. "oh," we laugh to ourselves. we gripe about it over coffee with our coworkers. what a shame! but we are also aware: the car is cleaner. is that what you are worried about? that you'll make the effort but things will resolve naturally? that it will just be "a waste"?

and what i'm right. what if we're already seeing people lose their houses and their lives. what if it is happening everywhere, not just in coastal towns or equatorial countries you don't care about. what if i'm right and you're wrong but you're yelling and rich and powerful. so we ignore all of the bellwethers and all of the indicators and all of the sirens. what if we say - well, if it happens, it's fate.

nevermind. you wouldn't even wear a mask, anyway. i know what happens when you see disaster. you think the disaster will flinch if you just shout louder. that you can toss enough lives into the storm for the storm to recognize your sacrifice and balk. you argue because it feels good to stand up against "the liberals" even when the situation should not be political. you are busy crying for jesus with a bullhorn while i am trying to usher people into a shelter. you've already locked the doors, even on the church.

the stakes are skewed. you think this is some intellectual "debate" to win, some funny banter. you fuel up your huge unmuddied truck and say suck it to every citizen of that shitbird state california. serves them right for voting blue!

and the rest of us are terrified of the entire fucking environment collapsing.

[some-sort-of-ecologist]

i think one of the biggest scams i've seen in my lifetime is the idea that it looks better to have to have all matching mugs, preferably that match your dishes

reblog and tell me about your coffee mug

[houseswife]

wilson saying “I need to do this. for you.” is fucking insane actually. in the same episode where house is deciding whether or not he should commit suicide as a result of wilson’s dying. They are each other’s lines between life and death. humans have a biological instinct to preserve their survival at all costs; house has an addiction that governs his life. but they were willing to forgo all of it for one another, because they couldn’t fathom it being any other way. IM SICK

[thecorvidforest]

if i see one more person say something like “teachers are quitting because the kids are getting meaner, so parents need to learn how to discipline your kids” i’m going to fucking scream.

the kids are not getting meaner because they’re spoiled. the kids are not getting meaner because of gentle parenting. these are not spoiled children, they are traumatized children. these are trauma behaviors.

they have to go to school every day with the knowledge they might get shot up. almost four years ago people started dying and becoming disabled from COVID, it never stopped, and they’re told to ignore it. for all they know, the earth might become uninhabitable in their lifetimes, and they are powerless against all these things. they are traumatized. stop putting the blame on innocent kids and individual parents.

[customizablefriend]

My true self still loves Tommyinnit I am still an inniter at heart I have not changed

[redtail-lol]

What's the difference between a trypanophobe choosing not to get vaccinated and an antivaxxer?

Trypanophobes have to struggle with a lot more distress getting a shot than the general population, making it a mentally taxing and emotionally painful ordeal. This is not the lived experience of normal people above the age of 12. There is possibly some nervousness but it is not the same.

Trypanophobes don't spread misinformation and fearmongering about vaccines to convince others not to get vaccinated. We want herd immunity.

Trypanophobes don't treat being autistic like it's the worst thing that could ever happen to someone. Trypanophobes aren't ableist by being trypanophobic

Trypanophobes are a small number of people and we aren't actively recruiting more because we know our fear is irrational.

And sometimes trypanophobes will get vaccinated and get through their fear, even when its hard, because antivaxxers have made herd immunity less achievable. Antivaxxers have a belief and don't believe their fear is irrational so they won't ever get vaccinated until they change their beliefs.

Trypanophobes and antivaxxers will be enemies forever

[shummthechumm]

i generally do not enjoy reading wc anymore but can i steal moonpaw for my rewrite canon. can i do that (GUNSHOT)

[cadriox]

DracoEd broke into my house one day and made their bed here ever since

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[dollyyun]

the current state of my health has been slowing me down lately, hence i’ll try my best to post the prologues for each series by the end of feb instead before i take a month hiatus from here🤍

[lliquidllyrium]

Brainstorming a post canon story where Lucanis is adjusting to life as the first Talon under Caterina’s watchful eye and juggling that with his and Rook’s relationship. Thinking Caterina will be a hardass as usual and criticizing most things Rook does (works with a De Riva but might be even more fitting with a Rook unfamiliar with the politics of the Crows) while Rook is trying Very Hard to earn her approval for Lu’s sake because despite his tense relationship with his grandmother she is important to him.

Culminates in Caterina speaking with Rook alone one night and out of nowhere Caterina swipes their cheek with her cane, leaving a very precise but shallow cut. She tells Rook that had it been an attack from an assassin truly meaning to take their life they would already be dead, and that being the lover of the First Talon requires someone vigilant and able to care for themselves.

Lu returns to their room that night (stressed as he normally is these days) and Rook tries to keep that side of their face angled away from him but Spite catches the scent of dried blood and tips him off. He’s worried and furious of course, but Rook is reluctant to tell him who did it and when they finally do Lu goes to storm out and confront Caterina. Rook stops him and asks if it’s him or Spite and Lu is a little taken aback and hurt that Rook assumes that because it is Caterina who did this he would somehow be less willing to react. He swears that Rook is family, and if Illario is not exempt from consequences for harming family Caterina is at least going to get an earful. Rook apologizes for assuming he wouldn’t stand up for them against his grandmother, and for treating Spite as a rabid animal with no self control. Cue sweet moment with hugs from both arms and wings.

Lu takes a moment to clean the wound up gently, also collecting his thoughts and calming himself down. Rook realizes somewhere in the middle of this that the clever old hag had meant for this all along. Harm Rook superficially after weeks of building tension -> get Lucanis mad enough to confront her in a blind rage -> pontificate on lessons about allowing judgment to be blinded when it comes to Rook. It was a test to see if he would charge in blindly to defend their honor or if he would take a moment to think and plan. He had almost failed, and would have if not for Rook.

He isn’t thrilled that it makes some sort of sense, but she is a 70-something year old assassin who was First Talon until recently so she obviously knows her shit. He approaches her later and insists that both he and Rook had heard her loud and clear, but any further lessons or advice for him will be delivered via verbal communication and counsel. Caterina agrees, looking as proud as a stoic old bat can. She may not be happy with the tone that he takes but something can be said about the fact that he is willing to take it with her after all this time.

She explains that it is crucial that if he as First Talon is to take a lover he must accept that he will not always be able to protect them from the dangers this life entails. They must be able to defend themselves against all threats, but even more important is that if something should happen to them, Lucanis will keep a level head. His enemies will expect him to be blinded by grief and rage, sloppy and prone to leaving himself unguarded. A true First Talon will keep his head about him and make his enemies suffer. A true First Talon will honor a loved one’s memory with the blood of their enemies, not by falling on a sword in their name.

[monatoxin]

luci needs a haircut:･ﾟ✧

study by omatoxin

[lotus-tower]

Yale School of Public Health

Sources per slide

Slide 6 correction: "Correction: We've updated slide 6 to read 72%, not 172%, though other studies have found the risk of autoimmune disorders increased by 198% following infection."

[puppppppppy]

man

[poswiecenia]

honestly i feel like covid made the importance of tumblr rpc and, like, the weird belief that bending over backwards until you burn out and lose enthusiasm for the hobby is like. the end all be all. and like, even during covid this was still technically a hobby even if y'all weren't an essential worker. i think the collective trauma from that time messed up a lot of us in terms of how some of us interpret potential lack of interactions or ''' exclusive focus ''' on some mutuals as something negative. no, we all just got our lives back in various forms. just be patient. everyone matters and people have different paces. communicate your worries in a manner that's kind and careful but remember : this is a hobby, not a job. some of us actually have those and even if some don't . . this isn't one. just have fun.

[drones-of-innocence]

Some Keane lyrics that fundamentally changed my brain chemistry