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gazeboarcade · 1 day ago

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Ah…

#ok to read tags. just some drama with my sisters #my baby sister who I played a big part in raising made a rlly long slide deck TikTok #listing all the things she’s grateful for #the third slide is for always loving her and having fun with her dedicated to me and my other sister #who still lives at the house #then there’s like. At least 6 slides shouting out friends #I was sitting there so grateful she had so many friends in her life #I didn’t have anywhere near that at her age I was just so happy to see that for her #and then close to the end there was another slide for my other sister. ah #it’s lowkey devastating to me bc it was thanking her for sticking around and always including her in her life like. agggh #I guess it’s just lowkey so sad that she doesn’t think of me specially enough like that #it’s making me so sad #I don’t regret leaving of course #I live with the love of my life #and I don’t think she’s being malicious bc she’s a teen #but also it’s like she’s not at all easy to talk to bc she’s such a dry texter and not ideal on the phone either #idk it’s just so sad in a weird way. hard to know my other sister who talks to me even less than her #is her favorite I guess? I don’t think I earned it and I would never put her in a position to pick a favorite #but it’s still hard. idk.#it’s a very unique feeling to have kinda raised a baby who’s not yours who you can hardly hear from. idk #delete later #it’s not like I make no effort either she just doesn’t seem to be interested. I guess she’s still learning #but it sucks. bad

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buddieinmybeddie · 4 months ago

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LGBTQ+ folk what was your gender/sexuality pipeline?

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inkskinned · 1 month ago

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having good & true friends will literally save and protect you in a million unfathomable ways. like okay we have written so many times about lovers. but the way a platonic friend laughs and cries with you. the way they hold your hand at 14 years old and at 34. the way they keep a little silver tie to you, touching base over and over and over. how you can go years without talking, only to re-meet and discover: oh shit! you're still cool!

there are people who have been in my life for more than half of it, and i have loved every version of them. do you know how fucking beautiful that is. yeah love will save the world. but the way friends love you is gonna save the you.

#and before one of u is like '' i have no friends :(" i used to be there too actually #abusive partner cut me off from ALL of 'em. i didn't think i was lovable #it made me EXCEPTIONALLY shy. i still am actually!!!!#i just ... started saying ''yes.''#i would take pictures of flyers in my library and go to whatever events they had #i started taking community classes #if someone mentioned like ''i am gonna start x group'' i actually took a deep breath #and approached them to be like . okay i want in.#i started making the first move with new people - a small compliment #a smile or a little joke. just to share the space with them.#i have MASSIVE social anxiety. bad parent and bad relationship will do that to ya.#but i just... kept going. and going. and going. to each of these little things. and then...#like. .... idk i just am very blessed. i have a STUPID number of friends #a lot of which i reconnected with. bc it turns out love is never wasted. adult life just.#like. gets in the way. but also... i loved u as a weird little kid. i love u now as a weird big adult.#i promise i PROMISE ur friends are out there. u just have 2 find them. and btw #i didn't make friends with everyone. but i did get a lot of people to smile or laugh.#aint that something.#this process took me something like 2 years. it was HARD!!!!!!!!!!#i love u!!! hard things are often worth it!!!

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fraternum-momentum · 19 days ago

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give me your complete and unwavering devotion.

#cant have a vampsona without some religious imagery #i love the dynamic of a god and a devotee #a servant completely and utterly devoted to her god and yet a god is nothing without its worshippers #still has that power imbalance yet that necessity of being together #yummiii #also i hope the three wise monkeys reference was clear !!!#its basically telling her to turn a blind eye on others. telling her to avoid having evil thoughts i.e. not being devoted etc #idk does that make sense ??? eh whatever thought it was p cool #𓆩♱𓆪 #my art #tw blood #hints of cannibalism if you squint hard enough

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lazylittledragon · 5 months ago

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i said that gale and cyra have disaster romcom energy and now it's all i can think about

#bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #galemance #gale dekarios #tav #i think it falls under miscommunication trope bc she's SO hard to read that he would think she's fucking with him #but no she genuinely wants to know every reason he disliked that book #in this au she actually has a phd instead of just being. a weird lady #she's still a weird lady but she's licensed now #also idk if it's registered bc i haven't done a lot of comics with her but i see her a lot like elizabeth zott from lessons in chemistry

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lotus-pear · 19 days ago

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till's straight asf i would've made out with ivan first

#bro rip ivan you would’ve loved trolling ppl online on tiktok 😭😭#born to be be an idol forced to DIE #till is blind asf look at this man bro look how hard you fumbled dumbass 💀💀#ivantill is pretty funny when they’re not doomed by the narrative ngl. it’s like two crackhead bestfriends who share the same braincell #also ignore the fact idk how to draw anyone’s hair i even looked at refs this time and it still didn’t help 💀#like they have a dif hairstyle in each frame i hate it here #i’m drawing the lesbians next i love you mizisua 🫶🏼#alien stage #alnst #alnst ivan #alnst till #ivantill #vivinos #lotus draws

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weaselmcdiesel · 9 months ago

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i was being so so so real when i said id make more katnep comics

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trepppy · 6 months ago

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Update on the kids sprites!!

For now think I'm move on to the trolls but I'm listening to any feedback or variant requests!

#send me an ask if you have any edit requests #also feel free to make edits yourself just remember to credit me!#rose might still be a little weird idk #her hair is hard to stylise #homestuck #fanart #john egbert #rose lalonde #dave strider #jade harley #jane crocker #roxy lalonde #dirk strider #jake english #my sprites #looking for feedback

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stuckinapril · 11 months ago

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friend wanted to see my tumblr, and when i told him i can’t show it to him bc it’s basically my personal diary he went “oh so I can’t see it but a bunch of strangers on tumblr can??” he literally does not get me. no one will get me like the people in my phone get me

#It’s just so different #even though it’s public it still feels secret and safe. i feel comfy sharing a lot more on here than I do in my actual day to day life lol #in my head I’m also just speaking to myself 90% of the time which helps #if a friend off tumblr saw my thoughts I’d feel so weird ab it #esp bc they might get the vagueposting about certain situations and tell mutual friends #no thank u. this is for me. I’m not about to start censoring my thoughts bc someone I know knows my tumblr #u guys literally saw me have LIVE BREAKDOWNS #meanwhile I’ll have the worst fucking day in history and tell no one about it. I’m already cripplingly private but way more so in real life #this is basically a low stress journaling outlet for me. it’s so important for me to maintain the separation #like this is actually my diary & has been so handy for letting out emotions / articulating thoughts / staying on track !!#& I’ve met so many kind people on here who actually get me. which is so hard to find irl bc I’m surrounded by pre-med gunners/overachievers #who are by standard not very good w emotion & can be competitive/judgmental. or at least it’s hard for me to be vulnerable in front of them #and I’m part of that crowd so I reserve my emotions only to a handful of very close friends #it’s nice to hop on here and express negative emotions!! or positive emotions!! just whatever I want and it’s low stress and people get me #I don’t have to worry about judgment or competitiveness etc etc #like everyone on here is so kind & nice & understanding. & just a breath of fresh air from the types I run w. it’s just nice to have this #so idk that’s why I think I’ll always be strict about keeping the worlds separate. it just works #p

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kinerxy · 4 months ago

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Honrses

#theyre supposed to be used as war montures and also for transportation like irl horses but they are not shy or afraid #so like theyre really hard to tame idk theyre just concepts still #honestly looking at them now they seem too horse like i'll probably redesign them to look more bulky like a rhino #so my idea is that unicorns exist in my setting but they went extinct and these are part of the same genus but lack magic qualities #and instead theyre more about raw force and impaling stuff #i will add them to my bestiary so i'll explain better when its time #wgd #worldbuilding #horse art #art #my art #digital art #dark fantasy

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redcallisto · 1 year ago

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Kieran my baby boy. someone take him to a therapist please

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humans-are-tasty · 11 months ago

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#sir crocodile #dracule mihawk #buggy the clown #cross guild #my art #one piece #crochawk #dump of dumb stuff #i was looking at the old patrick bateman mihawk and ended up drawing axe wielding mihawk again #idk why #im just anxiety coping drawing #i wasnt going to post this but i forgot i scheduled it... omg #anyway im trying to be more free with drawing now and not caring so much #more like how i drew 2-3 yrs ago #if its weird and ugly then its weird and ugly #i also want to draw blackbeard but hes so hard to draw this way. still trying to figure it out #also please imagine crocodile standing with axehawk. i desperately wanted to draw crocodile with him but didnt #theyre axe murdering couple in crime #i took the last ones outfit from the shining #i try to draw lineart directly without a rough sketch stage. its sort of meditative #i'm gonna axe you one last time...

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wardingshout · 11 months ago

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Zelda goes mushroom girl

#tloz #a link to the past #zelda #link #my art #I was happy with that first one but for some reason decided it still needed a companion piece so I spent way too long on that second one...#I don't think there was any time during the progress where I was happy with it but hfduhdfu at least I got to Attempt drawing moss hell yea #I also at some point sat in Pyu's art stream and said I enjoy drawing legs As I was being murdered by the infamously impossibe (imo) squat.#it's ok I had fun !! but I need to learn how to let doodles be doodles or I'll never finish stuff at this rate dfsuhfd #if everything in my tloz tag looks like it was drawn by different people uuuh 2023 was art crisis year ngl......#I'm falling back into my old ways rn though #anyway I think about these two a lot I think they're both stone faced and awkward ppl in different ways but they try rly hard to be friends #like I like to think it starts out so incredibly awkward and a bit sad bc they keep stepping over each other's toes accidentally the harder #they try but idk they find comfy middle ground idk in my brain they have a very interesting friendship I wanna get around to drawing it #in a proper way that might make sense....#if I don't write 200 tags I will die maybe it's bc I grew up on dA or smth #and yes I know how to find 1 (one) type of mushroom /I/ am not mushroom girl unfortunately smh

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mumblesplash · 11 months ago

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part 2!!!! [read part one here]

transcript below the cut arranged into stanzas to help show where the rhymes are:

“that’s why they brought gem in? as a failsafe?” as a pawn. we were told to point her at whoever we need gone

“gem won’t hurt her allies. …yet.” the curse she carries will it’s had its eye on her since she lost the other eye she was specially selected for her hunting skill it’s quite the high honor. “wow. how generous.” we try

think about it: why does almost no one fight the curse? “given how fast scott killed skizz last season, i can guess.” [“any pain you spare your friends, you’ll have to suffer worse”?] it’s designed to shut down higher reasoning with stress

#if you still can't see the rhyme scheme try reading it out loud #if that doesn't work uh. idk. can't help you #my art #my poetry #grian #geminitay #smajor1995 #bdoubleo100 #inthelittlewood #secret life #grian and his terrible horrible no good very bad eldritch coworkers: the sequel #cant wait to post the next part so i can be like 'my three secret life comics. and yes they all rhyme'#this one narratively doesn't work nearly as well as a standalone compared to part 1 #however i accidentally went way too hard and could probably upload the middle page + second to last panel as their own separate art pieces #tbh i'm considering putting an explanation of everything below the readmore buuut i don't feel like it atm. :3 later maybe #me and my 20+ life series headcanons i only allude to without explicitly stating don't need to explain ourselves #still experimenting with this webtoon-esque vertical comic style #still not sure i like it #it gets long too quickly #among other things #but it's very easy to read on a phone so

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heartorbit · 9 days ago

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make a wish! 🍃

happy 1st anniversary, in stars and time 🤍

#ok hold on #isat #in stars and time #siffrin #isat siffrin #Okay. WAAAAH WAUUUUUGHWAYUUAU T_T.. HAPPY BIRTHDYS IN STARS ANDB TIMEEEE #i need that FAWKING ARTBOOOOOK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#idk where else to get sappy about it but tmblr tags are probably the best spot i'll get. isat is very dear to me ..#i played it when i was going through a lot of terrible grief and it really hit home for me #and as i still navigate this terrible grief it gives me a reminder that there are people out there feeling just like me #and even peolle who might not understand still care and love and cherish you. and youre loved way beyond what you really know #the art of losing isnt hard to master .. etc etc #also its nice to see a character who cant remember basic shit all the time. my personal siffrinism #siffrin is like the kim dokja of your computer. The ones who know know.#sniffle. thanks isat. thanks dev.

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cerulean-tea · 8 months ago

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happy 413!! to the webcomic that changed my life 5 years ago ⭐️

#homestuck #413 #hey guys *checks watch* happy 413 #my eyes are dry from how hard i grinded to finish this today HEJDKLEDKDKD #rose lalonde #jade harley #dave strider #john egbert #beta kids #i wanted to make it so all the kids contributed to johns cake haha #like rose lighting the candles and dave uh using his gear as a plate LOL and then jade appearifying the cake (that was pretty subtle tho)#like actually tilted the trajectory of my life #i couldve still been really into danganronpa or voltron idk

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