#cant believe this is something that actually happens to ppl and not just in bad american rom coms

[perilegs]

i know astrology is fake but i'm not too keen on how a lot of people on this website seem to be clowning on it as a hobby a bit too hard. i swear the woman who thinks it's neat how she and her friends with the same sun sign are all similar isn't trying to say that you are who you are born as and there is nothing you can do to change it. it's a hobby. an interest. what happened to finding meaning and joy in the small things. does it affect you if someone enjoys tarot reading or crystals. does it make you upset someone has interests that they enjoy.

[nuwanders]

tinder match stood me up 😑😑😑😑😑

[sybbi]

"I'm glad tiktok's back but I can't get over the propaganda I just saw, how could they thank Trump when he was the first to propose a ban, ugh, what kind of conspiracy is this!" Yeah that's crazy but at least they never promoted misinformation and apathetic rhetoric before all this that ultimately had a favorable effect for Trump haha imagine if they were NEVER the good guys people acted like they were and if they were the same as every other social media that had the ability and interests to control the public discourse using their algorithm haha man that would be something else like whooooaaaa, imagine if they were so synonymous with censorship their app singlehandedly led to the formation of neo-leetspeak and people started saying graped and unalived when trying to discuss serious topics because otherwise their conversations would be shut down and racist shit was never actually taken down when it was reported unless the posters were dogpiled so hard they took it down themselves. Glad none of that is real! Happy to have a social platform that CARES about its users back up in the US!!!

[twipsai]

ive been wanting to do something like this for a while, so here we go

Silver's straightforward attitude and anxieties: a poorly formatted analysis

Silver's anxiety is something i havent seen talked about a lot, and im really just barely going beneath the surface here -- i hope i did it justice in anyway sfdkSKHJFDSKFH i think about his obvious anxiety disorder a lot

transcript of all the text i added under the cut incase its hard to read for some ppl ^_^

image 1 (source: IDW #8): "isnt really used to banter, got worried he actually offended Sonic"

"he worries a lot about not being useful, because thats pretty much his entire purpose in life. if hes not doing something, he will find something to do (badly) or panic. he gets nervous at the slightest insinuation that he mightve messed up because the last thing he ever wants to do is get in anyones way."

"for how powerful he is and how much shit he talks, Silver doesnt really think very good about himself or his own worth."

image 2 (source: Sonic Universe #82): "its hard to say anything here that i havent already said, its just another example os Silver having issues with his self wroth, and also a lot of his motivation coming from protecting the people he loves (and, more generally, protecting the world), considering a page after this he gets up and completely wrecks the Second Devourer"

image 3 (source: IDW #8): "Silver will take pretty much anything literally. he lacks the social skills to identify when someones being serious bc he grew up completely alone"

image 4 (source: IDW #14): "he cant lie (is both bad at it, and it really just doesnt cross his mind to do so), but he can change the subject"

"he also really doesnt like it when people are worried about him -- almost every time people show concern for him, he tries (and fails) to lie or change the subject"

image 5 (source: IDW #14): "he didnt see anything suspicious about [Starline giving the "vault code"] because he doesnt usually assume people lie directly to him, its just not something that usually crosses his mind"

image 6 (source: IDW #60, TSR interview): "Silver's rudeness, his naivete, misunderstanding of jokes/quips/banter, inability to lie, it all stems from his straightforwardness. its simple, but but oftentimes effective (yes i chose a bad page to showcase when it works, ignore that)"

"Silver doesnt like to beat around the bush or show off too often. go in, defeat the bad guys, get out. it ties in with his anxiety of the future -- time is always of the essence"

"Q: What are some of your favorite items to use during the race?

Silver: [...]but the Jade Wisps' "Ghost" is the only one I like. I can disappear and focus on the race."

"it does make him forget to stratagize and cooperate with his friends sometimes, though, when his first instinct is "hit it until it stops moving""

image 7 (source: Sonic Rivals 2): "im not really going over his bluntness in this, but literally the entirety of Rivals 2 covers that. he doesnt think to hide what hes doing because he knows hes in the right, so he just expects everyone else to know that. he expects people to believe him just because hes telling the truth. he doesnt see why he would have a reason to lie, so he never thinks to justify his actions."

"a lot of this bluntness is also shown in IDW #64 -- Silver cant be stealthy and observe someone from afar to save his life when he knows hes right about them. he really takes no time to explain that Duo is Mimic before Whisper steps in and attacks Mimic, even though if he took the time to talk through what happened, he probably couldve convinced Lanolin of Duo's true nature"

image 8 (source: IDW annual 2022): "Silver has pretty much zero idea how to navigate the world outside of helping other people and saving the world. he is almost constantly in "survival mode" and doesnt know how to handle low-stakes"

"(he sometimes takes casual conversation too seriously because of this)"

"he is constantly worried about the future. to an almost unhealthy degree sometimes, its often all he thinks about. when he knows exactly what to do, he comes off as confident and powerful, but when he doesnt know what to do..."

"...he completely spirals. to him, an uncertain future is worse than a doomed one. not knowing how to fix things is one of the most terrifying thoughts to him."

"if Espio hadn't been here to calm him down, i think its super likely he'd have had an anxiety attack."

image 9 (source: Sonic Generations, IDW #64, Team Sonic Racing, Sonic Universe #79): "like, i truly cannot emphasize enough how he cannot relax. anything can be a threat, and if he doesnt see an immediate one, he will find something that is one. "

"he can rarely calm down, because every second hes in the past is another second he should be saving the future"

"i cant properly showcase it here, but if you run past him in Gens, he'll immediately be on-guard."

"he has to always be looking for the next world-destroying foe, it's pretty much his default setting."

"there are tons more examples of his overt anxiety, but these are some of the more prominant examples."

image 9 (source: Archie Sonic #235): "we even see in the traitor arc in archie how Silver is constantly paranoid. the idea never crosses his mind that there is no traitor, because something is always wrong. hes like a machine built to find a problem with no off switch"

"almost anything can set him off and make him untrusting of anyone, because thats the only way he knows how to live. anything can be a threat in his eyes, and when there is no threat, he will either find one or panic that he cant find one."

"because when you spend your entire life fighting,"

"how else are you supposed to live?"

[etherealkissed88]

Firstly, I love your blog! Second, I feel so bad because I think I'm so ugly (I only like a few things about myself) and not fitting in the standards, so I compare myself very much. What's your advice? It's so hard to feel ugly, like I can't compete..

thank you! - okay you feel ugly. i want you to understand that this feeling is neutral. i want you to know that you are fulfilling yourself with this idea of you not fitting in w the standards.

1. imagine a scene that implies you are beautiful (ppl complimenting you, you staring at urself in the mirror, you telling yourself you cant believe how perfect you look). do whatever technique you want. you can loop the scene/visualization until it feels real to you, it doesnt have to be hd clear quality, i visualize blurry and i still manifest. keep doing this until you feel satisfied in imagination, this is experiencing it so dont imagine it to get something in the 3d (it will reflect in the 3d either way), imagine it to feel good bc why wouldnt you want to be fulfilled in knowing your beautiful?). you can also just simply decide your beautiful regardless of the 3d.

2. once you feel satisfied, know that that is now a fact or you can think about it as a memory. imagination is the real reality right? so what you just imagined (experienced) is a fact. assume it to be true and whenever you think of it, know it done.

3. if you get negative thoughts, insecurities, see circumstances, it is all neutral which means it has no original meaning, it is you who always adds meaning. realize you can choose what everything means or you can choose that it still has no meaning. continue to go back into imagination and know its real.

🎀i used to have the same insecurity, what i did to overcome this is simply assuming that no matter what i feel, i still am exactly how i want to look like. when i would feel insecure, i would go straight into imagination and feel like my ideal self. if i was my ideal self, would i care about a feeling or thought that tells me otherwise? no. bc i know im the operant power and i always choose who to be in imagination. who you are being in imagination always expresses in the 3d so thats exactly what happened: i actually started to naturally feel beautiful and look beautiful in the 3d just like how i did in imagination. this is proof that the 3d never matters and is always neutral.

[coffeesleep-ooc]

More anime sv au, this time with a Binghe protag

After Dungein no naka no hito, went to watch Mahou Shoujoni akogarete (thanks flu, you are so damn helpful I can’t go to work or to class -_-‘) and just the first episode made me itch to make it a sv au!

so like, imagine a world where ppl see magical girls Qingqiu (SJ), Qingge (LM? Liu Mingshi? Liu Ming? Idk) and Qingxing (SY) fight against monsters and protect their town with the power of friendship and love (although SJ does it more reluctantly, he wants to protect his beloved Yue Qi maybe?)

And there’s this young girl, bright eyed and shy and sweet! Who admired these magical girls and longs to fight with them. She is practically obsessed.

this cute sweet girl is named Luo Binghe and has just been chosen to be the villains’ organization new talent!

LBH does not want to fight her idols okay??? Bit if she doesn’t then the little creature who affirms to be an old demon will send her mother the transformation sequence video! She can’t be seen like this! And in such an attire! How could she!

so she does what the little spirit tells her and realizes…she is enjoying this…way too much

especially Qingxing’s face contorted in pain, flushed with embarrassment and asking why Binghe is doing this to them

is…why is it so…tempting? Why does she crave those embarrassed faces? She loves the magical girls! Why would she enjoy hurting them?!?

and then it happens again and again and again… and LBH cant help it anymore

She tries so so hard!!! Truly!!! She prays everyday for any god to help her overcome this weakness! She can’t concentrate in class! She stares at the blank pages of her homework and can only think of a tied up Qingxing! She has to pass this next exam with a high note or she will lose her scholarship but the only thing she can think of is- is…!

She…she! She is being corrupted by this power!

(Not really, she is just … lusting)

every single time she is overcome by the urge to see them tremble and mo- no! No!!! She has to resist this! She can’t…stop…when their clothes get thorn and show their skin…she wants to make that pale skin redden and hear them cry out!

and qhen they fight back and hit her…its even better!!! Her heart fills with joy when the sweet Qingxing smacks her with sides with her baton, or when the cool and collected Qingge flushes all over in anger and embarrassment and throws herself at Binghe…or even when Qingqiu throws her best punches at her face, she even looks to be enjoying it too…

Why does she like that so much?

When she is transformed is like she is almost like another person, all her desires come to the surface, and she only wants to play! Why is she such a bad bad person????

And maybe later she meets Xiao Hua (SHL) who wants to fight the magical girls for protagonism of her own, and Mobei-jun (Mo Xue maybe?) who is angry that the magical girls want to reclute her not-yet-gf to their side and put her in danger!

She learns that everyone has their own reasons to fight, and that is part of life to discover oneself…and who knows, maybe gain a couple of partners in the process?

(lol, im thinking that since both og!LBH and sv!LBH have a high sex drive, this little girl discovering her own interests and trying to fight them bc she believes she is actually doing something evil is very interesting, it would make even more sense for SY-LQG to start falling for LBH’s sweet sweet and charming tortures, even when they won’t admit it!

but also LBH fighting the spirit that gave her power -maybe Mdme Meiyin?- but falling each time to the temptation XDDDD

Im still watching it so i may adds to this idea but feel free to use it too, but this is a mix of silly and hot that i just wanted to share hehehe)

[kittyhui]

woozi as all the love languages

word count: 769 (cute little imagine)

a/n: for ppl reading my smau im sorry for not updating, my writers block is so bad rn😭😭

words of affirmation

- he LOVES praise.

- whenever you come to the studio and listen to something he’s working on, he waits for your lovely words saying that he’s doing so well and that the song sounds amazing

- his ears would blush a pretty pink and he’d cover his face in embarrassment

- talk pretty to him.. he’ll have a heart attack. he just wants to know he’s doing good💔

- but on the other end, he has a hard time praising his SO.

- he doesn’t like to say ‘i love you’. he thinks that after a while it loses its meaning and wont feel as special

- tbh he probably wouldn’t even say those words until like 9 months to a year into the relationship (hes the type to not even say it until his wedding day😭)

- almost any attempt of giving praise comes with stuttering and blushing

acts of service

- because hes so busy, he would really appreciate receiving acts of services

- if you live together, he loves when you tie his tie if he has to dress up in the morning

- in return he’ll make you breakfast and coffee just the way you like it before he heads to the studio

- if you work out with him, he’ll love if you could spot him and vice verse.

- he doesn’t want people to know, buts he’s a princess. giving him massages when he gets home or giving him a full skincare routine and running a bath, he just would feel so loved, especially after a long day of practice

gift giving

- he has a lot of money, he wont deny it, but he won’t spend his money all willy-nilly

- he loves to spoil you but he only does it every now and then

- he’ll STALK all your socials to see what you want if you didn’t already flat out tell him.

- if he knows he wont be home for a while or cant spend time with you (tour, comeback, etc) he’ll slip a few gifts onto your bed, wrapped nice and pretty. he loves when you send him photos or video call him, showing how much you love whatever you got. he cant stop the smile on his face anytime he sees your happiness

- on the other end, jihoon doesn’t like receiving gifts

- he doesn’t want you to waste your money on him and really he’ll only ask for something for his birthday and it will never be something outrageous. if you do a form of art, he’d LOVE to receive something you painted or drew or wrote. if you made music as well, he’d probably cry if you wrote a song for him

quality time

- he’s busy like all the time, but best believe he’ll message you, call you, and try to visit you as much as he can.

- when he’s home or visiting you, you rarely go out

- woozi, the homebody he is, loves movie nights and cooking dinner together.

- watching a movie on your couch while eating a home cooked meal on his rest day is the most domestic thing in jihoon’s mind, it makes his heart flutter everytime.

- even if he doesn’t want to do something, just spending time with his SO without talking is something that he loves

- doing his own thing at the same time as you in comfortable silence is very calming to him and it happens a lot when hes working in the studio and you come to visit

- if the two of you wanted to leave the house to do something together, gym dates, Michelin restaurants and picnics are things he would love to do.

physical touch

- contrary to what most people would think he actually loves physical affection.

- ESPECIALLY when sleeping.

- have yall seen the LieV sleepover stream? woozi is like that with his SO.

- he’s big spoon all the way. he will wrap his legs around you a snuggle his head into your neck when its cold out.

- he’s not a big fan of pda tho. even with the members, he gets bright red even from just a simple peck on the cheek

- the most he would initiate/let you initiate in public is pinky locking when walking and short shoulder touches in passing.

- but as i said before, once he gets home ALONE, he’s all on you.

- hes still shy tho, most of the time you will initiate it.

- he’ll pull you into kisses every now and then, keeping you close to him for hours

- its hard for him to say ‘i love you’ so this is the best way in his opinion

- favorite type of physical affection: cuddling

[soft-cristobalite]

Watched arcane season 2 act 1, thought abt it, so here are some of my thoughts in no particular order. Obvious spoilers.

Also, i watched in dub. Important to know when i am quoting charaters + when i am talking about their tone.

Starting of with something that is directly affected by dub — ukrainian Jayce is my Jayce. Ppl said he sounded condesending while talking to Ekko — not. at. alllll. true for my Jayce. My Jayce sounded tired, emotionaly burn out. "You drink tea, Ekko?" said with no though to it, in a context of continues talking of "Haha do i live here? Hahah....... Do you guys want tea? Want some tea? I'll make tea. Do you drink tea, Ekko?". But d-dub is supposed to stay true to the original— I DONT CAREEE. I love my blorbo almost-himbo Jayce, never changing his characterisation in my mind.

And i will hold Jayce's hand when i say this — you were. Just so gay for like... Essentialy going "Are you okay? Good, good" to lady Mel Medarda HERSELF and then seeing Victor and losing your mind. Sprinting with him in your hands to your lab. LIVING in your lab to monitor him. I just... I get it, you don't have many friends. But like...... Really dude. Reaally.

Give Mel and Ekko thirty minutes. I promise you they would work it out. Eternal piece would be achieved.

I know there are a lot of different opinions regarding Caitlyn. I will not be explaining in-depts what i think about her acr, because a) who cares and b) i like to see her go cray-cray. But like — why isnt anybody exept for Vi attempting to stop her??? Like why is Jayce mourning Victor's twink death instead of, yk, stopping his childhood-best-friend-kinda-younger-sister from killing ppl of Zaun, the last thing Victor wants btw? She and Vi are twenty-ish — WHYYYY are they going through it by themselves??? Why doesnt baby yoda guy with German name that i dont dare to write trying to stop the daughtrer of his ex-collegue? He is 600 or something, im sure he could've come up with advice.

Cait pointing her gun at a child is terrifying, it opens up the possibilities of her going even more blinded with anger, doing even more horrific things, and Vi is right to try and stop her. However... I know damn right i would've believe her when she said she will not miss 😭 Every single time she fired her gun she was very precise. Even in that scene she aimed at the gun the girl was holding like two seconds ago and got a perfect. fucking. score. Like i dont remember her missing at all, actually.

"Ohhhhh you're gonnnaaa haaaaaattteeee Maddie after act two—" says who? On that note, i hope both Cait AND Vi will sleep with a few random people. Good for them. Let them try to forget about each other only to realise just how down bad they are for one another. Let the scenes of Cait and Maddie hooking up intertwine with Vi's one night stand.

"Maddie is just gonna be a victim of comander Cait :(((" and i do not have any thing to say to that — we dont yet KNOW what will happen — but I dont think Cait will try to manipulate her into this. I think Maddie will flirt a bit, Cait will try and seek salvage and vulnerability in someone, especially since she is now constantly in public's eye and needs to project hope™ and stoicism™. It will be a genuine attempt to move on — not anybody's fault she can't.

But oh god, oh goooddd i cant wait for Maddie to loose the spark in her eyes due to lesbian situationship.

[froglover7789]

Why don't the prequels work as Vader's backstory? It's literally about how anyone no matter how good or well intentioned has the propensity for evil if they let themselves make bad decisions.

Narratively I think it's beautiful and tragic that way.

i think the prequels r actually about how corruption and manipulation and desperation and fear can ruin a person---not just bad decisions :3c and the prequels r consistent with some of the messaging of the originals in that way but that doesnt necessarily mean they serve as a good backstory

heres a handful of reasons why i dont think anakins back story really works with vader:

the originals imply that anakin and uncle owen are blood brothers or at least grew up together. owen sees anakin in luke and this is something that would only really be possible if owen knew anakin well as a teenager. this is also the reason why owen doesnt tell luke about the jedi; he thinks that luke will, like his father, run off to become some sort of war hero and die in the process bc thats what he thinks happened to anakin (some ppl think that owen suspects anakin became vader but i think this is a stretch). the prequels establish that they dont know eachother and didnt grow up together. owen doesnt know anakin outside of what he mightve seen in war/ republic propaganda and thats not very indicative of character. this also raises questions about why obiwan gave luke to owen/ why they took him in in the first place. it makes more sense for anakin and owen to have been very close bc then obiwan wouldve heard of owen and would genuinely trust him to raise his best friends son and owen wouldve cared enough about luke to raise him as his own

what we're led to believe in the originals is that anakin was a powerful jedi who lost sight of what he was fighting for. we're led to believe that he was torn, that the war corrupted him, that war isnt the answer. this works bc the originals r meant to be symbolic of the vietnam war (where the empire would be america) and so this idea of the consequences of war and the importance of peace is a huge part of the originals message. while this is somewhat supported by the prequels its undermined by the fact that anakins fall is mostly bc of YEARS of grooming starting from when he was a kid. this wasnt a normal, good man who lost sight of what was right and crumpled under the weight of a war. this was a man who was the most special of them all and fell bc he had space hitler literally whispering in his ear since before he knew he was a person. thats not the same thing at all! and that steals the implication that vader could have been any soldier, any general and makes his story all messy

side note- leia has vague memories of her mother which means padme shouldntve died in childbirth and should probably have died/ left the twins when they were at least a year or two old. this would also give more reason as to why the lars have luke call them aunt and uncle rather than mom or dad. i think what probably shouldve happened is that padme got pregnant right before anakin was shipped out at some point so he didnt know he had kids before "dying" and she ended up getting involvef in the rebellion/ fearing for her kids safety and had to get rid of em. literally anything else than what happened in canon lol like wtf is dying of heartbreak get OUT

my final thought i can think of rn is that having hitlers right hand man be a slave is just kinda a strange backstory? like i cant be the only one who doesnt like that. idk. doesnt feel right :/

obv most this stuff is just preference and obv you can argue against most of it. the prequels Do technically work but theyre not great backstory. im also not a fan of how the jedi order and all that mess was established. like you can only be one if youre raised one since diapers but luke literally didnt know what the force was until he was 19 but he ended up being one of the most powerful jedi ever??? yeah. makes perfect sense. :////

i do agree that the prequels r tragic and beautiful in their own right. i think the story they tell is good in some ways and bad in others ans one of the ways they r bad is how they tie in with the originals lol

hope this answers your question :3c or at least helps you see where im coming from :33

[msallurea]

Yall😭...somebody's manifesting me 😕 idk when, where, how or who u even are but I just KNOW like I can feel it it's insane actually but whoever u are could ya stop?? Or like take a lil day break or something ����Yo affirmations been stuck in my head all damn week your name just keeps being blurry in my head everytime i get to the "i am in love with ..." and thats it BOY WHO ARE U???😭 and ehats crazy is literally the past 3 nights I fell asleep and had a dream where when we meet and come together it'll be when we both have a major success story so we probably manifested our dream lives at the same time...but like we knew each other a little before that?? 😭 and then we just end up together like?? 💀 biggest give away tho was mid dream before I wake up we're on live explaining how we manifested our dream lives to ppl in the loa community mid live he basically says "i manifested you" LIKE WAIT WHAT? 😭and I kid u not @luckykiwiii101 says verbatim "they are the husband and wife of the loa community" when she reposts our success story 😭😭 and then her saying that made it end up being a whole ass trend or like "moment" in the community that just kinda remembered forever it almost caused a surge into tumblr cuz of it💀(btw in this dream I'd like the mention that she along with @matheoxs along with a few others as well as a SHIT TON OF ANONS and i mean like anons who had doubts so bad they was on the verge of givin up also manifested there desires a little around the same time as well and more males were being recognized in the loa community, all loa blogs were just flooded with major success stories some even felt more comfortable to post theres after i did what i did and a bunch of other stuff yall it was crazy like i cant 😭) and then it ends off like me proving my point in the community where like the success stories kinda fix the doubts of doubters here cuz me and the guy happen to both ended up manifesting being worldwide famous since that was something we wanted before even knowing each other (now that IS on my list for ME individually) and we have like photo and vid evidence and then it doubles down when others in the community shows that its true and then it takes like years and years for ppl who dont know the law at all to actually believe that we manifested our fame but like the community gave up trying to prove to outsiders it was true so we just started gatekeepers again💀 and all i give as a hint to the public is "we create our realities" and leave it there like a "ifykyk" moment😭😭😭 but like also during the dream i did kinda fuck up the community 💔 because I ended up turning it into like a staple thing to post photos and "evidence" of your manifestations especially if it's like dramatically changing such as your entire dream life or appearance (btw if this really does happen and it wasn't just a dream I wanna apologize in advance yall pls don't be posting your lives and manifestations if you don't want to keep it where its at TO YOURSELF😭💔)...yall me having a sp isn't on my list at all😭😭😭 WHO IS THIS NIGGA??? 💀 like keep cooking..BUT WHO ARE YOU??? 😭😭

[lopposting]

combining the most recent theories including your last beautifully written post, i now believe that Carlo, upon learning the disease could make him slowly waste away and have an agonising demise, eventually chose to leave on his own terms by drowning or by practically taking on a nearly suicidal mission around the days of the attack at the Charity House

@mahirublue

[long post - also btw thank you to ppl responding :D ]

So, I've noticed that there is this seam around Nameless' neck.

I initially thought the implication was that Geppetto had removed and reattached the head to access whatever parts he needed to get to.

But I'm actually wondering if maybe he fell from somewhere, considering how he is positioned when we find him.

[I've also had the thought that maybe he isn't even dead in this scene?? but her manner really doesn't seem that way, it's awful bedside manner, for one]

Honestly this all started as more of a crack theory, but now I'm actually wondering if it's actually true. Mostly just because - there seems to be no real reason why we don't seem to know how Carlo died. Like, they went through all this trouble to show us all of this. But if it involved something that, again, is kind of taboo, I can see the story wanting to imply something like that without explicitly having to show it

The thing is, Gemini seems to have stayed behind with Carlo, and I don't really think he woulda let some kid off himself under his watch. (although, I guess that is kind of what happened anyway)

Maybe it'll be answered in the DLC, maybe it'll never be answered, or maybe this entire thing was all nothing to begin with!

[And then there's also the entire relic of trismisgestus trismesgistus tirestmegest- (cant spell) thing with gemini.]

@ideas-on-paper

More thoughts on this!! -

Yes, so at that point, Carlo had already been "rejected" by his father. so I can imagine that affecting him badly. [It's also reminding me of the other lore bit of Simon being rejected by his own father ("A father is like god to his son")]

On top of that:

So, I really love the interpretation about the Carlo at the end not being Carlo but Geppetto's ideal version of carlo.

If Carlo really was so unhappy while he was alive, or died by suicide, I don't know, I think it puts a really sad spin on the end carlo smile and how Giuseppe makes his ideal Carlo "happy" in the end

Also, I just recently found the dialogue of antonia actually talking about the BRB painting, which I had NO IDEA existed. It was like the first time I saw that (it was her saying something like "how much Geppetto must've missed you")

I used to think along the lines of "geppetto doesnt want love he wants control", which I still do think is true. But now I'm starting to feel that - even with all his evil - he really did love his son. (That does NOT mean he can't also be a bad parent or a bad person.)

Your Father, who cares about you more than anyone

[violentviolette]

Do you experience shame? I ask because I believe I have ASPD, and I genuinely. Do not experience shame. I can feel disgust at ineptitudes, and frustrated with failure, but I cant bring to mind a time that I've felt shame like other people display it. I'm just curious if that's related, and to what extent or how.

Thank! :)

this is gonna be one of those things thats both highly subjective and highly dependant on how ur defining "shame" and what ur ascribing it to definitions for emotions are very subjective and fairly personal/situational. some peoples definition of shame is closer to embarassment while others is closer to remorse. for some people shame is an inward emotion that makes them feel bad about themselves while for others its an outward emotion that makes them lash out at the thing at the epicenter of the emotion without ever considering themselves.

shame is also a very outward kind of self aware emotion, in that u need a certain level of ability to look at and conceptualize urself from the outside/others pov in order to feel it, so depending on how self aware u are, a lot of people dont think they experience shame because it never actually occurs to them to view themselves from that outward perspective, or because they devalue all outside perspective and deem it beneath them to consider it in order to avoid engaging with it compltely because its uncomfortable and upsetting

none of this is really tied to aspd directly per se, but it is more likely for ppl with cluster b pds and cptsd/complex trauma and therfore fairly common. it's more like, the more disordered ur thinking, the more self focused and divorced from others reality u are, the less likely ur going to be to experience emotions like shame, remorse, embarassment, ect. that require that outward self awareness. for trauma disorders like cluster b ones ur also more likely to be reactionarily defensive, which means that when confronted with an uncomfortable emotion, we project it outward and seperate it from ourselves in order to protect ourselves from feeling bad. so in places where a healthy person would feel shame, we feel disgust and anger that we then project onto others rather than ourselves. a lot of "why should i feel bad? its THEM that should feel bad. they're the ones doing something wrong, not me" kind of thinking

none of that is permanent/inherent or like rooted in aspd exclusively because it happens for lots of different disorders and traumas, so its very common depending on how deep in ur trauma or as i like to call it, how lost in the sauce u are. when i was younger and more self focused and less in touch with my emotions, and also when my mania is flaring and im therefore very delusional and unable to accurately view my actions from a more objective pov, i didnt feel shame. now that im older and more recovered and much more self aware, i definitly do and can also see some of the places where i was probably feeling shame previously, but wasnt able to identify it and was mistaking it for other more confrontational emotions

so its really interconnected with a lot of other things, lots of which depend on ur own personal trauma and how it manifests for u specifically and is therefore kind of a byproduct of all that other stuff rather than a root symptom unto itself if that makes sense. i hope that was helpful and feel free to come back and ask more questions or talk about it more if ud like or if any of that didnt make sense!

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taemints somehow managing to twist ceo jangs words to blame jinki once again is making me cry, no matter what he does they somehow will shift the blame onto him n one thing abt taemints is tht they never factcheck especially when its something against jinki, literally no mention of taemin or bpm n they managed to twist his words n make taemin apologize too i honestly feel so bad for taemin he always has to end up apologizing cause his fans cant comprehend shit. he obviously knows whats going on in fans spaces too like when he had to mention txt yeonjuns performance after shovels n taemints were dragging the poor guy, when will they realize he doesnt stand for what u stand. they make him apologize every two weeks n then say why is he apologizing noo :(((( honestly it feels like u cant actually be ot5 in shinee fan spaces cause theyll only ever defend the member they like the best n others r jut fanfic fodder for them. anyways sm i hope u shit ur pants.

this all happened because of their inability to see the real problem most of the time. tbh i get feeling frustrated about guilty, it got snubbed in awards ceremonies last year while every idol was dancing it and doing covers of it and seeing it performed with his backup vocals still on by another idol did not help ig but why no one said anything against his old agency? even now, they fail to see that neither bpm or griffin are wrong, they both represent tm and jk as soloists, the group is under esem so if group schedules aren't happening how is it their fault? we also know that bpm collaborates with other agencies to arrange group schedules, like viviz could participate in their group cb, so who's the problem? griffin? jinki? ceo jang confirmed that multiple group projects were canceled last minute by esem and #they can believe edited screenshots that cut out shit, dookie translations but in the end all of this is happening bcs esem isn't responsible enough to arrange stuff, just like esem isn't responsible enough to protect their own artists. this isn't the first time tm apologizes to his 'fans', there was that time during ngda era, during guilty there was the renewal stuff, and he had to clarify so ppl wouldn't feel anxious bcs there was no way that esem would do something (like they did send him without manager and staff to his last schedule with them lol), I think recently he did more than once like for smtown, for the recording gift fan wanted and that baseless dating rumor.

UGHHHHHHHHH. the point is that if esem would've done something abt ppl like this in fan spaces, this would not have happened lol but instead, they profit off them since these ppl are happy to be atm lol

[kitty-merchant]

Hmm, Sebastian and Painter for the character opinion bingo?

VIVI YOU CANT JUST ASK ABOUT BOTH OF MY BOYS...oh god Okay i'll do this in chunks, ill try to stay normal

Sebastian. Good lord. Im normal as I look at the plushie i bought last year. What can I say? I adore that he's questionably a good person. How he manipulates the player for his own gains, pretending to be their friend. Certainly killed ppl after he broke out. BUT HE STILL HAS A HEART YOU KNOW? He loves painter like a brother!. He's a grey character through and through. I know some ppl dont like that he gets mad when you climb on him but honestly? I love that he can be mean, that he isnt afraid to gun you down if you wont fucking listen. FOR GOOD REASON look what happened to his body!!! The awful experiments ofc he's not gunna want to be touched. He's my comfort character even if he would be a shit therapist. Idk why but he makes me endlessly happy i could yap on. Also he's hot. I love snake like characters nobody touch me.

I remember hating painter initially but the more I learned about this awful cube the more I related to him. HE'S EVEN AN ARTIST. dude is me fr. I love that despite being a robot he deals with real issues, akin to those who have autism and BPD. I love how he does awful things but its b/c he trusts Seb so much and wants to get out of here. Hell the way he flips between being nice to the player and mean also fits! I believe him when he says its nothing personal when you meet him in person, he hates what the player is doing not the player themselves. I will say one small nitpick, and this really is a nitpick it legit doesnt bother me. But I swear the fandom likes making painter cooler then he actually is. He's a dork to me im sorry. He's a depressed dork who's trying to be a badass like his big brother. That's the energy I get from him. HE CAN HAVE HIS moments and he does with how he tries to stop the player but cmon. He's a silly thing, he was built to make art and that's all he wants to do at the end of the day. Look at his face and then tell me straight he's as cool as V1 from ultrakill. Something something pressure is so good at writing characters that tiptoe the line of being good or bad. That much in real life, morals are complicated. I could go on but This is already a novel so! Yeah! Good boys!

[awkward-clone]

Ok think I’ve finally got my thoughts together on the bright situation and im just gonna say it.

Its not gonna work.

It basically is just slapping on a new name on dr bright and calling it a day. Like. No matter what u do its the same character, it does nothing. Djkaktus said it himself that he was “always writing elias shaw.” That “any similarities are just a coincidence.”

So its funny seeing some of the ppl thats on board with this claim that “u cant separate the art from the artist” and yet that’s exactly what they're trying to achieve. Except, u know, the community had already done that a long time ago, ripping bright out of the hands of admin bright. So really, no change is actually being made.

Anyway with that out of the way I do want to address some concerns about djkaktus.

I’ve been looking around and have seen people mentioning that the dude:

1. Was quiet about the admin bright thing when it was happening along with actually being one of the people trying to cover it up

2. Had been banning people simply cuz they didn’t like his works

3. he’s an alleged predator

Now I havent personally found much relating to this other than people's words on it on tumblr. Tho someone on insta has told me that djkaktus was extremely quiet during the bright situation. Which yea it took an entire year after admin bright was banned to only now bring up this elias shaw bs.

Now if anyone has sources on any of this, links, screenshots, anything, it’d be a great help if ya can send it to me via replying to this post or dm-ing me. It would better help spread this awareness around.

Also regarding articles that had brights name replaced w/ SA jokes that haven’t been edited out which is something else that also has been mentioned to me, would appreciate it to get more scps/tales listed regarding that. Only got 4498 so far which has a really bad um…”butt stabbing” joke...I mostly did skim read it so I’ll have a proper read at some point.

Tldr:

- Elias Shaw is pointless and does nothing.

- People who are saying u can't separate art from artists are tryna separate bright from author.

- Djkaktus was quiet during the admin bright situation and potentially was tryna cover it up, has been banning ppl for not liking his stuff, is an alleged predator and hasnt edited out sa jokes in articles where he changed bright’s name.

Correct me if I’m wrong on anything or anything like that.

Edit: reminder to take the djkaktus stuff as a grain of salt (especially the predator allegations) as it did come from pixelated harmony who did in fact doxxed someone

Source:

Still I stand by that he was quiet about admin bright though and of course I still don’t believe the elias shaw thing is gonna work

edit edit edit: things are messy. u can look in the comments for more info I don't rlly know what to say beyond this point.

[mehoyminoyyy]

My Thoughts after watching S1 & S2 of TSITP

Disclaimer: I will not be hating on any ships or saying unnecessary bad things about ships or the ppl who ship whoever. Thats not what this is about. This is just my own opinion and thought process and what I’ve taken away from watching the show.

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First off I want to say I’m so surprised how much I actually enjoyed this little show. I stumbled across it three days ago and have been throughly entertained.

I want to also say I wasn’t a book reader so I’m basing my opinions wholly based on the series.

Okay lets get into this,

I’m rooting for “Jelly” and here’s why.

Since S1 Jere has been very vocal about his admiration /crush on Belly. He has a positive & honest attitude toward life , which makes him a very likable character. Every time there was a scene with him in it I found myself literally cheesing no matter who he was with.

Something I noticed from the first few episodes in S1 alone was that Jere was almost always “Available” for Belly.

Which instantly established and showed me their dynamic.

I remember I said to myself while watching “Ah , that’s literally her best friend he’s her rock!”

Now at the time I felt like “Omg it’s so nice to see m/w platonic relationships being showcased like this.” I was honestly just so happy seeing that alone. As the show progressed , even in the flashbacks Jere just genuinely always liked Belly even platonically. He always includes her, makes time for her etc. It was honestly such a breath of fresh air seeing a girl actually being treated like an equal player for once . Also I want to add that, that this dynamic was actually balanced, Belly also did the same for Jere even though her head is full of Conrad at the start.

Back to Jere as a character,

Jere is seen as this happy go lucky guy that doesn’t have a care in the world. This isn’t necessarily the case though. That is his mask BUT he is not his mask!

( Thats important here)

All the characters in this show have a mask but I find myself relating to Jere’s the most. He is my favorite character right now( Also Steven) but I’m honestly going to try really hard not to be too biased and just state what I saw and what this show genuinely made me feel.

( I got so emotional watching this show and that hasn’t happened in a very long time 😂)

What I find interesting about Jere’s crush is that it feels more genuine. It grew organically. Not saying that Conrad’s crush didn’t either but its just different, Jeres crush grew from friendship… Conrad’s grew from him knowing Belly liked him.

What I noticed while watching is that Conrad needs to love himself. He needs to do that and work on himself before he’s with anyone. I do believe he loves Belly ( it’s obvious but..)he just cant love her the way she wants.

We see this with how his relationship with Nicole was just a mess and it wasn’t even Nicoles fault.. She like Belly wanted to be there for him. Wanted to love him, she also wanted to be loved. But he just cant commit to doing the work it takes to be in a relationship fully.( In this sense he is just like his dad … who he hates, and I’m sure he hates himself because he’s just like him. Maybe not in the unfaithful part but with commitment to be in a relationship )

Don’t get me wrong before the prom incident Conrad on paper is a really decent boyfriend. He understands Belly, they can talk for hours and once they are dating he does make time for her. but his main problem is not being able to communicate, he assumes and and shuts everyone out.. even the closest ppl to him and then wont even tell them why. Just like Steven said “ Your either up really up high or really down low” but they needed him to be in middle ground, and he just cant do the work to meet ppl half way.

That being said, Jere did the work or is in the process of it and so is Belly they’re moving forward … Conrad is stuck , he needs to be alone ( not forever) to figure himself out and then maybe fall in love just not with Belly … Because she has moved on. She’ll probably never love someone like the way she did Conrad but he also gave her so many important lessons.

Jere isn’t perfect but he’s literally perfect for Belly… When Conrad and Jere were talking by the vending machines I noticed one key thing that was different in their attitudes and this is what it was

Jere said “ I just want Belly to be happy, no matter who’s she’s with”

THAT right there this is not someone speaking selfishly.. Jere deep down doesn’t want to keep fighting and he’s willing to sacrifice his own happiness for someone he loves ( WHICH I MIGHT ADD BELLY IS LIKE THIS TOO! She is just manipulated more easily in s1 )

Because Jere knows happiness without Belly.. He does ..he’s his own person.. He knows it would be hard to let her go ( because he’s done it before) and it prob wouldn’t experience the same type of love but he would move on he knows he would. He also knows his relationship with Belly is strong enough that even if things went sour they always come back because their foundations were a super strong friendship. She’s his constant, not his stability. He even told her he’d be okay even if she decided he wasn’t the one for her.. he was fully ready to take that bullet all over again.

The way they “rebuilt”their friendship again in s2 was amazing to see ( take the romantic love out of it and love was never gone!) Like literally thats what they did..

Arguably Belly is also like conrad.. she never sees whats in front of her until she shes forced to see it, but when she does “ see” she doesn’t take it for granted. She Acts, she fixes, she makes amends , she actively trying to grow as a person.

When she realizes her constant is gone thats what cause her to be unstable.. BUT she’s also relentless, because she herself said she knows them .. tbh she knows the fisher boys better than she knows herself 😂. She truly is in love with both of them but only one relationship works romantically.

backtracking funeral : Something I wanted to add is that Belly got so angry with Conrad she said she hated him… she hated the mask he was showing her.( she hated him in that moment). When has she ever hated jere… ? (Again I’m from show perspectives so thats what I’m basing everything off of)

Even the very few times Jere and Belly fought she didn’t hate jere she aw through the mask, and he let her in.

Going back to the vending machine scene ,In that scene Conrad said something like this (srry if its not the exact quote)

“I cant live without her Jere,” ( I also think he hot into the physicality and mental aspect when the broke up and how it affected him)

He made it about him, not them and or what belly wants.

The thing is if their relationship was really deep, he wouldn’t say this he’d be okay with letting her go because he wouldn’t be losing her they still be friends. The way con asks is like he cant be friends with her now that they’ve been lovers… and thats a huge red flag. ( at least for me)

Conrad only agrees about Belly’s happiness after Jere said it .. and tbh he doesn’t even mean it.. Conrad only loves Belly because thats the only thing stable in his life.. he is not on good terms with his dad, mom is gone, things are rocky with Jere etc. He only wants Belly for his own “happiness “ and that’s horrible foundations… ( sure he loves things about belly but is very surface level its not as deep as their physical attraction to each other)

This is minor but it gave me the ick when he did this in the car, when jere asked if belly was cold, he was gonna turn the air down but Con just gave the jacket… he didn’t even notice she was cold like !?!? ( granted this is small because they were in the front but still, its the initiative that counts here .. Jere starts , Conrad follows )

I just I’m so tired of seeing toxic relationships exploited when healthy and actual loving relationships are what we should be celebrating…

Im not hating on Conrad ( I don’t think he’s a bad character in theory, he just needs work) On the flip side if he’s capable of moving on and dating other people why shouldn’t belly be afforded the same…?

I also don’t want to take away or diminish Conrads friendship with Belly either because I do believe they connect on like a nerd level and maybe physical attraction..But I don’t think their compatible because in every other area they fall short for each-other. Its more of a fantasy for both of them instead of something real? Idk , because when shit gets real they fall apart.. because Conrad chokes snd regresses nothing is solved.

Anyways I’m Team jelly , they’re relationship is sweet, fun, loving and sexy most of all though its easy.. they should feel safe. They understand life is short they leaned that and tackle it head on instead of wallowing in the saddest parts of life and letting that take over.

Its always going to be tough because of how things work ..the foundations are rocky but jere represents growth.. they can grow together.. I just idk jelly only feels right to me. It would be so odd for their characters to switch up like so odd and not truthful to who they are right now and the path their moving towards.

Also Taylor knew that too her best friends (besides the boys) even the debs picked up on if way before it was actually a thing…

So in conclusion Conrad deserves love but he needs to learn to live for himself first. He needs to learn how to live his life with out “thinking” about others ( not that he shouldn’t care) but basically stop manipulating himself and others into this toxic cycle of emotions. He needs to really commit and quite frankly grow a pair. He was the main one telling everyone to grow up… yet he did not.

He takes on these huge responsibilities like a martyr but really he just wants to feel important and needed to help his self worth…but part of growth is allowing people in and helping you when you need it. Also understanding that he will always be needed no matter what and he shouldn’t base his entire personality and values in wanting to be needed.

Belly represents his hope.. but without Belly is he hopeless? Can he still have hope.. Belly is teaching him hope but “he doesn’t love her because he wants to love her” not like Jere does. He loves Belly but he “needs” her to love him

Belly wants someone to want her…she wants to feel love and be loved at the same time. She also is a lover at heart she wants to give love , and she knows how to do this without manipulation. When she loves she loves hard…

Jere also loves hard… just saying he fought for Belly in his own way.. he sacrifices his own happiness for his brother time and time again, he sacrifices his happiness for belly time and time again… Honestly Jere really deserves better but I digress 🤣 Because Belly did become self aware somewhat and is active in being a better person.. no one is perfect as said before but being in love is about the path your working towards and how you go about it.. with said partner…Jere and Belly are on that path. Conrad is somewhere in the middle and he cant see his own cycles.

Im all up for a healthy and friendly debate , I don’t want to hate on any ships but this is my take away from the show alone not having read the book at all. idk if it’s different but As of right now having binged s1 & s2 in the past few days from the start as soon as I head Jere call Belly his future wife I was like damn… its him.

( plus she sees him first when it starts and thats a meetcute 👀 iykyk 😂)