#but they are alive in my soul
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is there a love confession/ending to the loceit uni au. I would love to read it if you end up writing it. I love al your work it's amazing!!!
i am so so late to answering this but thank you smmm! writing conclusions (and coming through on my promises to continue/complete things) has always been difficult but i do have a draft of the loceit confession sitting in my drafts...so the answer is yes, and when that day comes it will come with many more apologies for the procrastination tendencies that are ingrained in my soul
#ask#that and crowns and cutlasses. you guys must understand i am so stupid and bad at things#but they are alive in my soul#i am truly sorry though i will write them!#rb
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a new star
#i been thinkin about the asteroid again#i think about the asteroid a lot more than i think is normal#like just the complete randomness of it and how everything changed in literally the blink of an eye#like the dinoss rules the fucking earth and probably still would if space had just been a little bit different#how long did it take the asteroid to reach us#at what point was the impact inevitable#like these sound like scientific answers but i need you to know these are questions that my soul wants answered in poetry#yes the math is cool but can i talk about what tragedy looks like melted into the earth#how power and pain and mourning but also change and new life and a future were embedded in a layer of iridum that spread around the planet#can we talk about how looking at the layers of the earth is the most physical type of time travel there is#can i please talk about that layer of pain#can i mourn when i see it#or am i just a weird kid crying when i look at rocks#ALSO. was parasaurolophus alive when the asteroid hit? i dont think so#but it's too late#yall get to suffer with me#dinosaurs
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are you sure?
#my art#cotl#cult of the lamb#with death comes peace au#cotl lamb#cotl narinder#cotl narilamb#i think a lot about codependecy when i think of wdcp#and i wandered what whould the ending be if lamb agreed to sacrifice themself#and narinder would not just sacrifice them and that's it#he won't lose his trusted most devoted follower oh no#so he kept them#their soul essence spirit whatever#always with him#always within him#a part of him now#his literal other half#binded to him forever#a sickly perfect ending for a painfully in love even more painfully devoted lamb to be one with their god#and a sickly perfect ending for a god forgotten for a thousand years to have the source of purest devotion and faith within himself#for a man who haven't had a single soul to talk to for a thousand years#who haven't had anyone look at him with adoration and understanding for even longer#to never ever let go of the person who made death feel alive again#im so normal#ada ramblings
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oya ✧
#om barbatos#obey me barbatos#happy birthday barbatos#hbd barbatos#obey me#sketches in between work responsibilities to stay sane#sigh!!#he probably wouldnt even approve of that#or would he#he might#my art 🪶���⬛🦴#longhair barb still is alive and well in my veins in my soul in my everything
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Elidibus informing Emet of a pivot in their plans in the most messed up way he can manage.
#ffxiv#sketch#emet selch#elidibus#zenos yae galvus#also known as Elidibus doing his habitual grilling of Emet and his attachment problems#aka my brains way of why he and elidibus never were in the same room back in StB#with the way I write emet and zenos' relationship#it would be bad enough for him to see the wrong soul in his body#and even worse that the being your coworker is piloting his your great grandson's corpse#this also just gives me the mental image of Emet having an aneurysm finding out zenos is somehow still alive after HE dies#because i am simply a strange person on the boat of despite being his “experiment”#the resonant was an outlier- and he was not originally supposed to become ascian-like#emet thinking zenos finally got his peace and is in the aetherial sea->zenos alive and getting dragged around by fandini instead
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silly stuff i drew while reading Feel No Evil by @payasita , in which the Lamb does not know how to propose, Narinder does not know how to be alive, and neither of them knows what an obligate carnivore is
bonus? lmao
#my art#cotl#i am looking into your soul with my huge autistic eyes. read this fic right now. blease#hksfdjghdfghldkfg im sorry it just fucking kills me that for the first 4ish chapters narinder is just. so nasty#like all the followers are like There He Is. The Leader's Favorite Guy. and its this filthy half-dead cat that hasnt bathed in 10+ years#like he has hardly eaten the entire time he's been mortal and he looks like absolute dogshit#and their unbeatable normally serene and gracious leadergod is hovering around his stinky ass like omg nari hiiiiii#its fucking hilarious to me. and also heartwrenching bc this fic does also get into how hard it is to be alive when uve never learned how#gonna draw the twins desperately bringing him soap later i just had so many things i wanted to draw for this
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🪵🐓 i started playing stardew valley a couple of weeks ago and shane’s eight heart event changed me forever i think
#HI HELLO I’M STILL ALIVE AND STILL AN ARTIST I PROMISE#bad mental/physical health and exam season were doing an absolute number on me these past couple of months#but i’m doing a lot better now and it’s summer break!!! so expect more frequent/consistent art from me again :D#i am so deeply hyperfixated on stardew valley at the moment!!! really happy i started playing it it has been healing my soul#this one’s for you cool shane people of tumblr#stardew valley#stardew valley fanart#stardew valley art#sdv#sdv fanart#sdv art#stardew valley shane#stardew shane#sdv shane#stardew fanart#nem art :)
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Look how far I went, for fear of losing you.
#they’re my roman empire#and hell bent isn’t just an episode it’s the breaking point the emotional explosion#It’s where everything gets flipped upside down when it comes to love sacrifice and pushing moral boundaries#It’s the Doctor at his most vulnerable and powerful like at the same time#he’s not just some space traveler anymore he’s a person torn apart by his own contradictions battling his nature his past traumas#his fight with himself with Gallifrey with a world that doesn’t get his pain – it’s a cry of despair straight from his soul#and that cry? It’s all because of her#the Doctor’s ready to go to any extreme step over all the moral lines he used to stand for#It’s about keeping her alive#It’s scary and mesmerizing at the same time#his love isn’t romantic in the normal way it’s more like a raging storm capable of anything to keep the person he loves safe from harm#It’s not a calm harbor it’s a hurricane tearing everything in its path#every move he makes every time he tries to touch her to hold her to protect Clara it’s soaked in this crazy all-consuming love#he’s almost obsessed with it like he’s ready to rewrite reality break every law possible just so she stays alive#and it’s not just about being attached it’s an addiction fueled by the pain of loss and the fear of feeling that pain again#he’s lost and found himself in that pain#doctor who#12th doctor#twelfth doctor#twelve#hell bent#new who#dwgifs#dr who#the doctor#nuwho#clara oswald#whouffaldi#dw#peter capaldi
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Do you ever think about brook thinking about being human? How that changes how his music sounds? How the skin of your fingers grow calluses from the strings, and how bone doesn’t do that? How bone against string will fundamentally sound different rather than soft flesh? Do you think Brook ever misses the way his music sounded when he was alive? Or do you think he's glad that the sound changed? That they way he used to play will always remain with his first crew and his new sound is for memories with his new crew?
Also a version in one image below :)
#one piece#one piece fanart#soul king brook#elizabeths storytime#my fanart#i also think about the fact that there isn't anyone alive left that would be able to tell the difference of the sound#well besides laboon#but thats a whole other grievance#would laboon be able to recognize his music?
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as I was finishing ntn for the first time, I found myself feeling a kind of resentment towards alecto. I had really grown to love and empathize with nona and she did not want to disappear, she wanted to stay herself. I knew it wasn't alecto's fault, obviously, and that all of this had been done to her by force, but it still felt like she was indirectly calling for nona's death. all was mostly mended when I read the last chapter because it turns out alecto's pov fucking rules, but still, like, my whole logic was flawed.
alecto didn't kill nona, she is nona. nona is alecto if she were brought into human life under, not even ideal circumstances (she very much lived in an occupied city while under semi-house arrest by an insurgent cell that periodically kidnapped her from her home), but under better circumstances where she was surrounded by people who love her. alecto is nona in such a horrific state of constant distress that she's been in one long tantrum for her entire carnal life. alecto likes to eat erasers and thinks flowers are sexy and loves going to the beach and adored noodle's little dog shoes and offered to give honesty her turpentine soaked cleaning rag. john wrapped his hands around nona's neck, stuffed her into his mouth, forced himself into her body, and made her a hideousness. and she still loved him because nona loves everyone. fucking hell.
#my girl. my world. my worldgirl. I would have eaten so many erasers with you and kept you alive forev--wait#I would have eaten so many erasers with you and let you die a real death without forcibly amputating your soul to resurrect you#tlt#marina marvels at life
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does Goldie approve of John smoking?
your Goldie drawing comic made me think of it. does John feel closer to him when he smokes because of what it's doing to his health (i.e. bringing him closer to death)? just curious about what you think
[I know you're talking about ghost baby Goldie but I thought showing grownup Goldie's opinion would be funny]
As a ghost baby, Goldie doesn't really understand what John's doing when he's smoking or that it directly deteriorates John's health. I imagine during the cancer arc that Goldie is under the belief John caught a bad illness or was getting old.
As for John, he smokes as an addict since he was a teen with pretty blatant disregard for his health. While he feels guilty about not being able to be "with" Goldie in death, John does want to live more than anything. Goldie wants that for him too, even if that just makes John feel worse.
#askjesncin#john constantine#hellblazer#goldie constantine#golden boy#jl remix#baby goldie's perspective is “I sacrificed my life for john. ofc I want my twin to survive and live a long life :)”#john (guilty that he gets to live and as a chimera twin ties goldie's soul for as long as he himself stays alive and cheats death): *sob*
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Sergeant John "Soap" MacTavish knows what sacrifice and compromise is all about, but he is still the youngest SAS soldier on Task Force 141 (SUPPORT my entire video on tiktok please)
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#soap mactavish#john soap mactavish#even soldiers like Soap have a soul but they have to forget themselves to be the best#zoom on his face: he has tears in his eyes#brave soldiers are the soldiers who have a heart#in this house we love soap mactavish and he is alive OKAY? okay#call of duty#cod#giotanner#cod mw2#soap cod#modern warfare#modern warfare ii#simon ghost riley#my art#illustration#artists on tumblr#john soap mactavish edit#cod edit
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#ahhhh yes the hobby that has wrenched my soul into entirely new shapes and lensed the world with wonder in which i strive ceaselessly#also looks like this#drarry fic#drarry fanfic#drarry#gdoc notes are really where everything comes alive
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Now that Critical Role's VOD of episode 120 is out and everyone in the fandom's had a moment to breathe, simmer, and adjust to this all. I wanna do a big talk about my favourite idiot punk rock, Ashton Greymoore.
Because over these last few episodes, I've been so proud of them.
Many people have had vocal opinions on Ashton, not all of them positive either; I've seen many berate them and say they're selfish, not a team player, or that they 'don't add anything to the group'. But over the past few episodes, I feel like Ashton has been an unsung hero in the battles with Ludinus and Predathos, with their contributions, oftentimes selfless and cooperative, ending up providing the floor for others to deliver strong and impactful actions.
While Dorian and Imogen will rightfully get the lion's share of praise for their clutch moments - Dorian's Force Cage on Ludinus saving Liliana and defeating Predathos' first stage alongside Imogen's Power Word: Stun setting up Ludinus' death and defeating Predathos' second stage - Ashton's actions were often the prelude to moments that could not have succeeded without them, including these clutch moments. Their attack on Ludinus in 117 prompted the Silvery Barbs that burned up his reaction - which allowed Dorian to successfully use Force Cage without being Counterspelled, their high-damage attack on his neck hole in 118 broke Ludinus' concentration on Ravenous Void - which somehow later got credited to Chetney - which gave Imogen the freedom and mobility to get in range for Power Word: Stun, they got the Insight check whisper on Predathogen in 119 to know that Imogen was physically inside of the body and needed to be pried out - which Imogen achieved herself thanks in part to Fearne reaching her, and recently in 120 they pulled Imogen out of Predathos' maw, abandoning the Hammer synonymous with their character (to the point that Keyleth titled them the 'Paradox Hammer') to prioritize saving their friend, which - following Dorian's healing - gave her the chance to use the Ring of Remembrance for the finishing Meteor Swarm. Not to mention all the other damage they dealt and tanked throughout the four fights, the passive d4 bonuses and advantage they gave the party (almost acting partly as a secondary paladin or a tertiary bard) to buff their damage and saving throws, and accepting the risk of disintegration when Laudna used their Hammer's spell splitter - which forced Predathos to use its final Legendary Resistance.
The Disintegrate moment itself was tense because we all know that Ashton is high among the Hells who would sacrifice themselves to save the group - a mentality most of the Hells likely shared in this fight - but fortunately they don't have to, they'll never have to, and they gained something just as if not more valuable than a heroic sacrifice: they get to live. The person who before meeting these chucklefucks believed they'd likely die face-down in a ditch in some backwater alley and thrown into an unmarked grave AT BEST gets to live, and the people that mean most to them get to live thanks to their efforts, their successes. And that's the most important part; for all the times they couldn't help or save someone because they were unconscious or out of reach, for all the times they let their imposter syndrome tell them they're just a fuckup undeserving of trust, praise, or love, and for every fear they had that one day they'd mess up and this new family of theirs will abandon them like the Nobodies did, this time they were there standing beside their people to the very end - and they helped get them out alive. No mistakes, no carelessness, and no-one left behind.
For that, I am proud of Ashton Greymoore; not Bells Hells' Weapon but their Helm, not a Blunt Instrument but a Protector, and not a Hero who needs to do 'what needs to be done' but a Friend who is saving their people no matter the odds. Under all the hardened and rugged exterior that has always been who Ashton is - the perfectly flawed character they are.
#*slams fist* SAVIOUR OF THE BROKEN THE BEATEN AND THE DAMNED!#And it's not to say that Ashton's the only one that deserves credit because they all do but I'm giving Ashton their flowers now#and yeah they're still an idiot punk rock but they keep getting to remake themselves and I'm happy for them#they still represent the philosophy associated with kintsugi - wabi-sabi: the beauty of the imperfect impermanent and incomplete#*slams fist again* you can't hide the cracks but you can embrace the repairs#they were so beaten up from these fights but nothing rings truer for Ashton than 'the body breaks but the soul refuses to die'#also by helm I mean like a helmsman not a helmet just fyi - they help steer BH; line up the enemies so the others can knock them down#I am proud of all the Hells too...mostly - Braius still needs to regain their trust - but everyone did their part to keep everyone alive#We all know that Tal has - or at least puts on - a level of detachment with their PCs in case they die but I'm so relieved they didn't#Ashley was relieved too - just pointing it out there for Fearne 'I have Silvery Barbs from Rogue to save my rock' Calloway#you two have weird mushrooms to enjoy - also like the rest of your lives together#Still wish we got a Titan combo but I'll take them all surviving over seeing it and them dying#Seeing them set up Imogen for a clutch spell twice reminds me how underrated their bond is; which pairs with their sibling bond with Laudna#There's still the matter of Vassalheim and the Gods ofc but this is not the first firing squad BH has stood before this campaign#but I do feel like the fighting needs to be over for the campaign - as in no more combat - lest it devalues Predathos as a final boss#Ludie2/Twodinus is still out there though ¬_¬ maybe he'll be a one shot returner like Delilah Trent and Uk'otoa (Uk'otoaaa)#I do hope the collapse of the core doesn't fully destroy Ruidus either - Gaz Tomo the Myceit and the Bormodo kinda live there#we also need to know what happened to Fy'ra Morrighan Deanna FRIDA Prism and Deni$e - where are they? Did they fight?#*slams fist a third time for no reason* my hand hurts now#critical role#cr spoilers#c3e120#ashton greymoore#bells hells#ludinus da'leth#imogen temult#laudna#predathos#dorian storm
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now the night is coming to an end, the sun will rise and we will try again |-/
take pride in what is sure to die.
#twenty one pilots#tøp#vessel#truce#josh dun#tyler joseph#2014 tumblr girl#2015#moodboard#stay alive#clique#i poured my soul into the dust by loving a man soon to die as if he would live forever#Spotify#nostaligiacore#pintrest#nostalgia#nostalgic
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Mr. & Mrs. Folke
#they are in love#they are everything to me#they're the only canon alive couple from the manga that is happy in their marriage#and i love them so very much#yarn folke#that old woman is everything#she's so lovely#she doesn't even talk ever. the only thing she says is “oh dear” on an extra comic whrn kaka cries after the gnome festival#she is so mom#i love her#and#tansu folke#he's a grandpa#an old soul in an old body#he's the definition of old grumpy caring man#he cares so much about his sons#i love here#this couple right here#is the best of them all#fuck romance i want whatever this bitches have#and still they love each other and are happy in their marriage#dungeon meshi#dunmeshi#delicious in dungeon#theyre married ik. and old af. and precious.#they're goals#my shit
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