#Like im constantly dissociating to some degree so my brain is really foggy. I feel dumb | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

craptainkirk · 1 month ago

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If it's just one person calling you stupid then sure enough theyre saying it because they need you to seem worse standing next to them so they feel better about themselves in comparison. Even if they have to manipulate reality itself to make it true. And do you know who would do such a thing. A stupid person

#It takes a certain kind of rigidity and unwillingness to view life in a flexible manner.#I want something to be true. So im going to deny everything that disproves it. And i cant handle the alternative.#So im just gonna change how this person feels about themselves and make it true.#Just because thats the only version of the world i can really digest.#Thats pretty dumb.#Like everything else seems to confirm that i must be pretty bright. Im no genius but #I always got good grades without very much studying and ive had lots of different people say im smart in different contexts.#And I know im real good at thinking outside the box and thinking about problems in a creative and flexible way #And im real good at critical thinking. If im not throwing caution to the wind and ignoring myself #I just suffer from all the ailments of adhd and trauma #Like im constantly dissociating to some degree so my brain is really foggy. I feel dumb #And i cant pay attention to things for very long and when I read it hurts. My feelings.#And Sometimes when I have to use logic really hard. I get a headache.#I know i can do it because i can play fire emblem on lunatic classic. But. It. Hurts. My. Forehead.#Anyway #When i think about the ppl who have called me stupid its like 2 people.#And those people were like a gordian knot of pure delusion. The most fucked up people Ive ever seen.#Like. Not reliable sources #And so what if i am stupid. What is stupidity anyway. Thats a different conversation

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