#but i’m literally so close
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#i start my terminal degree later this year and i’m scared of going down the rabbit hole of depression#like this year i’ve been really careful about my environment and what i allow in my space#i love learning and stuff but i’m just scared about it#but imma still do it#i’m just gonna take my time#Dr. V still pending#but i’m literally so close#e.e#last year really effed me up i didn’t enjoy grad school at all 💀#and adding on the trauma that ensued#last year was a lot
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friend wanted to see my tumblr, and when i told him i can’t show it to him bc it’s basically my personal diary he went “oh so I can’t see it but a bunch of strangers on tumblr can??” he literally does not get me. no one will get me like the people in my phone get me
#It’s just so different#even though it’s public it still feels secret and safe. i feel comfy sharing a lot more on here than I do in my actual day to day life lol#in my head I’m also just speaking to myself 90% of the time which helps#if a friend off tumblr saw my thoughts I’d feel so weird ab it#esp bc they might get the vagueposting about certain situations and tell mutual friends#no thank u. this is for me. I’m not about to start censoring my thoughts bc someone I know knows my tumblr#u guys literally saw me have LIVE BREAKDOWNS#meanwhile I’ll have the worst fucking day in history and tell no one about it. I’m already cripplingly private but way more so in real life#this is basically a low stress journaling outlet for me. it’s so important for me to maintain the separation#like this is actually my diary & has been so handy for letting out emotions / articulating thoughts / staying on track !!#& I’ve met so many kind people on here who actually get me. which is so hard to find irl bc I’m surrounded by pre-med gunners/overachievers#who are by standard not very good w emotion & can be competitive/judgmental. or at least it’s hard for me to be vulnerable in front of them#and I’m part of that crowd so I reserve my emotions only to a handful of very close friends#it’s nice to hop on here and express negative emotions!! or positive emotions!! just whatever I want and it’s low stress and people get me#I don’t have to worry about judgment or competitiveness etc etc#like everyone on here is so kind & nice & understanding. & just a breath of fresh air from the types I run w. it’s just nice to have this#so idk that’s why I think I’ll always be strict about keeping the worlds separate. it just works#p
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there are a lot of evil people in the world and a lot of darkness in the world and so it’s very important for me to stress that now more than ever is the time to spread kindness and compassion. combat the evil by not only not partaking in it, but actively refuting it. destroy the notion that being compassionate or generous or kind to someone is uncool or embarrassing or even scary. be the change you want to see. start a chain reaction. positivity only breeds more positivity. do an act of kindness for someone so that that person who is too afraid to do it themselves can see you, realize that they’re not alone, and perhaps sheepishly follow your example. and then the next person who is too afraid but sees that person can do the same. when bad news comes out about bad people or horrible atrocities in the world it’s such an easy impulse to despair, and obviously it’s important to feel what you need to feel. grieve. be angry. be sorrowful. be empathetic. but dust off your pants and get up and be a part of a chain reaction that, no matter how small the scale, and spread compassion and love and care. all the reasons why you might not—“it’s hard! it’s scary! people will make fun of me! it’s useless because there’s too much evil!” are all grade A arguments as to why you should. you have no idea how many people you could inspire to do the same. even if it doesn’t get you anyway far, you can at least say you have the nobility of trying. please choose love and please choose life. you are worth loving and you are worth inspiring others to love
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Tiny little guys
(That comic of mine is on its way - wanted to share the little ones from the current wip haha - EDIT: no longer wip!)
#it is SO HARD to find refs for Mikey and Donnie pre mutation#I don’t even think I did them right#hell I don’t think I did RAPH right either#Leo is the main one to get a spotlight - my boy’s got that pretty privilege smh#so many reference images to choose from for him#which is hilarious because he’s the only one I didn’t need a ref for#but yeah I hope these are…close enough lol#I pretty much just made Donnie Long and Mikey Round and hoped for the best#honestly I made Mikey so close to the camera so I couldn’t mess him up much haha…Donnie’s the one I’m most convinced I got wrong#these guys are literally in one drawing but stillll#comic has been super fun so far I hope to get it done soon#if any of them are TOO off feel free to let me know I’m more than happy to fix em quick haha#EDIT: Donnie has been changed to be MARKEDLY flatter lol
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I have added a quirky comment here for the last year and a half, however now… I have no words.
jk I have all these words 👇
I know it is very bitter sweet, but this is the end of Reconnecting. Thank you all for coming along on this journey with me. I plan on making a behind the scenes video on my YT sometime soon. Feel free to send any asks you have I want to answer them all!
Please know I am not going to dissapear! I still plan on making content consistently, and my original comic RULE 5 is already underway, and if you’d like I’m certainly not against writing some exposition fics for Reconnecting 💜
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Prev (3::8) / This is the End 💜
#art#my art#deltarune#reconnecting#reconnecting update#here it is#you’ll never know the vessels real name hehehehhe#anwayyyyy#please send an ask I’m planning on answering them all#man I literally cried so much doing this#this story is so close to my heart and so much actually about me and my journey with my mental condition#I feel like a new chapter of my life just started with this one’s end#ANYHOO NO MORE SAPPY#thank you all for reading#I STILL TAKE COMMISSIONS#also I have really cute headcanons so like- ask for little stories I’ll write em#rule 5 is coming!!! I have a ton of concept art#and yknow I’ll still draw deltarune shenanigans#*SOBBING*
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super messy stoner doodle
#naruto#naruto uzumaki#sasuke uchiha#sns#my eyes are literally closing as i draw this i’m so tired… thank u anon
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Aeterna Amantes 2/?
This blood on my teeth it is far beyond dry, and I've captured you once, but I wasn't quite right.
So I'm telling you that you'll be safe with me.
Why is this song not on Spotify anymore I’m so sad 😭 I used to listen to it over and over again when I was like 12..
#bg3#bg3 screenshots#bg3 gifs#astarion#did a spicy set hehe#there’s a lot more#but I’m on my phone now cause it’s 2 am and I have to sleep#so maybe I’ll post them after work#I HAVE TO WORK ON A STAT HOLIDAY IM SO MAD#LIKE THE COURTS ARE LITERALLY CLOSED BUT OUR LAW FIRM STILL WANTS US TO WORK???#I hate my job :)#astarion ancunin#bg3 astarion#astarion screenshots#baldur's gate#baldur’s gate 3 screenshots#baldur’s gate 3#bg3 tav#Astarion x tav#astarion x the dark urge#ascended astarion#ASTARION POSTING#oc: Lillith/the dark urge#SoundCloud#oc: lillith/the dark urge
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screaming very loudly
#xingyun#chongqiu#xingqiu#chongyun#dotcircledotart#genshin impact#genshin#genshin fanart#xingqiu genshin impact#chongyun genshin impact#原神#GIVE ME HIS SKIN GIVE IT GOVE IT GIVE IT GIVE IT GIVE#i’m losing my fucking MIND AND I CANNOT DO THIS ANYMORE#please i’m so close this is literally the reason i came back to genshin at all xingqiu the hold you have on me
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Personal space? [x]
#spn fanart#spn art#destiel#dean winchester#castiel#spnfanart#wiggleart#I love this mating dance#the joke here is ladies and gentleman and all in between that dean complains at that point about personal space but in the end they wind#up so literally infused into one another they’re always so close lmao#after 1518 I’m sure Dean mourned any indication of wanting personal space even a decade prior#Sorry sad thoughts I’m done I promise
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8.15.2024 — 6:47pm -> 8:17pm
#went up the mountain to see the sunset for my anniversary - got ghosts instead!#jk its a storm; luckily no lightning#(happy one year to my lil polycule btw)#I fucken love this set already. I have a few more to process before it’s complete - but these were the most exciting#this is from Mt. Blue Sky in Colorado; nearby to Idaho Spgs. it’s closed until 2026 - we managed to make it up on literally the final day#from around 14000ft or so#they’re gonna repair the fucked up roads and reopen in ‘26#shot on my wack ass lomo lenses. I used AI denoising to clean up the image quality and then manually re-noised everything bc I’m obsessive#my art#aesthetic#art#artwork#webcore#internetcore#glitchcore#abstract#artists on tumblr#photography#nature photography#flash photography#grunge#noise
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no thoughts just shared huskerdust glances in ep 6 as I was rewatching it
#huskerdust#hazbin hotel#AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA#HOW TO BE NORMAL ABOUT THEM#NO CAUSE LIKE WHEN DID THEY GET SO CLOSE#SLOWBURN WHO???#WHAT#THEYRE IN LOVE YOUR HONOR#THE WAY HUSK IS ACTUALLY PUTTING HIS HAND ON ANGEL#MY HEART EUGHHHH#LITERALLY GETTING BUTTERFLIES#I’m normal about them#😁😁😁
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Putting her shirt on and having my brain go fuzzy bc it smells like her >>>>>>>>
#i literally got lightheaded when i first put it on because it smells so fucking good#but tomorrow we have a TWO NIGHT sleepover and i’m gonna get to sleep cuddled up to her which is my favorite way to sleep#y’all i’m so obsessed with her and i’ve never felt more adored in my life#she’s the most kind person and she takes the best care of me#like i genuinely don’t understand what I’ve done in my life to deserve such a wonderful kind partner when i offer so little back#she’s so kind and strong and capable and she can think like an adult and i feel like the split in our relationship is nowhere close to 50/50#like??? i’m cute and i have a very fun very light very sweet energy but i don’t actually do anything??? i don’t even top fr????#dykeposting#lesbian#lesbian blog#wlw#wlw blog#sapphic#sapphic blog
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[ cw: dismemberment / ]
I think a lot about how Leo’s rescue could have easily ended in him losing a leg as the portal snaps shut on the Krang still clutching the limb, or, alternatively, only having Leo’s right arm make it out, still held dearly in his brother’s hand as the rest of Leo is left behind. (The latter hits even harder, as it directly parallels his future self in the worst of ways.)
I think a lot about how so many things could have gone wrong during the course of the movie with even a little bit of a change, but it really is harrowing how much of a coin-flip the entirety of the Prison Dimension rescue was.
#rottmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rottmnt leo#rottmnt headcanons#rise leo#dismemberment /#if literally any part of the prison dimension rescue was different it would have ended Very Badly#mikey came in clutch for doing the impossible in the first place#raph grabbing leo and not once letting go was vital#and donnie directly hitting the krang was essential#hell leo having the ability to reach out at all in the state he was in was a miracle#listen I think about the prison dimension a lot if you couldn’t tell#for the next tags:#strangulation mention /#physical trauma induced mutism /#potential death mention /#potential sibling death mention /#barely it mainly focuses on if he lives but /#I also think about how Leo’s trachea could have easilyyy given out as Raph (krangified) was choking him#can you imagine the last words raph hearing from his little brother being I’m sorry?#he’d likely live as the hamato bros are built different but imagine if he straight up can’t talk again after#the bros having no idea what Leo’s plan is but they suddenly feel him disappear with the portal#or also#imagine all he gets out in his hoarse voice is to beg Casey to close the portal before his family HEARS the sudden silence like a knife#even if he gets saved his voice may be wrecked or even gone for good#what am I writing wait-#also for my point on leo losing his arm paralleling his future self#imagine fate being a thing in this world but a VERY situational thing#imagine it makes it so that leo has to lose a limb#but not just that - it also ties his presence directly with the Krang’s - so if the Krang’s somewhere else…so is he
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saw this image on Pinterest and the pose gave me such riker vibes that I just HAD to draw it as him and troi HEHEHE
#churro art#my art#digital art#illustration#fanart#star trek#star trek tng#star trek the next generation#william t riker#william riker#deanna troi#AHAAAAAA OKAY PLS DONT SEND ME TO TREKKIE JAIL I HAVENT HAD A CHANCE TO PROPERLY START TNG YEET 😭😭😭#but I do know… I DO KNOW . I love troi so MUCH#I actually started this image drawing her and doodle her a lot on paper in my first week back to uni#but omg I struggled so much with riker here and for why BJBJCBSDJHDSBJ#he literally had like 60 different hairstyle changes during the Lineart phase like it was that bad#it just didn’t look like him but in the end I think I’m close enough 😭😭😭#ANYWAYS This is this weeks uni drawing … the type of drawing I do in my free time on campus :P#I LOVE HOW THIS TURNED OUT SO MUCH!! I was kickin my feet n giggling. like a madman#i should really draw the tos crew w these full eyes too but I always love drawing them with the simple dot eyes more HAHAHA#also little authors note. wow did that reference give me a hard time#those are some LOOONG limbs boy . Riker almost ended up looking like slenderman DAMN
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Making the Hispanic Lark content the world needs and Nicky is really into it 😤😤💯💸🔥🔥💯🔥
#dungeons and daddies#dndaddies#dndads#dndads s2#dndaddies s2#nark#lark oak garcia#nicholas foster#lark oak#Nicholas close#nick foster#Nick close#my art#UGH I might b biased bc I’m Mexican but Spanish is literally so romantic sounding and I fucking love it and I love all the nicknames and te#terms of endearment that there are in spanish like I literally am obsessed with them
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i’m genuinely shocked by this:
how can someone miss the point by such a large margin that they end up implying that Rhaenyra’s cause would have had no positive impact on the women of the realm?
how can one’s thought process be so far removed from the actual reality? is this the inconsistent logic one must tangle in to become a green? have these people never sat in a history class before?
jeyne arryn anyone? does she not exist to them? a point actually made in the book (not one twisted by the greens to advance their agenda) was that her rulership of the vale would’ve been seriously endangered and put into question if the greens won. but that is conveniently ignored by these interesting… folks.
i can understand the anger this person has with the horrible dance of the dragons adaptation and its treatment of female characters. and i mean it. especially when i say female characters. because alicent isn’t the female character who’s actually getting the shortest end of the stick. it was rhaenyra and rhaenys who were the most grievously declawed. rhaenyra is queen. her council is supposed to be her council. the war is supposed to be her war for her throne, not for some stupid prophecy that should’ve logically been lost a long time ago. and rhaenys is a baratheon with a temper and a dragon rider who would’ve burnt the greens and melted their bones if she had the chance. but for some reason the show decided to make a whole new character and slap rhaenys name on it.
to be clear: rhaenyra and rhaenys were powerful in their own right. they had dragons and were a part of the royal dynasty with claims to the throne. their power is theirs. it is derived from them.
alicent’s power is derived from the power of the men she is related to. that’s literally what the queen dowager title means. her influence is dependent on if the men in her life and her children listen to her. they don’t have to, and many characters don’t listen to her in the book, which is why i say she wasn’t the most grievously declawed.
it’s also hilarious that this person considers the queen dowager position to be the most powerful position in the greens court. they must have never read a cersei chapter as she faces her loss of power, which showcases the fickle nature of the power women hold in the westerosi patriarchy.
the correct sequence of power in the greens court is: the usurper king. then the hand. then the princes, specifically the usurper kings brothers, and then the queen consort, as they have dragons and claims to the throne. then the lords who can call on armies and fleets and have coffers that run deep. then the queen dowager, who has little influence outside of kings landing and therefore not as much influence in court as others.
the case the screenshotted post tries to make is that non-targ women’s positions aren’t advanced by rhaenyra being queen, which, as i pointed out above, is not true, nor is it what rhaenyra is fighting for. rhaenyra fought for her throne, which she had a legal claim to. that’s all. many houses joined her instead of joining the usurpers because of many different reasons, but, imo, three of the most important reasons for joining the blacks/staying neutral were 1) women’s inheritance rights (and women in general) should be respected 2) the head of the houses heir and the heirs right to inherit should be respected 3) oaths should be respected.
i also want to point out that women, most obviously targaryen women, did lose power after rhaenyra’s death and due to the concessions made to the greens and their ideology by the blacks for peace along with anti-rhaenyra propaganda that set women’s inheritance rights and the general power they could hold back by quite a lot.
and funnily enough, we see this first with jaehaera, who, while was a queen, was most likely murdered by the character who was supposed to be guarding her because no one gave a shit about a targaryen girls status and the potential consequences of killing her because they knew they could get away with it; and her death directly led to alicent’s line ending. the reality is that there were practically no consequences, as it seemed to have been easily covered up as a suicide, because the targaryens lost so much power after the dance, which directly put the targaryen women in the line of fire. if the targaryen women couldn’t be used they’d be discarded. and jaehaera, a simple girl who’s entire family was all dead besides one, and who’s father was greatly disliked by many, was an eyesore to those who wished for more power. so she was killed. brutally.
and the reason the women of house targaryen were so vulnerable? it’s because they had no claim to anything anymore! no one could try to use jaehaera for power so no greedy lords sought her favor nor did any want to protect her! and jaehaera is just the start because afterwards we get the maidens in the vault, then viserys ii is installed over daena, and then everything about naerys and her horrid husband, maekar over daenora, and eventually everything concludes with young princess rhaenys and rhaella over a hundred years later. tragic.
it’s literally downhill after rhaenyra’s death.
#otto getting fired a second time because the usurper king didn’t want to listen to alicent 😶#why is green shit popping up on my for you page#anti greens#anti team green stans#anti team green#dance of the dragons#anti hotd#anti alicent stans#anti alicent hightower#rhaenyra targaryen#pro rhaenyra targaryen#jaehaera targaryen#rhaenys the queen who never was#jeyne arryn#cersei lannister#is there a tag just for discussions about the westerosi patriarchy?#pro team black#the blacks#i’m getting sucked back into hotd fandom drama 😞#i really do hate that show#love the actors and actresses tho. i wish they had a better script#hotd fandom critical#power in court is literally: hey what do you control and what can i gain by using or allying with you?#characters only allied with alicent because she was so close to the throne and the targaryens#like i stated in my post: this kind of power is fickle.
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