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delicatetaysversion · 1 month

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okay ventpost time im bored and my period is late

#my mother is leaving AGAIN #to stay with my father #bhai mujhe nahi rehna akele i don't want to parent my brother #i don't want to cook or stress about what to eat and clothes and laundry and literally buying vegetables every few days #well all these things are just surface level but i REALLYYYYY do not want to live alone with my thoughts #i want to study i can't just study on my phone with no adult mere sarr pe khade hoke asking ki itna tv #kyu dekh rahi hai kya hua class kyu nahi attend kari #kar liya try bhai call me immature and childish and pathetic and dependent and undisciplined whatever but mere bas ki baat nahi hai #also ooooh listen to my moms great solution: she'll stay there and dad will come!! to live with us two!! alone!! haha.#it's sk fucking sad and repetitively traumatizing ki i don't even know how to react #my sister is the only kid both my parents like when she stays home things are mostly calm and happy #they dote on her they tolerate us #and they should i love her too but now i feel like crying because i don't want her to stay back just for me??? my stupid mental health??#she's doing enough by staying here till rakhi just because i asked her begged her to not leave me alone mami ke side #she could've fucked off and gone to live her life 10 days ago #it's not fair #the person i love and want to live with.. if she stays she's miserable and her being miserable mskes me miserable #i just. i miss her so much. she already feels so distant and busy and then she'll go abroad and totally forget about me right #who doesn't need all this constant depression holding you back weighing you down when you're living your best life #i hate that there's no solution i just have to grow up and be okay with it #i already got more time with her than i thought she stayed home like 2 years extra cause of covid #3 actually #ab why am i crying it was a good day #also i don't want to make it all about me but like. idk when i was picturing my adult life i was thinking like #night clubs and gay bars and beaches at night #i never factored in real factors like the horrifying fucking country we live in 💀💀#it's just it was the only thing that kept me going the promise of a better future #but now what.#and like #it's feels so stupid now the fact that i sometimes want to like

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butchfalin · 10 months

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the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

#yeehaw #1k #5k #10k #posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours?#also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that!#unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference #edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense #also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags #1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now #he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic #2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign #like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock #3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing #it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is #extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once #it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life #i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about #Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect #if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it #aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week

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sylvies-kablooie · 8 months

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i do unironically think the best artists of our generation are posting to get 20 notes and 3 reblogs btw. that fanfic with like 45 kudos is some of the best stuff ever written. those OCs you carry around have some of the richest backstories and worldbuilding someone has ever seen. please do not think that reaching only a few people when you post means your art isn't worth celebrating.

#i often wonder about how many things would be considered classic or high art had they only received the marketing #how many short films that were made for class could have been the most powerful thing you'd ever seen? if you'd seen them?#“you know the greatest films of all time were never made” etc etc #but like. these works of art ARE being made. it's just enjoyed by a smaller audience with equal impact though #i think about this one furry i used to follow on insta who had the coolest worldbuilding ever. it's been years.#thought prompted by that sketch of nimona from ten years ago that was just for a character design #posted to the creator's tumblr and now it's nominated for best animated feature film at the oscars #and by the genuine emotional reaction a fan comic made me feel. how much work had gone into it. how beautiful it was to me.#idk what to tag this but i hope whoever needs to hear it does #writing #writer #fandom #fandom culture #artist

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perrieedwards · 1 month

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i feel like people are skimming over the uk riots in a way that makes me want to tear my hair out. muslims in the uk are in active danger. immigrants in the uk are in active danger. refugees in the uk are in active danger. people of colour in the uk are in active danger. asian communities in the uk are in active danger. black communities in the uk are in active danger.

there are massive far right riots throughout the country right now and people like fucking elon musk and nigel farage are inciting it and still have a platform to speak. people have used three young girls deaths, people's genuine grief in southport, to try and gain traction for their own racist bullshit and it's working.

a lot of refugee charities have been forced to close leaving many people without support, homes, funding, food, etc. if you aren't able to donate please consider sending a message via the conversation over borders campaign! it will send a hopeful, welcoming letter to a refugee in the uk. there is also a guide to staying safe here.

please do your own research and donate to refugee charities, anti-islamophobia charities, mosques who are trying to rebuild after being destroyed, counter protesters, here are some i've heard positive things about but the list is extensive; southport strong together (support for the southport victims and their families), southport mosque rebuilding, riot repair fund, middlesbrough vulnerable residents, nasir mosque rebuilding, hull help for refugees, bristol welcomes migrants,

#i know there's so much going on but if you can take a second to support these groups !!#i just feel kinda sick #i wanted to add with so many people seeing this that i'm white im british and im extremely privileged to not be in active danger right now #i don't want to take away from people speaking out about this who are in a place of danger #this was really only meant to be for my followers #but i'm glad more people get to see what's happening and donate !!!

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qrowpilled · 1 year

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hate when you find a character whose so infuriatingly Your Type that its embarrassing like yeahg no one is gonna be surprised when i announce this is my new Guy Of The Month

#shush jesse #EDIT from future me: this post was about astarion but im fully a galegirl (gendy neutch) now so idk what that says #he's also my type for what its worth #this post abt astarion #hes just so painfully on brand for me #i know so little about him though is the thing but i still feel insane #but i cant play the game and i dont want to watch anyone play it and i dont want spoilers #so like.....secondhand blorbo right now

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yourfavecharacterisqueer · 2 months

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hypothetical scenario for you all: the real king arthur returns. you meet him and you welcome him into your home. what is the first thing you do with him? keep in mind, this is a man from the 500s (he died in 542), and you are from the 21st century (2024).

#most chaotic answer gets a follow and reblog from me #me personally?#i would force him to watch bbc merlin and get him to read merthur fanfics #i'm so sorry for this... however #i'm just a girl #bbc merlin #merlin #bbc #bbcm #bbc's merlin #merlin bbc #king arthur #arthur pendragon #arthuriana #summoning all the arthuriana fans #regardless of what adaptation you are a fan because of #update 02/08: this has now been closed

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frankierotwinkdeath · 2 months

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Y’all want Taylor Swift to be gay so bad but you won’t even write femslash about her

#I was curious so I looked it up 1038 fics on ao3 tagged Taylor Swift and f/f #like I’m not necessarily encouraging people to go out and write rpf #but it’s wild that arguably the biggest musical artist right now who has a huge community speculating about her sexuality has so little fic #like this isn’t a good or bad thing I just think it’s interesting #idk I’m not actually a swiftie like that #like I listen to her music and keep up generally with what she’s doing but I’m not really in the fandom #so there might be something I’m missing

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lemongogo · 3 months

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mimics

#chilchuck #dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #dunmeshi #my art #i thought ab coloring it but idk if im up 4 the challenge AHAHA #AND TREASURE BUGSSS #iactually really love the .idk what u would call it. in universe ecology HELPP idk laios facts ab #the bugs laying eggs in the mimics.devouring that thing..and now u have treasure bug chests <3 SOO COOL #and doesnt chilchuck think they r cute or smt :sob:

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creed-of-cats · 3 months

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"If voting changed anything they wouldn't let people do it-" grabs your face THEY DIDN'T JUST "LET" PEOPLE DO IT, MOST PEOPLE COULDN'T VOTE FOR HUNDREDS OF YEARS. PEOPLE OF COLOR ONLY GOT THE FULL RIGHT TO VOTE 50 YEARS AGO IN THE US, THATS BARELY A GENERATION.

IF IT DIDNT MATTER AT ALL WHY WOULD THEY SPEND SO MUCH TIME GERRYMANDERING THE SHIT OUT OF EVERYWHERE?? WHY CAN'T FELONS VOTE?? WHY CANT PUERTO RICO VOTE? WHY DO THEY KEEP SWITCHING DATES AND LAWS AND TIMES AND WHATEVER THEY POSSIBLY CAN TO STOP PEOPLE FROM VOTING?? WHY DO THEY MAKE EFFORT AT ALL??

BEING DISILLUSIONED IS A REASONABLE RESPONSE. BUT PEOPLE FOUGHT AND DIED AND ARE STILL FUCKING DYING FOR THAT RIGHT, DONT SPIT IN THEIR FACE.

#god i hate seeing that fucking pop up #YES the system is fucked YES we need revolution or reform to the point of it being unrecognizable #but we dont HAVE THAT right now #but DONT COME IN AND TAKE WHAT WE DO HAVE FOR GRANTED IT WAS WRITTEN IN BLOOD #IM SO SICK OF THIS LIKE GUYS...WHY WOULD THEY MAKE THIS MUCH EFFORT...WHAT DO YOU THINK HAPPENED POST CIVIL WAR??#voting #elections

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biggest-gaudiest-patronuses · 4 months

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historical drama/sitcom where two gay best friends (woman and man) get lavender married--and proceed to spend the Fancy European Honeymoon their parents paid for acting as each other's wingman

#and hijinks ensue. obviously.#BONUS POINTS if they're gender nonconforming/questioning/trans coded #back at home they'd get dressed up then switch outfits in the taxi on the way to the gay club #now that they're married/on vacation in a new country they just wear what they want #he already has a glamorous collection of silk dressing gowns but she's the one who drags him out to buy a closet full of evening gowns #he tries to throw his suits out to make closet space and she steals them for her own wardrobe #also i think they should be a fun mixture of supportive and Cattily Judgemental about each other's dating decisions #just for funsies #like when your bestie is making a mess of their love life but you're in no position to lecture them bc youre WORSE #no wait wait wait #FINAL SEASON they both realize they're trans and move abroad permanently--where they each assume the other's legal identity!!!#SERIES FINALE: a joyful double wedding--wherein they lovingly divorce each other #and (under their switched identities) legally marry their longterm partners

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lgbtlunaverse · 5 months

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The world exists in such a baffling state of simultaneous sex-aversion and sex-hegemony. Every social platform on the internet is trying to banish sex workers to the shadow realm but I can't post a tweet without at least two bots replying P U S S Y I N B I O. People are self-censoring sex to seggs and $3× but every other ad you see is still filled with half-naked women. Rightwingers want queer people arrested for so much as existing in the same postal code as a child and are also drumming up a moral panic about how teenage boys aren't getting laid enough. I feel like I'm losing my mind.

#it's bad if you want i have sex it's also bad if you DON'T want to have sex #god forbid if you're a woman in a heterosexual marriage and aren't in the mood #that's 'withholding sex' and you're clearly abusive scum who should be divorced and left without any of your shared assets.#but if you DO have sex now you're a degenerate freak plotting for the downfall of western society #i don't know what to say i'm just so tired #politics #culture #queerphobia #lgbtqia #misogyny #<it's not the exclusive source but let's be honest sooo much of this is integral to the patriarchy #patriarchy needs access to an underclass they can treat like sex objects but they also don't want them to have any human rights #so sexuality is both obligatory and stigmatized #purity culture #i'm really struggling with tagging this because most of the appropiate tags would- in a beautiful twist of irony- get me booted off tumblr

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carlyraejepsans · 6 months

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