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I finally finished my BFA this past December, been learning how to sell my pottery since February, got my diploma in the mail a month ago, received my cap and gown + my custom stole, got a job offer for teaching art yesterday, and I'll be walking across the stage at graduation in less than a month! What a long 7-8 years 🥹 this chapter is closing and I'm opening a new one!!
#my friends from high school threw me a surprise graduation party too!#it was so sweet and i started crying#ive been getting involved more in the art community#and with this art teacher job ill be able to have a steady income to save up for my dream kiln#so many highs and lows throughout my college experience#but it made me the person i am today#also the ladys in the interview said they really liked my portfolio#so thats my life update#im gonna go kayaking tomorrow with my siblings!!!
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silly comic based on a time i struggled to read live on stream :thumbsup:
context clip compilation below ASDASDFASA
(cw for brief mention of hospitals/strokes)
#in stars and time#isat#isat odile#isat siffrin#isat spoilers#<- not big ones but the convo this stems from occurs on 3rd floor before king act 2 so#cw hospital#cw stroke#<- brief stroke talk in the clip thats why#odile i am so sorry for making u deal with the fact that i cant read#or just input words?? where there arent any??? i dont know why i do that????#these streams have made me realize i sometimes just autofill words when reading SAFADDA#also random side headcanon i was thinking of while drawing this#is odile speaks alot with her hands?#idk why i just think its fun?#and kinda makes sense as someone who has travelled a lot thru different countries?#personal observation but you can convey/tell a lot without knowing a much of a different language via body language#as someone who grew up with family who spoke a different language that i do not speak LMAO#especially hands!! those say a lot!!#reading body langauge/tone helped me a lot when guessing if what was being talked about a good thing or not#tho tone to a lesser extent since uh it can be hard to tell at times i think ASDFDA#so it makes sense to me???#the art of pointing in general location is a universal skill i think?? yea#to a lesser extent i think siffrin might do this? but more subdued/under the cloak so#the cloak ends up getting in the way 90% of the time so no one can actually see that lmao#okay tag talk over#no stream time today because weather boooooo storms
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wolfpack. aka: if not friend, then why friend-shaped?
"Hey-- uh, Danny?" There's an almost imperceptible tremor in Tucker's voice.
Danny doesn't look up from what he's doing, his pencil scritching across his notebook as he tries to do another quadratic formula question. "Hm."
"What's -- uh -- what's with the dogs?"
He looks up now, and finally sees where Tucker is -- standing in the doorway of his room with an ashy look on his face and a skewed, nervous smile. He's got a white knuckle grip on the doorknob. Sam is wide-eyed behind him, and using him as a partial meat-shield.
Danny looks down to the two giant ghost wolves sprawled next to him lazily. One large green one with his head in Danny's lap, letting him use him as a prop-up for his notebook. Another equally large black one splayed against his hip, sleeping on her side with her head tilted inward to his calf.
Automatically, a grin tilts across Danny's face, and he lifts his notebook up to scratch behind the green one's ears. He opens a lazy eye, one that is bloody red with a ring of yellow around the pupil, before slipping it shut and leaning his head into Danny's touch. "This is Sirius and Procyon," he says, and reaches down to scratch Sirius' belly. "And they're not dogs, they're wolves."
"Great," Tucker says, his voice suddenly much smaller and faint, "Love that distinction."
Sirius makes a great big groan, and Danny's grin widens, his heart swelling with fondness. His hand slips away from her belly, and before he can put his notebook back down, Procyon pushes his head up his lap until his ear is against his stomach, demanding pets now too.
Sam peeks her head up from over Tucker's shoulder, "I think what Tucker's asking here is what are they doing here, Danny."
He shrugs, scratching under Procyon's chin. "They kinda just showed up. I tried sending them back to the Zone, but they keep returning." And they were weirdly intent on just following him around, which is the only reason he gave up on returning them. They weren't causing trouble, and they knew how to hide around the living. Plus, he just loves dogs. "So now I have two wolves living with me."
This, oddly enough, did not do anything to calm Sam and Tucker down. Tucker's mouth purses into a thin line, and he presses the sides of his palms to his lips in prayer. "How have your parents not found out about this?"
Danny wordlessly raises his hand, and his sleeve slides down to reveal a thin chain bracelet hooked around his wrist. He whistles sharply, and both Procyon and Sirius jerk their heads up to look at him, ears pricked up and eyes alert.
Silently, he points to his wrist and rattles it twice, and in unison both wolves stand up and pounce. Instantly, they turn into a respective, opaque black and green mist that swirls around the bracelet and forms into two, flat wolf charms.
Both wolves are posing in the stereotypical wolf howl, with little stars indented on the sides. Procyon's charm has the Canis Minor constellation engraved on it, while Sirius has the Canis Major.
Danny faces Sam and Tucker, and points at his wrist. "Like this."
#danny fenton is not the ghost king#dpxdc#danny phantom#danny fenton#dp prompt#dpxdc prompt#dpxdc crossover#danny phantom au#dpxdc au#i am SO tempted to make this a danyal al ghul au for no other reason than I love Danyal Al Ghul <33 he is the most blorbo ever#wolfpack au#tagged dpxdc bc i think yall could have fun with this idea.#plus this was inspired by a clone^2 commission that i just got the finished piece for today. which i'll prolly share if anyone's interested#just no thoughts head empty danny with a mini wolfpack :] Sirius and Procyon are very protective of him. they wuuuuuv him.#my idea (kinda) is that they're actually straight up *danny's* wolves. like. they were made when he was. they're not random ghost wolves#that decided to imprint on this random ghost child. they're danny's. they're like. familiars. the fact that wolves symbolize power. loyalty#guardianship and the fact that they're described as 'extremely intuitive with a near supernatural instinct that can detect danger'#(all of which can apply to danny) was coincidental. but yeah. they formed in the ghost zone and when they didn't find their boy they went#searching for him. which is why he didn't have them right away. but also if anyone wants to take this they can interpret however they like#also like. the fact that danny canonically is friends with a wolf person (Wulf) and befriended Cujo instantly -- who is shown to be hostile#to anyone NOT danny -- makes me think that dogs just REALLY really like him. he's like. an animal whisperer. which i think is really funny#bc i think it'd drive sam -- resident animal activist -- up a wall. just a little bit. like yes its great that these animals love danny sm!#but also!!! she!! look her way pls. she loves you animals sm. she's vegetarian!! she's just a little envious. just a tad.#just mmm the mental image of Sirius and Procyon stalking out of Danny's shadow with deep rumbling growls. their hackles raised and their#muzzles scrunched up to reveal dangerously sharp gleaming teeth. they're protecting their boy.
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Whenever I tell someone what ao3 is, or how to use it, I always feel like I’m a little devil on their shoulder, whispering words of manipulation to get them to turn over to the dark side.
#like they asked me to#but still#ive been on ao3 since i was like 10/11#it’s great#practically made me the person I am today#ao3#ao3 fanfic#archive of our own#fanfic#fanfiction#marauders#marauders era#ao3fic#the marauders#atyd#tcoptp#ahb#all the fics#all the young dudes#marauders fic
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today i offer you prompts 11-20 for isat month!! ignore your calendar THANKYUUUU <3
#isatmonth#isat#isat siffrin#in stars and time#isat loop#isat mirabelle#isat isabeau#isat sadness#isat change god#isat spoilers#two hats spoilers#technically#is-at all the tags????? idk im tired!!#id in alt hope it makes sense im sorry in advanced!!#eyestrain#potentially#*looking at horizon DRAMATICALLY* i am no longer the person i was before i started this piece... (i hurty my hand </3)#maiora draws#today on: drawings that made my graphic design buddy really mad at me <3#i have developed so much beef with the favor tree while drawing this#i would fight the shit out of this fictional tree#and i would LOSE but whatever <3<3<3#i have so many nitpicks over this image but its OKAY its FINISHED now im FREE!! IM RUNNING AWAY#BUHbye have a nice day or night or whatever your hair looks amazing ok ciaociaoOOOOOO!!!!!!!
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Happy upcoming Valentine's Day from the Swirly Mosshead :D❤✨
#my second yaoi ancestors that made me the person I am today#one piece#zoro#sanji#zosan#art#fanart#sketch#valentines day
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Person with no whimsy: Why are you trying to trick g-d with loopholes? 🙄🙄🙄🙄
#jumblr#antisemitism tw#personal thoughts tag#practicing judaism because i am chock FULL of whimsy wonder joy and a zeal for life#i know we talk at length about this but my whimsy is whimsy-ing#also i don't think you even NEED to do these things 'for' g-d#i'm not becoming jewish for g-d. i do it out of love for g-d but that's not my reason (or my biggest reason)#i'm doing this for me. would that blow your mind to know...#conversion is partially a selfish desire to have the Most fun and fulfillment#this is something i genuinely believe in but i have learned to chase happiness and wonder#judaism captured my soul in that way. i find beauty and comfort and fulfillment and peace in this#g-d plays a role in my life but i know He knows we are people. we live for ourselves and each other#i made this post three days ago in a vaguepost about seeing this yet AGAIN. and i saw it again today (08/21) so#time to vaguepost in a petty way. because i love judaism and this annoys me
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231003 ♡ Happy Birthday Bang Chan!
#chan#bang chan#stray kids#cb97net#createskz#*gfx#*m#long post#all the stars in the sky couldnt compare to how much i love you... thank you forever and for always...#i will be by your side till the sun sets okay?#together always... im happy here with you#you changed my life and made me into a warmer person...#i think im so lucky that the universe led me to you... im so grateful that you exist here with me...#my everything... you are always my brightest sun and i hope to continue to be your moon#how many times can i say thank you till my tongue grows numb it still wouldnt be enough... to say thank you to you#because of you i am here still today... because of your kind words i was able to hold onto who i was that night#im never truly alone because you're always a part of my heart and who i am now.. you exist inside my very heart#you are so truly and deeply a soulmate to me...#i love you... so much..
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*I have a small horse plushie I bought a while ago, it's not one I made
#the person behind the yarn#I am a little sad today so I want to make things#feeling kinda bah humbug about this holiday#my mom made me a christmas stocking and texted me photos of the labels of the candies#so that I could check the ingredients and I SHOULD have been able to eat them#but they were mint chocolate? didn't say that anywhere but no candy for me :(#sometimes I get more frustrated at being sick than others
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they invented a new kind of tired you only feel after doing an artist alley
#anime central#acen#artist alley#not art#i have never been so happy to be tired before actually. oh my god. that was so much fun#and i've still got two more days#someone even said they found me From Tumblr On The Tags so there you go. HI PERSON WHO SAW ME FROM TUMBLR#YIPPIEEE#it was so fun to meet people and it was so fun when people went HEY *I KNOW YOU.*#i made fucking BANK today dude AND VASH EVEN GOT DONUT MONEY !!!!!!!!! MY WAIFU#i am so excited to go back. but first i need to print more prints#ONCE AGAIN i am at Anime Central in Rosemont Illinois at Booth H29 In the Artist Alley and i'll be here all weekend#NICE TO SEE EVERYONE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <3 <3 <3#best first con and best first artist alley 8 years later. i love u ACEN. mwah mwah mwah
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btw tw for talking about abuse
I've seen a lot online about how the game never mentions Caterina's abuse of Lucanis while he was growing up (being beaten and starved, which is mentioned in the Wigmaker Job) and I think there's a small mention to it if you're a crow (when asked, he says it was torture training under the first talon and that he resented her for a long time)
And while I do think part of the reason why this isn't brought up is just due to how sanitized this game is when it comes to the crows, I think I do understand why in world wise it's not possible to just be like hey lucanis, fuck your grandma.
It's really hard, loving someone who hurts you. Because you know they're hurting you and yet, you still love them. It's even harder when they're family.
Because its not like Lucanis doesn't know that she hurt him. He says so himself - he hated her, he resented her, and althought I do think him 'justifying' it by saying that at least it prepared him for the life of a crow, at least he still admits that it happened.
But the thing is that despite all this shit, she's still his grandmother. And like, yes, blood shouldn't excuse justifing this behaviour, I feel like it's cultural. Idk how spain or italy works when it comes to family, but here in brazil, you'll hear so many stories of physical abuse happening in families, and its still a situation like Lucanis - i hate them, i resent them, i love them, they're my family.
It's a...complicated situation and I think Lucanis's situation is made worst by the fact that he only has two family members alive and that he cannot let go of.
She beat him, she starved him, he hated and resented her, and he was afraid of dissapointing her, even if in her eyes, i don't think he could. I mean, he comes back an abomination and she still tenderly says 'my poor boy' when you rescue her in the Villa.
All in all...it's tought and I think that it would not be Rook's place to suddenly make Lucanis want to kill his grandma bc he wouldn't. Sorting out those feelings is something he has to do himself, and i'l almost glad the game doesn't make rook do a therapy session with him to talk about it.
#its complicated ok#i've just been thinking a lot about this#bc of my relationship with my mom#and coming to terms that i may be experiencing verbal abuse from her#and the very complex feelings i have in regards to her#so i kinda understand where lucanis comes from?#and why its not adressed in game#this is something lucanis has already come to terms with#there's not a lot you can do about it#maybe after caterina died he would think about it#but its not something that can just be 'solved'#in fact i think if caterina straight up died it would be worst#at least with her alive he could have some time to like fucking properly deal with these feelings#idk i'm not defending caterina#i'm just saying its complicated#idk i just see some posts about 'making lucanis realize all the shit caterina did and go kill her'#and i'm like idk if that would do anything for him#btw don't come for me this is a complicated topic and i did my best to express myself in the wretched language that is english#and when i talk about the cultural part#its bc more than once here you'll have people “brush off” that their parents did those things to them#bc its like...'its been so long and its made into the person i am today and there's not much point in dwelling on it'#it may not be the healthiest thing ever#but sometimes its what you have#sometimes you can't think about it too much if you just want to get on with your day#sometimes its does it even fucking matter its so in the past now#anyways#tw talk of abuse#again DON'T COME FOR ME#lucanis dellamorte
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At the risk of upsetting some people and inciting discourse, I’m not going to tag this fully at this exact moment.
Also, CW/TW: talk of suicide and depression.
I’m rewatching some scenes from season 6 right now.
And it legitimately makes me feel so sick to my stomach watching the scene of Viren deciding not to hand Soren the letter, which would detail his last words, on the pretense that it would not offer empowerment to him. Not only does he withhold it, but he outright burns the letter so it could never be seen by any other eyes besides his own.
Like, just thinking about all of the subtext that dates back to the very beginning of the show surrounding the idea that Viren could have been depressed.
It actually makes me so, so angry that not only all the characters but the writers themselves very vocally believe that Viren was completely undeserving of being heard or acknowledged as a person because he wasn’t a good one.
And, that’s not even going into the whole servant motif with him that, by the way, has some incredibly classist undertones given how Viren almost canonically grew up poor and is the only character we know of who is indicated to have been and is also the only character who has been constantly ridiculed for his status and seeking out of power by every other character of a similar status to him. And the show decides to fucking affirm all that ridiculing by forcing Viren to wear the same garments he was draped in for a “purifying” ritual conducted by a group of elves who very clearly had racial biases against humans in the scene of him sacrificing himself while claiming to be a servant by using dark magic to help people, the very thing he decided to let go of in part because of the judgement he received for supposedly not being able to help others with it and for being the thing that made him be viewed as lesser then his actual earned status.
I have so many qualms alone with that. The fact that the show used the idea of servitude, which would have been fine if they had used it any other way because it is obviously very relevant and important to his arc, to dehumanize him. (They outright contradict what it means to be truly serviceable to others by denying Viren the right to actually atone for anything he did and to only accept whatever punishment and treatment he’d receive for what he’d done. Instead of helping others, he is forced to be isolated from everyone and locked up till he is needed to save an entire kingdom of people who will never directly recognize his efforts in saving them. His interpersonal relationships played such a big role in his arc up to that point. And now he wasn’t allowed to be acknowledged by anyone on an interpersonal level besides Soren, and only to a very small extent? Most of the people he wronged he did on an interpersonal level, yet he wasn’t allowed to do anything whatsoever to “make up��� for what he did for those individual people?)
Also, the fact that somehow Viren denying himself the chance to be perceived fully by others and allow himself to be emotionally vulnerable (so much of his arc revolves around his struggles with introspection) was what the series considered empowering for Soren when it’s really just punishing Viren more then.
It is actually, really upsetting. It makes me angry, it makes me sad, almost to the point of making me cry. Straight up, I just have such a visceral reaction every time I rewatch any of the scenes starring Viren in season 6. Yes, I know that seems extreme. I don’t know, just the idea that the show thinks a character is deserving of being denied help or simply acknowledgment for struggling with depression or being killed in such a way that it is very comparable to committing suicide is totally fine (especially considering how this is a kids’ show and what message kids can get from this,) if they are unlikable or deemed a bad person (even though their chances to prove they are anything but those things or at least can become anything but those things are denied). (Could even go into what this communicates about imperfect victims of mental health struggles.)
#tdp critical#viren#lord viren#tdp viren#viren tdp#this is one of those things I keep trying to rationalize and understand#I love tdp and I try my best to understand their choices even when I don’t personally like them#just today I was rationalizing how the death of sir sparklepuff is actually what set up the way his arc played out in s6#and at the time it made me feel a little more appreciative and understanding towards the writing#but honestly I just think it’s bad#the bad outweighs the good and the more I try to sit with it and look at it from all angles the more I’m actually sure that’s the case#I am in complete disbelief that no one in the fandom seems nearly as taken aback with the handling of his arc as me#that’s not to antagonize anyone or go woe is me#I honestly just don’t understand why this isn’t a more popular sentiment in the fandom
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#I struggled so hard today#and for no apparent fucking reason#I struggled with something at work that I've done for the first time while also constantly task switching#and I STILL NOTICED MY MISTAKE#but the fact that I made a mistake in the first place is fucking killing me#I feel like I will be executed for it#it makes my skin crawl#and to know that I'll have to go up to another human being who I respect deeply and be like hey I made a mistake please don't hate me#is the first fucking thing#BUT IT DOESN'T NEED TO BE#part of science is noticing your own mistakes so why is this so terrible to me#I know upbringing bla#yes I was raised to believe that among all other things I'm smart#and I have had this proven to me over and over and over growing up#so when I actually struggle with something I can no longer be smart therefore I am nothing#utterly worthless#and nobody even meant me any harm by telling me I was smart#this is such a STUPID FUCKING problem to have#uh I was told I'm smart#bitch what#yes being yelled at from 10 through 28 by my father for completely unpredictable reasons did not help with me thinking this is terrible#BUT STILL#get your shit together#see and even now I'm beating myself up for struggling with something#URGH#I just want peace and not existential dread whenever I make a mistake that is definitely my fault#personal#so and if you've actually made it till down here I'm giving you a big hug#we'll make it somehow
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my day suddenly became better when i discovered what Mr Orange from pizza tower DOES get attention at tumblr and has his own tag, which made me want to share my old art of mine w him
drawn august 1, 2023 year
ffFFFUCKKK I SHOULD DRAW HIM MORE and i think i should've stuck to one of his designs more like most of the artist on tumblr did when drawing him.
#art#fan art#pizza tower mr orange#pizza tower#mr orange#pizza tower art#pizza tower fanart#cutted out characters 4 life#digital art#i am deadass when i say what discovering his tag today made me the happiest person on the planet
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I knew yinwar would go to SERVICE with that kiss scene but I did not think it would be THIS good like wow y'all rly used that homoerotic tension in all your irl interractions to project it into THE perfect characters in THE perfect plot about uncovering disguises and then go ham on the confession scene with a "game", another disguise. and once it's game over, once both of you have heard exactly what you wanted to, that perfect hungry, desperate kiss between two people who have always been afriad to dream and get what they really want.... godddd I'm so glad for the discovery of modern technology and the evolution of acting and all gay activists and yinwar who let me witness this scene today. life was changed, I was changed.. I am no longer the person I was 1 hour 14 minutes ago
#i personally am about to jump down the building to deal with the amount of feelings#i usually have a lot to say but today /i/ was left speechless#jack you need to join them on the crime.. pls get thay gun#yinwar i thank u for ur service over and and over again#can't believe i didn't know you before this year#bless the moment i was bored & decided to watch love mechanics bc that made me get into j&j and now the trajectory of my life is changed#and i need a psychiatrist#jack and joker u steal my heart#jack and joker ep:9#yinwar#yin anan#war wanarat
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LET’S FUCKING GOOOOOO
#yuurivoice#yuurivoice seth#seth yuurivoice#rp audio stuff#god bless what a glorious day#i am Winning with the selection of audios that my fav creators have been dropping lately what is going on#was gearing up to make a vent post but nvm misery postponed this takes precedence#had such an intense reaction to scrolling across this on my YT feed ohhh my god /pos#like. suddenly sprung to life. bouncing in my chair. leg pulled up in the air slapping my knee. shaking my phone around in the other hand.#embarrassing behavior but it’s fine no one saw me. and no one knows except everyone on Tumblr now#which i only make note of bc of how rarely anything makes me react so strongly like that. happy stimming? i think???#anyways i’m like the twentieth person to say this but that timing?? impeccable#my period just snuck up on me today so this audio will go live around the time i’ll need it most#southern comfort? heating pad and back rubs?? period comfort from my fav YV boy??? i am. So happy. i’ve wanted this for YEARS. YEARS I SAY#thank u yuuri for the early christmas gift i literally could not ask for more#sorry the alt text is prabably bad but i’m feeling like shit rn and awake past my bedtime and need to get this post made ASAP#*probably smh ok bedtime 4 me gn world
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