#vent-ish

[stargirlie-sharon]

ok i should put this out there so people who are following me/my mutuals are aware, or even people who are just passing by and don't know me

i'm chronically ill, diagnosed with psoriasis, an auto-immune skin condition (which i really hate a lot). it's been getting rough for me and honestly my mental state isn't the greatest rn

i'm experiencing a flare up rn. and my skin hates itself so it just decides "hey, i'm gonna fuck up this person's appearance and make them insecure for as long as they have this condition" or something, and usually when my skin clears up, it's still most likely going to come back

so um while you're here, would you mind giving me a few words of encouragement? i kind of need it rn.

and if you know anyone with any chronic conditions, disabilities, invisible illnesses, or anything of the sort, just be there for them and give them support, it might mean the world to them

thank you for reading <3

[im-not-buying-it-ether]

I think my funniest intro to adulthood was my eighteenth Birthday where I stayed up late the night before making sugar cookies in the shape of skulls with different faces and everything, just to clip the tray I was holding them on on the corner of a wall and drop the whole tray of them as I was heading out to the bus stop.

Adulthood is disappointment to your hard work and I got that lesson day 1

[leonardoeatscarrots]

This whole Gravity Falls revival Bill x Ford stuff has given me slight whiplash because when I was a kid (like 10 or 11) and I was discovering fanfiction for the first time I used to read human Bill Cipher x y/n and once I had a silly and funny dream about human Bill

I don’t mind telling ppl about it because it makes me laugh

I have unresolved trauma from when my siblings bullied me for having a crush on Bill Cipher. It wasn't even a serious crush or anything.

So now, having all my Bill Cipher headcanons from when I was 12 be confirmed??? The preteen I was taught was cringe for 8 years was 100% right, and now I just kind of have to sit back, apologize to myself, and live with it.

Unironically, this experience has caused me to heal a lot and notice a lot of the fucked up shit I was going through. It's been whiplash for most of us, I believe.

[hattiestgal]

Oh, so that's where all the stress is coming from.

Y'know, I'm kinda scared outta my mind to suddenly be kinda made to uproot myself and go somewhere else, even though that's kinda just... my only option now. tumblr's a dumpster fire right now, and all my friends are at least starting to establish their presence elsewhere (which I don't blame y'all a bit about, this site is a whole thing, and I doubt that's gonna change), but I kinda got comfy here, y'know? I have a reasonably sized following that I enjoy interacting with, and a lot of my extra spending money hinges on selling commissions here.

And sure, cohost is fantastic, and I'm loving it already, but my name only goes as far as the people who already know me, and that's not a whole bunch compared to here. You don't really get popular on cohost. But the other option for notoriety is bluesky, and the right to content stuff in their tos is rather alarming. Plus, it's just more twitter, and I really don't wanna exist in that space, so I dunno. I just feel kinda lost right now. I'm not going anywhere on here till tumblr dies or kills my account or whatever, but I'm kind of worried for a future where that might happen, and I'm just dumped into the empty void and forced to start from suqare one again.

[piepiepiemag]

as if life wasn’t terrible enough already, my duo really had to monkeypaw the new midas skin to be a catboy, just not the kind that i want. i’m. on the floor crying

[shoechoe]

My problem with sharing any of my creative endeavors is that I get so self conscious about if it's actually any good or if it's just some self indulgent incoherent nonsense that I freeze up + get too embarrassed to share it

[yagurlhere]

Waking up, knowing that the Grandfest is happening right now and I'm going to be at school:

[billiuspendragon]

One minute you're having fun the next you're a pale imitation of humanity

[tvb0y]

Fucking hate that my brother is actually hyperfixated on smart things like coins and history and shit while I’m over here feeling like a dumbass because I’m a perfectionist and hyperfixated on damn tv shows.

[threads-and-pages]

I'm curious as to how the trans community allowed the mockery of trans men and mascs who dare being anything but the perfect embodiment of hegemonic masculinity to become so widespread that even cis 'allies' feel comfortable participating in it.

I thought we had gotten over transmeds mocking nonbinary people who like having colorful hair. I thought we had understood that generalizing a group of marginalized people to the point of making them a conglomerate of a blurry ridiculous stereotype was unacceptable.

I just wonder as to how people feel so comfortable mocking trans masculine musicians as all being ukulele cringe boys, and trans masculine writers as all childish YA authors.

I wonder why we let misogyny towards trans men and transmascs become so normalized that when it's called out we are told 'it's a joke, duh' as if bigotry doesn't love manifesting through jokes and ridicule.

[insert-the-4thwall-entity]

Every damn afternoon/day.

'Are you alright? What happened?'

*sniff* 'Daddy issues. What shizin' else?'

[noodle-shenaniganery]

I hate that I have to be wary of scams. I hate that I always need to remind myself that people lie. I hate not being able to trust people. I hate lies, I hate dishonesty, and I hate living in a society where they’re practically the default.

[scuddle-bubble101]

Anxiety's tough man. The mountain just keeps getting higher. Reminds us back to when we were young, where the simplest little thing crumbled us.

But, you gotta lift up from those crumbles you know. You gotta keep going yeah? Despite it all?? Seems hard, seems really hard. But, no one's gonna pick you up from that pile than your own legs...

[egret-orchids]

i hate being mildly sick so fucking much

i have a really annoying cough right now and i might riot because all i can think about is firepox. or the queens lady plague. call it what you will.

it certainly isn’t helping that one of the better members of my family also has a similar cold/cough and it sets me on edge.

i never got jordie’s forgiveness so the memories of him still linger even after other lives, huh?

it also does not help that i hurt my leg (the same leg that got broken when i was in ketterdam) and it sucks. i feel like a child again.

sorry for being more melancholy today i just have a lot on my mind

[localratwithcowboyhat]

Why be artblock, anxiety, eds flare up and cronic 24/7 nausea be hitting me the second artfight starts

WHY

[piepiepiemag]

the only reason why i don’t draw midas all day every day is because i hate drawing his hair, it’s too short and flat and completely out of my comfort zone, and whenever i draw him with The Floof™️ i feel like i’m a fake fan that is taking away from his design by changing it drastically and he doesn’t look like himself enough in the end