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ufash · 1 year ago
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sooo.... how would you feel about, say, drawing carnival!gangle wrapped (lovingly) around a little simp like a boa constrictor
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Snek moment
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flovoid · 2 months ago
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When an apple falls off a tree
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yosh-iro · 6 months ago
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i wish cities skylines npcs werent so fucking stupid sometimes
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arolesbianism · 10 months ago
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Thinking abt the random card au again. Why must it go so crazy hard I miss it sm
#rat rambles#random card au#no matter how far I drift from my bndori and sekai peak days the random card au keeps hitting me like a truck every now and then#it just scratches an itch that I havent been able to satisfy since my cr days years and years ago#I wouldnt say the random card au has super similar worldbuilding to my old cr stuff as that was much more large scale#but it still has a similar appeal to me I think#I think its the building entirely new worldbuilding based off of designs and general vague starting concepts and bringing them all together#that gets me invested as it feels so satisfying slotting it all together and then actually getting to play out the story in this new web#I loveeeee jumbled webs of worldbuilding and characters that all tie together in a way that makes it almost impossible to completely#seperate one cast of characters from another#I love the feeling of a world with a bunch of intertwining plots like that even if it makes it near impossible to format a normal story#like my cr stuff was just so much man I still miss it sometimes even if I hate cr itself#Ive become a much better story creator too now so I know I could make what I had so much better nowadays and I already like my old stuff#it just makes me all the more sad that I went so crazy hard on worldbuilding for a franchise that sucks ass </3#it may have been two of the worst years of my life but Ill also never reach that worldbuilding high again I think#oh also it made me actually start the slow slow process of getting more ambitious with my art and doing more digital stuff#rly thats the biggest reason the random card au pains me so since I wanna post stuff for it but man do I not wanna draw anyone from it#first of all human characters so already eh but also Id have to adapt the cards theyre based on into a design I can actually draw#so as much as I wanna make a billion random card au animatics I cant even bring myself to draw them normally#you see olivia and jackie are easier to draw because I just made shit up for their designs and as such made their designs very simple#but I cant just make shit up for bndori and sekai characters they actually have designs and hair that Id have to adapt to my style it sucks#I just wanna draw doggy arisa is that so much to ask for (yes yes it is I dont wanna figure out her hood)#also rip mygo yall will probably never get in but who knows maybe one day Ill have my second bndori era and then y'all will get in#its rly just the fact that they likely wont have enough cards to properly add them for another few years#especially if that other band also gets in if that happens neither are getting enough cards until the servers shut down lol#like I Could just pick and choose but thats boring#kinda ruins the point of the au y'know?#like tbf Ive cheated in the past by reroling two and limiting my options with several sekai characters#but thats just because at the time most sekai characters had almost no usable cards for this au and the two I rerolled were also unusable#like Im sorry but I couldnt just add normal ass hagumi and masking it wasn't happening
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tojisth3rdwife · 2 months ago
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⚠️nsfw/mdni⚠️
The parts of your body that you hated the most after having babies, Toji was obsessed with.
That tummy that just wont seem to go away no matter what you do? Toji couldnt keep his hands off of it. When he hugs your from behind, thats the first part of you he touches, smoothing his wide hand over it possessively and pulling your ass back against his crotch while he kisses your lips.
Your breasts that have seen better days due to breast feeding and the constant inflate/deflate that happens every pregnancy? Couldnt keep Toji’s mouth off of em. He was most definitely the baby daddy begging for a sip straight from you when you detached your breast pump. Just the sight of milk dribbling from your swollen nipple did things to him that he couldnt explain. When you had sex, you sometimes felt self conscious of them since they were no longer as perky as they were when you and Toji first started dating. It wasnt a big deal when Toji was on top of you but when you were riding him, you sometimes couldnt help but keep your hands on them to hinder their movement with every rock of your hips. Sometimes you didnt even take your bra off (which didnt last long with Toji) but that man didnt give a fuck about any of that.
The love of his life, the mother of his fucking kids, and true leader of the household was in his face with her tiddies out. Tiddies that kept his babies fed, fat, and healthy until they were weened. He was gonna show them all of the love and appreciate they deserved every damn chance he got. His mouth is latched to you, licking ans sucking your nipples like his life depnesed on it. If you were lactating, he’d pull back and express milk with his hand, and sticking his tongue out to catch the streams of sweet milk in his mouth with a depraved groan. They were big and heavy in his hands, but Toji showed not a care when he held them while you bounced on his dick, telling you how fucking perfect ans sexy you are. How hard you make him and how he could nut in you just like this if you kept riding him like that.
Apart fron that, Toji is kissing very stretch mark, every scar, every bit of hyperpigmentation, every blemish. He loves your body through every phase and he’ll be damned if he ever lets you forget that.
Do with that what you will..
A/N: yall dont even know how much baby daddy*husband toji/family man toji/dad to shit i have in my drafts that i cant drop yet. Im tryna establish a timeline and its taking a while cuz i gotta be an adult lol Soon tho. Hopefully lmao
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grapecaseschoices · 4 months ago
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"everything we do is a sign from the maker for those who seek one." -- dang vivi she just watched to catch up. lmao.
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"i'll say this, i may not believe in the chantry, but i believe in you."
aww dorian
i have so many feelings
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anexplosionofchaos · 26 days ago
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no matter how hard i try i will never. ever. move on from the dsmp.
literally you wont get it unless you were as obsessed as i was back then- the fandom, the lore, it was genuinely my roman empire likeee
it feels weird trying to even go back since im so removed from it now, but honestly even just having those memories is enough. like i dont know how to explain it but it was like.... probably how i first really really truly got into fandoms and fandom culture.. how i learned and saw soo much cool media and people... ohh dont even i still have the lmanburg flag hanging up in my room i fear i will never take it down 😭god c!dream was my first ever obsession character along with discduo and i fear im not recovering from that hyperfixation... (i still sometimes yap to myself about them when i reread old fics... dont tell anyone yall)
even if like some creators are weirdos now and some kind of sit in the "im not sure so im not going to interact" and most of the drama and hatred has turned me off from trying to enjoy any of the creators in the present- dsmp is probably the happiest and most fufillied ive ever been in a fandom!! maybe not happiest buuut i think you get what i mean lol
honestly my only wish is for the ending of it to have been more happy and the creators remain (atleast) civil afterward and not be... um! but yeah lol thats my rant
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ggyutarist · 3 months ago
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A Mask, Bedecked in White Crystals ✧˖°.
(Halloween Special!)
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💫: Beomgyu x GN Reader
Content: Masquerade ball and you dance with Beomgyu yahay!! Strangers to ??? to enemies.
‼️: Use of knife (but no one is stabbed). Slight cursing.
WC: 2.1k (oh my god i yapped.)
A/N: hehe short (not short) halloween special!! all i ever write about is beomgyu lmfao sorry. this is lowkey cliche and lame but like…who cares..ykyk. Its fine. Idk if this counts as halloween lols. Not sure if I should tag it as fluff or angst. Well its not fluff so angst ig?? But its not rlly sad. I think?… idk you guys give the verdict. not proofread sorry😞 (bru gotta put this below here bc its too long and yall wont see the actual summary help)
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The annual All Hallows’s Eve Ball has arrived once again. Hosted on the 31st of October, the lavish and fancy would be invited to come in the most extravagant gowns and suits. They would be encouraged as well to adorn their faces with masks that were dipped in saturated colors.
Too saturated, you thought. You managed to bag yourself an invite, not that it was difficult. You were always invited every year. It’s just this year, you have to attend. Let’s say…there’s a few matters that needs to be addressed. 
Though, back to the topic at hand, how do these overly bright colors not hurt anyone’s eyes? Some of them will be far too egoistic and come in the most obnoxiously fancy dresses you’ve ever seen. They act as if they’re attention-seeking harlots who constantly need eyes at them or else they’ll die. You tsk at the behavior of some people but it is what it is, unfortunately. The world was doomed from the very start so might as well get rid of those who make it worse.
Twisting the glass in your hand, you bring it up to your face to watch the drink whirl around. Well, it was certainly a better taste than last year. A bit more sweeter side but still leaving a strong taste on your tongue. Despite all this, you yawn due to your lack of interest in this ball. It’s the same thing every year, honestly. No wonder why people usually bring a plus one. The inexorable desire of humans for connections with others, you sigh at it. Let’s be real here. They’re just setting themselves up for a heartbreak. Let it be a heartbreak from the betrayal of a romantic interest—or fallouts from friendships.
You gave up on those long, long ago. Why would you or anyone for the matter, set themselves up for a relationship that’s bound to fail? That’s just blatantly stupid. You wouldn’t blame them if it were their first time, of course. How would they foresee that? A second time would be understandable because we all give second chances in life. A third is questionable but still tame. Maybe they’re just too desperate for that person. A fourth and beyond though…now that’s just wrong. They must be let go of. Before long, they’ll just do more harm than good.
But maybe, in this world where trust is lost easily, there are just some who turns out to be overly desperate. Perhaps, they lost everything to the point that this certain someone is their only reason left to live.  You made sure to never stoop down that low. You learned to live for no one else but yourself. Looking around, guess not all learns that. It was difficult, yes, considering you valued others’ worth more than your own but this world is just shit, okay? It’s just really that bad that you lost all care for the rest of them. This world is so, so big but others just make it seem so small and suffocating. It’s like they’re stealing all the air for themselves and leaving the rest to collect dust. 
Who knows? It could be the reason you ended up with a job like this. To rid this world of mistakes and burdens. No, not those who feel like a mistake and burden. We’re all insecure at some point in life, it’s okay. The only ones you shall discard of would be those who proved themselves as a hindrance to the bettering of this earth. Are you evil for this? Perhaps, depending on the person asked. If you were to answer this…it’s simple. You are merely a human getting rid of evil counterparts. 
The line between good and bad may seem to have blurred but it’s alright. Whatever brings the saving of this world, you will do. Even if it throws a few morals out the window. I mean, what’s the bad thing here? Disposing of, mind you, evil people? Without them, this place we live on will be so much better. What’s the reason to keep them? They’ll only make everyone’s lives miserable. But of course, not all sees through that. That’s why you’re here. You will so graciously lend your services and discard of them. Throw them to the fires of hell and make them repent for their sins.
You’re not Satan on earth, no. You only serve as the bridge between earth and hell. You guide these low-lives and then let the demon decide of their fate down there.
The sudden music change brings you back to this earth that you dread so much, snapping you out of your thoughts. You sigh, looks like everyone’s going for a dance. You can’t be bothered so you resort to staring down at your drink again, hidden away in some corner. Your mask slips off the bridge of your nose, prompting you to push it back up again. Once you do so, you lift up your head to find someone approaching you. Okay…that’s bad. You didn’t want to attract any form of attention on you so why is this guy going here??
He stops a few feet away from you and gracefully bows a 90 degrees. While keeping still, he holds out his hand, eyes peeking out of his masked face to yours as a silent invitation. You contemplate. Well, this is certainly random…but why the fuck not? He seems nice. Did a bow, left space between you two, and he’s pretty. Yes, there’s a mask but shhh. It’s quite obvious he’s pretty under that…thing that’s covering his face. Not like this was against the rules for you. All you had to do was do the job properly. This won’t be an inconvenience, right?
You press your fingertips against his own before sliding your hand down to his palm. He wraps his fingers around your hand and pulls you close. You take note of how warm his hand seems to be. It could just be you though. Been a while since you’ve done this so your skin could just be burning up from the close proximity. Right?…
You come back, once again, to earth as you feel your hand being lifted up to the air. You turn your head towards him and sees him give you a thin-lipped smile with whisker dimples.
Cute…
You’re seriously not falling for a stranger right now, are you? You mentally shake your head and prop your other hand on his shoulder, likewise his hand found itself on your waist. He guides you both to join the rest on the dance floor, full of dresses twirling and shoes clacking against the polished floor. 
And so…you danced. Miraculously, you haven’t stepped on each other’s shoes yet or rather you on his. He seemed experienced, decently enough that is. You managed to follow his footwork to the beat of the notes, spinning around at just the perfect time. He stretched out his arm before pulling you back to him again, trapping you both in a constant spin.
While the world was nothing more than a motion blurred, he remained the center of your vision. It’s only been a good amount of minutes, so why does it feel like you knew him since forever? The way the hands feel familiar, the way you somehow recognize his smile…why? You seem to can’t wrap your head around it. Nevertheless, you dance. The dance feels so heavy now that you get some sort of deja vu around this person. What could it possibly be? What—
You feel an elbow bump into you. Turns out you two were too absorbed in this dance that you fell behind the rhythm of the others. You watch him bow his head quickly, muttering a sorry to the other pair before turning his head to whisk you away.
It could be you. It could really be you but you just can’t seem to miss the mole that lies on his cheek. There’s no way. There’s just simply no way it’s him. You glance up to his eyes, ones that still looking away to find you both a space on this crowded dance floor. His lashes, it can’t be missed. They’re considerably longer than most people. So…could it be him?
You grip his hand tighter and start leading the dance yourself. Just trying to see something, you keep that repeating in your mind. You start taking the dance a bit too seriously, making him amused at the contortion of your face to focus. A giggle emits from his lips and your heart drops. Full on drops to the pit of your stomach. That giggle is too recognizable. You quickly look for a secluded place and led him there. Obviously, he’s extremely confused like haha…why are we going behind a random pillar at the side of the ballroom?
Each step broke a piece of your heart. How? How could’ve you fallen for him again? Is this not the same person who continuously broke your damned heart? Even as a stranger, you still managed to somehow keep a memory of him with you. Despite him leaving, you still held desperately onto that red thread that connects you and him. What you only realized far too late was that…yours was tied to your pinky in a pretty bow. While him? He held onto the other end with a loose grip. Pfft, he only needed you for his own selfish reasons.
You scoffed. You scoffed at your own stupidity. Maybe, perhaps…you weren’t as different as any other. In this world, we are all humans who are doomed to have this trivial shit called feelings. The desperation, at this point, is inevitable. The longing, as much as you hate to admit it, is rooted deep into your heart. You can’t dig it out as much as you want to. The only best thing you could do is keep piling things on it till it’s out of sight. Out of sight, out of mind. Just pray…it won’t get unearthed somehow.
Unfortunately for you, that’s what happened today. All your memories with this…bastard…got unearthed when it’s meant to be buried deep into your soul. It’s heavy to carry but whatever gets it out of the way. 
You still liked him. You still liked him.
Tears threaten to spill out of your eyes but you stop it. You cried too many times over him to the point you learned how to dry it without excessive blinking. Never again shall you show such a weak and pitiful side of yourself. It only brings hurt than comfort. A place filled with numbness…is better than a place filled with hurt and no one to provide you comfort.
You pulled him in behind the pillar along with you. All sense of love and genuine contentment from the dance are gone. No, you will not let him give you empty promises of happiness again. So to avoid that, you turn him around forcefully and shove him up against the pillar, eliciting a pained groan from him. 
He opens his mouth to retort but before that even happens…
You slowly bring out something sharp, something meticulously cleaned just for this situation that is unfolding before you. You slide the spine of the knife against his back, not sharp enough to cut skin but definitely enough to create goosebumps. You giggle at the tensing of his body and breath hitching, making you all the more tempted to slide the sharp object down his spine.
To the floor, the shadow of you two may seem like you’re still absorbed in the dance you’re sharing with him. A strange yet familiar feeling blossoming in your chest to which the dance attempted to pour out. But to the wall, the shadow consists of you trapping him with no way out with a weapon against his back. One wrong move from him and the said weapon will take his precious life. You’re certain he wouldn’t want that but just to be sure…
You lean in and whisper a moniker that maybe not all who attended this ball know. Maybe he wanted to be known by a less common appellation but that wouldn’t work on you.
“You and your cowardice. Going after a fake name still?”
You’re met with an unnerving silence. Though, you digress. This continued silence just proves all the more that you found him. You drag the knife up his back painstakingly slow. Once it reaches the back of his head where the strings lie, you slash it in one fell swoop. A mask, bedecked in white crystals, falls to the ground with a thud. That mask no longer belongs to him; just like his dignity.
“You know you’re done for once you see me, Choi Beomgyu.”
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A/N: happy halloween!!😸😸 (we’ll ignore the fact that idk what i was writing). this one sucked so badly but its aight. consider it a cliffhanger so…potential part 2…if you guys want.
rushed bc gotta post on actual halloween😔
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crushedsweets · 1 year ago
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WWHAT WUD THE CREEPS DO 4 HALLOWEEN I MUST KNOW
anon... yes i like this. general disclaimer this is tailored to my au !! stuff under cut
toby likes it, thinks its fun and stuff. he's not the type to dress up beyond like, maybe a jacket and a mask or whatever, but he'll go and buy(steal) stupid ass halloween decorations from spirit or the dollar store. there r several mini skeletons sitting around his cabin. he treats it like elf on the shelf, but. . . skeletons... def will sit around and watch scary movies with a bag of halloween candy . totally carves pumpkins with whoever will do it with him
tim wouldnt really want to do much cuz he's just tired, but he probably would put out a small little pumpkin and bowl of candy outside his door. he's in an apartment so he doesnt really get trick or treaters. will prob buy some candy after halloween so its on sale
brians so annoying omfg(lovingly) he'd buy a fake arm, blood, and wig and stick it in his trunk so it looks like an arm is sticking out. yall know what im talking about. him and tim share an apartment so he'd prob try to actually put something simple around it, like some plastic pumpkins, but nothing really big. he is also a grown man with no kids, so he doesnt find himself going all out for these things
natalie. ok i recently made it where she's either already a tattoo artist, or learning to be a tattoo artist or whatever, but i could see her and some coworkers setting up the shop all halloweeny. she's so fucking tall that they'd just call her over for all the spider web stuff. she thinks its fun and she likes halloween a lot so it's cool. she'd get a huge kick out of doing halloween tattoos during october too. goes and hangs out with toby/nina for it
nina goes to parties . she HAS to get a whole new costume for every party. its super wasteful but she doesnt care all that matters is shes sexy. every year without fail she is a sexy gothic vampire for one of the parties. she works at hot topic, BUT she'd absofuckinglutely get a second job at spirit halloween for october. she's a creepy galll... def sets her apartment up super cutely, brings toby and nat over so they can carve pumpkins with her, tries to dress them up, etc. tons of halloween posts on her social medias too LOL shes so cute
jeff would prob also go to more like... weirder ( ?) parties with creeps and scary people roaming around just doing crazy shit. warehouse shit. prob finds someone to bring home and kill. he thinks its fun, its easier to just go about his days looking the way he does, he loves scaring the fucking shit out of people. doesnt decorate or wear costumes though, says its cringe LMFAO. hates how hyped nina is about it
jane and mary would totally decorate, but in a much more.. ? elegant ? way. like those tall skinny candles, swap out their doormat for something halloween themed, really nicely done pumpkins for some reason. jane would want to host a cute little halloween dinner for uni friends. probably just gets simple costumes, like she'd put on a witch hat and black dress and thats all, but its cute. takes sally (and ben, if sally asks him to come) trick or treating.
sally draws tons of drawings, loves disney halloween marathons, paints on pumpkins(doesnt like the smell of gutting them), etc. she'd decorate with jane cuz she lives w her. she loves it so much but she still gets scared of the animatronic things at stores and stuff LOL. begs ben to trick or treat w her. really embarrassing for ben
ben wouldnt do much besides like. he'd get worse w his internet trolling (scaring the fucking shit out of teens on the internet), start doing more actual hauntings bc nobody will believe his victims during october which means slender wont find out he's doing it. he would not want to go trick or treating..but he'd go with sally with a pillow case and he'd try to awkwardly stand further back but the ppl at the door would always b like 'aw dont be shy come here!' LOL
jack doesnt celebrate it, his family didnt really celebrate it much when he was human so he doesnt do it now. he does get kinda sad during holiday season though, cuz of obvious reasons, but halloween isnt the strongest Pain for him
liu is so fucking miserable theres no way. jk he'd set out like, some pumpkins and maybe get one of those lights that project ghosts onto his garage, but he wouldnt want to go all out or do anything to the inside of his house. jeff really liked halloween when he was younger so its kinda like ouch but he's getting overit. i guess. . .
kate doesnt..celebrate anything........ but when she does occasionally visit the cabin, maybe for food or a shower, and she sees toby decorated, she'd be happy to see it. she's kinda unsettling to be around, but she'd sit down and watch a movie with him in silence. then bring a massive bag of candy to the mine w her w/o telling toby. he just had to cope
ann and lulu dont do anything in the hospital. they dont really have any concept of time........... or the resources to decorate... and they dont get any trick or treaters... cuz theyre...stuck in an abandoned hospital in the woods . . . yeah..
ty for ask anoni like this one. very simple but very sweet
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crepuscularious · 1 year ago
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mansion
another imagine inspired by a song LMOAFJSOFA
in this, miguel is a ceo of alchemax, ironic isnt it? lol, i couldnt think of anything else
also how come doja is the most problematic artist but could still manage to keep a song stuck in all of our heads?
lastly, thank you!?!?!? i was so surprised my shit is suddenly getting like 100 likes and reblogs, im kinda running out of ideas for songs but yall could req anytime. to the most sweetest fluff as well as the most sluttiest smut! <3 thank you!
ceo!miguel x fem!reader
"baby, can you call me back? i miss you. its so lonely in my mansion"
you had married a man who you hardly even known at first, no lie. you guys met through an app and it just stuck. you went through all kinds of dates and all kinds of sloppy, full of drool kisses. he later revealed to you that he was a rich man who was a ceo. apparently, he never showed his face to the public, he was some kind of lady gaga 2.0
miguel was the sweetest, yes he was protective, and gets mad easily, but he knows his limits, especially towards you. someone hurts you? off with their heads! someone said you werent good enough for him? off with their heads! you get the point
it has been a week since you last saw him, normally he would let you accompany him everywhere, whether its a personal matter or he needs to go overseas for his work. but this time, you had stayed at home
"im sorry, amor. i really want you to let you come with me. but you know how it is at work, i wont be able to spend time with you there anyways" those were the words miguel said before leaving.
now, here you are. waiting for your dear husband, patiently, a little horny, but most of all, lonely. you couldnt help but sleep with his pillow wrapped around your arms and a leg on top of it, pretending youre snuggling up to him at night.
*incoming call from: mi vida ❤️*
miguel looks down at his phone, even if he was in the middle of a very important meeting, he would stop anything for you. what if it was emergency? what if she was bored? or worse, what if she was in the mood for phone sex!?
"hello, amor? whats wrong, mi vida?" miguel asks, holding a finger up to the line of his workers sitting down, as well as the person who was presenting a presentation to him
"i miss you, when are you coming home?" you asked, an obvious pout on face
"mi corazon..." he said in a certain tone, as if he was telling you he already answered this question a thousand times and was tired of hearing your pleas of coming back home.
"im sorry, i know youre busy. i just miss you, i cant sleep at night, you know" you said
"i know, mi vida. please understand, i love you so much. ill come back as soon as possible. okay?"
this scenario happened a few times for a week. he told you he was coming back in two days, but days has passed and hes still no where to be found. not to mention the very small texts he has been sending you
you were so saddened about everything, you missed your husband, very dearly. you just wanted to cuddle and squeeze him to death
*calling: mi guapo <3*
the text on your phone said, but he doesnt answer and it goes to voicemail
"baby, can you call me back? i miss you, its so lonely in our mansion"
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scourgefrontiers · 1 year ago
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yall ready for a gender journey post..
so yall could probably guess i grew up a cis girl. i didnt start questioning my gender until high school after i broke up with my first boyfriend which kind of freed me up to explore my identity as my own person for the first time. around age like 16 was when i first started identifying as trans, and at the time that meant a binary trans guy
after a couple years of getting comfortable exploring my gender i decided hey maybe im actually not a binary trans guy but instead nonbinary. still transmasc and guy leaning but not quite all the way anymore. this became a trend for the next loooong while, getting closer to the androgynous part of the spectrum as time went on
then in recent years (maybe about 5 years ago ish) i started to lean more towards femininity. this is significant for me because growing up i was always opposed to it--i hated wearing dresses, i hated putting on makeup, anything "girly" appalled me and i didnt know why. i ended up thinking its because i WASNT a girl, and thats why i was so uncomfortable with everything to do with being a girl. i rejected it so hard because it just wasnt me.
after living with eden for a while i got even more comfortable exploring the feminine part of myself. i started wearing dresses and skirts and actually ENJOYED it; i started painting my nails and wearing earrings again; i even grew my hair out to my shoulderblades (yeah thats where its at now LOL). ive even started using she/her alongside they/them. and im actually enjoying these things??? it feels like after all these years im finally able to reclaim them because i feel like im finally able to be comfortable with my gender--how my gender feels to ME, not to everyone else.
that was the problem when i was growing up--i was trapped in everyone else's perception of my gender and what it "should" be. i was trapped into a box that was made by everyone else's idea of what i SHOULD look like, what i SHOULD wear, what i SHOULD act like, etc. and it took me until age 26 to fully realize that my gender is what i want it to be, not what everyone else wants.
i dont have to be a guy to want facial hair and a flat chest and a low voice. loving pink and dresses and cute things and makeup and jewelry doesnt inherently mean im a girl. pronouns, features, clothes, even names dont inherently mean youre one gender or another. your gender is defined by you and only you and nobody should be able to put you into a box and define your gender for you.
..having said all this, im starting to explore my gender further, and im slowly coming to the POSSIBLE conclusion that i might come back around to being cis (albeit gnc). nothing would really change about me except the label tbh. if i do end up coming to that conclusion i will be very bummed about leaving the trans community, but i wont feel any less attached to it, as ive spent literally half my life as part of it. i understand what its like to be trans and to love myself as my most authentic self, and thats why im considering this possiblity!
identifying as a lesbian kind of pushed me in this direction as well--i cant remember the last time i felt truly comfortable and happy with a label regarding my orientation.. like ya damn. maybe i am a girl who likes girls LOL. it just feels right and natural for me personally??? its crazy. i love women. if youre a woman i love you no matter the flavor. i love my wife more than all of you though sorry <3
but god please dont take this as me being like "oh trans people just need to get comfortable with their gender and theyll realize theyre cis" that is a bullshit take and i am not saying that. this is strictly my own experience and journey! i am 100% not speaking for every trans person and you shouldnt either.
but ya. dan cis era???? we'll see. no official statement just yet but i just wanted to let yall know where im at in my ~gender journey~. until i confirm anything please still view me as a nonbinary girlthing! <3
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jaehyunsprincesspeach · 1 year ago
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I.N as a Boyfriend
Our not so baby bread omg i love him!!
He just makes me smile so much omggg
Hope yall enjoy :)
All the love ~ lunar
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I fear that at the start of the relationship he wont really know what to do
But with the help and advice of his hyungs, he will learn quickly
Honestly, would be very nervous to make the first move with anything
So you may have to initiate things until he gets comfortable
Once he does though, he treats you like a queen
Similar to Minnie, he would tease you relentlessly, though he would always make sure you know that he is just joking
Once he gets comfortable, he opens up to you about anything and everything
Asks Channie for a lot of advice, though he won't tell you about it right away lol
Poor baby just doesn't want to mess anything up
Beats himself up a lot if he thinks he made a mistake (please reassure him omg)
Acts of service and quality time are his love languages
When he is away on tour he sends you the most random messages
“So hypothetically if I saw a mini Eiffel Tower trinket in Paris is that something you would want?”
Disclaimer, he already got it for you
Honestly yall would have a very playful relationship
Takes you on some of the best dates that are super low key
Dancing in empty parking lots, looking at the stars and city lights, shopping dates, movie dates
Does not need things to be extravagant, just wants to be with you
Enjoys quiet nights with you, just enjoying each others presence
When he is upset, he clings to you
Loves it when you play with his hair
If you are upset, he is buying all of your favorite things to cheer you up, and is holding you as close to him as humanly possible
Nothing hurts him more than seeing you upset, hell do anything to bring a smile back to your beautiful face
You are the only person he shares his food with
Shares his clothes too, unless its a planned outfit for his OOTD
Styles you all the time, and he loves it
I could see him being the type to bring you flowers, though he wont directly give them to you
Hell just show up and put them in a vase and wait for you to notice
Loves taking care of you honestly, he just loves loving you
Another one to make it known that he only has eyes for you
Is ready to fight anyone for you, no matter what the situation is, he’s got your back
The kind of boyfriend to wipe your tears away and hold your face in his hands while he kisses your nose
Just the cutest most relentless boyfriend ever hehehe
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slutdge · 11 months ago
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Heavy subject matter under the cut im just not feeling well and need to get it out of my system
i used to constantly try to convince myself that my experiences with police brutality werent that trauamatizing but im glad i got over that, cause girlypop if you were slammed down on the ground, handcuffed and screamed at to stop resisting (all this during a mental health wellness check) despite yknow. being handcuffed face down on the ground while an officer was digging her knee into my spine so hard i couldnt stand up straight for over a week afterwards was, in fact, bad for your mental health. and this was only one of many instances. dont give these dumb fucking pigs any grace.
with that being said, i dont think ive expressed enough how much you will never feel safe after experiencing police brutality or mistreatment even if its just one time, whether its in your home or in public, you will never feel safe again anywhere because you know first hand they can do whatever they want and get away with it, and its something ive really been struggling to cope with lately now that im kinda drinking less off and on. like i dont know how to function knowing that that could happen again at any time no matter where i am and i couldnt do anything to stop it because even if you dont resist they still wont give you any kind of mercy, there is nothing you can do to snap them out of their fascist power trip because thats why they became cops in the first place. i dont know how to not live in fear and despair when cops are out there especially with the added factor that my abusive parents have on multiple occassions made false 911 calls that ive said i had a plan to kill myself so that i would be arrested and taken to the psych ward every time theyve suspected ive been getting too close to escaping from them and going no contact with them like i want to, even going as far to get a court order to have me arrested. idk i just dont know what to do anymore lol theres not a single thing in my life that isnt tainted with despair idk how im even alive still. sorry for the depressing incoherent late night thoughts, i hope yall are having a good night 🫀 it sounds silly cause its just tumblr but truly this blog is the only place i feel like i can freely express myself and i appreciate everyone who has taken the time to send me kind messages, more often than not thats the only positive thing ill experience in my day
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thetentaclecommander · 1 month ago
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End of the Year (2024) Roundup
Wow, it's been a year since I decided to do the tumbles. Nice! I've just been me unapologetically and this year I: -posted 9 new writings (which is a lot for me!) and apparently took over the N/J based tags here (step it up yall, I already dominate AO3 - other ppl are at least posing over there now) -dicked around with some fun peeps in posts/reblogs and have acquired some badass mutuals -found a few more Nemmy and Jill shippers in the wild which is nice! -found the fun fandom discords (super secret pro tip: if they are mainly filled with 30+ old fandomers who support the creation of fiction including darker fiction, you generally can't go wrong. Still stand your ground no matter the space - or leave. Spaces that suck your energy by 'over moralizing' characters aren't worth your time.) -upped my my fic game. It is ever growing and writing randomly here/for writing groups found here helped that growth -got back into some fandoms I either forgot about or new ones that I now am interested in -caused one known block but have been generally treated peaceably on here (I'm probs on a fandom badnik list by now if I wasn't already; it's been years guys, I know what I'm about and am not changing that X'D). I apparently curated my space very well. Or threw some moltovs and the damage stuck /shrugs. I do not want fame, but just to have a fun time with fellow nerds. That being said I... -spread my gross shipping disease of Tyrants and humans banging across the land of tumblr as the eldritch being I am is wont. Remeber kids: do not test me. Every single time I get a complaint, I CAN and WILL make it worse <3 like Nem's dick in Jill's e-[redacted]. Also, don't bite the hand that feeds (iykyk). -gained by way of crossposting between platforms a marked increase in AO3 faves, subs, follows, bookmarks and comments (even if some of the bookmarks are private and some faves/comments are on alts/anons I still enjoy yalls stopping by!) -oddly despite (or because of my silliness) have to me a sizable following on here. Like I'm gone for days at a time; I'm still baffled by that lol Fandom I've realized is in fact not that dead, it just requires a bit of the nudge nudge handshake like back in the times of yore. In general, I feel very sated by these results >:) You're still (not) welcome.
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earlysunshines · 6 months ago
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Just because they have d!ck does not mean it has to equal male. If you can’t understand g!p that’s fine but that doesn’t mean others don’t. Also, you write “porn” as well; so I don’t why you’re acting holier than thou.
brotha do nooottt take it serious i don’t think my opinion on gp matters u can still enjoy it like😭😭😭it’s my blog i feel i can def state my opinions and other ppl can agree w me (but ill prolly stop from now on bc ive awaken some of yall)
obv genitals ≠ gender that’s very well known like gender is a social construct and whatnot
if ppl enjoy dicks then😭😭good for them! i am not part of that tho so LOL
also the “holier than thou” ijbol that’s lowk so funny to me i giggled im loving the shakespearean lingo LMAAOOO anwyays yeha ive written questionable things but my freak era is def over for a long while so😁👅 and if ppl enjoy what i have written then they can indulge and if they don’t then they … wont
and i nevevvvveerrr said i was better or “holier than thou” but i can see as to why u think i’m acting as such just bc i dislike something (which i am assuming) u enjoy😞😞😞💔💔💔💯💯💯💯
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nxmiirxe · 14 days ago
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guidelines ┈─★
things 2 know before reading/following ꨄ︎
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blog rules
• no bullying or disrespect will be tolerated. if you dont like the content please just block me lol.
• even after being on this platform for so long i still dont know how to use it honestly TT. if i dont get to your request/suggestion i probably didnt see it or am not taking them atm!!
• i dont write nsfw, dont know if i will in the future but i doubt it. i also will not take any requests sexualizing/framing minors in a weird position. i dont play that here.
• please dont plagiarize my work!! if you take inspiration from a post/like an au please credit me or the original creator that i tagged.
• i dont write for fics/hcs for real people but i will def talk about them in shitposts!!
• i only write for fem/gn!readers and woc (since i am one myself) but please know everyone can read my work and generally features wont be mentioned unless specified otherwise (exp: blk!reader)
• this acc is always open to conversation!! like yes pls tell me every reason why you think luke castellan was valid for wanting to fight the gods but initiated the war in the worst way possible. talk to me abt anything
• i don’t write for ships, sorry!! i will def talk about/mention them in regular posts but not in fics
• i am also a quantum physics buff. no matter what you believe this account is safe for shifters/astral projectors. yall r fire.
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