#correct answer is vices btw

[twig-tea]

BL/QL Ask game : The Ugly, the Bad and the Worst

Thank you for the game, @clara-maybe-ontheroad! And thanks for tagging me @clara-maybe-ontheroad and @lurkingshan! I started out by saying to myself that I'm going to do my best to ignore my urges and just answer the first thing that comes to me rather than treating this like a quiz. And then I went into a fugue and worked on this for >5 hours. WHOOPS.

Original version here for anyone else who wants to play!

Also quick warning, this is asking about the worsts, so TW for mentions of horrific plot points below.

Worst soundtrack / weirdest song choice in a BL

Ohhhhh man, ok so the first thought that came to mind was Never Let Me Go, which mostly had fantastic background music, and that's maybe why when it didn't hit it stood out so badly (sorry to my man Pond, not all BL actors should be singers! And having his OST play over their kiss in Part 7 4/4 was just mean). For the record I love this show (actually maybe it should go in one of the below categories because so many tumblr folks dislike it) but this was rough.

Most cringe-inducing line (cute)

These don't tend to stick with me...there are so many, and I am allergic to sincerity so everything earnest is various levels of cringe to me. So with that in mind, basically everything Gavreel ever said in Gameboys counts.

Most cringe-inducing line (actually bad)

Anytime someone said "Once I start I won't be able to stop" or some variation.

Most stupid decision made by a character

Jun Ho deciding to die rather than bite Min Hyun in Kissable Lips. Min Hyun was offering. it would have made Jun Ho human. He could have had his friends around to make sure he didn't go too far and kill him. Instead he decides to fade away in his arms like a dick. WHY.

Special mention to NuengDiao going back to his hotel where his murderous uncle is waiting with no plan other than to walk in wearing a suit and a cocky expression in Never Let Me Go.

[@bengiyo and @wen-kexing-apologist are correct about Teh giving up his spot to Oh Aew in I Told Sunset About You as the actual correct answer, btw]

Worst plot line

Every penultimate episode crises resulting in the leads splitting up so that they can reunite in the finale that are not earned and significantly detract from my enjoyment of a series [this list is not comprehensive]: 2Gether, Minato's Laundromat S2, Enchanté, Love Class, Plus & Minus.

The most problematic show you've watched

I've seen literally all of them so this feels like an unfair question lol there are layers of problematic; like, is it even worth considering all of the problems with A Round Trip to Love, or The Shortest Distance is Round, or What the Duck s2? I wrote out summaries for these and then decided no thanks. If anyone wants to know they can DM me.

In terms of series that are problematic but not often considered problematic, I'm calling out Love Area the series. It hits two of my pet peeves: shitty treatment of a poor character by an oblivious rich love interest that directly affects their sources of income, and an ableist subplot. I think it also has an unearned separation in the penultimate episode but honestly I remember thinking they should stay split up so maybe it was earned.

A show people love but you find bad

Vice Versa. Sorry to all who love that show. I wanted to like it; the colouring and cinematography are beautiful and the alternate universe was neat worldbuilding. But the plot makes me so, so angry.

Ditto Cutie Pie the series. I just can't enjoy it.

A show people find bad but you will defend

Honestly there are several, but the one that is most disliked that I will ride hardest for is probably Secret Crush On You (which I argued ended with one of the most healthy relationships in a BL here LMAO). I get why people find this show hard to watch, the cringe is real. But the gender expression! The found family! The "he's a weirdo and that's why I love him" dynamic! The mutual lusting! The body dysphoria! The fact that both start by playing into BL tropes and it's only by throwing those out that they can actually have a meaningful relationship! The way both characters have real growth! And like yes Toh is a fanboy stalker but that is problematized in the show! It gave us the growth from fanboy to faen that Be Mine Superstar didn't. I have a lot of emotions about this show.

ALSO because I cannot stop, I will forever to my dying breath defend Color Rush. I don't care what you say about dead fish kisses I can't hear you over the incredibly powerful metaphor about the queer experience!

A show that is just objectively bad but you enjoyed it

Bahahhaha. Um. So many, my friends. OH I'm going to take this chance to shout out the lesser-known webseries Discipline Z: Vampire (Korean, YouTube, 2020). It's ostensibly a sequel to Discipline, but the only thing they share is a single character so you don't need to watch it to understand what's happening in Discipline Z (they are entirely different shows in every way; Discipline is more youth slice of life with a queer story as part of the ensemble). Listen, I'm talking about this show in this category for a reason; it's about a vampire who falls for a street dancer, whose motley crew of hacker friends help rescue the vampire from an evil corporation that wants to experiment on him to understand his immortality. It is BAD.

But. BUT! I love it. Everyone is so pretty. There is a cute hacker girlie. There is scifi nonsense to explain immortality. There is a good kiss. There are characters willing to sacrifice to do the right thing. I am a simple woman. [Fair warning to my happy ending only pals: this ending is ambiguous at best; there was supposed to be a follow-up epilogue for the couple, but it never got filmed.]

Bonus, En of Love was absolutely trash and it has a very special place in my heart. It's not good (like, at all), but it's great.

A bad show that you kept watching because you were intrigued/fascinated

Let's go with Physical Therapy the series. At some point I just kept watching like a car wreck to see how bad it could get. Also shout-out to Dinosaur Love, which was...similarly bewildering.

A bad show that you kept watching because you were horny

@lurkingshan already stole my first answer for this, but oh man I stay a Why R U apologist for the Fighter/Tutor chemistry. I actually think somewhere in there is a really interesting show, if the pandemic hadn't made it impossible for them to film the ending that they wanted to, but based on the Korean version and the parts that we were told had to be cut, maybe it would have actually made it worse. But just to get on my soapbox for half a sec, Tutor was in debt, working himself to exhaustion, and Fighter (after he got over himself) protected him at his one job, joined him to help him meet his sales targets at another, hired him for a third, paid off his debt collector to take the pressure off, and then took him on vacation to help him relax--twice. I have issues with depictions of poverty in BL but at least my man secured the bag while also pursuing love or whatever. Also he whispers "get inside me" while they're making out, sorry, Tutor will forever be a fave of mine.

Since that's taken, I'm going to use this as an excuse to shout out the hotness of My Day the Series. It was predominantly not great but the heat moments....

A bad show that you kept watching because of that one character

I'm giving this to Noey Watplu from I Will Knock You. I was obsessed with him. I want his confidence so badly. I love how he's essentially a dork in cosplay but gets away with it because of his rizz. Truly iconic. This man decided he was being seduced and said "bet". I really enjoyed this show because of him and him alone.

A bad show that you would still recommend

I'm going to put Ghost Host Ghost House here. It's "bad" in the sense that it had low production values (like, really bad, so bad the time of day changes at random because they lost the light while filming). But the romance was cute, the story around the romance was interesting, the worldbuilding around the merit credits was fascinating, the side mystery was so heartbreaking, the various characters actually had a lot of difficult emotions to portray, and overall I think this show is underrated.

I also already have and will again recommend YYY as a fun and fascinating watch to anyone who asks about it, @waitmyturtles is correct on that call.

The character that ruined a show the most

There are several annoying sides in BL, but I'm giving this to the side hets in My Oxygen. A fujoshi who records people without their consent for online clout is bad. A doctor using his role as a doctor to get closer to his patient is really bad. Pretending to be interested in his friend because the girl he likes is a fujoshi is worse; then using her brother as his friend's stand-in when his friend won't put up with it anymore is the WORST.

Most awful character that you hated

I mean, Lhong in TharnType takes it for not only arranging the gang rape of Tar, but being forgiven for it in the series. Neung in Tonhon Chonlatee comes a close second for attempting to rape Chonlatee and then claiming the moral high ground against his homophobic "friend". Tony in History 5: Love in the Future doesn't get enough hate for trying to murder someone just because he was his love rival. Namning in La Cuisine had her love rival bullied, beaten and who knows what she was going to do with that gun. Also shoutout to @wen-kexing-apologist's answer of Korn, in KinnPorsche, he was so insidiously evil, it was so well done.

Most awful character that you loved

I'm going with "awful" as not necessarily (just) morally bad but that people didn't like: Jaime from Win Jaime's Heart. Objectively he's a fuckboi of the worst calibre. He agrees to go on a webshow in which he dates Heart so that he can seduce the creator of the show Winston. And Jaime is so charming that I don't care about his bi wrongs (partially, to be fair, because the premise is ridiculous so it's hard to take too seriously).

Special mention (because it's not a series) to Wine in Red Wine in the Dark Night. I love a murder twink (speaking of, things are looking really good for me to stay in love with Ai Di from Kiseki if it keeps on this track).

If we're interpreting "awful" as characters that other people don't like, it'll probably go to Toh from Secret Crush on You or Gus in Diary of Tootsies. They're flawed, they're femme, they're fantastic.

A character that wasn't awful but that you just don't like

Can in Love By Chance and the sequels. Tinn is an asshole and knows it; Can is an asshole but is also self-righteous, but in all honesty his biggest flaw for me is that he's not competent and I have little patience for that.

A hero that should have been a villain

Tempted to give this to Ko from Love Poison for essentially trying to love spell date rape his love interest--this is only not that bad because magic isn't real so of course it doesn't do anything.

Possibly Athit (Boun's character) from Even Sun? I put a question mark there because this was so convoluted and hard to follow I'm not even 100% sure I remember it right, but from what I remember, this was not a romantic story at all.

Taking a totally different approach to the question, Joke from Hidden Agenda should have been a secret villain (in the sense that he should have been scheming and sociopathic but hiding it, ineffectually, from Zo) in order to make the series make sense, but apparently I can't have nice things.

And finally, special mention to Phu in The Promise for being the villain for so many of us already.

A morally bad character you're into

Zhu Zi Shu, canon war criminal and child murderer from Word of Honor. He thought he was doing bad things for good reasons (protecting the people he loves), realized he was just doing bad things and the people he loves were all dead anyway, and crafted a convoluted plot to get out of the secret society rules that he created to prevent anyone from leaving. And then he wanders aimless until he meets Wen Ke Xing and becomes as loyal to this equally morally dubious man as he was to his secret society. I love him (and them) so much.

Same type of deal, different scale of crime: Akk from The Eclipse. I have a soft spot for this trope.

A morally bad character you're not into and you wish people would stop being into

Xue Yang from The Untamed. Also a mass murderer, but doing it just for the vibes/to avenge his finger, so he gets zero love from me. People woobify him just because he's sassy it's...rough.

The show that disappointed you the most

From hype to execution? So Much in Love / Ni Yam Ruk. I slogged through such awful subs TWICE (because they claimed they redid them, but they are still terrible) to try to give this show a chance, because the premise sounded right up my alley. I still think there's a show in there that I would have liked, but it is literally unwatchable.

Most disappointed from what the show seemed like it was doing at the start to what it delivered in full is a tie between The Shipper and Step By Step.

The Worst Show of Them All Because of Your Own Reasons

That's My Candy. I've only ever dropped/not finished I think 3 or so shows? And this was the most painful and the one I am least likely to ever finish. The pairing was overplayed, the comedy was heavy handed, and the plot was absolutely cringe inducing. It was literally torture trying to watch this.

If you made it this far, thank you for reading!

Tagging @visualtaehyun @nothingsbetterthancoffee @lurkingteapot @snidgetwrites @formayhem @slayerkitty @respectthepetty @ginnymoonbeam no pressure as always! And if you play and I didn't tag you but you're reading this, tag me anyway! I love reading everyone's answers.

[nothorses]

Hey um is it possible to be transfem AND transmasc? Let me explain. I am a trans woman. Very much so. I am planning to get bottom surgery, vocal feminization, laser hair removal, whole nine yards. However, I want a dick AND a pussy so I might get a vagina preserving phalloplasty after getting vaginoplasty. Does that technically make me both transfem and transmasc physically? Huge fan of your blog btw

Oooh- so, my answer to this question ("can I be this identity") is and will always be "yes", and it is here, too! It is possible to be both of those things at once, because it is possible to identify in any way at all.

But you offer some insight into your understanding of those words, so I want to offer you some of my own insight as well. Keep in mind that ultimately, labels are just a way of understanding yourself and communicating that to other people; how you personally understand and relate to a word is more important than anything else, when deciding what words to use for yourself. If you want to call yourself something, do it! Who cares what anyone else thinks.

My own understanding of the words is this: "transfeminine" and "transmasculine" are used more broadly to describe a set of common experiences, generally centered around the "direction" someone's gender is moving in.

If you're moving from a "male" place to a "female" place, you might be "transfeminine" (or vice versa). If you're moving from a "girl" place to a "boy" place, you might be "transmasculine" (or vice versa). If you're moving from a "masculine" place to a "feminine" place, you might be "transfeminine" (or vice versa). Or maybe you're moving from a "male" place to a "feminine" place, or from a "woman" place to a "boy" place. There are infinite ways to fit under this umbrella!

I like to think about it in terms of experiences, and how you relate to those; are other people calling themselves "transmasc" and talking about the experiences they share also talking about experiences you relate to? Is the thing you relate to about those experiences unique to transmasculinity, or is it broader than that? Do you feel at home in a space geared toward transmasculine people? If you describe yourself as "transmasc" to someone else, do you think they'll understand who you are correctly?

Those aren't hard lines, either- your experiences can be unusual, you can struggle to relate, you can feel more at home in a more niche community within that one (a community specifically for transmascs of color might be more comfortable than one that includes lots of white transmascs, for example).

You can also need to use multiple words together to more accurately describe yourself, and feel that one alone doesn't work at all; "transmasc and transfemme" might work for you, even if "transmasc" alone does not.

And there is also a difference between how you choose to identify, and where you might fall within broader conversations. Lots of people do not identify as transmasc, but include themselves/feel included/are included when "transmasc experiences" or "the transmasc community" is being discussed. You can identify as transmasc, and also not see yourself in the word in those specific contexts.

"Technically" you can identify however you want. I don't know if just sharing the desire to have a dick, or undergo phallo, is enough that most broader conversations about Transmasc Experiences would feel very relevant to you; but like, there will absolutely be overlap there. The vast majority of people who undergo that procedure, or want to, are transmasc, and you will probably have a lot in common with them that you won't have in common with anyone else- that alone might be reason enough for you to include yourself in the label.

Ultimately, it's up to you! I think you should decide how useful a term is to you practically, how it feels for you to use it personally, and all those other factors. Whatever you decide is right for you is the most correct decision about it, and you can always change your mind later.

If anyone tries to tell you not to use those words for yourself, I highly recommend setting them on fire.

[sayitaliano]

Find the correct answer-Italian exercise

Choose the correct Italian translation of each of the following English words/sentences and check your answer under the keep reading link.

1. the cat A lo gatto B il gatto C i gatto D li gatto

2. the backpack A il zaino B la zaino C lo zaino D el zaino

3. I go to school A Io vado a scuola B Io vado alla scuola C Io vado a la scuola D Io vado dalla scuola

4. My brother is tall A Il mio fratello è alto B Lo fratello mio è l'alto C Lo mio fratello è alto D Mio fratello è alto

5. I am 26 years old A Sono 26 anni B Ho 26 anni C Sono vecchio/a 26 anni D Ho anni 26

6. I have a dog A Io ho un cane B Io ho cane uno C Io ho lo cane D Io ho uno cane

7. You are funny (M) A Tu è simpatico B Tu ha simpatici C Tu sei simpatico D Tu sono simpatico

8. I am Italian (F) A Io è italiana B Io soni italiani C Io son italiane D Io sono italiana

9. My mother is French A La mia madre è francese B Mia madre è francese C Le mia madre è francesa D Il mia madre è francesa

10. My uncle has a cat A Mio zio ha un gatto B Il mio zio ha un gatto C Lo mio zio ha uno gatto D Mio zio ha lo uno gatto

....

ANSWERS:

1.B 2.C 3*.A 4.D 5.B 6*.A 7**.C /"Tu sei simpatica" is as correct depends on any gender the speaker recognize themsleves in (if any... Italian language is sadly pretty "genderized" -to avoid this, you can add "persona" and use the feminine attribute that work with this noun which actually has no real gender: anyone is a persona =person, the gender is only for the noun itself, cause it ends in -a: "tu sei una persona simpatica" could be said to anyone) 8*.D /"Io sono italiano" is as correct (as above) 9.B 10.A

*Reminder: I wrote "io" in the translations here to make them more literal also for A level learners, but you can leave it implied and the sentences are as correct.

**Especially if you are addressing to someone while saying this sentence, you can also leave "tu" implied as well. Also, reminder that 1) the feminine adjective translation is equally correct "Tu sei simpatica" I didn't add it to not cause too much confusion and to work also with the adjective in the answers (same goes vice versa for answer n.8); 2) the translation "(Voi) siete simpatici/simpatiche" is correct as well: it depends on the nature/number of the subject ofc.

Answer n.3B could be correct if you added where the school is located: Io vado alla scuola qui vicino/all'angolo/in via...... = I got the the school nerby/on the corner of the street/in .... street [ALLA = TO THE while TO = A, more general. The articolo determinativo generally specifies more an attribute of the noun also when used in a preposizione articolata -check all the rules btw]

[ct-7045]

Screw's blog masterpost

Well, hello there. I'm Screw, designation CT-7045, of the 501st Legion. Torrent Company, specifically. My batchmates are troopers Tup and Dogma.

A few of my brothers have convinced me into creating this blog on the holonet. Fives said it would be good for me to interact with civvies? Don't know about that, but this seemed fun all the same.

Asks are open! I think! Whatever those are!

《Mun speaks: Hey hiya thanks for visiting! This is my clone oc screw and I decided to make a rp blog for him. But i'm inexperienced at this whole thing fyi (as evidenced by my lack of lots of content lol). main blog: @salubriousbean

If you don't want to scroll past long rp chains you can block the tag #tcw rp , I'm pretty sure I've tagged all of them and this masterpost lol with that tag

I'll add more to this masterpost as I think of things I promise. Q&A's and other info under the cut so y'all know what the kriff is going on:

/\ = signifies a POV change, like Screw's POV to a third person POV and vice versa (at least for this blog idk about other rp blogs)

《 》 = mun speaks (personal preference for these symbols I just like them, also just for this blog idk about other rp blogs)

questions n stuff (agh sorry about the capitalization, it's wack):

Are you open to rp with other blogs?

lol I don't even know why I included this question as I'm too chicken to tag anyone to rp with

but yes! I'd love to rp with you as long as it's appropriate. I will also only answer appropriate (ex. sfw) asks. disclaimer: responses may take a little longer as I've got a wack schedule but I'll do my best

Is this canon compliant?

if I'm being honest, not usually, but it depends on if I'm rp-ing with someone who is being canon compliant. This is kind of an au (considering that Tup and Dogma are the only ones left of their batch if my knowledge is correct, so Screw wouldn't exist. but he does here ahahahhaha). Also in this au I've decided that domino squad all survives and all become ARCs, huzzah! This is all sort of just bending canon lol

How did Screw get his name?

That's actually one of my wips, I'll link to it when it's finished (here's a snippet!) (btw it includes Fordo and Alpha-17, more not really canon compliant stuff (??) but who cares? not me!)

What does Screw look like?

I promise I'll add a photo of him to this post . . . as soon as I finish it that is . . . Anyways he uses a DC-17 like his two batchmates. He originally was going to cut his hair shorter like Dogma's, but Tup convinced Screw to grow his hair out like with him. It's not quite as long as Tup's yet, but it's getting there. It's longer than regulation, so Tup and Screw can tie most of it up if they want, but not all of it yet.

Screw and Tup also came up with the teardrop tattoo idea and they're proud of it. I'm currently brainstorming tattoo ideas for him.

He has a large scar across his face, from his forehead, across the bridge of his nose, and off his cheek. Another smaller scar cuts throigh his eyebrow. He got the scars in his squad's first posting, where they (Screw, Tup, and Dogma) lost the other members.

(The following is subject to change) Screw's helmet is painted to kind of match his scar, but symmetrical, it almost looks like a peace sign on the front. His armor is pretty random, he has two big four-pointed stars on his knee plates, an five-pointed star on one of his shoulders, and the other shoulder is solid blue. On the top of his chest plate is some clouds, with lightning and raindrops coming down from them. On the back of one of his hand plates is Tup's teardrop, and on the other is Dogma's chevron. On one of his forearms are patterns from his other two squadmates' armor (the ones who are no longer with them), and other patterns from other clones who have made a difference in Screw's life. On the other of his forearms is Ahsoka's markings, and some other TBD markings. The rest of his armor is TBD

What's Screw's personality like?

He, uh, let's just say he's got a loose screw or two. Also I have taken large chunks of my personality and made it his personality too. So there's that.

Screw likes cool stories (they live in his head rent-free) and he was able to bond with Hardcase over explosions. Once he met Fives, he was a teensy bit less lax with rules, but Dogma gently reminds him here and there when needed.

The 501st is all convinced that Screw also had a leak in his growth jar, like Hardcase, 'cause how else could you explain all his randomness and occasional chaos? However, this leak thing has never been officially confirmed by the Kaminoans. But Kix said "Most likely." so it's basically confirmed. At least for the 501st.

Screw also has trouble going to bed/sleeping at normal hours. A lot of the times he's up late, with only Rex up too, doing reports and captain stuff. Screw would love to go spend time with his Captain but he's a bit (socially) anxious, like Tup, so he's too scared to ask. luckily, those late nights are perfect for blogging. Though Screw does have trouble waking up in the morning. Also sometimes he gets matching headaches with Tup, and less frequently, Dogma.

Screw loves his brothers, especially his two other batchers (platonically, no cloneshipping here). He's also fascinated with mando'a, he thinks the language is really cool and already mostly knows it. He's a slight nerd and will sometimes hyperfixate on various topics. He likes learning new words. Once he painted a mouse droid and named it Slayer. And named a mop Enrad. Screw is also besties with 99 (and Omega a bit) :>

Thanks for reading all this guys, I'm excited to develop my boy's character some more and have some fun with him!》

[blueblossomrose]

That's a "x reader" btw

So... most of my posts will not be in english, they will be in my native language, portuguese. English is not my first language and in this case my english is very basic and I don't feel like spending sleepless nights correcting my mistakes or those of Google Translate.

But anyway feel free to send requests in any language, I will do my best to answer you.

You will often see fanfics here from:

• Obey Me

• Twisted Wonderland

• Demon Slayer/Kimetsu no Yaiba

• Shuumatsu no Valkyrie/Record Of Ragnarok

• Jujutsu Kaisen

• Bungou Stray Dogs

• Kuroshitsuji

• Genshin Impact

• Hazbin Hotel/Helluva Boss

If you request another fandom besides these, I may not know about it, and then unfortunately I won't be able to write.

The purple brands are my favorite and the ones I write about most often.

Now about rules.

♥︎ I do NSFW, but I don't do problematic subjects like incest, non-consensual, abuse, bizarre fetishes like feces, urine, etc. My nsfw works are mostly focused on romance and not the "horny" part exactly. Don't insist that I do weird things like the ones mentioned above.

♥︎ DNI if you are: discriminating of any kind (religious intolerant, racist, etc.) and if you have problematic or criminal speech of any kind.

♥︎ I write about afab!fem!reader or gn!reader. Sometimes I risk writing for amab!male!reader, i'm sorry if you identify otherwise, but I don't feel comfortable writing for other genres. I'm afraid of offending.

I also write crossover sometimes.

I have a Wattpad account, but it only has content in portuguese.

Is @Mangekyou_chan, follow if you want.

Some content here can be posted there and vice versa.

Masterlist:

[mochiwrites]

( tags via @copper-dragon-in-disguise )

you’re so correct this is the only right answer /silly

scar Is incredibly gay about it btw. grian appears and essentially changes his Entire life. a once lifeless palace is suddenly bursting with life and energy, laughter warming the once cold halls, sunflowers adding a pop of color to the bleakness. scar would do Anything for this man and vice versa

grian may not remember his home, but scar has Become his home

thinking about…. parrot coven. and a new au…

[rayofsunas]

otherworldly! s/o

A/n: happy monday! I woke up at 7am and since then I've been grinding out assignments/classes and now this, so I actually feel productive even though I've been staring at my computer for a while. but thank you for requesting anon! I enjoyed writing this and I hope you enjoy reading it! <33 also to understand this more, I'd like to point out that this connects to the speculation Genshin and Honkai are alternate universes of one another. so for example, Scaramouche is a harbinger from his time, but he may have been a warlord in a different, with a completely different name (keeping his appearance ofc) hope that makes sense. so if you've paid attention to what I've been saying about Scara and his mini-series, etc. you'll understand what I mean in Scara's lol. his reader insert is fem for the same reason as above btw!

Summary: otherworldly! s/o who arrived as a fallen meteor, that can bring back plants to life/heal deep wounds/scars and resurrect people.

Parings: Albedo/Gn! Reader, Xiao/Gn! Reader, Scaramouche/Fem! Reader

Warnings: swearing, fluff, alternate realities/time traveler au! (reader is not the traveler), death/resurrection

Word count: 1.7k

Albedo

you don't have a vision like some people in Teyvat, because you're not from there; you're from a whole different world itself. instead, you have healing abilities that allow you to any energy you absorb in the form of food/sunlight, and you can use that energy to heal others. though, the healing can only go as far as healing minor injuries such as shallow cuts, scratches, or smoothing out scars. the same can work if you were to heal yourself.

Albedo is so intrigued when he finds you passed out in the pit of a meteor, half of your body hanging out while the other is awkwardly still in it

one, because who is this stranger in a meteor for crying out loud

and two, he notices your wounds on your arms are healing by themselves, slowly though

as someone who studies alchemy, life forms, and such, he's very intrigued that you're able to heal yourself without medicine, and he wonders if you can do the same to others

so he takes you to his lab, and runs a few tests

yes, you're still passed out when this happens, but he's just so curious and couldn't hold back

don't worry though, he's just drawing some blood and testing to see what you can do, because who knows, you may not even speak his language and won't be able to communicate with him (doesn't make a difference Albedo, you need COnSENT-)

so, just for science, he cuts the palm of his hand a little and decides to see if you can heal him

it doesn't take him long to notice the way the tips of your fingers are glowing a light greenish-yellow, so he immediately assumes that's the source of your powers and places a finger on his palm

it takes a second before anything happens, but eventually his cut starts to slowly close

once again he's even more shocked and intrigued

you have the natural ability and he's never come across someone with so much raw strength being able to do that

so you're right up his alley

when you wake up you're confused as hell (obviously) but thankfully, you can speak his language and are able to share your story

Albedo decides to make a deal with you

he'll help you get home if you can educate him more about your ability and your homeland. you agree

it works out perfectly, because you both have something the other needs/can do for the other (you have your power that he's interested in, and he's found a way for you to return home)

it's also easy to work together because of those same common interests, and it helps that he studies alchemy cause he's way more knowledgeable about you and the process can go a tiny bit quicker for you if you wish to return home sooner

at first you're merely friends, co-workers if you wish

but then he starts falling for you and vice versa

you both genuinely enjoy each others company, so you decide to stay in Teyvat a little while longer, even after he finds a way for you to go home

I wouldn't put it past Albedo to want to return to your world if you allow it

he'd be interested in this new or not so new world ;)

Xiao

you're like the traveler in a sense, where as soon as you climbed out of the meteor, you felt this connection to Teyvat and your vision randomly appeared. you have a dendro vision, something you learned was a rarity within liyue and mondstadt. along with that vision, you had the previous ability to grow/heal plants. you can bring back dead plants, though if they've been dead for a very long time, that's beyond your ability. they also can't be brought back if they've been badly burned.

Xiao may not be interested at first about what vision you have or even where you came from + why the hell you climbed out of a meteor

he's more interested in getting you home so you can stop asking questions about his own abilities/vision and odd, unfamiliar, but beautiful world

but boy when he catches you bringing back a wilted Glaze Lily?!? shook

he secretly thinks you're so cool and it piques his interest

he's never seen anyone do this before, and though his eyes were deceiving him when he first saw the lily spring to life again

but then when he catches you healing more plants, on your way to Liyue to hopefully find Zhongli for answers, he's so interested

he doesn't ask a crapload of questions, BUT he's going to ask at least one or two

"how're you doing that?"

"what are you?

the questions are kind of vague and require more in-depth explanations than he'd originally hoped, but he's surprisingly willing to listen to your story on the way to the harbor

after he learns your story and calls for Zhongli, he'll immediately leave and claim he has no further interests in you

but he's obviously lying

he finds as he's sitting on top of one the smaller mountains one night, looking down at the glowing Liyue town, he has more questions

way more questions

surprising Zhongli, Xiao shows appears when he's showing you around and getting you accustomed to the people/culture

he finds himself hoving behind you, shyly almost, never asking questions (at least not in Zhongli's presence

his reason for standing behind you is to protect you from any harm, so that way, when he decides to ask you more questions, you'll be there for him to do so and not dead or lost

when you tell Zhongli you'd wish to stay in Teyvat, specifically Liyue, Xiao is happy ngl

he can ask you questions and now that you're somewhat used to Liyue, having been here for four months already and planning to stay forever, he can catch you alone and ask questions without Zhongli hovering or acting as your tour guide lol

slowly, and I mean sluggishly slow, he's going to ask you more questions and he may, emphasis on may, tell you his own story

Scaramouche

you're from an alternate reality of Teyvat, a former doctor in your world. basically, Teyvat hundreds of years in the future. you've studied the human body to become a doctor obviously and you used to be able to bring back the dead using your bare hands. it didn't matter how far back ago they've died, as long as their full-body was still intact (full skeleton needed). though, the further back they died, the more energy you'd use, and if you run out of energy too soon, you couldn't bring them back. but now in this strange land, you can't. in exchange for your powers being lost, you're given an electro vision.

Scaramouche is tasked with finding out more about these odd meteors that keep appearing in various corners of Teyvat

and one very large one

he doesn't care who you are, what you are, what your excuse for being in Teyvat is, but he's been ordered to explore the fallen meteor and since you happened to be passed out inside it upon further exploration, you're part of the mystery he's been told to check out

and, it doesn't further help your situation that you landed in Snezhnaya, in the weirdest, not-so-warm clothing AND he finds you attractive (yes, you heard it here folks), plus you're going to catch hypothermia out here dressed like that

it would suck for a pretty girl such as yourself to be frozen to death

so Scaramouche decides to take you to the Tsaritsa, who leaves you in Scaramouche's care since he found you

she says he can do whatever he wants you, dispose of you, etc.

when you finally come too in an odd room on a couch in front of a fireplace, you're confused, cold as hell despite the flames, and when you see his face, you're immediately angered, which he finds odd

it's almost as if you recognize him... but he doesn't recognize you so he's confused as well

"what're you doing here?"

bold of you, he thinks. to question him with that tone as if you have authority here, over him

"watch yourself. I was going to ask you the same."

you don't seem too pleased with him though

"we agreed to never speak again, or so I thought..."

"are you stupid or are you just playing the stupid card to be released?" he'd say

though as soon as you burst and yell at him about a situation he's not familiar with, he's starting to understand a bit more

you're not from here, not anywhere in Teyvat at least, and by the way you're talking to him as if you know him, he assumed correctly that you're from an alternate reality, where he's also present

though despite his correct assumption, he demands answers and you cannot be allowed any kind of freedom until he gets them

you tell him your story and how in your world, a version of himself exists and that you were briefly married, though split because he was too much of a control/power freak for you and your daughter

he disagrees with the last part about him being a control/power freak ofc but

he decides he'll keep you around, against your wishes

one, because you can become useful if your resurrection abilities are awoken; you'd be able to save many fallen Fatui soldiers, with more training so you don't run out of energy ofc

and two, he doesn't think his other self would miss you very much if you're both on bad terms, he sure would miss such a pretty face if you were to leave though, that's for sure...

so, he's going to keep you around, so he can help train/get used to your electro vision. it works best that way since he has the same vision and can train you more efficiently (I think Scara has electro powers, just an assumption!)

he will also hopefully be able to awaken your resurrection abilities and if you can't, well then sorry you're disposable

overtime, all the Harbingers tease him about his little crush and he either denies it or strongly provokes it cause his ego is through his fucking hat

exhibit a. literally doesn't care that he's caught by childe staring at you train and will say something like, "and? you're just jealous she's not interested in you like she is me."

exhibit b. will throw a fit if someone accuses him and says he has, "no room for crushes or love." even if he was somewhat capable of it in your world...

3.22.21, rayofsunas

[chordata-on-alterhumanity]

best way to have/cause memories, if possible?

Hey! Sorry this took so long for me to get to. I've had a ton going on and I really wanted to properly sit down and collect my thoughts to give you an answer. That said, I'm just me and I'm bound to not be able to look at this from every possible perspective, so I'm sure other people will think of things that should be said about the topic or tips on how to make/find memories as a linker that I can't think of, so if someone reads this and thinks of smth additional, please add it in a reply or reblog of this post!!!

-didn't proofread this. Sorry about typos!-

(edits this almost a month after posting) I just realized that i answered this pertaining to otherlinking even though the ask doesn't specify that... I guess my mind assumed that's what it's talking about because I mostly talk about linking on this blog currently. Hope that was the case or my information is helpful regardless. Anyway, edit end -

Memories as an otherlinker can be made or come to be through a wide range of causes. They can be intentionally crafted or come unexpectedly. What really matters isn't the way they're gathered, but how they feel. A memory needs to feel "right", "correct", "true". You can try spending a lot of time convincing yourself that xy event happened as your linktype, but if it doesn't sit right (i.e. feels out of character, too ideal to be realistic, etc), it'll be a lot harder for you to incorporate it into your linktype's past.

For me, personally, memories seem to ring the most true if I don't have to do much thinking about them. I like the random sort of memory aquisition most. I'll have a random thought, I briefly question if it's connected to my linktype, and if it fits, I feel it fits. If it doesn't fit, I get a negative feeling. The exact feeling can vary in both form (distaste, discomfort, irritation, annoyance, ...) and strength (mild to strong). I can also feel neutrally about it. I tend to not view memories as mine if they make me feel neutral or negative. The positive ones, I consider.

Once I have such a memory than can stick to my linktype because it feels "right" (in character, I feel good about it), I can let that sit for a while or immediately start thinking about the story around it. Why did that happen/Why was that a thing? It's basically the same process as before. Whatever explanation feels "right" can most easily lead to more memories.

Otherlink memories don't have to be memories of specific events, btw. It can also just be general knowledge. That's called noema, with the plural version being noemata (this term was coined for otherkin but is free to use for experiences from other groups as far as I know). Like, you can remember that your favourite pair of shoes was red, but you don't know that because you remember an exact moment where you put on your shoes. You can remember a fact, not an event. But remembering a fact can lead to remembering events and vice versa!

Triggers for creating/getting memories can be utterly random. I'm so sorry I can't give you specific tips there. I'll talk about my experience for a little.

For my Raihan linktype, I had the random thought that it'd be funny if Raihan had a Beautifly, and then I thought "Well actually why not?". It felt ooc at first, but then I realized it's exactly something that fits into the Raihan I am. This spun into a whole bunch of memories, going off of my relationship to Beautifly, my living situation, how I wasn't particularly fond of being seen in public with it because it didn't fit my public image, but that conflicted with how I loved spending time with it in nature. Then the - you can call it worldbuilding at this point - rolled off away from Beautifly and to other people I don't have in canon and how I met them. A vacation in the Hoenn region, meeting a Tropius there... Can you see what I mean with one thing leading to the next?

What I just described wasn't information I sat down for and gathered within a day. It instead happened over weeks, months. Once you find a memory that feels right, don't rush into finding the next. Let your mind process it for a while and get comfortable. If you rush things, from my experience, it becomes harder to find more potential memories that feel true.

Dreams about your linktype can also be triggers for memories! They're very potent ones because dreams come with feelings, so it becomes easier to adapt the experienced events as memories because there's already an emotional connection there. I don't recommend blindly accepting all dreams as memories, though. Dreams can be non-sensical, chaotic, and also uncomfortable or downright nightmares. Do yourself a favor and dismiss dreams/nightmares that'll drag you down if you dwell on them. Or at least think it through properly first.

It's also helpful to try searching for memories that are related to, or a re-interpretation of your irl life. For example, if you really like bugs, you can think about whether or not you caught bugs in your linktype's childhood. Or let current events inspire you, i.e. whatever weather it is where you're at - are there any memorable things that happened as your linktype while in similar weather? Walking through rainy puddles while in a large city as your linktype, having your clothes blown in your face by windy weather, roasting in the sun during sunny we... Think about the most special or most mundane things. Or inbetween. Anything could be your inspiration and lead you to ideas that resonate as memories!

If you decide something's a memory, and then later realize that it doesn't fit after all, feel free to change your mind on it. You can "drop" memories.

I'm trying to think of more, but I think that's all I got... I hope this helps!

[terrence-silver]

I recently read your headcanons on what Terry Silver would be like as a parent and it made me think of some further questions about his parenting (you don't have to answer if you don't want). Do you think if Terry had multiple children that he would be the type of parent to pick favorites and possibly pit his children against each other or do you think he would promote camaraderie amongst his children? In your post you said something along the lines of Terry being the type of parent to teach his child a new karate move and tell them to try it out on the first person they see, what if they did it on one of their siblings? Would Terry discourage this or encourage his children fighting and hurting each other? And lastly, would Terry act different towards his children depending on what gender they are? Like would he be tougher on the boys than the girls, or vice versa? Or would he treat them all pretty equal?

Btw I love your posts. Terry Silver is such an interesting character and your characterization of him is perfect in my opinion :)

I always headcanon that Terry has a special sort of devotion towards his people.

Be it members of staff, people who work for him, John Kreese, of course.

And his children as much his as a set of people can get --- literally.

They're genetically at least partially him.

Definitely a very Yandere dad.

So, Iike to think that as a parent, Terry employs fierce, almost (un)healthy bias towards all things him. That no matter what thing his children say, or do, no matter how bad, duplicitous, scheming, awful or manipulative, Terry looks past it and makes sure his brood is bailed out of trouble on the regular with money, influence and with an amused chuckle when nobody is looking and even goes a step further to encourage such behaviour, teaching them how to effectively get away with things, employing an Us vs Them insular, exclusive mentality. What his children to do others is sport, entertainment, fun, kids being kids (they might be forty, who cares, doesn't matter - they're still his.) or them being prepared for the real world. Whichever. But, they must never repeat such actions inside of their own family, towards each other. Towards their parents. Their siblings. Loyalty is key. I think Terry very much lives on these principles of loyalty in the most extreme sense. While others are fair game, a Silver never backstabs a Silver. A Silver is devoted to a Silver, even when pretending he's not for some nefarious purpose. Why? Because they're both Silvers. Simple. Works in the animal kingdom, right? A Silver might be momentarily annoyed with another Silver, disappointed, or angry, but ultimately, for some reason, I figure the eerily cultish, slightly tribal mentality of Cobra Kai bleeds into his parenting. The brotherhood he and John had for five decades and beyond is reflected in how he raises his offspring. All his offspring. Boy, or girl or other. Their sexualities don't matter. Their genders. Their diversity in character and worldviews. They're his. They're all Silvers. They're more of a unit then anything else. Fingers of a hand. They function to have each other's backs and protect each other when attacked, not unlike he and Johnny had each other's in 'Nam. If anything, he'd reprimand his kids if they didn't live on the principles of Devotion and Discipline where their own siblings and family were concerned.

Where Karate is concerned, they'd be taught. Their father teaches them. They teach their younger siblings, in correct order. They collectively train on each other. They're like a clan, really and yes, he'd undoubtedly push them in the direction of antagonizing outsiders (which is...everyone?) if need be, striking hard, striking fast and first, with no mercy. They're a really dangerous family to mess with, because if you slightly cross one of the Silver children, you unknowingly crossed several other Silver children too, alongside their father and they'd be on your tail like cobras and while he wouldn't make a difference between children based on genders, and the boys defend the girls as much as the girls defend the boys and anyone anywhere on the gender binary defends anyone else within the brood in equal measure, the only person who he instructs they should unequivocally protect is their mother. Ultimately, as a family, as father and as a parent, Terry Silver's little unit of children is bloodthirsty, nepotistic, despotic, biased, vengeful, two faced, deadly, cunning, intelligent and obnoxiously wealthy, but their devotion to each other is such that they'd go to the ends of the earth for each other.

As for a favourite kid of his, on a personal note, and this is really, really, really self-indulgent and just hits my emotions really hard and nobody has to agree, I'm convinced he'd love them all immensely to the point of being a toxic enabler but I always enjoyed the deep karmic irony of Terry being secretly, subconsciously (and almost begrudgingly) fondest and most fiercely defensive of his smallest, youngest, scrawniest child in the group that inadvertently reminds of Twig. 🥺💔

[embrassemoi]

Surrounded by the Moon and Stars • 06

Pairings: Sirius Black x [F]Reader, Remus Lupin x [F]Reader Content: Language, possible errors, music snob!Remus,  Author’s notes: song used: Come Together by The Beatles

BTW: I always try to use little to no physical descriptions for the reader insert but I did add that the reader has some sort of hair. I didn't mention hair texture or length (Sorry if ur bald). My taller readers, I only mentioned that you were shorter than Remus (no height was given)

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Chapter 6: ABBA vs. The Beatles 

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“Merlin’s beard! Binns is a sadist; torturing students must be his only pastime,” James yawned, taking his glasses off to rub his eyes.

Nothing could ever compare to the History of Magic. Today, lessons were dreadful and muddy. Professor Binns’ monotone voice filtered throughout the class, rambling on and on about various dates in history. Hardly anyone paid attention before he started calling on students. Annoyed, Binns would continue to reiterate his inquiry until the student(s) got the correct answer, no matter how long it took.

A sadist indeed.

Although Binns wasn’t the sole reason why the class was pathetic, but rather the lack of any practical work was simply a joke. The class only reminded Y/N of her short time in public school. Geometry? Utterly useless for any daily life interactions. To make matters worse, Binns surprised the class with a pop-quiz and two chapters of reading. Luckily, he had an ounce of mercy in his ghostly body and dismissed the class early for lunch.

James continued, “I would rather fight a dragon than — Woah! Your hair! “

She glanced to look at herself through the reflection in James’ glasses. Her hair, which originally was emerald green, was now turning into a golden yellow. The different colours clashed together boldly.

“You look like the banner for the Holyhead Harpies,” Peter said, striding up to James’ side.

“The Holyhead Harpies,” James said dreamily, “They’re probably one of my favourite teams.

Remus, who had been trailing behind Peter jumps in, “You only like them because they’re all women, you wanker.” He turns to Peter, his hand shooting up to the side of his head, massaging small circles into his temples, “Why’d you get him going?”

James became insufferable whenever someone or something mentioned Quidditch. Not only would he boast about his abilities as a Chaser, but he seemingly was a never-ending encyclopedia about Quidditch. It only worsened as November neared, the start of the new Quidditch season was approaching.

One time Y/N found herself stuck listening to him babble about Ireland winning the world cup for about thirty minutes. She didn’t have the heart to stop him, though. Nobody listened to his rants and he could hardly contain his excitement. How could she tell him she wasn’t interested?    

A monstrous smirk etched its way onto his face, “Caught me.”

“Be anymore of a predator would ya, Prongs?”

“Hey! That’s not the only reason why I like them. Did you forget their victory in 1953 against the Heidelberg Harriers? Their strategy was blood-fucking-brilliant. They’re legendary! My father was there to see it in person. Lucky bastard. He told me…”

His voice fades into the background as Y/N catches Remus’ eyes. A glint of mischief shined through them before he forced a fake pitiful smile. He mouthed a quick ‘sorry’ to her before looping his arm around Peter’s shoulder, discreetly leaving James’ side and out of the classroom.

That sly, slippery bastard.  

"— and did I mention that their seeker was one of the most sought out —”

“Wait, James.”

He abruptly pauses, waiting patiently for her to continue. She leads them out into the corridor and towards the great hall. “Sorry, didn’t mean to cut you off like that, but when is my hair going back to normal?”

Y/N instantly regretted mentioning her hair. There was no trace of a smile on James. His shoulders slumped a bit and his walking even staggered. “Godric, I know, I know and I’m sorry. I thought it would have returned back to normal by now. I’ve been creating reversal spells — even started asking Moony to help.”

“Moony?”

“Remus.”

“Another one of your nicknames?”

“It’s not a nickname! It’s a brotherhood — a pack!”

“Oh, sorry Prongs,” she drawled, a sarcastic smile on her face, “If I didn’t know you I would assume you were an asshole.”

“What? How?!”

“You go around calling yourself a marauder, the king of Quidditch and now Prongs. Seems pretty assholely.”

James’ mouth opens before closing again, repeating the process several times.

“Plus, you pull silly pranks every day.”

He chuckles, “Oi! You helped us with that itching idea!”

Her eyebrows raised in acknowledgement, “Touché.”

To this, James shakes his head, directing the conversation back to the Holyhead Harpies. Inwardly, Y/N wanted to whack him with a broomstick.

They were among the first students to reach the Great Hall, aside from students who had a free or were excused early by Professor Binns. None of the girls were there yet. Unfortunately, Marlene was held back by Binns, so Y/N was left to sit beside James who sat opposite to Remus, Peter and Sirius.

She had been trying her best to avoid Sirius whenever she could. It was clear he didn’t like her. He never laughed whenever she made a joke, he hardly noticed her, he never praised her, even if she tried to compliment him. He was just rude for no apparent reason. The rest of the marauders and girls knew this, although they preferred not to comment about the obvious, strained relationship (which they didn’t even know the reason for. Granted, Y/N wasn't quite sure herself. Was it the rejection, he just didn't like her or is just an ass?).

Although, ignoring and avoiding him proved to be extremely challenging. Y/N was glued to Lily’s hip ever since the Sorting Ceremony. It also didn’t help that if you were with one marauder, another one was sure to follow. She and James started to spend more time with each other, and by extension, she was obligated to be around at least one other marauder. With the addition of study sessions with Remus, it was inevitable.

Surprisingly, Sirius hadn’t made any snarky remarks, excluding dirty looks, he was being… nice — nicer to her. The action was a stark contrast from his previous behaviour and she speculated a few reasons why:

Most likely, James or Lily, she assumed the former, said something to him. Since his little spat with James at breakfast a few weeks ago, Sirius was tight-lipped ever since.

Maybe he was done being a prick, deciding to stop by himself after realizing he was a prick.

Went through something personal, it stopped, and his behaviour improved.

Minutes after the bell rang, students began to trickle in for lunch. The comfortable chatter rose as Y/N finished eating an apple. Everyone seemed pleased when James’ Quidditch lecture was interrupted as hundreds of owls streamed in, packages and letters dropping into the laps of students. She hadn’t expected anything considering her owl, Celeste, didn’t drop anything off since the first week of October. However, today she fluttered down between the bread and fruit bowls, dropping off several letters and a small parcel onto Y/N’s plate, pecking at the bread crumbs on the table. She tore the letter open, inside it said:

Dear Y/N,  

Are you still having a hard time with Charms? If so, perhaps I find some textbooks and send them over.  

Don’t slack off this year. Send me a letter whenever you have the chance. (Make sure to tell Celeste to be quieter next time. You know I can, and never will get used to the owls.)  

Mom  

Her mother finally wrote to her. A sense of joy flooded her body as she placed the letter back down on the oak table. A part of her wondered if Celeste was dropping off her letters to the wrong house, the one back in Toronto as her mother never wrote back. She opened the next letter, immediately recognizing the messy scrawl:

October 19, 1975  

Y/N! I thought you replaced me with one of your brits, but a false alarm, your letters just take a while to arrive. Must be tiring for Celeste to travel to and from Scotland then America and back. You know, whenever people see her fly in, they still recognize her.  

Are you doing anything for Halloween? We’re throwing another dance. Going to be alone this year now that I can’t force you to come. I guess I’ll just watch half the school dry hump each other while I smuggle in firewhiskey.

How’s it going over there? I heard from a few students, even read in the papers about the war. It’s getting pretty crazy over here. Teachers have been meeting and trying to prevent students and parents from losing their shit. My mom has been worried too, writing to me like a lunatic and I’m not even in the UK. The MACUSA have been keeping quiet but they were caught having meetings with counsellors from the Ministry of Magic. Even heard that Jenkins is stepping down. If it keeps getting out of hand here, I can’t imagine what it must be like at Hogwarts. I truly thought the war was dying down, I was wrong. Keep your wand close. Surely, you’ll get away with a hex or two.

Until next time

Matthew G.  

So engrossed in her new environment, her old life slipped to the back of her mind. There was a detachment from her reality compared to the one at home. A pang of guilt hit her, swallowing her up from the inside out until another pang hit, loneliness. If she easily forgot everyone, would anyone remember her? None of her old friends, apart from Matthew, had made a move to contact her since she left.

Often thinking about writing them first, she had to remind herself if they wanted to, they would. Especially with the knowledge that people still recognized Celeste.

Was she forgettable and if so, was it karma for forgetting too?

It put a mechanical vice grip on her heart, applying just enough pressure to be a constant reminder. With every beat, it tightened more and more.

Looking around the table, she saw her peers huddle in groups, familiar laughter ringing throughout. So noisy, so taunting. She may have been friends with Lily, Dorcas, James or even Marlene, but they had their own friends. Friendships that had years to develop before she came. She had only known them for less than two months.

Forgettable.

How hilarious, she thought.

“Hey,” a gentle voice cooed into her ear, “Are you okay?”

She hummed back absentmindedly.

James wore a concerned expression, his eyes knitted together, one raised higher than the other like it always does when he was worried. The look he shot her suggested he wasn’t convinced, although he didn’t press; instead opting to stir the conversation. “So, who wrote to you?”

“A friend and my mom —”

A snort so loud that it caused the rest of the marauders, random onlookers and even Lily (who had a look of pure disgust on her face) turned towards them. “What did you say?”

“I got a few letters?”

“No!” He bellowed, “Who sent you them?”

“My friend and my mom —”

Nearly choking on his sandwich, James clutched his stomach laughing. Laughing so hard he has to grip the table to prevent falling off the hall bench. "Haha! Mom?! MOM?” He mocked in a poor American accent, “What the fuck is mom? It’s MUM. Bollocks!”

“We say vitamin.”

“It’s VIT-A-MIN! Who says VIGHT-A-MIN?” Without a pause, James presses his entire body onto her shoulder, smushing her before grabbing the letter her mother sent her. His eyes scanned across the pages before hitting a certain word. “Back home? Maple trees? Where did you use to live exactly?”

“Canada.”

“Canada?! You don’t mean those snowy gits?” At this, Peter and Remus snort under their breaths. Even Lily had to force down a smile.

Staring deadpanned at him, in an unamused voice, “Really?”

“You are a bundle of surprises! I thought you lived… I’m not sure. I assumed somewhere like New Hork.”

“York,” Lily corrects.

“Tomato, tomato,” he jokes, playfully batting his eyes at Lily before biting into his sandwich, “You do live in London, right?”

“Right.”

James takes a moment, letting the conversation die down before he quickly glances at Y/N again. An undecipherable expression crosses his face before it’s promptly replaced with elation, “I take back anything negative I’ve said about Canada. They have an amazing Quidditch rooster. Have you gone to any of their games?”

A low grumble of sighs follows at the mention of Quidditch from James. Out of the corner of her eye, she saw Remus shake his head and sighed dejectedly.

“Nah, I’m a New-Maj, remember? My mom — “

“Mum —”

“ — sorry, Mum — hardly understands the wizarding world, let alone what Quidditch is.”

His eyes were wide, whimsical, as a hand flew to his chest dramatically, “Rubbish! Bloody ridiculous! You’ve never seen a real Quidditch game? One day, I swear I’ll bring you to one! Or you can bring me to Canada one day and we can watch a home game!”

As James continued to rant, Y/N’s mind slowly drifted back to the bitterness in her chest. Trying to distract herself, she borrowed Lily’s quill and a few sheets of parchment, scribbling down letters in response.

Mom,  

I’m fine with Charms, you don’t need to send anything. And don’t worry, I’ve been studying for my OWLs.  

Love you, write soon.

The next letter was addressed to Matthew:

Matty Matt,

Of course, I didn’t replace you… yet. 

Another dance? You would think the students’ protest last year would have influenced the professors this time. I guess it’s time for you to get wasted. I didn’t tell you last time but I think I’m going to a party. A friend of mine is throwing it and I know he’s going to force me to come no matter what. He briefly mentioned costumes and drinks. Plus, there’s going to be some kind of prank that I may or may have not been a part of? Sounds cool right?  

Yeah, I’d say it’s been bad up here. I don’t know much about what's going on outside of school, though. The professors are hiding it well. I didn’t even hear about Jenkins stepping down. Keep me updated.  

Until next time  

She sealed the letters before sending Celeste off again, “Be quieter when you drop off the letters, yeah?”

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It must be her lucky day.

The ringing of the bell went off, signalling the end of class. Professor Flitwick asked the students to stay behind so he could hand out quizzes the students completed on Monday in preparation for their upcoming test on Growth and Reductor charms the following Tuesday.

It was never a good sign when a professor flips your test over to prevent other students from seeing their mark. Flipping it over at a downwards angle, Flitwick handed Y/N her quiz.

Turning it over nervously, a tight coil formed in the pit of her stomach. A large P was plastered on the top right corner in bold red ink. She studied hard for this too. Angrily, she shoved her work into her bag and left the class. This was the third poor she'd gotten in a row. She should have told her mother she needed those Charm books.

“I swear I’m going mad! Her brother is a complete cow! He even — are you listening?”

She looks at the girl beside her, Marlene. Her glossed over, doe eyes must have served as an answer before the blonde shook her head.

“Sorry, distracted,” she mumbles, before forcing out a fake-happy tone, “Continue your story! I wanna hear!”

“Hey,” Marlene says in a softer voice, “If something’s bothering you, you can talk about it.”

“No, it’s okay,” she replies instinctively. She felt bad spacing out during Marlene’s story but her mind was running through and under hoops. The last thing any fifth year student needed was to fall behind in their classes, let alone feeling like nobody cared about them.

At that moment, she wished she was wrapped away in red and gold blankets to wallow in her self-pity party, away from prying eyes. She could feel the burning sensations of tears building up.

Dammit.

Y/N looked out the window to her left. The sky was melting with the warm hues of reds and yellows while the other half was being slowly engulfed into a cloak of twilight. Even from here, she could feel the cool air seeping in from the windows making her tug on the sleeves of her robes.

She continued, “I’m just tired — been a long day. I’m going to take a nap before dinner. See you.”

Judging by the look on Marlene and Lily’s face, guilt riddles her body. They both look sympathetic. The pity only made Y/N feel disgusting. In all honesty, Y/N will care later. Right now wasn’t the time and she desperately needed some shut-eye.

Before she left the room, she overheard them talking.

“What’s up with her?”

“Dunno.”

Great.

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Sleep did little to ease her thoughts.

The same uneasiness she felt on the train ride to Hogwarts settled deep into her bones again. She thought she was past this. The worrying about friends, missing home, feeling alone, failing class, stressing about her future. The rational part of her brain knew it was just one silly quiz (and old shitty friends), but knowing herself, if she were to continue to have this mindset, she would only fail in the end.

Dinner ended and Y/N belligerently climbed up the stairs towards the library to attend today’s study session. The Charms quiz threw her into a loop and it was better not to dwell on it, opting to rather use her time for something useful.

Her marks improved significantly since she attended her first session two weeks ago. The last couple of assignments and quizzes she handed in that she worked on during the groups were some of her best work, ever. Additionally, her ability to retain information was improving at astonishing rates and she found herself participating in lessons more often. Unfortunately, she started to doubt her abilities again.

There weren’t as many students as usual. Perhaps it was because of the Quidditch meeting for all teams tonight, or because nobody wanted to spend their time in a library Friday night. She assumed it was the latter.

Although, the same student with black hair from Slytherin was there; tucked away in his usual corner. He was always there. Whether it was the study sessions, another OWL or NEWT student or he simply just enjoyed the library, Y/N could always rely on him sitting there in his little nook.

In the far back, surrounded by tall bookshelves sat Remus. Another student, a first or second year, judging by their height, seemed to be asking him a question, rapidly writing down something on a piece of parchment whilst they walked away. Remus leaned back in the brown chair, his right leg was folded over the other as he stretched.

She spent over twelve hours minimum with Remus directly since the first session, minus the time he was around James and the girls. Perhaps she only started to notice afterwards but she swore Remus wasn’t around this much before. Now, he was everywhere.

In the past couple of weeks she’d gotten to know him, she made a mental list in her head of him:

1. Remus loves sweaters. They weren’t flashy, seemingly preferring to wear ones with small designs, stripes or a solid colour. He wore green the most. He also wore cardigans. Two, in particular, he wore the most; one was white and the other was a muted brown. They were big and hung off his loose frame, the pockets were often stuffed with books, rumpled parchment and his wand.

2. He’s a coffee addict. He drank it in the morning, the afternoon, at the study session and sometimes with meals at dinner. He loved to dump pounds of sugar, so if he only drank black coffee, it usually meant he was in a bad mood. James even joked that he became Sirius whenever he drank black coffee, because haha! Get it? It’s BLACK coffee!

3. He frequented the library whenever he wasn’t with the rest of the marauders. He enjoyed poetry, wrote post-it notes after post-it notes to annotate his favourite parts. He even slept there from time to time, not without having to persuade Pince to not give him detention.

As if Remus magically sensed her, he took a large inhale before he stopped stretching, opening his eyes to look at her. A small smile was plastered on each other’s faces. He stuck up a few fingers to wave at her, motioning her to come over.

“Hi Y/N. I thought you didn’t come on Fridays?”

“I don’t but I have a test, Charms, Tuesday.”

“Oh, well I’m happy to help.”

“Thanks for the offer, Professor Lupin, but just being down here will help me focus.”

A scarlet blush settled on his face at the mention of his tutoring. “Well come sit with me then.”

Pushing the chair out of the way, she sat down beside him, pulling out her cassette player and earbuds along with her notes. Out of the corner of her eye, she saw Remus staring at the player curiously.

“Do you want to listen?”

“If you don't mind. I didn’t know you could use these here.” Picking it up, he turned the rectangular device.

“If record players work here, why not this?”

She hands him an earbud, alongside a small collection of other tapes she had on hand.

“Choose whatever you want to listen to.”

Without much thought, he pressed the play button. The upbeat tune of Waterloo by ABBA trickled into their ears. Y/N bobbed her head up and down before the song was suddenly stopped.

A sour grimace sat on Remus’ face before their eyes met, his nose upturned slightly.

“Why’d you stop it?”

“I hate ABBA.”

“What!?”

“I just don’t like their cheesy disco-pop-esk sound. They sound generic and random words are thrown in when they don’t add to the song.”

“Jeez— never met anyone who hated them that much.”

A ghost of a smile appeared before he flicked through her collection of tapes. He picked up Abbey Road by The Beatles. Opening the player up, he slid out Waterloo. With a click and the press of a button, Come Together played.

“So you hate ABBA but not The Beatles? Benny and Bjorn said they were influenced by them!”

“Keyword: Influenced; which is just another word for a shitty knock-off version.”  

4. Remus Lupin is apparently a music snob.

“Well, I think both are good.”

“Respectfully, I disagree with you.”

“Whatever you say, professor.”  

"I've been thinking a bit, why did you come to Hogwarts? Why not just stay at your old school?"

The sudden switch of topics threw her into a loop. “Wasn’t by choice. My mom’s a doctor and got a position here. It was too good to turn down. But it’s not bad. There’s less wizarding laws.”

He nods his head, "I'm assuming you have dual citizenship?"

"Mhm."

About a half an hour passed as she sighed for the umpteenth time before putting down her quill. Her chair scraped back noisily as Y/N’s hand balled up into a tight fist, feeling her fingernails bite into her palm. She’d been flicking through her notes, the words all blended.

At this rate, if History of Magic didn’t exist, Charms would surely be her least favourite class.

“Are you sure you don’t need help?”

She was at a loss, this was the third time Remus had offered to help and he was persistent. She felt horrible that she was taking up his time to help her on a stupid Charms test.

He continued, “If you think bothering me is an issue, it’s not. I run the sessions on Friday. It’s my job.”

“Fine, but there has to be something I can do in return.”

“Hmm,” Remus pondered for a second, “How about this, I tutor you in Charms and in return you give me your Potions notes? I'm dreadful at it.”

“Deal.”

“Great. Before we start, is there anything in particular that you have questions on?”

Silently tapping on the quiz she received today, Remus snatched it and quickly scanned over her answers and Professor Flitwick’s notes.

“I see what happened. You know, the curriculum taught at Ilvermorny is different. That’s probably why you can’t understand some of this shit.” He cleared his throat, “So as we know, the growth charm increases the size of your intended target…”

His voice, like a light switch, changed instantly. Instead of his softer deep, raspier voice, it became commanding and steady. He never stumbled over his words and articulated his points elegantly. She found herself enraptured by him, understanding why he was in charge of the study groups.

Eventually, Remus takes a pause, “Does that make sense?”

“Yes. You know, you’re really good at this. No matter how much I asked Flitwick or even Lily I could never get it.”

A large blush bloomed on the apples of his cheeks before he shyly rubbed the back of his neck, averting his eyes. “I’m not that good.”

“No time for modesty, Professor Lupin!”

“Okay, okay! So here, do you see what went wrong? There would be a reaction with those two spells if —”

A boy, small, most likely a second year, stood at the foot of the shared table holding a large red and gold book. His hair, dark ginger, similar to Lily’s, was cut short. He fiddled with his fingers as he continued to stare at the two.

“... Um, hi. You're Remus — right?”

“Yup. Did you need help with something?”

“Yes! I’m having trouble with the Transfiguration spell, beetle into button.”

A look of understanding passed through his face before Remus turns to look at her, “Duty calls. It’ll be quick.”

“Of course, take your time.”

It was not quick. Understandably, very few were successful at the ginger’s age to perform the spell, but thirty minutes passed and the second year still didn’t understand the basic concepts. No matter how many times Remus had reiterated his point differently, the boy couldn’t retain it.

“I just don’t get it.”

“You learned this last year, it's a quick revision. I’m not sure what part you’re talking about. Look, do not wiggle or twirl your wand left, direct it towards the right. You have to picture the spell in your head before saying the incantation.”

He guided the boy's hand steadily before performing the spell himself.

“I don’t understand!” The boy whined.

He sighed, “Then we keep trying —”

“It’s too hard. Why are they teaching this crap anyway?”

“Could you stop complaining?” He snapped, closing his eyes before he realized what he’d just done. “I’m sorry about that. I’m… just tired. I can’t help you anymore, though. You should ask someone else,” Remus said brusquely, his eyes unnerving as he stared at the child. As a result, he yelped out a ‘thank you,’ rushing off in the opposite direction.

The muscles in his jaw tensed under the soft glow of the table lamps. There was a pale red tint rimming his eyes and he looked visibly paler than normal. Irritated, he bounced his knee rapidly, up and down, before looking out the large window beside them. The sky was mostly cloudy. Only the peak of the silvery moon appeared. A sliver was missing before it was fully complete.

He closed his eyes, before breathing in. His posture once stiffened, completely relaxed before a flimsy smile reappeared on his face, returning his attention to Y/N.

“Let’s continue, shall we?”

“If you’re tired we can stop.”

“No, s’okay. I’m fine — really.”

She chewed the inside of her cheek, adding to her list:

5. Remus was always so hard to read.

[ruby-whistler]

Srry but i noticed in one of ur dream posts u Referred to tommy's cat as hope. I must correct u, that cat was born pussbou and died pussboi. /lh Also tommy killing that cat was nothing compared to dream killing mushroom henry in exile btw just wanna say Also for ur posts about dreams trauma or wilbur manipulating him can u provide links to vods or other proof? Srry if i seem rude i mean that in a "genuinely curious way"

Aaa sorry if my ask came off as rude im just genuinely curious :(((

hi! dw, you don't seem rude at all, and i'm extremely happy someone with a different perspective has found my blog! i really appreciate that sort of attitude and am happy to answer :]

/dsmp /rp

the cat was called pussboy by tommy, but dream only called it "the cat" and then said that "it was hope", which is why it sort of became a symbol (his hope is dead, basically) - that's why i kind of made its name capitalized, because it was more of a metaphor than anything.

most c!dream fans call the cat hope because it's just really nice and really symbolic, and also really sad when you think about it. that's why the name was used in the essay, just to clear up the confusion!

tommy killing that cat was nothing compared to dream killing mushroom henry in exile

i don't really think so? mooshroom henry was entertainment more than anything, and even if it was bad, when watching the stream i don't remember seeing him mourn that much - on the other hand, dream was very quickly and very obviously attached to the cat, with it being his only companion in months of isolation, along with the hope that even when tommy left it would keep him company.

keep in mind c!dream has been deprived of stimuli and human contact for so long it's officially classified as psychological torture at that point.

i don't mean to compare trauma or even compare deaths - because honestly, what c!dream and c!tommy have gone through individually is incomparable and i think neither should be diminished in favor of the other since they're both terrible situations.

that's why i disagree that it "was nothing compared to" - it had an obvious effect on c!dream, and was still c!tommy killing an animal specifically to hurt him, no matter what reasons he had.

when i'm talking about effects people's actions have had on c!dream, i'm not talking about those people. i'm talking about him. :) /lh

as for the trauma, a lot of people agree that a lot of the things he says or does are trauma responses, and hence it's very possible that he's had trauma before he went into prison!

this includes being repeatedly called a tyrant via propaganda by about half of your friends who decided to betray you, trying to keep peace and being pushed deeper into villainy instead, repeatedly being put in between a rock and a hard place in order to make sure the people you care about don't start killing each other, then being betrayed by your closest friends after merely trying to keep peace (sapnap & george) and just in general having no control over your life or image and grasping at straws to gain it back.

i know a lot of people with trauma who heavily relate to certain trauma responses, which aren't always just shaky breaths and flashbacks, but trauma often also manifests itself in extremely ugly and destructive ways, both inwardly and outwardly.

trying to control the people around you is also very often a response to going through trauma, as well as emotional repression which is... rather evident on c!dream during season two. it only seems to get worse with repeated abandonment.

in the end, during the vault scene, the way he acts really just isn't at all the way a healthy person would act, and a lot of his really bad mindsets come from the way he was taught by the world around him.

the character is very reserved however, and since we don't have his pov we can't really say for certain - a lot of people claim it in good faith because they have a lot of evidence for it, and i think they're certainly valid in that.

that is just before the prison, however. from what happened during the prison arc? there is no denying he's traumatized at this point.

he's been emotionally and physically abused by c!sam since the very beginning of being imprisoned, and being in solitary confinement for over two weeks is generally considered psychological (and maybe also physical?) torture. that alone shows up in a lot of symptoms of his mental deterioration while in pandora's during people's visits, and quackity's "sessions" just absolutely drove the point home.

what he's gone through during this arc is absolutely incomparable to anything others charactes have faced before, and it's just plain suffering being endured by someone who is, despite everything, still a human being.

as for the wilbur manipulation thing!! it's talking about the whole vassal scene (though even beforehand a lot of their interactions are pretty iffy), and here's a post about that :]

I also have a small question about the analysis u last reblogged cus it says "why dream needed lmanburg gone rightfully" and like. The house analogy is poor because for one cus the land is infinite. And 2 cus punz's yard was literally larger then lmanburg. And also stuff about dream being a mediator? Can u provide examples?

i wouldn't say it was poor. dream's said a lot of times that he didn't care in the slightest about the land - a lot of his problems with l'manberg arose with the fact that wilbur basically built it on lies and tried to disallow half of the server to come there. c!dream was mad about the division and the fact that wilbur wanted "freedom" to have authority in his lands - over others, as can be seen in this post also.

the table analogy was fitting not because dream was some overlord, but because these were literally friends he invited to hang out and live in a place he wanted to call home. claiming a part of it for yourself and saying people of a certain nationality can't come in is directly opposing those goals.

in the early days of the smp, dream's always been a mediator between his friends - sapnap and george, who would often get into fights and go around killing each other! he would always do his best to stop the conflict, which continued after tommy joined when he took him to court and then later tried to mediate conflicts he was a part of, which resulted in tommy killing him unprovoked, stealing his gear, and starting the disc wars when dream was trying to get his stuff back. later, during pogtopia, he is also most concerned with peace over everything, and this seems to continue indefinitely after.

Today i was thinking about how messed up the final control room was. Like. Dream arranged the betrayal and punz and sapnap killed tommy and tubbo who like. Were literal children and their pals (because the author, wilbur soot, is dead/j but srsly if u take the streamers words tommy said he was 9 during the revolution sooo)

Sorry im gonna ramble about how dumb canon ages are for a second cus like. Streamers can say the characters are one way or another (wilbur saying he is mentally 30-something, etc.) But in the end the characters act like they(or at least their streaming personas) do.

i... honestly don't find it that bad? they were in a war, and the final control room was basically just supposed to end it quicker. the l'manbergians made it clear they were going to fight to the death, so they really left c!dream no other choice. and it's not like he didn't give them chances to give up.

also yeah the 9 year old thing was retconned, because in that case c!dream would've been 14 and i don't think that's true.

c!tommy and c!dream were both young and once again, in a war. the final control room was an attempt to assure victory, which both sides would've taken if possible, but only c!dream saw he had the option.

i do agree the whole child soldier thing was bad but... complain about that to c!wilbur, methinks. he talked naive kids into fighting for his personal power. however, the age argument isn't really valid either way. they had enough agency to sign up for it, and whether or not c!wilbur pushing the intense nationalism onto them had something to do with that is another debate entirely.

Bacl to final control room cus like??? Also fun fact punz took 2 of wilbur's canon lives. And like that probably is what started wilbur's paranoia which later lead to his spiral and i. Many thoughts full of lmanburg today.

i'm pretty sure cc!wilbur said what lead to c!wilbur's spiral was a "dark, twister view of possessions" and "disregard for his fellow citizen whom he claimed to love so much", but i really wouldn't say it was the control room; if anything the sudden loss of power after the elections seems to me like the trigger for his spiral.

I watched the exile arc live and. I feel dirty almost for feeling little to no sympathy for c!dream (srry ive been forgetting to add that aa) because of his actions toward c!tommy and like. The whole probation was so humiliating and unfair and c!dream was planning to frame him for the crimes he and puffy did under the the guise of "pranks" and c!quackity was planning to seize the vice president role.

i mean... to be fair, if you didn't watch the prison arc much yet or only watch tommy's perspective i understand not feeling that sympathetic - however, i encourage you to maybe watch a few prison visits, since they could help you see the whole picture better!

i also watched it live, and i also thought it was terrible, but i share very much the same sentiment for the prison arc because. absolutely no one should have to go through either of those things, you know?

i don't think probation was that humiliating? he was just. being asked to not start conflict with the other factions for two weeks. of course, what happened as a result is in no way justified, but i don't think probation itself would've been bad at all. either way yeah the framing and c!quackity's behaviour was. very yikes, i agree.

Also c!tommy antis are dumb because they say "he deserved exile angry emoji" i dont see u saying that about ranboo. Just say you hate cc!tommy and go. Also people say c!tommy was just as toxic to c!dream and i??? No. One is the victim and one is the abuser and like. :/// man. This part is rambly srry

i wouldn't say they hate cc!tommy? cc!tommy has a persona who people think is annoying at first ( but then they subscribe because he is super entertaining big man! ) but a lot of c!tommy's actions are straight up toxic to certain characters, such as c!funndy and c!jack. he has a very dismissive attitude towards others and their trauma and it does affect the people around them very negatively.

examples; his repeated bullying and behavior towards fundy:

Tommy: “Fundy, I’m just here to kinda let you know that I – if you weren’t Wilbur’s son, you would be out of L’manburg, alright? Just remember – you need to keep that relationship with your father. I saw how asshole-y and bratty you were acting in the courtroom the other night. You need to pull your shit together young man.”

......

Fundy: “I’m wearing glasses…are you making fun of my eyesight?!”

Tommy: “Yes.”

Sapnap: “Your father would be very disappointed.”

Fundy: “Wh – disappointed for wearing glasses?!”

Tommy: “You got glasses, like what are you wearing…”

Fundy: “What do you mean?”

Tommy: “Sapnap, Sapnap, over here. Fundy, Fundy, Fundy, I’m really sorry to say this – I’m just here to publicly denounce you.”

Fundy: “…What?”

( credit for transcript: @/findingjoynweirdstuff )

he's also responsible for a big chunk of c!jack's trauma, both with actions and words, and that's why i think certain people might dislike the character, and i don't think that's wrong of them. anyone can dislike any character they want if they don't attack people for liking them, in my opinion.

also c!tommy was most definitely toxic against c!dream in the cell. it's of course understandable but that doesn't change the fact he was constantly hitting and insulting him (without dream doing anything back for a long while until he snapped) which is toxic behaviour.

i wouldn't say he was "just as" though, so i agree with you on that. they're different and they behave differently.

i made a dream blob keychain today. Is it possible to send images if u wanna see? Idk cus i havent used tumblr before. I think that's all for now. Thx for letting me talk :D peepoShy -curious anon (but fr a connoreatspants c!dream redemption arc would be cool)

yooo that's cool! i don't really,,, know if it's possible to send images? try it out and if it isn't i'll try find a way to turn it on.

also, no problem! just please remember this is a c!dream sympathetic blog, and me as well as my followers are uhh,, oftentimes emotionally attached / personally relate to the character, so if you could avoid sending hate on the character (not that you have or that i expect you to, just a friendly reminder) in the asks that would be great! we already see a lot of it unwillingly so, i'd rather not see more, but as long as the discussion is civil i'm absolutely ok with you asking more and with me answering more questions if you'd want to! :)

if anyone else would like to reblog this and add some things i might've missed with my answers, feel free to, just go easy on her (she uses she/her pronouns!) and keep it factual.

i hope u had a good or at least ok time at school today :D

thanks! i gtg now because exam tomorrow but i'm going to try write the redemption essay tomorrow as well because ohhh boy i have a lot of ideas about what all i could write around the concept.

also sorry this was long, i can't keep my tongue on the leash :[

[twilightdruig]

waterloo

pairing/s: ron weasley x fem!reader

summary: (part 1 of mamma mia! series) y/n wants to travel the world, search for her own destiny. but here she was, in france spending time with an attractive ginger-headed man and ends up taking him taking her to lunch and her taking his virginity.

warnings: mamma mia!au, muggle!au, alludes to sex, reader has mommy issues

words: 1.1k

a/n: fleur in this has the role of rosie but acts like tanya and vice versa to dawn (my oc). i copied a bunch of lines from the mamma mia script. there will be multiple parts to this series btw :)

“she didn’t come. she didn’t come! my mother. can you believe she didn’t come!?” y/n exclaimed frustratedly, then sighed “she never comes and every time, it surprises me.” y/n was completely and utterly pissed her mother didn’t attend her graduation. 7 whole years of her life wanting to make her mother proud and she doesn’t even bother to see. “i am not going home. not for a long time.”

“ah the old ‘stay away as punishment’ ploy.” fleur, one of y/n’s best — sister-like friends giggled. the three newly grads were sitting on the balcony of y/n’s flat talking about their future, past, and basically anything that comes to mind.

“i tried that, but my parents just rented out my room… and sold my dog” dawn interjected, waving a lazy finger in the air.

“no, it’s not a punishment. it’s the opposite. like a gift to myself!” y/n jabbered with crazy hand gestures.

“where will you go?” fleur queried and raised an eyebrow.

“anywhere — everywhere!” y/n gushed as she drank more of her butterbeer “life is short, the world is wide and… i want to make some memories!”

“in other words, you’re leaving us” dawn voiced.

“oh” fleur faltered.

“hey! no, most definitely not! you both know i never would” y/n chided “we’ll always have each other! i’m just putting out something for our future”

she chuckled, trying to clear the air “come on”. she dragged the two girls inside to pack up her things for her ‘adventure to search for destiny’

—

y/n was here. she was in france! she wandered around the city dragging her trunk and looking for a place to stay.

she found herself in an unattended lobby wanting to ask for a room. she rang the desk bell a few times, no one came to accommodate her. she decided to just take a key or wander around behind the desk.

“uh, excusez moi?” a man’s voice stuttered behind her, she gasped.

“oh, bonjour, mademoiselle.” she found a young ginger man with a towel wrapped around his waist.

“um... uh, je suis locked out de ma chambre.” he stammered once again.

“oh, i don't... uh, je, um... put my tray out, uh, dans le corridor, mais, uh, malheureusement quand je, um... turned back, uh, la porte était fermée.” he tried speaking french again.

“et maintenant, j-je need une, uh, uh... uh, spare key, uh, uh, pour, uh, reentrer dans la chambre.” he babbled.

“s'il vous plaît, mademoiselle.” he finally finished his nervous rant.

“sorry? i didn’t quite understand. could you say all that again?” he prodded down the stairs to talk to her face-to-face.

“oui. je suis — hold on one second.” he sputtered, face contorted into confusion.

“i don’t work here. although, my friend fleur is very good at french.” y/n giggled, eyes crinkling.

“well… i should call the police?” he began to pick up the phone.

“i’d rather you don’t” she sets the phone down.

“they probably wouldn’t understand my french anyway” he sighed and looked down, remembering he was still technically undressed

“uh, ron. ron weasley” he offered his hand out to shake.

“y/n. l/n.” she gestured back and smiled.

“would you wanna, maybe, go out for lunch?” he added “maybe after i get back in my room though” he gestured to his state, half naked, towel wrapped around his waist.

“yes, yes. of course” she laughed.

—

“so ronald,” the two were laughing and walking around the notre dame, the eiffel tower and other tourist spots they ended up in “you used to work as a policeman?”

“yes. i’m afraid so. my father more or less got me the job. me and my best friend actually” he sighed, looking into the distance “i guess, we’re fulfilling our destinies”

she sighed as well “i’m searching for mine. i have this feeling it’s in greece.”

“greece? really? why greece?” he turned to look at her this time.

“i’ll find out when i get there. i’m leaving tomorrow” she avoided his eyes.

“tomorrow? already?” he tried to hide the disappointment in his voice while also avoiding eye contact.

she nodded.

“right. better move fast.”

when the two of them fell into comfortable silence, ron breaks it between them again.

“um, would you mind carrying your bag on the other side?”

“uh, sure… why?”

“well, 'cause — the hand nearest me would fall straight down, and mine could sort of brush against it.” he admitted “and then i could take your hand in mine in a totally natural and spontaneous way.”

“you could literally could’ve just asked to hold my hand” she teased.

“yes, of course — of course. that was plan b” he stammered for the god knows how many times today.

“you’re a massive stutterer aren’t you” she teased.

“well, i get that a lot.” he shakes his (probably) beet red face in embarrassment

—

they found themselves in a dainty little restaurant near the eiffel tower.

“it’s not just greece generally, it’s a specific place,” she paused “at the far end, there’s an island, kalokairi. and people used to think if you sailed on from there, you’d fall off the edge of the world! that genuinely sounds like the place for me” she could go on and on about it but she figured maybe this attractive man sitting opposite from her wouldn’t be so interested.

“o-of course. absolutely. yes.” he awkwardly smiled “um, but now, maybe? maybe… we could change the subject? a little bit? and maybe talk about the pros and cons of spending the night together?”

“wow! okay! slow down there, loverboy” she chuckled “bold move” she bit off a piece of bread and pointed to him.

“because, from my point of view, i mean, it kinda seems to be pretty much all upside wi-with very little reason not to just get on with it straight.”

“hm… my family don't really react well to foreign romances. years ago, my mum was in central america, and she had her heart broken into a million little pieces.” she slightly exaggerates.

“right… yeah, fair enough. i’m sure you’re correct.”

“mm-hmm”

“although, there’s one more reason though. you'd be doing me a huge favor because... yeah, this — this would be my first time.” ron has been admitting quite a lot to a stranger he’s only met, y/n thought.

she snorts at this, she may have thought it was adorable though.

“you’re kidding!”

“no… it’s actually a thing i do… to-to make me look cool. no, i’m not kidding”

“ron,” she goes to reach for his hand from across the table “we just met today.”

“yes but — when you know, you know. when you fall, you fall. and when you’re defeated by love, you’re utterly defeated.”

this was the first time y/n has blushed this hard in a long, long time.

—

y/n ended up agreeing to ron’s little proposal. and that was the reason she was in this young man’s bed cradling him at her side.

“that was the absolute best thing that’s ever happened to me” ron gasped “but it’s been a crazy but good life, you know? full of happy things, but… that was the best of them”

when she didn’t respond, ron felt the need to converse more with her about the events that has just happened.

“did you enjoy..? no, don’t answer that… but did you?” he looked up from where he was being cuddled.

“it was lovely” in all honesty this boy lasted quite long for his first time, she was impressed.

“thank you” he got the validation he needed from this beautiful woman he’s only met today.

“no, thank you” she objected before the two dozed off.

[mercurytrinemoon]

Electional astrology: natal charts for social media accounts, anyone?

Recently, whenever I'm about to do something (especially start something new), I like to make sure I do it at the right time from astrological point of view. I think of aspects, yes, but I pay close attention to the rising sign.

So I was about to register on twitch. Not to make streams myself but to watch and comment (long story short, idk if anyone have heard of this but Mike Shinoda from Linkin Park has been doing twitch streams every day since quarantine. He's making music and answering questions and to ask a question you have to collect points so after a few months of watching that stuff unregistered, I snapped because he's an Aquarius Sun and turns out that dumbass thinks Aquarius is a water sign *multiple face palms* and now I'm motivated to finally sign up, collect enough points and just correct him lol. Eh.)

Ok, back to the topic.

So I thought, ok, if I'm gonna sign up for yet another social media platform, it won't hurt to pick a date with the Moon sign I want and a fun rising, right? And then I was watching Alyssa Trahan's video on the Glee curse and how she looked at Glee's natal chart and I thought, yup, if you're putting something out there, starting something new, better look at what's going on on the sky.

And then it led me to my social media accounts, my twitter and instagram. I'm kind of fine with twitter, I tend to have these word vomits there and I fangirl over things people who follow me probably don't give a crap, but whatever. The Veronicas and Garbage are following me there so, either way, I'm sticking to my account.

BUT instagram... oh boy. I'm struggling with it SO HARD. I signed up in 2015 and I still have like, 50 followers, that is embarassing. I wanted to post my art there, and I did but I barely get any recognition. I haven't really painted in a while cause I've been obsessing over my guitar skills for over a year now so I though, maybe I'll start posting that... eh.

So I generated a chart for my ig account (good thing I still have the confirmation email) and OH MY GOD it all makes sense. It has Scorpio rising and Scorpio Moon - both can be polarizing and off-putting and too intense AND it has Saturn in the 1st house (!!!!). So NO WONDER I'm being so critical over the things I'm posting there and then I end up deleting it after a while. MC is in Virgo, which seems super boring for a social media account and also probably, again, makes me very hesitatant to post anything and then critical over it once I do post it. Sun is unaspected. There's literally only 5 aspects - 3 squares, one exact Uranus-Mars conjunction, which makes a trine to retrograding Jupiter. RETROGRADING. Ugh. And all of the planets, except for that Jupiter, are below the horizon. Not a good thing to be recognized.

But funny thing is, I signed up on twitter when Jupiter (unfortunately ratrograding as well) was making a loose opposition to my natal Jupiter. And I made my ig account when Jupiter was conjunct my natal Jupiter almost to the exact minute (!!!!!). Which I find so interesting.

So I had an idea to delete my ig account and make a new one. I’ll probably do it when Jupiter will be in Aquarius... which, funnily enough, will yet again be on my Jupiter cycle (opposition).

Btw, my twitter account has Sag rising and Jupiter-Venus opposition and Mercury-Mars square and Sun-Uranus opposition lol no wonder I act so weird there.

Ok, so what I was trying to put across is, I bet all these social media accounts that blow up have nice charts. Friggin Leo or Gemini risings or whatever. Because, everyone on socials can be funny, witty and nice looking so why are some so underrated? And vice versa.

Idk, I’m kind of thinking out loud. If anyone has any thoughts or observations, as always, feel free to share :)

[moonlightdreamzz]

NCT 127 — MTL to date a black girl.

Request: “I’m sorry if you’re uncomfortable with this question, but you have not what you ask not, so could you do a mtl to date a black girl with NCT? I don’t want you to think I’m looking for validation or anything I just like to see how others think. Btw I love your writing.”

Authors Note: First and foremost I want to remind you guys that you are all beautiful, and if a man doesn’t want to see that or appreciate it, don’t let that change how you see yourself!! ❤️ As much as I would love to make this 100% fluffy and cute and say they all would, y’all know I gotta keep it real. Also, this is just my opinion and it is in no way, shape, or form correct!! Love u guys <33 The other units are coming soon.

Most likely

Johnny ➯ I mean, the man is from Chicago. I feel as though Johnny is very cultured, and wasn’t fed the negative imagine of black people like some of the other members further down the list may have, and he definitely doesn’t seem like the type of person to be prejudice in any way, shape, or form. He would easily be able to connect with a black girl, and I believe that Johnny can fall in love with a girl of any race. He won’t say “I don’t see color,” as he knows if you don’t see color, you can’t understand ones struggles, he just doesn’t care about it. We’re all human to him, and if you love him, he loves you. I would even go as far as to say that he might prefer to be with a person of color even though some might disagree 👀.

Jungwoo ➯ I feel like some may be surprised to see Jungwoo so high up on the list, but I’ve always felt this in my chest. Jungwoo is extremely sociable. I feel that you could put Jungwoo in the room with anybody of any race and he could become their friend in seconds. This is exactly how I feel he would be with us. A language barrier ain’t nothing but a phrase to him, and I really don’t believe Jungwoo would even hesitate to date a black girl. There will be no second guessing—no wondering will the cultures not mix, he’s just going to go for it. I think he finds all woman beautiful and when you look at how sweet he is with foreigners, I just don’t believe he would hold back.

Taeil ➯ Moon Taeil is a soulful man. And I’m not saying that your voice has anything to do with your racial preference, but when I vibe check him, I see him being very attracted to black woman. I’m not trying to imply that he has a fetish, but just based off the way that Taeil carries himself I think him and us would click very well. Just like Jungwoo, he wouldn’t care about a language barrier, as he would be 100% willing to learn English or whatever your native language may be and vice versa. If he likes you, there’s nothing that can stop him.

Taeyong ➯ Just from pure observation, I’ve always noticed how easy it is for Taeyong to slip into others cultures, and he seems to enjoy it. What I mean by that is, for example, how much fun he was having with the slang during their tour last year. He’s not afraid of the unknown in any aspect, and that carries into his dating life. He sees the beauty in everyone, and if a brown skinned beauty came into his life and wanted to ruin him, he’s 100% down. He’s not going to say, “I mean, we are different races—let me think about this.” He wants you and that’s that. Anybody who has anything bad to say about you can catch all the smoke.

Mark ➯ Now I know you all are wondering — did she really put Mark this low?? Deadass??? I love Markuan more than anybody but ima keep it real when I say I never really could see him dating a black girl. I obviously don’t think he’s racist, but for some reason I could only picture him with an Asian girl. It wasn’t until recently when I saw his reunion pictures with his childhood friends did he radiate that energy I feel with the members above, and I have been converted. He wouldn’t hesitate—and on that note, I would like to reveal that me and Mark have been together for two years now. Thanks for your support 🥰🤪✌🏽.

Yuta ➯ I feel like it’s always been an unspoken thing within NCITY that Yuta is an angel. He supports many controversial things out loud such as showing concerns about transgender bathroom rules and the safety for the community, and I just feel as though you can’t be that person and also not be open to interracial relationships. He’s a woke man, and truthfully the only thing I can see stopping him is the language difference, but he would then think to himself—“it would be so cute to teach her Japanese though” and those thoughts would dissapear.

Jaehyun ➯ I think we can all agree that he would, but at the same time I feel like he wouldn’t be as confident. He’d get very nervous and sweaty around you. He’s another member that I see going back and forth with this question, but I just don’t think he would care. If he feels himself having feelings for you, that’s all that matters. He’s not going to let the color of your skin genuinely be a factor for your relationship. It’s all about the inside, even though he loves your outside very much. He’s always reminding you.

Winwin ➯ Now that I’ve started writing his, I’m almost having second thoughts, but I honestly just see Winwin with a beautiful Chinese model or something like that, and once again, this is NOT because I think he has some type of prejudice against us. I truly believe none of the members of NCT are on that wave and if given the right opportunity they will date a black girl, but once again I don’t think the language barrier is something Winwin could deal with ESPECIALLY considering he’s so busy all the time. I think he would feel bad that he can’t be with you all the time like he wants, and how you two struggle to understand eachother—but let you know how to speak Chinese though?? The answer is 100% yes. I just see it.

Haechan ➯ He would definitely be open to it for sure, but is it possible to happen? I don’t think so. Haechan is a sweet boy and we all know that, and I do believe that if a black girl came into his life and he felt things for her, he wouldn’t try to suppress it. He might even flirt with you from time to time. But I think ultimately, he would think to himself “I don’t want to waste her time” or “the language barrier is so hard” And at that point I think he would keep you as a friend because he truly does love your company even if he can’t have you the way he wants. If you spoke Korean, I still don’t think he would make a move. I know this one a lot of people will disagree with but I don’t know he just isn’t giving me the energy y’all.

Doyoung ➯ Now y’all know I love this man, but I just gotta he honest. I want to emphasize that I don’t think any of the members of NCT are bad people, and I believe that they have been educated enough to know that what you’ve been told growing up isn’t real at all, but I just see Doyoung sticking to his own for several different reasons. 1) The possible emotional abuse you could go through by the public — he is a very “i don’t give a fuck” person, but that doesn’t mean he wants his significant other getting bullied and I think that would really bother him (it would for all of them). 2) I think he might be one of those people that is the opposite of Taeyong, and doesn’t really like to venture out. Not to say he is a bad person I repeat, that’s just how I feel. I love you though baby.

Least

Authors note: Once again I just want to remind you guys that this is all fun, none of us personally know them you know? Just an opinion I luv u.

[tineechi]

Kono Oto Tomare Chapter 91 Summary

Raw link: https://raw.senmanga.com/Kono-Oto-Tomare!/091

Hey! Sorry for the delay. Working from home drains a lot from people. T_T

Anyway, all the disclaimers are applied (Not a native speaker; may have a LOT of mistakes... you know the drill).

The chapter starts off with Chika and Satowa riding the train to go to Satowa’s house. (Momoya’s suggestion for Chika to go to Satowa’s house as their representative is the starting narrative.) The two of them are not looking at and talking to each other. The train brakes suddenly and Satowa is lightly thrown onto Chika’s chest. Satowa’s surprised and immediately apologizes. Chika says that it’s nothing/it’s not a big deal. (while thinking to himself that she is light.) Satowa blushes a bit and Chika asks if Satowa and her mother are doing okay recently. Satowa haltingly says that “Yes. Thanks to you.” and Chika answers “Oh. That’s good.”

Satowa suddenly becomes curious and tries to ask about Chika’s mom but stops midway. Chika asks what is she trying to ask but Satowa says that “It’s nothing.” instead. Chika looks at her curiously as well but Satowa keeps quiet. She thinks to herself that they are together everyday but there’s a lot of things that she doesn’t know about him. (BTW, the chapter title is Promise.)

Scene changes to Satowa’s house and Chiharu welcomes Chika at the genkan. Chika politely says “Thanks and sorry for disturbing.” and Chiharu asks them to enter. Chika removes his shoes and is surprised when he looks up and sees the Ranunculus flower that he gave Satowa framed on the wall. Satowa tries to ask what is it about but she also suddenly sees the flower and panics. She tries to cover it with her arms and tries to explain with “It’s not... This is... that is to..” Chiharu then says “Ah. That’s the flower that Kudou-kun gave you during the announcement party.” Satowa was speechless and Chiharu continues with “Satowa doesn’t want it to wilt so she made it into oshibana (pressed flower)”. Satowa shouts “M...Mom!”. Chiharu smiles and says that it turned out beautifully and Satowa says that it is enough.

Chika looks very surprised and flattered. Satowa pushes Chika to walk forward and says that it is okay to not look at it anymore. Chika says that during that time she also got many flowers from other people. Satowa blushes profusely and says that “This flower was the most beautiful one.” (GAAAAH)

Chika smiles serenely (GAWD! This boy’s smile will kill me, I swear!) and teases her a bit and Satowa says shut up. The scene changes to a different room and Chiharu tells Chika that musical scores and their sources are generally placed in this room. She also tells him to listen to anything he likes. Chika is very amazed and asks if these are all koto songs/music. Chiharu tells him that there are other things mixed in. Chiharu tries to say that she’s leaving but Satowa stops her and says “Mother! I don’t know which song is located where so...” (trying to stop her from leaving them alone). Chiharu says “Oh, that’s why.” Satowa asks for her help finding the pieces. 

Chika looks at one and asks about it. (If I am not mistaken, it is Seoto - popular classical music composed by a famous blind Koto composer and player Michio Miyagi in the 19th century. Satowa says that it is the song performed by Eidai in the recording. Correct me if I’m wrong.) Chiharu says that she also remembers that song. Satowa asks “Is that so?” and Chiharu says “Fufufu...actually...” (They play the record and Chika is surprised.)

Chiharu explains that the Seoto is a duo of the Koto and the 17 string koto (Jyuushichigen) that expresses the flow of the Tonegawa river. Chika is a bit stunned and says that “Oh. It’s not a fierce river. Cool!” Chiharu says that it really hasn’t been a very fierce river (and again correct me if I’m wrong but I think Chiharu says that it is near their area). Chika says that even kids can play in this river. Chiharu then says that before getting married, she played this with Reiji (Satowa’s Dad). Satowa asks “with Dad?” 

Chiharu talks about that time and the flashback shows the two of them practicing to play it. She narrates that during that time she hadn’t thought much about the koto and music.  Chiharu asks how Reiji thinks they should play a tremolo part. She answers that it doesn’t sound good. Then, Reiji played the same part without saying anything and then asked “How does it sound now?” Chiharu says that she was surprised. It was the same tremolo part but Reiji’s sound was like a river murmuring accompanied by light. (Awww.) Chiharu proceeds to tell them that from that time she noticed various things and all at once she felt like the world had expanded. Chika and Satowa both look stunned. Satowa says that she didn’t know about that story and Chiharu giggles a bit and says sorry to Kudou for telling this type of story. Chika answers with “Umm.. No.. It’s a great thing to study/learn.” Chiharu smiles at him. Chiharu then says that she needs to make tea but Satowa insists that she will do it instead (to avoid being left alone with Chika in the room. HAHAHAHA). 

Satowa looks at the refrigerator and thinks that they don’t have the sweets/snacks that Chika likes (Hehehe. She definitely knows what he likes in food and drinks.) and she tries to at least find something sweet. 

Back to Chika and Chiharu, he asks about improving the pauses between the notes. Chiharu says that he is thinking in a very high level and Chika says that it wasn’t him but his kouhai who thought about it. He also says that he himself still doesn’t understand it very much. Chiharu says “I see...” and thinks for a while. Then she suddenly asks “Kudou-kun... What do you think about Satowa?” Chika is startled and says “Ha? What’s with this suddenly...”  Chiharu says “It’s okay, it’s okay... even if it is an impression or even if it is something she needs to improve on...” Chika thinks about it and says that he thinks she’s become cool. Chiharu asks “Cool?” and Chika continues with “...especially when she’s playing the Koto. It’s like... Houzuki’s sound is always pleasant and steady (isn’t fumbling/shaking). Chika looks somber and says that those are not the only things she has been accumulating/piling up while he always looked like an idiot fighting and hitting someone else. Chiharu looks a bit shocked and Chika quiets down for a while thinking to himself that honestly there are times when he thinks that he doesn’t have the qualification to play together with her (Chika remembers the scene where Satowa plays Koto wearing a kimono). He remembers the turbulent times he had fighting a lot and thinks to himself that next to a person who has faced the koto all her life, he hasn’t been able to live up to that. 

He then remembers Tetsuki’s crying face, Grandpa Gen’s face and Takezou senpai’s face when he saved Kudou from the vice principal’s accusation and thought to himself that ‘Hitting...getting hurt... being an annoyance/burden... even so... always being saved by someone’ T_T

He then recalls Chiharu asking him what he thinks about Satowa and he thinks of the times with her (Satowa playing the koto, Satowa giving her the snacks and saying thank you, Satowa giving him the omamori, Satowa pulling his tie, Satowa’s teary face, Satowa bravely walking to perform, the flower, Satowa smiling when she received the flower. GAAAAAH). Chika then remembers the Nationals poster that they wrote and says that “I respect Houzuki. Sincerely (心から or kokoro kara - literally “from my heart”).” Satowa overhears this from the hallway and Chiharu is speechless for a while too. Chika asks if that doesn’t answer her question and Chiharu says “No... Thank you for that wonderful answer.” She then closes her eyes and says “Ne Kudou-kun, did you notice while you were talking just now?” 

Chika asks “Eh?” and Chiharu says “Between the words...” Chika is astonished and Chiharu continues to explain that “Kudou-kun, just now, while you were talking to me you were thinking about/remembering various things, right? Between Kudou-kun’s words, there’s a lot of thoughts and kindness... Even if you don’t hear it, it was conveyed/transmitted properly.” Chika is a bit astounded and remembers that sound/music is another form of word/communication.”

Scene changes to Chika about to go home and saying sorry for staying too late and for the CDs that he was taking home. Satowa looks a bit serious and says “Un./Yes.” When Chika was about to say “See you tomorrow”, Satowa interrupts and says “Ne... Kudou, do you remember what you told me before?”

Chika is confused and Satowa says “Catch up to me until Nationals.” She looks very serious and says again “Catch up.” They are both facing each other seriously and Satowa repeats it for the third time “Catch up.” Chika finally speaks up and says “Of course! Just wait/wait for me!” Satowa smiles and says jokingly “I won’t wait!”

Chika shouts “AAAH?” and Satowa answers with “Do your best!” and Chika shouts “Fine!”

THE END. Whew! Sorry that was a loooong and unedited summary. I’m sorry. I’m so tired to edit it right now. I’ll try to check it tomorrow again. HAHAHAHA.

Until next chapter. :D

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