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‘i feel like ruining things because i like you too much’ is such a normal thing to think lol
#and it’s sister: ‘i feel like ruining things bc you’re a better person than me��#like i’m ’saving’ ppl from me?#fucked up way to think and i’m trying not to think like that anymore but sometimes i still do#i’m making up excuses in my head for why this can’t be something#like in whatever way that may be#i felt like this a few months ago but like the difference is the pros outweigh the cons#as in i’d rather be with them than not#bc before i just felt bad about it all#and now sometimes i feel bad but like i’m always gonna feel bad about something#my brain will just always be like that#but unlike a few months ago it feels different to ignore it?#bc the problem doesn’t feel real bc it isn’t real#like i’m just avoiding the problem as if it will go away#like it is actually all in my head as opposed to me just thinking it#and i don’t have to ruin things and nothing has to change#and maybe the universe is trying to tell me something by placing a similar situation in my life again#but also maybe it’s not#and i don’t know what’s gonna happen but i actually feel excited to find out#rather than full of dread at the thought of it all#like obviously i’m still anxious sometimes#but it’s not completely all consuming#and the voice doesn’t feel quite so loud#was gonna delete later but#maybe i’ll come back to this post in the future#and things will probably have changed all over again#and that’s okay and i’ll just have to accept that no matter what happens#here’s to the future i guess!
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May your hardened heart be woken By the soft and distant song Of all you left here unspoken All the shards we keep stepping on - Take this body home Take this body home Call the wind, and let her know Take this life outgrown Take this broken soul Call the stars, call them all And take it high, take it far, take it home
#svsss#luo binghe#shen qingqiu#bingqiu#sqq#lbh#scum villain#heard the song Take This Body Home by Rose Betts and it nearly took me out at the knees#it really really suits sqq's self-detonation in hua yue city right? i'm not the only one feeling this?#considered adding some literal shards for them to be stepping on - since sqq's sword explodes - but i couldn't quite make it work#anyway this has been playing like a music video in my head for the past couple days highly recommend listening to the song#if you haven't heard it before#can't get over the absolute dissonance between how sqq views this scene and how everyone else must feel about it#like to him he's just completing his plan - hopefully keeping lbh from destroying a city with energy imbalance and escaping The Plot#nbd! he and sqh have planned it all out it's FINE :) off he goes!#meanwhile everyone who loves him - including lbh who worked years to get back to him and is trying to work through a lot of grief#and resentment and doubt and longing and... - watches him DIE in FRONT OF THEM#just collapse while coughing up blood sword disintegrating energy completely consumed#like holy hell sqq could you traumatize the people around you any more???#no wonder lbh went a little bit crazy after that like my man was already not in a great place but what the fuck#lbh watches his shizun presumably sacrifice himself for him ONCE AGAIN like after he's finally Gotten Strong his shizun is STILL#coming to harm in an effort to make up for his shortcomings#my art#most of the time out here drawing what amounts to muppets and then sometimes i get the urge for this and just need to cover everyone in blo
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And if I say Mac grew up equating love to cigarette burns and absent fathers and getting told to toughen up, that Mac doesn’t understand love that isn’t conditional, love without equal parts hate or distaste, that never in his life has Mac understood earnest love, that even though Dennis isn’t trying to, he often ends up re-confirming this idea in Macs head, that love is hatred, that-
#sorry got shot with the rpg before I could finish my sentence#it’s always sunny#iasip#it’s always sunny in philadelphia#source: iasip#it’s always sunny in philly#mac mcdonald#macdennis#dennis iasip#iasip headcanon#iasip dennis#mac iasip#iasip mac#I have something to admit which is that this is a draft and also that I haven’t seen the Abbott ep yet#I’ve been meaning to get around to it and get back to posting on here in general but such is life yk#I had a lot of insane shit go on thag stopped me from writing completely#and also#just kind of consuming media as a whole#anyways Mac and your twisted fucked up perceptions of love you will always be special to me#it ain’t much but it’s earnest#there are two wolves inside of me#the one that wants Mac to get gentle soft love that changes his perceptions completely#and one that loves the moral complexity and grey area that iasip specialize in#always Sunny is weird like that in the sense that you somehow end up equal parts rooting for them and wanting their downfall#multiple spelling errors in the tags that I refuse to fix because it would be too much of a headache to retype them all#so just pretend you don’t see them or read through them please and thank you <3
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at least we’ll always have Archie: The Musical
#riverdale#beronica#Betty Cooper#Archie andrews#Veronica lodge#jughead Jones#gay Kevin#clay walker#Cheryl blossom#Toni topaz#Julian blossom#and everyone else#my art#I have so many mixed feelings about s7 but above all at least we got this glorious masterpiece of an episode#I had to pay tribute and apparently draw the most complex time consuming art piece I’ve completed in two years.#t#riverdale I love you forever I will miss you until the end of my life
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nine sols meme compilation i never posted
#laughs in inactive on tumblr#you have to know. this game has completely consumed my brain in the past few months and#god. i dont think im normal anymore after nine sols existed and tianhuoed all over my psyche#nine sols#nine sols fanart#nine sols spoilers#moistcritikal is streaming the game rn. play it NOW
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I don't know man I have nothing else to post.
Have some Mv2 because these two are literally my life source at this point, also V2 welding herself a new arm (it totally won't get stolen this time) and Merge <3
Don't come after me I don't know how to draw welding tools, I just thought "Haha looks like swordsmachine" and kept it as is.
Btw is anyone else in the process of reading 17776? Juice is literally me guys (Literally jupiter icy moons space craft)((Desperately scratching at my friends' dms like a dog trying to get them to read the silly blocks of yellow text I sent them.))
Am I a person or am I just a bunch of Juice yellow text in a trench coat.
#ultrakill#ultrakill fanart#mirage ultrakill#ultrakill mirage#v2 ultrakill#ultrakill v2#mv2#17776 football#17776 juice#ranting#i love them so much#someone please listen to me I swear I'm a normal person and I can be completely normal about all the robots/ beings of metal I am intereste#with I promise promise promise I can be normal about this topic and not be consumed by it (I have only just gotten into 17776 but I already#know that this is going to become integrated into my everyday personal life so much so that I'm not going to be able to have any normal#conversation without mentioned these STUPID FUCKINGFNJSJ RAHHFKDSHSHH GRAAHAHSHAHS)
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my personal headcanon is the vees were unremarkable nobodies when they were alive. i just love it as a thematic throughline for them. they love to let the public of hell speculate on them being famed and acclaimed since before death, but the the truth is they were a d-list failed influencer that got by on cheap controversey and scamming, a broke junkie who burned every shaky bridge he ever had, and a worn-out broadcast production assistant with more rejected auditions and tossed out script pitches than he could count. nobody missed them when they were gone, nobody cared who they were until they were dead.
#because villains who didn't start off supremely powerful are more interesting to me#vees#it's not that they CAN'T be better. or that they're simply ignorant of the ways they fuck up others lives#they actually all do have that knowledge of being the underdog. and it's made them all the more shitty#because they never want to be those people again#narratives about people who make each other worse <3#to be clear they were still shitty people in life. manipulative. consumed by greed and envy. all their individual flaws etc etc#but hell made them into the absolute worst versions of themselves#of course what their Worst Self is and the journey/length of time/initial reaction to being in hell varies#like val sees hell as a continuation of the things happening in life. just w/ the power dynamics always privileging him#it's the same drugs and violence. except the violence isn't just survival anymore but the chance to indulge his deeply sadistic desires#vox has completely dissociated from his time alive. that person is dead and he's reinvented himself 1000 times over since then#90% of the time he has those memory files shoveled into a hidden directory#he refuses to acknowledge that he's still haunted by some of the same insecurities from almost a century ago#val doesn't necessarily see his living self in a fond light but he does see that person as fundamentally him#velvette thinks life was full of people who weren't her demographic but fortunately that's been fixed by sinners!#they just couldn't Get Her and that was all their faults#the primary way they view their past selves can be summed up as: scorn (vox) apathy (valentino) and in denial (velvette)#sorry the bulk of the post was in the tags. i will be doing this again#the scorn is the coping mechanism for shame. of course
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Julia Ormond and Tim Roth in Captives (1994)
#tim roth#julia ormond#captives#one of the hottest scenes in cinema and that's even without all the thrusting i had to take out after getting flagged ;;;;;#he didn't bruise his hips for nothing y'know#but i digress 😔#for my anon who asked for gifs of my fav tim roth movie i'm honestly not even sure if this is it but#it's definitely the first time i consumed a piece of media with full complete understanding of what an awakening felt like#so uh. some well deserved kudos for that just felt right 👀👀#(editing AGAIN to add after the set got cleared it was immediately blocked one more time because of some of my tags lmaooooo#so those are gone now too but where is the justice 😭����)#movieedit#dianagifs
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You thought The Substance was a comedy? You thought what happened to her throughout the film was funny?
#LOOK OUT A NUANCED TAKE IN THE TAGS#i can initially see why some would interpret the substance as a comedy on a first watch#there are some elements of absurdist humour throughout that are definitely designed to get a reaction out of the viewer#(prawn eating scene. final bloodspill. etc)#BUT placing it within the boundaries of a “comedy” is frankly a little ridiculous and dismisses the actual point of the substance#it is a HORROR movie first. it is not at all a COMEDY#unless you consider the downward spiral of elizabeth sparkle funny (which let’s be honest. golden globes committee probably found it funny)#then no. it is not a comedy#it is a tragic story about a woman who is warped and consumed by the industry that perverts her#im glad the substance and fargeat got plenty of nominations this year#but labelling it as a comedy? kinda goes against the film’s intended purpose#rant COMPLETE!#golden globes#the substance#gecko boy
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I have another piece of translation trivia for you pathologic nutsos
In English, on the night of day 3, Artemy can mention to Lara that he "Served as a medic for a while", refering to his brief military service.
*extremely incorrect loud buzzer*
He doesn't say "medic", or even "combat medic" in Russian. He uses the word Фельдшер, or Feldsher, which is a very specific thing.
A Feldsher is (or rather was) a mid-level (that is, without university education) medical practitioner. They don't have the same authority as doctors, but can perform certain operations or diagnostics. Historically, it was a non-combative position in the Russian Army and fleet. They even made a labor union in 1905!
It gives historical context to the entire setting, because Feldshers are mostly assossiated with the late 19th to early 20th century - the term is anachronistic (I guess that's why it was omitted in English) Edit: The term is still generally used in Russia, as pointed out in the comments, though the current and historical meaning are slightly different. We still have some Feldshers in Poland, as the only country in the EU where that position is legally recognized.
It also makes so much sense, given Artemy's situation - he never finished university but did have some prior knowlegde, so it would be reasonable for him to serve, as it was a common practice back then.
#pathologic#pathologic 2#artemy burakh#мор утопия#evey day means more hatered towards the english translation of this game#but its also so fun to discover all that#by discover i mean doing the bare minimum of consuming art as it was intended by the creator#without filtering it through the lense of a different language#which creates a completely new and often wrong understanding of the source material#girls when they learn a new language just to experience art in its purest form
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genuinely so many of you want to be leftist and "punk" and countercultural soooooo bad but you refuse to become comfortable with the concept of people taking drugs for fun because they like it and not because they were somehow tricked or forced into it without knowing what they were getting themselves into
you'll be like "addiction is a disease!!" but think you're better than those degenerate stoners because you only drink energy drinks and white claws and would never touch "illegal drugs"
many if not most drugs CAN be consumed completely safely with almost 0 risk to the user and even if that werent true and all drugs were extremely dangerous you still wouldn't be better than those of us who love doing drugs recreationally
lighten up and grow up. get offline, talk to real adults, and stop being shocked to discover that they enjoy doing stuff that adults do like have sex and do drugs and even listen to rock and roll
#put punk in parantheses bc yall are hardcore straight edge at best lmao#goes to a punk show in someones basement and gasps when i see people snorting coke off each other in the corner#anyway heres your regular reminder from your friendly neighborhood drug addict that drugs can be and often are consumed safely#LSD‚ MDMA‚ psilocybin‚ cannabis of course‚ ketamine‚ coke‚ whippets. these are all drugs that i personally have used#and that are completely safe when used correctly and by someone who doesn't have some sort of allergy#even if someone is on a dangerous drug like meth or heroin you are not better than them#in fact theyre probably a lot chiller than your ass if youre still viewing drugs as a thing for 'degenerates' to do#literally can not hang out with non druggies anymore bc they cannot stop themselves from moralizing it#i mention that my vape has thc in it and i get That Look and a bunch of 'i would never smoke weed. i mean its fine. i just would NEVER'#i get it! you view drugs as a thing thats only for poor people or people who dont care about themselves or whatever#i call that the go ask alice effect. people will think you smoked weed then immediately had sex got pregnant and died of a heroin overdose#even when they think theyre being super progressive
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☀️🧡Landoscar Miami Hug🧡☀️

I truly couldn’t help myself just as the very lovely @kingkestrel predicted 🤭✨
Tags: @formulanni
#f1#mclaren#papaya army#lando norris#op81#f1 fanart#pookie#he is so babygirl#he is the loml#2024 season#landoscar my loves omigodddd#landoscar fanart#the landoscar brain rot is all consuming#landoscar Miami gp hug#the hug of all hugs#yes that IS Oscar no it is NOT up for debate ok?!?!#pretty proud of this ngl#me when I use a new brush and completely change the aesthetic of my fanart for the 5th time in 2 months hehehehe#oscar piastri fanart queue#Oscar Piastri loves Lando Norris#ln4
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Oh god people on Reddit are misunderstanding hey Melissa again
#look feel how you want about that episode but the way some of you all will completely misinterpret it is weird man#they have been very very few hatchetfield stories that have ended happily#the ending is literally supposed to make you uncomfortable that’s the point#like idk I’m don’t even consume that much horror media and I understand the ending on the first viewing like come on guys#hey melissa#hatchetfield#starkid
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tangentially related, lee has been very supportive of the novels and thinks kc is going to find a lot more success as prose because people don't go to comics looking for anything beyond like. marketable safe gays or newspaper strips and that would be wonderful Obviously but also :)))) it has Been Here it has BEEN HERE
#LITERALLY i was talking to someone about the project recently#and she went 'hm yeah#i'd buy a novel but i never buy comics lol'#just. directly to me. no qualifiers#it is WILD to me that people who consider themselves Story Consumers will completely dismiss an entire medium out of hand and like#not feel self conscious about it at all
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Just like All for One, Overhaul was destroyed by an offshoot of his own quirk, Izuku, and Shigaraki.
They shared the same hubris of believing they would be the one ruling it all above humanity only to be brought down by the consequences of their own actions.
All that remained of Overhaul was the broken Chisaki after this scene. Overhaul, the contender for new lord of the underworld, was no more. After this scene, he was never again directly addressed as "Overhaul". And once One for All was gone and all of his demon lord pageantry was stripped away, All for One was also revealed to be a hollow shell of lonely man.
#bnha reread#bnha 160#bnha#bnha manga spoilers#chisaki kai#overhaul#all for one#afo#shigaraki tomura#midoriya izuku#but also the decay stopped before consuming him unlike afo so the hollowness hadn't quite consumed him completely
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oh my fucking god i feel. SO stupid rn at How i didnt make the (super sane very normal just absolutely. Yes. Surely) connection earlier but uhh
so anyway im now like 89% certain that whatever the "traces" of the narwhal that remain on ajax and facilitate their (ever-growing) innate connection are like. an actually fundamental aspect of it (them?) more or less.
why? because if you consider its pov just for a moment. the narwhal was literally about to depart teyvat for good. it had nearly finished consuming the primordial sea and preparing to breach surface to finish the job by eating the french for the leftovers their human bodies were made from. its an interstellar voyager it does not linger on planets it devours. it goes glug glug and it leaves.
and like if it wasnt for traveler intervening its confirmed through narzissenkreuz and renes world formula that teyvat wouldve just been destroyed. no one could have stopped the narwhal not neuvillette not focalors not anyone.
so what was the one other thing it did right before going for that french brunch? calling for ajax. getting them reunited in the primordial sea. like all the possible implications aside bc theres many different ways to speculate on the exact reasons why and the nature of that link. the point remains.
it wasnt leaving teyvat without finding him.
like the narwhal is about to fucking Dip from this cringe planet and whatever part of it that ajax carries within himself his narwhal Absolutely wanted to be reunited with. what the fuck am i supposed to read from that. hoyo???????!??! answers?!?!?!
and its not only the calling from the narwhal side itself either bc this is ALL coinciding with the growth of a 'restless power' within ajax and his vision malfunctioning (the things celestia is literally confirmed to harvest energy thru to repair its damaged authority) and his connection with the narwhal reaching an actual conscious level (arguably subconscious n emotional too bc i find it Curious his mood is poor right as the narwhal is repeatedly described as positively malding to the point its boss fight mechanic is literally a rage meter). ajax' power is growing. his destiny is starting to shift and something is drawing him to fontaine... right as the narwhal is getting close to finished with the primordial sea. funny how it overlaps eh. how it aligns 🤨🤨 why are they orbiting each other like this (they should kiss)
(& not to even Mention how ajax just Happened to get that absolutely exponential and borderline unbelievable feat of power spike in extending his foul legacy endurance as massively as he did. while. within the primordial sea. with his narwhal. who had at that point all but incorporated the power of that sea into itself. i s2g if childe was getting passive home turf co-op bonus exp with a 4x multiplier automatically the whole 40+ days 💀💀)
#man the way its lovely reunion but tjen ajax fucking ATTACKS IT ON SIGHT you couldve gotten married!!!!11!1 fucking unbearable i am in agony#anyway contrary to popular belief we still have no fucking clue whether ajax' link to the narwhal was innate#skirk saying the traces remain on him after meeting it isnt saying tht much. the parts he shares w it couldve well been innate but dormant#instead. also just the fact that he woke it up already shady#then like. monoceros caeli being his from the beginning is completely plausible despite ppl acting like its been confirmed his const change#and like them being halves of the same entity on some lvl would make the narwhal being so weak without him n until ajax found it again#make very much. sense. anyway ajax toxicity jokes aside if the narwhal was just trying to eat him point blank without even a hello#i do get why hed react aggressively. but also bros been telling everyone n their mom hes fighting his narwhal the seconf he finds it again😔#so i feel somewhat confident in assuming he started that 40+ days brawl#anyway if ajax Isnt the celestial narwhal on some level or possibly becoming it as their link grows.#riddle me this atheists. why is his 3rd phase boss theme. the song about His individual murderous rage at us#bc he thought he was outplayed by us. His personal wrath#whys the song for that called the wrath of the celestial narwhal. of the star swallowing whale. Hmmmge. his individual rage.#why does tusk of monoceros caeli speak of him embracing the narwhals innate qualities as embracing mere parts of Himself#funny how tjat goes!! (the OST n boss drop is not 100% serious theory but it does drive me insane. bc why would they phrase it like that)#anyway either theyre 2 halves same original entity or theyre soulmates idgaf . they should fold teyvat in half and eat it for brunch#aaand im going to be consumed by this realization for the next month wish me luck#WHY DID IT NEED HIM THERE SO BADLY???? HUH??????#i mean relatable dont we all. but its sooooooooo inch resting. Curious indeed#rambles#genshin#childe#childeposting#narwhalposting
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