#but i am smart. very smart. just with adhd

[craptainkirk]

If it's just one person calling you stupid then sure enough theyre saying it because they need you to seem worse standing next to them so they feel better about themselves in comparison. Even if they have to manipulate reality itself to make it true. And do you know who would do such a thing. A stupid person

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

Trying to undo years of masking so that the doctor running my ADHD evaluation takes me seriously

[dreamofbecoming]

got my first paper back from my human rights class (the second one is due tomorrow lmao) and i got an a and he like. pointed out bits he liked? which was nice! for sure! but there’s no criticism at all so i feel completely unmoored for this next one. like i was really hoping i would have specific things to work on or fix that would help me center my writing but nope, i’m just winging it again. and like, i should be glad that i did well and he apparently likes my writing, but also i’m just kind of. agh. you know??

[chronicallycouchbound]

Intelligence Doesn't Equal Morality

Intellect is rooted in ableist systems and stupidity and intelligence are pointless social constructs that don't relate to morals or character.

I try to be a pretty good person, I fight for human rights, I regularly engage in mutual aid, and I care for my community. I try to do the right thing and support causes I care about and make positive changes in the world.

But I also am not very smart. I have several neurodevelopmental disorders, as well as cognitive disabilities. I can’t do simple, basic math, it’s hard for me to remember facts or algorithms, I rely entirely on spellcheck and speech-to-text to write, I failed many classes in high school and I barely passed with a low GPA, I had low pSAT scores and I never took the SATs. I moved around a lot all through school starting in third grade, and I missed a lot of basic fundamentals in learning (like how to do division and multiplication) so when I went to a different school they had already passed it and expected me to know. After my TBI, I could barely read AFTER I was cleared from my “concussion” symptoms because letters and words would flip around and I’d get headaches. Which still happens sometimes.

A lot of people see me as smart because I've learned a lot of academic language and can formulate thoughts into cohesive posts. But I lack a lot of necessary skills and rely on my caretakers to assist me. Things like budgeting and planning are extremely difficult for me. If I need to do simple addition or subtraction, even with a calculator, I quickly get confused and struggle. I forget basic information about myself all the time, let alone other subjects. I'm talking, has to check my ID for my birthday type confused. Doesn't know my name or address or what year it is confused. It happens daily, sometimes multiple times a day. Being able to type out posts like this often takes weeks and many adaptive tools to get there. Focusing is extremely difficult on many fronts, severe chronic pain, ADHD, dissociation, fatigue, migraines, and TBI, are just some of the contributing factors. I struggle daily with many things because of my lack of intellect.

I’m also privileged in the fact that I had some access to education as a homeless youth, that I had some supports in place to help me (towards the end of school), that I was somewhat able-bodied at the time and could walk or bike to and from school when the school system didn’t provide transportation. I was fortunate to have a chance to succeed, and I’m proud that I graduated high school because it was a difficult task for me, and others often aren’t offered that chance or get accommodations. I almost didn’t and I dropped out many times before graduation. I passed on sheer luck and what little privileges I had. 

That all being said, me being stupid (reclaiming it here) doesn't make me a bad person. I don't hurt people because I can't do math. I may mess up things or get confused but it doesn't make me want to harm others.

We often (wrongfully) equate morals with intellect. Being ‘stupid’, ‘dumb’, or an ‘idiot’ doesn’t automatically make someone a bad person. Plenty of evil, awful, and abusive people are extremely intelligent. 

I see this most notably with people advocating for IQ tests to be able to vote. Often from left-leaning people, in hopes it'll make the right (that they view as unintelligent), unable to vote. The reality is, it just hurts some of our most vulnerable members of the community while not actively doing anything to restrict some of the most dangerous members of our community-- those who know what they're doing to harm others and deliberately doing so. My voice matters, and I speak up against injustice and participate in dismantling oppressive systems. Taking away my right to vote won't make the right stop oppressing minorities (which also puts a lot of faith into the two-party voting system, which is a post for another day).

Additionally, legislative measures that discriminate against intellectually disabled people such as IQ tests for voting are also rooted in racism and classism. 

Yes, education can be a vital tool when it comes to addressing discrimination and creating safer communities. But the kind of education that is measured with an IQ test (or any test) isn't the same. Building compassion and caring for others can (and should) happen at any IQ level. We can all practice this, we can all participate.

It harms our communities and stagnates our progress when we equate intelligence with high morals.

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

Last ADHD evaluation: Had to wait about six months to get in, "doctor" was a man, he told me I'm "too smart" to have ADHD

This ADHD evaluation: Doctor is a woman, I can get in within two weeks, already a much more pleasant experience

[felixdragonheartofficial]

TFA TEAM PRIME HUMAN REDESIGNS FINALLY

FUCK

+headcannons

Optimus: gotta stay focused

looks too old compared to his bot form.

I find it impossible for Optimus to be more than a million years old in this canon. In the least, he's older than 1000 years and since we have mfs that are canonically over 70 million years old(fagatron iykyk) compared to that, he feels like a dude in his early-to-mid-30's being the group parent.

---

-I made him more youthful, gave him curly hair, and tailored his clothing to actually look like his bot form.

-workaholic

-on the cusp of barley being able to hold his liquor

-doesn't own a pair of pajamas until Sari gets some for him

-usually forgets to put them on, but appreciates the gesture

-stays active for like, 3 days until he can't fight off sleep with work brain anymore, and unceremoniously passes out on the couch to sleep for a full 24 hours

-ratchet sighs and puts a blanket over him as per routine

-frequently checks security feed

-elf on the shelf despiser

-early morning talks with jazz and ratchet over coffee (they all wake up at 6 am)

-half thrives on caffeine and a vigorous training protocol

-is a dog person, loves German shepherds to death

David sama, pls forgive me ily very much

Ratchet: to old for this nonsense

doesn't match his body type in the slightest.

Ratchet is really old, he's got a sallow face and a gramp gut, how dare they square him. He's wayyy too angular and peachy looking.

-I gave him his luscious curves back, adding all the equipment id expect a field medic to have because he is a field medic, not a regular doctor. I changed his facial proportions, and also made his face gaunt, for that dead inside PTSD look.

---

-drinks his coffee black with brown sugar, literally drinks it piping hot

-is one of those old people who complains about noise

-confiscates bumblebee and Sari's toy cars, and puts them in a high up cabinet

-neither of them know how to bypass the child safety lock lmao

-casual clothes includes a lot- a l o t of plaid shirts, and 10 pairs of the same blue jeans

-tunes out bulkhead and prowls convos about birdwatching

-big fan of political satire dramas

-Sentinel doesn't approve

-Ratchet doesn't give a rats ass about what he thinks of course

Bumblebee: professional smart-ass

doesn't match his body type/age.

Bumblebees holoform is presented as a 10-12 year old child specifically for the fact that he's short, and the comedic relief. Total ass

I set his human age as 19-20 years old, making him more of a big brother to sari because that og model is disappointingly lackluster

---

-Bumblebee is a scrappy wisecracking punk, like an adhd kid who just got roller skates for Christmas.

-since he doesn't have wheels, I feel like he'd wear skates instead to emulate the feeling

-terrible at watching where he's going cuz he's too busy trying to show off, so ratchet makes him wear all that padding + training wheels

-legit despises the padding and training wheels

-Jealous of Blurr for mastering roller blades lmao.

-his favorite games are choose your fighter and fps

-saw ONE ancient ass assassins creed playthrough and begged ratchet to install hidden tasers in his arm bands (was denied)

-Sari used her key to do it instead

-self appointed "rizzler"

-Optimus has zero idea of what that means and thinks it's code for something dubious

-Ratchet knows what it means and thinks it's silly

-"I' was something of a rizzler myself back in my day, kid"

-bumblebee cringes

-loves summer and swimming

-wants to be the fastest thing in the sea because y'know, it's bumblebee

-is spooked from the beach for awhile cuz he saw sharks in Prowls nature documentary

-there are infact, no sharks in lake Erie

Bulkhead: big guy, bigger heart

doesn't match his body type/aspirations.

Jesus fuck he's so wide?? And his belly migrated to his shoulders?? I'm gonna be honest, I really hate this design. I feel like it contributed to the "brute strength = stupid" take that most in the fandom associates with him.

---

-Bulkhead is a SWEET. CARING. NERD YOU FOOLS. He's like the male version of a tall goth gf-

-a tall-nerdy-farm hand-physics bf, You got me fucked up.

-Its already shown that bulkhead really likes art in Addition to creating it. He hates being only seen as the "muscle" so it wouldn't make sense for him to lean into that.

-bunny slippers that him and sari made together(she provided the buttons)

-the slippers go missing sometimes (basically considered community property unless he's wearing them)

(ratchet and prowl are the main offenders)

-frequent art museum goer

-really likes watching cooking shows, but is too shy to make food himself

-Owns a ton of star maps

-Really wants a treehouse that he, bumblebee and sari can hang out in

-pillowfort enjoyer

-casually reads quantum physics at the beach

Prowl: draft dodger

Doesn't look like him at all.

Prowls holoform being a mustachioed,white, police officer was an actual jumpscare for 7 y/o me, I kid you not

---

- I know this bitch would not wear a helmet (you can't force him to) que windswept hair

-Not as much as starscreams, for obvious reasons but yk

-prowl is like one of those "shoes are a prison for your feet"

-emo hipster

-has a pet cactus named "planty"

-bumblebee heckles him for it

-can and has brought his cactus with him on early evening motorcycle rides

-the helmet is reserved for his cactus, bring your own >:(

-salad consumer

-him and jazz share custody of the cactus

-repeat victim of the cat distribution system

-ratchet has probably spent hours telling him they can't keep any animals at base

-frequent midnight picnics with jazz

-and beachcombing

-and roaming around antique stores cuz jazz wants to know what vinyl records are

-got a mug with an attempted pink chibi cat with big round shiny eyes painted onto it, courtesy of bulkhead trying to find an artsyle

-cherishes this mug to death

-has a shrine dedicated to it

[shirbird]

@rizzlegukgak I chose Adaine; my reasoning is in the tags.

I’ve seen some posts going around about this so here’s a poll

[hollowed-theory-hall]

do you think that some of Harry's actions could be more than simply abuse? like i often take note of his small social groups/dislike of social situations, inability to regulate/understand emotion, lack of filter, hyperfixation on things, etc. and interpret him as an autistic character. i think there's also mirrors between magic itself and neurodivergence (just in the same way magic is often a metaphor for queerness within media), as something that someone is born with and has to hide from the wider world, historically regarded as "freakish", and the statistics that show that neurodivergent kids are more likely to be abused.

it could just be me projecting (as im autistic myself), but i'm curious if you've got any thoughts on this?

Honestly, I personally headcanon Harry as ADHD (because I have ADHD and am familiar with it), so I really get it.

How he interacts with people, his being so smart, but very unfocused in classes, his tendency to fail himself by overthinking things (when it comes to spell casting), and his issues with emotional regulation and occasionally understanding others (He's very compassionate, but he isn't the best at actually knowing to how to approach people. Like, not understanding why Cho was crying after Cedric died or just throwing Ron's blanket over Hermione in Deathly Hallows after Ron left because he didn’t know how to comfort her. Or in OotP when he saw Lavender and Praviti giggling about him, and he was sure it was about what the Prophet wrote and not that he got hot over the summer. He can be super awkward like that) can all be very easily read as Harry having some kind of neurodivergence.

I think that's a super valid reading of his character regardless of the type of neurodivergent you think he is. I mean, it's the 90s and the Wizarding World, so it's not like he'd ever get a diagnosis. Neither he nor anyone else is going to consider it, I mean, as bad as the muggle world at the time is about neurodivergence, the Wizarding World is probably worse.

Now, I'm not sure about magic in the Wizarding World being easily read as an allegory to autism (or anything similar). Like, you can read it however you want, but I don't personally see this treatment of magic as a whole.

I actually think the 'Harry is neurodivergent headcanon' extends to how he interacts with magic in an intuitive way that goes against how the textbooks teach but is easier for him. Like, I truly believe that one of the reasons he doesn't bother studying much is because how magic is thought about by most people is not how Harry understands it, and if someone only bothered to explain things to him in his own terms instead of the textbook terms he'd be the second coming of Merlin.

But Harry himself being neurodivergent is something I am 100% behind.

[traincat]

Joseph Quinn recently spoke about how he's choosing to portray Johnny as a character and I honestly found his responses really interesting. I'm not sure if you've seen what he's said but he pretty much says he's confident and funny but still self-deprecating and that he isn't "callous" with others' feelings. Also that his intelligence is more of a focus (which I kind of love because he is clever!!! I feel like people forget that because his brother-in-law is THE Reed Richards-though maybe I'm biased because I project the fact that I think Johnny has adhd and isn't "traditionally book smart" but still very clever, if that makes sense idk).

Anyways, I just thought this was pretty cool and I gotta say I am looking forward to seeing his take on Johnny as a character :)

I saw part of the quote, but I've been busy with a fandom event, so I haven't really been keeping a close eye on any Marvel news. I do like what he said about Johnny not being as much of a skirt chaser, which is very accurate to '60s Johnny, the Sweetest Boy in the World. I'm also glad that it sounds like they're going to focus on his specific brand of intelligence, because the fun thing with Johnny is that, even though he's so critical of himself, he is really intelligent, but it's a different kind of intelligence than Reed's. He's an engineer! He's emotionally intelligent! Except when he's not! Which is usually about his own emotions! So it's fun to hear that he's not callous with other peoples' feelings.

I'm trying to like, not get too much of an idea of anything about this movie in my head, though. I'm always interested in new interpretations of the Fantastic Four and how they draw on or differ from the original canon, so it'll be interesting to go in with no preconceptions. Joseph Quinn wasn't my ideal casting (I didn't want anyone who was extremely well known for one role in a huge fandom because of the tendency for bleed over, like what happened with the Hobbit for example) but I'm still interested in seeing his interpretation of the character. From what you've described here, it certainly sounds more grounded in the original Lee/Kirby run.

[mer-acle]

The Greek Gods, described by me:

(pls take this as hc I just have vibes)

Zeus:

That uncle that thinks they're fun at parties, but actually everybody just wants them to shut up and stop talking about the shape of the earth. Knows the truth and what's best for you (hmmm)

Poseidon:

That uncle that is perpetually absent, but very loud when he does show. Teases everyone and never notices that some of it hurts. Has slightly less unhinged ideas about the world than Zeus but is just as annoying about them.

Hades:

The uncle that at least gets how unhinged everything is. Usually has the reasonable arguments but nobody listens. Has no idea what you are up to, but at least he feels bad that he's distant. Hates family gatherings even more than the second generation.

Hera:

True professional. Made bad choices (marrying Zeus) but now guess we'll deal with it. Olympus runs because of her. Being a bastard child does not serve you well, unless what you want actively annoys Zeus, or if you know not to expect a mother figure but approach her as queen.

Demeter:

Tries to fix Olympus sometimes, but it never goes well. Perfectly agreeable until you go after the environment (honestly you go girl). Is a genuinely sweet Mom who probably cries if you get her a gift because she loves you so much. Probably will get a dog to compensate for you growing up and moving out (even if you didn't get kidnapped first)

Hestia:

The best. Always has hot chocolate and a place to unwind. Honestly everyone would be happier if they spent more time with her. Possibly the only God who genuinely knows peace.

Athena:

Oh look, the oldest and gifted too. No coincidence that there was nothing about being happy in that prophecy about her. Is naturally good at pretty much anything she tries, except feelings. Will join in with the first gen's arguments even though there's nothing to be gained, it's just hard to sit by all the bullshit when you know better.

Hephaestus:

Honestly a pretty chill dude. Just wants to make things. Every few hundred years he'll make something evil-scientist-y so Olympus remembers he's not a doormat. Would have coined the word introvert if Hades hadn't beaten him to it.

Aphrodite:

Smarter than you think. Torn between being exactly what everyone sees her as and being anything but. Don't mistake love for harmony, this girl holds her ground and just bc she has emotional intelligence does not mean she won't punch where it really stings.

Ares:

They really screwed this guy over, he's just doing his job. Yes, he will kill you, but not if you're unarmed. Honest, strong, straightforward, and can be gentle as long as not on the battlefield. Give this big man some appreciation and self-esteem, by Styx!

Artemis:

A mythic bitch. Possibly the first ever activist, making a point of breaking gender norms. Smart, capable, and independent. Her views can be a little extreme at times, but you can't deny that running around the woods with a bunch of wild nymphs lesbians imo is massive lifegoals

Apollo:

Fabulous. Cannot pick a hobby to save his life. Is the most competent and put-together medic ever but outside of the tent, he cries about puppy videos. Always torn between "I am the best there ever was" and "I am a failure of a man, a god, a being!"

Hermes:

God of ADHD and we love him for it. Also a little menace who is simultaneously an amazing liar and can't keep his mouth shut when he really should (thankfully he's quick on his feet). Physically unable to take anything seriously.

Dionysus:

Does all the drugs (which is especially crazy given he can actually die) Being the youngest does actually do nothing for him. God of side quests and mayhem. Seriously mess with him and your mental health is gone forever (that explains a lot about me actually)

[four-of-them-showdown]

Miku, Rin, Len, Luka:

No propaganda!

Jay, Cole, Kai, Zane:

"They're my friends, they've been a team for over 10 years now and I've been there that whole time :)"

"Why shouldn't they win? They're little gay skittles. Or they're brothers. You choose"

"JUMP UP KICK BACK WHIP AROUND AND SPIN (sorry i am very passionate about the legos but too tired to form like. real sentences. please imagine something written about how they're cool and fueled my childhood or something)"

"OK SO

They’re the OG members of the ninja team and shipping all four of them together is popular and is very gay it’s called polyninja and it’s amazing and let me break down the dynamics of each of them

Zane x Jay: Technoshipping

Robot x their mechanic trope goes brrrr. Zane is a logical and smart one, and Jay is chaotic and kinda a disaster. Zane is the autism to his adhd and they are very fun <3

Zane x Kai: Oppositeshipping

Ha ha opposites attract trope goes brrr. Again, Zane is logical and smart, whereas Kai is impulsive (and also smart just in a different way). Both of them feel emotions strongly but process them in different ways and I have to end it here before I write an essay about how ZANE was the one who with a single meaningful look and touch to the arm told him it was too late to go back, how Lloyd mentioned KAI to try and restore Zane’s memories when he had amnesia, how- (You get the picture)

Zane x Cole: Glaciershipping

Mom friend x Dad friend. I have realized that his is getting long so I am going to be much briefer now

Jay x Kai: Plasmashipping

Two adhd/add idiots being stupid together <3

Jay x Cole: Bruiseshipping

Best friends to lovers what more could you want (don’t start me on this one they have so much chemistry)

Kai x Cole: Lavashipping

I am bad at words for this one but just trust me they’re a Vibe ok they’re a Vibe

Zane x Jay x Kai x Cole: Polyninja

THEY ARE STUPID, GAY, AND IN LOVE, YOUR HONOR"

[stellaluna33]

Heyyyy, I'm back with more messy, nuanced meta that nobody asked for and will probably just piss people off again, but whatever, I can't help myself, apparently.

I want to start out by saying that, concerning Luke and Jess's fight in S4 over whether Luke kicked Jess out or Jess "got himself kicked out," I am more on Jess's "side" here. But I have this irritating need to see things from other people's perspectives and figure out why they do the things they do. Luke is acting like Jess wronged him by leaving without a goodbye and never contacting him, and insists that Jess got himself kicked out. I see Luke as a generally good and straightforward man who is not usually INTENTIONALLY manipulative, but he is, despite the façade of taciturn practicality, a VERY emotional man who feels things VERY strongly, so I think he must FEEL like this is true. So, why does Luke FEEL like Jess abandoned and discarded him when Luke was objectively the one who told Jess to leave in the first place? One of the things Luke keeps bringing up is the "agreement" they made way back at the end of S2, when Jess said he "wanted to come back" and live with Luke again, and during the fight when Luke does kick Jess out it seems clear that Luke does not understand the way Jess's situation spun out of control. The situation from his point of view was that Jess COULD HAVE honored the agreement (if he CARED), but CHOSE not to because he DID NOT CARE. And no longer cared about Luke PERSONALLY. That's how he sees it. It's not TRUE, but that's how it looks TO HIM.

Luke does SOOOO many things that he does not want to do out of a sense of duty towards the people he cares about. His parents both got sick and died when he was fairly young, and he was the one holding things together, trying to hold his little sister together, and he didn't WANT to do ANY of that. But he DID because he CARED. Luke does not seem to understand that he and Jess are, despite their similarities, very different. Their situations have been very different and their personalities are not the same. This is emphasized AGAIN during these same episodes when Liz arrives. Luke expects Jess to do exactly what HE has always done and to play the same role (man up and manage Liz as best "we" can, because that's "our" job) and he cannot see that Jess's relationship with his mom is (and indeed HAS to be) very different from his. Jess didn't WANT to go to school. Fine. Who does? (Only freaks like Rory, that's who) But Luke had ASKED him to, and Jess AGREED (way way back), so Jess neglecting to do his duty means, in Luke's mind, that he DIDN'T CARE about HIM.

And the most obvious difference Luke DOES see between Jess and himself is that Jess is SMART, like Book Smart, in a way that he himself never was. Jess is ALWAYS reading and always "studying" SOMETHING- he burns with insatiable curiosity- and so the obvious conclusion to why a kid like that flunked out of school (as so many ADHD kids have heard so many times...) is that he "just wasn't trying hard enough," and the obvious reason WHY he wasn't trying hard enough is that he just DIDN'T CARE, and Jess's defiance about the situation didn't help. Jess's defiance was just him clinging desperately to the edge of "this is fine" while his life was going up in flames around him, but Luke didn't know that!

I really do think that, when Luke told Jess he "had to go" when he refused to go back to school, Luke assumed/hoped that his ultimatum would "scare him straight." The idea would be that Jess presumably (hopefully) liked living with Luke (loved Luke) more than he hated going to school, or at least liked living with Luke (loved Luke) more than he hated the idea of being homeless, but that's not how it worked out. Luke did not understand how desperate and hopeless Jess was feeling, and so do you know what LUKE thought had happened? Luke FELT like Jess would RATHER be homeless than live with him. THIS is why Luke jeers about Jess's living conditions in his squalid New York apartment. Because he TRULY FEELS like Jess would RATHER live in squalor than live with him. "You hate me that much?" Luke really does think that Jess hates him that much, and it HURTS him to think that. (He is SO WRONG about ALL of this, but this is GENUINELY how he FEELS, and this is why it's such a tragedy.)

The final ingredient in all this is Time. "Time heals all wounds," they say, but that's only true if the wound isn't infected, and this one IS. Luke has been festering in this hurt for MONTHS by this point. He may have started with "I failed him," but after the initial shock and dismay wore off, he's been dwelling over and over on all the things he interprets as Jess NOT CARING and rejecting all of the love and care Luke thought he was clearly offering. It's like he's been picking at it, so by the time Jess comes back, the wound is WORSE than fresh: it's angry and swollen and red, and sensitive to the very slightest touch (and Jess is the same).

Anyway, this is why I think the "I'm here, Jess. I'm always here," was SO important. Because he needed to SAY IT! They BOTH needed to outright say it! Because they both THOUGHT the way they felt was "so obvious" to the other one, but it wasn't, and that was a big part of the reason why it got so bad between them in the first place. They both needed to hear the other one say that they were WANTED, and that's why it's a satisfying conclusion to me, despite the way Luke had previously messed up. He always meant it, even when he made Jess feel like he didn't (just like Jess always appreciated Luke, even when he made Luke feel like he didn't).

"This is an explanation, not an excuse." Please do not take this as me saying "Luke did nothing wrong!" He did SO much wrong, not only at this point, but in everything that led up to it, haha. But I also think that his actions made sense TO HIM. SO MANY fights between family members (and humans in general) are like this. Families are messy, people are messy, LIFE is messy. Both Luke and Jess are very messy, but I love them a lot and, more importantly, they love each other a lot too.

[cemetegee]

Cemy's Masterpost for TLT Analyses

Analysing things is my love language, so it's clear that I have a whole lot of TLT analyses. I want to collect them in this post, because I have trouble finding them myself. Much fun!

I'm an Ianthe stan

Ianthe and ADHD (my favorite analysis post of mine, I'm serious, it's very me-core)

Corona, Ianthe and the Threat of Killing Oneself

Ianthe is the Underling (she is such a good girl)

Ianthe's the Most Repressed Nun Third I've Ever Seen (Emotionally)

About the Thoughtfulness of Ianthe's Lies

Dying as a Skill Issue (Dying is for suckers, bitch!)

Ianthe apparently knows more than she says

The Unwanted Guest is a Genius Mindfuck (my very first post, click here to meet baby cemetegee)

Ianthe Goes Poetry

Ianthe is not the pure evil, but a very normal person

Ianthe Lore

Could Ianthe see Cytherea's Corpse?

Ianthe is Actually Angry With Harrow because of the Lobotomy

Does Ianthe Have a (Deadly) Disease?

Ianthe Must be Borderline Horny in TUG

Ianthe's relationship to Corona (not gonna lie, probably neccessary to understand the posts above)

The Tridentarii Power Shift Dynamic

"Corona's Con" | Who's in Charge? (Whooo is in ControOoOl?)

Family Ties (or Third House culture?)

Corona hanged herself in in front of her eyes

The Tridentarii & Lolita

A very smart user said the Tridentarii would maybe only *perform* their Tridentariicest (maybe to disgust everybody from further investigations in their relationship?), and I'm OBSESSED with that take

Ianthe's Relationship to Babs

Ianthe and Babs Were Best Buddies (well at least a bit :(...)

Does Ianthe Regret the Murder of Naberius Tern?

Babs Died for her Plot Armor (that's literally the whole post, you don't have to click on the link)

Coronabeth Tridentarius: An Approach to her Character

Coroniphis & Ianthe (the explanatation for Ianthe's name seems to be more connected to Corona than to her)

What in Hell has she Done to Babs?

Than to Love and be Loved by Ianthe the First, Saint of Awe

Corona is a Very Third Person (Nobody Notices Somehow)

Corona has killed Babs (haven't thought of that myself, but I find it interesting)

TLT Mechanics

How Could Cytherea Infiltrate Canaan House Without Being Betrayed by a Missing Thanergic Signature

Who/What is Kiriona Gaia? (my poor saddest girl in the whole world :()

How Could Wake Use Cytherea's body? (Necromantic Explanatation)

Why can Cavs and Necros Use Each Other's bodies? | How Could Palamedes Use Babs body? (just some basic theories about necromancy my friendos)

John "Jod" Gaius

Why Didn't Jod Heal Cytherea's Lung Cancer?

Jod is not Obliged to See Gideon as his Daugther, as Hard as it Sounds (Hear me out) (mostly about questioning blood relation as synonym for family in this case, what is also interesting to me in regard to found families)

Strange Pre-Ressurection Behavior Against Mercymorn

John is not the pure evil, but a very normal person

John was Pretty Fucked Up when he Decided to Kill the world (Correction to what I said in the post: he *did* technically kill her. Pulling out the soul of a body is dying by definition)

Hugs for John (I don't agree with his actions (such as for example killing the world) but his life can't be easy since then)

John 00:00 (Or John has the worst OCD ever known to men, in my opinion, and I apologize him because of that) (Correction: I said in that post John would intend to die. I still think that (see post below) but he likely doesn't intend to die forever)

John has to die for a Second Resurrection [Theory]

Any Thoughts About the Theological Implications of the character John "Jod" Gaius?

TLT Meta

Determinism in TLT

I Would Like to Talk About the Implications of TLT pls pls 👉👈 (pls ignore how much I sound like a snob in that post lol. I AM NOT, that was just me trying to formulate my wish in English :D)

The characters of TLT aren't the pure evil but very normal people

TLT Lore

Pyrrha is a Genius

Alecto Predictions

Alecto X Anastasia: Eightfold Word Light-Light??

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DR RATIO ANALYSIS: PART 2, ELECTRIC BOOGALOO

SPOILERS FOR 2.1 CONTENT.

Now, you might be saying - "Aurae, you already did one, why do you need a second?" And my answer is, "LORD, I FORGOT TO TALK ABOUT HOW HIS DEFINITION OF 'IDIOT' IS DIFFERENT. AND ALSO HE DOES NOT HATE AVENTURINE NOR DOES HE THINK AVENTURINE IS STUPID." Once again, here is my disclaimer - although I have been researching psychology for a solid six years, I am NOT a professional. (I will be, one day. Just you wait, just youuuu wait-) So understand that everything I say has been analyzed with personal judgement, with my own conclusions, come to with logic and my personal interpretation. This is just what I have concluded, and you are always free to disagree.

This is my legacy. To be an analyzer. So let's go.

Okay, now that my disclaimer is over, let's take off Ratio's plaster head and chuck it into the sea, and see - what does he mean by 'idiot'?

This will be much shorter than my last, so don't worry - I will not be flashbanging you with another 4k words. This is more like a follow up, than anything else, because there's a few things I wish to touch on.

Dr. Ratio doesn't hate idiots in the sense that he hates people that have 'low IQ' or are 'stupid' in terms of being 'slow to understand'. I definitely touched on this in my last analysis, but he hates people who take their education for granted and don't go places with the gifts that they've been given. He hates "idiots" - "narrow minded" people who have the capabilities to do more and perceive more than they choose to do. People who deliberately look away or take what they know and what they could do for granted. He wants to open people's eyes and allow them to see life from multiple different angles and he believes that everyone should have a chance to learn - with the whole "knowledge for everyone" thing he's got rolling.

He wears a plaster head around people he doesn't seem to know too well in order to think more, or so that he doesn't have to see the faces of the people he dislikes. Pretty good roast. However, he does NOT wear that plaster head around Aventurine. Let's listen to the doctor's judgement - Aventurine is far from stupid. Although he likes to chalk up a lot of the things he does to his own luck, he is an INCREDIBLY capable individual who's managed to get this far because of his own form of genius. He's a man who relies on chance and good fortune, yes, but his charm, his way of scheming, and the way that he's good with people? That's skill. A talent he doesn't take for granted. Dr. Ratio respects him for this - because despite the fact that he has no proper education, he has his eyes wide open to the world and doesn't take shit for granted. He learns what he can in order to survive and he does it fucking well - Aventurine is a very smart man. He's observant, quick on his feet, and great at going with the flow and thinking in the moment.

Aventio aside, I actually believe that Dr. Ratio would be a really good teacher to those who struggle. He's patient where it's needed to be, even if he's got a quick temper, and I believe in his pursuit for knowledge he would do his best to go out of his way to find strategies that would work for their individuals. We're all unique, and he's aware of this - and because he wants to allow people to think for themselves, whatever helps the individual works. Depression? He's got a psych degree, I'm sure bro could give you some strategies. Autism? He has a touch of the 'tism himself. ADHD, and not feeling organized? Bro will help you. It's canon that he's a great fucking teacher - those who finish his classes go on to become successful people who are intelligent and critical thinkers. Round of applause for Ratio, the man that kins my father. He's shit at emotions, but great at knowledge.

Also, on that note, I believe that he would most likely hate parents that push thier "gifted" students to the limit without any compassion for the person that they really are. He's most definitely got some of that academic trauma so I believe that bro holds a secret disdain for parents who just use their children to gain more recgonition. Well, not so secret. He'd cuss them out. (Ratio please cuss out the horrible parents.)

Dr. Ratio, the Teacher ever. (Hey, maybe he'd get along with Kunikida...)

Also, I am definitely planning on making a fic where he teaches Aventurine Latin. As long as you're eager to learn and willing to look past the chalk being thrown, he's got a place for you.

Thanks for coming to my tedtalk. I did not read this through, so this is not edited. Take my unedited rambles.

[wizardnuke]

GREAT addition in the tags about how a lot of us never learned basic note-taking and study skills. we didn't learn the building blocks. i would like to think that i am very smart but god yeah i learned the hard way that i do in fact have to take notes and go over them and dedicate time to that outside of classes and outside of actually doing assignments. college is time-consuming and methodical in a way that k-12 wasn't, given that in k-12 you have classes every day/every other day and a lot of time in class to go over things, and if you fall behind you get nuked to support classes without a choice in the matter (also: my struggles with this were actually glaringly obvious prior to college, math is a language that I Never Fucking Learned and am still building from a level that is honestly sitting at a middle school level, meanwhile, i was halfheartedly writing essays and getting. regional awards. the same in my college lit classes, i was spotty on turning in assignments, got Bs, but scored the highest on the beloathed comparative lit final essays (that i did actually have to put work into cause holy fuck, dude)). so on top of having issues with self-motivation and overwhelm at Assignmence many of us are learning How To School. because we just didn't need to do that in k-12. yeah.

"i had straight As in high school i don't understand why college is so hard" get tested for adhd. if you were tested as a kid and they didn't diagnose you it was cause your grades were good then but you've since lost the routine and structure in hs that kept you on top of everything so go get retested. go get tested for adhd. go

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UNIVERSITY RGB HCS BC THE TIME HAS COME FOR ME TO SHARE THEM ‼️‼️

Disclaimer: this only contains Egon, Ray and Peter as they are the ones who were in uni together (sorry Winston and Janine). Also this is long and self indulgent as hell.

I am NOT taking up the responsibility to say at what exact ages they got into uni, but let’s say that during their first year Peter is 18, Ray is 17 and Egon is 19.

Now, Ray is doing electrical engineering, Peter is doing engineering in hopes that it relates to trains (spoilers: it doesn’t, but he doesn’t find out until after his second year), Egon.. well Egon actually isn’t a student, but rather an instructor. I got this idea from an uncited wiki trivia point, and just ran with it. Maybe he was in uni instead of school bc he’s just that smart, maybe something else, idc really. He’s a physics instructor who is the same age as most of his students.

Ray and Peter are roommates and while it takes some time, eventually they bond and become best friends. And when I say best friends, I mean it to an almost unhealthy extent. In my head, Peter was always alone. Absent family, constantly moving around the country, unconventional interests, autism - I don’t think he ever really had friends. In the show we see him TRYING to be a charmer, but most of the time people do not buy his act, and I think the same thing happened in uni. He wanted friends, desperately wanted to fit in, but never really managed to. So when suddenly his roommate turned out to be a great guy who genuinely liked his company he immediately grew almost unhealthily attached. We won’t blame him.

Ray, on the other hand is liked by many due to his kind and charming personality, but doesn’t have many close friends, again, due to his unconventional interests and hyper behaviour towards them (ADHD). He isn’t that bothered by it, though. Good for him.

Now Egon is taking his unique position very seriously. He is no doubt popular at the uni - people have to be curious about this super young, clearly genius and handsome (canon in the show, not my words!) guy who works as an instructor. However, he does not engage in personal conversations, doesn’t seek out human connection or fun activities. He is focused on studying, working, getting experience and progressing in the field. He has many older mentors, but no friends of his age and is perfectly fine with that.

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So, first semester, first year. Both Ray and Peter take Egon’s physics class (though in different sections). Ray and Egon do not interact in class whatsoever, Ray is simply a good student: he studies well and does all his assignments on time (or mostly on time). They have no reason to talk and so do not know each other personally.

Peter, on the other hand, hates physics, finds it extremely boring and useless and makes a loud statement of not studying for it. It upsets Egon, who doesn’t want such morale to spread around his class, so he invites Peter to after-class talks.

This attitude pisses Peter off immensely because the audacity of this guy to tell him what to do and what to study for?? And from that point on Peter makes it his life’s mission to piss Egon off at any chance possible. He doesn’t bully him or set him up in front of people, he just acts like a dick and shows his disrespect in any way he can. Egon doesn’t like him back. This goes on for a while.

Now, aside from classes and physics, Egon also does parapsychological research on the side, as at the end of the day, that is his main area of interest. One day, as he goes into a lab to work on some experiments, he meets Ray who, very expectedly so, is also doing parapsychological research since that is his biggest interest, too. They bond over it and become lab partners and eventually friends.

I also want to specify that a moment when their relationship transforms from formal to friendly is one silly heist of sneaking into the patron section of the uni’s library at night to borrow a book necessary for their work. Adrenaline and oxcytocin do their job well and they go from “Mr. Spengler” and “Mr. Stantz” to “Egon” and “Ray” 🫶

⏩️ Fastforward to the second semester. Neither of the guys are taking Egon’s class anymore, but Ray and him are still working together and progressively becoming better pals by widening their conversation topics as well as hangout occasions. Peter still hates Egon’s guts, luckily they don’t have to meet too often. At least until one day.

That day electricity malfunctions in Egon’s room right when he needs to mark his students’ assignments. As usual, he does it late at night when the library is already closed. Ray, as a good friend, offers him a spot in his and Peter’s room to work which Egon accepts, becoming a horrible surprise to the latter. After spending about fifteen minutes trying to get a reaction out of Spengler with no visible result Peter notices just how exhausted the guy is and for the first time it really hits him that surprise!! Egon is human too. He even grows slightly worried, after all, he doesn’t want the dude to pass out in their living room. They don’t begin interacting more after that, but Peter as if slightly cuts back on the teasing. But he still calls him “Spengs” out of disrespect.

⏩️ Fastforward to the second year. Egon and Ray hang out more, forcing Peter and Egon to interact, and good news! They now tolerate each other. And yes, they do go to “Egon” and “Peter” though “Spengs” and “Mr. Venkman” are still present, mostly to show annoyance and displeasure.

At some point in the semester Ray makes a new close friend named Max and that fact makes Peter crash the fuck out. Ray is super excited about this new guy who also studies engineering, loves comic books and horror movies, is super smart and funny. They hang out a lot and study together and whenever Ray comes back to the room he just cannot shut up about how good of a time he had. And Peter (need I remind you, lonely and self-conscious Peter who was always left behind by everyone in his life, including his father) watches, listens, gritting his teeth, until he just can’t anymore. Did I mention he has an unhealthy obsession with Ray?

He goes through a full mental breakdown, and they talk about it and partially resolve the situation (though the one-sided Max beef in Peter’s head continues, it’s hilarious).

⏩️ Christmas break comes and Ray announces that he is going to be leaving to spend it with his family in Bronx, and only here do we see just to what degree both of these people really are dependent on him.

Peter crashes out, yes, again. He’s lonely, he’s bored, his plans are ruined and he has no idea how he is going to survive three weeks alone in the dorm.

Egon takes it more calmly, he’s Egon, after all. He doesn’t complain or act upset, but two things happen. First, his work slows down significantly, and second, with his support system being gone he falls back into the unhealthy habit of overworking himself to a point of total exhaustion (speaking from experience here, it’s really hard to stay consistent with your healthy habits and routines when the person who is usually there to help you with them isn’t around).

To not die of boredom and exhaustion, Peter and Egon organise hangouts, sometimes sitting in the library and trying to get work done, sometimes watching TV or getting lunch together. Their relationship improves significantly during that time, and Ray is very happy to see that upon arrival.

Not much to say from that point on. All three of them become best friends, Peter switches his concentration to psychology, they rent an apartment together and go on with their academic lives. If I had to somehow describe their relationship I’d say they are a qpr. Not in love whatsoever, but still very emotionally intimate, physically affectionate and are the most important people to each other.

Also they don’t know it yet, but the moment they met each other they met the rest of their lives 🫶