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the tags u added r so cutteeee sapnap all curled up in the nest and happy bc it smells like his pack :,,)
When he first gets the okay to come in he's so nervy and George makes a joke about Sapnap making their nest stink so Sapnap tries to get out all sad but George literally hisses and shoves him into the nest
The hardest part of getting out of the dnf nest is convincing Dream and George that yes, he does actually need to do other things like stream and respond to emails and shower and he can't just stay in the nest like a well loved plushie all day
(Also, part of why Sapnap's nest were so messy it's because he was getting information from two completly different ways of nest making from Dream and George. George makes mostly traditional winter nests, filled with quilts and heavier blankets, while Dream does summer nests made to be comfortable in the Florida heat. He gets a proper nest making lesson when the dteam finally get together tho!)
((I mean... eventually. Dnf might like Sapnap all comfy in their nest a bit too much))
#the dog barks#dreamwastaken#georgenotfound#sapnap#omegaverse#dnn#the voices#also I completely belive that dnn scent so much that most people think their shared scent is their actual individual scent#like#people think Sapnap's scent is smores#but in actuality his scent is campfire Dream's is chocolate and George's is marshmallows#but they keep scenting all the time
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Said this to oomf but I think it deserves to be its own post because it's shedding season for my big girl; au where ice demons' hair is double coated like a dog's and so whenever mbj is in the human realm he's just constantly shedding everywhere and sqh has to clean it up every day or else his house starts to look like this
#luckily sqh can sew the excess into his clothes and pillows and it keeps other demons away bc rawr alpha scent xd#but also theres just so much all the time everywhere#and vacuums havent been invented yet#so sqh is dying#svsss#mbj#Mobei jun
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lmaoooo maffhew wanting the knot immediately and having to wait for sasha to catch up with that is so deeply funny like. this omega is not subtle and you’re not a stupid alpha babe! can only imagine what benny has to say to maffhew about it once he catches on and stops banging his head against a wall
idiots to lovers is always great but especially when its two people who would be hitched with 10 kids by now if they stopped being dumb for a single second like its that easy and yet...
to me they very much fall around the same time (infatuation at first scent if you will) just that sasha takes some time to get there not because he's dumb (okay he's a little dumb) but in the sense that its like "this person is very interested in me, i can see and recognise that but theres so much cognitive dissonance in my brain right now between knowing that intrinsically and finding that hard to believe so i unintentionally play dumb because obviously i'm reading too much into things it cant be me they're interested in haha that'd crazy but they're being awfully touchy and flirty with me wow"
but also it takes two to tango and we have to acknowledge that and this is when i would love to bring up the ways in which this man decides is the best way to go about that because he is a catholic school girlie... there's so much hilarity to be had here especially because his flirting is very uh how you say... a little ass backwards if you will especially considering dynamics
"I make it a point to keep the door closed when we're alone in a room together! That's basically a clear invitation that I'm down to fuck!!! Im basically asking to be ragdolled on his knot!!!"
and Benny just pinches the bridge of his nose like "I don't know how to explain to you in a way you'll understand that not everyone went to Catholic school."
But saying that Sasha does side-eye the door knob heavily when Maffhew goes over to close it the first time and he starts sweating like he just got dragged into a game of 7 Minutes in Heaven he did not sign up for and he's 13 again and oh god he got paired with a really cute girl, and he hasn't even had his first real kiss yet and-
And then absolutely nothing happens because Maffhew is just waiting with a polite expectant smile (because his work here is done, he did the heavy lifting know it's Sasha's turn) and this is when Sasha's dynamic classes training kicks in and he basically scolds himself for even assuming in the first place because this is clearly a show of trust (correct) not an invitation for extra circular activities (incorrect buzzer noise) and it basically becomes "This Omega really trusts me, I'm honoured especially as Pack Leader that I'm able to be so accepted into such a private space with the inherent knowledge that I will not encroach their boundaries whatsoever because consent is verbal, this is not in any way an invitation to take advantage of them this is deep platonic trust I will guard with my life :]"
and if you listen closely you can hear the lovely sounds of Maffhew bashing his head into a wall about how much of a gentleman Sasha is but also COME ONNNNNN... you know... once Maffhew realises what's happening which (looks at my watch) is not due for another few months really
Battle of wills: unstoppable force (maffhews catholic school understanding of dynamic interactions) vs immovable object (overseas alpha cotillion classes)
And if you think it's an Oh! An overseas dynamic thing! It's not. The Euros are watching the horrible car crash in front of them and doing absolutely nothing about it because it's none of their business, but they will stare at it... maybe judge it a bit but definitely are observing from the tall grass.
and I'm also not saying that luosty lundy forsy and bobby have a current running bet of how long it'll take for maffhew to break sasha in but i'm also not not saying that... luosty goaded lundy in the midst of a gossip session ("It has to be 3 months, right?) forsy happened to be around so lundy turned to him for advice ("7 months.") and maybeeee bobby overheard from all the way over from his stall and puts in his two cents for what it's worth ("6. Captain nice but not that nice. Very impatient." "So 3!" "No. Impatience makes him double the time, and wait longer. 6 months.") (lundy finally settles on a good 5 months because he's indecisive)
And Sasha does eventually pick up everything maffhew is throwing down... eventually... and when he does it becomes more so I want to court this omega the way they deserve I will take this slow and romance them sweetly :) *smash cut to maffhew caterwauling like a cat in heat*
but also once again its not like maffhew is helping sasha in any way this is idiot4idiot and benny would like to enjoy the car crash with the euros but unfortunately that's his soulmate, thats his bestie, his littermate from birth who has been weaned on the same teat as they climbed over each other to get to it, the first girl you kissed in your childhood bedroom because somehow you started play fighting on the bed because she was like i could totally pin you down easy and then she does and you always noticed how beautiful she was but shes even more gorgeous when she's pinning your wrists to your hannnah montana duvet you promised yourself youd changed out before she came over but you forget and well she teased you about it and you cant help but giggle about how perfect this all is and it seems that the natural conclusion to this is to taste the strawberry lipgloss of her lips because whats a kiss between besties huh its tacky and sticky and it tastes like summer and just other apt metaphors to put here about the inherent -isms of their relationship that i nearly cant put to words properly other than girls having fun (they are fucking)
and well anyways benny is watching and he has a lot of things to say about how its been proceeding so far
"You should really use your words."
"I am!"
"Right because smelling like a fucking perfume shop in the middle of October is using your words."
"This usually works with most Alphas okay!"
"Sasha isn't most Alphas."
"Tell me about it." Matthew grouses before he peeks over to Sam, looking up from beneath his eyelashes—the exact way he knows both endears him to Sam but also absolutely miffs him all the same, "Worked on you, didn't it?"
"Oh, is that what we're doing right now? We're calling getting a lapful of a preening O in preheat in the middle of a roadie a normal way to go about these things."
"It worked didn't it?" Matthew reiterates.
"It would work better if you use—"
"Okay! Alright!! I get it!!!" He does not.
like benny here is unfortunately an active listening participant in the going ons of the fuckery if not because hes involved by proxy because of maffhew because who else will hold his hair back as he calls him a dumb bitch you know
#ask#i dont think we nearly take enough advantage of maffhew going to a catholic prepatory school#my friend who went to catholic schooling his whole life until highschool (where we met) dropped the bombshell of the door thing on me#to which i went you have to be fucking with me that cant be real and then i was like well i guess its good we're both boys then-#and then he goes oh my mom knows im queer the rule applies to boys too#and i just nervously looked over to the door knob like well uh maybe we should open the door? i dont want your mom to be mad-#and he was like oh shes convinced we've been fucking since we met so this is allowed youre the only boy she lets do this (the door thing)#a couple of years later when he moved out i found out friends weren't allowed over if he was alone in the house but i was the only exceptio#and i felt like the equivalent of a roving tomcat who keeps wandering into the gardens and got the neighbours cat daisy pregnant#i dont think i could ever look that woman in the eye after all that#this is all to say catholic schooling does things to you man#anyways i do have to reiterate every kitty is fucking each other on a normal basis and in an abo au it gets even worse#making our whorehouse a whorehome#ive always said this but flirting with a virgo is like flirting with a brickwall#actually thatd be an insult to the brickwall because at least the brickwall would give you something to work with#the humble virgo looks you in the eyes before they crush your ego with a single word and youre like thank you mistress may i have another#i feel for maffhew i really do#theres just so many funny ways this just goes terribly wrong because both maffhew and sasha are inherently messy people#matthew and sasha on a team outing sat next to each other in a booth and matthew gets a little tipsy and starts rubbing his cheek#on sashas shoulder and sasha is just looking over to benny like please. help. and benny just snorts and blatantly ignores#him as he continues to sip on his beer and sasha just turns to ekky and silently pleads with his eyes. PLEASE. HELP.#ekky huffs and looks away very much not thrilled about being involved in any form whatsoever and hes not gonna change his mind about this#*5 minutes later* and ekky finds himself switching spots with sasha with a cuddly maffhew on his arm and he's a little disgruntled about it#but its very hard to stay upset when maffhew keeps mumbling about how nice he smells and keeps trying to scent him#all over like he has any right to lay a claim when hes been in the pack for such a short time#and yeah okay maybe he preens a little bit at the compliment like just a little#and maybe he does like being treated like a glorified scratching post but matthew doesnt need to know that (matthew knows that)#well anyways
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Fun fact: The skeleton dancers at the L.A ritual were Aether, Ifrit, Omega, Sunshine, Mist and Zephyr
#the band ghost#Aether ghoul#ifrit ghoul#omega ghoul#dewdrop ghoul#sunshine ghoul#Mist ghoul#this is in fact not a fact just a fun HC#but imagine the touring ghouls not knowing they're coming but being able to smell their scent around the venue#and especially Dew and Cumulus start to think they've lost their minds and Copia has a hard time keeping his mouth shut#because he hates seeing them like that but they all agreed to it being a surprise for a few reasons#and once it's over Dewther have the nastiest costume/body paint sex because the one dancing with Dew was obvs Aether#like that's when Dew found out it was him and almost climbed him like a tree#Ghoul Shenanigans (TM)
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thinking abt the things the writers said on that panel recently abt the will they/wont they tension keeping people watching and that youre not gonna give that up too easily. thinking about nandor + guillermo + kiss post it note. thinking about the seemingly random upswing of people involved in the show recently denying/downplaying the romantic buildup between them while also keeping everyone talking about it. many thoughts
#wwdits#nandermo#its delusional hours ladies#like ive had the thought in the back of my mind this whole time that theyre just trying to throw us off the scent#bc s5 ended on such obvious romantic tension#like the zoom on nandor’s hands tying guillermo’s robe was not accidental no matter if you read the whole ceremony as a platonic gesture#ive seen other people saying this as well#that maybe theyre just trying to trick us#and it seemed far fetched but hmm..#if they knew s6 was gonna be the last and nandermo is what makes people tune in. of course they would want to keep up the mystery#like was ’thats his boss’ tongue in cheek all along bc hes not his boss anymore in s6#this is probably giving them all too much credit. i am going to break my own heart i realise this
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Angey Dreadwing AKA, “POV you used his brother’s corpse to make your new skin suit”
Ah a traditional pencil to paper Dreadwing, and he’s FUCKING PISSED :D!
#dreadwing#tfp dreadwing#transformers#tfp#altered loyalties#maccadam#fanart#yes babes this is going in the altered loyalties tag because i put skyke through some shit y’all#in deciding to keep breaky alive i wondered who might fill an (actually- unlike canon) emotionally charged replacement#and well- i have a corpse right on hand#because altered loyalties screamer doesn’t attempt to revive skyquake even if he does use de for a healing boost#*looks at megan and his ‘i survived a spacebridge explosion and all i got was a cocaine addiction’ ass*#shadowzone is instead the return to skyquake’s deathbed (his earth comm tower) only for de hopped up screamer to find NOTHING#something something the terrocons are an ongoing threat in altered loyalties- yada yada the ‘crime’ scene has been disturbed#the first assumption is that maybe the presence of uncloaked energon brought the dead here and got their own energon all over skyquake#but why is his hand still there? why is his hand the ONLY THING LEFT!?#why is the dirt full of small little footprints#starscream doesn’t have much time to question the details for there WAS a terrocon presence nearby and the autobots are reading loud and-#clear starscream’s dark energon signature- assumably the terrocons did too as they seem to have caught the scent#shadowzone would then play out like it does in canon but be vehicon terrocons (skyquake’s previous guardian team)#but honestly i just wanted to draw a really REALLY FUCKING PISSED dreadwing because i wanted to see that#do you think that if a bot with optics like the twins (and breakdown) can get so angry that you can see their pupil just from how bright the#optics get? just enveloped in a sea of red that all leads directly to the white hot centre?#because i like to think that :)
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C I E L O . 🧍🏾♀️
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this is about bounty hunter wolfwood isn’t it 😁😁
#he chases you all over the world#he was hired to kill you#but you escaped him once and that was enough to do him in#he dreams of you#can’t get you out of his head#it’s about the cat and mouse#he’s like a dog on a scent#he gets hard the second time you evade him ://#you give him a chipper better luck next time undertaker!#and he’s thinking about how sweet you sounded before disappearing#he wonders what it would sound like for you to say his real name#and next time you ask for it#mid fight#and he grunts out wolfwood#and then bc he can’t help himself…nicholas#and the first time you say it#it knocks the wind right out of him#i mean so did the knee to his stomach he took bc he got so distracted#but then you’re gone again and he’s bruised and thinking ab how you said his name all over again#this time with ‘see you next time nicholas!’#he takes down one of your wanted posters and keeps it for himself#SORRY SORRY SORRRYYYYYY#he makes me crazy#cielo chats!#hehe hi amira hope you’re well!
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Silly Game Time: Mothman and the Jersey Devil are about to fight (because JD called Bigfoot a bitch, and--in case you weren't aware--Bigfoot is MM's boyfriend ... they've actually gotten pretty serious, it's kinda sweet). AND YOU'VE GOT $5 TO BET ON WHO'LL WIN! SO PLACE YOUR WAGER!
Ooo, this is a tough one! MM has the motivation to start and end the fight as well as humanoid arms and legs. JD however has horns and the body (and strength) of a horse. That doesn't mean that the bf BF won't make a tool for MM to use against JD to.
They both have equalish skills in flight (MM I believe would have a slight advantage on the count of having smaller and more streamlined bodymass) however JD would definitely have the advantage on the ground. JD would theoretically be a chunkier flier while MM is said to be fast and graceful, however if we're going to compare them to bats (JD) and owls (MM) then MM would essentially be a glass cannon. One kick, ramming, or bite from JD to MM's wings and MM would have to land as bird bones, even at MM's size, wouldn't be strong enough to survive a kick from a horse.
However, that's where the speed and energy usage comes into play. MM, being a creature similar to birds, would naturally have the metabolism that would allow from prolonged flight times at varying altitudes and speeds. JD (ignoring the whole demon magic thing) would have that disadvantage of having to use a lot of energy for sustained aerial combat with an opponent more faster and agile.
JD would have the best bet of getting in one good hit, but if MM also has a similar endocrine system then they would be able to produce adrenaline. Humans can lift tones of weight under the right circumstances (highly not suggested if you like your muscles attached to your bones but if you're in a situation like that then lift that car above your head like you're Travis Scott at a concert) but MM would have an even more exaggerated reaction to adrenaline.
With a creature built for flight I wouldn't doubt that MM is stronger than a human on principle alone. Also, I think I'm getting a bit to much into this and I have bias from writing Mothman so I'll go with Mothman winning 😁
#wow cant believe i wrote that on mobile#my autocorrect keeps trying to gaslight me on how words are spelt. it doesnt help that i change between uk and usa spellings#i love theoretical applied science lol. they get my brain to scratch at that itch caused by lack of stimulation#if i wasnt on mobile and about to make breakfast id totally have gone into the nitty gritty#all i do is listen to science and related videos. who the fuck listens to breakdowns of fictional beings? i do apparently#'if i had a nickel for every YT i watch that breaks down the biology of fictional/mythical creatures id have three nickels.#which isnt a lot but its weird its happened three times'#thats not even covering the irl science and disastor videos i watch 💀#dont judge its how i relax. to me its like taking a hot bath with scented candles but better because i get to learn about monsters#from media and myths that i love!#i just like learning lol
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i may not be able to open posts from my notes or messages or get more context on posts via looking at the notes, but at least i can make fucked up coffee properly now
#toy txt post#while i was away i began my journey into coffee snobbery. im doing my best. i have a lot to learn#i have a fancy hand grinder that all the ppl on reddit hemmedvand hawed andaid it would probably be somewhat#Acceptable for pour over coffee that I got for less than $100. i want you to understand the coffee grinder ppl are insane.#there are grinders for sale that cost like more than my car did brand new. these ppl are insane? i got a chemex pour over#and a glass stovetop gooseneck kettle cos i couldnt find an electric kettle that didnt have the metal touching the water. prolly cos it#would make them less energy efficient and defeat the purpose but i dont fuck w metal water vessels cos historically They Keep Betraying Me#by making my drinks taste like ass. i got some genetic fuckery going on ig. like the cilantro soap gene but its the metal makes water taste#like ass gene? idk. but i wanted a kettle that didnt have metal and i wanted that gooseneck pour so i found one on Amazon. surprisingly#hard to find? annoying. mostly bc every search engine is bad and kept showing me metal kettles anyway. i got a grinder i got a pour over i#got a kettle i got fancy beans from a local small business i started drinking it black. im going to unlock these flavors. i will get it#but also. im still a goblin. i put garlic powder in with the grounds and made garlic coffee. its interesting. it tastes like garlic. and#coffee. but actually the garlic is mostly an aftertaste?#so it feels very similar to drinking a cup of black coffee to accompany your garlic bread actually. the first time i made it i think it#underextracted the coffee tho. second time i extracted the coffee enough but i didnt like it as much? both times. fascinatingly#i did not get strong aromas! which was weird: i find both garlic and coffee have pretty strong scents already#i wouldve thought combining them would make it stronger? it was a little stronger while brewing the second time but smelled good to me#i find the flavor of it compelling enough that id like to try to refine it a bit more and see if i can make it good#ive come a long way since my first garlic coffee haha#(adding garlic salt to black coffee out of a keurig. dont reccomend this: garlic salt has too much salt and it overpowers everything.#could not get a garlic flavor without overpowering salt flavors. so it mostly tasted like seawater with a hint of coffee. garlic powder is#the way to go. anyway next i want to try it with a lighter roast. i was using medium roast#of a local brand that i would name for exposure but wont name lest it doxxes me haha#also want to try egg coffee sometimes? the vietnamese one. looks..intriguing. robusta beans scare me a little tho#anyway. if youre interested in interesting flavors i recc garlic coffee. it was intriguing. if i find a methodology i think tastes best#ill update yall#im also interested in other things. i want to experiment with spicy coffee. chili powder or cayenne#make the paprika dracula coffee haha#im also admittedly intrigued by butter coffee? as a flavor profile tho not for fad diet reasons.
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I just went on a buying spreeeee I'm so sorry bank account 😭😭😭😭😭
#lindsay speaks#i just.... it was just a FEW THINGS at first#so like I keep buying different slacks for work becs each pair keeps messing up one way or the other#and then i was like my belt is pretty torn up... i need a new one before this one snaps.... but then i accidentally broke my necklace chain#so i went ahead and got a new one... which reminded me i was wanting to accessorize my uniform more#and ended up buying like. an undershirt. a bracelet. new shoes. new shoe laces#I ALSO GOT off brand crocs because my bro's family all has w CUTE CHARMS and i feel left out i want to go matchies#when we all leave in our sweatpants & crocs to the gas station... IT'S A VIBE#anyway i also ordered a bottle so i could take my energy drinks to work in my purse LMAO which reminded me i was wanting a bottle to go#round my neck for when I'm walking/jogging SO I GOT ONE OF THOSE TOO 😭😭 and a couple of stretching/working out things too...#including pants i always forget to buy workout pants...#and i got a new bookmark because I've been reading more again recently and have been using a scrap of paper#and. a new headband for skincare/make up time... and a workout headband... and a glass for water in the bathroom... and a face brush...#Oooo AND PAJAMAS#I've never had a pj set before#:>#and um. a capybara accessory for my purse. and um. a tenma lanyard + hair tie.#and a portable charger so i don't have to be in the breakroom on my break... and a yearly planner... cause i think it will help...#and finally more lip tint......#lord forgive me i have made a purchase 🙏 many purchase in fact#you WISH you were me with my pink kitty cat fanny pack on my hip w strawberry scented dog poo bags & brown bear water bottle round my neck#<- what i look like on my walk#like damn she in ha mood
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good luck babe!galex
#they're both hitting 30 and george has married a british boy and alex is in some messy poly thing more to destress than anything#and alex is always the first to like george's instagram posts but never posts her comments after she takes the time to type them out#and george buys the candles in the scents she knows alex liked when they roomed together in college#even if she can't light them in the living room cause he doesn't like keeping open flame in the house#there's exactly 3 songs in this playlist btw but they're all bang on#jung.txt
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"maybe this one will be different!?!" I say to myself as I use a hand cream I got as a free gift even though it's a scent that can give me a migraine in about 6 minutes flat
#that cloying heavy artificial vanilla scent is the WORST bro and it was a brand I've never used before so I was like 🤷♀️#it's a higher end brand so I thought.... maybe.... it would be different. lmfao I keep washing my hands but still I suffer#and it's bed time like this shit gotta GO bro I can't deal with it it's making me insane like I won't be able to sleep 😞#godddddddddd why. why am I an idiot lol why would I try it anyway OMG#erin explains it all
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A special amenity of the inn; an Eguri shrine with charms hung for each earthly goddess, and sconces for oil or scented wax to burn. The marks of their great mother and father were painted onto the stone foundation, beneath a roof that provided shelter from the dripping spring rain.
#my art#my writing#Cohime#Odwalla Lorana#wip#The Lady's Rest#Eguri shrine#shrine#an Eguri shrine venerates the entire pantheon#they're found most often in farming communities because ritual burning of scented waxes is part of keeping track of the days#and thus the seasons#because the Eguri is also used as a calendar because *of course it is*#and of course time is all measured in increments of 8 or 10#8 months a year one for each earthly goddess#so Denit is symbolic of early spring#and Gekku is symbolic of late spring#and they are both spring goddesses associated with field repair#first planting#and swelling rivers from snow melt
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making two characters consensually [redacted] each other is so much harder than i thought it would be. holy shit
#WHAT AM I EVEN DOING#*squints at document* this is terrible#HOW do people do this. writers are just word magicians aren't they? bows and kisses all the feet. forever in awe.#AND HOW DOES THIS JUST keep getting longer it was supposed to be like 3k words max#trying to finish one thing while trying to suppress the urge to research scottish wildflowers for the other thing#like- they need to have a scent and bloom at the same time and be available roughly on the same terrain and and *overthinking the flora*#can i bet with myself on whether or not i'll finish it by tomorrow? okay bug. finish it or no treats for the next week.#and no alcohol.#...................#...............................................................#b-but it's my week home alone and... *does that little index finger touching thing*#bugs just wanna have fun#personal#i will now. shut up. way too many posts in one day.
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have decided recently that i'm just gonna use my perfume when i feel like it. i don't need a special occasion. it won't smell better staying in the bottle.
#my fave scent is an everyday perfume anyway so like there's zero reason to keep it for special events#like i wouldn't want to walk around all the time with a strong evening scent#but i love just putting some on my wrists and smelling it when i lean my head on my hands or something yk?#*s
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The reason people don’t want to work is that it’s just normal for them to be in bad work environments.
My issue with working at Walmart wasn’t the work itself I was doing. It was the circumstances around it. The concrete floor, lack of places to sit, having to put up with asshole customers, not getting time off for injuries, and bad pay.
If I had been given shock pads to stand on or a few chairs to rest on sometimes, if they paid me a livable amount of money and I was allowed to yell back at asshole customers, if they had given me any amount of training, I would happily work part time folding clothes all day and telling people where the swimsuit section is.
I’m a creative type. I’m a writer. I’m pretty smart, even. But if I could make a living folding shirts and listening to podcasts in one ear and helping people find the scented candles for 30 hours a week? I would. Leaves some mental space free for me to brainstorm. Lets me catch up on my reading with audiobooks.
But instead I was treated so badly by upper management and customers that I’m like legitimately a little frightened whenever I step into a Walmart now. And I only worked there for three months a few years ago.
I’m a good lower level worker. When I’m treated well. I like finishing tasks. I like being helpful. I like having some time to talk to coworkers and some time alone with my thoughts. I’m a frickin team player. And that’s how I was at my first job. I was treated well by my supervisor. I was trained. They were patient with me. I was so good at being low on the totem pole at that job because I was valued and felt like I was being listened to. I was able to sit still when there was nothing left to do which made it feel less bad when we were on a time crunch. I didn’t mind working hard at that job because it was fun even though I was doing all the low level stuff that the supervisors didn’t want do.
But at Walmart I was like that for all of two days. Then I figured out that nobody appreciated my work and if I worked in my normal people pleasing manner I’d kill myself because their standards were high and the rewards for meeting them were low.
So I slowed down. I started avoiding customers. I started taking a lot longer to get to my breaks and to come back from them. I became worse at my job because no matter how good I was at it there would be no reward, no appreciation, and I’d just be pushed further beyond my limits.
My only level of happiness from that job came from the people who were working with me. The old ladies and my department manager who made sure I wasn’t overextending myself. The one other young man working in the clothing department who always got sent with me to unload the heavy stuff and commiserated with me about the shoulder injuries, the hurting feet we were too young to have.
But none of that was enough to make me stay. We were constantly understaffed. I was constantly abused by customers and not able to do a thing about it. I was not paid much at all. So as soon as I had enough saved up for what I was trying to do and my last semester of college was about to start I handed in my two weeks.
I would have found a way to stay if I liked that job. If I liked that job I would’ve pushed myself to my mental limits to finish college and keep that job at the same time. Heck that job could’ve been a rest from college. A place to get away from it. But I hate that job so I got out as soon as I could.
I want to work. I want enough money to live sort of comfortably. I want to have some tasks to do to give my creativity a rest. I want to be a part of something. But the way that modern corporate run work environments are set up does not give me any of the things I actually want out of a job. And I think that’s the same for millions of people right now. A lot of people would happily spend their lives as a waitress or an Uber driver or a warehouse worker or a farmhand or any other “low skill” job you can possibly think of. But with the way the world works right now those jobs are absolutely miserable. It doesn’t have to be that way. I know because I’ve had a fulfilling part time minimum wage job that I looked forward to going to every week. A job where I was listened to and allowed to sit when I needed to. I miss that job. Especially now since I’ve realized that’s not the standard. It should be. People should look forward to going to work or at the very least not get mild ptsd whenever they set foot into a Walmart.
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