#but i dont have pros/cons i have questions and concerns

[fruit-snacker]

Yaaaay. Work changessssssssssssss....

[sonknuxadow]

okay im definitely going to be away from home when sxs gens comes out i need to figure out how im going to deal with this

[spywitch]

Its so hard trying to find out how to just feel feelings instead of intellectualizing them. Like ppl always say thats what you need to do but thats like telling someone who’s constipated they just need to shit… like YEAH ok awareness of the fact that its not normal to only shit once a week and have a really hard time doing it every time is the first step in fixing it, but then you need to learn what diet changes and maybe pelvic floor related exercises you should be doing, and in some cases laxatives and supplements you need to make it so you Can Shit. So like what are the ways to Feel emotions fr

[yelenasdiary]

hi could you maybe write something about Lizzie being pregnant? and maybe be giving birth to reader and her’s baby girl, maybe at home, (in a tub?) hehe, i dont know if its cringe😅 but kind of chaos, but also fluff😅

New Life

Pairing: Elizabeth Olsen x Reader

Summary: Life is about to change in front of your eyes & you wouldn’t change it for the world.

Tiny Angst | Fluff | Childbirth | 1K |

AC: Thank you for sending this! I hope this was what you were looking for x, enjoy! - I kind of forgot to add the chaos omg!!

It had been a long 9 months for both you and your wife, Lizzie. 9 months full of excitement, worry, more excitement and the normal stresses that come along with having a baby. During Lizzie's entire pregnancy she wasn't seen by the public world, a few times in the early stages of her pregnancy grabbing some groceries but when Scarlett gave her some advice on how to avoid the paparazzi, the world saw less of the actress. It wasn't a bad thing; it was something you and Lizzie both knew that it would be best that she had as much privacy as she could get during her pregnancy. 

With Lizzie's water breaking just moments before you two were going to have a shower, it was a rush to get the tub ready and luckily for you, the midwife only lived a few blocks away and was over before you knew it. You helped with work through each contraction that came in waves while the midwife checked to see how dilated Lizzie was. 

It hit you suddenly that your world was about to change in a matter of hours, of course this was what you expected but for some reason it really hit you that you were about to become a parent. 

*****

"Something smells amazing!" you smiled as you walked into the kitchen to see Lizzie stirring something in a large pot, Lizzie looked over her shoulder and smiled, "I'm just making some pasta sauce" she replied with a chuckle as you wrapped your arms around her from behind and placed a kiss on her cheek. 

"Still, it smells great" you spoke softly. It was then that it caught your eye that Lizzie didn't have her normal glass of wine half full sitting on the countertop beside the stove. "Let me get you a glass, what are you feeling tonight? Red? White?" you asked before pulling away to get a wine class from the cupboard. 

"About that" Lizzie turned on her heals to face you, "I can't have any for a while" she added. Your eyes shot wide open; a smile tugged at your lips as you came to the realisation of what Lizzie was saying. She nodded as she watched your brain click to the news. 

"We're having a baby?!" you walked over to her and placed your hands softly on her lips, "yes" she replied softly before you crashed your lips onto hers. 

*****

With Lizzie's hand in yours, you used your thumb to gently stroke the top of her hand to help calm her after a contraction. Her head rested against you while you sat behind her. "We forgot to pick up a few things from the baby store" your wife spoke as she looked up at you. 

"It'll be okay, I'll call them later and let them know what's happened" you couldn't help but chuckle, "I think they'd be very understanding and if not then I have no idea why they are a business" you added making Lizzie giggle.

Although Lizzie's pregnancy had its pros, it also had its cons. There were moments of worry and concern as you held her hair back while her morning sickness took its toll, draining her of the little energy she had. If it wasn't morning sickness, it was heart burn and struggling to make herself comfortable as her bump grew bigger. Family gatherings really took a toll on Lizzie, even for an actress who is used to answering the same questions over and over again, having everybody she knew and loved ask her 100 times over things about her pregnancy was different and you were quick to give her a break and answer some of those questions for yourself. 

But with all the cons, the pros always came shining through. Lizzie would boost to you that being pregnant meant she was entitled to the last snack on the plate, the last cookie? Hers. The last banana? Hers. The last slice of cake? Hers. One of her favorite things to do was baby shop, online or instore, she loved it. Although, you liked it better when it was online because she could spend as many hours as she pleased, and your legs wouldn't get sore. 

 ****

"Honey!! Look how adorable this little suit is!" Lizzie took the tiny boys suit off the rack and showed you, "it's so tiny!" she added while eyeing off the piece of clothing. Of course, she brought it just in case. You both decided to let the sex of your unborn baby be a surprise and so Lizzie was sure to buy gender neutral, girls and boys items so it wasn't a surprise that she brought the tiny suit. 

"It's adorable" you smiled softly, "it's crazy to think that somebody can be this small!" You added in amazement. 

"I wish our baby could stay tiny forever" Lizzie commented while walking away, her eyes already caught on something else.

****

As her contractions started to become more intense, you reminded Lizzie she was doing amazing and that was the truth. For her entire pregnancy you have watched her body and mind change and just when you thought she couldn't get any more beautiful, she did. She was truly the most beautiful woman you'd ever laid eyes on. 

"It's time" the midwife looked up at Lizzie who was more than ready to hold her baby. She took one last look at you, "are you ready?" she asked which didn't surprise you, she'd always been the one to make sure you were on top of things and doing things when you were ready, you nodded, "I've never felt more ready" you placed a soft kiss on her lips knowing that the next kiss you'd share with her, your lives would be different.

After what felt like forever, the loud cries of your baby finally entered the room. Lizzie was exhausted but still managed to have the worlds proudest smile on her lips. "Congratulations, it's a girl" the midwife smiled at the two of you before whisking your daughter to be wiped and wrapped before carefully placing her in Lizzie's arms. 

You felt a tear roll down your cheek when you laid eyes on your daughter, everything would be different now and there isn't a single bone in your body that would change that for the world. "She's perfect" you whispered before placing a kiss on Lizzie's cheek, "you're perfect" you added.

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[huellitaa]

🍡 unwanted thoughts and overthinking

all of us deal with these from time to time, some more often than others. i havent found too much about these subjects on this side of tumblr but i personally wanted to shed a little bit of light on it as i am very familiar with both of these things & wanna help! <3

ೀ definitions -

intrusive thoughts: unwanted thoughts or mental images that make people feel uncomfortable that can range from harmless to severe.

overthinking: to think too much about something in a way that is more harmful than helpful.

ೀ part 1, intrusive thoughts

first off, your thoughts create your reality. this may seem incredibly redundant in this context but hear me out. YOUR thoughts create your reality, the ones you are actively creating and in control of, not the ones that appear out of the blue or make you scared or upsey or uncomfortable like these. these do not reflect you as a person nor the world you live in in any way because they are not yours, and only your thoughts can create your reality.

recognise that 99% of the time these are not serious. they are so far off what is actually or will actually happen that its funny, so treat it as such. if it sounds absurd that you could even think such a thing, treat it as such. laughing at absurdity is natural and this is just another example of that. "what if they laugh at me for __?" and why would they do that. "what if i did ____" what reason would you have to do that. would you take someone asking you these questions or telling you these things seriously? no. this isnt any different.

so in my head i refer to this as a "battle strategy" because its similar to that of a soldier aiming and firing at whatever enemy comes their way. for example; you get one of these unwanted thoughts. you attack back - replace this with 3 good thoughts, memories or affirmations. if this is attacked back, you defend yourself again, and so on. call me dramatic but imagining out an entire scene in my head to go along with this is so fun and makes me feel way less gross about it all😭

please please please dont beat urself up over it, like i said earlier these are not your thoughts, they do not reflect you in any way. you are beautiful and safe and protected and a good, pure soul and i love you sm <33

(note: please reach out to someone if these thoughts are interfering with your everyday life or seriously affecting your mental health. you are not a bad person and it doesnt make you any lesser for reaching out for help. i am not an expert, i am simply stating what helps me and has helped me in the past. ily)

ೀ part 2, overthinking

investigate. say you have a presentation tomorrow. you are really worried and thinking so much about every little detail. first thing - why are you worried? "because of what they'll think of me." why is that an issue? "what if they laugh at me because im wrong or i did something differently or (list of a billion absurd & unlikely things that can go wrong)?" why is that an issue? "i dont want people to dislike me." why does that matter? where did this concern come from? from then on you can sit down and think about why this may be or where this may have stemmed from, find the root cause of this and go from there. curiosity is the most lethal weapon one can wield, and that applies to yourself, too.

sit. do nothing. sit in complete silence, no phone, no device, no distraction. be your own cheerleader and annoy yourself by going on and on about it in your head until you annoy yourself into doing it <3 (learnt this from my younger brother)

weigh out the pros and cons and measure it from there. if the pros outweigh the cons, you start immediately, no distractions. if the cons outweigh the pros, think about it and think is it really worth causing all this trouble over?

reassure yourself & again dont beat yourself up over it!! this is normal and you can beat it!!! lets do this!!!! 🫶

i love you!!!! so much!!! i believe in you & we can do this!!!! 🩷🩷

[oddmerit]

i try REALLY hard to like cohost dot org and there IS a lot to like about it, legitimately:

most of the staff are jewish gaytrans furries so they Get the need for firm moderation that accounts for “plausible deniability”-type bigotry, even if they slip up it’s pretty quickly rectified (see below)

good 18+ filtering, pro-posting queer hole

NO BULLSHITE ALGORITHMS. chrono timelines only

css/html/markdown crimes

that being said.

the general culture there is rough bc a lot of the prominent powerposters are friends or friends-of-friends of the devs by nature of how they conducted the closed alpha, but bc of the lack of public metrics it’s considered taboo to claim that there ARE powerposters in the first place. and because powerposters are just a few degrees removed from the devs, people who WERENT part of the alpha want to emulate that general vibe. part of which means getting extremely hostile and defensive if anybody says something that could be construed as putting the devs down and claiming they’re “twitterbrained” or whatever and that people who “expect too much” of the devs are going to be the downfall of the site

the most recent incident of this stemmed from a moderating misstep where someone i followed reported a nazi channer who followed her and was part of an antisemitic harassment campaign, but hadn’t posted anything to the site yet. the staff who handled her report said “this is concerning so we’ll wait and see BUT we don’t take action based on offsite behaviour”, despite that being untrue based on previous moderation actions (notably TERFs getting nuked from orbit before they could even start posting). the person who reported them got upset and several of her followers (including me) were like “what the fuck, that’s unexpected and shitty”, some saying that made them feel unsafe in case that ever happened to them. once the decision got traction (and other people started reporting the account) the staff went back on its decision “based on internal review” and suspended the account in question, which is where this story should have ended

except, the day after it happened, i woke up to a post on my cohost dashboard that was someone screaming their head off about people who had said “this is disappointing and makes me concerned”, and kept quoting one specific person who they claimed had overreacted and was symptomatic of the above-mentioned “twitterbrain” and that it was all “bad faith”. like, if THAT is gonna be the community reaction to someone being alarmed about inconsistent moderation, why would you ever publicly bring up moderation concerns at all?

its one thing to ask site members to be considerate of staff (its a small team and half of them were at a con AND it was a weekend AND they eventually backtracked and apologized anyways so it was all good at that point) but its another thing to go off on a rant quoting mostly one specific person while claiming its really “just general you” and claim that they’re the reason the site will go under. if you’re going to claim that you need to bite your tongue over missteps “for the good of the community” that’s a HUGE fucking red flag! bc thats how resentment will grow and eventually explode into something MUCH worse! it wouldnt turn into “intra-community infighting” if everyone was like “cool, thank you, please make sure this doesnt happen again” after the issue is solved instead of dragging it out and turning it into an example of “oooo look how PRO-HARASSMENT twitter has made you, you’re HARASSING the devs by voicing concern”!

and dont get me STARTED on the shitfits people were throwing when staff said “we don’t allow loli on this site”. people understand “cohost isnt a free speech absolutist site like twitter” when it comes to hate speech but they absolutely do NOT understand it also applies to jerking it to fictional csa lmao. cohost isnt overrun by “puritans”. the devs will not ban queer hole*. the devs post queer hole. its fine

(*the only way i can see NSFW getting banned is if stripe drops them for processing cohost+ subs or the future tipping system and even then i trust staff will fight for Queer Hole as hard as they can)

[macabremoons]

OH GOODNESS I SHALL SING THESE BOOKS PRAISES. I will rank them from READ NOW to READ NOW (2 second delay)

Emily Wildes

Pros:

Main character is IN HER THIRTIES. Well.. she might be 29 in book one but I'm very sure she's thirty. I'm starting to get the ick from YA, so I'm reading more adult and I was like “wait the bitches now are the same fucking age as the bitches of before.” Too many adult books start with 17 yos. ANYWAY. SHE'S ACTUALLY… AGED. SHE CAN. REASON. Lovely stuff 

Main character has autism. Her special interest is faeries and it is very fucking obvious. Her autism is portrayed very well. 

Her love interest is like Cardan AND Howl from Howl's Moving Castle. “Moon, how can he be two hotties in one body?” By being Wendell-fucking-I-don't remember-if-he-had-a-last-name. He serves cunt and he isn't really one. He's a bastard and a weasel but not a bitch.

There's lesbians.

The world building is fucking amazing. The first book really reads like an academic paper at times (but a fun one!!!)

Another pro that shouldn't be a pro: it's actually about the fae. They do fae things. Like not lie. And. Trick people. Stares into the void 

Sidenote I notice a lot of fae books drop that a mortal giving their true name let's the fae have control over them. This isn't like a complaint, it's just interesting. It's always just a fae thing. Very very interesting.  

Uh back to actual pros, the first book is quite cozy. I won't say low stakes but lower? Stakes? Sort of. The girls said it was a no stakes fantasy and I was blindsided by some of it because of that.

Emily is a female character that's loveable but slightly unpleasant!!! A female…. character… that doesn't earn her right to exist… by nurturing? It IS possible!

WithCindy rated it 5 stars

Cons:

it ends

Uh Emily is a person who makes bad choices sometimes due to her psychology?

Uh. The writing is nice idk maybe you'll hyperfixate on it

The Bear and the Nightingale 

Pros:

THE WORLD IS ALIVE ITS ALIVE AND SO RICH EITH CULTURE

The atmosphere is THICK. You feel cold just by reading it oh MY GOD

Probably the best book I've ever read.

Very fae! But very Russian fae. There's a difference.

The historical time it's set in gives so many things to think about.

At the end of the book, the author gives you questions to think about and write your answers down. Idk I fucking love this

The main character is a fucking badass horse girl

Horses are feminist

Lovely prose

Messy messy family dynamics

An amazing magic system

Challenging depictions of Christianity! It doesn't tear it down, but it does bring to light great discussions. 

This book goes beyond just fantasy to me. I feel like I am a richer person because of it. I will read trash romance until the cows come home (read my roommate is a vampire) but this. This is not trash lit. “But Moon I didn't find it that compelling” I SMITE THEE WITH I DONT GIVE A FUCK.

I cried at the end

Cons:

I cried at the end :’( sniff sniff isn't that so sad square

This book shows people with flawed understandings of right and wrong and doesn't tell you if it disagrees with them or not to your face. I… think… it does? I think so, but this gets a little messier later on.

In general if you have some concerns about triggers I'd look them up. It isn't a graphic book or a book that pleasures itself in violence, but the world it's set in is not kind and they will be like “yeah that happened” and move on. And honestly, that can be more jarring.

Death is not feminist. DEATH IS NOT FEMINIST. I REPEAT DEATH IS NOT FEMINIST

Death is the worst actually

No romance in this book is not creepy or problematic in at least one way. Again. Don't think the author is endorsing anything, but GOOD GOD I WAS VERY FUCKING UPSET DURING BOOK 2

Did I mention I hate Death I HATE DEATH SO MUCH

Main character is not an adult. “Oh, so she's 17 and she turns 18 in the next book?” No. Honestly I deducted stars just for this when I rated it on book 2. “Oh but Moon the author can write dark themes blah blah blah” ok but. Did it serve the story? Did it bring any deeper meaning to the themes? Did it clear my skin and water my crops? NO. SO IM GONNA BE UPSET STFU.

Im so mixed on this book. I'd rec it until the cows come home; I'm so frustrated with the romance. Ugh. You could have been better than the folk of air… but you were just. Better than Tithe. Sorry Tithe by Holly Black.

Reverent Games

VAMPIRES

VAMPIRES

VAMPIRES

It also has witches… but like VAMPIRESSSSS

Amazing concept! Realistic depictions of oppression and how it sucks for everyone including oppressors

Cool world building 

Vampire,,,,, love interest,,,,,

There's sort of a love triangle but also not really. The mc isn't torn between them she just reminds herself she was in love with a guy a couple of days ago

I didn't cringe except for one chapter but I like how the author handled it.

The vampire calls her love

The vampire is an ally

The vampire is FEMINIST (SEE DEATH IT ISNT THAT FUCKING HARD YOU CUNT)

Uh.

The MC is flawed but likable. I want to see her bite ppl 

The romance was so believable to me. Like. I get to ick so easily esp with faster paced romances like this but you BELIEVE THEM WHEN THEY ARE IN LOVE RAHHHHHHHHHH

Messy messy families

Messy messy relationships in general

Themes of siblings! Would u die for them? Would you lose everything for them?

Don't feel like a hunger games clone

All 400 pages are warranted and the pace is wonderful. Not a giant ass book with big sections of nothing. 

Pls just read it so I have someone to talk to please I BEG I BEG—

Cons:

it's not trash lit. But it's. It's sure a romance. Fantasy too. But a romance.

:( mc is not an adult (it's YA I forgive her)

It ends and it's a series and it was published THIS YEAR RAAAHHHH

Mc is a hoe and not proud of it. She's in her denial era. Watching her pretending she wouldn't elope this man and fuck everything up is slightly annoying until you realize she. Believes herself?

Girl what 

It's not too annoying but sometimes id be like “HEY BE NICE THEY'RE RIGHT YOU LITTLE MONSTER FUCKER” this doesn't count as spoilers because be so fr. From the summary you know she's fucking up the mission.

I don't remember POC people but idk maybe one snuck up on me I was focused on the bloodsuckers. Lesbian vampire queens tho.

I have no friends who've read it… no one to talk to… sigh…. Sniff so alone… so human…. Sighhhhhhh so sad

Oh God this is over a thousand words. But you said you wanted a HUMAN'S opinion. Human. Smile. I try to keep my blog strictly writing but how does one write without reading. IMPOSSIBLE.

Yayyyy!!! Moon's back!!! I've missed you in my notifs ahhhh

@macabremoons

[harrysweasleys]

a little sunshine never hurt // d.m

Summary: hi alexa!!! if your requests are still open, could i request a draco x reader fic? in it’s the first day of holidays/vacation and the reader and draco are best friends who (obviously) have feelings for the other but think the other doesn’t like them that way, and they’re having a picnic at malfoy manor, relaxing in the sun reading or doing homework and draco just blurts it and confession + kiss?? if you can’t there’s no problem! thanks 🥰💓

Warnings: mentions of food! also v v short but v v sweet (also not proofread/edited so pls dont come @ me)

Word count: 1.9k

a/n: yikes, so completely ignore my message about not posing a fic before christmas because here i am, posting another fic before christmas. hope you all enjoy!!! xx [I DO NOT GIVE CONSENT OR PERMISSION FOR MY WORK TO BE REPOSTED ON ANY OTHER PLATFORM!]

— —

Ah, finally summer break.

The start of the holidays meant that you’d now have a good months time to catch up on rest, relaxation, and obviously, assignments. Though you usually disliked the prospect of doing homework while on vacation, you couldn’t help but feel a little thankful at the fact that you now had something to keep your mind laced on magic while you were away from Hogwarts. 

Though you were staying with Draco for the first two weeks — where magic was very much present — you still liked to learn. You liked to keep that ever-growing passion for the magical arts, and you were most likely going to finish every single project within the first week of the break.

Draco, however, had different thoughts.

“Bloody ridiculous,” he scoffed, raising his hand to move his blond bangs out of his face, “Giving out homework while we’re on break? What kind of git does that?”

“Those are your professors, Draco,” you grinned, turning to face him, squinting slightly in the blinding sunlight, “Have a little respect, yeah?”

He rolled his eyes, laying back down on the freshly mowed lawn, his dark clothing most likely scorching his skin under the blazing afternoon sun, “Is giving out homework a show of respect? I don’t think so.”

You leaned up on your elbows, a fresh summer breeze rolling through and pushing your hair over your shoulder. It wasn’t necessarily a cold breeze, but it did cause you to let out a small shiver. Draco’s eyes followed you as you sat up properly, crossing you legs and reaching into the tiny basket that carried your snacks.

He had asked you to share a picnic lunch with him today, which came as a bit of an odd question, to be honest. A picnic? You knew Draco wasn’t the kind of person to ‘enjoy the fresh air’ so it was a little bit of a strange request coming from him, to be honest. But there was no bloody way you’d complain. An outdoor lunch with him meant that you got to spend more time one on one — it meant that you’d get to continue seeing the side of him that he chose not to show anyone else.

He was quite a complex fellow, if you were to be honest. In school, he closed himself off. He hid away from the world and kept his cold exterior up, not daring to let anyone in. You had gotten through to him — after trying for multiple years, of course — but there really was nothing better than seeing him as relaxed as he was when he was home. Maybe ‘relaxed’ isn’t the proper term; but he did have a totally different air. Less arrogant, less obnoxious, and definitely less pompous. 

It didn’t help your ever-blossoming crush in the slightest.

“Can you toss me an apple?” he asked, now mimicking your position and crossing his legs as well. His knee brushed against yours, and even though you were both clothed, you felt a jolt of sparks rush through your body. 

You let out a small cough to clear your throat, “Sure.”

Completely forgetting whatever it was that you were looking for in the first place, you tossed him the bright green apple that he had insisted on bringing to lunch. You were surprised that the Malfoy family didn’t decide to grow their own apple trees, to be honest, with how often Draco would scavenge the pantries for the perfect one to eat, they’d most likely be better off by growing some in their own vast yard.

“What are your plans for the summer, then?” he asked, taking a big bite, crunching loudly and closing his eyes as he craned his head up to look at the sky. 

Your mouth went dry at the sight of him, his defined jawline and smooth neck looking sharper than ever under the bright sunlight, casting shadows around the base of his neck. His platinum hair hurt your eyes to look at, but even then, you’d love nothing more than to run your hands through it. While he rested his head on your lap, while you made out in bed, while you —

“Are you ignoring me?” he snapped your attention back to reality with the low chuckle in his throat.

“No. No, sorry, just got caught in a daydream,” you turned away from him, hiding the growing redness on your cheeks before trying your best to play it off, “I don’t really have plans for the remainder of summer, honestly. Just taking it one day at a time.”

You laid back down on the grass next to him, resting your arm at your side and brushing your fingers against Draco’s. Your heart jolted and you tried to quickly pull your hand away, but you felt his finger twitch against your skin, his pinky finger locking with yours.

It was as if you totally forgot to breathe.

“I’m happy to have you here,” he said softly, placing the unfinished apple down on top of the closed basket, giving you his undivided attention, “I’m gonna miss you when you leave.”

You could hardly think straight, but you couldn’t give in to his charm that easily. He’d only tease you for the rest of the break, wouldn’t he? But, it was hard not to give in. His finger was awfully soft locked with yours, and you could feel both the heat from his body next to you, on top of your own body temperature spiking. It was way too warm to be in the sunshine.

“I’m happy to be here, too,” you replied, voice awfully quiet. You were almost sure he didn’t hear you, but the way that his hand gave yours a little squeeze, you knew that he did. 

You two were often on the same page, it was rare he didn’t know exactly how you were feeling. And it was rare that you didn’t know exactly how he was feeling. Right now was one of those rare moments. You couldn’t tell if he was honestly just pleased to have you here — mostly to help him deal with his pain in the ass father — or if this was something more. More than friendship, more than just... platonic. You couldn’t tell what he was feeling and it was driving you absolutely bonkers.

How could you even begin to ask him? Could you even ask? How would that go?

“Hey, Draco, I think I like you.” Pathetic, really. What a way to embarrass yourself.

You felt his hand give yours another squeeze, “You alright?”

Turning to face him, you thought that it was now or never. When would you get another moment of privacy with him like this? Where you could tell him the truth without the possibility of being overheard? 

To weight the pros and cons; if he felt the same, you guys could get the next little while together before going your separate ways for the remainder of the holidays. But if he didn’t, you’d have to deal with the brutal awkwardness of spending the next ten days with him, knowing that your feelings were one sided. Then, you’d have to see him again once returned to school. It wasn’t a very balanced list, in your opinion.

“I’m fine,” you turned to face him, forcing a small smile. 

As mentioned before, Draco could always tell how you were feeling. Which is why he pulled his hand from yours, turning over on his side to look at you. With furrowed eyebrows and concerned written across his features, you wanted nothing more than to peel your eyes away from him and completely ignore his gaze. But that was nearly impossible. It’s hard to look away from Draco Malfoy.

“Something tells me you’re lying,” he said softly, eyes scanning your face as if he could read your emotions written into your skin — as if the light freckles dotting your cheeks could give him the answers he was looking for.

You sucked in a deep breath, feeling the expansion of your lungs in your chest — it felt as if you were going to crush your heart any second now. Quite an unpleasant feeling, really.

“I’m not lying,” you said, voice cracking as you spoke. The worst possible lie. There was no way he’d believe that. 

He scoffed lightly, “So you’re just going to ignore your feelings then, yeah?”

It was now your turn to sit up, leaning against one of your elbows as you turned your body to face him. His cheeks were tinted with a pale shade of pink, most likely from the burning sun. It was a rather warm afternoon for summer in England. 

“What feelings?” you asked, averting your eyes, choosing to stare at an ant crawling slowly up a blade of grass. Not fascinating, but better than giving in to Draco. 

“Y/N,” one of his hands reached over and touched your chin, lightly tilting it so you could turn your head up and face him, “I asked you to a picnic today so we could be alone, you know?”

You finally looked over to him, eyes scanning from the base of his throat, slowly up to meet his eyes, “Why?”

“Well, I thought I was being bloody obvious,” he grinned, “I like being alone with you.”

“But why?” you sounded like a child

His laugh was taunting you — effortless and relaxed. Completely juxtaposed to the raging storm of emotions going through your heart and head. How he could say something like that; so heavy and heartfelt, to acting like it was nothing, you could never understand.

“Because,” he scooted closer, his hand leaving your chin, but coming to rest atop of yours, “I don’t know how much clearer I can make this, but I like you.”

You looked over at him, eyes wide and mouth gaped open like a fish. You must look like a bloody idiot, but there was really no other way to respond to that. He liked you back. All this time, he liked you back. And you genuinely had no idea.

There were really no words you could say in response, so you decided on showing him how you felt instead,  placing your hand at the back of his neck and bringing his lips to yours. They were incredibly warm — possibly from the sun — and soft. Softer than the grass beneath your skin, and sweeter than the chocolates melting in the basket by your feet. He tasted like mint and green apple, a mixture that felt odd when spoken, but tasted like heaven when experienced.

You felt him mumble against your lips, “I’ll take it you feel the same way?”

Pulling away to let out a small laugh, you nodded your head, “If it wasn’t obvious, yes.”

“Just making sure,” he gave you a lopsided grin, his hand cupping your cheek to connect his lips to yours once again. 

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[alwaysthrowsscissors]

Fic Writer Questions!

Thanks for the tag @venhedish dont mind if I do darlin'! Loved reading your answers too!

1) How many works do you have on AO3?

17 and I started May 2020

2) What's your total AO3 word count?

84,430! Sooooo close to that 100k milestone I just need to get off my writing hiatus since I have a beefy one shot WIP and a couple kink-meme prompt fills started that will get me to the finish line!

3) How many fandoms have you written for and what are they?

On Ao3/as an adult, just Supernatural.

4) What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Well Jung – This was my first and I’m still super surprised it took off so well considering all the head-hopping. I also hadn’t written fiction since high school so it’s pretty technically rough!

I Can’t Forget the Time and Place Where We Just Met – Who doesn’t love a good old-fashioned double amnesia fic! This was a SPN Masquerade fill and it was super fun to write!

Kiss the Cook – Another SPN Masquerade fill inspired by Dean in an apron in S15. Kitchen fucking is fun fucking!

Iodine and Stitches – 3/5 SPN Masquerade fills that I did fall 2020. Seriously such a fun event to participate in I cant recommend it enough. This is one my only fics with a serious tone throughout which is tough for this clown.

Double Jeopardy – Written for my buddy after finding out she has an intelligence kink! Cut to us giggling about Sam losing his damn mind when he plays Jeopardy with clever Dean!

5) Do you respond to comments, why or why not?

Listen…I can’t fully express how much comments give me LIFE! I want to know what you liked about my silly musings, I want to know your fav part, I want to know that I gave you a boner! I'll take a button smash, I'll take an emoticon. Anything, everything! I make a point to always respond back to show my appreciation for people taking time out of their day to make my day.

6) What's the fic you've written with the angstiest ending?

Without a shadow of a doubt Yesterday Don’t Matter if It’s Gone about what would happen if Sam and Dean hooked up during Mystery Spot and exacerbated Sam’s downward spiral during the months of Tuesdays. I write a lot of humour and this sucker is humourless PLUS has an unhappy ending! Weeee!

8) Do you write crossovers? If so what is the craziest one you've written?

Never have but not opposed to the idea.

9) Have you ever received hate on a fic?

Nope, I’ve been pretty fortunate but I also write pretty tame shit. So if I start dabbling more in the archive warnings it may change. I do have a fun multichap wincestiel non-con WIP in the works 😈

10) Do you write smut? If so what kind?

AHAHAHAHAHA I’d say a good 90-95% of my 84k wordcount is smut! All M/M all explicit! Fun times over at Casa Scissors 😏. I do have some upcoming stuff that’s more plot heavy though which I’m looking forward to.

11) Have you ever had a fic stolen?

I fucking hope not that would be a big bummer.

12) Have you ever had a fic translated?

Yes! And as a noob I had to pinch myself, it still fucking blows my mind! A lovely Ao3 user Yigelulu translated I Can’t Forget the Time and Place Where We Just Met into Chinese. It was so incredibly cool to see my words in another language and a great honour that they liked my fic enough to put in all that work!

13) Have you ever co-written a fic before? Yup! Turn Your Head and Cough with my budbud Wearingdeantoprom. Dean gets his prostate rubbed for the first time at the doctors office.

14) What's your all time favorite ship?

Wincest wincest all the wincest! My brain is infected and there is no cure! I am a pro-shipper though ship and let ship my dudes. I also dabble in wincestiel and LOVE any combination of winkline and may write it one day. I don’t really read much from other fandoms. I’ve read some George/Fred (I like brother fucking ok?) and I love me some Jess Mariano/Dean Forester over in the Gilmore Girls camp (the perfect enemies to lovers) but its unfortunately such a small ship. Any souls reading this who like those ships, please drop any recs into my box!

15) What's a WIP that you want to finish but don't think you ever will?

Anything I am passionate about I will finish. I’ve only killed one thing because I got bored with it but I posted my fav part for a fic challenge. I hate not having something to show for my spent time (I know it's a hobby but it's the principle damnit!) and I hate unfinished things. Those damn little ao3 red circles haunt me 🚫

16) What are your writing strengths?

Christ uhhh I’ll say I’m most consistently praised in comments for my dialogue and it’s what always flows the smoothest for me. I think my humour is also a strength, it comes very naturally when I write which is why I have a hard time keeping it out of my fics! Times are tough I just wanna make y’all giggle ok?

17) What are your writing weaknesses?

Frankly, my greatest weakness is that I don’t take it seriously enough to look at my past writing critically for improvement. I also write (non-fiction) for my job and had extensive training to do so, so when its for this hobby I honestly whip it out, edit a couple times, and slap it up ‘good enough’ styles and I don’t go back to re-read once posted. I think if I looked back, I could see lots of opportunities for improvement and could go from a fine writer to a good writer. I’d also say that I’ve written pretty fun fluffy cracky smutty stuff so I guess another weakness is a lack of depth of plot and subject matter. I do want to explore this stuff more though.

18) What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

My concern is if you don’t speak the language fluently, then native speakers reading your fic might feel a big disconnect if you get colloquialisms and euphemism etc. incorrect. It could take them out of your fic if its not authentic enough. I don’t speak any other language fluently so it would END BADLY. I can speak and read French VERY POORLY and that’s it so no, I will never write in another language unless its jibberish I invented myself!

19) What was the first fandom you wrote for?

The only fanfic I wrote before SPN last year was a handful of super cracky, gen Gundam Wing fanfiction in high school!! They are on a broken USB stick which kills me I want to read them so badly! All my other creative writing was original fiction mainly horror/thrillers. I stopped when I started my undergrad cause...that shit is a lot of work yo.

20) What's your favorite fic you've written?

My first love is my first baby Well Jung. I love the plot, I love the humour in it, I love the heart, and it’s still some of my fav sex I’ve written. And the title makes me giggle too who doesn’t love a bad pun? I'm so thrilled it was so successful but it would still be my favourite even if 3 people read it. It made me rediscover writing as a hobby and helped me explore this wonderful (yet insane) fandom. I love all my babies and I even think the writing is stronger in other fics, but he will always be #1 in my heart.

OK this was fun I love talking about fic writing! If any of you read my stuff and want to know more, hit me with an ask; I love making new frans! Tagging @oddsocksandstuff @samanddeaninpanties @raidens-realm I think my other writer mutuals have been tagged by Ven!

[ratanslily]

the stars took me home

pairing: bryce lahela x alessia lyxienne

for: @anotherbeingsworld ✨💕

a/n: this is a veryyyy short fic just because i miss bryce and i dont really got much time to write it because its like 2 in the night and i should rlly sleep lmao

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*

she looked upto the sky, her favourite scenery to contemplate. the stars shone bright and beautiful, even in the dusty Boston air.

with every twinkle of the stars, her mind and her thoughts grew desperate.

did she make the right call? would her actions have more severe consequences than what she intended to? did she endanger the patient's life further?

all these questions, and all those stars but still no answers, just the abyss staring back at her. it felt like for every star twinkling in the sky, a new doubt arose in her mind. The weight of it all dawned on her shoulders and she looked towards the ground.

her feet took her forward, supposedly towards home. Her mind was in a full daze so she didnt look where she was going. Looking up, she realised she was standing right in front of Bryce's apartment.

(should i..?)

she didnt want to disturb him, but she knew nobody else could calm her down the way he could, he was the only person she needed to see now. with slight hesitation on her mind, she went up the stairs and knocked at his door.

Bryce responded quickly, opening the door.

"May i come in?"

"please, as if you need any excuse to."

"you're welcome here, whenever you want to."

he welcomed her in, with a warm smile, the same smile which made her heart flutter with happiness.

"i miss you."

"even after our endless video calls?"

"yeah, cause even hours of video calls cant compare to a minute of conversation with you in person"

"aww, alessia. ever since edenbrook, uh, i mean, bloom-edenbrook reopened, I've been in a tight schedule of surgeries, since dr. Tanaka is out of town right now, most of the other surgeons are first year interns and harper is busy in the diagonistic board and-"

bryce stopped short as he noticed the immediate fatigue flashing in her face as soon as he dropped the phrase "diagnostic board"

"what's wrong? a case of the diagnostic board gone wrong?"

she let out a fake chuckle.

"i dont even know if the case has even gone right or wrong.."

"fill me in, im curious"

slowly, she told him all about Francis, AVM and the critical decision left upto her to save him or his body parts for transplant.

Bryce listened intently as she let it all out,  and opened herself in his presence, as he was the only one who could let her just be.

As she approached the part where she watched Francis from far away, unsure whether he would make it, or not, she let out a sob, a two, and ten more. Warm hands surrounded her as Bryce reached over for his usual conforting hug.

"Its okay Alessia. I'm proud of you. what decision 3 experienced doctors couldnt make, was made by you. what condition couldn't be predicted by such expert members, was done by you.You have the power to do anything. You see, the board is nothing, nothing without you. I know about the surgery concerning AVM and the decision to make has to be very quick.  just think of it! You weighed pros and cons of the decision within seconds, so why doubt yourself?"

He pat her back reassuringly as Alessia felt warm in his embrace, surrounding her with peace and security.

"dont ever doubt yourself, okay?"

"okay", came her muffled voice as she buried her face deep into bryce's sweater.

the stars shined bright in the sky above them, as the moon took her place in the sky. down below, a grateful Alessia nestled into Bryce's arms. she had a million questions, unanswered, but she also had bryce, right by her side. and that was everything she could ever need.

she knew her apartment was a few minutes distance away from his, but right here, in this moment, in his arms? she was home.

[floralkittygambler]

Spoiler to upcoming H*skerD*st post (why I dislike it)

Spoilers:

“ [SECT 1 - Body Language (Nif > AD) - Avian/Feline/Human] [SECT 2 - BOUNDARIES: rejection, pushy, reflects val, pref unavailable men like Henroin/Bro (Trav, H), power dynamics in fic/rl, candid pic] [SECT 3 - Age, chemistry (pro, con)/common grounds (addictions), convo, maturity, AD type, Opposites DONT attract (proven by science)] [SECT 4 - IG, fans, viv - streams, viv sis, staff, mick ear comment, issues w staff shipping, requests, new and outdated art, mentality, tsundere, male sex abuse victims in media, poor character and world mapping, neg gay stereotype, oversized pet, H being OOC for fanservice and self indulgence is creepy] [SECT 4.5 - Impact on audience: The message this conveys to audience, esp impressionable young people. lack of staff maturity and understanding on this. concerning fetish.] [SECT 5 - Personal Experiences + why it triggers, where my pov comes from and why its valid] [SECT 6 - CONCLUSION: Why it wont work, brief sum of impact on reality, no respect or boundaries, dangerous message, clear and unrealistic bias (that can lead to sloppy storytelling), How to Fix (best course of action from here, maybe a lesson in boundaries and accepting rejection/cant have everything to AD? Start of a purely platonic bond between the pair, Paternal/grandfather and grandson love (not always covered in media), healthy relationships that arent just sex/romance, how different bonds can help give support to healing, realistic relationships and bonds, moving away from creepy stereotypes and stigma, expanding from the cliche of love healing all and why thats dangerous, love is not to fix someone or yourself, how fanservice dampens storytelling and weakens development - ex pyramid head, viv ‘symbolism’ is heart trademark + lack of research, lesson of respect and boundaries, positive messages, how to improve of the storytelling of HH to avoid cliche and self indulgent/fanservicey pitfalls)] “

Finished the introduction and warning sections. Thisll take some time, esp as its touchy stuff for me. But working on something more refined and professional sounding/looking whilst linking the original for reader ref. Some personal info will be redacted as I feel uncomfortable sharing it as well as it’s in my right to have my privacy. Im aware people will question it however some things will trigger me and I will mention that, however I would rather keep somethings personal. Respect that from a real person please.

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Im also going to cover other (Viv Related) topics such as:

The Dangers of Stolitz

Valentino - The Bastardisation of the Pimp ‘Game’ (It’s NOT romantic)

The Flaws of Angel Dust (From Design, Stereotype, Drugs and Sex Work)

Viv and Critique - Why Criticism is CRUCIAL to Growth + the Difference Between Hate and Help

Points to Improve (in HH/HB)

Professionalism Lacking in Spindle + Concerns

Research! Some Facts About Each Era + Demonology (from a Real Witch!)

[Now I know many may have issues with this one but] Viv Inserts - Verosika, AD, Charlie...? (Incl. Viv Impsona, Staff OCs, How to correctly Self Insert)

Vox is a Victim (Whilst dark humour is great, this just crosses a line - and other facts on male abuse victims treatment)

Viv Has Taken on too much - Why this destroys industry before it begins (and how to avoid the temptation!) - A handy guide on realistic workload to reduce your own stresses and work your way towards your final goal!

Alastor - The Poor Portrayal of Race, Spiritual Practice and Design (And how to improve!)

Biggest Pet Peeve - LEARN YOUR DRINKS, DEMONOLOGY AND GAMBLING! 

What Drink is Husk Drinking? (Ft my decent into booze aka I can make a drink and drink a drink but my arms tire from the shaking aka blended booze b4 aka Repetition of the AoM ‘What Drugs is David Taking? ft The Addiction Boss Monster’)

Redesigns

What Variation Can Spice It Up?

How To Make An Adult Cartoon For ADULTS (And not just horny teens)

Sigils, Incorrect Usage and WTF ARE YER DOIN?! (Even for non-believers, dont misuse!)

Some Theories To Some Gin (or Whiskey or Voddie)

Review on Each Released Product (From Pilots, Comics to Merch)

Symbolism whilst combining Tragedy with Comedy

Bias, Misogyny and Treatment of Same Sex Ships 

Repetition

Why Stan Culture is Dangerous, So is Hate

How to plan, produce and market your own show!

Husk’s Peach Princess Cocktail (as seen on Tipsy Bartender) and Proof the Fans are Too Young To Booze Cruise

Building Rep and Trust whilst keeping boundaries as a creator

The Point and Purpose of the Hotel 

Sexual Fixations in both shows - why is everything sex

[goldenlaquer]

Is there a specific reason you dont want to/wouldnt be open to doing commissions? I wanted to send somethinf positive after the last ask you answered letting you know theres more people who would support but your replies to this question always seem like it makes you uncomfortable :(

‘Tis a complicated matter I’ve been warring over in my mind. But I’d like to clarify that in no way, shape, or form is anyone making me uncomfortable with their commission asks. Please, I don’t want anyone feeling like they have burdened me because they haven’t. In fact, I am extremely flattered and grateful for the offers and encouragement! 

That being said, my abstract replies utilizing various images of cat memes are a cop-out from definitively answering, simply because I’m on the fence. At this moment, I can tell you that my cons exceed my pros.

The pros are obvious here: there are lovely, lovely people willing to commission me and-- of course-- extra pocket money for moi. 

But as for the cons:

There are beginner issues of me not knowing what the fuck to do or how to go about setting up my commissions. What platform should I use? How should I price my work? Should I do this or that or blah blah blah. Maybe I’m overcomplicating things, but figuring how to set up has been a bit of a headache for me. 

The other problem is me being a slow writer when it comes to scenarios, as most of you are already well aware of. I wouldn’t want any of my commissioners to wait for a long time. And what if my work doesn’t meet satisfaction by the time I finish? That would also be a waste of y’all’s time AND money. I don’t want to do that to anyone. 

But the biggest fear that I have is turning my hobby into a business. I write because I like it, because I have some free time and would like to share it with anyone willing to read it. I like that what I do is free. Not just in monetary value, but also free from expectations and failure. I worry that by me taking commissions that I might grow to see my hobby as just another job and, perhaps by doing so, my enjoyment might go down. Also, will me taking commissions change the tone of my blog? I like what I having going on here with y’all. I worry that if I started doing commissions, would the energy in this room start shifting? LMAO THIS SEEMS A BIT OF A SILLY THING TO BE WORRIED OVER BUT I AM CONCERNED ABOUT IT NONETHELESS. 

TL;DR: idk im still thinking lol 

[aonahht]

Brexit yo

im ranting boys so strap in, sorry not sorry

So Brexit happened yesterday, (or at midnight last night I guess, its whatever), and while I, like most young people, was pro-remain, my opinion is that despite the sham that was the referendum, with literally no independent coverage of the pros and cons of leaving/remaining (love that for our democracy), the results were the results, and as far as I was concerned that was that and we should honour them and move on. cant help whats happened etc, just get it done and move forward, focus on actually funding the NHS and shit. (I respect that not everyone holds that opinion though, and go for it dudes, this is just where im at :)))) 

bit pissed the fuck off now though, bc (no shade to the Tory society at my uni, you do you and express your lil angry political selves or whatever) when I was on campus yesterday I saw them legit out doing a victory march in the piazza like wtf

to contextualise why im pissed: Brexit has been the most polarising and destructive-to-society political change/event or whatever in my living memory: legit its been like watching my parents divorce again- no one is happy, everyone is stressed and upset and arguing, and the people on each spouse’s side automatically are against the other spouse and their friends bc they all disagree- ITS JUST NOT A GOOD SITUATION AND EVERYONE IS BEING HURT BY THE ARGUING AND UNWILLINGNESS BY ANYONE TO TRY AND COMPROMISE BASICALLY BUT YEAH 

 so yeah everyone’s mad, politics is now some cesspit of jabs between politicians and random citizens alike all assigning blame for the country’s problems and defaming each other’s character bc they disagree- literally most of the serious arguments ive had with my parents and family have been about the politics and ideology that informed their decision to vote leave and the putridness of their reaction to any liberal (including me) questioning why they voted leave, but bc at my uni most people are quite intensely left but come from liberal households I almost feel like I have to defend my family bc voting leave doesn't make them bad people, they just have a different perspective than others, and different priorities (as we all do ayy democracy) so its just one big mess and everything’s fucked and the future is so uncertain bc rather than making concrete steps forward everyone’s spent four years arguing, and I don't know how to have opinions and not feel guilty anymore

….and these people are having a fuckin party about it??

ive been seeing pics of people waving their union jack flags, and going to rallies like the pope’s in town for a gav, and they’re acting like this is some kind of ‘victory’ or ‘triumph’ for the united kingdom?? United kingdom my arse bro, we haven't been this divided since (idek when actually, im 19 lol) but POINT BEING this is a fucking shambles and it just makes me angry-

- im angry that despite my attempts to always respect the opinions of the people around me and their voices, their backgrounds, their perspectives on life that I maybe don't share, people aren't willing to do the same for me 

- im angry that people would hold up the union jack, a flag which symbolises in its literal composition the coming together of different demographics into one united kingdom, and wave it as though Brexit has been anything other than the worst and most divisive thing to happen to democracy in 21st century britain

- im angry that some of these people not only hold up this flag, but then legit start referring to yesterday/today as ‘independence day’ like oh my FUCking god do you literally not understand at all the premise of what independence day means to so many people- the words literally represent for so many countries the moment where they, as a nation, took back political agency and control from literal colonisers (spoiler: a shameful amount of those times the coloniser was Britain, so wind your neck in maybe??) and began governing their country again independently of powers who stripped them of their agency against their will. How the fuck, sirs, can one compare Brexit which legit is just pulling out of a CONSENSUAL AGREEMENT WE ENTERED INTO OF OUR OWN FREE WILL, with no resistance from the other party other than the expected attempts to use their power to negotiate (literally we would have done the same, I don't get why ppl were so mad that the EU didn't want us to leave and didn't just hand every perk to us on a silver platter, why would they, our politicians were being dicky and offensive from the get go, how british) but yeah, compare that to LITERAL COLONIALISM WHY DONT YOU- the fucking insensitivity and stupidity just makes me so mad, like read a fucking book.

- also side note, also mad bc people act like they’re the most educated person in the room bc they read the news on facebook, and then dismiss you when you bring up a relevant point that you literally learned from your academic reading and political engagement across a range of news sources from a range of political biases, and then act like formal education is a conspiracy theory formed by the left (its not, and its literally history dude, im not  making it up) 

so yeah, in summary this is just a sad and a shit day, that people are now so divided and polarised that they can look at the hurt and anger caused by the last four years and think of today as a victory. I don't know what it means to be british anymore dudes, other than being angry, frustrated and divided

[love-the-aftertaste]

I accidentally wrote a friend a novel on what has been happening with with the US impeachment story over the last 60 or so hours, and I put enough work into it I thought I would share it here as well. This was written on Friday, September 27th @ 7:24am:

Hey, so last week there was news that Trump had made a promise to a foreign leader over the phone that was so concerning someone in the intelligence community filed an official whistleblower complaint that was deems both “credible and urgent” by Intelligence Community Inspector General (ICIG) and trump appointee, Michael Atkinson, that the Trump administration refused to turn over to Congress, despite the fact Congress is supposed to be a co-equal branch of government that has as constitutional responsibility to check and balance the power of the president and thus is legally entitled to see that complaint.

And then in light of the fact Trump kept stonewalling Congress, this Tuesday, Speak of the House, Nancy Pelosi finally grew a pair and announced the House was launching a formal impeachment investigation into the president, even tho TTrump had already announced he would release the transcript of the call with the president of Ukraine (who turned out to be the aforementioned foreign leader) and everyone was freaking out that Pelosi had overplayed her hand bc what if the transcript was released and was not as damning as everyone thought it would be, especially since we all knew it would be edited to show trump in the best possible light...

And then the next day (Wednesday morning) the White House did release, not a call transcript, but what is called a "tel-con memo" i.e., a telephone communication memo, which is essentially the notes someone wrote down real fast either while the call was happening or immediately after. AND IT WAS THAT BAD. In it, Trump explicitly states "I want you to do us a favor tho" after lecturing the Ukrainian president about how much aid (money) we give them and how much aid they do not give us. And then Trump goes on to tell the Ukraine president to work with Rudy Giuliani and Attorney General Bill Barr and also to look into Crowdstrike which is this crazy conspiracy theory the Pesident of the Free World apparently actually believes. But most importantly, Trump also directly asked the Ukraine president to look into Joe Biden and his son for a different conspiracy theory.

And then the declassified whistleblower complaint was delivered to Congress finally Wednesday night, even though it wasnt released to the public until Thursday morning and then like an hour later, the (acting) Director of National Intelligence (DNI), Joseph Mcguire, got in front of the House for about 3/3.5 hours of questioning about his role in this whole mess, during which he tried to play Bob Mueller and just dodge most of the questions, but he did admit several important points, including but not limited to, he thought the whistleblower was acting in good faith and that he thought the greatest threat to the USA was election interference...

And now hardcore Republicans like Mitch McConnell, Devin Nunes, and John Ratcliffe, are trying to pretend that Trump did nothing wrong and that the whistleblower complaint is only "hearsay" which is a legal term that DOES NOT apply to investigations, so i literally just do not understand if they dont know the law or are just trying to mislead the public, or probably some combination of both. But also, it is critical to remember that Trump and his attorney have both multiple times admitted on TV and via that tel-con memo to asking a foreign power (Ukraine) to investigate a political rival, which in and of itself is impeachable conduct.

More moderate Republicans are still towing the party line however they are trying to spin the story as "Trump did something bad but its not impeachable" and usually the reason they cite is there was no quid-pro-quo, i.e., trump did not literally say if you do this for me, i will give you foreign aid money" but two things: 1) there doesnt need to be a quid-pro-quo, the fact that he asked is enough, and 2) at the time of the phone call, trump was already withholding foreign aid money from Ukraine and both from the timing of the call and from the language in the tel-con, it seems as if there was a quid-pro-quo anyway.

Democrats on the other hand have finally, finally united on this and now more than 218 (the necessary number of votes to impeach) of them support impeachment, or at least support and impeachment inquiry.

Also Trump has gone from begging to be impeached under the presumption impeachment would help him get reelected, to likening the whistleblower and whoever talked to the whistleblower to spies and treason and suggested we handle them the way we used to treat spies in the old days "back when we were smart" which is to say, Trump would like to have the whistleblower executed. Meanwhile, the New York fucking Times have been doing their level best to out the identity of the whistleblower, which is just so irresponsible it is mind-boggling.

Oh and Giuliani seems to honestly think former Vice President and Presidential Candidate Joe Biden is trying to kill him since he keeps yelling at anyone who will listen that he (Giuliani) needs whistleblower protection, despite the fact he did not blow the whistle on anything or anyone unless the "whistle" is a euphemism for Trump’s dick.

[relatablemormonmoments]

Sunday Talks Summary

Typed down really quickly because sleep is calling (O@ks is in there somewhere but I didn't even listen to his talk soooo)

Dale G. Renlund

Heavenly Father wants to bless us

We need faith inspired blessings

We must rely on Christ

We don't need to earn a blessing but we must qualify for one

Small acts of faith ignite God's promises

Push on and Pray again

"Mike, you can do this, try again"

Make tools before we know what to do with them

Cheerfully donall things that Lie in your power and then stand still - Joseph Smith

Pros: Beautiful talk about why God gives us blessings and why we need those blessings

Cons: Insinuates that we need to work within strict guidelines set by the church

Sharon Eubank

Temple is a steady beacon (one night the lights wouldn't turn on, it felt somber and people. noticed.)

Satan seeks to heighten pressures and take away the light

God visits people in their afflictions

Life can be exhausting

DEPRESSION! THIS TALK IS ABOUT DEPRESSION

i stan this woman 200%

Jesus is always reaching out to someone who isn't traditionally accepted by society

Some of us are full of questions but are irritated by it (Dream about stone Gazebo)

We develop assurance/ hope in things unseen

Return us to purity-not logical but true

Take courage and turn to God

We need friends and we need eachother

Pros: This talk is about how God loves us no matter what and will guide us and wants to make us feel better, This talk feels like a well needed hug, There is hope in God

Cons: May make you sad

Quentin L. Cook

Faith hope charity and love

Sharing Gospel=Great Love

(Story about visiting Samoa and ministering to a man) At first unsuccessful in converting him but left as friends, then prophet made his armor fall away and he left accepting the missionaries

Invite friends to feel the CHURCH EXPERIENCE

The home is now the main family history center thanks to the internet

The home is the main Missionary training center

Men and Women have = power to recieve revelation for the family

Loving atmosphere in the home

Maake the internet a servent to your family rather than a distraction or a master

Pro: Feminist mention, Focuses on missionary work and Nelson's home centered teachings

Con: Pro Proselytizing, Semi Anti Internet

D. Todd Christoferson

Spirit made clear that the Church is uniquely prepared

Second Coming

The lord hath brought again Zion

Employing our imperfect efforts, our small means, the lord brings about great things

Pro: About the Second Coming, we dont have to be perfect, as long as we make an effort

Con: Pro do all you can to expedite end times

Tad R. Callister

Atonement ->Safert in our foolish actions

Repentance =allowing the savior to protect us (Parachute analogy)

Some have trouble forgiving themselves and have falsely made the infinite atonement into a finite one

You can never go too far

How do we know we' e been forgiven? ->Feel holy ghost's influence

Guilt's a warning, a stop sign, but we can forget its pain (Alma)

Let us cheerfully do all things in our power and then stand still before God -Joseph Smith

Saving ordinances unleash our Godly Powers (which makes me think of superman lol)

No man should blame his "nature" when he has Christ to protect him

Pros: Atonement saves us when we actively use it!, Guilt is a warning!, You can't stray too far

Cons: Call out for those who always e cuse their own actions and refuse to better themselves.

Russel N. Nelson

"I need to feed my spirit!"

Return to our love ones when we all serve the lord (Beautiful but tragic story of his Daughter's passing)

Visited Paradise CA after death of daughter and devastating fire

Policeman helps others escape to safety at peril of own life, worries about his own family to learn they were safely evacuated

When we are on the brink of death we think of if our family will be safe furst

Salvation is an individual matter, Exaltation is a family matter

Pour out heart to God, make and keep covenants with hkm

Invite non members and thise distancing themselves from church

Pros: Really sweet, concern about our family who we want to be with forever

Cons: I CRIED ABOUT HIS DAUGHTER, The Family A Proclamation to the World

Juan Pablo Billar

Spiritual Gifts are like muscles

When he was a kid his brother joined the church and went on a mission. He planned a trip with his friends to celebrate graduation and made a stop in the town his brother served in, wanted to hang out and sunbathe at the beach, brother was like "hey this is my companion lets do some chores before we go to the beach" and so Juan walked with his brother through the town for more than ten hours going house to house as his brother and brother's companion preached the gospel. His brother asked his feelings onnthe savior and never corrected him. He gained knowledge. He never sunbathed but bathed in the light of heaven, he was a missionary without being a member of the church.

Trust in the Lord

("He's just like Uchtdorf!" -My Grandmother)

Got baptized and went on mission in brother's footsteps

Exercise our faith, its a muscle

Pros: I LOVE THIS MAN HES SO ADORABLE and very funny

Cons: None

Garret W. Gong

Counting sheepndoesnt make him sleepy, but anxious and awake

Count the lamb of God and be counted by the Good Shepherd

He calls us by name, we do it in his

Book of mormon is a blessing

Gathering of Israel

Feed his sheep

False prophets = wolf in sheeps clothing

Minister to all of God's children

Filled with compassion, pure and perfect love

Invites all to find peace

Pros: Feel good talk, equates us to the lord and the lord to us

Cons: Pro proselytizing

David A. Bednar

"I have learned for myself" -Joseph Smith

We all nesd to learn for ourselves

Become more like Heavenly Father

We cannot borrow Gospel Knowledge from others

Gospel learning becoming home centered

We are unsure about what we can say about the temple, and thusbafraid to say anything to our children and grandchildren that would foster a love for the temple

A lot of good information is provided by the church

The Lord will enable you

Pros: Encourages learning for ourselves rather than to learn, or to rely on other's knowledge, There is no cheating on a test of faith, Nelson's centered on the home plan

Cons: A lot of non members don't want to rely on church sites for info about the church because its obviously biased towards the church

Kyle F. McKay

Immediate goodness of God comes to those who ask

Immediate hope and peace and kindness

Completely surrendering self to Lord (Emily & Substance abuse) for betterment of self

Great plan of deliverence and redemption

"Aleisha we love you, you need to take this call," Bishop grieved with her over loss of family, gave her a blessing, filled with peace, understanding, and joy.

Pro: Very calming to listen to, God loves us all and qants to comfort us

Con: sensitive subjects of substance abuse and car crash

Ronald Rasband

Our homes are fortresses against evils of thenworld

Our homes are only as powerful as our spiritual strength

Need for Holy Ghost

Satan rages on, subtle snake

Faithful in resisting inequity

Do we act with the willing obedience of Nephi?

Focus on Eternal Life

Testimony=Personal Fortresses

Pros: Nephi, yes Satan is attacking us and we need to build our defense.

Cons: are people with nonmember families/ "broken" families weaker against satan? does this include found families? non traditional homes?

Russel N. Nelson

162 temples today

pioneer temples will be renewed, restored, preserved, and renovated

Temples are part of our sacred history

American Samoa

Okinawa

Tonga

Utah

Washington

Honduras

Chile

Hungary

May we renovate our lives to serve and love Him

Church will continue until He deems the work is done.

[hxh-3]

I've recently come to notice something about dating. Dating someone involves a series of small decisions leading up to a few big decisions about where things are gonna go. So what makes it different to any other life choices? Why is it that so many people make such emotionally driven choices when concerning something as delicate as hearts. Would we do that in other life changing situations or would we outweigh the pros and cons *first*? Relationships don't always workout, people get played, lifestyles don't always match, so many challenges can present themselves when ur getting to know someone. Just as they do in other areas of life. So why do we tend to rely on only emotions when we could first ask ourselves if continuing with a person makes logical sense? Why is it "too fast" to ask if someone is open to marrige early on? Why is it "weird" to ask serious questions to a person you could potentially fall in love with. Why do we accept a "we're just having fun" from people when that's only their inability to communicate what they want, showing through.

I dont know about everyone else, but I'd personally rather seem "weird" or "needy" and get the answers i need from the long, real conversations with a person about how we would last. than end up giving my heart to someone whom I only know on the surface.