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tau1tvec Ā· 1 day ago
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Okay, I watched the trailer, and Iā€™m gonna try to avoid echoing whatā€™s already been said about the upcoming expansion in the YT trailerā€™s comments by instead explaining how EA rlly couldā€™ve use this packā€™s theme as an opportunity to garner good will, and also make more money, while pushing a more modular aspect to The Sims 4ā€™s DLC structure.
Make Get to Work FREE. The pack is how old??? Nearly as old as the base game, and much like the base game itā€™s absolutely showing its age, both in style and gameplay, esp now this new pack is coming out. Giving it away for free wouldā€™ve given the Free 2 Playness of the BG a much needed revival, grown the player base, and just given a lotta ppl who still havenā€™t bought it probably bc itā€™s old as sin, a means to rejoice. Throw in a light refresh, like new objects for bonus good company points.
Make the new lot options Base Game. Mostly bc Iā€™m sick of seeing what feels like BG content get put behind a paywall ( looking at you For Rent ), and being pushed as this huge selling point, when I rlly wouldā€™ve rather had some more of something else, like BANDS šŸ˜¤. With GTW accessible to all players, it couldā€™ve easily been implemented to BG, or Iā€™d like to think itā€™d be easy for EA since Iā€™ve seen at least two gr8 mods that have allowed you to run business outta your sims house since 4ever.
Bring back GamePacks. Iā€™m probably weird, but I actually loved these little bitches, but I know EA probably loathed them bc gameplay, and a world, for only $20 šŸ¤Ø ??? Though hear me out EAā€¦ 3 ( three ) GamePacks, all focusing on one aspect, in this case hobbies you can monetize, but that add 2 hobbies each, and play on different themes, like an art one, music one, and food oneā€¦ ig ??? Idk, sims love food apparently. Either way, we wouldā€™ve gotten more skills, more CAS, and more Buy Build and gameplay, and EA wouldā€™ve made an extra twenty bucks off of completionists.
Iā€™m still waiting to see what else could be in this pack, although a lot of whatā€™s in it has already been detailed, and it ainā€™t a lot imo, but this has been happening a while now ( looking at you again For Rent ). I get that EA has to bring in money to keep the lights on, and that they might ā€œallegedlyā€ be in a tough position rn financially, but Iā€™d also like to think they kinda put themselves there? Like how is it our responsibility as the fans to keep a company afloat that isnā€™t rlly doing enough to entice us to open our wallets, and instead look to other means to acquire it.
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spidey-brain Ā· 3 days ago
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I watched the 3 new eps of Your friendly neighborhood Spider-man, so here are some of my thoughts:
First, I didn't expect for them to drop 3 whole eps on the second date of release. Like, usually they drop 2/3 eps for the premiere of the show and then it's one ep per week. Which, idk if I like this. It's not a big deal, but I still find it weird. It feels like they are in a rush to release the eps. Maybe it's this one time to make up for the lack of marketing before the show started and because of, well, some controversies that this show has/had even before it started... idk, it's just speculation, and I've seen other people think the same. Anyway, moving on.
Somehow, I feel like Norman is being a better "mentor" to Peter than Tony was in the MCU. Though, this might be because the MCU was kinda limited in their movies and didn't show many scenes between them. This is why I put mentor in quotations, and also because in some ways Norman is still being fishy. Like, he turned out as being more good and genuine than I expected at first, but, ya know, because of Spider-man and Peter Parker luck, shit can hit the fan in this relationship rather quickly.
Norman seems to be a fan of superheroes (emphasis on the seems, and @poke-maniac made some good points in the comments of this post about how Norman seems to not trust or like heroes and only does so with Spider-man because he has the chance to keep Peter under his thumb. And like poke-maniac also put it, Norman looks like he likes to keep things and people (like his son and Peter) under his control. Which ya, can make his "turn into villainy" more expected). And I like how the show actually talks about the Sokovia Accords and their aftermath. Like, for now, it's not much, but I'll take anything about that, considering the MCU didn't really do anything with it besides more than half of the Avengers/heroes not being present when Thanos invaded in Infinity War. Norman seems to be somewhat obsessed with helping/(probably) creating the next big hero that is gonna be the saviour of New York, more in the sense of him being the one responsable for and in control of said big hero of New York.
Norman is being an ass by ignoring some of Peter's desires for Spider-man, like the man didn't even take a look at Peter's designs. Which also, I love that we see Peter design and holding on to his red and blue suit. Can't wait until he makes his own suit. Oh, and also, Norman was also being an ass by offering Peter costumes that had nothing to do with his spider powers and Spider-man persona. Like, Norman, the kid calls himself Spider-man for a reason, you idiot. Though, I found the experimenting the suits scenes hilarious.
I love that Peter refused Norman's offer at first and the poor boy was so nervous when he had to meet Norman in the aftermath of his identity reveal. I also like that Peter took his time to think and to be convinced to accept the offer and that it took Peter thinking of May's money struggles and Norman proving to be helpfull/that Peter needed some help. And, btw, Norman was also fishy by how he hacked Peter's equipment through the satellite. I mean ya, he helped Peter, but still...
Harry found out too. Ups... Peter needs to learn to be more carefull with his secret identity. Though, that is also Norman's fault for not warning Peter beforehand that his son was there, but I also think that it's made obvious that Norman did want his son to know as to be there to help Peter as his "guy in the chair" (lol, they be channeling Ned from the MCU with that one). For now, Peter and Harry's relationship seems to be pretty wholesome. (Though, probably, at some point shit will hit the fan with this relationship too. Maybe because of jealousy and daddy issues, but idk, I might be wrong and this time things will go right between Peter and the Osborns - which I still doubt they will. We'll see...) Oh, and well, Norman not warning Peter about Harry and/or talking to him about telling/showing Harry the truth beforehand is also a red flag. (Norman, that wasn't your secret to tell!)
Though, despite trusting Norman, Peter still seems to not be at ease with him, like he even said he is intimidating, lol. Which makes sense as he is the first person to find out Peter's secret and, despite wanting to help Peter/Spider-man, Norman isn't really listening to Peter and what he wants/needs, as of now. Let's see how that goes moving forward. (And again, Norman's controlling tendencies...)
I liked Tombstone's origin and how they made it contrast to Peter's current situation. Also, that the show, generally, is focusing more on street level crime and gang wars than the MCU ever did.
Uncle Ben is still being talked about, yay :) - though, I still don't get why the show is hidding him. Like, why not show at least a photo of him or something. Why does it feel like the show is making Uncle Ben kind of a mistery (I guess)? Idk how to explain, but it's kinda weird, imo. They even had the chance of showing him when Peter was looking through the pictures on Ben's camera. Also, on another note, it was heartbreaking to see May have to sell Ben's things in order to pay the bills.
Doctor Octopus is here. I like this version of him so far. But we still haven't seen much of him, so ya.
Peter is still coming off as a bad friend to Nico because of his Spider-man stuff. Also, was, like, the show teasing Nico's powers when she touched that necklace, idk, maybe. Sorry, I didn't read her comics...
Overall, I'm enjoying the show and I want to see what happens next. I like it more than I expected to like it at first, especially as it's more of an alternative universe for the MCU than for the comics/other Spider-man cartoons. And they handled the whole "Norman as Peter's mentor" thing better than I expected. Though, this is just the begining of it, but as of now this is how I feel (lol).
It's like seeing a version of the MCU where they used more concepts of Peter Parker's Spider-man characters and ideas. Ya, still mixed, and actually more mixed, with other stuff from other comics, but I still like it and it makes the show feel more "Peter Parker-esque" to me (I guess that's a way to put it. At least, when comparing it to the MCU, lol).
I think it's a fun reimagining.
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the-stove-is-divorced Ā· 1 day ago
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Platonic relationships get seriously side-lined and it's honestly maddening. They make a point to have hero teams, long standing and assumingly incredibly tight knit, and then have ZERO elaboration for any of those dynamics! We get a Kate & Immortal, Rudy & Monster Girl which are both weird as best, but no actual exploration into what TT was like! It's so odd? Like they're teams! TT is arguably family-like. AND DON'T GET ME STARTED ON MARK AND EVE, OMG. Like, they incited Mark's interest in her, not from Mark just admiring her, naturally crushing on her over time, bonding, or even her flirting first, it's guilt. Like, actual guilt? It's not even her her, it's another verison of her that actively rescued him at such a horrible low, Mark probably feels like he owes her! It feels like they're checking it off the last quickly than natural development? It's so bizarre??? We already discussed Kate, too, but it's all so odd. What are the priorities???? (怍ļ¼žļ¼œ)怍 I loathe their ship because of it, istg.
Kate and Mark need to hang out and just chill, please. Literally they both need it.
Yeah, and if they're test subjects, or anything like Rex, this normally would be an insanely fucked up thing to do, but especially fucked up thing to do! Where's the rage at feeling like a lab rat all over again? If Robot got them all together, where's the accusations that he was just testing them, seeing which one made the best to copy? AND RIGHT? Why doesn't it affect how Rex sees Amanda? How Amanda sees Rex?Where's any commentary about this impacting dynamics permanently? Why are they just cool with it? Where's the arc to gain trust back? Why haven't the dynamics shifted for a season, mistrust? Missions gone wrong because they don't believe him? Leaving rooms because he's in there, even. Outright refusing to even go on the field with him. Go dramatic and have him kicked out the team! SOMETHING! What GDA doesn't and do know about the Mauler twins will never not be funny to me like they're casually pushing the boundaries of technological accomplishments when blackmailed, and even not, they could single-handedly end wait lists for organ transplants.
I'd love more look at Art as a way to explore the hero ecosystem, like him being outright, stubbornly neutral. Does he have discounts for non-indestructible supers? How does he keep from being pressured to spill anything about villains if GDA/GoG knows/figures out what he may know about dangerous villains? Does he kinda just know everybody by proxy? Like does he refuse to know any details about what people do, or does he just get close to some clientele like Nolan? Does that make an unintentional informant, if he wanted to be? Do registered supes have their suits paid automatically? I'd love if villains/heroes referenced him randomly, like "damnit, I just saw Art," like randomly.
The Immortal and Mark comment is actually insane, when have they ever? Immortal actively distrusted him???? Like, there is potential for Mark somewhat projecting into Immortal and trying desperately to prove himself to him specifically, because if someone who KNEW Nolan AND hates Mark changed their mind about him, then it could really prove he's not his Father's Son...and dammit I want a fic on this now. That's so compelling. Dammit. But in canon, it's just like one-sided mistrust that dies after one mission and they're like distant coworkers. Though, kinda crazy Mark isn't trying to have some mentor, I'd think he'd want to model himself after anybody else. He wanted to be just like his Dad so bad, it'd make sense to me if he tried find a new role model. Idk gimme desperate asf Mark.
AND YES. Please give us SOMETHING to work with 'cause why is no other nation even mentioned? How is there NO throwaway lines about that? Shadow gov't type comment would work so perfectly, it's so fitting??? [[ Also still baffled that Immortal cared so much to yell at Shapesmith about AMERICANS getting left behind on Mars and not just, y'know, HUMANS. ]] <- This is such a good fucking point cause why does this show ffr not mention ANYONE ELSE. And why is Immortal (incidentally???) such a patriot??? I'm too tired to add on my own questions, but it's such a head scratcher. This is needed world building here. AND INCENTIVE for hero kids is so interesting. Like hero recruiters trying to snatch up needed heroes, or even flex how many they have in case of anything. Is having more heroes like having more nukes/weaponry, or something adjacent? Like is it a threat if one nation has more loyal heroes than others considering how potentially destructive they can be?
NO FR! WHAT WAS THE CECIL INCIDENT AND WHY IS DEBBIE NEVER LETTING IT GO. I would fucking laugh my ass off if it was because while babysitting, Cecil stopped paying attention while his precious teleporter was still in production and he just fucking lost Mark. Like they were running tests and Mark got hit by a stray beam of light, or sneaking somewhere and they lost him. I'd never forgive that either. What do you mean you lost my CHILD? AND HE COULD BE ANYWHERE ON EARTH OR EVEN FUCKING BEYOND? Please, let this be the reason I'd die laughing. It'd be typical of a kid POV if for Mark he had this grand adventure one day but after his Mom HATED Cecil and he never babysat again.
ALSO YES? This is what I'm talking about like the impact of a Hero Family, because yes Debbie shouldn't be afraid of her own husband but also like,,,, he could kill you in seconds, I'd be wary, personally. Like her sense of danger should be skewed? Maybe even desensitized to violence, death, threats, dangers. At what point does the vaguely dangerous stuff your husband does become mundane? Like, at what point does it become kinda meaningless??? Or, has she always been a Take No Shit kinda person?
I feel like this is what I mean but how it's ODD that Invincible tries to have the "normal family for YEARS" dynamic that ONLY changes when Mark gets his powers, but refuses to elaborate on how average they can possibly be with their shown dynamics, or possible implications considering who they are? I get why, it's a classic comic setup, average teen until POWERS, but also... it is so much more fascinated and makes more sense if they're fucking unhinged in weirdly specific areas by proxy. Debbie has a completely warped sense of danger + unimpressed by most heroic activities b/c they've become mundane, Mark, subconsciously, views heroic work as ultimately superior if it's more important than his Dad being home, Nolan thinks is fine to be majority hands off for his own child, etc, etc.
While I'm not too familiar with the DCU- your batfam meta posts are intiguing- so in transfering some of the broader strokes from them- I think you tackling a 'Mark isn't Nolan's biological son' fic would be fascinating. Sort of a step to the side of the 'what if Mark never got his powers' fic that sometimes pop up in the fandom
OOOOOO chewing on this currently, hm, the much a distinct flavor of exactly what youā€™re talking about, but the potential for more family drama depending on WHO knows. Does Mark know?? Is he waiting every day only to be crushed? Does he confused non-Debbie features with Nolanā€™s? I suppose Iā€™m not the most enthusiastic about non-power AUs, but I think thereā€™s something very fun to explore about Mark having to settle with, if he knows all his life, he will never have powers? I think the trajectory of his dreams will obviously shift, I can see him still having that distinct fatherly idolization, but perhaps embraces being useful to the GDA? Cecilā€™s number one internā€”only internā€”curtesy of nepotism, ha! There is something tickling me about Mark taking the Robin Route/Role for the Teen Team in terms of having no powers, just insane skills, BUT thereā€™s something way more delicious about intern Mark when s1e01 happens and Mark tries snooping around to find out the truth about what happened to his Dad.
I wonder if, with Mark having a whole another father, if theyā€™re more or less distant relationship, depending on WHEN Nolan entered Markā€™s life? Like if Debbie met Nolan later for this, or just for fun, they dated once, separated (Mark being born during then), then they happened to stumble into each others lives again and Markā€™s already been born, anywhere from tween to teenager so thereā€™s a gap in how close they are. I feel like one important aspect of the whole Family Drama is how close theyā€™re supposed to be, a functional, loving family turned upside down? So I wonder what more distance does. I wonder how Nolan copes when his family is entirely human and he canā€™t project onto Mark.
I love thinking about these, omg.
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yellowstriipes Ā· 9 days ago
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kinda funny that on of my friends says that im bad at being serious (true) and that she wont go to me for support anymore when she has never really done that. and i dont go to her for support either bc she really doesnt understand what its like to be mentally ill.
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krittec Ā· 6 months ago
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thereā€™s something extremely extremely creepy about taking an actor that you have known since they were 13 years old, only JUST a teenager, and making them kiss a fully grown woman the second that they turned a legal adult.
Steve Blackman already has a ton of shit out against him which came out recently so it unfortunately doesnā€™t surprise me that he would write something like this but it makes me genuinely concerned for everything behind the scenes.
There has been a HUGE problem in the Umbrella Academy fandom since season ONE when Aidan was a 13-14 year old of people writing insanely disgusting stuff and defending it because his character was mentally an adult but oh my god did they make it worse. Youā€™d think theyā€™d protect actor & character by avoiding any romantic interaction but instead you have him kiss an actress 15 years older than him. The age gap being the age that he was when they filmed season two. Quite honestly I feel that if he couldā€™ve done this seasons previously and gotten away with it then he definitely wouldā€™ve done it, given the jokes that are actively made.
Quite honestly may Steve Blackman never work again if this is how he treats his actors because this is awful. Iā€™m not even done with the season but that gave me very little desire to continue and this show has been important to me in ways I canā€™t explain. Maybe I am blowing this out of proportion but it feels so insanely creepy and horrific to me and I needed to rant.
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lazylittledragon Ā· 8 months ago
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right now i'm very torn between "taking critique is important as an artist and it's not an attack on me personally" and "people commenting about my same face syndrome under my posts upsets me an unreasonable amount and i wish they would stop doing it"
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tj-crochets Ā· 8 months ago
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Finished the rainbow shorts!!!
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dykedvonte Ā· 3 months ago
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love seeing your takes on mouthwashing and how sane they are. everything's so black or white. I like how you acknowledge curlys abuse under jimmy (which I honestly didn't quite notice when I first watched a playthrough. should rewatch w this in mind) and how that very much doesn't "forgive" his inaction towards Anya and Her abuse under jimmy. I think what happens to him despite all his issues (bc he clearly wasn't OK šŸ˜ŠāœŒšŸ¼) is very much karmic. I really did hurt huh
I hate the take that what happened to him is karmic as becoming disabled and being tortured is like not in any way an equal consequence for not taking more action against Jimmy. It is a consequence as is the whole game for everyone but itā€™s one that is very much established as being undeserved and extreme as everyone elseā€™s but Jimmyā€™s fate.
Thank you for liking my takes but I also try to point out that this exact sort of framing of the events and what happened to Curly is bad especially if you are gonna factor in his own abuse into the equation of his inaction/ineffective acts. Itā€™s like ā€œsaying yeah he deserved the abuse he was already going through to escalate because he didnā€™t do enoughā€ which is like not a message the game tries to deliver at all. Itā€™s like the game shows that abusers escalate
Karma and punishment are not concepts that I think should be directly tied to Curlyā€™s fate especially since during the game and even in discussion he takes on too many consequences of someone elseā€™s actions. Like this framing is the direct thing I describe taking the discussion away from Jimmy, P.E and the factors that created the environment in the first place.
#Maybe Iā€™m just a bleeding heart for fictional characters that suffer but the fandom has a weird attachment to retribution#as if retribution is not a damning desire in the game like the game is about what happens when you#lack the capability to try and do better or go back on it and that is about all of them but mainly Jimmy and how it intensifies#the suffering of those around him like not saying Curly is excused but the think pieces about Curly make on whether he deserved it make it#sound like he was some empty headed dolt that didnā€™t know women faced oppression or had any issues of his own#and that he needed to be humbled to understand as if his toxic relationship with Jimmy is not an aspect in the forefront and his apathy in#life like becoming disabled isnā€™t karma yes his condition parallel Anyaā€™s feeling but itā€™s also reveals all the way Jimmy was already#treating him poorly and how it got worse now that he had more power over him like again he harasses Anya still but noticed he takes out most#of his frustration on Curly now like idk what more I can say#I hate the idea someone deserves to be disabled and go through such a brutal experience comments like that are weird#like this is not an argument of Curly suffered too with Anya it is they are both suffering at all points with Jimmy#and it is not at all helpful to any conversation to try to scale and compare both their experiences against each other#but rather how they both reacted to Jimmy and how it affected how they handled/viewed everything pre and post crash#like I hope this hurts is likely a comment on the whole system that allowed it all to happen not specifically about any character or what#they did like it never did not hurt thatā€™s the point none of the choices made felt good for anyone like sorry this is not about you anon#just the general sentiment of post crash curly and deserving cause by the logic people use then Swansea deserved to watch Daisuke suffer and#have to kill him because he didnā€™t kill Jimmy or support Anya better like itā€™s crazy to me#like yes represents him not being able to do more anymore but it is again pointed out to be unfair because of what resources they had#like he suffers due to P.Es restriction even when it comes to his care because they under supply them despite how long and dangerous#and isolating and short staffed their jobs are.#got a little heated sorry anon I just think the idea someone needs to suffer for what Jimmy did outside of Jimmy makes me mad#mainly because itā€™s never like realistic or just or acknowledges the facets of abuse#mouthwashing#ask#anon#mouthwashing game#curly mouthwashing
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falmerbrook Ā· 1 month ago
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Not to be too corny but the new year has got me thinking and I really appreciate this blog because this is pretty much the only site/community/fandom where I don't stress out over posting every single thing I post, afraid I'll be shit on for... something (my brain is very good at coming up with hypotheticals). I know, I know I'm way too sensitive and i shouldn't care about what others think and the internet isn't real so it doesn't matter etc. etc. but unfortunately I just don't know how to get my brain to work like that. I mean, I'm still too afraid of being cringe to draw/write/yap about everything I'd hypothetically like to, but I've been way more social and open to posting my thoughts on here than I've ever been before, and it's made me more confident online overall. So thank you all for being so welcoming and chill!
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wikiangela Ā· 7 months ago
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ngl the ig comment section under the post announcing s8 date is lowkey so sad, and this has nothing to do with me loving tommy istg
I get wanting your ship, but it must suck for like everyone on the cast to see that no one's really excited for anyone else's stories and arcs, because people clearly only care about two characters and this one ship - and thats what it looks like with the comments flooded with it
like, y'all get that this show is about other characters too, right?
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lesbiancarat Ā· 10 months ago
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want to give my two cents on the AI usage in the maestro trailer--
i think seventeen doing a whole concept that is anti-AI is very cool, especially as creatives themselves i think it's good that they're speaking up against it and i hope it gets more ppl talking about the issue. i also understand on a surface level the artistic choice (whether it was made by the members, the mv director, or whoever else), to directly use AI in contrast to real, human-made visuals and music in order to criticize it. i also appreciate that they clearly stated the intention of the use of AI at the beginning of the video
however, although i understand it to an extent, i do not agree with the choice to use AI to critique AI. one of the main ethical concerns with generative AI is that it is trained on other artists' work without their knowledge, consent, or compensation. and even when AI generated images are being used to critique AI, it still does not negate this particular ethical concern
the use of AI to critique also does not negate the fact that this is work that could have been done by an actual artist. i have seen some people argue that it's okay in this context because it's a critique specifically about AI, and it is content that never would have been done by a real artist anyway because it doesn't make sense for the story they're trying to tell. but i disagree. i think you can still tell the exact same story without using AI
and in fact, i would argue that it would make the anti-AI message stronger if they HAD paid an artist to draw/animate the scenes that are supposed to represent AI generated images. wouldn't it just be proof that humans can create images that are just as bad and nonsensical and soulless as AI, but that AI can't replicate the creativity and beauty and basic fucking anatomy that's in human-made art?
it feels very obvious this was not just a way to cut corners and costs like a lot of scummy people are using AI for. ultimately it was a very intentional creative decision, i just personally think it was a very poor one. and even if some ethical considerations were taken into account before this decision, i certainly don't think all of them were. at the very least i feel like the decision undermines the message they want to convey
i would also like to recognize that i myself am not an artist, and i have seen some artists that are totally on board with the use of AI in this specific context, so clearly this is not a topic that is cut and dry. but generative AI is still new, and i think it's important to keep having these conversations
#melia.txt#also want to add that as musicians svt are more directly threatened by AI generated audio than they are by AI generated images#and yet AI generated images is what was used in the video#and i guess the MV director/production company are the ones directly responsible for putting that in there#whether it was their initial idea or not#and they work in a visual medium so perhaps that makes it more 'fair' but idk it just feels like#the commentary is around music. which makes sense. and using human produced music/sound#but then taking advantage of AI images#idk just feels weird#i mean i don't like it either way#like i said in the main post i understand the intention behind the creative decision#and i'm still happy svt are speaking against ai at all i do think overall they're doing a good thing here#i just don't agree with the creative decision they/the production company/whoever made#edit: deleted the part about not boycotting svt over this bc ppl were commenting about boycotting bc of the šŸ›“ stuff#i meant specifically /I/ am not calling for a boycott because of specifically the ai stuff#was just trying to make a general point that im not making this post bc i want to sabatoge svt or whatever#bc kpop fans love to pull that catd whenever u criticize anything#so yeah just removed that bit bc i dont want ppl getting confused what im talking about#respect ppl boycotting because of scooter/israel stuff but thats not what this post was intended to be about#edit 2: turning off reblogs bc im going to bed and having asomewhat controversial post up is not gonna help me sleep well lol#may or my not turn rb's back on in the morning
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jakowskis Ā· 1 year ago
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whatā€™s all this then
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icewindandboringhorror Ā· 4 months ago
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I occasionally wish to reach out to old friends/acquaintances I haven't spoken to since high school/some other even earlier time in my life, but I have SOOO little social energy even for required tasks (like making dr phone calls or etc), I never have any leftover for extra ones, and it would be very odd to message someone I haven't spoken to in like 5 years out of the blue but then take 4 entire months to respond back lol.. My natural curiosity with nostalgia/collecting details of the past/etc. (literally if I were born a little earlier I would definitely do scrapbooking or something lol) is very strong, but, alas, not strong enough to beat out the Social Issues Demons apparently
#facebook always does that 'here's a post from this day 8 years ago' thing. and I see old comments interacting#with people and it's so like.. OOOOO~~ where are they now?? what's going on? how much have they changed as people?#how much are they the same? this is fascinating. i should contact them!!' but then it's like... take that to it's logical conclusion though#you would contact them and then IF they even responded it would take you 80 years to respond and then they would#think there was something wrong or that you were trying to be insulting or something. To contact anyone I need to include an 85 page#disclaimer of all of my social issues & mental illness things. 'If i take 3 weeks to reply I promise it has nothing to do with u' etc lol#THIS is why more people need to be into phone calls/voice calls/some form of audio real time communication/etc.#I think one of the main things that's hard about messaging through text for me is it's so unscheduled and open ended#(plus it takes forever if you're talking about anything in detail and gets very long very quickly)#because like you can send a message and then just get a reply whenever. and then you're expected to reply back whenever#so it's like you never know when the response will come or when a new obligation to reply can come up? so it's like this sudden thing with#no outline?? if that makes sense. whereas a phone call is very like 'hello let's schedule a call from 10am - 2pm on thursday'. And you know#EXACTLY when the interaction will start and EXACTLY when it will end and you can plan around it in your schedule easily.#I have the reverse thing of a lot of people (how people don't pick up phone calls/hate calls/only text)#I would literally talk on the phone with a stranger. I would have a discord voice chat with someone I barely know.#if someone I hardly even remember from elementary school asked to have a voice call with me out of nowhere I would do it.#but if a stranger MESSAGED me?? or someone I barely know sent me a TEXT or something?? I will never reply probably#It's just too vague and weird. and you can't read voice tone over text. and the interaction could last forever with no clear end#point and etc. etc. But a call is like. set. established. clear boundaries. you can read the flow of conversation better. rapport. etc. etc#I get that I guess people feel more anonymous or distanced over text?? but you can have fake phone numbers on the computer. or do like disc#rd calls. or zoom without a camera or etc. etc. Also the distance that's present in text is BAD distance because it just means that tone is#not conveyed properly and you will never truly get a sense of the person's conversational vibe or mannerisms or how well you really click.#ANYWAY ghgjh...... I'm so so so interested in concepts of like.. How did that one kid I used to talk to in elementary school#but then they moved away in 5th grade - how did they end up? what are they doing now?? etc. etc. Like despite the severe social anhedonia#and general lack of connection with others I'm just really fascinated in like.. idk. the human development of it all and like#the concept of how we're actually a million different people through the course of our lives ever evolving in different iterations and etc.#PLUS again. i love nostalgia. sometimes old peple you know might remember a shared memory or can tell you about something you forgot#or etc. like it's SUCH A COOL THING in CONCEPT but I am too socially inept generally speaking lol. which people I still talk to today are#familiar with my 'phone call once every few months' communication style. but strangers would just be like... wtf. And I don't blame them#Sure I literally cannot change the physical health + brain issues i have - but also I know enough to not put others through that lol
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sageofthestarz Ā· 2 months ago
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Hey Google: How do you get over anxiety while trying to talk to moots šŸ¤ 
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johnslittlespoon Ā· 10 months ago
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comes crawling back 24 hrs later heyyy haha hi i'm literally flat on the floor with how fucking nice everyone's been about yad(iym) ch1 i don't even know what to do with myself i'm so sjhdgkjgdsk????<33!!!!
i'm so overwhelmed my heart is so full and i'm so motivated to get ch2 done u don't even know :'))) thank you a kaJILLION times, i keep rereading comments and getting TEARY like a LOSER but it rly does mean sm to me, ty ty ty for enabling my brainrot and apologies for always being so Nervous and also Sentimental SDJGJK <33
+ speaking of brainrot i literally have like 50 asks to get back to with drabbles and brainrot and stuff omg i feel so bad, they're all so good and i'm so antsy to get back but i also rly want to focus up on writing this fic bc ik how long i take to write and i don't want to go a month between each update LOL so i will have to find some balance :'^)
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mars-ipan Ā· 4 months ago
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god i cannot wait to be off these steroidsā€¦
#marzi speaks#marzivents#<- itā€™s late n iā€™m kinda pent up abt this#iā€™m so TIRED of themmmm#iā€™m probs gonna be on them for the rest of the year. which SUCKSSS#i donā€™t like how many ppl comment on the moon face#i donā€™t mind it. like i look in a mirror and iā€™m okay.#itā€™s a little weird. but like. just because itā€™s different. like getting used to a new haircut#but every time i see someone for the first time in a bit itā€™s ā€˜woah your face got rounderā€™#and i have to go ā€˜oh yeah itā€™s water retention- steroids thing itā€™ll go away when iā€™m able to go off ā€˜emā€™#and they go ā€˜oh alright :) you still look good btw donā€™t worryā€™#and i just. i HATE how people talk about it!! like jfc. itā€™s so clear that they think itā€™s like kinda sad#my dad said he thinks itā€™s cute and heā€™s the only one i actually think is telling the truth there#my mom and i agree that it doesnā€™t matter. but even then she tries to tell me not to panic#like a little extra squish in my face is something to panic over#itā€™s so clear that so many people see it as another thing to pity#oh poor thing. has that chronic illness for the rest of her life. and the steroids made her jaw look rounder :(#like jfc i knew fatphobia was prevalent but come the fuck on. literally iā€™m like barely retaining water for steroids too#like. iā€™m still very much skinny (i JUST finished being malnourished ffs) but bc iā€™m retaining water in my face#now ppl feel the need to comfort me. over this tiny cosmetic thing that does not matter#like. i wouldnā€™t feel weird abt it if it werenā€™t for everyone else making it such a THING. why is everyone so weird about it#iā€™m not insecure about it but when ppl try to comfort me or go ā€˜itā€™s not that badā€™ it makes me feel like iā€™m SUPPOSED to be insecure abt it#and it drives me NUTS. bc there are things about being on steroids that i would love to be comforted about#but the water retention is not one of them. i couldnā€™t give a ratā€™s ass about the water retention#yā€™know what iā€™d like to be comforted over? the mood swings. the irritability. the insomnia. the appetite fluctuation#the slow healing of skin. thinning and dryness in the skin. having to take like 3 other medications alongside the steroid#bc taking the steroid causes side effects that need to be medically treated or prevented#even outside of the steroid! iā€™d like some comfort about having to build back my stamina from scratch#iā€™d like some comfort about having the worst balance iā€™ve had in years#thereā€™s. more to this. but iā€™m out of tags. maybe iā€™ll make some replies idk. iā€™m just. UGH
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