#but i have such a full life with the ppl around me

[lexirosewrites]

Something fluffy u ask? I couldn't stop the sort of sad from slipping in but I hope u think of it as a happy sad

O!Steve inherits the small diner his grandparents had been running since the 50s & he meets line cook A!Eddie when interviewing new employees bc a few ppl who'd been w the diner since it opened decided to retire alongside his grandparents

They dance around eachother & spend late nights together & eventually during the diners annual new years party, which is one of the few days a year the business is closed, they kiss at midnight.

A few years later little pups w Eddie's curls & Steve's big hazel eyes r being raised within the diners walls. They end up w 5 pups all their own, all of them going off to college like their parents couldn't or didn't want to, it's their youngest who finds her way home & starts to take over as the couple age. Steve & Eddie cut back on the amount of work they do on the daily, but step back full time for awhile when their youngest marries & again when their youngest becomes a parent. They get to watch their grandchildren of all their children come & go from the diner like it's a second home & then on their wedding anniversary one year all of their children gift the couple a vacation to Amsterdam

They lead a full life, running the diner & loving their family & hosting holidays & getting to hold their first great grandchild

When Steve passes peaceful in his sleep Eddie doesn't stick around much longer, over the course of the first Christmas the family had without grandma Steve their eldest grandchild was eagerly writing down every story Eddie could remember of the early years, & Eddie tells his grandchildren tht has his late love's eyes framed by hair tht is different across them all "houses come & go, ppl pass away, but we wanted to keep the diner going so tht u kids will always b able to find it when u feel lost"

When his youngest grandchild asks him what he misses abt grandma Steve most he answers, "I would say I miss his eyes but they're looking right back at me through all of you, so I'll have to say I miss how his coffee cup was always too close to the edge & how I'd always move it before it could fall."

By the next Christmas the family was without grandpa Eddie too, but while everyone was sad the great grandchildren could b heard giggling & talking as if having a conversation w 2 ppl who aren't there

steddie having a long and happy life and family together😭😭😭😭😭😭

[wishingprince]

I love queer stories I love reading about love and finding love and falling in love.

I want it so badly I want to have a partner and fall in love and have someone who is interested in learning me and we can learn to love each other the way we need. And the older I get the more the ache is there, this kind of like accepting ache that like okay, it might not happen for me…..but alongside that lonely ache, I get a surge of huge powerful love for the love I have around me anyway.

I love community. I love queer books and music and I love friends and allies and other queers who get it. I love Pride, I love it. This world feels so fucked up but I feel like I have a found family who is strong enough to catch me when I need to be caught and people who feel reliable and sturdy and safe.

[torahtot]

you can always tell when someone doesn't have maga men in their life and god it makes me angry.. "if you're nice and compassionate you can be the one woman that makes them realize women aren't mean!" my mom bent over backwards for my dad for 25 fucking years he has plenty of other women kissing his ass and it never changed anything. do you really think that before being radicalized they never knew a single kind woman? they were never friends with a nice girl? alt-right men's problem with women isn't just that they've experienced too many mean women and they need to be shown that women can be nice, it's that they think women are inferior and don't deserve rights and don't understand anything so you can do what you want with them. and it takes a lot more than being nice to show someone that you aren't inferior. this isn't a case of being nice even when it's hard for the sake of deradicalization, it's about spending every fucking interaction with someone trying to get them to see you as a human being with value and a functioning intellect while they just laugh and show you that's never going to happen.

i cannot stress this enough: random women are not just going out and Being Mean to men. ur average guy interacts with plenty of women throughout his life- close women amongst their friends and family, casual interactions etc. most people don't start out being shunned by women, they start out being treated as NORMAL. & when they show their disrespect in normal society, it isn't tolerated, but when they go to alt-right spaces (which they're pushed towards online) they're told they're allowed to be as horrible as they want with no consequences because they're entitled to everything. it isn't "women aren't welcoming and the alt-right is so friendly so i'll become alt-right," it's "women don't let me disrespect them and the alt-right tells me fuck them, do whatever you want, you're entitled to it all" and why would you choose the group where you have to be a normal accountable person when there's a group that will reward you for being a shithead who gives no fucks?

the alt-right can afford to be more friendly and welcoming because they can allow bigotry. this can't work the same way for progressive spaces because we can be as kind & welcoming as possible but at the end of the day we have lines where we have to say "this behavior/speech isn't allowed in this space," and for certain people, that just can't win against a space where you can be as nasty as you want. these posts always end with a disclaimer saying "of course being kind doesnt mean you need to tolerate their bigotries" but what they don't realize and what drives me crazy is that women not tolerating bigotry IS the "women are mean" that radicalized them in the first place. they perceive you pushing back on any bigotry or bullshit as you being a meanie and treating them like they're ontologically evil. the 'kindness' they need to be deradicalized is you letting them walk all over you.

idk what the answer is to deradicalizing them and im sure relationships are part of it but you can be as kind as you want and all it will do is destroy you ime. i cant stand to see people (who have never even successfully deradicalized any man by being nice btw they always speak in hypotheticals and not from experience) double down on telling women to do things that will see no results and only hurt them, especially when any woman who has tried can tell you exactly how it went

[djevelbl]

GUESS WHO I'M DRAWING NOOOOWWWWW~!!!!

[sparklingchim]

questioning what life is rlly about but then u catch up with the girlies over dinner n life is worth living again <3

[herenvibing]

cr3 is gonna end and the pc’s still feel like the same people to me :|

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[unproduciblesmackdown]

also "textless" versions of these, wahooo

[clownmoontoon]

btw ive never been opposed to the idea of having a "regular job" to support my art career as i needed it, but the times ive had one (and ive had MANY) i would always be too exhausted to draw anything afterwards, all the jobs ive had were minimum wage and highly physical

i suddenly had the epiphany to get a weekend job bc I DONT DRAW ON WEEKENDS ANYWAY, my mom has weekends off from work so its impossible to do anything ^^;

and its served the dual purpose of providing a little cash AND i dont have to be around much when my mom is home lol <3

idk how i didnt think of this sooner, i think it just wasnt the right time til now <3

[dandyshucks]

yall this old lady craft group is the best thing ever and i want to cry thinking abt how grateful i am to have it fjfkdl i think this might be the one group that i feel wholly welcomed into and actually a real part of for the first time in my life ;-; ♡

the group leader always seems to want me to sit next to her and her daughter is always interested in seeing what im working on when she comes at the end and she also tells me abt different crochet patterns she's seen on fb marketplace or she brings in old patterns for me to look through and take what i want, and then the card maker lady is offering to give me this big old crocheted clown doll that her mum made her years ago and she immediately offered to give me a ride home without me even saying anything (so that i wouldnt have to try take it home on the bus fjdkdl), and they were all super excited for me when i told them I was able to fix my accordion, and they just... treat me like an equal and a human person and fjdksl man ... it's so nice

AND IM JUST 😭💗 about it all !!!! it all feels so foreign to me !!!! i do not know when I've ever felt so fully part of a group and an equal to everyone there !!!

[milo-is-rambling]

Me looking at my own mood boards like “oh yeah this guy gets it”

[britneyshakespeare]

He won't leave my fucking friends alone.

[charlieism]

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[pepprs]

also btw my favorite professor is leavi ng next week and i thougut i was gonna get to say goodbye to her on her last day (next monday) and i put off reaching out to her and buying her a present and everything bc it is um. Too painful to accept that she’s about to leave and i put it off bc i couldn’t bear it. but i finally emailed her today and she won’t be available on monday after all she’s only available tomorrow and i don’t have a present or anythi ng for her and im not emotionally ready to say goodbye like im taking off friday and i was gonna use the three day weekend to prep and brace myself and now i have to do it tomorrow and i don’t have anything to give her and can’t go o it and buy anything bc i can’t drive and i have therapy and even if i could get a ride the stores will be closed by the time im done bc we had to schedule it late today. i can’t fucking take itttttt

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[starlit-roses-ships]

i just want my f/os to wrap me up and give me a hug and tell me everything's gonna be okay. is that so much to ask ;_;

[kalashtars]

venting in the tags yippeee