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saisons-en-enfer · 6 months ago

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#been sitting in the bath for an hour now #playing all the songs that emphasized the immense suffering of my 20s #thoughtless #without feeling #completely spent #i cant cry i cant shout i cant scream #completely apathetic to exist #dreading the days to come #Bandcamp

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potatoesandsunshine · 1 year ago

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everything u need to know about me can actually be explained by the fact that i read that poem about the serving girl wearing the pearls so they're warm for her mistress when i was like 11 and it rewrote my brain chemistry forever

like this Changed Me

#poetry #i spent like three months completely obsessed with this poem. the dots did not connect for 9 more years

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why-the-heck-not · 7 months ago

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understanding academic concepts got me blushing swinging my legs giggling

#dude I spent like 3h trying to understand one algorithm yesterday & wrote the messiest most confusing ever paragraph abt it to the thesis #only to have a WAIT A MINUTE-moment today and completely rewriting that in like 20minutes #dont wanna say yesterday was wasted bc I'm sure that was just the thinking process I had to go through to get it to my head #studyblr #uni studyblr #april 2024 #2024

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 3 months ago

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Trapped in a vicious cycle of pining? Try gay sex! (More things to learn over at Tiger Tiger!)

#tiger tiger #jamis arlesi #remy bonnaire #Arno #through a series of unfortunate events I will be posting this after the update will be out so my timing will be more so:#“Alternate take on how that scene played out” Rather than my funnier “My prediction for how it will go down”#I truly think Remy would rather admit to crimes he didn't commit than confess he has a thing for men.#It would be funny! It would be so funny if this is how Jamis found out. Alas...Not yet...Not yet...#I do love the idea that Jamis completely overlooked the all the elder god horror to get right down to the question of 'HOW DO YOU KNOW HIM'#Remy knows him. Knows him carnally. Wouldn't you like to also know your captain better? In spirit and body and mind?#Jealousy looks good on Jamis. Now he just has to do something about it.#Poor Remy though...He love Jamis so much he'd do anything to prevent losing him.#Which entails never giving Jamis a chance of rejecting or accepting his feelings!#Meanwhile...Jamis is a bisexual disaster man who is at his *limit*.#(For the MDZS fans looking at this Tigers comic who still have no context:#This is like Lan Xichen finding out Jin Guangyao hooked up with Nie Mingjue after LXC spent all that time thinking JGY was straight.#Better yet. This is like WWX just starting to realize his crush on LWJ and then finding out he and JC hooked up in the time skip.#'Nice to know you're into men but why did I have to find out like this' moment.)#((Yes I am trying to bridge the gap between the fandoms I am in. Yes I am still on my propaganda train. Choo Choo!!!))

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biggest-gaudiest-patronuses · 1 year ago

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going through my old journals as part of therapy homework and i'm reading a section written in the emotional wreckage of a full-on breakdown when i get hit with this line:

There is never a satisfying answer to ‘Why didn’t they love me?’

like wow babe. good fucking point

#like you were on the ground biting the carpet and dry sobbing while you wrote that and still. good fucking point #not a shitpost #cptsd #and it's true. there's never a satisfying answer #the truth is i know why i wasn't loved #i analyzed my parent's traumas and abuse to death. i understand why i alienated and was alienated from my siblings #i know why my mom was too overwhelmed to be capable of nurturing #i know why my dad vanished into addiction and avoidance #the details of our cycles of trauma and cptsd and family history i have a phd in all of it #i understood perfectly. i spent years studying and now i knew the answer #and guess what? IT WAS NOT SATISFYING!!!#because they still didn't love me! and i still couldn't change that!#it was still a completely unsatisfying state of affairs!#so like. when the people who are supposed to love you...don't.#when the people who are supposed to take care of you...fail to #you can look for answers and reasons and explanations #but that's not actually going to FIX your situation.#and it's probably not within your ability TO fix the situation. (and definitely not your job)#because you don't need answers--you need a new situation #*inserts Just Walk Out. You Can Leave!!! (Running Skeleton) Meme*#and yes. walking out isn't always possible.#but for you i hope it will be one day soon. and i hope you build the courage to take that leap.#stepping away from the people who failed to love you...it feels like being untethered but also like being lighter than air #new and scary. immensely relieving. the future opens up. empty but empty like a canvas. blindingly bright until your eyes adjust #like climbing out of a pit you called home and for the first time realizing how bright the light of day can truly be #when you aren't just getting glimpses from the bottom of a hole

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littlegayteaboy · 9 months ago

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thinking about how Zuko got kicked out of his home country and, by extension, all formal education, at age 13. and i'm sorry Uncle Iroh but you're not qualified to teach a freshly traumatised 13 y/o algebra. so Zuko only has like, an 8th grade level of maths at most.

... meanwhile Sokka's a literal genius,

#zuko #sokka #avatar the last airbender #atla #avatar #atla fanart #fanart #my art #zukka #youre probably gonna have to click for quality ;-;#the way i spent DAYS drawing this same scene but in a different way. only to decide i didn't like it and start completely over #tea arts🍵

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illuteridae · 3 months ago

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collage comics

#from a receipt book titled the book of bob me and my boyfriend spent 4 days completely filling #comic #collage #multimedia #rogart

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dragon-spaghetti · 9 months ago

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Was feelin soft 💖

(Please click for better quality!!)

#drag's art #hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel fanart #hazbin hotel angel dust #hazbin hotel husk #huskerdust #it's midnight and I spent 3 hours on this #on a complete whim #oops lmao #1k #goddamn!!#1.5k #2k #2.5k #3k #3.5k #4k

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discosmackdown · 5 months ago

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the fallen

#procreate crashed literally right as I finished this #and I lost exactly 32 layers they just got completely deleted #so now I can’t really edit the image anymore #I’m inexplicably devastated that the file is just broken so I can’t look at it anymore #I spent 3 days on this I’m calling it done #sonic the hedgehog #shadow the hedgehog #sonic x shadow generations

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hypewinter · 8 months ago

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During a press conference for the newest Justice League member, Phantom, a reporter asks him "Do you have anything to say to all the children who aspire to be like you?"

Phantom looked at the reporter puzzled before saying, "Children wanna be like me? Why? I'm a bad influence."

#dp x dc #dc x dp #dpxdc #dcxdp #hyper prompts #danny gets war flashbacks to his days as a feral traumatized teen in way over his head and shivers #completely forgetting that's he's spent the last few years working closely with the jla to make the world a better place #something that a lot of children dream of #nope instead he's shitting bricks because “am i inspiring child to off themselves to gain powers!?”#and of course all of his naysayers are about to use this clip for everything

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xamag-draws · 1 year ago

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[Perfect Blue] "who are you..?"

#my art #perfect blue #horror #cw blood #i spent so much time redrawing other things but completely missed her backwards hand #this is what i get for finishing an illustration in a 2 day fugue state

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conchiferrous · 28 days ago

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vulnerability and reassurance

[ID: Sketches of Robin and Franky from One Piece, post time skip. Franky and Robin sit on the floor and Robin rests her cheek on his chest while he tries to lightly pull her close. He says: "I uh. Sorry. I'm not good for cuddlin' Unless you like cozying up next to a refrigerator. Are you really comfortable like that?" Robin looks up at him and responds: "It's okay, Franky. I'm perfectly comfortable. I feel... safe here like this with you." /END ID]

#something somthing robin spent her life being demonized and franky was made 2 feel like a danger to those around him and #frobin #2024 #edit 10 30 24 would you believe me if i said i was scared to post this because its completely genuine and unironic and shit #which is embarrassing 4 me to post but y'all have been very nice and th feedback on this is :]#so thanks 4 the kind words <3 it means a lot

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benevolenterrancy · 26 days ago

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("Always. Continuously. With increasing apprehension, and decreasing hope. I will love you if I never see you again, and I will love you if I see you every Tuesday. I will love you as a corpse loves the beak of the vulture. I will love you no matter what happens to you, and no matter how I discover what happens to you, and no matter what happens to me as I discover this." -- paraphrased from The Beatrice Letters, Lemony Snicket)

#svsss #bingqiu #luo binghe #shen qingqiu #lbh #sqq #i've been working through the series of unfortunate events and somehow that series has paired really nicely with svsss #the themes of cycling violence and what's justified and what isn't and what can possibly be done differently #and how trying to bring love and honour into the midst of it really changes nothing but also changes everything #it's just *chef's kiss*#i don't know how i can quite do my thoughts justice but i've spent the past few weeks quietly going between the two series (and mdzs and tg #as well if we're being honest they all hit similar questions and themes) and just reveling in the pain and ambiguity of it #everything is interconnected and it means you can never know what trauma and pain and necessity has shaped a person #each story goes too far back to ever ever EVER possibly see the full extent of it #at that level even communication itself is nearly impossible.#and because of that it's almost impossible to change anything. beat yourself apart and the outcome is the same #and yet ATTEMPTING to change things ATTEMPTING to do the kind thing the honourable thing is absolutely critical #because while you can change nothing you also have the capacity to change EVERYTHING #aaaaaaah i don't even know what i'm saying #but i read the beatrice letters today and the love letter just. killed me.#(obviously i cherrypicked some lines because it's three pages long but those ones felt right)#''i love you like a corpse loves a vulture's beak'' i just. can't get over that line.#to be completely changed. altered. destroyed. redeemed. purified. desecrated. reduced to nothing yet entirely necessary for another's life.#what a FUCKING line #anyway i was either going to blow up from thinking about it or else i had to exorcise it via art from an entirely different series #i've already done svsss and discworld why not throw a series of unfortunate events into the mix #i'll be honest folks i did not expect svsss to be the mxtx series that would fuck me up the most about the main ship #bingqiu is something else. i don't even know how to begin to approach my feelings on it. impossibility and necessity all at once #bizarre #my art

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allysketches · 10 months ago

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continuing my “aziracrow are married and retired on permanent holiday” agenda... I think they would greatly enjoy the tourist™️ experience

wacky fashion choices, funky drinks, sightseeing tours, annoying and confusing the hell out of humans talking historical facts like they’ve personally been there (they have), raising havoc in general wherever they go... idk fun times 🍹⛱️✨

#good omens #good omens fanart #aziracrow #crowley x aziraphale #ineffable husbands #aziraphale #crowley #anthony j crowley #neil gaiman #my art #just realised I spent the whole night finishing this and it's now morning...oops?#I better go to sleep and hope I don't notice some unfixable mistake and completely hate it by the time I wake up #or I'll just have to live with it ig 🤷🏻‍♀️

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soriastrider · 9 months ago

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