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I've made quite a few posts today (at least 10, I think). But it feels like only one of them got any attention. Most of them have 0 notes, honestly. So I guess it's time for annual Insecurity/Attention Seeking post again (because I've accepted it's a bit of both, honestly): people have seen my posts, right? I think they have, but it's sometimes nice just to get that explicit confirmation.
I copied this from an old post and I'm reposting it again (this might actually be my third or fourth time posting this now, I'm not sure). I know people do see my posts, but I apparently have an insecurity or slight desire for attention that makes me always repost these things.
#reposting because it's practically a tradition for me to this when I think I've got very few notes#neurotic#insecure#neuroticism#insecurity#It seems a lot of my comic posts#are the ones that get little attention#but that probably isn't always true#I worry I seem like a jerk#whenever I make these posts#but I honestly can't help it#they're a habit#possibly a bad habit but idk#autism#asd#neurodivergent#autistic#adhd#actually autistic#audhd
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The way dreams have like, real places looking or functioning completely different than in real life yet always stay the same in the dream world makes me believe in alternative universes
#i have this one where there's an ceramics shop in the middle of a street in my hometown that has never existed to my knowledge#yet is beloved in the dreams#and there's this apartment building that in my dreams got a small mall or whatever on the bottom floor of all my dreams#which isn't true to real life at all and rarely if ever have impact on the dreams but it's always there#and an alternative fashion store/club thing that shows up where there's a bank in real life and always has been#not to mention what my work looks like#well this is rationally probably just my memory of a past dream influencing my current dream but STILL#fruktstund
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I think the portrayal of Spider-Man 2099 in Across the Spider-Verse is in-character in that aside from like Shattered Dimensions he's always been portrayed as a bit of an asshole who slips into anti-hero territory at times and generally has a "needs of the many over the needs of the few" mindset and given his specific circumstances in the movie it's not unreasonable to think he could take the actions he does. However it does kinda suck that since like 99% of moviegoers had no idea who he was before the movie came out their first impression of him is when he's in an antagonistic role and people think "antagonist" and "villain" are synonyms so now I'm gonna have to listen to people who've never read a comic saying he's a villain or isn't a real Spider-Man for the rest of time or at least until he inevitably changes his mind in the third one.
#hell you don't even need to read a comic just look up a let's play of spider-man edge of time you'll get what i mean#but yeah i saw a post that was like#''the first movie had a joke about how spider-man doesn't wear a cape and miguel has a cape they did that to show he's not spider-man''#as if he hasn't had that cape since his creation 30 fucking years ago#he's not even the only spider-man to have one. spider-man unlimited is also a thing that exists.#even the first movie had that call-back joke where they see the peter from miles's universe had a suit with a cape#these movies have a lot of little details with deeper meanings but the cape thing just isn't one of them sorry#but yeah. play edge of time or find it on youtube it's good.#shattered dimensions is also good but miguel's personality in that game is closer to peter's for some reason#so edge of time is better for getting a feel of what he's usually like#but yeah i do think spider-verse miguel was probably more straightforwardly heroic like other versions before the whole dead family thing#and i think he and the rest of the spider society are just genuinely misguided about how the whole canon event thing works#cause like george and gwen don't die in every universe peter doesn't get the symbiote in every universe#even uncle ben doesn't die in every universe#but miguel THINKS those things always happen. that's why he got the others to believe it cause he genuinely believes it himself#and i think they all take comfort in the idea that these bad things that happen to them happen for a reason#i know that's josh keaton's interpretation for why spectacular peter joined and i don't disagree with it#that's also why i disagree with people saying that miles is The Only True Spider-Man There just cause he was the first to outright reject it#look me in the fucking eye and tell me spectacular peter and insomniac peter don't understand what it means to be spider-man#or actually don't cause i'll bitch slap you into next week if you do#miguel o'hara#marvel#shut up tristan
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I remember years ago, before Absolution, when there would be debates over whether a person could return from the dead in Thedas. And, people would trot out Anders saying it's impossible as some trump card definitive proof that it is, indeed, impossible. Love that guy but he is absolutely NOT an authority on this subject.
#OOC / HOLLY.#honest to god Anders' magical education is severely limited#I can buy that he's a skilled healer but I have to wonder even how he stacks up against others in that field#I can't even say well Circle mages aren't the only ones skilled in magic and formal theory isn't everything#that IS true but Anders is limited by the superstitions and preconceptions he was raised in and has never truly#moved beyond the mindset that Circle methods are the right ones (it's the templars that're the problem) and everything else is demonic#a hedge mage would scare the pants off him lmao#anyway even then Anders never had a proper education because firstly Kinloch Hold is giant torture tower#and secondly he was always shirking his lessons; making escape attempts; sitting in solitary; and finally did escape#I am not saying a Circle education is the only option#I am saying that he overall possesses a very limited understanding of magic with no understanding of necromancy etc#compensates for this with hands on experience in healing but even then is probably a damn fine healer but not the best in the world#even if he was that still wouldn't make him an authority on this topic because he hasn't truly dedicated himself to it#it's like if you took the greatest heart surgeon in all the world that wouldn't also make them the foremost authority on theoretical physic#this is NOT an Anders hate post this is a 'it was wild to think he would be the absolute authority on this topic'
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thinking about "murder is okay" still. more than anything i think a lot of people just say shit in meta bc it sounds evocative and vaguely gestures at an actual point
#i dislike the 'some people are not smart enough to review/critique/write' posts bc they're always phrased to invoke ontological capability#only for op to scramble and make it clear thats not what they meant at all guys when they obviously get pushback.#thus establishing them as one of the people who probably isn't smart enough for this.#but like it is true that some people are probably not thinking about it hard enough to write something interesting or revealing#or representative of some sort of broader understanding of the work and its themes and intentions#and are instead letting themselves be captured by whatever pitfalls in logical or moral consistency feels the best#many such cases! we are very good at this as people#crposting
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Is it bad that I don’t want to give birth? Like, I told some of my friends and family that I don’t want to give birth and they told me that I’d change my mind and I told them I wouldn’t and they get mad at me. I told them that I’d adopt kids instead to give them a home and living family but they say that doesn’t matter and count because they won’t be biological.
That's not bad at all!! I know a lot of people that feel the same way. Hell, I feel the same way. I don't want to give birth and I'm very against having children. I've known that pretty much my whole life since I was old enough to conceptualize children and parenthood (very young as a woman growing up in America), and I was always told I'd change my mind someday.
Well, it's been about 20 years and I haven't changed my mind at all. There's absolutely nothing wrong with it. The constant societal pressure that every generation has gone through of "you have to have children otherwise your life is meaningless" has very much been challenged as of late with plenty of people realizing your life doesn't end as soon as you're old enough to have children. A lot of those people pushing that narrative shouldn't have had kids in the first place. The world would probably be a lot better off if people that didn't want kids but were pressured into it by society just hadn't given into that pressure.
There's plenty of neglected, abandoned children, and children in foster care that deserve love and support. So yeah, if you don't want to give birth, then there's nothing to feel bad about. You've made that decision and anyone that tries to tell you otherwise is only recycling the same societal pressures that probably made them have children they didn't want.
And if anyone says adopted or fostered children don't count, then kindly say fuck them and don't speak to them again. Same with people that say IVF or children born of surrogates. Just because you didn't give birth to your child no matter the reason, that doesn't make them "not your child." Hell I know there's people out there that say C-sections aren't "giving birth" because it wasn't natural.
Yeah, fuck those people and do what you want. It's your body, it's your life and they can either get over it or get out of your life 🤷
#pregnancy is horrifying some of the things that can happen#I've read through that list that person made on TikTok#the fact that no one talks about the horrors of pregnancy and birth is very telling#your life isn't any less meaningful if you choose not to have children or if you choose to have them by other means#be it adoption or fostering or IVF or surrogacy#kindly tell your family to accept you as you are#or tell them to fuck off and live your life in peace how you want to live it#they can support you or they can kindly leave you alone#that's what families are supposed to do#families that don't support their kids are the ones that shouldn't have had them in the first place#I'm sorry but it's true#they probably regret having kids so they're trying to force everyone else into it because they suffered so it's only fair you suffer to#getting preachy again dear Lord#let me calm down#anyway do what you want that's what i'm trying to say#there's nothing wrong with it#I don't ever plan on having children at all#because I hate children#they're nice from a distance but do not bring them close to me#always been like that#it's never changed#answered#queue 06
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It's soooo funny that whenever my city's on TV, it's always unflattering shit. How dare you, this place is amazing, I'd die for my city, I'd die for this neighborhood (which is admittedly the part of town with the shittiest reputation and arguably part of the reason I'm this anxious)
#shoutout to my English professor in the second year#who apparently comes from the same neighborhood and when I mentioned it during class he straight up went 'OHHH so that's why!'#'that's why you're always so nervous! it's because you're always looking over your shoulder and making aure nobody's following you!'#and let's be honest it's probably true at least in part#I mean uh... we had drug-related incidents in my grade school and one kid died in a fight during recess sooooo#ugh. fine MAYBE this neighborhood shaped me in slightly shitty ways but at least it isn't boring#plus people won't touch you if you're from here so yeah#shadiest guys hanging out near the entrance of your building#offering you help with carrying the backpack because 'it looks heavy' and 'neighbours gotta help each other'#idk man#I love this city even if it has way too much concrete and is way too hot during summer#vibes around here are impeccable#one of those days when I really love this place idk there's absolutely no reason for it
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Please BE EXCITED about stuff you like/ want to be excited about 💞 That's what life supposed to be about, finding joy in the smallest things, in the things we enjoy and love. And the people that judge us for having that joy in our hearts lose their own life, because they spend too much time judging someone else's life instead of doing something with their own. FUCK them
this is one of my favorite asks and i love you
#nobody will ever stop me from getting excited about things i like#i just always feel like i'm not allowed to share that excitement with anybody directly because of being made fun of in the past#or like i at least have to tone it down by like 99% and make it very brief#because of fear of rejection so i keep it to myself contained in my own space#sometimes i really wanna talk about my favorite things with somebody but i'm like#'nobody knows or cares about this. what if i send something and they hate it and tell me it's horrible'#(a reaction i've been the most used to. either that or just silence)#and i wouldn't know who would actually be interested or if i would be putting them in a situation#where they're not interested at all but they're too nice to say it and then i feel annoying if i keep talking about it#because now even if it isn't SAID that they hate it i still always feel like people are thinking that behind it all#so like if somebody came at me right now telling me everything i like is horrible#that itself wouldn't really bother me because i could just block and continue life without a second thought about that person specifically#because that's just unnecessary and rude regardless of what it's about and i would assume it's just somebody looking to stir things up#delete/block. not taking it personally and not worth thinking about#but it's the anxiety built up from it happening for so long and so consistently from so many people and some that i used to be close to#that now it feels to me that everybody feels that way even if i know LOGICALLY that it isn't true. the feeling is still there#it's one of the long-term effects that are so hard to get rid of once they're set#this is just another thing about myself to work on for probably my entire life#but russ has been helping me with so much lately it's unbelievable
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#poetry#Letting it stand alone#Isn't it weird how pictures of text do way better than text alone?#Yes it is weird#I think this is less true on Tumblr#but it's true everywhere#I've measured#Other weird stuff like a follow-on comment exclaiming how much they like it also helps but I hate including those#I like letting it stand alone#and then typing a million tags but that's more something I have to do sometimes#Kind of wish I could hide the tags behind a cut but hey most of them are so that's cool#this was posted in the context of voting and otherwise trying to unfuck things being ungently reamed by the political climate worldwide#which maybe was always this bad I wouldn't know#I saw a post the other day about a plug-in that would filter things on multiple (not Tumblr) websites to help cut out politics#and some were mad about it because politics are important#and others were frustrated because USA-centricism means they're innundated with stuff about Ohio and they're in Bacharach#and probably their voter registration being yanked from under their feet a week ago isn't a thing that happened if they're in Germany#we're all just microbes inhabiting forests of mold on the outside of a dessicated tangerine#and we should make the most of it and help our fellow living things do the same#so that means I think we shouldn't just remember the children#but also the cats and the beetles and the coral reefs and even#perhaps#our neighbors#whom it's hard to love sometimes but so many of them have lovable aspects#and they're each the hero of their own story and they're each unreliable narrators and it's not something we can overcome easily#hang in there neighbor#I'll put out as much of the fire as I can
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re: deh imagining one last connor project meeting before the timeskip / finale to discuss what to do regarding the almost complete fundraiser, like as fraught & reluctant as anything, jared's here to be fully in the know about anything that could be done or said, alana being less sure of whether the story is true Or worthwhile than ever but we still aren't told anything like "oh these are her definite thoughts on things" & she isn't exactly sure she wants to or needs to wring thee truth (or agreement on anything) from evan so she's not doing that either....meanwhile in a reversal of that pre wtaw introduction of alana & jared, it can be evan kinda taking the lead on most Dialogue Exchanges here, asking them whatever even tentative indirect questions about what are we gonna do here, could be already evan able to have that bit more confidence / motivation. disappear reprise, might not be as dissimilar to the dynamic we got there while forming tcp still lol but thwarting alana & jared disappearing after ywbf reprise....things would be left fairly open-ended And Yet that what we see next is [the orchard has been planted after all] so....
#deh#jared not willing to say Anything basically like rip to dialogue opportunities but feels apropos. many possibilities#but then of course the Different & Promising opportunity in turn for him to still not get fully sidelined despite this#& always much to consider like what might alana or anyone want to ask jared about all this? but prob nothing more than she would evan#so if she's not dying to get the truth from him / gave up on that anyway like probably not gonna expect or want it from jared either#whether or not she supposes he particularly knows anything about that or not#mostly a sort of Tense Unhappy talking around the idea of Just seeing the orchard through#like who knows; could be as relatively simple as like orchard owner(tm) has all the plans & logistics & it's mostly the funding#& plausibly nonzero involvement....question of how much alana would Like to be involved. question of if she wants to still do this at all#& for jared like again he might basically care to know if he's still caught up in this / it'll be a problem going forward on a Practical#basis. & then underlying All Of This is how it relates to considering all their feelings & relationships tangled up in this stuff lol#the Practical Purposes motivations vs what if this isn't True but is a genuine expression of other motivations & feelings we have going on#much to consider. plus ofc makes sense the movie didn't also just smash cut from sbss to the finale scene#& that in doing so ofc makes sense alana & jared did not Disappear then either. but not a lot of act two focus in general there fr so
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I've made quite a few posts today (at least 10, I think). But it feels like only one of them got any attention. Most of them have 0 notes, honestly. So I guess it's time for annual Insecurity/Attention Seeking post again (because I've accepted it's a bit of both, honestly): people have seen my posts, right? I think they have, but it's sometimes nice just to get that explicit confirmation.
#neurotic#insecure#neuroticism#insecurity#It seems a lot of my comic posts#are the ones that get little attention#but that probably isn't always true#I worry I seem like a jerk#whenever I make these posts#but I honestly can't help it#they're a habit#possibly a bad habit but idk#autism#asd#neurodivergent#autistic#adhd
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i think i would always be weird and trans and dissatisfied no matter what kind of body i was in
#idk i thought for a while that the only thing that would make me feel better#is if i was just born as a cis man from the start. then i would be happy and have zero problems#but tbh no that isn't true either#if i was amab from the start i wouldnt be happy with that either. i would feel some peculiar pain in my chest when i thought about lesbians#and i wouldn't want to transition halfway or be happy just wearing the clothes.#i'd want estrogen. i'd want surgery and long hair and a different face#it doesnt matter what kind of body im stuck in. i think im always going to long for some unattainable Other#tbh if i was naturally skinny i would probably hate that and be insecure about that also.#anyways. this is why i avoid thinking about it. theres no solution#unless they invent shapshifting at will sometime within my lifetime#im trans but ftm or mtf won't make a difference. the thing i got assigned at birth is Me and what i want to be is Not Me
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maybe the changes I have felt aren't evil. maybe it's okay that I don't love the things I used to. I am doing other things, old and new. change isn't the end of the world. it isn't the end of me.
#maybe I'll never watch anime on my own again. maybe I won't cosplay ever again. maybe I won't play video games anymore.#maybe I'll never watch stargate again. or hannibal. maybe I won't become obsessed with a story ever again.#but then again... probably none of those statements are true. they just might be the case right now.#I am reading again. going to the library again. I write faster than I ever have before. I am less stressed about grades than ever before#I have more of a social life than I have had in a very long time. I am cleaning more frequently than ever before. I procrastinate less#(not never... but I can't imagine I will never procrastinate ever again in my whole life. dream though lol)#I spend more time outside. I get more exercise. I just do things that sound pleasant in a way I never have before.#Idk. my life isn't perfect by any means but it isn't bad to feel sort of different and new#my life IS different and new.#idk. everything I am isn't made up of fandom. I have always existed outside of that#and I am allowed to explore that part of myself too. It doesn't mean I'm a completely unrecognizable person
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Anyone wanna know an inconsequential BTS thing I always found a bit sus and for some reason just popped back into my brain?
Yeh? ok
When they're asked who the best dancer is and they all say J-Hope, now the other 6 all agreeing on this? I'd be suprised but it's not inherently sus, the sus is J-Hope. What's your answer my guy? Even if he thinks it's himself usually they have a someone other than themself answer they'll use, you'd think even if he wanted to say himself he'd say probably Jimin, but someone else, him not doing that is so like...
when they were rookies they were told this is what their answer should be, and they've stuck with it ever since.
#bts#like you're gonna tell me none of JK Suga and RM prefer Jimin's dancing? I frankly don't think that's true#yes i'm calling them liars yes they lie about shit of course they do#bleh#but this isn't even like a proper lie#it's a#idk#this is what the answer is meant to be and it was always meant to be and we don't think about what that means anymore or if it is true or n#it's not an answer to the question#it's a programmed response yk#but even if they all do prefer j-hope which would be fair he is amazing#what's with him#what's his answer#why doesn't he answer#you can say yourself that's fine#like it's just so#there is no opinion happening#it is a programmed answer and for why#like when they were actual babies and establishing roles in the group maybe having a pre determined answer made sense#or was useful#probably could move past that#or stop asking it's fucking stupid question#like what's better dali or monet#idk my guy what are you into they're both technically incredible it's art what speaks to you#this isn't a question someone else can tell you the answer to in any meaningful way#so tl;dr#i think they were told to say that#and they just never thought about it again#probably don't even consider what their individual answer would be if they were gonna give it
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@beatingheart-bride
"I admit, I, uh...I couldn't really sleep at all today," Randall confessed with a shy smile, as he dug into his slice: Though part of that was him still getting used to the switch from diurnal to nocturnal, he was sure, his excitement over his impending wedding kept him up like a kid on Christmas Eve. More than once did he roll over and stare at the clock, hoping it would be nightfall; more than once did he eye the curtains, wishing the sun's rays would vanish, and leave the skies dark.
"All good things to those who wait," June smiled lightly, a remark that Randall couldn't help but think to himself wryly, Ma, you have no idea...!
"Mmm, good cake, Junie!" Wilhelm complimented, as he licked the frosting from his fork: June had been doing a lot of experimenting with cooking with blood (something she never thought she'd do, but nevertheless was willing to try), working out the best ratios of it to the ingredients she used, with her crowning achievement thus far being the wedding cake. At her husband's praise, June's cheeks flared pink, saying, "Thank you, Wil. Mixing it with the wet ingredients before adding it all to the dry seems to work the best-even if it does turn the batter a dark pink."
A lot of foods she'd been making as of late had turned dark pink, bordering on red when she added the necessary secret ingredient and mixed it all together: Soup stocks, rice dishes, stews, they all came out in varying different shades, very different from what they'd been before.
Ah, but she accepted that change and, for what it was worth, her cooking ventures had been paying off: She and her family were able to get what they needed to live, while still being able to enjoy the old foods they loved. It was a nice compromise they'd made, and she was happy to see it'd paid off well for her son and daughter-in-law's wedding cake.
#((either the monster dies; *or* if they were cursed; they get turned back into a human))#((and while; yeah; it means they get a happy ending...it still rings a bit hollow))#((especially if they were still loved in their monster forms!))#((and it's true; 'the shape of water' made a huge stride in both letting the monster be a romantic leading man))#((-something that probably would've caused heart attacks in the 1950s when 'black lagoon' was originally released-))#((but also letting the monster live to see the credits! and considering the gill-man is my favorite universal monster))#((and i always felt like he was the best romantic partner for the leading lady in the original film))#((FAR more than her two dipshit human suitors; i felt a little vindicated by 'shape of water'!))#((it'd be nice to see more monster movies like that: where the monster isn't punished for something out of their control))#((like you said; and get to have an actually truly happy ending!))#((and yeah; i thought we'd skip forward to the paces and graceys meeting after this!))#((i kinda feel like they'd meet fairly soon after the wedding; so they probably wouldn't have the twins yet))#((but if you've got another idea; i'm happy to hear it!))#outofhatboxes#beatingheart-bride#V:Dark Shadows
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I don't even listen to foals but my brain just went 'yannis morissette' and i think maybe two of my mutuals might find that funny
#his mouth's too small to hit the big belt notes tho#this isn't true probably i just always imagine him whispering
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