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I think my funniest intro to adulthood was my eighteenth Birthday where I stayed up late the night before making sugar cookies in the shape of skulls with different faces and everything, just to clip the tray I was holding them on on the corner of a wall and drop the whole tray of them as I was heading out to the bus stop.
Adulthood is disappointment to your hard work and I got that lesson day 1
#salt on the wound was the 2 other birthdays that same week before mine I made treats for bc they were my friends#but mine was the only one dropped#nothing like a good cry in the morning to celebrate becoming an adult!#vent-ish#vent#birthdayâs next month so Iâll have been an adult a year by then#hope whatever I make myself then doesnât drop on the floor#maybe nothing with icing this time
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bangtan gif challenge â
âł Â a concept that you cannot forget â LY č˝Â âTEARâ (U version)
#I bought r version so itâs only fair to appreciate this one somehow too#bangtan gif challenge#bts#btsgif#dailybts#dailybangtan#userbangtan#usermaggie#usersky#userdimple#userpat#annietrack#useremmeline#uservans#tuserandi#usermizuoka#ot7#*mine#im so so so late but i wanted to do this one since you dropped the idea maggie!#and what's better way to start a year than with them <3#my real favourite is of course the flower one from her but Iâve already made so many sets from it I needed to choose something else#entire love yourself had such an amazing concepts itâs crazy#masterpiece after masterpiece
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if this doesnât resonate with me anymore doesnât send my heart quivering anymore that is how iâd die for the first time, probably but what if that momentâs right now?
#btsedit#btsgif#dailybts#usersky#userpat#userines#userdimple#usersevn#raplineuser#uservans#annietrack#useremmeline#rjshope#nuggettracks#usermizuoka#trackofthesoul#bts#ot7#music videos#*mine#you had be there for when they surprise dropped this on all of us#it will remain not only one of my all time fave mvs but also an all time fave song of theirs#also because i resonate with it so strongly#goodness
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In order to fully understand why it was so hard for Mike to express how deeply he loves El, and why his speech at the end of season 4 was one of the biggest, most important moments for his entire character, we need to look at not just who Mike is as a person, but also everything that has happened since he met her.
Every single time he opens up his heart to her, something horrible happens to her or she's taken away from him almost immediately afterwards.
1x08; he's an awkward little ball of feelings that are way too big for a boy so young. He makes a nervous attempt at confessing and asking her out on a date; when he can't find words that she'll understand, swoops in for a kiss instead. She lights up immediately and smiles. It's a brief moment of hope and pure happiness. Maybe they can have some semblance of a normal life and be normal kids after this is all over.
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Minutes later, all hell breaks loose-- they're almost shot, El pushes herself too far until she can barely move, she's almost taken away by the Bad Men, the Demogorgon appears, and she uses the very last of her strength to sacrifice herself to save him and their friends.
He has to watch helplessly as she disappears.
He spends a year caught between believing she's dead and hoping she's still out there somewhere (but if she is alive then why won't she talk to him anymore...?). Kept silent under threat by the lab, he can't confide in anyone or even acknowledge her existence, not with anyone except those involved... but everyone else is keen on moving on and pretending it never happened. He can find some solidarity in Will, at least, who is in a similar kind of emotional turmoil... but it's not the same and it's not enough.
2x9; he is finally reunited with El, and she runs into his arms like she missed him too. She tells him that all those nights he called out to her, she heard him; she was there reciprocating his feelings the whole time.
In a burst of emotions that he's been forced to suppress for an entire year, he lashes out at the reason they've been kept apart (Hopper), screaming and sobbing. It's a massive catharsis for him, and for once an adult is understanding enough to hold him and not punish him for it.
Minutes later, she is going to go headfirst into a pit of monsters, the place where Mike had just firsthand witnessed dozens of people (if not more) get ripped to shreds only hours earlier, and she is going to attempt to close the Gate-- a feat that he knows may take every ounce of her power, just like last time. He cries. He can't lose her again. She promises he won't, and before she can seal that promise with a kiss, they're pulled apart again.
He has to watch helplessly as she drives away.
3x1; all seems to be okay now. He and El are happily together, and he feels comfortable enough to be playful, romantic, and intimate with her. It's the most emotionally open we've ever seen Mike thus far.
For reasons he can't understand (bc there's no way Hopper explained himself beyond "I'm in charge so do as I say or else"), Hopper is angry about it and threatens to never allow him to see her again: the one thing he fears most.
He panics big time and fucks it up in the process by lying to her. During a frantic attempt to apologize while also abiding by Hopper's rules, he runs into her at the mall. He panics again-- if anyone finds her here, and knows that he was here too, it's all over, and Hopper surely won't hear reason. El dumps him cold on the spot, spurred on by Max and her rebellious attitude (and without any context of course). He isn't given much opportunity to respond. He knows he's in the wrong for lying to her, so what could he even say...?
He has to watch helplessly as she drives away.
It's a hard blow, and he retreats back into himself, unable to get any joy out of playing D&D (which he clearly hasn't lost interest in), back to the deadpan sarcasm and accidentally snapping a little too harshly at anyone whom he feels would take El's place.
3x6; no one seems to understand the danger El is putting herself in. Everyone is berating him for worrying about her safety. He's seen firsthand what these monsters do to people, he's seen firsthand how El pushes her abilities too far. No one is listening.
The words "I love her and I can't lose her again" burst out in his desperation, perhaps before he's even had a chance to realize how deep those feelings run, despite whatever protective walls he's tried to build around his heart to keep it from getting broken again.
Soon after, all hell breaks loose. El is nearly killed several times over, her leg is ripped open, she pushes herself so hard that she breaks herself and loses her powers completely. Her father is taken from her. She's shattered by all of this, and there's absolutely nothing he could do or say to make it better.
She tells him that when he admitted he loves her, she heard him, and indeed she loves him, too... But now she's leaving.
He has to watch helplessly as she drives away.
4x1; they've been apart for a few months, and write letters back and forth to each other. El's letters paint a picture of an ideal new life: she and the Byers family are doing well; she's starting school and it's going well; she's made new friends, she likes her new home, everything is going well. She seems to be thriving. She sounds happy, maybe even happier than she had been living in Hawkins. Maybe Max was right, maybe she's better off being her own person without him, and maybe the respectful thing to do is step back... It's a small insecurity that creeps up subconsciously. In his replies he holds back, afraid of clinging too hard.
Though there's little logic in it, he's afraid that if he tells her he loves her again, another disaster might strike and this lovely happy life she's finally found might get taken from her. After all, that's what always seems to happen when he does.
4x2; after months of waiting, they can finally see each other again. He wears her favorite colors, picks a handful of flowers for her, and falls happily back into step with how they used to be. Soon that same day, however, reality becomes clear and the facade crumbles. People he was told were her friends show up to torment and publicly humiliate her. She had been lying. She isn't happy here, she hasn't healed, she is right at the edge of a breaking point that he doesn't see coming at all. He can't believe she would lie to him, she's not the kind of person to lie... especially not about something like bullying, something that she was always so understanding about with him.
On that logicless subconscious level, he wonders if it's all his fault-- he should have known somehow, he should have been there for her. She protected him from his bullies, he should have protected her from hers. He tries to come to her rescue. She runs away from him.
He's helpless to save her, again.
4x3; after a night to process everything that happened-- and deciding that the betrayal he feels from her lying to him is nothing compared to the turmoil she must be going through right now-- Mike approaches her in the gentlest way possible, wanting to listen and trying to understand. El, however, isn't receptive at all to his attempts at reassurance. She is at an all-time low, she's given up. She believes she is unlovable, irredeemable, a monster, just a thing that doesn't even have those superhuman abilities to compensate anymore. Mike can't believe what he's hearing-- doesn't she know that she's always been so much more than her powers? She's always been so much more than what she lacks in quote-unquote "normalcy"... None of those things matter, they have absolutely no bearing on whether she's worthy of being loved, because he loves her, completely regardless of any of these things. He always has...
El starts flinging his restrained words back at him, the products of his insecurity and trauma-induced fear. That fear takes hold yet again, and he stumbles, afraid of saying too much or not enough, because surely both could result in pushing her away-- she's retreating, hearing none of it; nothing he tries to say consoles her.
Moments later, local police come knocking. She's taken away in cuffs, and she's so broken inside that she won't even look at him when he chases the police car down the street and promises he'll get her out somehow...
Once again, he has to watch helplessly as she drives away.
4x8/4x9; after days of driving through the heat and dryness of southwest desert, having narrowly escaped being shot at with military-grade assault rifles, witnessing the death of and burying a man whose last words were that El is in danger... After watching dozens of people get mowed down by a sniper in a helicopter, and watching that same helicopter be smashed into the ground in a ball of flames...
There she is. Just as powerful and beautiful and alive as she's ever been. When he runs to her and embraces her, she looks at him like she can't believe he's real. She's beaming a smile right from her soul and it's like all the insecurity and self-doubt that have plagued them both just vanish from existence now that they're in each other's arms again.
Like always, however, the universe comes crashing down soon after. Max is marked for a gruesome death and all of Hawkins is in danger. They're miles away and helpless, and the only possible way for El to save everyone is if she goes in alone. She's stronger than ever, but so is her foe. Once again, she descends to face all the demons of hell on her own, and Mike can't do anything.
She's losing. She's choking. She's dying. He's helpless.
He must be cursed. He must be. Being with her, loving her, allowing himself to admit he loves her, it always brings only pain and suffering and loss. His heart is so full that it's aching, it's bursting out of his chest, and he can't contain it any longer.
She's going to die and it's going to be all his fault, because he fell in love, and it's cursed her.
Just before it all crumbles into utter despair, the earnest support from his oldest and dearest friend-- one who's always shared and understood his feelings of helplessness-- sparks a light of hope in him: "You're the Heart." You're not helpless. You can save her.
The words that come spilling out of Mike's mouth are truer than any he's ever dared to speak before, and it's the most terrified he's ever been, but he has enough courage for this moment. Despite all of the fears that have been building, stifling, choking him to death for years-- fears that the light of his life will inevitably disappear again, and there's nothing he can do to stop it-- despite it all, he pours out his heart to her.
He loves her. He's always loved her. He loves everything she ever was, is, and could be. He can't imagine a world without her in it. She saved him, in every way a person can be saved. And he needs her to live. He believes in her.
And it works. It's music to her ears.
#stranger things#mileven#mike x el#mike wheeler#mine#mileven fuels my soul#'you can only have 30 photos at a time in one post' alright fuck you tumblr#had to collage the first set to fit everything in lol#but ohhh godddd i am so emotional about this dude#he doesnt struggle to say it because he has doubts. its not about whether or not he has feelings for her.#it is 100000% his own personal struggle with himself and his traumas#grabbing screenshots for that last scene though. GOD i was in tears AGAIN#SOMEBODY give Finn every goddamn award under the sun for that performance#the way his VOICE BREAKS!! he sounds so SCARED and VULNERABLE but also so COMPLETELY EARNEST#'i don't know how to live without you' in particular#i will never get over this ever in my whole life tbh#it was so beautiful#also i need there to be more discussion about the parallels between mike's and hopper's internal struggles#because it is almost exactly the same.#the black hole analogy... 'they didnt need me. i needed them. i'm not cursed I am the curse'#like... biggest of ouches#okie dokie ive spat my bars and dropped the mic now its time for B E D#edit days later: i very much regret not brightening the images. goddamn its dark af here
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Marlene Dietrich as Tanya TOUCH OF EVIL (1958) | dir. Orson Welles
#marlene dietrich#touch of evil#userladiesofcinema#old hollywood#classicfilmsource#cinemaspast#classicfilmblr#moviegifs#classicfilmloves#femaledaily#mygifs#the one and only#THE ICON#one of her last role and a personal favorite of mine#57 and drop dead gorgeous
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PLEASE STOP COPYING FICS âźď¸
I am by no means gatekeeping concepts or tropes. We all know that itâs normal to see the same tropes or AUs be used differently, and that is not plagiarism. However, I recently found a fic that was oddly similar to my old (and discontinued) Gojo x Reader series, Reckless. The CEO! Gojo is nothing new, and neither is an accidental pregnancy trope. The only reason I am concerned is because this Gojo series I found has the exact same themes as Reckless that consists of: a playboy CEO Gojo with a very notorious reputation, a poor reader who is an employee and asset to the company (someone who works closely with Gojo), reader getting knocked up from a one night stand with Gojo, reader with a seemingly dead/absent mother yet still in contact with her father, Gojo with a very traditional family who does not like reader, and Gojo with an ex he struggles to let go of - which are all elements of Reckless.
The first chapter of that Gojo fic is also eerily similar to my first chapter with the same flow of: YN finding out sheâs pregnant and her friend being there for her, Gojo saying heâll take responsibility because âthey both made the babyâ, YN having to move in with Gojo to take care of the baby, and both of them coming to a mutual agreement that their ârelationshipâ will be purely for the babyâs benefit. The flow of events and specific details about the charactersâ backgrounds are too similar to mine.
Again, I am not gatekeeping concepts, just as how Iâve had other writers ask me if they could write their own stories or takes based off of the NAOYAâS TROPHY WIFE COLLECTION or the BONTEN HUSBANDS EXCLUSIVE, and Iâm fine with that. Iâm even happy people are inspired by what I write. But being inspired is completely different from taking someoneâs story and posting it as yours. Please trust your own creativity and skills in writing. You can write amazing stories and have people love them without having to steal from others.
Itâs sad to say this is not the first time I, and other writers, have been plagiarized. Itâs even more upsetting to know that a friend of mine who has also written a Gojo series (that Iâm sure you all know and dearly love) experiences the same issues with the same person. The fact that this is happening to many writers out there is disheartening. We work hard and pour a lot of love in the stories we create. None of us are getting paid for this, and we simply want to share our passions with others. So please, let us be kinder with one another and show love and support the right way. If you love a fic, you give feedback and rb/comment + show support to the writer. You donât steal their ideas and play it off as your own because you liked it.
#for context: my Reckless series was posted around 2021 and this new Gojo series I found was posted in 2023 (when I was already in my hiatus)#iâm just... this is so upsetting. i have been in love with jjk for so long but i wonât lie and say the fandom hasnât given me problems :(#there always seems to be drama or issue going around... why canât we just all enjoy reading x reader fics in peace#if its not hate anons or discourse itâs plagiarism. itâs tiring#this is one of the reasons why i moved fandoms after my jjk works. because i used to love it sm but i just felt stressed out#and imagine my shock when i saw my friend got plagiarized bcos no way you guys are doing this to someone who worked hard on a fic for YEARS#imagine my double shock when i see that writerâs page and see a similar work to mine too like đ câmon guys. you guys have big brains.#you can write something juicy and awesome without ripping it off from others#and please do not send hate to this creator at all! that is not the intention of this post. i will also not be dropping any names.#now iâm aware i take inspos from other media too - i say it often that my fics take inspo from k-dramas or songs#but i take inspirations only. i do not copy the entire thing and then tweak one minor detail to make it âa little differentâ
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Where in Beyond Canon is Arquisprite?
Took inspiration from the above post by @pastabaguette and decided to expand upon it due to The Plot Point update as well as some stuff seen even before Vriskaâs arc started in The Point.
Let's examine some stuff that may tell us where Arquiusprite is at this time, seeing as we seemingly have only one chapter in The Point left. I think we've got a lead on his whereabouts already.
We've got horses and horse-adjacent creatures.
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We've got a robot that looks like it's literally ripped from Equius' hive with a notable missing horn hole and a dent in the head.
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There's also this twitter response from James Roach which could be interpreted as suggesting Equius' return in some way at some point in the future.
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OP, I'm not saying you're right, but I am saying that if Dirk were to consult anyone on horses, it would probably be a mashup of his AI & Equius. Also Void player behavior apparently! Also Dirk has narrative reality warpy powers & we aren't sure as to the limits of those yet!
Below are some reddit notes about classpects that also lead credence to the idea that Arquisrpite is on Deltritus with Dirk at this time. Outside of the obvious fact that we haven't seen him in The Plot Point or the bonus comics with Jasprosesprite at all as of the Davepetasprite^2 feather chapter release.
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Are the robots in case Terezi goes ultimate? Are they backup bodies for Rosebot? A metal body for Arquisprite? Who knows, maybe all three! đ¤ˇââď¸ Robots are being made by someone though (for some purpose) and they have troll horn slots on their craniums. The exact style robot that Equius used to make back on Alternia; so, make of that what you will!
Also maybe they just need a sprite to kick off whatever makeshift sburb/sgrub copycat they're trying to get running and seeing as Arquiusprite is a splinter of Dirk, it's fitting that he would accompany him. Plus the sprites can kind of just seem to be wherever & whenever the story needs them to be? Seeing as how Jasprose kidnapped Jane in the meat timeline, but in the candy timeline the sprites just kind of seemed to not do much or be absent entirely after a certain point.
There's at least a guaranteed non-zero chance Arquiusprite is on Deltritus.
#linked two versions of the post for preservation purposes as a just in case kind of thing#I'm basically copy pasting what I put under the original post since I know people aren't necessarily going to see it if it's only over ther#as for if arquius gets a robot body like Aradia did is yet to be seen and could honestly go either way; maybe he's just helping make robots#maybe he's helping do game prep in whatever cracked version of sburb Dirk and Rose are trying to force into existence on deltritus#would be pretty ironic if we end up with an arquiusbot situation given part of him was the reason aradiabot existed and was a whole thing#I'm calling it though Equius and lil hal are going to be hanging out with Ult Dirk in his man cave or whatever or making robots for him#it just feels like all the pieces are lining up for this one; unless he randomly shows up in the 8ball upd8 at some point lol#also very weird how he hasn't even been name dropped or mentioned yet which makes it seem like he's being saved for something#I went all in on this one pretty early into the plot point arc as soon as I didn't see him with the other sprites I was like hmmm đ#something is definitely off about this because even fefetasprite was there but she was thought no longer to exist yet no arquius#mine#op#homestuck theory#homestuck beyond canon#hsbc#homestuck#arquiusprite#dirk strider#equius zahhak#lil hal#homestuck spoilers#homestuck upd8#upd8 spoilers#flashing images#flashing colors
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Okay but TSP/Portal crossover AU is such a cool concept, how have I never thought about that before?? I'd like to request Narra and GLaD hanging out watching their respective little guys go through tests like 'can you believe them they're so dumb <3'
Day 30 - They're absolute hellions
Bonus:
Noooo, my bucket!!
#My art#Requestober#Portal#The Stanley Parable#TSP#GLaDOS#The Narrator#Stanley#Chell#They're just all so antagonist towards others lol#I think Stanley is a terrible influence paired with just about anyone but honestly I think Chell would adopt him haha#She is also a chaos gremlin and enjoys taunting and flouting the ''rules'' - deservedly lol#It's hard to imagine GLaDOS or the Narrator just accepting that they've been dropped into a crossover haha#They're both so fixated on their respective protagonist that someone else is just strange! Odd!! Unwanted!!#And at least GLaD and Chell are at the homefield advantage - the boys are in a whole new environment!#The Narrator would freak the heck out lol - but if they got past the initial without everything combusting-#Well actually I can imagine GLaDOS getting fed up with Narra hogging the PA just to say what Stanley is/should be doing lol#''He is clearly ignoring you why do you bother'' ''It's my job! My duty!'' *explosion* Pfft#I do like the idea of GLaDOS referring to other people's test subjects by other lesser names#Something along the lines of I'm the only one who gets to call mine a test subject because I'm doing Real science haha#All these dynamics! How the two protags would react to each other and their respective voices reaction to each other and each's inverse#Too many to think about right now lol gimme a sleep or two on it haha#Although Portal/TSP crossovers have been around since they both existed concurrently ⪠Still they're fun to think about!#It is fun to imagine Stanley following behind Chell through the portals until he gets distracted#It becomes a bucket quest real fast lol - They poke around Rattman's bunker and Chell gets sad and Stanley ''helps'' with a distraction#Trimming GLaDOS down and doing a halfbody for Narra and then chibis for the rest - it's all about the right math right? Right lol#Only one more! Ahh!
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GREG HSU as Wu Ming-Han
Marry My Dead Body (2022)
#mmdbedit#greghsuedit#marry my dead body#netflixedit#greg hsu#filmedit#dont talk about the colouring this isnt about that.......#i could only find a 720p dl in the mad max hellscape of torrents#ill maybe update if i find a better one but#new boywife just dropped#this movie was NOT the korean gay ghost romcom i expected#but infact a ''straight man overcomes his homophobia after learning to love his ghost husband''-com#i'm kinda bummed but i still cried at the end lmaoooooo#and he gets naked enough to make me forgive#its so fkn fat n for what...#hes so bbygirl.... mine#mygifs#boys#bum
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@lilybug-02 get sprited nerd (the wings are meant to be transparent but I guess that didnt come across on the export... Damn) Gonna go sleep now cos it's late
#whats ur otp mine is me and drawing lilybug fanart when i should be asleep#might do more sprites idk#i just felt like doing these ones lmao#honestly wasnt sure what to do for the attack animation but the finger gun felt easy and silly so i went with it#i imagine it would only really be used as a special attack in the boss fight#as opposed to the regular attack would would probably be the idle animation#probably a more magical attack in there as well#plus one where fairy bread just fucking charges across the battle box dropping down stars beneath them or something
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Architects of our Demise | Chapter 14
[ Age of Arcanum AU | Perc'ahlia | M | Updates every ~2 weeks ]
[Vax is the Warden of Ravens, Vex is his Champion, Percival is the creator of aeormatons, and FCG is vibing]
[ Chapter 14: Spending a month in Vasselheim? Time for a research and friendship montage! Please feel free to pair with music of your choice.]
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âExcellent. Letâs go again,â he says.
They go again.
And again, another day.
And again, the next week.
And again, and again, and again, and quite suddenly Percival finds the grit and the blood, and Grog and Pike, and the routine of research and all of Vasselheim to be familiar.
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First, Percival and Vexâahlia must tackle the considerable gaps in their understanding. Which starts with an overdue history lesson from the Champion of Ravens.
âWe werenât very familiar with the ritual.â She pokes Trinket on the nose to get him off the mattress currently on the floor. âI think I only saw the insides of the book⌠once or twice? All written in heavy code of course.â
âAh,â says Percival. âDid you steal a spellbook, then?â On an unspoken one, two, three they heave the mattress onto the bedframe. Trinket whines pitifully.
âNo - not exactly.â
Theyâre preparing a second bunk in the Grey Huntressâ cabin. No longer sleeping in shifts to guide the old ship through the night has meant sharing a bed more often than not.Â
(Percival insisted itâs a second bed or they rent rooms at a nice inn long-term; Vexâahlia insisted both are a waste of gold, but this got her to relent with only some grumbling.)
(Pike had also offered them the spare room in her home, but with FCG and a bear to factor in it would be a touch too tight. Frankly, the skyship feels like the safer option. Feels like home, after a month in the air. And the more defensible a position.)
She takes a slow, long moment to unfold the sheet. âWe - well, yes we sort of stole it. My brother did. In the middle of the ritual.â
In the dim light she almost looks her age. Percival does not know what it is exactly, beyond 'over 120 and then some', but heâs sure he could read the number in the pained creases that appear as she thinks. If only he looked close enough - which he does not. He blinks and it's just Vex'ahlia again.
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#No more there was only one bed đ alas!#This chapter is big on Names. Name drops learning names important names etc#Also ft some worldbuilding/HCs of mine. Yahoo!#critical role#cr fanfic#perc'ahlia#percahlia#percival de rolo#vex'ahlia#fresh cut grass#pike trickfoot#critical role fanfiction#my writing#Slow burn#Age of arcanum AU#Gosh i cant wait to start using the Calamity tags for this... soon... few more chapters...
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Some days (nights) just feel like loss
#not sure what else to say abt that bc thats it thats all of it#like a firework show reminder of everyone thats just dropped out oftour life#and like you're the only one watching the show the only one thinking abt them bc theres no way the grief you feel for them is reciprocated#or not to the same degree bc well surely the silence isnt killing them#and its like for some im still ::here:: i can still be found but theres no hand reaching out to reconnect & maybe one side always held more#more emotions more loss more love? it doesnt matter#im tired of watching the show and im tired of feeling the loss#and im tired of carrying the grief thats only mine bc how do you care less how can you not saying i miss all the moments and laughter & lov#so thankful for all the nows with all of you even if i get stuck the in haze of my connections of before#i dont know how to not care not miss or not think abt all these people that have moved on to other things and other lives and just not miss#things the same way as i do#so i just get sucked into the feelings from time to time but ill come out the other side and pack up the loss and the grief#until the next time when i pull it out and unfold it and crush into sand again#just to come out again and again and again
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I ended up putting myself a day behind on getting to rank 5 purely because I wanted the new pistol and was fed up with the bounty drop rates for the main BP, and absolutely harrowed by the drop rates on the endless capture for its parts. I already did the Aeolak grind, I'm never doing anything like it again T_T oh well, gives me more days to chat with the Hex and get more lore.
#it sucks because the aeolak is a solid ass weapon. but the only reason why i sought it out was because i unveiled a riven for it#i use it now whenever i'm doing shit against the Murmur and its become one of my favourite primaries but jfc the GRIND#hoping vesper-77 holds up. though just taking a glance at its stats on the wiki its looking like it will. especially with the new mods#just need to get an argon crystal and I can leave its parts to cook. main weapon only needs 12 hours too so it will be mine in no time#warframe#warframe 1999#fiver.plays#watch me start to get the drops for this fucking thing now that i've caved and bought them lol lmao
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i could write a 100 page essay about what a fucking masterpiece warframe is. i will write many words in the tags. please readem if you want my 'tism.
#ive been playing on and off since 2019 but its only recently when i dumped destiny 2 (probably for good) and picked it up#to fill the grind-shaped hole in my heart#that i have uncovered just how FUCKING INCREDIBLE warframe is#everything about it makes me incredibly autistic#from its masterful utilization of an incredibly styled and individual soundtrack full of absolute bangers#to its seemingly unique understanding of how and why an MMO is special to and because of its players#and its truly special story- a uniquely human take on the âpost-ruin scifiâ tale#it knows exactly how and when to yank on your heart to make you weep like a baby#and it knows exactly when you're going to get angry and want vengeance#and it knows when to let you let loose and unleash hell#SPOILERS FOR THE NEW WAR AHEAD#IF YOU THINK YOU COULD PLAY THE GAME PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE DO#SPOILER WARNING#i think the narmer corruption of fortuna was genuinely one of the most gutpunchingly horrible moments ive ever experienced in a video game#i started playing when fortuna was already in the game but the story of fortuna and vox solaris was really what made warframe stand out 2 m#i would drop into the orb vallis as gauss and dash around doing bounties and fishing and mining because i really loved everything about#fortuna and wanted to spend as much time there as possible#for me vox solaris was my proudest achievement (in warframe.) to say âi helped that! i did that!â was an incredibly good feeling#the story really spoke to me on a deeper level#and vox solaris has always been my favorite faction as a result#so to do absolutely everything that i could#to lift together with my tenno brothers and sisters and yet STILL fail?#and to have it rubbed in my face by the corruption of the greatest shining pillar of hope in the warframe universe?#felt like i got kicked in the stomach#i felt sad and angry. but most of all i was DRIVEN.#which is GOOD. because RARELY does a video game present you the âyou lostâ scenario and have it feel not only satisfyingly painful#but MOTIVATING.#my only complaint with the new war is that i didnt get to hack ballas to pieces by myself#i had real flashbacks to running around helping people as gauss while approaching the final boss with erra#and to step onto the ballas arena as gauss prime. i nearly came from the narrative significance
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do you have any pokeani fic recs for the classic vibe (read: the content is unhinged and wild)
Referencing this post- long reply but I give a few pointers in these fics' direction at the end!
I'm gonna be so honest anon, I'm not sure I want to actively rec some of them đ A lot of them are very of-their-time (usually 2007-2013) and, while HILARIOUS, often contain things that I really don't want to 'recommend' (homophobia, sexism, a lot of slutshaming, some REALLY out of pocket stuff that is not properly warned for, etc). OBVIOUSLY I am not reccing the yikes of things so much as the rest of it (the hilarious unhinged side), but the current fandomscape leans bad-faith and assumey and I'm just not keen to fuck around and find out tbh. Ye olde fic reccing takes a level of understanding of other time periods and attitudes and customs in fandom and on FFN that I'm... not sure that all of tumblr is always very good at tbh lol. If you guys really want me to and if we can all understand that it was a different time and that enjoyment of batshit insane fics does not equal agreement with everything said or depicted in them, then come back and I'll consider it again. But for now, I'm MORE than happy to tell you guys the best ways to find them on your own lmao. It's not hard once you get it down, and anything I'd rec, I've found through this method.
First off, FFN's search system is just frustrating imo. Between a less-than-intuitive UI and people not bothering to tag characters and ships and genres properly, using it the same way you'd filter stuff on Ao3 is a fool's errand (unless you're doing it by word count/completed/etc, which is objective and automatically tallied I think). You're better off using key words. I usually ignore the filters. The only thing I filter by is fandom at the start page (all of Pokemon is under 'games' in FFN and I don't bother narrowing it down to animeverse personally due to aforementioned mistagging or an entire lack thereof).
So, what key words do I use? When looking for that specific brand of insane campy 2000s kitschy wild unhinged stuff, I usually default to searches like "PS CS IS" (poke contest ikari, there's a lotta stuff in there, sometimes there's ORS/LGS/OS/ES/AS etc and you won't always know the acronym and it's just a surprise tbh) or trope related searches like "Assassin" or "High school" or "Vampire" other words you might find in a summary. You can also search by character names (in the search bar and not in the actual filters, which are not reliable in my experience). I'd say to go for tropes and AUs as far as keywords go. I'd ALSO say to not filter by completed, because that'll filter out a lot of two-week-passion-projects that someone dropped as soon as it got flamed, and there's some fun ones in there.
That's about it, but if you find one good fic then it's worth checking the rest of what the writer has. A lot of them have a bunch of unfinished fics and there's some hidden gems. Have a good time reading, and the search is half the fun! Come back with any funny lines you find if you want :)
#it's so hard because I truly love these classic era insane fics but you've gotta understand that they're from like 2008#and I'm just not going to open myself up to any possible bad-faith interpretations.#it's also hard because like while I'm not a big blogger#there's enough of you guys that I am hesitant to do name/title-dropping for this sort of thing specifically.#I don't want someone to see this and think we're doing it to make fun of the fics#and if someone went and did that from a rec of mine then I'd be really fucking sad about it.#I love these insane 2000s fics even though a lot of them are flawed and a little yikes sometimes.#it's not an ironic enjoyment at all. it's genuine. They're nostalgic and fun and unreserved (albeit-again-a lil' yikes).#they're from when a lot of people wrote only for themselves and leaned fully into that level of self indulgence#and it's really sweet in a way to read them so much later and to see how much fun someone had writing it#now that we're all older and more aware of what we make and more nervous about how it's perceived and aware of quality.#you also tended to see a lot of author's notes about school and summer camp and writing between life#and it's just. idk. it's got such a specific feeling to it. like damn I hope [author] had a nice choir rehearsal in 2009.#I hope their swim meet went well and that their dad stopped being annoying or whatever.#none of this is ever to make fun of the fics or to be mean-spirited. i would hope that people know at this point that I LOVE cringe#thank you very much lol.#I am cringe's number one defender. go be cringe and genuine. it's better than being condescending and bored.
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el has never been able to kill vecna. she wins the battle by casting him away, but she fails to win the war. he's patient zero for powers, absorbed the powers of all the lab kids, has the upside down and all of its monsters on his side, and has even absorbed her powers.
she's a force to be reckoned with, but she's not stronger than him. not even with the help of everyone fighting together and hitting vecna from every single angle was she able to defeat him. she isn't the cure, she wasn't the right choice, the risk did not pay off, they rolled the die and they came up short, the odds were not on their side, and blahblahblah insert every other phrase that people used in this season alone to defend that choice here.
she fights, but she doesn't come up with plans. she knows him from her childhood, but she doesn't have direct access to his mind. she's brave, and she's strong, and she's powerful, but it's not enough to win on her own in a one-on-one fight.
will knows vecna's plans. he knows how he thinks, what he thinks. he has a direct status update on how he's doing. he's the first to know when something is happening regarding the upside down and vecna. he's familiar with the upside down, with possession, with the man that's eluded them for so long. he has access to invaluable knowledge that no one else does. it's not something that he has to think aboutâhe just knows. and he's never been wrong.
the demogorgons knew where he was, but they never killed him or camped at his house. we know that he was dragged to the library, which is where the rifts collide, instead of being instantly killed like so many other victims. we know that he manipulated the lights in a way that is different to how the teens did it in season four, and that he also managed to make them move in a circle the way that the lab kids did. we know that there was a point in time when vecna wanted to kill everyone but him. we know that there was a time when vecna wanted him and sent in dogs to get him back. time in the upside down is stuck not on the day that el first opened the gate at eight years old, but on the day that will entered it. furthermore, if henry entered the upside down as we know it on that day years ago, then that also means that will was able to shape it to look like hawkins.
dustin rolled an eleven and lost. eleven went against vecna with the help of everyone and lost. the gates opened up and max is now missing. it's a repeat of season one. everyone that told them this was a risky idea and that they weren't ready was right.
meanwhile, mike and will worked together as a team with no daylight between them in season two, and they managed to close the gate and save the world. they failed to do that in season four, because they were keeping things from each other and thus weren't working as a true team. when they finally start being entirely truthful with each other again in season five, we'll undoubtedly see them save the day again.
will told el that they would fix this together. erica subbed for lucas against vecna, rolled a twenty, and won. will was positioned next to a "the cure" poster, is the only person truly aware of vecna, has a greater connection to the upside down than we previously thought and capabilities that we've yet to uncover, cast the winning fireball against their campaign villains before, was associated with the number twenty and one, has beat the odds more than once, is vecna's character foil, and is confirmed to be getting a bigger focus next season.
it's all right there.
#mine#long post#i have made 98304983098409384093940 different iterations of this post but thts just bc i know it to be true. and i can talk abt it forever#and ever and ever bc there's just so many things that become contextualized now with s4 that all point to that direction#even from way back when!!! not just from s4 scenes alone!!! and even with things that the duffers have said!!!#it's not evn pure bias bc i did NOT go into season four thinking tht will was gonna save the day and be The One or whatever#i literally thought he was jus going to be sad and gay again like he was in season three LMAO n i had made peace with tht#i only got that idea after the fact bc it was all there!!!! they ended it with his big revelation!!! they dropped so many hints abt things#that need to be explored that should not be possible!!! i just. HEWWO#will was benched after season two but season five will be his Moment
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