#but thts only bc its like tht one tumblr post

[dnangelic]

im curious about if dark has a scent. like no fingerprints, no lines, no pores (i assume), but does he have a scent? does he wear fancy eau de parfum?

^ A JOKE. A JOKE I SWEAR. i always think it's funny when people ask me how dark smells though. like yeah this phantom of the operain't rlly has nothing. anyways fancy cologne or perfume is certainly on the table especially since it can obscure daisuke's natural human scent, which is what i feel in most cases is something he'd share (alongside many, many, many other shared traits, such as blood type for example.) dark and dark alone would be scentless, but he actually Does have pores. js. i can confirm this only bc he talks about all of them having a transcendent experience at one point. (he makes a funny face too. absolute drama king.) otherwise i can promise he smells either like the black leather he's almost always wearing and/or faintly of paints. it's not just him stealing portraits constantly and putting his weird little hands all over them but the fact that since daisuke himself is always painting, it rubs off onto him. it doesn't matter how cliche it is, florals/roses are also to be expected of him. he shows up in a lot of gardens, carries around/gives out a lot of bouquets/single flowers sometimes, and azumano itself has a lot of pretty foliage around. + it's all romantic, so what more does anybody need. 💖🌹

[caruliaa]

screaming bc theres a song (no i wont tell u what one but its by an artisit i dont listen to rly to much except for the last two days but i do like what of her music iv heard) that like. i rly feel like fits a ship (I WILL DEFF NOT TELL U WHICH ONE !!!!! but its like. not one i rly ship tht much but i do think its cute and im slowly getting more into it) in like. a weird way bc like. im not like omg this song is so this ship its so cute i mean the first time i listened to the song which was a while back when it first came out i was like this feels like ppl r gonna talk abt it w tht ship or like the song feels very like. like a fanfiction to me like generally and to me i feel like its like a modern au fanfic for the ship nd i listened to the song again today nd iv been thinking abt tht but the thing is i looked to see if anyone in any context has put that ship with that song before expecting to find lots of stuff but i literally found NOTHING its ubsurddd !!!

[ebonytails]

Nobody askd but like i hate the “need” to be “consistant”. Like i have DID and ADHD so my art style is going to be different oftn and i love to explore different styles. Im thinking about when i finally get my hands on a booth/table for artist alleys or at markets and . Im sorry! But my art style will NIT be consistant like MOST brand/other artists out there! And it kind of makes me sad or stressed bc what if it will make ppl not want to follow my art market journey? What if theyll find me unprofessionl just bc i dont have 1 single art style? Im silly boy! I cn only hope tht ppl wll not thnk im not professional jst bc i have 5 different styles on my booth lol

And then i would rather have one youtube channel/tiktok/account for all my ventures too. Like its knda frustrating bc you look up “artist alley” youtube videos and every channel is always Consistantly ONLY posting artist alley. Or you look up othr artists and they always Stick to one Content. Well wht if i wnt 2 post animation memes, atist alley, skits, tutorials, and video essays on ONE channel?? Art is a crazy BROAD genre, y r we also boxing artists n content creators into ONE thing just 2 pleas what. An algorithm??? Every business advice is “pick one niche!” “pick one content to do 4ever!” “if you lack consistancy, customers wont stick to u/ the algorithm will ignore you”

Art is CRAZY! art is anything u WANT it 2 be!! Im going to post animations, artist alley vlogs, and tutorials on my YT/Tiktok, im gnna post anim8ions and digital illustrations 2 tumblr + twitter, and no one can stop me!! (but i only hope that people pass by anyway ;_;)

[kentopedia]

omg i am sending an ask bcz i think we have the same standpoint on this but i was on ao3 b4 tumblr so i was honestly rly confused when i was learning tumblr culture around here & saw how long fics & series’ weren’t popular/didn’t do as well on here than ao3 😭 i even actually disliked oneshots i never reached for them up until writing on here bcz i would always b like “IT’S NOT ENOUGHH” LOL i love the art of expanding on storylines :’) def no hate to people who do bcz ofc i’ve written the same & i love a good short fic to indulge in & rest my brain, but i agree w/ you long ones r my absolute favs & i cherish the people who write them on tumblr tons…sorry if this is js rambling lmfao but THIS IS JS ENCOURAGEMENT FROM ME TO YOU RYLIE i’ll always b around to read what you put out when i can bcz i know you’re in love w/ details & crafting stories :) <3 <3 & i’m def eyeing tht au if it’s sfw !! I’D READ IT FS to hear 8.6k words makes me so excited 🙂‍↕️

OMG OKAY SAME. i've been using ao3 forever, and only came onto tumblr to read/write fics a couple years ago. but until that point i had only written multi-chap fics so... yeah 😭 a reality check, to say the least. it sucks bc there used to be a lottt more series on here when i first started a blog, and now there's ... not. which there's a lot of reasons why i think they're declining, but people not supporting writers is the main one :/

i much prefer them as well, i feel the exact same way as you!!! i loooove to get into a lengthy fic. and i understand why people tend to write one-shots more bc writing longer fics takes a lot of time, which many don't have, and this is a hobby. but, i feel like on ao3, i have never published something and been like ohh this will flop BECAUSE it's long. which is how i feel on here :(

ALSO YOU'RE SO SWEET <3 SOB :,,,) that means the world to me. hehe also you've probably seen me say it's a moulin rouge au, so more-so suggestive than explicit (it'll pretty much follow the movie). you are welcome to read it if you're comfortable <3 i'm also nervous bc ... its abt a character i have not posted about before HAHAH so it's always a little scary >< but thank you so much for the words of encouragement!! i'm very excited to read the rest of ur fyodor & dazai fic hehe, i adored the first part !! i love that it's so long <3

[borom1r]

hmmm 3, 5, 6, 11, 14, 20, 22, 26, 38, 40 for the fun questions meme <3

ooooooo ok these’ll b inchresting :3

3- 3 films you could watch for the rest of your life and not get bored of?

th lotr trilogy (duh), I Saw the TV Glow, The Last Unicorn :3

5- what made you start your blog?

THIS blog? suicide bait on my old blog :3

tumblr in general? a friend showed it to me in high school n i made one n my life was irreversibly changed lmfao

6- what’s the best and worst part of being online/a creator?

ATTENTION. double edged sword. like ok i try not to let myself care abt attention and try to be rlly careful now abt who i interact with but at the same time it rlly is validating when things Get Attention. some of my favorite fics have little to no engagement :( n like yea its not healthy to create FOR engagement (fast track 2 burnout) but its also like very disheartening to put time n effort n passion into sth only for it to fizzle out in the void

but whatever. ill make weird art forever

11- what do you consider to be romance?

THIS IS SO FUNNY 2 GET bc soooo much recently has made me reevaluate like. how I perceive this lollllll

anyways short answer: idfk man!!!!!!! close friendships n romance r incredibly cloudy in my mind cuz ive got a bad case of dogbrain!!

long answer is i just don’t quantify that stuff the way neurotypical ppl do :3 ties into th autism + nonhumanity. i also think cis ppl being attracted to me is gross lol. ideal romance for me is bein held n tended to like a noble knight tends their sword. I feel love like a dog feels abt their human!!! dogbrained!!! romance is being a guard dog, being a Really Good Boy but just soooo disconnected from like. idk allosexual/neurotypical quantifiers of “romance” for me lol

+ i don’t use th label rlly but im def somewhere on th ace spectrum lol like physical intimacy is only rlly “safe” conceptually when its completely disconnected from th realm of possibility. like thirsting over celebrities or like th knight i have a crush on. + cis ppl desiring me is rlly like.. ew 😒 don’t look @ me anymore man

14- what’s something you’ve always wanted to do but maybe been to scared to do?

UM. funnily enough im gonna do th Big Thing this summer :3 im going 2 th renaissance festival shirtless this year now tht im post op

s’gonna be scary showin off my scars but i rlly wanna go all out n celebrate finally havin top surgery. like im alive!! despite everything im alive n im happy ^_^ so cis people be damned, im gonna run around like a lil wolfguy for the first weekend!!!!!

20- favourite things about the night?

i love the moon :3

i also love how still n quiet things get

22- say 3 things about someone you love

ITS SO BRAVE!!!!!!!!! ITS LITERALLY THE FUNNIEST GUY I KNOW!!!!!!!!!!!!! IM SO PROUD OF IT FOR HOW MUCH WORK IT DOES TO BETTER OUR COMMUNITY N PROUD OF IT FOR PURSUING TRANSITION + CANT WAIT TO SHARE MORE TRANS JOY W/ IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(hiiiiiii Ly hehe!!)

26- fave colour and why?

when i was a kid my favorite colors were neon yellow n neon pink :3 they still kinda are but now i usually stick to like lime green or bright red paired w black. forest green + dark blue r gr8 too

38- fave song at the moment?

DONT ASK ME TO PICK JUST ONE???????

here r some I’ve had on loop lately: Far Away (Roadside Ghost), Anthems for a Seventeen Year Old Girl (Broken Social Scene), I’m Already Gone (Baroness), Sex for Homework (MSI)

40- any bad habits?

oh yea i have dermatillomania lol

it doesn’t rlly bother me to talk abt bc i think “gross” stuff like that deserves to be less stigmatized— my shoulders n back are COVERRRRREED in little scars + scabs

[carpedzem]

im back on my pc and i have to look on my twt-red dash again and i god. its so overwhelming. i even opened twitter to look at them side to side and somehow twt is way less busy. i think its bc of how colourful the dash is? on tht theres only blue and white + peoples icons while here its just a mess. i dont know here to look, honestly. the make a post bar is huge. pfp are also bigger than on twt. theres art on radar. on my right there are other blogs to follow, more colourful icons (twt has a trending page here) i also feel like space between every section/column is way smaller so it feels even more busy. for now tumblr is copy of twitter and not even a good one...

[wc-confessions]

the only evidence-- yes, these kinds of claims need evidence-- of marinin being racist i can find is in one tumblr post that has a screenshot of marinin being upset about getting a lot of aggressive comments for working on the cleopatra MAP. she did a map part- a 5 second animation- and got called a piece of shit by dozens of people, but i guess she's not allowed to be stressed? not to mention she is a person of color. but i doubt you knew that, because that would require you to take a second look at the situation rather than regurgitating rumors. it's just so sickening how badly people in this community seem to want to turn on each other. but i guess it's all worth it if you're making all the people of color feel very safe... by endorsing the harassment of a poc for making an animation you don't like. you're definitely making me feel very safe as a disabled person. i love knowing that characters like me should be relegated to inspo p*rn. love seeing people attack a creator for arbitrary reasons and then say "hehe see! i care so much about disabled people!". i love seeing that my opinion only matters when i'm agreeing with you and otherwise i'm just an idiot stan. i dont even follow marinin's content. it's just so stressful knowing what she's going through and how rabid the warrior cats fandom is. its scary, honestly. making art online seems like my only realistic way of making money and the thought that one tumblr post with shaky evidence could get me harassed for literal years is scary.

ok first off i need you to fucking stop making assumptions abt me bc i know of marinin just forgot all the bullshit they did. i dont knkw u and u sure as hell dont know me so the fact that in both ur shit asks youre comming up with false ideals just to show ur support to someone who has done bad over and over again is telling. secondly stop babying them just bc theyre brazilian its so wekrd u have to keep mentioing tht they are not exempt from being a shithead just bc theyre a poc lol theyre a fucking human which is evident in their actions. and you do not speak for every fucking disabled person bc i assure you disabled ppl were the ones that brought the issue w the tawny pelt map to light. and as a disabled black person fuck you literally the map was in bad taste and she responded in a terrible way its not tht hard to accept.

and if u really did some reasearch youd be aware that she was taking from native cultures, handled the issue tawnypelt map Badly, and she was literally deleting comments explaining how her actions were ableist and only responding to/liking the comments of ppl siding w her but yeah im biased and mean for acknoweding any of this. shes also literally friends w shit ppl and While searching im literally seeing her subject several minors to harassment solely for. adressing her ableist map in a chat and on their accs.and this was fucking not that long ago why arent you pissing yourself over the ppl discussing tht

and idk if you dont think a guilt trippy belittling responses to being held accountable isnt a red flag hm

the fact that you have to utilize this person being brazilian and upset about the process of facing accountability in Both asks as a way to make Me somehow brush off everything else is fucked up. no its not cool they were harassed but if u equate ppl bothered by her actions as harassment or hating poc then. that sounds more like a u issue.

literally. stop making this about a shitty animation stop minimizing the harm shes influencing. this is more than a fucking map ppl dont like this is abt someone who is obviously not fit for a huge following and you are proving that point gn

[anissapierce]

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My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

I want to david jenkins to be on a Baited ziwe type interview "ahhh so whn deciding to make blackbeard brown you diverged from the historical edward teach who was well educated and wealthy and instead made him illiterate and very poor ... Why do you think mixed indigenous ppl can't be educated?"

"was roach intended to be Black on conception of the character? Or was it raceblind casting? Why did you think it was appropriate to keep the name after casting a Black African man with a darker complection? Why do you think that Africans are vermin?"

"in the show you skirt around stede bonnets real life counterpart owning plantations, but in the show and behind the scenes its made clear that stede and his family live in barbados and "own land". Why are you trying to trap the audience to care not just abt one benefactor of the trans Atlantic chattel slave trade but two by framing his wife gaining his ill gotten wealth as a postive girl boss win. Why did you want to create slave owner propaganda? "

"the irish character named wee john in a humorous iconic twist bc he is not in fact wee,enjoys blowing shit up. Why do you think that Irish ppl are destructive by nature, and whats your stance on the IRA?"

13 notes - Posted April 6, 2022

#4

Im glad tht david fane knows tht everyone loves Fang's tits out look

13 notes - Posted April 4, 2022

#3

Every single time someone posts a pitbull puppy or otherwise some assholes is in the comments all 'whts cute abt murdering toddlers '

Like literally the way tht white ppl projecting Antiblackness onto the Dogs tht black ppl own is .... Scary as shit

Also b4 anybody hops into my inbox or my replies listen/read this

https://www.npr.org/transcripts/671354988

17 notes - Posted August 20, 2022

#2

Proactively reposting this

24 notes - Posted November 14, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Long tweet thread but this is the most idk in depth criticism of the movie? Ive seen.

40 notes - Posted June 5, 2022

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[yumenosakiacademy]

had an epiphany while on my break what if the 2 am i saw was the 2nd 2 am. like what if I'd missed the 1st 2 am when the clock went back n the 2 am I saw was the one post-time change already. but.. tht doesn't explain my tumblr post/rb timestamps? stuff i rbed at midnight (n i KNO they were rbed at midnight bc I rbed em shortly after I started my walk at 11:38) says rbed 4 hrs ago, which lines up w the faux time rn when it should say 5 hrs ago if the time went back. is it possible 4 the tumblr timestamp thingies 2 glitch up bc its going by a clock n not true time. but tht doesn't explain how I somehow got distracted 4 a whole hr n missed it? when I've been on my phone practically this whole time when minimal not-on-my-phone time? bc I was on tumblr n reading stuff? (most nights I'm only on my phone a lot during the latter portion 1 keep myself awake)

Edit: WAIT THEY SAY 5 HRS NOW. SO I RLY DID SOMEHOW FUCKING MISS 2 AM N DIDNT NOTIC3 ANYTH8NG? HOW??

[nomaishuttle]

I have just remembered readmores sry..also this post took me 2 hours 2 write sry. i rambled

ALABAMA

well i do think of sweet home alabama. ive never been idt aside maybe we mightve drove through it when we went 2 florida. however im always there for a southern state I support them when no one else does (unless its florida). so slay 4 that. i do also think of the you know what jokes which r disgusting nd i fucking hate them so bad and i hate that i cant hear the song without thinking of them. but anyways..

ALASKA

it was in the Simpsons movie so theres that. and one time on like hgtv or something i saw them building a house in alaska . actually im pretty sure the reason i specifically remember that is bc it was the day that um. girl i didnt mean for this podt to get dark so quick but i did watch it while i was at a pool party at my parents friends house and it was the time a kid. drowned. at the pool party and i was watching hgtv in the living room when i found out so. thats rly nothing to do with alaska but im pretty sure the hgtv i was watching was them building a house in alaska. it was cool looking ig

ARIZONA

hot there .. um thats all rly JFNFJFNG its hot its one of the four corners innit. i always do sporcles wirh my sibling fmously and one of the ones that traps me every single time is us states no borders minefield so i have the 4 corners fucking locked and loaded. iirc arizona is top right... if im wrong i have to restart us states no borders minefield from the beginning which. id rather kms.

ARKANSAS

i kno its pronounced are can saw (well rly i say it more like are kin saw) and i do pronounce it like that but my first thought every time i see it is Our kansas <33 so yeah. no real feelings on it i suppose... however southern states lets fucjing go number one number one. somehow i always forget where it is on the map even tho its legit Above louisiana.. but yesh anyways

CALIFORNIA

lmao. do i need 2 say anything. i suppose the worst part abt living in wa is tht im so much closer to california....

COLORADO

one of the 4 corners innit bottom left . ive just realized i got colorado and arizona mixed up its so fucking over 4 me whatever idecc. thats all rly isnt there skiing there... it may or nay not be the state where the name means something related to snow in spanish. idr.. my editors (myself on firefox) have informed me that it is not the state where the name means snowy in spanish. i suppose i dont know shit abt colorado v°v i think itnmay have been in an episode of whats new scooby doo.

CONNECTICUT

humiliating admission. during my dark quotev ages / my very first year on tumblr where i never rbed or posted Nything just lurked. well it was during my hetalia phase and there was this artist i was obsessed with who drew hetalia and they had 50 states ocs and their connecticut was like bffs with rhode island soim always like ahhh connecticut and rhode island. aside from that i do the ten i see joke with connecticut and it goes hey girl r u from connecticut bc yr the only connect i cut is there no smirk wink emoji. judt smirk and wink. my life fucking sucks. 😉 <- nvm hes the one o was thinking of. but the 50 states ocs things is humiliating bc i downloaded everry single image and Memorized them based on the facts so i in 6th grade would judt force my friends 2 read the facts to me to see how quick i could name the state. sigh...

DELAWARE

first state or whatever. idk fuck delaware its rly annoying on us states no outline minefield bc its so little. i suppose rhode island is worse since its smaller but its like Up marylands ass so it sucks. but ya idk irrelevant ass state

FLORIDA

i dont rly hate florida i just think its funny 2 hate it. ive beej twice and both times were fun aside from So fucking hot and humid like of the devil. and bugs... but ya. i like the beaches the atlantic is my good friend I DID nearly get eaten by gators not rly but kinda bc um. last time i went with my gran we went innertubing in this river that was like super red right. it was like the minerals or somrthing. so i was in the litle floatie having fun and then its time 2 get off and theres a little dock on the right side. I suddenly remember im not a good swimmer. im trying 2 doggy paddle over Failing oh god oh god everybodys yelling at me. i miss it. i keeo going. Suddenly the river is not cleared 4 ppl to be swimming in theres branches everywhere underwater etc im getting hit in the stomach my hairs grtting caught in branches i think idr i mightve been bald at the time. if i had hair it was getting tangled ok. harrowing. and then up ahead theres a fork in the river ajd i go left and atp im expecting 2 just fucking die yk. so im floating still getting hit by branches Cljnging to my floatie 4 life im like My fucking phone is with my family so how tf. am i going to let anybody know where i am if i do ever get out of this fucking river. but anyways so im flosting and MERCY i see kayakers and theyre like !? and im like crying and theyre like Omg come over here and theres a little like. concrete dock thing so i climb up on it and one of the kayakers let me borrow their phone to text my family basically. and then i found out if i had gone on the right side That leads to a big reservoir that has a ton of gators in it so i lmwouldve for sure been eatej probably. so yeah. my 2nd water related near desth experience in florida.. maybe i should stay away from there. anyways aside from that rhere were these cool springs they were so cold but it was fun ^_^ i also drove a truck 4 a little bit (just in my grans friends yard i was judt helping move it)

GEORGIA

georgia peachessss also jacob from drawfee is from there. i think theres somrthing else but idr.. iirc i lke their license plate but i wish it were pinker... georgia i associate it with a nice like dusty orangy pink... much like a peach one could say. i also love georgia accents...

HAWAII

caitlin doughty (of ask a mortician and order of the good death and death in the afternoon fame) was born in hawaii and im a huge fan of hers soooo yeah. aside from that i think hawaii should be free and death to america basically. itis very beautiful i will never go bc i think the tourism industry is of the fucking devil in hawaii.. so yes. i highly recommend looking into the cause and donating if u can.. on a deeply unserious note i also think of like..elvis and lilo and stitch. and elvis makes me think of my granny bc she loved elvis so theres that. one year 4 christmas my dad got her an elvis themed set of 3 mugs and she had this huge elvis blanket that was rly comfy we used to push the couches together in her room to make a like. boat kinda dhape and all the cousins would sleep in there it was fun. thats not rly hawaii related at all but i usually slept with the elvis blanket.

IDAHO

potatosssssss i love potsto so bad number one ever number one huge fan. aside from that i associate it with a deep sense of relief bc fucking driving thriugh montana was hell so when we finally got into idaho i was like Fuck yes lord. finally out of montana...

ILLINOIS

anither one where i know how its pronounced and i do pronounce it correctly but my first thouhht when i see it is illa noise. sry. girl are you from illinois bc yr the only ill i noise. so yeah basically. also borders ky and i get it mixed up on maps with indiana... iirc indiana is farther west. but i always wanna out illinois in ohios place and indiana in illinois place. but ohio also in ohios space. ig i judt forget its so west... i imagine them all as being sbove the big part of ky but indiana isnlike off 2 the side. over the thin part ykwin. so yeah.

INDIANA

well see above i covered most of it... also ofc Indianapolis which isnt what the race is called is it. thats judt the city. but the cars the indy 500... i know of thst..so yeah. i also love it when a states capitol is just the name of the state basicslly its so funny 2 me. like kansas city. indianapolis. there r others modt likely. love it no notes.

IOWA

iowa doeeees not border ky does it. where tf is iowa .. lrgit nothing 2 say abt it. i kinda hate that the abbreviation is IA bc i dont like it when the acronyms r 2 vowels i think its ugly. but i suppose io is also that . and also i dont like the name io 4 reasons 💀 and iw is kinda ugly looking. oh well. ig ia is the best option but im not particularly happy abt ot...

KANSAS

many associations 1. irs in the middle of rhe map i always always remember this. 2nd thing wizard of oz. yk. even tho wizard of oz pretty explicitly they Arent in kansas (anymore). but yk. and theres tornadoes and shit...the biggest association tho is im fucking genuinely terrified of it it is so insanely flst there like have you seen the highest point in kansas. its a fucking plain. and its called mt sunflower and its judt the ground rises up for like hundreds of miles 2 get to mount sunflower. fucking genuinely terrifying i feel like the fucking bird is going to get me... ive been aware of the bird SINCE BIRTH. 👇 mt sunflower btw. its cutesy but terrifies me

KENTUCKY

teehee... giggles... kicks my legs hey gorgeouss. tbh i dont actually rly and truly have any ky opinions Just fucking kidding lmao KY NUMBER ONEE bluegrass state horses.... lots of horse farms i love the beautiful appalachian mountains my good friends i love the weather i love all of it. i miss the pinnacles.... sometimes i play ky nighttime ambience on youtube and it makes me cry. so i suppose i associate ky with like. my entire life before i turned 18 LMAO. i also always think of cardinals since theyre the state bird and also cardinals r very special 2 me bc of the likee. belief that when u see a cardinal it means a loved one whos gone is there watching you. so everytime i see one i think of my granny bc shes got a little picture of a cardinal by her grave bc of that little saying. indont rly believe in ghosts or heaven but seeing cardinals does make me feel closer 2 her.. cardinals also dont exist in wa idt so. :(

LOUISIANA

well it is l shaped and next to texas... i will admit i dont know much modt of what i know is just like. new orleans and hurricane katrina... i think its cool tho yk. i also lovee lesrning abt all the creole languages bc i love linguistics. i think of princess and the frog bc tiana was my fav disney princess... b4 she existed it was belle but ive been a tiana girl since the movie came out :] so yes. im down with louisiana what is it ... it isnt la is it ? it is interesting.. far better than the other la LMAO

MAINE

i must think something abt it... oh all the shipwrecks maine has s lot of them innit. its the farthest north aside from alaska obviously. n there r alot of shipwrecks up alone the northeast coast so yes ! it is a new england state as well and im irrationally scared of new england bc its so fucking small up there its not normal. i feel new england could all be 1 state.... dgmw i think west coast states r scary as well. far too big a county in wa is like basicslly the size of all of new england. very terrifying. texas far too big its of the devil ! i think the ideal size for a state is probably aboutt 39,486 square miles of land and 921 square miles of water for a total mass of ~40408 square miles.if we must throw out numbers.but ya aside from that likee. clam chowder ig... i find the architecture in some spots quite charming... i think i have an ex mut from there i could probably say the name bc there are legit 3838473837474 transmascs with this name on tumblr. itis most likely the one yr thinking of if the one yr thinking of is also the name of a prominent character in the mechanisms 2nd studio album Ulysses dies at dawn. But i shant say it specifically jic. fine u caught me it is heracles (joke its ulysses (joke))) i wanna relisten to udad whatever.

MARYLAND

i think i mixed bits of msryland up with maine. yk why? too fucking small theyre bssically the same place we coukdve judt done one. the emoji that is suggested when i type small is 🦐 which is awesome . anyways i think marylands actually the clam chowder guys. did i ever mention clam chowder or did i get off topic. oh well. also nathan from drawfee is from maryland. sry ive been watching a lot of drawfee.

MASSACHUSETTES

i had a different ex mutual from here... umm the drivers suck. also its new england so booooo booooooo yankees...

MICHIGAN

there was this girl jn my 4th grade class who was very very red like constantly sunburnt and she had curly black hair that she always had in a braid and i fucking hated her so bad bc she was a bitch 2 me... like one time we had to do these wait no im mixing her up with fucking Gavin. ugh fucking gavin.... fuck gavin too oh my god fucking we had to do this poem abt where we lived so i wrote mine right. abt the shitty apartment complex i lived in. and then i was telling my friend abt it and we were in line and fucking Gavin went Nobody cares abt your stupid apartment... HE LIVED JN THE SAME FUCKJNG APARTMENT COMPLEX well complex is a weird word for it it was like. basically these long strips of houses and it was 12 to each sort of strip. and it would be like 212 was rhe building number youd say and the apartment would be #8.. so he lived in like. lets say i lived in 213 apartment 6. he lived in like 219 apartment 3 or something. like fuck offff he sucked. and also ppl did explicitly want to know abtnit That was the point of the fucking assignment. but anyways josie. thats the girls name btw she was from michigan.... but actually i think i stopped hating her bc i mentioned that i had made my own birthday cake and she thiught it ws rly cool and we talked abt baking so i think we were cook after that. but that was nesr the end of the year abd it was in computer lab .. so yes i like how i cant remember the period of my life from age like 11-15 but i do remember 4th grade in computer lab when she talked abt baking with me. but yeah basically. also i thinkk nichas family is from michigan so theres a good person from michigan.. come 2 think of it nicha kinda looked like josie her hair wasnt rly curly but she did have kind of red cheeks. woukdnt it be crazy if they were related.. idt so. but thatd be crazy. oh also michigan has the great lakes and is 2 parts so thats pretty cool

MINNESOTA

lol mini soda. little house on the prairie was in minnesota innit... i rly loved those books when i was a kid bc we had these like. heirloom copies from my moms granny so i rly liked them. Im sure they havent aged the best considering. theyre written by a colonist in the 1800s. but ya. wasnt minnesota also where kirsten lived... interesting. so ya theres rhat I suppose nothing else much 2 say.

MISSISSIPPI

mississippi river.. Hey girl r u from mississippi bc yr the only miss i sippy 😉 um yeah. i also always forget where this one goes but ive gotten better wirh it. i also think its quite fun to say and to write. mississippi it comes naturally 2 me.

MISSOURI

im losing steam a bit udk if u can tell but ive been writing this post 4 over an hour. I suppose the biggest thing i associate it iwth is that video of somebody zooming in on the welcome to missouri sign and then misery is playing on the radio so it goes I AM IN MIIIISSOURI! its rly funny. ya .. idk probably theres other things.

MONTANA

sucks 2 drive through in early march ill tell u that. was so bad .. iirc they had a rly rly fancy best western tho. but that akso mightve been in idaho or south dakota. Ive heard its quite nice when it isnt Hell but im never going back.. fuck montana 🖕 we were driving for fucking hiurs and hiurs bc we coukdnt find a hotek i think it was like 2am when we finally got 2 stop. and it was a whiteout so we were just driving on this unsalted like. rural ass 2 lane road behind a giant semi... bc withiut the semi we couldnt tell where the road was. bwsically it was bad. and also freezing.

NEBRASKA

i think i was lying when i said whatever state i said was in whats new scooby doo was in whats new scooby doo. i think it was nebraska the abominable snowman one that was crazy bc the abominable snowman was a robot but the gears were fucking made out of ice and shit .. and velma had a cold so she had 5000 layers. so basically yeah thats nebraska probably.

NEVADA

nevada means snow-covered/snowy in spanish. i bet youve been sitting on that since colorado. kind of funny that like the 2 things i thought of for colorado were actually abt nebraska (probably) and nevada . which r right next 2 eachither. but yeah nevada is the one that means snowy in spanish. i never took spanish classes i took french instead 💀 i wanna learn a language but im bsd with it... but i wont to one day. we will see... umm its also in californias little elbow bit yk. i get it mixed up with utah a lot. lh vegas is also here duh LMAO.

NEW HAMPSHIRE

fucking bew england idk go read my thoughts on fucking maine or maryland or fucking whatever. stupid ass region. oh but new hampshire is 69ing with vermont isnt it. yeah so theres that on a map new hampshire and vermont are 69ing.

NEW JERSEY

i went here 4 vacation once 4 like the summer solstice. to visit my godmother karyl... i think thats how its spelled its said like carol. iirc the reason my bn kamille has a k in it when it would be a c (camille) is bc my godmothers name also is spelled with a k when it would normally be a c. theres also a picture of me 4 like my 2nd ever trick or treat or maybe my first ever and karyl was there.... i was in a very cutesy butterfly costume and i think she was as well so we were matchy. YAY! shes cool i havent seen her in a rly long time tho. idk if shes still friends with my mom bc my mom lost a lot of friends bc of the whole. Thing yk we wont get jnto it

NEW MEXICO

Albuquerque is there and thats a fun thing to say and santa fe is also there. and breaking bad. santa fe reminds me of newsies which reminds me of. 💀. anyways. and like roswell and area 51 and the like.. is the grand canyon in new mexico? its also one ofthe 4 corners bottom right so its got that going 4 it. idk its probably hot here.. wait didnt so weird happen in new mexico. HOLD ON! no. wtf. i had a strong memory of it at least starting in new mexico... ig they were there for that like orbs episode. but famously they lived in a toue bus .. idk whyi thought they were like originally from new mexico. who tf is from new mexico... aside from mr breaking bad

NEW YORK

no one opens the door..... for a native new yorker. i do associate it with wendy williams which sucks bc shes a piece of shit. but also The Killer. um ya ill be real idk much abt new york outside of nyc LMAOO. julia from drawfee was born there and they all live in ny... formerly they all lived in brooklyn but now jacob and julia moved out to a smaller town outside nyc. well yeah. idk.. its new york. isnt it wheree kirsten came through when she first immigrated.. kirstens on the brain sry. im down with it 👍 my good friend miles is from there. and like all the other spiderpeople are too or whatever but my good friend miles,

NORTH CAROLINA

my friend marietta was from north carolina her initials were mmm. she ckuld be a bitch sometimes but she was cool. her and my kther friend brinn were constantly either besties or hated each other.... its sad i think they had a big argument and dont talk anymore. but i still like both of them me and brinn talk more but i miss marietta a lot... but ya. she rly loved north carolina and was homesick a lot and didnt rly like ky much. but she rly loved nc and was from like wayy uo high in the mountains. so i like nc bc she rly loved it :] i hope she was able to move back if she wanted to...

NORTH DAKOTA

shrug. whi cares. i associare it with south dakota which was rly cool when we drove through it like we kept seeing signs for the craziest shit on earth but we were budting ass 2 get to wa sk we didnt get to see any. but then on the way back my fucking sibling and my dad DID go to all those places... my archnemeses. that isnt rly relevant to nd but idk. its above south dakota v°v

OHIO

well jokingly i hate it. but its like fine. mixed bag.. ive got family up there on both sides so ive been there a couple times. and of course the huge plus is kings island which is my favorite theme park and i miss it and love it lots and lots.... :] and the cincinnati zoo is . a cool zoo but rather famously its also where ermmm. i meanni could say bc i literally started this post like I KNEW A KID WHO DROWNEDD but yk. basically its where i got child abused real bad LMAO. shoutout... so yk mixed bag like i said.

OKLAHOMA

itisss a little pot. saucepan? idk if modt.ppl call the like. little circle with long handle a saucepan or a pot.. a pot 2 me is the circles with the short handles on either side 🍲 like this. the other ones i also call them pots i also call them pans. idk what 2 call most things in a kitchen like a pan is like a pizza pan but also a frying pan/skillet and i also just call baking sheets pans. so.

OREGON

itis right below wa... i associate it with the oregon trail if im being honwst with u. nothing much 2 say portlands there which is kinda dire. um yeah whatever whi cares. hey girl r u from oregon bc yr the onle ore i gun. i kinda just say it like organ if im talking fast. or aura gin ... gin like git but with an n not gin like the spirit. 👻 boo! little joke. sry ive been writing this post 4 2 hours.

PENNSYLVANIA

one of the few ppl i truly truly hate is from pa. so. But it also gave me philly cheesesteak my good friend... its also new england so thats points away its also where the hersheys chocolate factory is i leanred that in 4th grade social studies.. surprised i was able to focus with fucking gavin being a little cunt. thats what we kn the industry call a 'callback'

RHODE ISLAND

too small.

SOUTH CAROLINA

this was the first place i ever went in vacation to... aside from like visiting family. like our entire family went my granny n papaw n my cousins... yayy it was fun we went to myrtle beach i wass 7? or 8. my baby sister was either a few months old or a year and a few months old and at one point she fell out of her stroller face first into the sand and it took us like a full minute to notice and she was NOT happy abt it LMAO but she was ok. umm this is where we got our turtle spyro :] my good friend spyro the turtle.. a fun fact abt spyro is when we first got him we thought he was a boy and then later i learned more abt how to sex a turtle and realized hes actually a girl. But we still call him a boy and ive decided hes a transgender legend...

SOUTH DAKOTA

see north dakota.

TENNESSEE

hey girl r u from tennessee bc yt the only ten i see 😉 YAYYYY. no thoughts aside from flat fuck. and borders ky to the south. i jokingly hate on it bc it borders ky tho. but rly its fine most likely

TEXAS

karena drawfee birn here. aside from that like its fucking texas. what do u want me to say its texas. unfortunately ik its where sheldon big bang theory is from so thats a major negative. aside from thst its just too big. stop all that.

UTAH

mormonism v°v also top left four corners. nothing else 2 say actually i think the grand canyon is here i may have lied earlier when i said it was wherever i said it was.

VERMONT

-50 points for new england +69 points for 69ing new hampshire. so 19 points which means nothing bc i havent given points to anything else. so ig vermonts winning since its the only one with points. retroactively 50000000000 points to ky.

VIRGINIA

virginia is funny bc it looks like ky fraternal twin. ik virginia came first but its kinda funny. ky looks better tho of course. its just fine but also its appalachian brother in arms 💪💪 sl rheres that. not as much a brother as wv is .. so yes. hey girl r u from virginia bc if yr a virgin i wanna be in ya. sry that one was actually kinda gross. i dont believe in virginity anyway

WASHINGTON

💀 no comment. well its fine i live here... ill probably like it more once i get out of the torment nexus and into my own apartment ^_^

WEST VIRGINIA

IM SO DOWN WITH WV brother in arms brother in arms lets go appalachia!!! i love the song like not even as a joke i love country roads. when we went on the dc trip we took 2 seperate busses bc there were so many 8th graders lmao but in BOTH busses when we crossed the wv border everybody was SCREAMING country roads bc it was the height of the meme. and ngl im chasing that high... yeah i like wv :] i do remember also during the dc trip that there were a bunch of brochures and one of them was just like THINGS YOU CANNOT FIND IN WV: THE OCEAN. WE ARE NOT COASTAL. YOURE THINKING OF VIRGINIA. DONT ASK US TO TELL YOU WHERE THE OCEAN IS BC IT ISNT HERE. ITS IN VIRGINIA. Which is funny

WISCONSIN

wisconsin six cheese or potentially actually four cheese i always forget. my favorite pizza from dominos aside frimt he illustrous greg if you dont know greg pay better attention 2 my posts. this is where laura ingalls wilder Of little house in the big woods was born... when i was little i wanted 2 live here bc i was quite enamored by the way she talked sbt her little cabin in the woods. so yeah.

WYOMING

sucks to end on such a lame state. nothing 2 say abt it. hey girl are you from wyoming bc yr the only why im ing. stupid. nothing 2 say. avtually rhis mightve been where that scooby doo episode was.

hope you enjoyed my factually correct opinions leave your thoughts down below. much love and ky number one go big blue go wildcats kentucky derby kentucky bourbon beautiful bluegrass state.

gonna post my thoughts on every single state. hold on...

[somescenecatholic]

vent post

tw: queerphobia, religion, depression, offing

pls help me and dw im not depressed or officidal anymore

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grace culture is being tired of constantly having to hide lgbt stuff (especially this tumblr) from your parents bc theu will lecture you abt how I should hide this stuff

their only reasoning is bc you dont see straight ppl do it

UGH I wish they would actually listen to why! I told my dad and he dismissed it and my mom, i dont remember. I love them sm and im sick of this strain. im done with constantly having to hide in fear of them

like they literally cried when i tried getting a chest binder after they said no (this was literally the most dysphoric point of my life ever and I told them tht and they were just like "well u need to love urself more").

I love being a teen but I srsly cant wait till I get out so I can actually do these things and live how I want to. I have good morals and a good heart so ill be fine.

Mom thinks I'm getting too lost in society, yet thtis same society wants me dead and in hell. Like what???? I told her abt the antimtrans kaws being all over the us and stuff and she said "well what does tht have to do with you?"

IM TRANS, SOME MY FRIENDS ARE TRANS.

Not only tht but human rights should NEVER be repealed! And then she went on and on abt how she helped this person and how she sees herself in me.

Since this is how you are treating an extremely marginalized community, I dont want you in me. I love you and dad so much but I just cant do this anymore. I'm tired of lying and hsving to sit through your speeches abt how I should keep lgbt stuff private bc they would like me to do tht and society may hate it in the future (it already does). I'm tired of lying abt how I agree with you when I completely dont. I'm tired of you saying tht "well God loves everyone" when you really arent acting like tht, actually live your life and truly show His love to everyone you meet.

My dad is the same way execept he's not Christisn (he's Muslim but he doesnt go to mosque) and he looks down on gay/trans ppl bc so much of us have bad mental health. hmm I wonder why?? Its the same thing with Black ppl and other POCs so what are you talking abt?? We're Black so we should know how the other feels! And you're a doctor so you should stop this prejudiced nonsense, please.

I want to actually be able to talk to my parents abt anything and everything and be able to be me. I wish tht I didnt just have God and my friends, but my parents too! I wish tht they actually supported me with this stuff bc all theyre doing is hurting me! They say they love me but when I asked my mom to please use she/they (this was when i was thinking tht i was a demigirl and used she/they), she said "uhh no" and ignored it. only my friends helped. When I told my mom tht I wanted a chest binder, she said "what if its too dangerous and hurts your boobs?". I did research and proved her wrong but she still said no!

srry for the long vent but im just so tired of this. Last night, my mom looked at an image I sent to my brother and friends

this one ^ and she lectured me abt the gay emo pride thing. WHY DOES SHE CARE SM?

For someone who's like "well nobody cares tht youre gay", you care quite a bit. Stop trying to convince me into liking or dating guys and stop trying to force me to not speak abt smth im passionate abt.

"well you havent rlly developed an attraction to guys"

duh obviously, bc I DONT WANNA DATE THEM! Guys are cool as heck and I'd be their best friend but not their gf!

You and dad think im doing this for attention but my entire life, I didnt care abt tht. Even when I was a toddler, I didnt care and made sure you knew! Dont you know me better? You pride me in being your first and being your daughter and you love me alot but if you truly love me, please stop doing this. I wanted to off myself and I was depressed bc of this. You're lucky tht I have a strong relationship with God bc He was the reason I didnt. He gave me wonderful friends and He comforted me through His word.

At the same time, Im afraid to even tell mom and dad this bc I know they'll be absolutely heartbroken and will cry a LOT bc of this. I dont wanna see them cry again bc when I did, I felt like it was all my fault and yeah. I have no clue what to do other than keep this a secret from them until the day I die. And after tht I dont want them to go to hell bc queerphobia goes against all God stands for.

pls help

srry for the long post but ive been holding this back forever. This has gone on for 2 years

[caruliaa]

no offence but why are all the solutions to issues caused by trauma therapy. what if i Cant do that right but still want to not be like this.

[sipsteainanxiety]

Hello, friend! Apologies for bothering you but I had a quick fanfic question and you seem like a friendly person to go to!

So, I just got into writing, but I'm a longtime reader. *However* most of the fics I've read come from AO3, not tumblr. So I'm not "knowledgeable" on how to post work on here, so to speak.

That being said, what are the appropriate tags I should make for a fic? Also, how in the fuck do I make a banner?! I've tried making one for a previous work but I just think it's the wrong size?!?

If you have any answers, I would happily appreciate it 🙏

Thank you in advance!

hello hello!!! i'm honored u decided to come ask me aww 🥺🥺 i will do my best to respond!! (keep in mind tht there rly arent any set technicalities to this, it's just what i do!!)

so of course tag the relationship first i would say. im gna use bkg as an example lmaooo so like 'bakugou x reader'. use both his first name and full name in separate tags (bkg katsuki x reader, katsuki x reader) bc you never know how people will look up certain tags. and since people spell his last name differently also tag that. i think there's a thing where ur post appears in only the first 5 tags u use??? but im not sure if thats legit. id still be wary.

i personally wouldnt tag an x reader fic as simply 'bnha' or anything bc like... the x reader niche is pretty mmm small n unique and i dont think ppl who arent into it wanna see y/n fics in the mha tag LOL but thats just me. keep it to the x reader tags or whatever fic youre writing, be it ship fic or whatevr, it's the same process.

u could also tag it as like 'bakugou imagine' or 'bakugou fluff' or smthn. and you can also create a unique tag for specifically your writing so that people can easily look it up instead of hunting for a masterlist! like you can do, idk '__ writings'. makes it easier when theyre on your blog since they can search for its content

in the case of x reader fics, i'd also use 'bkg x y/n' or 'bkg x you' bc again, never know how people will search for smthn.

and make sure you tag any TWs too! for instance, 'tw blood' or 'cw blood'. its good to use both for people who have the tags blocked!! i also find its nice to insert warnings/mentions at the top of your post! like if the reader is fem or gn, if its an AU, any TWs, if its fluff/angst/hurt, the pairing, anything you can think of that you blv readers will want to know abt! maybe add a short summary or a lil snippet.

so. banners. i personally use canva bc its free<3 my banners are 3000 x 1055 px! ive found tht it works p well. you could probably increase the height more, up to u. just fiddle around with the sizing! the lil dividers are typically 3000 x 40 px for me, but only bc i think 40 is the smallest canva can go lol

aannddd yeah! i thinkkk that's all? let me know if you have any other questions!! i'm happy to respond<3

[wooahaes]

im brand new to caratblr, so i have no way to compare a before & after, but lately i feel like smut writing has been taking over fandom in general. (which sucks for someone like me, who 99% of the time does not enjoy nsfw content & generally actively avoids it). and i feel like no matter what the actual reason numbers change, we're always gonna blame ourselves? bc i feel like that's just kind of the default for creatives. (also i hope you know i love ur writing, i have a lot of it q'd up ssksjf)

know that i'm probably gonna go through ur masterlist later (i peeked and read ur dk drabble and its SO cute omg, if i don't reblog it later today then u can beat me up behind a wendys)

i'm not really sure where i'd fall on stuff like this since i only actively joined caratblr back in march and started this blog like. soon after (i was originally just gonna make gifs lmao). but i like to think i've been here for enough time that i can comment on stuff like this (plus there's people who i think have definitely been here waaay longer who feel the same way as me).

i hope no one thinks i'm bullshitting them when i say that it's completely fine to write smut? like i said in my original post, i do it too (i don't broadcast tht sideblog here bc 1. i know i have minors following me, if someone sends an ask off-anon i'll privately reply w it and 2. i'm not gonna constantly write for it since it's just something i do for fun and to get some feedback), no shame in it as long as you're tagging properly + using a readmore. trust me, i don't traverse tags often but every time i do there's always mistagged stuff that's fully there. sometimes it's like... waaay more hard than other stuff tho and i wish people would use a readmore.

it does suck for both ppl who avoids nsfw content + minors. smut is fun to write an all, but idk i'm the kind of person who likes to write more plot-oriented stuff ig? or just domestic fluff. stuff that makes people happy.

but yeah! i fully get that. i think it's kind of in our nature to wonder what we're doing wrong even if audiences change. it's shitty and usually not a manner of thinking i fall into often, but despite like... the followers and the support i've gained over the past few months, it's hard not to notice when i stop seeing familiar names pop up in my notes. some people i think drifted from tumblr entirely (genuinely fair, have fun away from this hellsite lmao, (key voice) PLEASE save me from HERE skdfhsd) while others i think might have just changed their tastes. other people are genuinely busy.

it's just hard to not wonder and start to blame myself for stuff.

[legobatjoker]

BTW OMG basically theres an extra midnights bonus track thts exclusive to the target edition of the album to get (and i think outside the states u can get the cd on her online store but regardless its not on streaming) called hits different and like i wanted to wait at first for if/when it gets put on streaming but i cldnt and its SO GOOD ??!?!?! heres the link to it but all the yt links keep getting taken down via copyright so if it doenst work heres the link to a tumblr post with it + the two target exclusive remixes which iv only heard the sweet nothing bc i j found the yoyok one and ik i cant deal w tht rn not this late DFHGDFHD but the sweet nothing is rly so so pretty :'>

LISTENING TO HITS DIFFERENT RN AS I ANSWER THIS AND?? HOLY SHIT??

[sukunastoy]

hey, srry to be the one to rant in ur inbox but i saw u were open to anons and ur one of the few ppl ik in this fandom space thts around my age group and i was just wondering. how??

ive been on tumblr and in fandom/fanfic communities since i waz around 15, its basically my main hobby and pretty much the only social outlet i have, and ive just been so down and so lonely because ive been feeling shunned and excluded pretty much everywhere once i disclose my age and i absolutly completely understand WHY bc there r so many younger ppl in these places, but i dont know what else to do. it feels like nothing is fun anymore. the general consensus seems to b that i should just fck off and have some kids and pay bills until i die. how do u deal with it?? are u ever bothered by it? i feel likr a creep for even being here still, but it’s one of the only things i still have tht brings me joy. srry if that was a lot, i feel bad even compareing myself to u in any way because im nowhere near as talented as u are, absolutly delete this if it makes u uncomfortable whatsoever

hope u are doing well yourself 💙 ty for being u

First of all, NEVER be sorry to rant to my inbox!! And I truly feel appreciative for you to tell me all of this. This is a safe space and you're always welcome to it! My reply is a bit long, I didn't want to flood anyone with a super long post, so the rest is beneath the cut.

I completely understand how you feel, about the age thing and the ever present societal norms of "Must be an adult, must have kids, must do this, yada yada". Its depressing as fuck.

I've been into anime and manga since around 13-14 years old (apart from Pokemon which I've loved -And still do!- since the age of 5.)

I always wrote fanfics, always did fanart, even if I thought it was absolute garbage, I was still so happy just doing it. It has been something that got me through the toughest times in my life. I struggle with suicidal depression, always have for as long as I can remember, even back in my single digit days before even becoming a teenager. When I started to reach the age of "adulthood" I started to shy away from what I loved doing because I felt as an adult, I wasn't allowed to enjoy what I truly loved anymore, cause I needed to "grow up." And I did that. For a while. I rarely acknowledged anime. I sold all of my manga, my wall scrolls, my merch. I stopped drawing/writing it as much cause I needed to focus on being an adult, paying my bills, going to college, all that crap.

But, I got worse in my depression. I self harmed, had to go to therapy, had to start medication, and at one point I actually wrote that final goodbye note because I couldn't handle the norm of "being a mature adult" so I figured I must be useless otherwise. If I wasn't happy playing my adult role in society, what was the point of me even living?

During this time I went to college for 3 years, stressing, crying, working on a degree that I didn't even want because I thought it was expected of me. (I've always wanted to go to an art school and get a degree there. But my parents and everyone else in family told me, thats not a real degree. So I left it behind...) For 3 years I wasted my time and money and sanity to try to appease the people who don't pay my bills, don't put food in my mouth and certainly don't do shit for me otherwise, and I finally stopped and thought...

WHY?

WHY am I trying to impress and fit in with people who don't even really know me or provide for me?

I dropped out of the college that was stressing me out. I lost that money, but oh well, I was miserable, and my mental health is more important to me.

I don't want kids. I don't want that boring life of "just work til your dead". I don't want to have boring hobbies that I don't even like just to fit in with the people of my age range who I could care less about.

I'm turning 30 in a few months, and I regret wasting a few years of my life trying to fit into this norm of, bullshit. (And please note to whoever is reading this, if doing a lot of the 'norm' and having a family with kids and everything IS happiness for you, that is beautiful!! I am only referring to the people who don't want that life, and it should NOT be forced upon them.)

I love anime. I love drawing it, writing fics for it, interacting with other people over it, and I don't know why I ever tried to deny that.

I was afraid to return online in the fandoms because surely everyone must only be young teenagers right? Actually, not at all!

I've interacted with SO MANY people near my age range, and, it is truly amazing.

There are lots of people close in age, sometimes they're just a little difficult to find, but they are there, I promise, and they are amazing. I've enjoyed anime more in my adult life now than when I was younger tbh because I stopped caring about what others think and that my age is literally just a number. I'll be 30. So what, that doesn't change what I love. My body is getting older, that's all. I am still ME.

My fiance and I still go out and play Pokemon Go, collect Pokemon cards, like, I have BINDERS full of cards. The store we go to is ALWAYS packed with other people our age and way older who love Pokemon, Digimon, YuGiOh, and all sorts of other anime things they offer there.

These people are out there!

I started being more open with my likes and interests with strangers and coworkers, and I found out a lot of people really are into this, but felt they had to keep it hidden cause they didn't want anyone to think they were weird because of their age.

I surround myself with those who I know are supportive of me, or don't have a problem with my likes and interests and I stay away from those who try to shame me, and I kick them out of my life because I don't need that negativity in my circle. Some people my age who aren't into anime don't have a problem with me being into it at all. They've never shunned me for it. If anyone does, goodbye.

Life is short, its hard, its shitty. It doesn't need to be made worse by trying to appease those who aren't providing for you or feeling like you're not allowed to love what you love. So enjoy the things you love to enjoy. If there's something that you can latch onto that brings honest happiness into your life, cherish it.

I hope this helped in some way...even if just a tiny bit...

I know it was long, but I wanted to explain as much as I could so you don't feel like you're alone or left behind in the fandoms because of age. I tried to deny what brought me joy, and it only brought me more misery. I hated it.

I'm so much happier now, and I truly hope this type of peace comes for you soon as well.

Always feel free to drop in my inbox as anon, I would NEVER delete something like this.

Again, I hope this helped. If I didn't acknowledge something, or seemed to entirely misunderstand, I dearly apologize and please correct me if needed!!

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(❁´◡`❁)~Stay shameless!